#2022 is almost over… what.

[fortheloveofaussiegrit]

Mark Webber reflecting on Seb's career at the Abu Dhabi GP

#i think these are the first gifs ive made from this weekend because back then my brain was far past its sell by date #lost all my marbles and brain cells and still not over it now #but this one moment #the loooooooooooooooks #almost the same reaction as that clip of mark touching his leg back when they were teammates #seb gazing at him the whole interview #nodding along to what he says #smiling giggling #my heartttt #happy monday #abu dhabi gp 2022 #.2022 #seb/mark #.mw gifs #sewellove gifs #martian #and these are debatable quality cos it wouldn't let me download the vid

[ellohcee]

Huevember days 1-3: terrarium

#terrarium #plants #moss #artists on tumblr #digital art #Huevember #huevember 2022 #ellodraws #so what November is almost over you’re not my mom

[grogumaximus]

#they are humans after all #but max making mistakes from pressure? the same 23 y.o max fighting for his first title against literally the statistical goat? that max? #But honestly when did max make a mistake due to him being under pressure? #Maybe at jeddah 2021 quali n his lockup in singapore 2022 but what else? His last 4 races in 2021? They weren't mistakes #they were clearly deliberate verstaliban tactics he couldn't fight lewis with merc being much faster he would've risked a penalty/dsq #n not regretting losing the championship at the end it was just verstaliban verstalibaning fr n we saw it this year n we saw it last year #even against mick in Silverstone n this is what max said about it #“it was a good battle. I was like 'well he had to know to back off otherwise we are both out' Luckily he is smart enough to.” #lol he got cooked for this but it was verstaliban not pressure n that's my point #“carlos in singapore” old man bffr redbull fucked up their setup n everyone knows that they were the 4th fastest car that weekend #n no don't bring up his hungary n his spain mistakes in 2022 as pressure mistakes they were just mistakes due to gust of wind n wet weather #n guess what he won both of these races #This year he almost lost it at the front when he was like 15s+ from the rest n giggled about it was that from pressure? #no if it happened then it would've been just a mistake #I honestly don't remember anyone excuses max's mistakes are due to him pushing over the limit or he's driving an understeery car that #puts him under pressure as well if he made a mistake then he was a bozo n simply a mistake #(except for jeddah which was a rare mistake from being under pressure n we called it a bottle) #I dont wanna go there but he set up his team when his team n drivers make mistakes without even a title pressure #oof i had to let it out #max verstappen

[scarletspider2the2ndpower]

“Kaine,” Web of Spider-Man (Vol. 3/2024), #1.

Writer: Steve Foxe; Penciler: Greg Land; Inker: Jay Leisten; Letterer: Frank D’Armata

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Web of Spider-Man #Web of Spider-Man vol. 3 #Web of Spider-Man 2024 #latest release #Scarlet Spider #Kaine #Kaine Parker #RAAAAAAAH KAINE MENTION 🗣️🗣️🗣️ #and it’s more than just a panel cameo!!! and he continues to have his spooky stealth suit!!!! #absolutely wild that I finished my read-through all the way back in December 2022 #and now I’m over the moon because I get to update two of my blogs today #as for what’s actually on the panel: does my love for Kaine mean that sometimes I wish he could have his own independent stories #solely focused on developing his character? sure #but I’m also fascinated by where they’ll take Ben and Kaine’s relationship since the last time they were together #outside of a big multi-reality Spider-person fight Kaine got stabbed (I wonder if they’ll bring that up at all) #and I think it’s sweet that he’s trying to look out for Peter in his own way/have a bit of sympathy (feelings of responsibility???) for Ben #(and if you couldn’t already tell I’m just so desperate to see Kaine I’d almost forgive Greg Land’s art hahaha) #anyway love the begrudging stumbling backwards into responsibility #it’s very Kaine

[kindahoping4forever]

5SOS5 Promo Ash tho

#simply won't be getting over it thanks #my brain has decided it's sad girl hours instead of bed time so I'm going thru the stuff I saved to post but didn't last week lol #5sos #5 seconds of summer #ashton #ashton irwin #fan photos #london 2022 #kh4f post #excuse me while i just stare at these thanks 👁️👄👁️ #that last picture #what the actual fuck #the first picture #the curls poking out the back of the beanie #earring and neck #that ring #it fine #oh to be the straps of a tote bag being gripped so tightly yet so carefully by one Ashton F. Irwin #it's almost 2:30am if that wasn't clear lmao

[mig15faggot]

i got the best and worst booster box ever i pulled three blue eyes. but this was pokemon and it was the fucking duck. quaxlys evolution. i got a bunch of everything cause its a booster box but i pulled three quaquavals. i did it like an advent calendar with my friend. we opened maybe five packs the day we bought it and restrained ourselves for a month and had a pack a day it was so fun pulling these!

the third quaquaval was the rare one but not the gold one and i was so mad lmao it was the second last pack. forreal! and my pulls other than the full art wooper (lets fucking gooo) were shit i wanted a clodsire! i pulled one buying three packs a few days later no big deal lmao but i was so mad at this box.

the last pack had the rare tinkaton. i also got a full art boss's orders too im so happy it was such a funny fucking box in the end i pulled three fucking blue eyes i swear if i saw a fourth quaquaval too early i mightve actually ripped it in half. my problem is I LOST THEM ON THE FUCKING BUS AND LIKE MY WALLET ITS FATE IS WITH THE HUMANS OF OTTAWA AND THE FUCKERS AT OC TRANSPO THAT I TRUST SO MUCH FUCK MY LIFE

#either way people are finding cool shit no wonder they wont give me my shit back youre all thieves and im a dipshit i left my wallet behind #and my three fucking blue eyes #sorry new york joey wheeler wake the fuck up #dont come to my town with your red eyes black dragon early GRIMA. AMERICA. CALIFORNIA. IM TALKING TO NY HERE #mitski lady lamb st vincent anyone #torres is already too involved lmao go check out HUG FROM A DINOSAUR #sound of the summer of 2022 #go talk to torres shes almost done touring in texas i think #ramadan is almost over #i dont wanna check back in at the fucking psych ward to hang out with the actual king of canada lol #he keeps saluting everyone theyll never let him out and he wont drop the king shit for a whole year if he needs to #hes so doomed this king of afghanistan and canada. this afghan guy stuck in ottawa and he knew he was a prince for a while lmao #I DONT NEED TO GO FIST BUMP HIM MORE AT THE PSYCH WARD LMAO I KNOW I NEED TO SHOW HIM SUBTLETY WITH THE DRS BUT HOLY SHIT LMAO #montfort let my people goo. one day more?? les mis crowd??? someone give alison a fucking nightmare already #im friends with someone who played lead on american idiot for a uottawa production idk if you went to see that but that was buddy lol #hes in toronto now all the actors and serious people move to mtl and toronto whats our problem with the crown anyway?? mary simon?? #put a ring on it?? #im the exhalt and i have a nice big freckle where the ring goes i swear to god

[snapbackslide]

two traumatic things happened to me today but then i got to watch twenty one pilots’ first live show of the new era on someone’s instagram live so ! 😁

it actually felt like i was right there and i can’t believe this is all real rn. i have waited for this era for SO LONG. and to think i got to hear overcompensate, next semester, and backslide in a live version… wow.

i got really tipsy earlier, which i don't drink anymore but i was in so much emotional pain and needed to forget. there was a form of abuse that took place at work, then almost got into a car accident because some dude was pissed at me and tried to cut in front of me violently and gave me the finger. and to top it off he looked exactly like my ex. i was shaking for hours after i got home because i couldn’t believe all this would happen. and i just don’t think i ever want to remember today. so i’m prolly gonna delete this post later.

but i wanted to vent a little cause i missed talking to people on here, even though no one wants to hear my sob stories anymore. i just can’t believe the trauma i’ve been going through repeatedly. just so much abuse i was never even aware of, and some that i’m still going through and i’m having a hard time breaking free from.

having my favourite band back though is doing so much for me mentally, their songs feel like emotional support, and my drives were my therapy until the bullshit from today happened. i’m just always scared and broken and i’m really trying my hardest, i swear. i’ve healed from a lot but then new shit happened and my loneliness has been the worst it’s ever been. i don’t know.

i know i need therapy but i don’t know where to get it from, because i can’t trust anyone with my mind apparently. i’ve tried, twice, and both instances failed. once from a stranger, once from someone i knew. it just feels so crippling and lonely and in the morning i feel like i can get through it myself, but when i near the afternoons i just want to never wake up again. i know that’s dark and i’m sorry but like, yeah, that’s just where i am rn.

hence the lengthy breaks and being more quiet on my public social media. and then, watching guys i liked being wrapped around other girls, watching all my friends be coupled up and achieve their goals and being happy, it just enhances the loneliness, and i want to be happy for them but how do you do that when depression is so loud it won’t even let you breathe sometimes.

i don’t know how but it feels like i’m both getting better and getting worse with the years. maybe medication’s the only way, maybe i just need to find one single person who will genuinely care about me, maybe it won’t get better because our world is fucked and watching the news only makes me want to dig the hole deeper. all i know is that i want to be alive and i want to heal. i just wish it wasn’t so hard and fragile.

#many triggers here #will delete later as i said because it’s a dark post #thank goodness for music. thank goodness for tøp. idk what i’d do without them #i didn’t even intend to write so much but i’ve had a writers block for a few days and it all just started pouring down #i mean alcohol probably unlocked it too even tho it ain’t the healthiest method #anyway. i’m fine. i’ll be fine. life just kinda sucks some days i suppose #i’ve been weight lifting a ton - going to the gym almost every day #drinking enough water and actually sleeping. eating lots of veggies and fruits. taking vitamins #journalling and praying and going into the city and having brunches with friends and mom #i’m doing everything right and that just proves that you can have everything but it still won’t fix deep depression #i think i probably hit a point in 2022 where it just became irreversible #the one person i lost who tipped the iceberg over and really made me lose all hope #and subsequently i started treating people like i’d already lost them because i was so done with living and trying #trying to repair that now feels impossible #and ngl some days i don’t even want to. the world has just become insufferably lonely #anyway i gotta sleep #at least i have tøp for now and that’s enough to keep me going #tw: depression #tw: alcohol #tw: trauma #tw: abuse #tw: accident #tw: mental health #i hope i didn’t miss any i’m sorry if i did #**

[novathesheltie]

We have arrived in our new home in Marseille!

#dogblr #sheltie #shetland sheepdog #nova #2022 #guys…what have i gotten myself into #Marseille is a NIGHTMARE lmao #the driving here is absolutely insane #i almost got into a car accident within the first 2hrs of being here #then Nova almost fucking killed himself by being so excited and not paying attention and jumping over the stairs at the entrance of the yard #which has a big DROP and he just. WENT OVER IT. #thankfully branches and the tight wall slowed him down but jesus FUCK #(he is fine) #and yeah overall i am Stressed #this city makes me Stressed #the constant noise is stressful #the driving is stressful #the level of safety is stressful #my schedule is going to be insanely Stressful #i’ll have very long days (why don’t the french put classes during lunch break????i don’t need a 2hr lunch break) #and since i’ve done my studies in english thus far switching to french has been also a source of stress but i’m not even thinking of that- #-yet bc i am just so Stressed about the other things #i am not made for the city and i cannot wait to get this year over with so i can run back to the country side

[lightningfilledsaber]

I'm just so fucking glad to be alive

#mud rambles #suicide ment in tags #I'm really emotional right now #I was so close to killing myself a year and a half ago. #fuck. almost all of 2021 and a good portion of 2022 i was actively suicidal #I'd started self harming again after being clean for YEARS #I hated myself and my body again after all the fucking work I did to build myself up #all over people who treated me like fucking garbage and literally USED me #now I have friends who actually give a shit about me. who are straight up with what they want out of our relationships and where we stand #I'M FUCKING ENGAGED!!!!!!!!! #I'VE BEEN WITH MY FIANCE FOR 5. YEARS. AND WE'RE ENGAGED!!!! #I've been on T for almost a full year! #I don't dread waking up every fucking morning and while it's still hard. things are still happening and sometimes it sucks... #I don't wanna kill myself anymore #despite it all #I'm so fucking glad and grateful to be alive

[revelingrexan]

this project started because my brain was like "oh Spark's sticker (yellow team leader) has a really nice smile. :) ... nice smile = White HatOHCOME ON"

then i needed to see him in all the poses (in the blue team outfit for the rest because he'd be blue team)

#pokemon go #villainous au #heroic au #valorous au #<- that's what i call my AU 'cause it's a good cool word that's pretty close to the word 'villainous' and i feel clever #rexan's art #(so yes now we've got heroic & valiant & valorous [i'm the only one who uses valorous but #you'll need to pry that out of my dead hands i'll keep using it and anyone else can too i'll just be stubborn over here in my corner] ) #heroic white hat #valorous white hat #I ACTUALLY SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON THESE PICTURES IT'S RIDONKULOUS #(but it was very fun and these turned out very cute so no regerts [sic] ) #i think these were my first edits like ever. as in #actually tracing the source pictures. ...wait i made an edit for glistening-gay's Villatic AU characters. but i #finished these Pokemon Go pictures actually back in August 2021. (I KNOW. ALMOST TWO YEARS AGO) #(I JUST NEEDED TO ADD MY USERNAME AND I FINALLY GOT MYSELF TO DO THAT) #-checks date of Villatic post- ...AHA. THE VILLATIC PIC WAS MADE IN 2022 MORE THAN SIX MONTHS LATER. THESE *WERE* MY FIRST EDITS #all other redraws i've done have been eyeballed #...i think my tag rambling is done. ...okay cool yay i finally submitted these pictures to the internets! woo!!

[puzzlekinq]

did you know me and edward are actually besties and i give him so much love and compliments and affection and tell him hes more than good enough and handsome every single day and that i enjoy his company and that hes so special and important. so whatever you think is canon never happened. hes happy and is finally starting to love himself and heal from his trauma. everything is happy and fun and good!! :)

#i did not almost cry several times over riddler year one. what are you talking about. #edward nashton #paul dano riddler #the riddler #riddler 2022 #riddler year one #edward nigma #edward nygma #riddler

[blyszczopies]

[ID: a traditional drawing of Fursona running. he is a white and lime green siamese rabbit with ears shaped like small wings, and long, rainbow fur coming out of them. it is also wearing a pink spiked collar. End ID]

hi my ethernet wire arrived i can start posting my art again

#rabbit #bunny #furry #my art #2022 #its from june idk from what day exactly but i drew it during Pyrkon #btw i wish i could say i have lots of stuff coming that ive been working on slowly but ihad to drop it all #cause rn i need to finish a huge painting in a week. and write about an exhibition and put together a portfolio #im in finland again and my first course is almost over #also i got a tattoo today yay #oh also from now on im only posting on fridays

[pepprs]

meant to post abt this yesterday and ik it’s kinda mean but i think the counselor i have rn is the worst one ive ever had possibly even worse than (or tied w) the one i had over the summer who kept ending our sessions well before the full hour was up when i was going thru a horrible time and kept spending the sessions mostly talking abt herself and her own problems. actually no now that i write that out she was probably the worst (though she was one of the warmest / nicest and our personalities meshedreally well so i feel bad saying that she was the worst). but the one i have now is so…. lke idk. my experience w the worst counselor made me rly want to work w a clinical intern again bc i wanted someone who would like. actuallytake things seriously and give me the time i was paying for and spend all of it talki ng abt the things i was paying to talk abt and draw from the most recent / cutting edge info instead of entirely personal experience (WHICH AGAIN I FEEL SO BAD ABT BECAUSE. my work is all abt healing each other by sharing things like that and i realt did like her but it just wasn’t appropriate i guess bc it was a counseling relationship!) but my current counselor is so… rigid and restrictive. like i think he is trying too hard to apply what he’s being taught and he seems like nervous and talking out of his ass and he masks that by taking up SO much space and spending like 3 minutes responding to every one minute i talk and literally like strongarmimg the convos and deciding what we’re going to talk about and moving us on to a new topic abruptly before i feel ready to move on and like taking time out of our sessions to do paperwork / admin stuff so he doesn’t forget later (and a lot of the time i think he’s doing it while im talking bc i see his eyes moving around his screen and the light on his face like he’s not even listening to me). and it fucking sucks. i want to crack him like an egg so bad and make him realize it doesn’t have to be this way but i know that’s not my responsibility and in our session last night i basically gave up trying to create enough space for myself and just let him steer things bc i was having side effects and it was just rly unsatisfying

#purrs #i know it is entirely within my right to address these things both for my sake and for his / his future clients but im so scared lol like i #don’t want to tell him he’s doing a bad job and making it hard for me to navigate but literally when you keep steamrolling and silencing me #and cutting me off and forcing me around… yeah. also he has to record our sessions and show them to his profs / supervisors and it’s so like #idk. ive been recorded in sessions before and im totally fine w it but there’s 2 things abt this specific instance of it thst distress and #annoy me. 1) when we sign on to our session he says like 2 things to me then starts the recording and is TOTALLY fake and forcing it like #hello tess welcome to our session and he’ll repeat some of the stuff he said but in a more like.. extensive way so it just feels rly fake #to me lol. WHICH ALSO REMINDS ME 1.5) not related to the recording but every time he asks me questions he asks like… 3 questions but doesn’t #give me space to answer the two like it’s just a bridge for him as he&/ working his way to the thing he actually wants to ask me and i #fucking hate when ppl ask me questions and then answer them themselves or like don’t want to hear the answer. i had 2 profs like that in #brighton and it fucking pissed me offff so being around someone who does that again is rly agitating ik it’s just a nervous habit but yeah. #and 2) i am kinda concerned that none of my counselors profs or supervisors have seemed to call him on how he doesn’t give me space or let #me guide the convo. like idk maybe it’s just that all of my counselors before him were too loose w me but i feel like it s not supposed to f #feel this rigid and i am kinda scared abt the implications of no one actually watching these recordings and see how i try to speak but he #almost always talks over me and i just give up. lol. i like him he’s a nice person i just think he’s nervous and trying too hard and it #would be passable for like.. the little kid clients who usually go there but it doesn’t feel good for me a 23 year old who has had like what #6 counselors before him all of whom gave me space and didn’t shove me around. i miss the counselors i had from oct 2020 - jul 2021 and sept #2021 - feb 2022 they were the best ever and i am inches away from terminating here and just trying to go to wherever they are full time now #and working w them again bc they rly got me and i didn’t know how good i had it lol. i guess i don’t need someone as good anymore bc things #in my life are objectively better than they were during those times but my mental health is still bad so i would uhhh… like someone good #and don’t think that’s too much to ask and need to get it into my head that i CAN ask it. ok rant over #*no one actually watching the recordings has seen / pointed out to him how he steamrolls me etc etc

[cuntylestat]

magnus’ lack of self-worth when his facade is stripped away vs. alec’s unconditional and all consuming love for everything magnus is. unstoppable force vs. immovable object

#i am going insane in the membrane over malec in 2022 what else is new #is self-worth even a word idk it's almost midnight

[hibiscuswolverine]

What the fuck do you MEAN Christmas is this coming Sunday???? What the fuck December??

#like what 😭 #no way 2022 is almost over

[m0e-ru]

(reading my own ao3) wow this bitch is so correct and on point i wish there was more . cmon guys look at this shit https://archiveofourown.org/series/2536405

#kommento #// blatantly promoing my writing . i miss my 2021 early 2022 era i wrote so good #// not to shit on myself but i kind of lost my charm on that latest one from december #// but like woww ughhhh i wish there was more <- the writer #// FIVE MINUTES LATE I LOVE YOUU yorue the fucking epitome of the ever i loveyou kissing you #// AND ANTIHISTAMES !! AND EXTRA TIP and youre lost i love all of you i lveo you all mwa mwma mwamwamwa #// kind of fell off and lost the writing style i liked on dont let it rain BUT STILL i wrote something so IM STILL WINNING !! #// when i finish my kitchen fic it's over for all of you (shes almost at 2k and shes still going) #// when i finally finish something so au specific so self indulgent IT'S ALL OVER !!!!! #// i forgot my love for serialization and seeing things come together and whole i just wonder if i'll still have the ambition after that lon #// (in the corner) wow i wish theres more content of adachi and th attendnatn being friends #// besides the /wildly gestures at whatever the hell goes on in the iznmi tags/ whatever the FUCK this is #// i have ao3 svior btw theres so much shit censored when i open up the tag after 27 years and i do Not want to know what's in there #// sometimes i wish i could start all over and feel That Rush again where everythings so good and fun and whimsy #// learning new things one after the other like it's SO EXCITING !!!! just without the horrors this time #// and that i have YOU GUYS !!! (youre standing across me from the convenience store counter while i flop at using the barcode scanner) #// i wouldnt even KNOW adachis place in fandom i'll just be like LOOK AT HINM !!! hes so fucking terrible these two should be besties #// OKAY enogh remensicneing i need to GO !! BACK TO ACTUAL WORK !!! i love you all i hope youre all healthy