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[leegte]

Will the pain ever stop?

It will get better eventually. Take your time to heal, as much as you need. ❤️

#answered

[leegte]

Every night I go to sleep with your fingertips still lingering on every part of my body.

Please find your way back. // N.

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[leegte]

I didn’t leave you because I don’t love you anymore. I left because you don’t love yourself anymore.

It’s killing me every day. You have to find that again and I hope you’ll find me again, too. // N.

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[leegte]

Sometimes you have to let go of someone, instead of holding them in your arms forever, for them to fight their inner demons and find themselves again.

It hurts, my god, does it hurt. // N.

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[leegte]

It’s been a week and I finally have the courage to be alone again in my room. The void keeps on getting bigger, and I’m trying to keep myself busy. All my thoughts run back to you. The tears keep on streaming. Nothing could ever replace you and I don’t know how to fill this emptiness.

- 4.30pm thoughts

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[leegte]

I wanted to see the world with you, but you were only in your own one.

- I wish you tried harder instead of letting me go. // N.

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[leegte]

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[leegte]

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[leegte]

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[leegte]

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[leegte]

It's scary to want someone, to miss them, to want to spend every minute with them, to feel this deep, hungry longing, to only want to be closer. So, so close. Yet it feels like the most amazing thing ever, the best drug I've ever had.

I would face all the unknown fears for you. Only you. // N.

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[leegte]

I fear intimacy, yet I crave it at the same time. What if you don't understand? What if I hold you back? I don't want to hold you back, keep you waiting. What if I fall? I'm scared to fall. I'm trying so hard, yet at the same time I feel so incredibly guilty. I feel like this wall of which you have to peel all the layers off and I'm not sure you want that. No one really does. Maybe you're different, perhaps you're not.

I hate being lost in my head and talking every new opportunity down. I hate thinking this much. I hate my head. // N.

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[leegte]

Meeting up with someone you haven’t seen for almost two years is tricky. We ended things on bad terms, called each other bad names, felt sad for months, cause of course you miss that person. We laughed, I cried, we hugged and kissed, you lied. I got over it, you had nothing to get over. I missed you for months, because you were that person to make me feel like a person, to be seen, liked and sometimes even loved. You, out of everyone, made me feel safe and welcome (at times).

Was it a good idea to meet up? Perhaps. I felt like I was chasing a ghost. Yours and mine. We were different; more mature, older, more open. For the first time in ages I truly felt naked. I felt seen. But most importantly I felt stronger, I had grown. You still trigger me and we will always have that attraction, but I don’t feel the things I used to feel. It’s bittersweet. I’m crying about something that could have been, a ghost from the past and I’m crying because it feels like this is it. It feels truly over for me.

— It only took seven years.

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[leegte]

“You held the knife right in front of me, stabbed me, then wondered why I kept bleeding and asked me to clean it up.”

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[leegte]

“Funny how you make me feel nothing and everything at the same time.”

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[leegte]

“You were a bit like the moon

Surrounded by darkness

But lit up in the night sky.

Once in a while you had to go away;

Goodbye.”

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[leegte]

“I wonder if stars feel different when they don’t shine as bright as others, for I feel the same way.”

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