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screaming--agony · 2 years

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Dear Diary,

Lately, I’ve been getting triggered like a short circuit, immense sadness with a river full of tears, agitated crawling skin, hopelessness of self-destruction, rage inducing fist to a hard surface. It’s wholeheartedly overwhelming. Phrases, words, actions, visual cues, sounds. When I try to restrain, my hands tremble, my chin quivers, my voice breaks, struggle to hold back tears. I am so self-aware of my surroundings. I don’t know why my subconscious is in panic mode. I don’t know what’s going on. But it needs to stop.

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demigods-posts · 4 months

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do you ever dream of mom? of me? of us? of a world where gods could coexist within the mortal realm free of consequence? with the exception that once you commit, the essence of your soul becomes intertwined with ours? so much so that you can't tell where you end and where we begin? but you couldn't care less as long as you have us? do you ever dream of the three of us being the family we all desperately needed? and if you don't, please tell me you haven't forgotten what could've been. dad, i came all this way.

edit: i found the photo haha

#poseidon desperately wishing he could be the father he knows his son and wife need him to be #percy near tears as he begs for his dad to give him a sign that his absence was just as excruciating for him as it was for his family #unsaid #unsaid but not unheard #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #pjo text post #pjo headcanon #percy jackson #poseidon #WHERE IS THAT GIF OF POSEIDON CRADLING HIS HEAD AND HOLDING BACK TEARS #I NEED IT

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almea · 1 year

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"But what if she isn't Ruby anymore when she comes back out?" "Maybe... that's not for us to decide."

#RWBY #Blake Belladonna #Yang Xiao Long #Bumbleby #rwby spoilers #😭😭😭 LOVE REALLY IS STORED IN BLAKE BELLADONNA #And very specifically love for Yang Xiao Long #The way Blake's love for Yang is just so steady and gentle and exactly what Yang needs #It looks like she's about to turn away from Blake in the last shot #But Blake is just SO GENTLE in stopping her so she can wipe her tears and show she's there for her #The way they're holding hands after being startled by Herb coming back is sooooo cute #otp: with every smile you told me i love you #For my own tagging purposes

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lotus-pear · 9 months

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rewatched bsd w my friend seeing it for the first time and the nostalgia of seeing these two together again hit me like a bus

#literally mom and dad of the agency #dazai and kunikida protect yokohama but more importantly they also protect atsushi #funny story but we were watching in sub and the translations were wack bc when i watched dazai refers to kunikida as his colleague #but in the version we were watching he just called him partner w/o any context it was so fucking funny😭#bro rly just pointed to a random man across the river and was like “oh that's my partner btw!! we can use his money to treat you to dinner!#my bestie made me pause the show and was like “????partner. are they married??? either way it's cute that there's mlm rep in this anime🥺”#i was genuinely holding back tears #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #kunikida doppo #doppo kunikida #kunikidazai #knkdz #lotus draws #SRY FOR THE UNGODLY HR IM POSTING AT I DIDNT WANT TO LOSE THE MOTIVATION I SUDDENLY GOT AFTER WATCHING THE FIRST FEW EPS #IVE WANTED TO DRAW THESE TWO FOR SO LONG IDK WHAT TOOK ME SO LONG😭😭😭😭

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cozylittleartblog · 1 year

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hey. hey anon? youa re. so right,

#deltarune #rouxls kaard #queen #lancer #art #doodles #ask #anonymous #anon #comic #holds them up in my hands after not really drawing the m for a while 💙#putting my clown makeup back on lads!!#cant remember if ive ever posted queen crying before. her whole eye mask thing drips like lancers does. for some reason #that seems like deltarunes brand of strange but whimsical #her tears are black and they do not stain they fade out like invisible ink but still singe a little bit #rouxls dont act like you didn't cry for four hours and eleven minutes when you got YOUR first 'i love you' from him. dont act like you d-#ok 2 tag shiiiiip u know i love me some blue dad club

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puppetmaster13u · 1 month

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Prompt 290

Ghosts have the habit of taking names of those they’ve defeated. Not in spars or play-fights of course, and one has to actually be an adult for the instinct to hit, but it happens. It happens far more often than one would think.

Jason? Actually has no clue when he comes back to the living why he stole one of the Joker’s older names, nor why the Pit goes so angry when he thinks about Robin- HisTitleHisFraidNameFromFamily-

Now the Pit? Not a baby semi-near the cusp of adulthood, in fact is Very Old even if it’s more hivemind-esque then a full on realms entity. Very offended for the Baby it was gifted, because who takes that from a literal infant?!

Oh! Oh that’s another baby! Hm, change of plans, obviously the baby is also its. Because while adult ghosts trying to forcefully take a Name is a direct challenge? A ghostling- or in this case liminal- doing it is an open invitation for adoption.

#DCxDP #DPxDC #Prompts #Sentient Lazarus Pit #Jason has no clue what happened either #Tim got kidnapped by Pit Mad Jason and bundled into a nest #At this point Hood’s Merry Men is used to their Boss bundling up kids and helping them detox so they leave him be #Let Liminals & ghosts Purr #Dick & Bruce are so very panicked & tearing through Gotham #Not unlike how Tim’s teammates are freaking out & searching outside Gotham #Meanwhile Tim is just confuzzled as Big Crime Lord curls around him & growls at anyone who so much as opens the door #the Pit: I am such a good parent :)#Later when Jason isn’t actively having Pit Episode (the Pit totally isn’t wanting babies to meet each other)#Jason holding Tim by the armpits audibly confused: You are not one of my brats #Tim who is concussed & has narcolepsy: No shit helmet-man but let me go back to sleep it’s comfy

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llamagoddessofficial · 29 days

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hello llama

i have been thinking and headcanoning about vampire bad sanses lately, so i was curious if you have any thoughts about or interest in vampires of the nightmare and crew variety? (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)

"do i have interest in vampires", he asks

ok, i will share my extensive vampire brainrot. but in return..... you have to write that vampire fic.... oooOOooO look into my eyes you know you want to write it ooOoOooo 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

I very much like the idea of Nightmare's castle being Castlevania-style. Lots of spooky architecture, lots of ancient magical passages that haven't been seen in centuries.

Horror can be summed up in one word. Bloodlust. There's a constant hunger inside him he can't ever seem to fill, driving him almost to the point of madness. He is more beast than man. When he smells or tastes blood, he loses control of himself, becoming little more than a starving wild animal - his capability for slaughter is limited only by his appetite. So unless Nightmare requires it, he generally abstains from blood. He doesn't like losing himself so entirely.

Something about you makes him forget his hunger. Is it your voice? Your scent? He has no idea, but oh, it feels good to feel whole. When you're around it's as if he'll never be hungry again... he follows you like a dog, grinning intensely every time you look at him. This is one hound that can't be shaken.

Despite his 'condition', he finds a lot of solace in cooking. Nothing will give him the same drug-like rush as blood but human food is nonetheless warm and filling and distracts him momentarily from the emptiness. He enjoys the process of making it, too, doing something with his hands. Let him cook for you, please? Watching you eat brings him vicarious joy.

Dust's backstory is one of legend. Something resembling a story can be spun from the loose whispers. A vampire invaded his peaceful isolated village hundreds of years ago, intending to turn the helpless populace into enslaved vampires. Dust, the first to be bitten, turned and slaughtered them all himself - and despite being a vampire for barely a week, the equivalent of a stumbling newborn, he killed the centuries-old invading vampire in single combat.

No one's quite sure why he's joined Nightmare. Perhaps Nightmare was keen to take this uniquely violent creature under his wing, and Dust just didn't really care where the wind took him. Or perhaps he has some other motive, hidden beneath that silent face. Who knows.

... Dust might be quiet, but it's obvious he's fixated on you. Which is a big deal. This is a creature who hasn't mustered a second thought for anything but blood for decades; but somehow, you've excited him. He's very clearly interested in you, silently watching your every move, listening intently to every word you say. Too bad he's not much for conversation.

Killer's backstory, on the other hand, is shrouded entirely in mystery. No one knows where he came from, who he is, or what he's done. He simply appeared one day - right within the coveted inner circle of Nightmare himself. He's the Night King's most trusted weapon, and the closest thing he has to a friend.

Killer seems very clear about what he wants. He thinks you're adorable, and he says you'd make such a pretty vampire. He talks (at length) about how much he wants to bite you, and how if it were up to him you'd already be one of them. A lot of his flirting involves calling you things like sweet treat and honeyblood. However... despite all the taunting, all the talk of seeing you as food, Killer is the one in the castle who treats you with the most respect. The others seem to see you as an object, a cute toy, something to squish and own. Killer talks to you like you're a real person. You can't help but like him for it.

Nightmare's inferiority complex has driven him to declare himself the king of the vampires. No one contests - Nightmare is royalty by blood, and vampires place a lot of emphasis on blood. But even if he wasn't, Nightmare frequently murders those who won't bend the knee. Plenty of powerful vampires have fallen embarrassingly fast at his hand.

... Nightmare's goal is to make you agree to be his spouse. A pretty little human partner would be excellent for his image. It would not only demonstrate his incredible self control as such an ancient vampire (not to mention his control over his warriors), but it would also show that his power is so great he doesn't need to strike a political marriage with another powerful vampire. It might also convince some of the pesky rebellious human groups to settle down.

His pride means that he won't force you. Not yet, at least. He likes to think he can seduce you. He's a royal vampire, after all, and you're just a simple human - isn't it only a matter of time?

... But it seems like, as time goes on... he's the one falling.

#llamagines #whatever you do don't think about you accidentally cutting your finger and triggering horror's bloodlust #don't think about the other vampires rushing in and trying to restrain him in a panic. but even the three of them can't hold him back #don't picture him pinning you with his jaws wide open...#then don't imagine him freezing. tears beginning to fall out of his sockets as he draws you into his arms #dont think about him pressing his teeth against your throat but not biting #almost as if he wants to feel your pulse so he knows youre alive and he hasnt hurt you without realising #don't think about how he seems just as confused and scared as you are #ok thank you for not thinking abt that

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fanaticalthings · 2 years

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Just thinking about how Jason had a bit of a rough childhood and considering the state his parents were in, I feel like he probably wasn't held much?

So can you imagine Jason getting carried by Bruce for the first time and absolutely loving it, but he's too afraid to show how much he actually enjoys it, which gives Bruce the impression he shouldn't do it often, until Jason has to shyly ask B to pick him up like how a 5yo would be asked to be carried by their parent like:

[Jason lightly tugging on Bruce's shirt]

Bruce, looking down at him: What is it, Jay? Do you need something?

and it's just Jason hesitantly raising his arms up hoping Bruce will get the message sjoajdiididjns

and ofc Bruce is absolutely elated that his son loves to be held by him and squeezes him extra tightly when he picks him up

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buckttommy · 2 months

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a new (returning) character being added to 9-1-1's roster means that at some point, buck has to scream tommy's name in terror. he just has to. like. can you imagine how much differently that would hit? we saw the members of the 118 give buck the grieving spouse treatment when they all thought eddie was dead in a well. but if buck's boyfriend—as in, his actual, honest to god, officially recognized boyfriend—was in literal danger somewhere? jesus. i just got chills. i need it like oxygen.

#Eddie trying to hold Buck back from putting himself in danger and like. Of course Eddie is terrified too.#Tommy went from 0 to Best Friend status (not like Buck. Never like Buck) so quickly it was almost dizzying #but he *knows* what this means for Buck. Knows what Tommy means *to* Buck and he can feel the terror emanating from him. Can feel his blunt #nails almost drawing blood as he claws at Eddie's skin probably not even aware that he's doing it.#And they fall backwards—Eddie's arms still firmly around him—and Bobby is shouting nonsense reassurance at both of them before he and Chim #go back to save/find Tommy and Eddie's just chanting in Buck's ear ''it's okay everything is going to be okay'' and at some point Buck just #stops fighting and slumps back against him. His entire body shakes and he's just like ''it's Tommy Eddie. I can't lose him. I can't I won't #survive it'' and Eddie's eyes sting with tears but he's just like ''I know I know. Everything will be okay'' and holds him through it while #Buck falls apart in his arms.#anyways.#yeah. that would be kinda sexy i dunno #jack.txt #bucktommy

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eclown4hire · 8 months

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Granny is a crazy:B fan!

#enstars oc #her favourite is rinne because he 'reminds me of my grandson. very energetic and intelligent'#she has a fan twitter where she takes pictures of her nuis #theyre basically her grandsons #she went to a handshake event once and told himeru that she was very proud of him and he was doing amazing and he had to hold back the tear #i think.#thats my mind eye #ensemble stars #enstars #crazy b #look. idk

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mailb0xbunii · 10 months

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when the world is over and we go under,

would you still be mine?

#buniiarts #c!ranboo #c!aimsey #i have been looping what if it doesn't end well and holding back Tears while thinking of cglowduo 😭#had to get them out of my head momentarily

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steddielations · 2 years

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Steve: *Waiting in Eddie’s room to surprise him*

*Eddie comes in* Well hello there sweetheart, you’re looking good, I missed you

Steve: Aw thanks I missed you t—

Eddie:

Steve:

Incorrect Steddie 11/?

#he’s holding back tears #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #steveddie #eddie x steve #stranger things 4 #incorrect steddie #volume 2 #st humor #stranger things meme #steddie crack #incorrect stranger things quotes #incorrect quotes #incorrect steddie series #joseph quinn #mp

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tanoraqui · 1 year

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another incredible example of Tolkien’s humor via formal vs casual language:

Faramir, waking from a multi-day fever/despair coma, seeing Aragorn for the first time: My lord, you called me. I come. What does the king command?

Éowyn waking from a brief despair coma: Éomer! What joy is this? For they said that you were slain. Nay, but that was only the dark voices in my dream. How long have I been dreaming?

Merry, waking from a brief despair coma: I am hungry. What is the time?

#lotr #lord of the rings #faramir #eowyn #merry brandybuck #me: I’m going to go to bed early tonight or die #lotr daily: [pelennor fields + houses of healing]#me: [holding back tears; reading every line]

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solargeist · 2 months

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Can we pretty please get a Grian and Xelqua meet-up?? I love how you draw Xelqua and Grian and I just need to see what they would do if they meet......for science of course

wait hold on.. goes crazy .. I don’t have a design for Xelqua, that was just Grian earlier, but…. I think it’d go well

I think Xelqua is his patron, so he’d be excited to meet him !

but I was also playing with the idea that Little Grian here is a reincarnated version of Xelqua, but still looks up to him, prays to him, would want to be picked up and hugged by him, the safety of it. (How can he be reincarnated and still have a form here ? Well the divine can be a bit finicky)

#something something abt the first thing little grian says to Xelqua is did you hear me ? When I thanked you for the food !#<- Aether showed him how to pray before meals #ask #my art #Xelqua #sketching #Late night doodle of them . Yawnssss #Also something something abt Grian being a reincarnated Xelqua and the two angels having to take care of him #he has no divine memory ! Maybe some vague feelings involving being scared of lightning and missing the ocean . But he’s just a little kid #that needs to be fed and kept out the weather and his back scratched so he’ll go to sleep #someone hold me back this is becoming a one shot au #Also Xelqua is 5’0/152cm still. Aether and Flora can’t tell if he’s another child when they see him 😭😭😭#Grian and Xelqua meet and it’s like when Goten met Goku for the first time . Bursts into tears rn live #kidxelqua

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ariadnethedragon · 5 months

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MISS SCARLET AND THE DUKE (2020-)

S4E4: The Diamond Feather

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catboyazem · 8 months

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waterborne poetry

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