#AS IN KEEP MYSELF SAFE GUYS.

[justmwahstruly]

weee whiteboard doodles on @koifsssh board tehehehehe

when cant draw rainy but fren comes to rescue 🥲

(and how dearly I love butler rainy and maid molly…)

(DID NOT DRAW THAT ⬆️ clearly)

ooh spoopy 😦

side by side comparison??

i see no difference/j

it is ALWAYS super fun drawing with the koi, go follow them if you aren’t already

love you! (platonically)

#which is a sin/J- #wooooough tag time #rainy dewdrop #molly melancholy #welcome home actor au #welcome home oc #welcome home renaissance au #!? WHAT— #no probably not #i has a different idea in mind now nyeheheheheh #im gonna kms #AS IN KEEP MYSELF SAFE GUYS. #KEEP #MYSELF #SAFE #rember it #odelle orchid #welcome home mob au #anyways get in losers were going shopping/j #none of you guys are losers yall are super cool

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[moeblob]

kitty kitty kitty

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #listen ok hear me out ok there is a wonderful duo i know online #who have a lovely orange cat named ferdinand and i love him and this is ONLY a problem #because i now have a funky lil orange kitten boy myself and his name is Caramel Latte and i keep #almost calling him the wrong name and im so embarrassed w myself #but after spending a year looking at someone elses cat via photo spams when i can its like #aha thats the name of a Cat #anyway i love my lil fella my lil guy #and we adopted him and his mama and they were basically living upstairs in the guest room to be Safe and Sound #bc i am the only resident upstairs and so its quieter #and so for a week the mom would come to my room and just MEOW at 4am #and id be like ope my turn #and then i would leave my room and go to the guest room and play with Caramel Latte and his 4am zoomies #im designated other parent and its truly an honor ok #my dad would be like oh no cant find the lil guy and im like ohyeah ? bet? and he would RUN ON OUT and sit on my foot #Latte loves me a lot...te..... #and i showed a lil video of him to someone on discord and her response was #his ears are too big for his lil head #and its true he has huge ears and i wuv him and he will grow into them eventually its fine he is hardly just over a month old #anyway kittens my beloved

[tasteofyourblood]

and here's to my favorite ridiculous scene from ravenous (1999), cheers 🥂

#specifically the transition from 'safe travels to you martha' to the glaringly gay homoeroticism #that only lasts for like 10 seconds really #(im just uploading vid clips of scenes i wanna keep for myself at this point) #ravenous #ravenous 1999 #guy pearce #robert carlyle

[kuroosdarling]

hello friendz !! i am packing my bags and moving to @tetzoro !!! please come join me if ya want ^_^

back to navi.

#i’ve been so annoying about this all week to my buddies but i have made the decision to archive this blog ! #i’ve had so many good memories here and have met so many amazing people that i get to call my friends 🥹 #i’ll forever be thankful for this blog for giving me a safe space to be myself and fully indulge (aka go delulu) in anime men #a large part of me does not want to make the move but tbh it comes down to organization #when i made this blog i never thought i’d meet mutuals and find a community here #if i knew then what i knew now i would’ve just made a new blog from the start #but managing a main blog and side blog sucks !!! (for me) bc i view this as my main blog #and tbh a fresh start sounds really nice #so !! if u read all this im giving you a pat on the head and a freshly baked cookie #i hope to see u guys at my new blog !!! #i am going to try to follow a lot of u from it but also !!! #no pressure to become moots again if ya don’t wanna <33 #love y’all sm #ALSO ! i will be keeping this blog up #forever my shrine to kuroo tetsuro #(my new blog is still v kuroo - centric .. don’t get me wrong. he is still the man™️) #okay im nervous !! laterz !!! <3 #⁺. ʚ aims lore ɞ ⋆˙

[gaydexvocaloid]

wip 2 :::::

#oliver #kyo #vocaloid kyo #vocaloid oliver #wip #my art #vocaloid #fanart #digital art #procreate #ahhgggg i’m so sloowwww but i keep finding issues with it so i have to fix… #zola project #ahgggggg #oliver seems like such the type to be like ‘my mommy says no swearing and her word is law so GUYS STOP!!!!1!11!!’ #and kyo is just so silly and kind and wholesome.. #no matter what anyone says to him he will be like ‘omg u did such a great job!! ^_^’ #kyovy2 au where theyre playing idk fortnite and #vy2 tells him to kay why ess and kyo is just ‘hehe ur so silly >_< i will keep myself safe thank u!! ur so cool’ #anyway….

[cavinginhisfvce]

i saw a post on twt that said

"They never want to discuss what triggered you. Just how you reacted."

and immediately i thought of billy and all the antis that use his fight with steve as a way to paint him as villain or act like his anger was unjustified. he didn't just beat steve's ass bc he felt like it. y'all ignore the red flags steve was just flaunting and acting as if billy was wrong for reacting the way he did.

billy is clearly a person whose been hurt by adults, in more ways than the show let on, and he thought he was saving max from forcibly growing up in the same ways he had to.

he thought he was protecting her, and instead max was added to the list of people who have done billy wrong and failed to care about what their actions would do to an already messed up kid. (she too, thought she was doing the right thing in the moment, but nobody ever focuses on how max could've easily killed him with sedatives meant for an otherworldly being.)

it's always "he's violent and racist!" and never "he's violent and intolerant from years of abuse and forced ideals"

if you are born of a bad environment, and you're forced to stay in that environment, guess what happens? you are more likely to become a victim of circumstances and your upbringing than to stop the cycle forced onto you.

billy never stood a fighting chance because no one ever bothered to find out why he acted the way he did, they just called him a bad guy and moved on with their lives like he didn't matter.

and to them, and all the characters in the show, billy truly didn't matter.

#billy hargrove #billy antis dni #billy hargrove deserved better #billy hargrove protection squad #harringrove #steve harrington #hargrove mayfield siblings #billy hargrove character study #quotes that remind me of billy #im always so hurt when i think of nobody hearing billys cries to be seen or even just heard #billy hargrove deserved love #billy hargrove was dealt a shitty hand and he did what he could with it #in the end it didnt matter if he thought he was keeping her safe #or if he was abused for majority of his life #bc hes the bad guy right? #hes the irredeemable villain #an unloved lonely teenage boy is the worst person to ever live? #apparently so #god I hope billy antis never meet victims like a lot of billy stans (myself included) bc you all want us to be uwu baby victims #who cry at loud noises #but the reality some of us are violent and self destructive but thats all we know #all we were taught #fuck billy antis

[boxwinebaddie]

an uncle nina check in <3

hi team! thanks for sticking around! i know my blog isn't always the most exciting and enriching place in the world in terms of content, but i am very /content/ to have you all here. <3333

i promise, oddly enough, i have A TON of inspiration and ideas for all my weird styles ( if you're curious about anything please lmk! i've been trying to flesh out my aus out lately ), i've just been in a major bummer depression era lately, so it's hard for me to get my asks done and i'm having a hard time committing to finishing my writing. :<

i think it's because of stress and my bipolar, but i am trying to get back on the horse! ( are we all laughing at the idea of me trying to get on a horse? i'd start crying help city girl fail moment for me ) yeehaw!

and while, unfortunately due to the instability ( fabulous legendary iconery ) of my pretty girl popstar personality, i do not know whether i will be answering almost no questions or one million, regardless of that, i just wanted to let you know, i'm still here, still kicking my feet, twirling my hair, cooking...i'm just really trying not to force myself to put out anything i don't like...and only do what makes me truly happy.

however, nothing, my dear sweet e-darlings...

makes me happier than coming home to all of you. <333

so thank you for flooding even the darkest corners of my life with bright light, supporting my phantom fics and being wonderful,

uncle nina xx

#nina speaks #hi my loves #idk what the point of this was #i just know my blog is really inconsistent and i know i dont really post anything or anything that useful #but i wanted you to know that i love you very much and i still care a lot about all of you and all my content actually #which i have been fleshing out in notebooks and google docs i've been doing lots of world building and character study #so feel free to ask me something challenging about any part of my nina sp auniverse that interests u itll make my brain work #i've also been taking very silly but dilligent notes abt what ravesey style looks like for ter so if u want to laff at those u can #i just love taking notes on detail and understanding exactly what characters look like or what settings appear like idk #might be some experimental writing on here i like doing different mediums like i was being silly #and started writing a netflix trailer for rm haha i also have been doing weird personality tests and questionnaires #i've been trying to think very deeply about tkak and my tfbw styles if u have any questions there and am deep plotting rm #trying to be impactful while also keeping things fun and learning to enjoy myself again i suppose #so again thakn u for being here sorry its weird on here but thank u for supporting me as i learn and grow my sunshines #also ik i have a ton of asks and uve already asked me so many things so never feel inclined to message me #but i love hearing what ur curious about hopefully i can answer some stuff eventually but again im on a break #i'm here but i'm not this is a safe place we try and fail we have fun and promote style world domination thru my weird styles #ilysm i'm shutting up now i promise i'm still here i'm just trying to be healthy and happy esp rn when i am not emotionally well #gotta protect my peace and my vibe palace but im still here! #MWAH MWAH MWAAAAAH #really trying to heal my inner child or like the girl in me that liked to write silly stories and create crazy things #weird hcs big dramatic plots silly stuff...i want to honor that girl because she was happy and free and had fun #and i want to do that again so lets have fun guys #no judgement no seriousness just good vibes and good reads #welcome to the uncle nina learns to laugh again arc #i hope you enjoy it

[spaghett-onaplate]

sixth day at my new school and i didn't sit alone at lunch today 🥳🥳

#woohoo!! #some girls invited me to sit with them so i did and chatted to them and this other guy #some of them are in my classes!! they were all very nice #honestly i was aiming to just try and fit in with the cishet boys and last week when i heard the rumour i was gay i was kinda freaked out #but i've scoped out the situation and it's not unsafe to be out (as bi. not anyone's business i'm trans) #so i realise it's better to just be open and have better chances of finding the right people than living in fear and squashing myself to-- #--fit in with the wrong people. bc if i can't be fully myself around someone then why would i want to be good friends with them?? #so yar i'll stick with other queer guys and supportive girls. gay guy/straight girl friendships are stereotypical but it's an ecosystem tha #works in a situation like high school tbh #ooo and i guess he was away today but the guy from a couple of my classes who i think is cute is in that group so added bonus #o and actually unrelated but at recess i went to this queer group thing i was invited to by a teacher last week #(recess is first and lunch is sceond) #i wasn't sure if i was going to go (mostly bc of my 'blend in' mindset) but i'm glad i did!! it was pretty nice #mostly just nice to get an idea of 'safe' people and teachers yaknow #'people and teachers' -- those aren't two mutually exclusive categories of being ajdsgjf but ykwim #and if i didn't go then i probably wouldn't have been in the better mindset for being just myself with everyone at lunch #so wahoo yippee :D #now i just needa keep talking to everyone and putting myself out there a bit more and i'll find the right people :)

[shirogane-oushirou]

fighting off a little panic attack (yay yippee) and i'm soooooo tempted to start working on the poke!ren tag to keep myself distracted even though he's still so /gestures vaguely/ right now kJNSKJFNJK ARGH!!!!!!!

#so for now i'm catching up on some drafts while i listen to music for poke!ren inspo u_u;; #i just want to draw myself riding my bug horse next to him KJANSDKJ #i also want to start revising his team bc playing x has made me realize he's probably just kept froakie unevolved. #idk greninja never seemed like a very 'ren' pokemon... but froakie? weird little guy with a couple of hang-ups??? love that beast. #also i LOOOVE the image of him w a delibird who uses its tail to safe-keep samples or quickly deliver things to the lab #but like. in that case maybe he'd be better off just bringing a faster flying type like pidgeotto or pidgeot with a sample case attachment. #(totally not influenced by the pidgeotto currently on my team who goes by the name of a kind of mushroom. nope. nah.) #(also dw about the panic KJNAKJSN it's only Simmering. just my usual health worries!! nothing new to see here kjsdnfkjn.) #📌 [ my posts. ] #🐸 [ look ahead. ] #✏️ [ my scenarios. ] #pokemon -

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

might remake to a new account entirely and change the name i go by

#depresso rant incoming skipp all this if you dont wanna hear it #txt #el/ena might have to become a deadname for lack of a better word sjdhfg #putting the slash because im beyond paranoid now #nothing on this earth is sacred i feel like ive lost the only safe space i had left #would you guys call me some silly name if i asked :-( fuck #shit im so hurt this is the worst #trying to be positive so im not just a huge drag but im so isolated in my real life and as stupid as it sounds #tumblr was becoming a little home id carved out for myself #and i feel like im never going to feel safe here again #but in order to tell you guys about a new blog url ill have to post about it which means they might see it too and uagshfg #and god it doesnt even matter bc my arts out there anyway and a few random 10k+ note posts so theres a chance theyll find me no matter what #and shit i loved so many of my old urls but i cant ever reuse them and i feel like im seriously losing my fucking mind trying to hide #like tumblr and having you guys was the only thing keeping me going through all this shit and it feels like ive lost all of that comfort #this is gonna be the worst fucking birthday ever dude just for that extra cherry on top like i seriously have nothing going for me rn SJDHG #denver and a few lovely mutuals to keep me kicking but oughgf #i feel sick #feel like i need to shower and scrub my soul raw to get this vile ass feeling out #god im sorry to be negative i rlly am i try to keep things cheery round here but im styeadily reaching my limit #and i want to reblog stuff to comfort myself but i dont want to reblog anything in case theyre watching and fuck im so dfjsfgjksfjkgsfkdgh #i could really go for a hug right about now s'all

[persy-r-bozo]

Sitting here silently emotional about red guy again beacuse him in transport hit a little. Just a wittle

too close to my severe anxiety home.

#i love that episode so much i love it so much #i love getting anxiety rep like that fr. #i know its not confirmed. but WOWZA #my interpretation and headcannon and how. real it all was was very yes. #the small build up #the anger. the out of character frusteration. #the constant trying to keep pace and peace. #the fear the eventual BREAK #the words just pouring out. your area getting foggy and fadeing inward. #and then the end. #whare your just sitting there. feeling stupid and awlful. and you just sit there in scilence. #cry and try to comofrt yourself. and whoever was around to witness it. #it all felt very real. and it made me feel anxious myself. then i felt oddly safe ad seen. #i had never seen it potryaed so real like that before. its always been small or fast. #thus transport became my favorite episode. and i started to like red just a Liiiiitle bit more than the other two #like by 2% more #i love all three there all so well made and so neat and AHHGSHABcghaggh. #dhmis #dhmis red #dhmis red guy #anxiety #dont hug me i'm scared #dont hug me im scared #dont hug me im scared red #i cant belive my first time talking about my own interpretations and thoughts on this show online #is hidden within the tags. #so if you read all this #COOL! thanks! :D

[venn-ila-ve]

cannot find my lab coat

#i need to stop keeping things a bit too safe. WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU #istg my parents are tired of me losing stuff and so am i #although this one is their fault as much as it is mine #ALSO we went to get uniform mended today and the guy asked if i wanted lab coat. i said no i have it and I CANNOT FIND IT #i hate myself my life is a cosmic fucking joke

[justmwahstruly]

well i ended up making a fall one

me finks it leans a bit more towards halloween than it does general fall

(i hate drawing leather… i barely put in enough effort for the bit of shading, no lighting… im so lazy)

#ss molly #molly melancholy #welcome home oc #sword swallower #swarod guys she likes swarods #anyways imma kms (keep myself safe what are you thinking) #so #*dies* #blehp :p

[zenmai--jikake--no--komoriuta]

aaaaaa woke up at 5am for a delivery shift at work and then straight off to the city for a dentist appt afterwards.......... tired!! then I have some errands to run, a shower to have, floor to sweep and this year's annual birthday letter to write for James and then I can finally rest...... aiming to finish P3R tonight while James is at work and I can enjoy it without interruptions, right before FFVII Remake p2 tomorrow (assuming it gets delivered, otherwise it will be a next week job) :')

#busyyyyyyy #a day in the life of kate #between yesterday's early wakeup for physio and today I am so ready for sleep #not keen for this dentist appt because I really fell behind on flossing the past half year #to be fair I didn't anticipate two deaths in the family between then and now! #but I am also terrible at remembering to floss unless I've had popcorn or corncobs lmao #at least I can see the squishable Dr. Plaque MD plush I gave the dentist practice last time! #mum said they put him in the glass cabinet to keep him safe but I can't see it from here yet #honestly considering buying another for myself because the little guy really grew on me haha

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired