Take aim and let loose. It’s hard to want to do much of anything as of late as our country leaders decide to ultimately close all possibilities of stimulus. They have officially given up on everyone until after the election, but somehow, we keep fighting. It’s one of our countries values, or so they say…because we sure aren’t fighting for what is right now but I digress.
Upon much thinking, I can be standoffish. It tends to be a default. I’m not all certain if this is something I like because it crosses the line of being properly assertive. Some things truly are just as simple as showing up and one thing we don’t get back as humans is time. When someone continuously doesn’t show, I’ll be like, I’ve been here. Where the fuck have you been? It’s usually a small exchange among friends and not always said that way, but a group gathering in which everyone is waiting on one another to start things, for that one guy to show up late with no good reason than crappy scheduling, that feels bad. Not just for me, but the whole group. Respect someone’s time, will you? Adulting is indeed hard, but it is pretty basic and a minimum requirement for us all to live. When you interact with others, especially if an extended stay, this needs to carry over. If it doesn’t, it could be a reflection of how this is how they live their life. This is fine but perhaps it doesn’t match up with what you want for yourself. Living alone however, especially now, is harder than ever, so choose wisely if you have others potentially live with you.
Something else to keep in mind, we’re not as crazy as we ourselves or maybe even other would make us out to be. Gut instincts usually come from somewhere and is something that is usually based on a event that was impactful somehow. Sometimes we ignore these signs against better judgment and get into trouble. If something is on your mind, speak it. Take your time to find the words if you need to but just say it. You’ve gotta shoot straight with the ones you respect. Eggshells are not a think people care to walk on. For that, might as well not even cross the bridge. Lady Demeter is old and wise, but jaded, in the recently released game, Hades. Yet, she is cold. Her in-game cast fires a concentrated beam of ice at your opponent. This is the polar opposite of Artemis. The greek goddess of the hunt reminds you in one of many dialogue sessions in the game that you are not alone out there. Something you (as Zagreus) can easily feel through the context of the game, with the odds stacked against you and a mission that indeed feels impossible is being participated in. The boons of the gods can help through your path. Your powerups of sorts. Leveling up. Becoming stronger.
How we become stronger during such times? I wish I had the answers. The weight of this pandemic is a heavy burden we all carry big or small and there are too many personal factors involved per person. What I can say is the right words from the right person, or a simple embrace in real life goes a long way. While we should emerge from this stronger and have our aspirations crystal clear, knowing no one truly has you back but you, we must also consider that people can and will shape who we are. You can only truly hit your targets when you are self aware. Being hit hard by lies and deceit doesn’t have to change you or make you cold. You can instead refocus that into understanding and understanding without comparing, because we all have it hard. We can fight for what is right while still showing empathy. We can also still wish well if things don’t work out as we all have our own path to travel.
In closing, to your abuser/gaslighting asshat/online bully or whoever else that tells you that doing what is right for you is wrong, they can kick rocks. Release yourself from that pain because you are worth it. That’s what matters. Not what they did before or after. Fight the good fight but stay classy doing it.