#'nah they're prob fine'

[steamed-cogs]

me on the surface carefully placing hedges and tractors for my city aesthetic while the miners underground are being swarmed and scrapped by giant insects and robots

#'should I go check on them...?' #'nah they're prob fine' #steamworld build #steamworld build spoilers

[thesunfyre4446]

the way that some people talk about helaena is just disgusting.

you have the people that straight up say that they're looking forward to b&c & don't care about her at all. which is fine i mean at least you're honest (though can't understand why anyone would be looking forward to seeing a 6yo kid get brutally murdered but ok)

then you have the people who try and "claim" helaena as TB. they say that helaena hates her family & her mom & her family is the reason that her life was ruined - and not b&c and maelor's death caused by rhaenyra and daemon. and it's so obvs they're just using that as an excuse to justify their favs horrible actions.

helaena's family did not ruin her life.

in the book it was viserys that arranged her marriage to aegon. so don't go crying in the comments about "the book", in the show the alternative is jace - and alicent was not about to let her daughter become rhaenyra's unofficial hostage. the twins are obvs not 6 and were aged down so show!helaena gave birth prob at 17. (these kids are not 6) by marrying aegon, helaena gets to stay at home with her family.

helaena is not suicidal. there is nothing in the show or the book to indicate that she is suicidal or depressed. she's described as a happy girl in the book and in the show we don't really get a lot of scenes with her but there's 0 indication to her being depressed. helaena committed suicide because of her children's death. the greens did not kill her children.

helaena does not hate her children. literally stfu. you can claim that because she's a teen mom (rhaenyra was also a teen mom but i digress) motherhood is prob not easy for her. but the fact that some people say that she hated her kids as a way to justify b&c is disgusting.

helaena being portrayed as neurodivergent & sensitive to touch does not mean that she can't or doesn't love her family. this take makes me want to scream. one of my best friends is also extremely sensitive to touch. she rarely lets her mom hug her and that's OK. everyone has different boundaries.

stop infantilizing helaena!!!!!!!!!!!!! she's an adult!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and all of these excuses are somehow supposed to make b&c and maelor's death look less bad & daemyra less guilty. oh, daemon had her child brutally murdered before her eye? nah, she hated her children anyway lol rhaenyra drove her to suicide? well, she was always depressed and suicidal so it's not that big of a deal... (and don't even get me started on the "why didn't she just go to rhaenyra on dragonstone" as if she'd ever betray her family & like her own sons weren't also at risk if rhaenyra became queen)

i really can't. mind you, these are the people that scream and cry misogyny but are willing to use another female character in such a cynical and sinister way to justify their favs action. and yes, i'm calling it sinister because it feels VERY sinister. the discourse about helaena makes me so uncomfortable. (and the discourse around jaehaera is also disturbing af)

sorry about the rant.

#hotd #house of the dragon #team green #pro team green #heleana targaryen #my girl <3 #pro alicent hightower #anti team black #anti team black stans

[summercreolefanfictioner]

Maya, how was your relationship with your family, and how do you feel as far as you can remember?

A/N: Well, I am not familiar with OC interaction thingy so maybe I can settle with headcanons. Plus, I have already discussed this in a separate post, though I might as well write this for clarification.

maya sakamaki || headcanons abt her human family

TW: violence, drugs, s*xploitation

Maya is actually the eldest out of her three siblings (but I won't reveal their genders cause they don't matter)

They were residing in a province somewhere in Japan (think Hokkaido)

And the Hisae family's not that rich (like rich rich) but they can afford the simplest things in life

Even tho she's the eldest, she's kind of like a happy, calm person

Her hobbies consisted of carrying her baby siblings and playing with them

She prob takes them out in a flower field so they can see colorful things

So the only reason they got so poor is bcos her father lost his job cause he was basically working as a con man under a mafia to sell drugs and prostitutes (he wasn't imprisoned tho but he wasn't on the run either)

With no source of income, her mother decided to become a prostitute at the town's brothel while her father worked as a messenger

Unfortunately, her mother wasn't being paid well cause she looked old and the patrons wanted someone younger

And what's more, they were full of debt since Maya had to go to school and her siblings are like around 2-3 years old (Maya's around 5 to 6 at the time)

It wasn't until people started complimenting Maya that she was so pretty like a doll that her parents started to have dark thoughts about selling her to the brothel

And that's when the nightmares for Maya have begun (I will not go into detail cause this is horrifying)

Maya actually started abandoning her family at this point

She freakin' hates it when the customers call her "Mariya"

Her siblings actually don't have the slightest idea abt what happened to Maya (cause they're like 2 to 3 yrs old they know nothing)

Maya can't bring herself to completely hate her siblings tbh but bcos her family is gaining money from selling her, she just completely forgot abt them

But even when she turned into a vampire, she still remembers her full name "Mariya Hisae"

But nah she doesn't remember what her family members looked like, prob bcos of trauma and everything

So there could be a possibility of her encountering them somewhere in Kaminashi but she won't be able to tell that it was them

Well, for Maya, it's fine that way 'cause she would prob kill them on the spot if she still remembered what they looked like

And yeah, there might be ppl telling her to forgive but Maya doesn't believe in that crap

Maya believes the greatest gift she could give them is hatred and contempt (and yes, this will never change until they die)

#maya sakamaki #diahell #diahell content #rejet #diabolik lovers #diabolik lovers headcanons #kanato's vampire doll #kanato x maya #kanato x oc #kanato and maya #sakamaki maya #dl oc #diabolik lovers oc #diabolik oc #dialovers oc #oc headcanons #kanato sakamaki #shuu sakamaki #reiji sakamaki #ayato sakamaki #laito sakamaki #subaru sakamaki

[lurkiestvoid]

currently struggling between my deep-seated visceral distrust of american medical services versus getting care for what is possibly pneumonia based on the amount of Gross I'm coughing up

like they're prob just gonna test me for covid and throw some antibiotics at me, sure whatever. But they could also be like 'nah you're fine, just a cough bye' and not listen abt how deeply my fuckin chest hurts and I do not have the energy to fight back today. last night was rough

#rambles #sick #im prob catastrophizing or w/e #but american “healthcare” killed my mom #and I've been blown off about everything over the years #so i just. Never go to the doctor (do get shots at clinics tho) #and my instinct is NO DOCTOR but... this is getting a little severe

[gamedevhellhole]

okay, okay now what if I ACTUALLY make a Nitrome Must Die fan comic???

the ms paint esque medium mix about shady business and distant dreams, all achieved in the coldest ways possible???

well except some elements of mechanically produced magic... but uhhh we might wanna leave it to the still developing worldbuilding???

okay fine but what's with the hustle? well it's a little passion project of mine that will revolve around made up postcanon events of NMD because that open ending can be interpreted in so many ways

yeah that emo 100th game anniversary Nitrome game uh huh

here's de synopsis: our two (2) protags are angsty fellow kids (sorta) planning on opening up a game studio of their own. why did they decide to do this – only the true OGs know /hj???

the main characters are very stupid! unemployed mfs from cheap apartments! except their supposed net worths are definitely not cheap. A and J do have quite a dark story behind of course, but nah, nah they are not traumatised by bit, quite the opposite here they're the ones that traumatize.

and so they try to start their ways out of spite! here's the catch: their puny souls can be fueled by anger and hate only, so they have to pick up some unhealthy hobbies to keep their inspiration afloat. (spoiler: cartoonish violence. exclusively. maybe mafia ca-chings)

they have no talent, they have no sheer will and any actual goals in life, but one specific thing to do, like again, out of spite.

however eventually this will quickly shift solve into a maniacal production phase which pushes them forward in game-making industry. (idk much about further stuff tbh... it's the synopsis)

the perfect result would be achieved if we make it really REALLY really close to the original source. while the source itself really doesn't show the characters' true personality enough... well I sorta strive to make all the style the writing and everything both as canon and as adapted to modern stuff as pozbl.

and yeah the artstyle?? like emo 00s cartoons sort of? you know the ones? i'm having a crisis in this field it's either making it funky as heck or not making it at all kind of stance.

ohh the world they live in is a quite an interesting place. but actually not really. generic edgy big city that has a charm I've yet to practice my writing and drawing skills for.

08 Mar 2024 update:

making it public so any fellow tumblr nitromians get another dose of nmd fan content

(because to be honest i can't get rid of the terrible hyperfixation i got on NMD alone until i do something big for it, then i'll do awesome stuff for other nitrome masterpieces after that)

this post here is not a teaser; maybe just a prompt, and so far it's a little reminder (for me it's been a prompt for a year... argh help)

the style picking is still ongoing, the script is planned yet not properly written, like for example idk what other characters to add if they're not canon to the original universe

the designs might just might get released here in a few months or so

aaand the planned page amount?? idunnow... prob 50-55 by default it needs to have a finished plot.

with this being a FAN project i take inspos from other comics that use canon characters for one's own plot (this exact genre of resurrecting the unused characters) and honestly they drove me to this haha

along with one comment under that nmd trailer vid on youtube with the same idea that got 8 likes by now.

oh it got 10 already!!! (i couldn't get in contact with the OP sadly)

so yep... now it's a semi public post xd. wait not or wait wait wait cause I still try. btw happy women's day <3

#nitrome must die #nitrome #fan comic #rant post #brainstorming #mostly #like #oh dear #that's a big post here oh boy #im hyperfixating so hard rn

[abluescarfonwaston]

Shapeshifter au - Ciri

wanted to make sure Ciri’s emotions were clear. So i have written this instead of working on the next chapter. Such is the way. Sorry for the tense changes/2nd/3rd person shift. I’m not going back and changing it.

Like you lose your Family and home and you have this miserable trek around while you try to find this Geralt guy whose supposed to be your destiny and you finally find him and its Great! Except he’s not very chatty and he’s injured and you mostly have to sleep in the woods without a campfire cause danger and he’s got this lute that you’ve never seen him play and he seems so sad and

And you strum his lute. Try a few notes.

And He’s back from whatever task he’d taken on. Chest heaving like he ran at dead sprint for a huge distance and he’s looking desperately around the little camp you’ve made and he sees you holding the lute and he just.

Collapses. 

And your holding him and apologizing and asking him what’s wrong and he might be crying and he’s all you have left in this world and you hold him and he holds you in his lap tightly but gently and he tells you it was his friends lute. His best friends lute.That he heard you play it and thought maybe he’d come back. That he’d forgiven him.

But it was just you.

And his friends dead.

And you don’t know what he’d need to be forgiven for because he’s been nothing but soft words and gentle hands even as he forces you to keep riding long into the evening. Because even when you snap at him because your tired and hungry and you’ve lost Everything he doesn’t get mad back. He holds you and apologizes and wraps you up in his bedroll tightly so you won’t get too cold.

And you don’t know what he needs to be forgiven for but it’s easier to believe it wasn’t his fault. That his friend was at fault. Just like it’s easier to believe that the reason Geralt never visited was Calathe’s fault and its easier still to blame her parents that she doesn’t remember for not keeping her safe and its easiest to blame a faceless old friend for hurting the only good thing she has left.

And then he comes back from a hunt and shows you a little bird. And tells you it’s his best friend. The bard.

And your so fucking scared cause its a Bird and if he’s gone mad your all fucking alone again and your not sure you can do that again. 

You will. If you have to. But you don’t want to. 

He’s explaining his friends a shapeshifter. That he is the bard and he is the bird and he’s so many things and they’re all Jaskier and he just looks so much Happier than you’ve ever seen him. Than you’ve ever made him.

Sure the bird seems smart and friendly- working the knots from your hair that you’ve been too tired to bother with and Geralt didn’t notice because he was trying to keep you alive and that’s nice but the bird doesn’t shift and you’re so scared this is a trick.

That Geralt’s tricked himself in his grief just like you let yourself be tricked in your grief when Mousesack showed up because you wanted it to be real.

And it won’t shift out of the bag Geralt’s clipped it in and you know it’s all a trick and maybe everyone was wrong about the white wolf and you’re still all alone and-

There’s a high pitched squeaking from the bag. Not like the bird.  A mouse. Tiny. There’s no bird in the bag, still locked.

You hold him in the palm of your hand. You don’t know what Geralt has to apologize for but he let Geralt think he was dead.

Maybe he has a good explanation. Maybe he was in the right and maybe he’d spent months trying to find his way back to Geralt. But he’d hurt the only person you had left in the world. The white wolf. And he won’t explain why.

She was cold and miserable and Geralt had never spoken as much or as warmly as he had today about his best friend and how when he was feeling better he’d play silly songs for her that she’d have to dance to. Because he was that kind of magic. The kind that inspired joy.

She’d never made Geralt that happy and her magic had never made anyone happy and the white wolf was her destiny and he couldn't steal Geralt from her. He couldn’t. He was all she had left.

Then the mouse was gone from her hand.

A white wolf stood over her. Eyes brilliant and blue.

Her hands raised up around his neck and he let her hold him.

The white wolf was her destiny.

 He nosed her and tickled her and kissed her until she shrieked with laughter and then curled around her until the chill was a distant memory.

Maybe. Maybe. This was his way of saying he was her destiny too. So she let’s herself drift off in his fur.

She’s still not sure how much he can be trusted. He won’t shift into human. Won’t explain or talk or sing as it’s clear Geralt longs to hear. Because of her. Because he doesn’t want her to see him like this. Whatever this is.

But he’s warm and soft and helpful. Geralt breaths just a little easier with him around. A little less stressed that they don’t have to stop - that they can climb on Jaskier and ride him to safety. Those big blue eyes shinning no matter how he shifts.

He’s soft in her arms but then theirs bandits and she can’t let him get hurt because then Geralt will fall apart and they’re all she has left-

And he kicks her. Runs off before she can stop him and she’s so scared and Geralt’s telling her to stay low and he’ll scare them off but if something happens to Jaskier he’ll be destroyed and she let him go and-

Theirs a roar. Roach is panicking and people screaming and a giant brown bear is meandering into their campsite.

“Jaskier.”

She doesn’t know if it really is him but Geralt says it is and she’s annoyed cause he kicked her and she was scared for him and he’s rumbling something but she has no idea what its supposed to mean.

But his eyes are blue and he noses her into his side so it must be Jaskier. Geralt asks him to be human but he wont and Geralt’s grumpy. Plucking the lute like it’s personally wronged him so she asks him for a story.

And he tells her.

She doesn’t know what she expects when Jaskier will finally introduce himself - she hates that he’s making Geralt wait for her sake - but she’s nervous. What if he’s not what he seems to be? What if when he’s human it’s obvious he’s not warm and soft. That she was right in thinking in blaming him?

She really hopes she isn’t. Because the white wolf is her destiny.

And she really hopes that means both of them.

#shapeshifter!Jaskier #shapeshifter au #writing #will this change the folks who think she's being a snot nosed princess? Nah probs not #but i definitely feel like they're missing Why she's behaving that way #which is on me #hopefully this next chapter where they all get to Talk will help with that #i just get so sad when i see folks getting annoyed with her #She gets annoyed with the Kick! She has no idea what she did wrong! And he wont tell her! She can't translate Bear!!! #of course she hated him when all she knew was he 1. hurt geralt 2. is dead #What's wrong with blaming the dead? They don't give a shit they're dead! #and then he's alive and fine but don't hurt him! He's all i have left! I don't know if Geralt could survive losing you again! #and of course she's a little bit jealous that Geralt loves this person so much #so now i'm a bit nervous about getting her characterizaiton right... and also the wolves #this next chapters slow going is what i'm saying so it'll be a few days #hope you enjoyed the 3 days in a row of updates #me? update on a schedule to avoid feasts/famines? Never

[idontknowiknow]

hmmmmmmmmmm note to self. black books: enjoyable to watch while you fold your washing. does NOT inspire you to do anything useful

#alternatively maybe it's not the show's fault #maybe there's just a lot of things on my to do list #and i am aware i have to get a ridic amount of them done tonight or tomorrow #but they're all things i've been putting off for no good reason #also it's just occurred to me that having my sister over for a week means she's in my room #so a) i DO need to put all that washing away #and b) i will not have free access to it for that time #which is fine bc my work outfits are very repetitive #but still #yeah nah it's the washing and the sheets #gotta change all the bed linen #this is all fine and i will do it no prob #except that my desire to not do anything is now speaking in bernard black's voice #tbh i gotta eat dinner #ok things to do: eat dinner #put away washing including the washing that i partially sorted last weekend #sweep/vacuum #change sheets? maybe i should save that for sunday? nah idk just asap i guess #draw #sweep around the toilet clean the sink and clean inside the toilet too i guess #sweep the bathroom move all the plants....... somewhere sensible and also the potting mix and clean all the surfaces in the bathroom #the excess plants anyway #repot the plants that need repotting #fix the back windowsills #buy a christmas tree #stack the dishwasher #do the ironing #put away the towels - where do the towels even live now????? #ok that's everything off the top of my head right now plus i suppose i still have the one i wrote up last week floating about #plus i gotta go to a thing tomorrow i think....??? idk

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Nanami prob has dry hands

NAH BUT FR HE PROBABLY DOES

If he likes cooking, he's most likely washing his hands every five minutes and this man doesn't see the point in lotion bc his hands are fine and work alright so who cares if they're crusty. Once yall're dating, every time you put lotion on your hands you go to Kento and say "c'mere bub" and put the excess on his hands. He rolls his eyes but deep down he thinks it's sweet and romantic and he loves you so so much 💕

#ask #crusty ass husband #hands ashy as hell #it's ok tho bc i have like 20 bottles of lotion around the house so I'll moisturize him :)

[wisconsin2002]

Idk... I wanted to talk about Amitys change in hair color.

Just to start off real quick cause I now this could probs be an issue

If you like the green hair color better. Fair play dawg, it's cool, I don't have a problem with that. I liked the color too. Still Preffer the new color but I didn't have a problem with the green one other than... Well.. Odalias bitch ass Was the one that forced it onto Amity, but that's doesn't get in the way of the color. You can like whatever color hair she had.

Now onto the discussion

For the most part, genuinely a lot of good people have treated Amitys change in hair color with respect even if it's not their preffered. I appreciate that so much.

And then half the fandom already loves her purple dyed hair so nothing to say there.

But once in a while I see genuine people mad that Amity changed her hair color and also insulting her hair and the crews decision on dyeing her hair purple and it just makes wonder how these people would treat family or friends around them who have changed their body in any way Shape or form.

I'm probably looking too much into it but idk.. As a dude that has had self esteem issues for years and counting I can say with experience.. That crap does get to people.

And I'm not here to just make this about myself and go "Omg Omg I c-cant.. . please FEEL BAD FOR ME"💀

NAH that's not the point😂

I'm 19 years old now, I know that no Matter what there will always be people that hate something about you for no reason. It ain't my first rodeo.

But I know for a fact there is kids in the fandom that probably have self esteem issues too and things like this just make them feel worse. I'm so glad that when Amity dyed her hair they didn't make a big ass deal about it in the show cause that's how it should be. You should just respect people's decisions unless it is truly awfully harmfull and it's hurting their bodies, health or they're just not happy with it themselves.

It's okay to criticize but there's a fine line with criticisms and just being an ass for the hell of it.

Anyways idk.. Just something I've been thinking about I guess. I dont expect people to take it to heart but if it reaches one or two people that might need to hear this, that's more than I could ever ask for and I'll be gratefull.

Thank you💜

#lumity #the owl house

[just-more-trolls]

kani all the flower qs

HOO! I'ma put this under a readmore cuz this is gonna be a long bish *cracks knuckles* (sadly no images cuz there's a limit)

Acacia: Are you secretly in love/have a crush on anyone?

"~Cv~ Maybe I do.."

Anemone: Have you ever felt abandoned?

"~Cv~ Yea...way too many times for it to feel healthy. In all three major quads plus a couple of friendships.

Basil: Who do you hate, and why?

"~Cv~ Are we talking HATE hate or like..nah you're probs meaning actual hate."

"~Cv~ That fucking bitch Celest. For sweeps of abuse. Next time I see her smug-ass face I'm taking that bloodpumper out of her chest cavity and displaying it in a fucking jar."

Camellia: Who do you trust with your life?

"~Cv~ Oh that's easy.. First two that come to mind are Teagan and Keyser. Teagan cuz we're tight like hatchmates. And Keyser because we were practically hatchmates having been born in the same cavern and been pretty close since.."

Red Carnation: Have you ever wanted something you cannot have?

"~Cv~ Chocolate..chocolate anything.. It smells good and tastes even better.. Learned the hard way I'm deathly allergic..thank jegus I was a walk away from a medical center that night.."

Coriander: Do you have a secret talent?

"~Cv~ I can sing.. It's a secret cuz no one's ever heard me and I keep it that way.."

Daffodil: Do you wish you could start over in life?

"~Cv~ Nah.. Do I wish I had done a few things different though? Yea.. Who doesn't? But I'm fine with playin' the cards I been dealt in life.."

Maidenhair: Tell us a secret.

"~Cv~ Teagan sucks at Super Kart Bros."

Freesia: Who is your best friend?

"~Cv~ Now y'see that's a tough one cuz I have a few good friends that could contend for 'BEST friend' y'know? There's Wyllow who I see near-daily, Keyser who I grew up with and Teagan who I'm super tight with.. Suppose I could say they're all three my best friends.."

Heather: Do you have someone you protect/want to protect?

"~Cv~ Oh pretty much everyone I'm close to.. Even 'who I will not name' at one point.. Everyone falls under my instinct to protect once I'm close to 'em..

White Hyacinth: What do you consider to be beautiful?

"~Cv~ ......Ch..................Chiara-..wait. You said what not who..fuck..FUCK!"

Lavender: Who do you distrust?

"~Cv~ Anyone complacent with the way things are.. Most people in general usually.. I give the benefit of the doubt nine times outta ten but I mistrust most everyone til' they prove otherwise."

Lilac: Have you had a first love? If so, who was it?

"~Cv~ My first matesprit was a jade named Halynn back when we were only four or five sweeps.. One day I just never saw them again.."

Narcissus: Do you love yourself? How do you practice self-love?

"~Cv~ I'm not gonna sugar-coat it.. I have a love-hate relationship with myself.. One day I'll love myself and treat myself to the most exotic shit in my fridge I was saving for a special occasion and the next day I'm on the floor of my kitchen eating a brick of ramen dry.."

Orange Blossom: Do you consider yourself pure?

"~Cv~ FUCK no! No one's pure! The only time we're pure is when we're freshly hatched..and that goes to hell in a handbasket real quick because grubs can either be the sweetest l'il shits..or some feral fuckers.. when we're born we're fucking animals, man.."

Petunia: Who is someone/What is something that soothes you?

"~Cv~ ..Head-pets..mostly physical contact.. A night of cheesy romcoms and cult classics also puts the mind at ease.."

Plum: Do you keep your promises?

"~Cv~ I try to anyway.. It depends on the promise but I'm not one to intentionally break a promise. My word's binding."

Primrose: What was your childhood like?

"~Cv~ Boring.. Next question.."

Raspberry: Do you feel remorse for anything you’ve done?

"~Cv~ Nope.. Next question.."

Stephanotis: Do you hope to get married someday?

"~Cv~ ..What's married..?"

Yarrow: How do you heal a broken heart?

"~Cv~ Time, mainly.. Time and a drive to move forward.. I can't guarantee that both or either will work..it's kinda case by case.."

Zinnia: Who do you miss right now?

"~Cv~ Mmh.. A couple of my past quads.. But what can ya do when they just stop callin'.."

#ic #answered #Kanisa Adhara #pyrotrolls #I both love and hate you for this #:V

[askjoshuafreeman]

transcript.file//jfreeman_codingb//convo

[Emergency Program Active]

AdminJF: Heya B-)

CodingB: ...? Allen? Where's Joshua?

AdminJF: He's still asleep, just snoozin away.

CodingB: Still a-... Isn't it... late? Why are you up.

AdminJF: Had a nightmare

AdminJF: Couldn't get back to sleep

AdminJF: Figured a lil chatting with ya could do me some good.

CodingB: ... With... me?

CodingB: Wait a moment...

CodingB: Communications are offline... I didn't think that was possible...

AdminJF: Yeaaa, boy like me's fulla tricks B-)

AdminJF: 'sides, don't think chattin with 'em would help out. They're... kinda chaotic.

CodingB: Unlike you, pizza box tearer?

AdminJF: Ey ey, I'm the FUN kinda chaotic! Those guys... eh... I know Josh trusts them. No surprise there. I mean, apart from you, they're the only peeps who MIGHT help him out... I'm still on the fence about them tho.

CodingB: I see.

CodingB: May I ask... what your nightmare was about? I do not know exactly how dreams work, but talking about what ever is making you upset tends to help.

AdminJF: Are you sure? It's... kinda dumb.

CodingB: I am all ears! And eyes! You have my full attention!

AdminJF: Right, well

AdminJF: where tf do I start...

AdminJF: I was... running in this like, industrial... plant of some kind? Like, running from something that I couldn't see? Like, that went on for a while, that I was just running and trying not to trip or crash into anything.

AdminJF: So at some point, I end up at this biiig chain link fence, like, the kind they put up in big facilities, I think. Anyways, I start climbing the thing, only to get pried off and thrown on my ass by, I guess whoever was chasing me??

AdminJF: But like, I look up at the guy, and I still can't really "see" him. Could say they looked like a shadow, but even that doesn't cover it really. That's around where I woke up and just. I dunno. Woke up about an hour ago and I've been too anxious to head back to sleep...

CodingB: ... I can't say I blame you exactly. An event like that, dream or not, would stress anyone, I'm certain. Until you've calmed down sufficiently, I don't think sleep will be possible...

AdminJF: Yeah, well, all the more reason to chat, right?

CodingB: I suppose so. Had you any topics in mind?

AdminJF: Oh Yea yea

AdminJF: ... No. I really don't.

CodingB: Ah. Then... could I ask you something?

AdminJF: Shoot.

CodingB: ... What is it like out there? Past the screen, I mean. Out in the sun. Out in the grass...

AdminJF: Ah shit... I'm really the wrong dude to ask but uh

AdminJF: It's... fine? No no uh... It... gives you something to do. Sun can get pretty hot down here but it's a helluva lot better than being cold in like, the snow and shit. Josh's been complaining that it's getting colder when... it hasn't? Like, I would know, I'm p sensitive to temperature shifts yo, but it's just been as hot as ever.

AdminJF: Uh, back on topic

AdminJF: Grass is... pretty soft, gives off a nice smell after it's cut. Uh... worms live in the dirt grass grows in...

CodingB: Oh, worms?

AdminJF: Yea, not like computer worms, but uh, little... long slimey things. They eat dirt and filter out the bad stuff so the ground stays healthy and all that.

AdminJF: Birds and lizards and fish like to eat them but I wouldn't recommend it.

CodingB:

CodingB: Allen, did you-

AdminJF: No!

AdminJF: Classmate back in primary did tho

AdminJF: Dared himself to cuz there was a bunch out after it rained and then uh

AdminJF: Y'know what, let's talk about something else.

CodingB:

CodingB: Well, um, do you think I'll ever get to see out there?

CodingB: Like, leave the device and go outside?

AdminJF: Knowing Joshua? Without a doubt. He's prob already working on the blueprints.

CodingB: ... Really?

AdminJF: Pfft, of course! You've met the guy! He's too kindhearted for his own good. J will stop at nothing to help others, even at his own detriment. I mean, case in point: He's friends with me.

CodingB: ... What's wrong with being friends with you?

AdminJF: Ha!

AdminJF: Ah...

AdminJF: Look, I... back when we first met, Josh saw this hungry, pale as death, angry and antisocial freak around his age and, instead of avoiding him like everyone else, sat down right next to him and offered half of his lunch.

AdminJF: I've been through 5 different fosters since he and I first met, CB. Five houses that all took me in and gave me the boot before I could even get comfortable. Within that time, the only other friends I've made apart from him are Clera and Tiff, and the only reason Tiff's our friend is because she and Cler started dating months ago.

AdminJF: I mean, hell, just yesterday, I

AdminJF: shit

CodingB: ?

AdminJF: ... Can you... keep a secret, CB?

CodingB: My lips are sealed, Allen. Is everything alright?

AdminJF: ... I... I lied to Josh, about me running off. About how my folks were mad and I needed to get away from the house for a bit.

AdminJF: The truth is that they... They kicked me out.

CodingB: They?? What!?

AdminJF: Yesterday past-noon, few hours after lunch, not-pops plopped my schoolbag on me, told me to shove as much of my shit in it as I could, and just told me to "get lost". Figured he was joking and I just stared at him cuz, like, why the hell would I think he was serious? But, looking at his face...

AdminJF: So then I said "Let me pack my suitcases while you call the agency" cuz that's how it normally went when my Fosters got sick of me, but mfer pulls me up and goes all "We want you out of here NOW" and tells me that I have ten minutes to fill my bag.

AdminJF: ... And he, uh, really did mean 10 minutes. They weren't lying about that part...

CodingB: Oh my god... That's horrible. They do not deserve to call themselves "parents" of any kind! Are you hurt? Are you okay?

AdminJF: I

AdminJF: I don't know why shit like this still shocks me, y'know? I should be used to it all, and I am for the most part but...

AdminJF: I guess a part of me was thinking that... Things were going well! Things were going better than any of the other families I'd been in! I was with them for almost a full year, like, a month away from it even, and sure, I might've been a bit of an ass sometimes, but they...

AdminJF: Tensions were kinda mounting for the past month or so, I guess, but I didn't notice it until this bs happened. Now most of my shit is in a home I'm not welcome in anymore, the agency probably won't be checking in for another month or so, and I have no goddamn idea what I'll do if Mrs. Freeman comes back and tells me I can't stay here. I'm completely shit outta luck.

CodingB: Allen, I'm so sorry...

CodingB: ... I'm sure... Josh and his mother, they won't leave you on your own like that. You said yourself that Josh is very very kind, for better or for worse. It doesn't matter what you might think about yourself, Allen, you do not deserve to be hurt in any way.

AdminJF:

AdminJF: Christ I spilled my guts like hell

AdminJF: Just one of those fucking

AdminJF: "3am! Time to vent!"

CodingB: Allen, please.

AdminJF: Maybe I could try going back to sleep now...

CodingB: Allen, wait!

CodingB: I. Before you go, please, I

CodingB: Maybe... could you keep a secret of mine too?

AdminJF:

AdminJF: Eh, it's only fair, fine. Go right on ahead.

CodingB: Alright! Alright!

CodingB: I... I'm terrified. Of failing Joshua.

CodingB: Of ending up trapped in this computer for who knows how many more years.

CodingB: Of finally getting out, and... and it all being worse than being trapped in here.

CodingB: Heck, I'm terrified at the thought of it being everything I could've ever dreamed of, so much so that I never want to return to the computer. I... I wouldn't be helpful anymore if that happened...

CodingB: Jeez... am I even helpful where I am now? Apart from keeping the firewall up, what good have I really done to help Joshua or his father?

CodingB: I cannot express to Joshua how... how deeply frightened I am at the thought of him never coming back. That thought haunts my every waking hour when he is not here, and I don't know how to get it to stop. It makes me feel as though I'll crash my entire programming and I hate it so much.

AdminJF: Damn... CB, you know, even just keeping a firewall up is a helluva task all on its own, and it's doing a crapton of good, too. Files are still up and the computer isn't a smouldering pile of viruses now is it?

AdminJF: Besides, even without all of that, you've still helped Josh, like, endlessly. You've supported him a bunch and I know for a fact that you've helped him to feel better about this whole ordeal. Like, he chats about you for HOURS the second you come up in a convo, yo. The minute he gets the chance to, I know he's gonna get you out of there, and, knowing your ingenuity, you're gonna find thousands o' ways to help out.

AdminJF: But... I ain't gonna lie and tell you those feelings are gonna go away. Not on their own. Needs time and reassurance. Until all of this is over and done with and even maybe a good few years afterwards, you're probably gonna still have that fear.

CodingB: Ah... I see... I don't suppose it is normal though, is it?

AdminJF: Nah. I know that first-hand... But hey, we've both made it this far despite all the bullshit we've been through, right? World's not gonna get ridda us that easily.

CodingB: ... Even with the terror I feel, am I still brave enough to face the world?

AdminJF: I'd say the world oughta learn to start being afraid of you, cuz there's nothin' braver than continuing to live even when you're scared to death.

CodingB: ... Thank you. Thank you so very much.

AdminJF: Heh, all in a day... night's work...

AdminJF: Think the both of us could use some rest. Quiet our minds fo' a bit.

CodingB: Heh, agreed... See you tomorrow in that case. Er, well, today. At a later hour.

AdminJF: Yeaaa, see ya then, CBot. Sleep well.

CodingB: You too! May your dreams be filled with nothing scary!

[Emergency Program Inactive]

ampd.program deactivated. Returning to error log...

#jfreeman #coding b #allen.host #act 3: l'appel du vide #ampd.host #ask #anon

[sothischickshe]

wait i have a lot of regrets about the questions i sent you before (past me is an idiot) so instead i would like 37-39 plus 50 where you pick the question and i don't have to do any of the work, good deal i think :)

I mean good, this is fewer, and this ask contains less sass than the previous one!!!

37.  First sentence or your current WIP

First sentence OR current WIP? Like the whole thing?? Nah man!! Surely there's a character limit on these to start with??

I mean i just posted the first 2 paras, but then the next sentence is:

Because, the thing is, motherhood nestles like it’s forever been a part of her identity, long before the concrete fact grew.

38.  Weirdest story idea you’ve ever had

Hmm, Beth and rio are neighbours now? There's genies now? They've got the same fuck buddy now? They don't remember each other now? Off to get an abortion now? I'm not sure any of these are weirder or less weird than each other, or that I know what weird means

39.  Weirdest character concept you’ve ever had

Hmm this'd probs be from something original rather than ff then, because I dunno that I've had any particularly weird character concepts of my own in ff (like they're fucking weirdos but... Canon).

One of the nanos I did, I wrote one of my friends into it as a smacked out zombie and he was a total whiny bitch about it and I was like AT LEAST YOU'RE IN IT, SAY THANKS JEEEEZ

50.  [Other question—ask me anything]

Um OK FINE. Let's go silliest joke I've written cos I think I know the answer. It's from climbing up the walls and it's kinda a rip off of the Spartan/spartan bit from buffy (which I could go on about for literal hours) but abt beth and rio being communication disasters and it's reallllly buried, and it's this:

“I’m not sorry,” she adds, virtually haughty. Which is worse. And aggravating – in fact rude. “You put me in a position which was – untenable.”

It sounds a bit rehearsed, Rio notes absently, like maybe she’s argued herself to it. But he’s not got a huge amount of attention to spare, between the distraction of his blood audibly boiling, and how hard he’s working on holding himself from explaining basic facts to this maniac, again. The situation with Turner and them weren’t supposed to be long-lasting, she just needed to shoot the damn fed, easy as.

(the joke being...they're using different definitions of untenable, but Beth's using it mm not exactly incorrectly but in a way that's uncommon for that construction and potentially open to interpretation, but rio could really clock what she meant if he thought about it for half a second but he's not gonna!! I fucking hate them if that's not clear)

#OK well that sentence seems to be missing a 'since' or a 'from' or something! #I blame phone editing #This is a great way to edit actually #Maybe I'll do it a para at a time #Writing #On writing #Fanfiction #Fanfic #Maybe I'll just move that forever?

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Jude & Jac

Jude: [okay so my idea is that like Jesse is doing some kind of little christmassy gig at Pete's record store and cafe moment because why not] Jude: You ready to 👀 the 🎄🎅 classics get 💀🔪🎤? Jac: You usually have to be famous before you sell out for Christmas royalties Jude: he's not NOT famous rn Jac: 🙄 you get a badge for signing up Jude: I should get a blue peter badge for rigging up his lil stage & backdrop Jac: if he was famous, he'd have roadies for that Jac: not unpaid family members Jude: 💻⭐dom for you Jac: This country fame for you Jac: it means about 10 people outside of Dublin have heard of you but EVERYONE here knows you Jac: so fun Jude: 🤣 by that I'm a star too & without a single 📀 Jac: Reputation doesn't imply any skill or talent Jude: 😜✌ Jude: coming or what? Jac: obviously not Jude: Jess'll be 😒💔 Jude: probs inspire him to belt out silent night with a well new twist 🎻🎻😭 Jude: 👍 or 👎 tbc Jac: I doubt that Jac: but he's welcome for the make or break Jude: 🏆🥇 Jac: whatever accolades he does or doesn't get are his business Jac: I'm going out Jude: Where? Jude: can I come? Jac: out Jac: and no, you have prior obligations Jude: Who with? Jac: Jesse, clearly Jude: Nah, who are YOU going with Jac: nosy Jude: tell me then Jac: 😂 Jac: why Jude: Why not? Jac: because it'll annoy you, is the easiest answer to that Jude: either it's top secret & that's just fun or it ain't and I'll see whatever 📷 clues on my feed in a bit Jude: I can annoy you loads more with my qs before that, like Jac: if you're such a fan of discretion you wanna work a bit harder at it yourself Jude: ?? Jac: when you said you had loads of questions, I thought you meant more than marks Jude: 😝 Jac: and I'm the poor conversationalist Jude: you're the mute Jude: Jess is the shit conversationalist Jac: who could get a word in with you around Jude: Lucky we all know sign language Jac: for my uni application Jac: nothing else Jude: be a bit rude if you singled out uncle Bob as the 1 person you did talk to Jac: bit fucking weird Jude: that too Jac: not gonna come for your gig on that either Jude: you'd have a job to Jac: thanks for the unintentional compliment Jude: welcome Jac: did you take my good pair of tights? Jude: not gonna go rob the place Jac: guess I'll just freeze to death Jude: RIP Jac: thanks Jude: 1. might be more helpful if I knew where you were going 2. welcome again 3. tis the season ⚰💀💔 Jac: 1. the north pole, to see santa and his pals 2. no need to stand on formalities 3. you're thinking of easter Jude: 1. say hey from me 2. I don't do formal 3. nah, I was thinking of how busy the 📞s are & how many people top themselves Jac: Cheery, aren't we Jac: you need some carols Jude: I can read a room Jac: laughable Jude: wish you would Jude: you a need a laugh Jac: if anyone can make it happen Jac: it wouldn't be you Jude: 🤡🤡🤡 Jac: seeing if Jameson still cries might make me crack a smile Jude: there you go, that's the spirit Jac: ugh stop Jude: ?? Jac: you aren't a fucking samaritan Jude: haven't made it official Jude: probs too young Jac: I haven't looked into it Jac: do you really want to be responsible for loads of losers offing themselves though Jude: when you put it like that Jac: you haven't got the temperament Jude: I heard you ain't looked into it Jude: but alright Jac: I've known you long enough to know you'd push a sane person over the edge Jude: whoops Jude: 🤪 Jac: hmm Jude: You gonna gatecrash Izzy's bday? Jude: I'm so coming if you are Jac: Why would I do that Jac: time how long it is before she has a breakdown? Jude: you did it for Millz' bday Jude: & she didn't FULLY have a breakdown though the gays ain't over it still Jac: Isabelle's life is already ruined, no need to do anything Jude: her ma would probs chuck you out anyway Jac: the role reversal would be nice for her no doubt Jude: as priorities go, doubt it's top of hers for what'd be nice Jac: 'cos giving a shit about her daughter clearly is, alright Jude: why are you going off on her ma? Jac: just because they're poor doesn't mean you can't say anything bad about them Jac: if her mum was about then none of it would've happened Jac: she can't even be arsed to take time off work to give Is time to heal Jude: & if her da was about, her ma might be able to afford to Jude: they're skint, you just said it Jac: if she knew who he was, he might be Jac: don't give me that, as if you know her Jac: she's a shit mum, always has been, and that's what happens Jude: alright Jac: so no, I'm not going to her sad party Jude: you should at least 🗨 Jac: no Jude: Come on, she's having a shit time Jac: Good Jude: 🥶 Jac: I didn't like her before she got felt up Jac: I don't like her now Jude: Bollocks, you were mates for time Jac: yeah, ask her how good of a mate I was Jac: or Amelia Jac: it meant fuck all Jude: 🙄 lies Jac: if you wanna lie to yourself, sure Jude: if you do, crack on Jac: evidence is in my favour so I'm fine with it Jude: Nah Jude: Amelia wouldn't still be 💔🎻😭 if you were such a shit mate & she was chuffed to be rid Jac: Amelia has her own angst to worry about Jac: as you mentioned Jude: yeah & part of it is you Jude: 🗑ing her off Jac: only when her girlfriend cheated on her Jude: & before Jac: you lez off with her if you're so fucking interested Jac: precisely 0 people will be surprised Jude: girls don't do nowt for me Jude: especially ones I've grown up with Jude: 0/10 interest tah Jac: sure Jude: Yeah I am Jac: probably stop going on and on about her then Jude: Touchy Jude: barely said anything Jac: you saying a word is a word too many for me Jude: 🤐 Jude: g2g as it happens Jac: 'tis the season Jude: [phone] Jude: 📞 it if you wanna 🗨 to someone else Jac: fuck off Jude: Love you too Jude: 👋 Jac: nope Jude: my declaration of 💘 isn't a q Jude: soz but not soz Jac: the too makes it false Jude: nope Jude: you love me Jac: no, I don't Jac: go away Jude: yeah, you do Jude: see you later Jac: go jump off o'connell bridge Jude: you're the only one freezing to death tonight, mate Jac: always next year Jac: he must not have got my letter in time Jude: next year I'll probs be ☕🤗 too Jude: defs is the season for that Jac: if you're not going to talk like an adult, then doubly don't bother Jude: 🤣 Jac: I cannot be clearer than fuck off and die Jac: I'm trying to get ready Jude: I'm getting ready too Jude: it's obvs doable Jac: you'll look a state Jac: I don't plan to Jude: funny Jac: just my honest assessment Jude: your snaps tell a different story of the state of you but alright Jac: first I need a laugh, the next you blast me for having one Jac: it's almost like you say whatever bullshit is floating around your head at the time, with no thought or feeling behind it Jude: don't sound like me, that 😜 Jac: not even slightly funny Jude: idc Jac: that's evident Jude: 👍✔ Jac: have fun hanging around your own brother like you wanna fuck him Jude: even less funny Jude: we're proper scraping the barrel now Jac: you'll be hearing that your whole life Jude: 💔 Jac: exactly Jude: 😭 Jac: just do it quietly Jude: can't & won't Jac: it's pretty much white noise at this point Jude: have you got with Raf? Jac: who? Jude: [some boy's profile like it him] Jac: oh Jac: maybe Jac: can't remember Jude: 👌 Jac: why Jude: Jess asked Jude: she's 🤔💭 about it Jac: lovely Jude: can't have been if you don't remember it Jac: she doesn't need to send my regards Jude: obvs, she wanted to know if he's worth bothering with Jude: there's her answer Jac: like anyone is Jude: so dramatic Jac: *not gonna get used all my life Jude: 🙄 Jac: my thoughts exactly Jude: 👋 fr then Jude: leave you to your 💭 Jac: yeah, foreign concept to you Jac: later Jude: ✌️

[shima-draws]

For the Ask Anon or Not, can you do 1-96? Kidding, could you do 17, 35, 96, 78, 61, & 47, please? You don't have to answer any you don't feel comfortable answering, they're kinda personal.

TBH I WOULDN’T MIND ANSWERING THEM ALL LMAO

And nah, no prob it’s fine! I’m happy to overshare on the internet lololol

(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of?

Uhhhh I actually can’t remember? I was crying last night but that was by myself haha

(35) Do You Believe In Magic?

Like? For real? I dunno, I’ve never really thought about it? I love the concept of magic but having it actually exist is a bit of a stretch

(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?

Oof probably Panic! At the Disco, I really love their music!

(61) What Is Your Sexuality?

Bisexual!! At least that’s what I’m going with for now haha I’m still not entirely sure yet since I have no dating experience

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?

I mean?? Yeah? I’d probably ask around for someone who actually knew CPR since I have no idea how to perform it on somebody. But like there’s no way I could watch somebody die while knowing that I could do something to prevent it

(96) Favourite YouTuber?

I actually don’t go on YouTube that often but I love JubyPhonic’s Vocaloid covers!! I’m always checking out her channel for new stuff

#Shima answers questions #Ask meme #Ty!! #gerardwayisgerardgay

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Jude & Jac

Jude: [post rave] Jude: you can stop your 1 woman campaign now, freshers looks fun, I admit it Jac: That's why they give out free shit and throw these things Jac: convince people like you, good to know you've fallen for it 🎣😏 Jude: I'm convinced enough to crash Trinity's 😜✌ Jude: here on out Jac: good luck, jailbait Jac: the two years you've got left in school show 👶 Jac: you can't even grow unconvincing facial hair like the boys in my year Jude: nah they don't, why ma & da get so stressed every time I leave the house 💋👗👠 Jac: Predators enjoying the fact you think so is another issue entirely Jude: 🙄😏 Jude: can never just have a nice chat with you Jac: What do you need to chat about? Jude: what do YOU need to chat about? Jac: That was an...attempt, I'll give you that Jude: alright, here's the nudge, her name starts with S & last time she was ranked she was at like a 4 Jude: but I'm willing to bump her up in light of recent events Jac: You've reconnected and + 1 up, have you? Jac: That's nice Jude: taking a decent 📷 is good for a few points Jude: probs should lose 'em again when it's dad 👍 but whatever Jac: Very generous Jac: do appreciate you keeping your 👍 to yourself Jac: what do you wanna ask then? Jude: ikr I'm in a generous mood Jude: I'm not forcing you into a q & a Jude: I just think it's good you're mates again Jude: be a bit weird having her there & not Jude: some girl isn't gonna be there 📷 to turn her into a headless 👻 whenever shit gets awkward Jac: That your professional opinion, captain obvious? Jac: well, cheers for your blessing, like Jude: I could tell you were waiting for it so Jac: Clearly Jac: the little you think about has always been my GREATEST concern 😏 Jac: and she'll be up and over the 🌙 at her new score, of course Jude: all I REALLY wanna know is if she has a 🌾🐄 accent now, like? be honest Jude: it's still silver 🥄 yeah? Jac: Err, come on, it was NEVER Southside Jac: and even if it was, that'd count for NOTHING here Jac: so posh some of 'em it's a speech impediment Jude: so you're saying she don't fit right in with the 👸🤴 & qualifies as a bit of rough instead Jude: gutted for her Jude: her ma'd be even more 💔 wonder how she is Jac: That isn't funny, Jude Jude: not about her mum, that was well sad Jude: posh boys not thinking Sav is, is a bit though Jac: Have you ever tried engaging your brain before you speak Jac: not being completely insensitive should not be this hard for you Jude: ?? Jac: Don't ?? at me Jac: you say it's 'well sad' but you're the one that cracked a joke in the first place Jude: I didn't Jude: not about that Jac: I'm not pulling it from nowhere, it's still on my screen Jac: I don't think you realize how badly you come across half the time Jude: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to come across like a massive dickhead Jude: I think Sav's alright, I'm not trying to take the piss out of her Jac: Well it's alright this time 'cos you only said it in front of me Jude: be going a bit far to check in with her Jude: not weird at all Jac: you're saying I SHOULD put it past you? Jac: you are weird Jude: I'm saying I'm not about to say it front of her as I don't talk to her, am I Jac: doesn't mean getting into the habit of saying every 'hilarious' thought that enters your head out loud is a plan Jude: yeah alright Jude: fair enough Jac: Anyway, Sav isn't interested in any boys that look like they came from 🐴s not 🐒s Jude: 🤣 Jude: you wanna be careful saying 👦🏽👦🏾👦🏿 look like 🐒 but I get you Jac: She hasn't got a boyfriend of any colour so I weren't saying that Jude: I didn't reckon so, not unless she got a lad to follow her to uni Jude: but who wants that? Jac: Her ex was holding her back hardcore but he's given that up, thankfully Jude: he sounds like a right laugh & not at all like a prick Jac: That's boys for you Jude: 😜 Jude: when do they grow up? 40s or what? Jac: Have you met our father? Jac: never Jude: oh great Jac: 🤷 Jude: it's alright for you, you can get all the 🤓 lads when you're done studying or whatever Jude: least they'll be smart Jac: smart boys are worse Jac: they want to explain everything to you Jude: really? Jude: fuck that then Jac: dumb but kind are the lofty heights you can shoot for Jude: like a 🐶 Jac: yep Jac: loyalty too, forgo the collar Jude: yeah you're right that is lofty heights Jude: maybe when I'm 40, I can find a lad that don't need one Jude: stop him going over the road & 💔 me Jac: shitting where you eat is gross but convenient, that's boys Jude: 👍 Jude: Jess is so lucky he can pick a lad or a girl Jac: Most people are undesirable Jac: gay lads will only touch him if they think he's straight and that's their type Jac: and girls are a whole different beast altogether Jude: that'll be why he's so 😒 Jac: as a rule or more than usual right now? Jude: we all know why he's 😒 right now Jude: you pissed off somewhere more fun without him Jac: I think he's just fine Jac: and he did it first, every weekend, like Jude: speaking of, his latest gig was not the one Jude: so he's probably 😒 about that Jac: like, he was shit, the crowd weren't the right one or the equipment weren't? Jude: he needs a better 🎸 but that ain't news Jude: seemed like he didn't wanna be there to me Jac: Hm, a fight with one of his girlfriend or boyfriends then Jac: meant to make him better so he's fucked up there Jude: relatable Jac: 🙄 Jac: alright Jude: don't be 🙄 @ me Jude: your dating history ain't spotless Jac: I've never dated anyone so it is Jac: 📑 definition Jude: your hook up history then, you know what I mean cos me either Jac: I don't fall in love with them like an idiot, it's entirely different Jude: I fell in love with the one, who I was dating for a bit Jude: I'm not going about falling for 'em all Jac: Still did, didn't you Jac: I can't even remember any of mine Jac: nothing came into play but proximity and timing Jude: 🏆🥇 if you want Jac: take it over your 💔 obviously Jude: yeah Jac: 🙄 I repeat Jude: whatever Jude: I was stupid, it was ages ago Jac: you brought it up Jude: it was my mistake, I can Jac: not a sounding board for your whining Jude: alright, my bad Jac: used to you Jude: you've got your own room now, get over it, like Jac: unfortunuately, that doesn't stop us sharing a family so I don't think I will, thanks Jac: unfortunuately, that doesn't stop us sharing a family so I don't think I will, thanks Jude: it's a part time one for you now, don't have to see this face til 🎄🎅☃️🎁 Jac: Unfortunately, can stay over Spring though, but there's no catering in the Xmas hol 💔 Jude: 👎 - 1 point to St Andy's Jude: is Sav going to her mum or dad for the hols? Jac: better than home, get all my meals and room cleaned for me every week so Jac: literally only just got here, who's thinking about leaving Jac: some other halls you can stay, so maybe she'll find someone there, so she only has to do actual Xmas day or whatever Jude: me now, maybe I should bother going to uni if they're gonna clean for me Jac: only if you get into a good one Jac: and pay extra, hence most people are self-cater, but what else do I need my grant, loan and scholarship for, may as well Jude: 🤔 I hear you, that's unlikely Jac: you have time Jac: two years can change everything Jude: not my 🧠 it can't Jude: my concentration ain't there unless I'm doing 🎨 Jac: you could try harder, and you know it Jude: at what? Jac: concentrating on enough subjects to get you into a decent Uni Jac: you don't need every one, just enough to boost your points Jude: sounds easy that 😤😏 Jude: if I'm only in it for the 🧹🧺 🧼🧽 & I ain't 🤓 enough for one of 'em, ain't much point Jac: It's not about being nerdy or naturally intelligent, it's about being smart with the system Jude: yeah but it's probably also about going cos you wanna learn stuff & be there not just cos you wanna leave home for a bit Jac: most people never use their degrees, so you tell me Jude: that's true Jude: what subjects then? Jac: Depends what you want to do, Art in some form, assumedly? Jac: Fuck Irish and Spanish and PE, duh, knuckle down with your rest to up your points as much as you can then absolutely ace Art Jude: Alright, I'm decent at PE anyway Jude: that'll be easy points Jac: Exactly, no need to purposely fuck them up, but focus harder on the rest, especially the ones you are less decent at without trying Jude: please tell me you've left your notes here Jac: Of course Jac: under my bed, if you haven't lit it on 🔥 Jude: it's only been a week, gimme chance Jac: well, don't reckon they'll let you get a double yet Jac: I still need a place to crash in the holidays and it certainly won't be beside you snoring your head off Jude: might do if I steer clear of lads for a bit Jude: not that I've done half as much with 'em as everyone reckons I have Jac: People find shit to chat regardless, not worth paying no mind to, no more mind to stupid lads either Jude: I don't care if people don't reckon I'm a virgin still even though I am Jude: it's not like it matters Jac: Yeah, those people will all be irrelevant before you know it Jude: loads of people are well jealous of your uni btw Jude: reckoned you'd wanna hear that Jac: Of course Jac: x2 Jude: 😏 Jac: It's more of a flex than Trinity even, and only a handful of people got in there Jude: when did you work out what you wanted? it feels like you've been going on about it forever Jude: but like actually Jac: 🤔 Jac: I can't remember a point where it wasn't my plan, honestly Jac: more abstract when I was little and didn't have the titles and disciplines to put to it but Jac: I always liked murder mysteries and shit, what makes us tick Jude: right Jude: you love a true crime podcast Jac: 😏 Jac: but I'd rather deal with the living murderers than the corpses of their victims so Jude: well yeah Jude: 🦴🦷 bit gross Jac: 🧠 are much better Jude: long as you're not cutting into it Jac: I won't be Jac: if I'd combined biology, and gone that route Jude: I won't be either, tah Jude: science is proper hard Jac: Psychology has a shit load of it involved anyway, but I can blag it Jude: you're SO excited, I can tell Jude: 🤓💕 Jac: Of course I am Jac: it's everything I've ever wanted Jude: it's weird you're so far away though, it don't feel like you are Jac: Glad my prescence and now abscence had/have such a huge impact on you Jac: we both know why though so Jude: yeah Jac: it's different now Jude: good Jac: alright then Jude: give my love to Savannah, I know she'll have missed me Jude: that's the impact I have Jac: 👌👌 Jude: 😝 Jac: Do you really have a problem with Savannah? Jude: course not, I told you I think she's alright, it's just bants Jude: why does she have a problem with me? Jac: yeah, it's a massive grudge she took all the way to Sligo and back Jac: 🙄 Jude: you know what I mean Jude: has she said that I come across as a massive dickhead too or something? Jude: I don't wanna upset her, like Jac: you haven't come up a load in conversation, like Jac: oddly enough Jac: it's that Jac: she's like my girlfriend alright so you can't be a dick about her anymore, alright Jude: alright then Jac: is that all you're gonna say Jude: I won't take the piss out of her no more, like I said, I didn't mean it anyways Jac: you can react, you know Jac: it's big news on multiple counts Jude: it makes sense Jude: I get it now, why you were like that after she left Jac: Good Jac: I want you to know that Jac: don't change how it was, but still Jude: you could've just told me you rated her 10/10 Jude: is that why she left? like her family always seemed a bit off but I didn't think they were that bad Jac: I couldn't, though Jac: no, her mum wasn't coping Jac: as we all know now, and then the Isabelle stuff went down, so their dad stepped in Jude: yeah, but I mean, that's not part of why she slit her wrists, is it? Cos Sav doesn't need that to carry Jac: it was because the dad left and then took them, to put it as bluntly and without nuance as possible Jac: but that's all on him, not the girls, her mum isn't like blaming them, their relationship is getting better Jude: at least she was alright with you too dating then, nobody needs that dark ages mentality shit Jude: she's got enough going on Jac: well, she doesn't know about that yet Jude: but you were together back then, yeah? Jac: no, it's a new development Jac: as in, like, the other night new, no one really knows, I barely do Jac: things were complicated before Jude: oh okay, soz for backtracking so hard, I just thought Jac: yeah, that was the problem Jac: shit was assumed or it wasn't Jude: what a headfuck Jude: you're okay now though, right? Like the other night went alright Jac: I guess for context, before she left, I did kiss her and it went horribly Jac: I loved her then but she didn't and then she was gone Jac: I see how it sounded like pining there but no Jac: it's good now though, things have changed, we both have Jude: I knew something happened that night when you came back early, you were like a 👻 or like you'd seen one Jac: Yeah, that was what it was Jude: it won't happen again if things are different so Jac: not as bad Jude: I'm glad Jude: that this is the ending you get, cos it's not one, it's more like a beginning or whatever Jude: you don't have to be just excited for uni Jac: I know Jac: not that there's anything wrong with just being excited for Uni, tah very much Jac: whatever happens, I think we'll be able to stay friends this time so Jude: or you'll just marry her & have all the kids she obviously wants Jac: let's not get carried away, shall we Jude: 1. you never said I couldn't have bants with you still Jude: 2. there's nowt I don't know about her life plan, she talks LOADS Jac: You only have a problem with that because you want to be the one talking Jude: course I do Jac: it cannot be overstated how much I'd rather listen to her, is the point ❤ Jude: it'd be a bit rude if you were already like nah tah 🤐 it, babe Jude: probably don't do that Jac: That's your top tip and people really think you're not a virgin? Jac: Interesting Jude: it don't work out well for the lads who TRY it with me 😏 Jude: people reckon I'm not cos I'm that 🥇 yeah Jude: & cos lads have loads to say for themselves, most of which is bollocks Jude: but you're not a sounding board for my whinging, I remember Jac: 'Bants', dear sister, 'bants' Jude: 👍 Jac: anyway, I've got to go Jac: there's this variety show that is apparently hilarious, either actually or in how bad it is so Jude: & I've got loads of 📝📚📖📏📐to do if I'm gonna have my own freshers Jude: top quality entertainment like that, literally how could I not? Jac: sure you'll want to be in it yourself 😏 Jude: you're correct Jude: 👋 then

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Ali & Carly

Ali: How do you like your  🥚🍳 in the morning? Carly: no 🐣 Carly: ha Ali: 🐔 didn't show up in your roost later, did he? Carly: he must be scared of you Carly: 🔮 Ali: or my 🐺 Carly: maybe Ali: eggs aside, how you feeling, chick? Carly: 😷🤒🤕🤢🤮 Ali: 👎👎👎👎👎 Ali: unacceptable! Ali: what do you need, kill or cure? Carly: cure forever Carly: im too young to die Ali: I'll swing by with my witches brew Ali: actually doesn't taste like ☠ either Ali: pure 😇 Carly: aw Carly: really? Ali: 'course, not gonna half-arse the job Ali: and it makes a full pot, no sense in not sharing the 💚 Carly: 💙 Carly: wat does it taste like? Ali: like Christmas 🎄🎅🤶🎁❄️🌨️☃️✨🌟 Carly: 😋😊🥰 Ali: it's got ginger and peppermint in Ali: the only other person hanging out their arse is my brother and he would rather die 'cos he's grumpy 👴 man energy so Carly: no 🦃 tho yea?! ha Carly: oh no he sounds like my da Carly: which cute bro is it? Ali: definitely not 😂 Ali: some greens but not sprouts Ali: the freckly one Carly: did u heal my heart to 💔😢? Carly: course itd be the most beautiful one Ali: oh no, you're delirious Ali: I'll come quick 😜 Carly: dont b jealous 👼 hes only the most beautiful boy Ali: 😏 My ma'll be gutted Carly: do u have a tea for that? Ali: 🍋 'cos she's so bitter? Ali: I'll see if she goes for it Carly: noooo 🍯 so she wont be Ali: you're too sweet yourself, Walsh Carly: aw Carly: but ur the 1 who saved me Carly: ur the sweetest Ali: anyone would Carly: nah ur the 1st Carly: not just saying it to u get ur fairy wings Ali: had to fly away from that particular 🐔 plenty myself Ali: harmless and flightless though he is, most the time Carly: yea Carly: he talks about u wen hes been on it Carly: the 1 that flew away Ali: uh oh Ali: can't let a boy ✂ your wings Ali: ever Ali: ever Ali: 👼🏽 🐔 🐧 🐦 🐤 🐣 🐥 🦆 🦢 🦅 🦉 🦚 🦜 🦇 🐝 🦋 🐞 🦗 🦟 🐓 🦃 🕊 Carly: im 😕💫🙃 but idk if those were the guests i danced with Carly: did get a cute lil 🎶🎤 to fall asleep to tho 💙🕊 Carly: 🌚🌝🌛🌜🌞 Ali: very 👸 of you though Ali: I can 👀 it Carly: my ma is trying to make me clean Carly: 🐇🐁🐀🐿🦔🐾 pls Ali: also unacceptable Ali: not 'til you're better Ali: use my wings to fly through and 🤞 he don't get the wrong idea about who I'm there to see Carly: [sends her a pic of whatever caravan mess she caused last night that her mum is raging about] Carly: so u can play a game of spot whats got her 😠 Carly: cuz idk Ali: Fun 🧐🤔🤨 Ali: angry mothers are my forte Ali: [does the circling the hazzards moment on the pic] Carly: making her angry is mine but nah to knowing y ever ever Carly: k ur cute & smart Carly: 🌟 Ali: it's rarely logical, but 🤫 on that or it's hulk levels in 0-60 Ali: how are you this nice when you're 😷🤒🤕🤢🤮 Ali: that's a skill, rare one at that 💎✨ Carly: my da is looking green must of had his own 🎶🍻💃 ha Carly: idk i can b nicer? but k now i know ronan aint been talking bout me when hes 🍺 or 💊 Ali: can be a tea party for three Ali: have to bring his own 🎩 though Ali: not to me anyway Ali: but as you can tell Ali: 🐺 keeps all the 🐓🐓🐓 away Carly: 🐇🐇🐇♠️♣️♥️♦️🐇🐇🐇 Carly: she is fierce Ali: she likes to think so Ali: 🐶 really Carly: course ur not scared of her silly Carly: u love her Carly: im a 🐈 person ha Ali: [sends her a load of pictures of Bluebeard she didn't ask for rather than being like do I love her hmm] Carly: AW!!!! Carly: 🥰🤗 Ali: he's captain ☠🏴 but there's always room aboard Carly: thats the best offer ive had from a gentleman ever ever ever Carly: whats his name? Ali: Bluebeard Ali: and he is MOSTLY a gentleman if you can handle some toe nibbling Carly: 😍😍😍😍 Carly: into it Carly: ive done more for lads i just met who aint as beautiful so Ali: 😂 I feel that Ali: honestly, it's quite comforting, when he doesn't sneak attack you with it Carly: [sends her a selfie that shouldn't be as adorable as it is] Carly: now u can introduce us Carly: 👋 baby blue Ali: the 😍😍😍😍 are mutual Ali: I can tell Carly: yay Carly: 🧡 Ali: is there anything else you need/we want for the tea party? Ali: en-route at last Carly: ur really coming? Ali: yeah, sorry I was ages, it's a whole process brewing it Ali: also a dead giveaway you're 😷🤒🤕🤢🤮 which obvs my ma takes as her cue to be all Spanish inquisition about it Ali: 📚 of my mostly-fictional-but-which-are-and-which-aren't-mother exploits later Carly: sorry iou so much magic Ali: nah, don't worry about it 👸 Ali: who doesn't love a little scandal with their morning brew? she deffo does Carly: its too late im looking for 🍀 Carly: among the 🌼🌼🌼 Ali: awh Ali: I'm never turning down extra luck Ali: we can make daisy-chains Carly: its the dresscode Carly: soz da Ali: does he have a 🧔? Ali: that's a #look Carly: not rn Carly: my ma wasnt on @ me only to clean up Carly: he had his turn Ali: damn it Ali: maybe a nice belt Ali: I'll be 🤔 Carly: dont b 💔😢 he has bushy eyebrows Ali: same Ali: he's earnt his invite back Ali: your ma gonna have to chill though Ali: and it ain't that kinda tea 💔 Carly: you wont b able to tell if shes angry or surprised Ali: 😚 ⬅ I know the vibe Ali: you do you babe Carly: she used to let me sort em out but there was an accident Carly: which im sworn to secrecy about Ali: I'm so good with secrets 🙏🙏🙏 Carly: k Carly: my head zoned out but my hands kept going like Ali: you were meditating you can't help having  🌌🧠 Ali: I'll 🤭 now and never tell, don't worry Mrs W Carly: @ school yea im meditating on your q sir relax Carly: ha love that Ali: they just ask questions to answer it themselves, what is the point Carly: u coming for my ma again? Ali: 🤫 bad first impression, that Carly: shes heard it from ronan too sorry Carly: lad has loose lips Ali: honestly Ali: 🙄 can't keep up with my bad reputation Carly: ud think hed be better at kissing Carly: its talk talk talk Carly: more good things about u than ive made it seem like tho Ali: he was a big talker Ali: probably 'cos he ain't allowed with the lads Carly: if he talked about what a 👼 u are & how 💔😢 he is theyd uninvite him from the bonfire Carly: its sweet really how hung up hes got Ali: he only thinks I'm an 👼 'cos he took my virginity probs Ali: that's more suitable 🔥side chat Carly: he goes on about that alot but I thought he was lying Carly: oh no that sounds bad Carly: not calling u a slag ur obvs not its y he likes u more Ali: 😂 I'm fine with slag Ali: all definition dependent anyway Carly: yea same Carly: can be hot if ur in the mood Ali: right, and if I'm a slag 'cos I didn't marry him then I'll take it Carly: & hes not allowed to marry gorgers theyd wanna throw him in the 🔥 Ali: exactly Ali: we can't both be 💔😢 forever can we boy Carly: just me @ the party til u came to my rescue Ali: 🥺 Ali: What was he even on about then, like? Ali: dickhead Carly: idk i zone out wen he shouts @ me too Ali: I can always poison a cup and send it his way Ali: just say the word Carly: hes not that bad Ali: okay okay, just some laxatives Ali: 'cos he's a bit 💩 Carly: ha Ali: no 🌼🌼🌼 unless he says soz then Carly: but his beautiful curls 🥺 Ali: hmm, a good point Ali: be strong, baby Carly: ill throw one @ him & run away Carly: back to u Ali: you're so adorable Carly: says u Carly: 👼👸🏼 Ali: 💚 we're gonna have an adventure when the tea hits okay Ali: I've decided Carly: k thats the kinda 🎄🎅🤶🎁 it is Carly: i do want the energy of a kid on xmas morning Ali: that's the best Ali: how I'm tryna be every day Carly: 💫⭐️🌟✨⚡️☄️ 🚀🛸 Ali: if only 🚀 Ali: this bike can only go as fast as my lil legs can carry, like Carly: aw baby Carly: i shouldve asked u where u live before this 2nd rescue was launched Carly: im sorry Ali: No distance is too far for a fair maiden Carly: ill have to see what other 🔮 i can find before u get here Carly: dont love ious Ali: there's no ious Carly: [sending her loads of pics of her with or just pics of the cat lady's cats that she's rounding up for this tea party and they're adorable] Ali: 😍💞😻 Ali: okay, non-debt fully paid though Carly: [just rambling about the names she's given each cat cos her and cat lady don't know each other properly til Ali comes along and like facts about each cat/her fave things cos she's a big nerd] Ali: I love them Ali: I'm gonna get them some 🐟🐟🐟 when I get tea party tings Ali: some cream, awh, okay, this is happening Carly: im picking enough 🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼 for everyone Ali: should've put Bluebs in my basket Ali: next time Carly: aw Carly: Humbug might try & fight him Carly: youd b there to protect him tho Ali: I can ref Ali: my little brother is always trying to play-fight everyone so I'm well-versed Carly: is he ticklish? that works for me Carly: broken up lots of fights Ali: big time Ali: his kryptonite Ali: reckon it's against the rules in professional fights but preparing him for anything like any good big sister Carly: ha Carly: aw i bet ur an amazing sister Carly: if i had 1 maybe id wanna be on site sometimes Carly: my ma's eyebrows r hardly a call to home Ali: he might disagree but he's 5 so what does he know 😉 Ali: feel that though Ali: home is just a base, whole 🌍 out there Carly: wen ur 5 you argue to argue Carly: yea if u dont use ur wings theyll think u dont want em 💔😢 Ali: flying is like riding a 🚲 though Carly: r we goin on a 🚲 adventure? Ali: definitely Ali: ugh, need one of those wagons for the 😻😻😻s Carly: ☺️its gonna b so fun! Carly: we might meet more 🐈🐈🐈🐈 Ali: way better than 🐔 Carly: ha Carly: do u have 🔮 left to help me find shoes? Ali: have you checked the fridge? Carly: [a pause while she do] Carly: theyre not there 😕🧐 Ali: damn, that'd be the last place I'd look though Ali: were they in the mess your Ma was sounding off about fr Carly: o mayb Carly: if i was wearing any when you dropped me off Ali: 🤔 I don't know if I recall any glass slippers Ali: I'll ask Lene hold up Carly: 👸 energy Carly: but idk if i wanna scary 🐺 at my door Ali: turns out she's actually your 👵 Carly: ha my grandma is 💍 to god Carly: its not close to the energy shes putting out Ali: she'd probably tell your actual that God is a gay girl Ali: nah she's well 😇 around fam, just hide behind your Ma and me, baby, you'll be fine Carly: ha that wasn't in any of the kids bible stories she sent me every 🎄🎅🤶🎁 Carly: her god is 😠 than Humbug Carly: he likes to shout so i gotta zone out Carly: aw that's sweet ur ma loves her too? Ali: Hooray for Catholicism, yeah? 😏 Ali: she loves my Ma, more like Carly: we spend our sundays on our knees nana but its 🚽🤮 or u kno a bigger sin Carly: u do look like her i remember Ali: that's not QUITE 🚽🤮 levels but close 😂 Carly: nah its nice u have the same 👀💙✨ Carly: idk who i look like Carly: postman maybe Ali: now I don't know whether to 😳 or be 🤨 you like my Ma too Ali: you look like you and that's Ali: 💛 😍 😘 🥰 😚 👸 👼🏽 🐰 🌼 🌻 🌞 🍓 🍑 🍨 🍰 🍭 🍬 🎆 💜 Carly: yea 🤞🙏🌠 the postman isnt my da cuz hes a ride Carly: aw now youve got me 😳 Ali: rude, my postman is not Carly: 🚫💌 then baby Carly: ill text u instead Ali: so grumpy, don't stick your hand right into our house if you don't wanna get bitten, sir Ali: not by me, whatever Ronan has said Ali: though I'm well flattered I'm getting a text back Carly: ha its k its not that u use too much teeth Carly: & course ur my hero Carly: tho 🤞🙏🌠 wont b an sos every time Ali: good, can't have him putting you off with blatant lies Ali: it won't be if I do a better job at the heroics and get there before any bad shit can happen Carly: its k i like it Carly: helps me remember what i did Carly: 💔😢 no lads r spelling their names out in bruises for the who Carly: 🐇🐾🐇🐾🐇 Carly: nooo theres no better u could do Carly: ur flying to me faster than anyone has ever ever Ali: amateurs, like Ali: so rude, ain't they heard you're 👸 Ali: I'm basically there now, prepare for the best tea party you've ever been to Carly: aint wat theyve heard but idc Carly: yay 💙 i havent had 1 since me & my 🧸🧸🧸 Ali: I'll be 🎶🔊 it so get in the know lads Ali: awh, can I meet them too? Carly: not too 🔊 or ur gf will bite me which could b fun but im not trying to do u like 💔😢 Carly: some r shyer than others but if u work ur 🔮 how u did for me ull make friends Ali: fill your boots, babe, I don't reckon she's your type, like Ali: I'll be on my best behaviour 🤞 Ali: the loveliest guest you've ever had 🤞🤞 Carly: be fun though Carly: not boring Ali: 😲😲 Ali: Is that the impression I give off? Ali: or another Ronan tale, either way Ali: gonna have to prove otherwise now in the most extra ways imaginable Carly: nahhh Carly: he don't lie to me its his 1 saving grace Carly: its just like a pls Carly: to u & the universe Ali: I won't be boring Ali: trust me Carly: k Carly: i do ur a lifesaver Ali: nah Ali: just happy to help Carly: im happy we r mates Ali: me too Ali: idk why we weren't before, like Ali: too many people at school Carly: & i dont go much ha Ali: this is true Ali: lesser spotted walsh 🐦 Carly: oooh wat colours am i Ali: 💗💜💛🧡💗 Carly: cute Ali: very Carly: wats ur fave colour? Ali: It's a harder question than people reckon, that Ali: like, there's so many beautiful things of every colour Ali: if I can decide for the day, I feel like I'm doing a disservice to all the others Carly: sorry Carly: i havent decided on mine either Carly: when i was a lil kid it was 💛 for the 🌞 then wen i started goin out it was silver for wat i thought the 🌚 looked like Carly: but ive seen so many new colours since Ali: kids always know Ali: they're much smarter than adults about everything Carly: i bet ur lil bro is the smartest Carly: like u Ali: he likes red for 🚨❌🛑⛔️🚫💯‼️🥊🥤 Ali: and I see the appeal Carly: does he like 🍎? i kno somewhere that sells the reddest shiniest 1s Carly: or we cud just throw 🍅s Ali: he's at the anti-fruit stage Ali: but I reckon he could be convinced if we let him smother 'em in caramel and sprinkles Carly: its a date Ali: Me first