the pain of being homesick but you’ve never had a home :(
i don’t know why i cry all the time. this is my third time moving in the past five months. it’s tiring. i want to be held so tightly and squeezed and forget every one of my worries. i know all i do is complain but i can’t help it. i just keep handling things with a smile because i don’t want to inconvenience anyone or the few people in my life, with my feelings or my baggage. it seems i can’t be alone because it’s easy for me to start feeling bad, the bad kind of bad. so when things get hard for me, like they’ve been for so long i can’t even remember a time when they weren’t, i think to myself, my younger self gripping my hand with teary, sorrowful eyes, begging, ‘i wanna go home’ and i must shake my head and tell myself ‘there is no home’.
that daughterhood feeling of wanting to blame your mother for how you turned out, wanting to be angry at her for how you've inherited her pain and her insecurities, but at the same time wanting to keep coming home to her, out of everyone else in the universe, because you know that if there's anyone who might be anything like you–if there's anyone who might even have a clue of what it's like to be you–it could only be her. and no matter how many times you've hurt each other, no matter how difficult it might be to get her to truly see you, you still just want her to love you as you are, to tell you that this isn't your fault, and to show you that she would keep letting you come home to her.
if captain kirk irresponsible? why huge baby cow eyes???
if captain kirk bad captain? why-
you thought i was gonna talk about his voluptuous titties fat ass sparkling personality and unflinching moral character ? no.
if you say kirk is a bad captain i will kill you. I will shoot you into space like they did to bill shatty when he wouldn’t shut tf up about going to space
except unlike bill shatty ill send you up naked and defenceless into the vast chasm of space your lungs will explode and your eyes will fall out or some shit (i saw that in a doctor who episode)
kirk drift is getting out of hand and my response to this is ending all kirk drifters and repopulating the earth with kirklophiles such as myself and my dad paul.
forgive me if you've been asked this before or if its annoying, but how did you learn to use colored pencils like that? your art is so special to me.
ty :) I took an art class for a few years where our teacher had us buy prismacolor pencils as one of the art supplies and had us use them kinda like paints, pressing down hard right away and blending the colors together. its not how youre supposed to use them she was just trying to teach us to use color and ig this was more to the point. I picked them up again years after i stopped going to that class just bc they were there and i wanted to play around w them a bit and ended up actually enjoying it when doing it on my own terms lol
Most ppl on tumblr are aware of the Bechdel-Wallace test, but a lesser known method to gauge the presence of thoughtful characterization in any given narrative is the Baker-Morrison test, which focuses not on female characters, but rather on supporting characters in Obi-Wan-centric fics (particularly members of the 212th division of the GAR or, more broadly, the clones). For example, if an Obi-Wan-centric fic features a scene in which two canonically named clones speak to each other about something unrelated to Obi-Wan (or, in some iterarions of the definition, something unrelated to Obi-Wan AND his wellbeing), then the aforementioned fic is said to have passed the Baker-Morrison test. In this essay I shall
Rick Sanchez was the type of kid to pick up strays from the streets, the kind to see a cat or dog and just bring it home, he probably brought home someone's pet a couple of times too (either by accident or on purpose) because it looked cool or cute
Bro's first reaction was to open his arms for the snake because it looked cool and he would've taken it home too if the snake didn't start shooting
A few more examples to back it up would be Glootie and Harold the Garbage Goober (the crows too probably)
It's terrible knowing that if I ever show sadness or show anything emotion that's not positive towards anything whether it's my fault or not I'll either get blamed for it or told that my emotions are irrational.