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Log + Update

I’m going to try to do 1k-1.2k res, and I will try exercising ( I never exercise but I’m going to try😭). I have a bald spot in the back of my head slightly larger than a quarter, i’m not sure if that is because of my ed bc I have had hair/scalp issues my whole life :(  If any of you are too afraid to do high res then i’ll be the experiment and we’ll see if I lose weight! 

Breakfast: Tea(70), Wafers (50)

Lunch: Short rib fried rice (420?)

Dinner:

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Catch-up & Log

Started getting sick this Thursday and am still currently sick. I feel a little weak, but one good thing is my appetite has decreased! Idk if it’s from me being sick or the restriction. I am trying to weigh myself less cus I do it every day and i noticed it is a binge trigger. 

Jan. 29 

Breakfast: Tea (30) and Noosa Honey Yogurt (270)

Lunch: Concha (250)

#anarec1a #edtwitter #anroexia #proanni #proannna #notprojustusingthetags #tw ana rant

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Ed Blog turned 2 today! Omg I can’t believe that!!!

#tumblr birthday #tumblr milestone

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I’m back?

….. I don’t know what to tell you guys. I’m just rlly bad at being active here, I’ve gotten on twitter recently(that place is kinda bad but also rlly addicting), I’m on discord(have been there before tumblr), and its just been hard keeping up. I’ve had my finals this week and I think I did well for most of them, physics was rlly difficult and I did poorly :( . I really miss my two honeymoon phases, I just completed a 48hr fast so that’s something! It was my birthday a few weeks back and I’m 17 now! It’s crazy how time flies, and I look like a child. Everyone looks like they’re mature at 17 yet I’m over here looking like a 12yr old(tbh these days, 12 yr olds already look old too). I’ll will try to be on here, it is winter break! So hopefully I’ll be more active! Hope everyone is having a great day! (And if you’re not, I’m sorry and I’m here for u!)

#anablr #anablog #tw ed in the tags #proannna #notprojusttags #anorekxia

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Hello everyone! Just a tiny update, I have been at quite a low these days. I’m still around 120 lbs i literally go one step forward then five back. It’s awful. Watching horror movies currently, I just finished the Black Phone, rn I’m watching V/H/S/94 it’s… interesting. It’s kinda annoying how it can be difficult to see at times but that’s literally the point of the movie, it’s meant to do that to give you the creeps. TW: You all know that horror movies can contain gore but VHS 94 has a ton of gore just to warn you all! Anyways only ate 320 cals so far today, I hope I can fast the rest of the day. Hope everyone’s feeling alright!

#tw vent #edvent #ana #anorekxia #anor3x14

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Not me disappearing every time I say I’ll be more active👀. So I hit a rough patch, blah blah blah. I have 3 weeks of school left and then it’s summer!!! Im relieved, I’ll be on here more and that’s a promise but maybe I won’t post as much. But I’ll be online, so if anyone needs a friend when they’re down I’m here!

#tw #twvent

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isn't it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators...

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… So… Uh… I’m back! Sorry for disappearing, I just felt like I had nothing to give/ no motivation. I’ve been in a slight binge cycle/just not keeping up with my cal limit standards. As of the moment I am doing something productive (homework) yayyy😒. I just finished reading a book called The Castle School (For troubled girls) and wow, I did not expect the situation and it was good. To me it seemed the author did a good job on this one character who had anorexia. I really liked the character. I recommend the book, anyways I’m still going to try keeping up with the previous post on recipes and meals! Hope everyone is pushing through their day!

#tw #vent #tw vent #ed #anorektyczki #i will be skiny #thinnblr

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Hello everyone! How are you guys doing? It’s winter break, my grades are alright, made it through the first semester :). I’ve been sort of losing myself. I feel disconnected a lot, I really just felt like I’ve been laying around and just staring at a wall in my head (does anyone get that feeling?). I don’t know how to explain it but I get up, hang out with my pets, i watch tv, I hang around my family but I feel like i am just staring at a wall in my mind during all of it. I noticed that practically 75% of my diet is just sweets and its definitely not good, I’m panicking a lot about it but am I really doing anything about it? Nope. I’m going to try to make some foods that sound appetizing and somewhat healthy, try to eat less and less sweets every day, I can make a journal here about what I make and the recipes maybe. They won’t be low calorie recipes most likely. Anyways y’all if you ever need a friend, I’m here! 

#ana vent #ana blog #ed vent #tw eating things #tw

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Hi y’all🤪. Lmao, so I’m not doing good. I have no idea what happened but I started increasing my bad habits and those bad habits led to a really bad horrifying binge thing. I’ve been binging for a bit now. It’s bad. I’m trying really hard to change it at the moment, I keep feeling guilty. I’m still fasting for about 18-20 hours a day, I’ve gained and now I’m back up to 118 lbs. I am literally getting dreams where I accidentally break my fasts 💀. It is not fun, I feel like I’m not doing enough to change all of this and I’m getting really sick of it.  This has been a lot of repetition in my posts. It just keeps going up and down. To the people who actually read these, y’all surprise me lol and thank you. Once again, I am trying to make a plan to slow down/prevent the binging.  That’s it for now wish me luckkk.

#ed vent #tw ed mention #tw ed account #anorecik #anorektyczki #pro aana #not pr0 ana #notprojustusehashtags #eating disoder things #feelingsick

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Hello, so my month has been a little hectic but I believe y’all’s were too. So I’m just gonna tell you what October has been like for me :) about 2 weeks ago my mom threaded my eyebrows and I began to feel like tingling in my arms as I was starting to fall asleep but every time I opened my eyes the weird tingling feeling disappeared, it was scary. So I was falling asleep and all of the sudden my mom quickly threaded my “mustache” and my eyes like opened wide and it hurt :/ , then a minute later I began to cry for absolutely no reason and my heart felt like it was going faster so I held it all in and when we were done I ran up to my room and I just let out the tears, I felt like something was wrong. I don’t know what happened but my eyes were tightly shut and I couldn’t stop panicking for like 5 minutes but when I opened my eyes again I felt like it was some hallucination because I didn’t feel the panic anymore. I’m not sure what happened but it sucked.   

Anyways next thing. I fast, so this month I realized that I fast everyday now and each day its like 16-21 hours. I realized its a huge problem but I just cant stop fasting. I know that it will slow my metabolism but I just cant stop it. It’s really frustrating and I just don’t know what to do about it. 

School is still a huge ass annoyance and it will never not be. I’m trying though, I guess that’s an improvement. I hope your month is better than mine, if your month is worse I’m sorry :( , I hope it gets better for you and remember to keep fighting everyday. We can do this.

#tw vent #ed vent #not pr0 ana #proanni #pro ania #not pr0 just using tags #anoressic #anorecya #ed things

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I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

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Reminder:

♥️Do not fast to the point of fainting! This will cause life-long problems, including brain damage & problems with losing weight in the future.

♠️Keep an eye on your blood sugar! Blood sugar is not just something that diabetic people need to worry about. Its something we all have to be a little bit careful with. If youre feeling faint, break your fast and eat something sugary. Even if its something small like 1 oreo, a spoonful of pure sugar, a brownie, whatever. You do not want to faint (see point #1)

♦️Dont get drunk on an empty stomach! Seriously, eat a small meal first. A sandwich, some nachos, ramen, something like that. Its horrible for your liver, and you will most definitely have a terrible hangover.

♣️NEVER skip out on hydration, fasting or not. Hydration is EXTREMELY important. You'll risk kidney stones, kidney failure, UTIs, and even seizures. Remember to stick to things like water(carbonated or not), tea, and Gatorade(the electrolytes are extremely helpful). Soda doesnt do as good of a job at those things.

♥️DO NOT abuse laxatives! You will dehydrate(see above), and risk having a chemical dependency on them, causing chronic constipation. Laxatives should only be used in small amounts & ONLY for constipation. Talk to your doctor.

♠️Dont workout too hard. Working out can be fun, and its good to do it in moderation. But dont hurt your muscles too much. They say "no pain, no gain," but there is a point where pain crosses the line. Take breaks from working out as well.

♦️Dont overwork yourself physically during a fast/low cal day! Calories are energy. If you dont have that energy, overworking can cause fainting(see point #1).

♣️If youre spacing off from hunger, dont do anything that takes too much concentration. As i talked about in the last point, overworking can be bad physically, but it's important to avoid MENTAL strain as well! Things like driving, filling out important paperwork, writing an important email, doing homework, etc. can be severely impacted by a lack of focus.

Stay safe. Because someone really cares about you.

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Started losing again! Really glad the scale is lowering, at the moment I am 115.9 and I am around 6 lbs away from my first ugw!!! I’ve been so close to it before and then I ruined it by binging. Also I am not doing well in most of my classes and I absolutely hate math. But I have an A in it?!? Also I understand it!?!!? Like what? 

#tw ed mention #tw #tw ed talk #anoressic #annarexya #thinnerpls #i will reach my ugw #pro ania #notprojustusehashtags

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Schools a bitch. That’s all I got to say.

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My ed: