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my New year's resolution is to draw and write more so I'm back, I guess. I don't expect to become viral here but i do like to rant to ghosts and no one i know follows me here so let's do this

#new year #new years resolution #the life of a writer

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UPDATE What's up, it's the proposal guy. You said you wanted to know how this turned out, so I figured I'd tell you. First some context though, because I'm mean and I wanna keep you in suspense longer.

1- I don't wanna doxx us so I'm not telling you where we live, but suffice to say, neither of us are American, and gay marriage has been legal here for less than five years. For both of us, this is the first relationship we've had where marriage was even an OPTION, and I think that's where we've been getting some of that whole 'this has to be a REAL proposal with EVERYTHING' idea.

2- I gotta figure out how to explain this properly. So, I'm pretty used to being the GUY guy in relationships? I was always the one who did the nice gestures, not the one they got done for. Before I met my dream guy, I didn't really notice or care that it was such a thing, I just assumed that's how shit worked. Also, I promised I wouldn't talk a lot about his stuff here, but his last boyfriend before me SUCKED. Anyway point here is, it turns out we both REALLY like feeling swept off our feet sometimes, and a big part of finding each other has been getting to feel special for once? That's a stupid sappy way of putting it the point here is I think all that's what morphed into "I need to be the one getting proposed to, also it has to be completely perfect", and then our Petty & Extra genes got involved.

So I'm sitting in bed thinking about all that up there, and watching all the comments coming in basically being like "Dude, you are BLOWING this" on repeat, and telling me to compromise, and I look up and see him flossing in the bathroom and making all these doofy faces at the mirror, and it's like a switch just flips in my brain, and I'm like "Oh, I'd rather he gets to have his perfect proposal than we both have an okay one". I'm gonna do it.

Morning rolls around, and while I'm 'out for my jog like normal' I hit up a pawn shop for a temp ring (the ring pop thing is cute but NOT HIM). I found one I was at least confident wouldn't get ruined the first time he got his hands greasy (he fixes old machines as a hobby it's hot as hell), got back home, and hid the box in the toe of my nasty ass workout shoes in the bedroom closet, since I figured he'd check there last.

He was still asleep, because he stays up late no matter what and then is SHOCKED he's tired the next day, so I called and booked a table at our usual anniversary spot. (Side note about the 'he picks bad restaurants' thing. This isn't an 'I like Greek, you like Chinese' situation, dude's just BAD at finding places. He either assumes pricey is tasty and I get to eat some overrated gourmet bullshit, or he'll try and find something hip and underground and risk giving us food poisoning again, and he REFUSES to give up and pick somewhere we've been before when it's his turn to plan date night. I'm obsessed with him <3.) Date was set, I'd propose on the 21st.

Some of you might have noticed this, but fun fact! It's currently the 16th.

Last night I'm doing dishes and he's been sent to our room for mug collection duty, and he's taking FOREVER, so I go check just in case he found the ring, because the man's a gift tracking BLOODHOUND. Turns out he hasn't, he's found my Angry Box.

I assume other people have an Angry Box? Basically, we had this huge messy fight right when we first moved in together, and I never wanna let it get that bad again, so I have this shoebox where I keep a bunch of our stuff I can look at if we're fighting and hopefully cool off. There's one of those photo booth roll things, letters we wrote when he moved back with his parents for COVID, the wine cork from our first date, shit like that. Anyway, he's just sitting on the floor staring at it, and I explain about the Angry Box, and then he! Proposes!!! Kind of.

He definitely didn't have anything prepared, because by 'propose' I mean 'ugly cried & rambled at me for several minutes before I figured out it WAS a proposal', but once I got on the same page it was amazing. I said yes, and he had to admit he didn't have a ring for me because he was CONVINCED he'd win and I'd do it, so I grabbed mine because, yeah, he was right. He was like "this is the ugliest ring I've ever seen" and I was like yeah well the plan is to replace it later and he went "No. You can pry this off my cold dead fingers. After I'm buried with it." So I guess it's not a temporary ring anymore.

I'm just gonna go ahead and skip to this morning. I pointed out we still have the reservation, and he said I should propose there anyway because "We can get a free dessert. They have those creme brulee shot glasses you like. And for love, or something" and I said ok deal, but that means you gotta get me a ring to keep it fair, and his eyes LIT UP. When I swung by his work for lunch he was still on the phone with a jeweler and he had a whole page of notes on three other ones. Pray for me.

OH PS: I was RIGHT that he'd been the one behind the cat biting me, but it wasn't about the proposal stuff, it's because I paid my baby sister three dollars to shout 'fuck you' every single time he enters a room she's in for (if you ask me, he should be madder at my sister for charging so little), and he did it by giving her a bunch of treats for biting his hands too, so now neither of us can pet our baby girl without oven mitts on. HOLY SHIT I love this man.

Oh my goddddddd I love everything about this <333 I awwww'd out loud on a voice call, like, six times while reading. You two are friggin perfect for each other and so obviously smitten with each other and I wish y'all all the happiness in the world

PS Are y'all planning to have a big wedding? If so oh boy I can't WAIT to get that one in the inbox

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#this is like the best couple ever #like #PLEASE ADOPT ME #i could be trained or payed to tell fuck off too please

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I think my favourite line from the Sandman tv show is when Calliope says 'Comparing our suffering only compounds it' because YES! YES THIS IS SO TRUE!

People compare their suffering all the time and it is SO damaging, and ultimately unhelpful and makes everything worse.

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Crowley is alone

Watching the ending of good omens s2 made me heartbroken in a way that few shows did before (and I'm a supernatural, Sherlock, criminal minds girlie so that's like a lot) and I'm going to tell you why.

Crowley is alone, completely alone again, after centuries. And it could've been fine before the whole Job thing because he didn't know what it was like to have a friend and you cannot miss something you don't know.

But Crowley knows now. He was cursed with knowledge, since the beginning, Crowley IS the curse of knowledge. And he knows it.

Crowley knows what it's like to have dinner with someone, to work with someone, to trust someone, to have someone. And that someone was Aziraphale, who choose Heaven over them.

The thing he always tried to protect Aziraphale from wasn't heaven or hell. It was knowledge. Because Crowley thinks (and it's a substantiated theory) that knowledge is a curse.

That one of his fundamental traits, (the reason why he fell, the reason why he is always on his own side, the reason why he acts the way he does and hides the way he feels and thinks) is the core reason why he will always be alone, and the reason why it will always hurt to be alone.

because Crowley knew what was like to have someone, and now he has to learn to live alone again.

#good omens #good omens 2 #oh lord give me mercy #and by lord i mean my mind #and maybe Neil gaiman #crowley #crowley good omens #Crowley is alone and i wanna die #sorry for the repetitive he but it would be messy if i interchanged pronouns #neil gaiman #Neil gaiman we will have a talk

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taking a moment to appreciate how truly wrecked Dream looks in these shots

#this is so sad because he is devastated. #because this is not just his realm #this is a physical and visible representation of himself after being imprisoned #THIS is how he sees himself. #THIS IS WHO HE IS NOW #and yes he can put the palace back together but could he put himself back together? #and even if he put himself back together he could not forget he was once this destroyed. #so yes he looks sad #because the broken realm is a reminder of who he is #sandman #the sandman #dream of the endless

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taking a moment to appreciate how truly wrecked Dream looks in these shots

#little miau miau

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me: I would never fuck the Corinthian.

someone: yeah, obviously, because he's a serial killer with teeth for eyes.

me:

someone: ... right?

me:

someone:

me:

me: ᵇᵉᶜᵃᵘˢᵉ ʰᵉ'ˢ ᵍᵃʸ

#the sandman #dream of the endless #the corinthian #neil gaiman #incorrect the sandman quotes #lord morpheus #the sandman tv #sandman neil gaiman #the sandman netflix #sandman netflix #death of the endless #desire of the endless #delirium of the endless #lucienne the librarian #morpheus #morpheus x corinthian

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ⓘ I'm in this post and i don't like it

my toxic trait is simply not doing things if i don't want to do them

#he attacked me #i am actively avoiding study rn #im procastinating

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I HATE how underrated the JAMES AND REMUS friendship is. NOT A FUCKING SINGLE ONE FANART. I NEED BIGGER CAPITALS TO SCREAM LOUDER.

James and Remus RIGHTS.

#james potter and remus lupin were fucking friends #i hate this fucking fandom #remus lupin and james potter rights everyone.

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please unfollow me if you're a FART. Thank you.

Petition to refer to TERFs as FARTs, which stands for Feminist Appropiating Reactionary Tranaphobe

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I think.... You're looking in the wrong direction Screen Rant.

I mean he had feelings for someone in that couple and I can assure you. It wasn't for her.

#obi wan star wars #anakin incorrect quotes #obi wan #anakin and obi wan #obi wan kenobi #obikin #obi wan and anakin #star wars #Anakin

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Loki and Stephen are touch deprived. Mostly Loki, who hasn't been touched with love for at least a century.

When Loki started seeing Stephen, he made clear that he didn't wanted to be touched. "Humans touch a lot. I'm not comfortable with that" and Stephen agreed, because he wasn't comfortable either. Too many traumas to share in the first date.

However, the more they fell for eachother, the more they craved eachother's touch. But they tried to be respectful with eachother and honestly they were afraid to ask if it was possible to hold hands.

But one night, Stephen couldn't help it. The dinner had been perfect, Loki was stunning, and everything was absolutely... Perfect. So he just thought "fuck it", and took the prince by his neck and waist, kissing him under the moonlight.

Stephen just felt it. Loki melt in his arms, kissing him back as if he was never kissed before. And he wasn't. Not like this. Everyone always wanted something from him, but not Stephen. Even the kiss was soft and cautious. Stephen never treated Loki like if he was expecting something in return and that's why Loki was falling so hard for the wizard.

After the kiss, Stephen whispered "sorry" and tried to let go Loki's body, to avoid making him unconformable, but Loki didn't let him. "Don't ever apologize for touching me. You're allowed to. You're... Begged to touch me" The god wrapped his arms around Stephen's neck and stayed there, knowing that he would always hold him like that.

#loki #loki laufeyson #strangefrost #dr strange #loki odinson #marvel #stephen strange #loki and stephen #loki mcu #mcu #loki headcanon #stephen strange shipps #stephen strange headcanons #marvel headcanons #touch deprived #loki touch deprived

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YES MESSY CURLS REID

SPENCER REID || 11x20 “INNER BEAUTY”

#i'm in love #spencer reid i love you

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I'm back with headcanons and there's one that's gonna hurt people but if you're into strangefrost you should be used to it by now.

#strangefrost #marvel headcanons #strangefrost headcanons #frostrange #froststrange #loki laufeyson #dr strange #loki #loki odinson #marvel #stephen strange #loki and stephen #mcu #loki mcu

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Stephen Strange: Wait, how come I’m such a dick in all the other universes?

Wong, Christine, Wanda, and America Chavez, in unison and without hesitation: you’re a dick in this one, too

#but mom i love him

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Stephen Strange: Wait, how come I’m such a dick in all the other universes?

Wong, Christine, Wanda, and America Chavez, in unison and without hesitation: you’re a dick in this one, too

#but mom i love him