I couldn't help but smile whenever I think about our fun times as a child. You couldn't admit to yourself yet, but a few years from now you would realize we somehow had a good childhood. Not everybody may have liked us but we will make it out just fine.
I knew how much you wanted to be a chef or a radio DJ but I'm sorry we never made it. College was quite stressful for us. We took a communication research major but we didn't make it. I got curious and wanted to be an adult at a young age so we decided to drop off during our 3rd year in University and work right away. Mom was very upset but don't worry, she forgave us.
Working at a young age and not following the life timeline we initially planned opened so many doors of opportunities for us. We cried and learned so much along the way. We even met people who became a big part of our lives and eventually, they also became a memory of the past. Trust me when I tell you that I wouldn't choose to have our life lived differently if I were to repeat it all over again.
I know you would be sad if I told you we lost Mom, she was 62. Don't worry, even without both our parents around, we still got the best emotional and mental support we could ever ask for. We are totally fine and we can cope.
To the young me, we may have done things we regret but never forget that these decisions shaped us on how our future is gonna be. It's okay to be upset and angry. Remember, it's okay to not be okay. We are in a safe space now living our best life.
One last thing, we learned to forgive those who badly hurt us and that gave us the peace of mind we've always wanted.
Have you ever tried having Friends with Benefits (FWB)?
If you haven’t yet, there’s nothing wrong if you try it. Just make sure that heart of yours is not silly enough to fall in love that easy.
Because sometimes even if you promise countless of times not to ”Fall in Love” or to not ”Be Attached” to your FWB you still find yourself whirring down the rabbit hole and falling in love.
Having a fuck buddy is one of the nicest thing in this world. You get the leisure of having someone with you in bed and still enjoy Tinder without hesitations. But it’ll come to a point that you’ll just wish everything you both have was beyond what you have now.
We grow old and break our hearts but eventually we learn to love again. In the roughest and darkest days of our lives we receive the most unexpected -- a person who we can finally call HOME.
Who knew time already healed the shattered pieces of your heart? Who knew you are capable of loving someone different? Who knew you are ready? No one but you and your heart alone.
Deep inside a broken heart is a new flare of hope. A hope for a bright beginning and faith that even if separated by distance, love will still flourish and grow stronger as the days pass by.
“And I just can’t keep living this way So starting today I’m breaking out of this cage I’m standing up, I'mma face my demons I’m manning up, I'mma hold my ground I’ve had enough, now I’m so fed up Time to put my life back together right now”