#And they'd still like me.... I feel so isolated its fucking stupid

[mrfoox]

I hate how fragile my 'balance' is in life but especially mentally. I've been doing fairly okay in the type of not being too sucidal and generally not being negative mentally the last few months....

But now I am having the worst breakdown and I can't think of anything I've done right or am doing right haha

#negative #miranda talking shit #I need someone to sit down with me and just hold me... I know i got people online who would listen to me but im too ashamed to ever be #A bother. I feel so alone and its crushing me... Like i know a relationship doesnt fix a person but i just want someone to love #Who i can let my guard down around and who i dont have to... Pretend and act and perform around #And they'd still like me.... I feel so isolated its fucking stupid #I know its my own fault. I isolate myself from friends and i have no one irl outside my mom who cares to visit me #If someone would like me enough to share my apartment with who i could just be myself around would honestly be the dream #But id have to look for someone and idk how. Dating apps is honestly an exhausting mess and even if i find someone i know i am so diffrent #It wouldnt work. Bc what i want is so far from the norm. Im not looking for someone to have a family with and 'settle down' #I want someone to share life with. The boring moments the every day moments. They can do whatever they want i just want someone to love #And cherish and share my life with them. Idc if they work at McDonald's or is unemployed just want to share a little space with them #And cats.... But even if i found such a person there's so many issues with me like holy fuck... I couldn't be with someone with and above #Avarge libido for example. Im literally so dead in that department id have to be with someone who wouldn't mind not having sx for months #And lets not forget my autistic problems like thats a whole mess too... My add brain is a problem as well but eya #Wondering why im still alive again sucks so bad. I know im wasting my life but i also have nothing concrete i want to do with it so im just #Rotting. Legit my biggest dream in lifr is to be comfortable with myself and share my days with someone i love #Wsnt to not hate myself and want to die so badly ahaha #Want someone to Love Me ™ and is around

[wishful-seeker]

I think people should give kids more credit for knowing what they need.

When i was missing so much high-school i had to do summer school because i was not only physically ill but also very mentally unwell, sooooo many adults kept telling me to go to school, even though doing so made me have severe, debilitating panic attacks, and i was dealing with a lot of physical pain aswell. So many people said "you'll never amount to anything, man up and go to school." And i kept telling them "im sick and i know what my body needs." But nobody likes it when a 14-15 year old says that. God forbid a CHILD knows exactly what her body and mind needs, shes just a stupid kid how could she possibly know?

I promise your child actually knows what they're doing and what they need. Please listen to them. If you kid says they need to stay home from school there is a reason. Maybe its mental health, or physical health, but kids aren't stupid. I would like to see less of this ablism where a child that doesn't go to school is considered a bad child.

Do you know how many teachers hated me specifically for not being able to go to school? It didn't matter that i had a note saying every absence is excused by a doctor, they still assumed i was fooling my parents into letting their bratty child do whatever they wanted. They would ridicule me TO MY FACE and say I'd never pass. I did pass btw. I finished most of my school work on one single day of summer class because i missed a lot of that too. But i learned nothing, because i was BUSY BEING FUCKING SICK i had BETTER things to worry about. Idc what the excuse is, absence should never mean you fail a class or don't pass a grade. It is so ablist to assume that every student can follow THE VERY UNREASONABLE SCHEDULE of waking up at 4 to 5 am and being at school for 8 hours (WHEN YOU ONLY DO ACTUAL WORK FOR 4!!) and kids only getting 6 hours of sleep (WHEN A LOT NEED 9 TO 12!!!) for 5 fucking days (EVEN 4 WOULD BE BETTER!!) Its absolutely ridiculous and the only kids can do it are either able bodied, able minded, and even then they are more stressed than a child should ever be. And if they cant follow this schedule they are a Bad Person. I had teachers that literally treated me like a dog. I'd ask them for make up work and they would give me the most shitty and rude attitude i have ever seen. NO ONE has treated me worse about my health than teachers. It was because i was a kid. When i had to drop out of college for my disability, the teachers were incredibly respectful and wished me a speedy recovery and hoped id be back in their class next year.

Being sick as a child is one of the most isolating and angering experiences you will go through. Adults take every shitty thing they feel and throw it at you because you are a vulnerable child. They would never speak the way they speak to you to adults because then they'd get their ass beat or fucking killed. But because you are 15 years old, they will use you as a punching bag.

If your kid is sick, FUCKING LISTEN TO THEM!! i hate to burst your bubble but when i say "people know whats best for them more than anyone else" I MEAN KIDS TOO.

#ablism #cripple punk #mad punk

[blood-injections]

give me your party poison thoughts now

On it boss!

Okay so. Massive fucking hypocrite about everything, like being a classic Overprotective Older Sibling with Kobra and dissaproving when he starts liking Ghoul or someone or starts racing becuase That would be a Distraction or Thats Dangerous meanwhile. They stare at Jet the same way kobra stares at ghoul or they take the am out for a joyride and drive as recklessly and its as dangerous as racing is. Or they always tell the others not to sacrifice themselves or put themselves in unnecessary danger, that no supplies or mission is worth their lives- meanwhile Party Poison is The Ultimate Martyr Complex Haver and constantly puts themself in the line of fire despite their own orders, putting themself in danger instead of the others and refusing to run away instead. Brave but stupid.

They're just like.. really lonely. Like classic case of cool person everyone idolizes and puts on a pedestal but that they don't actually know, leaving Party singled out in a way and misunderstood and so, lonely in that aspect, as well as the because they tend to isolate themself, putting on that mask of bravery and put-together ness and hidng behind it, being a good, strong, level-headed leader first and just a fucked up human last. Because thats what they actually are, theyre mesed up, they bottle up their troubles and convince themself theyre so fine when theyre not. Their personality is completely fake but at some point it becomes real, a mask theyve kept on so long it becomes their face. "I became such a strange shape from trying to fit in" or something.

They never let the others in or tell them how they feel and if pushed theyll fight before they break and spill, and when they do break, they fucking shatter, sobbing and letting everything out and just building their walls right up again when its over. The others hate it but they'll always be there for them. See: this paragraph from a wip. Yeah.

"Hey!" Ghoul snaps, grabbing Poison's fist before they can try and punch him again. "We're crew! So like it or not you're family, so stop trying to fight me and fucking tell me what's wrong!"

They have tattoos, not as many as Ghoul or Kobra(Ghoul has the most, Kobra the second most. Jet only has like three but they are bigger) but the few they do have are all very meaningful to them in some way, emotionally or religious or just symbols they love. They have a matching snake with Kobra on one arm and a seraph on the other, a tribute tattoo to the Phoenix Witch thats the eye of the Mailbox with the i forgive you in the center of their chest, they have the moon from Le Voyage dans la Lune on the back of a shoulder and they have some stars up their side. I'm still in the process of coming up with a few more special ones for them.

I think they'd be really good at origami, always making little things and leaving them around the diner and the zones. Giving them to their friends is their love language. Their favorite things to make would be cranes, crickets, dragonflys, and deer.

Obsessed with space, after meeting Jet Star they couldn't not fall in love with the sky as well as her, since its kind of a package deal. Star could be an astrophysicist or something, she always dreamed of being an astronaut, and Poison could only listen to her talk about the stars for so long before falling in love with them too.

#party poison

[cloudcountry]

8, 11, 24, and 28?

— @piratealt

thank you for the ask!!!! :D <3

8. do you screenshot any of the home screen dialogue? If so, what is your latest screenshot?

I DO I DO my latest screenshots from the home screen is the ruggie's birthday dialogue!!!! :D i haven't taken a home screen dialogue screenshot in a month oops.,.,.,.

11. favorite dorm uniform?

i hate sounding so biased but octavinelle. i can't help it. i love the purples and the black and the white (asexual core ofc i'm drawn to it LMAO) and the little shell azul has on his hat is so cute :((( the grey scarves are a bit boring though and i'm not sure why they wear those since they'd definitely get so irritating when serving. floyd's definitely gotten tangled up in his before. ESPECIALLY W THE LEECH TWINS BECAUSE IMAGINE LEANING DOWN TO HEAR SOMEONE BETTER AND THAT SCARF GETS IN THE WAY UGH

24. how would you decorate your bedroom?

hmm.,,.,.., since ramshackle is pretty fucked up tbh i think i would go looking for anything that looks even remotely dark academia-esque and decorate my room with that!!! a bunch of old books that may or may not be cursed and maybe a skull or two HELP

NUMBER 28 UNDER THE CUT BECAUSE IT GOT REALLY LONG

there are mentions of azul's backstory so spoiler warning if you aren't there yet!!

28. a song you’d recommend to your favorite character?

fuck FUCK OKAY I HAVE AN ANSWER FOR THIS BUT IT HURTS MY SOUL i would recommend that azul listen to "you are the moon" by the hush sound.

I WON'T DO A FULL BLOW LYRIC ANALYSIS I'LL KEEP IT SHORT I PROMISE

Shadows all around you as you surface from the dark Emerging from the gentle grip of night's unfolding arms Darkness, darkness everywhere, do you feel all alone? The subtle grace of gravity, the heavy weight of stone

FUCKIYWEDJGHCFGJHFJGHFJGS okay so personally i think the leech brothers are genuinely friends w azul because they seem to genuine care about him DESPITE what they say, but azul thinks they'll overthrow him at any opportunity. other than idia azul doesn't seem to have many friends. he's all alone because his reputation isolates him and GAHHSHSJWFUYWE67z$&#$@%%^$@$&^#$&%^@

You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe

THIS IS SELF EXPLANATORY BUT......PLEASE. azul doesn't see himself the way me or his other fans do :(( he doesn't think he's good enough and he worries about being the clumsy, stupid octopus again (EVEN THOUGH HE NEVER WAS!!!!!!!!!!!!) the person he genuine is has been shattered into a million pieces because of everything he went through and he doesn't see himself realistically anymore.

I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky You will see your beauty every moment that you rise

SEDWGHFEHWEGF IM GONNA CRY HELP ME. him seeing himself like its the first time, him realizing that he's worth it without his contracts and power, him realizing he can let go of the past,.,.., I KNOW THIS IS FAR INTO THE FUTURE BECAUSE IT STILL BOTHERS HIM BUT.,,..,,. i will be so proud when he gets there. i want him to know how much he's worth and be able to see his beauty every second of ever day and be able to say "i am beautiful" BECAUSE HE DESERVES TO FEEL LOVED AND WJGDFEKRGFERGGHJRGHEJHHRGJE GAHHHHHHH SOBBING CRYING THROWING A FIT I AM SO SAD RN

#ask games <3 #azul ashengrotto heart eyes

[prettyflyshyguy]

Ok we interrupt your regularly scheduled jokes with some real fucked up discussion about S2 E17 - Heart

About a woman who's unknowingly turned into a werewolf, and despite the boy's best efforts, cannot be cured.

Extended thoughts under the cut.

SO AS I WAS SAYING about wishing they didn't just go with possession for Sam, cause this episode went hard looking at his psyche and the need to find connection and solace in those who we feel are similar, and how we seek comfort in that.

This was fantastic for forcing the boys to tackle very bluntly their prior state of being where Monster = Evil and we shoot it on sight.

Stopping to take a minute to realise the typical victim they'd be preventing harm from coming to, was also a perpetrator, was confronting and shook them. This was fun, and a nice change of pace from the "peaceful ghost" storylines scattered amongst the bad ones.

The intense uncontrollable violent nature of the werewolf mirrored Sam's slow growing predicament and recent possession incident, of course. But the fucking ending really surprised me. This show does not hold back sometimes and it punches me in the face very hard given no one ever says 'fuck' (sorry its a weird TV rating thing, its different over here, not used to so much gory violence with so little swearing)

"I'm a monster."

"You don't have to be, alright! We can find a way!"

Now this is what I'm fucking talking about.

"I don't wanna die. I don't. But I can't live like this. This is the way you can save me."

I can't exactly think of when but this deeply mirrors multiple conversations between Sam and Dean - notably when Sam gets drunk in the haunted hotel, and when he's possessed - the nihilism, acceptance of the horror and the fundamental 'there's no other way, we can't fix or change what I am'

Love that this also head on tackles the way Dean steps in to shield or protect Sam from some of the worse offenses, or he at least tries to. Dean tends to take the fall and bear the brunt of the damage when things get a bit too close to the moral grey area that he tries very hard to avoid seeing. This show absolutely kills it with the way this has deeply damaged them both, and how Dean rejects emotional connection because he simply won't let himself break, he can't afford to.

Also love the subtle differences in him entering the room using "Sam" then turning to "Sammy I've got this one, I'll do it."

Obliterates me.

The way Dean's face just drops when Sam insists he'll do it. Awful. 10/10.

Incredibly good choice of lighting here too. Dean looks like he's on the verge of crumbling into dust.

(These two are stupid good at their jobs holy shit. Incredible actors.)

The mirroring of Dean going through the 5 stages of grief because A) he couldn't save someone and B) he couldn't take the fall for Sam this time and C) he's thinking about the day that he might have to do the same thing to Sam

Obvs this is still early in the arc and I don't know where it's going but GOD.

FUCK. SHIT. AURHGGHG.

I'm chewing on the monitor I'm chewing on my keyboard. I feel like Sam's arc is going to be good but given how hard this episode in isolation went, I feel like they could have gone harder.

#supernatural #MORE THOUGHTS. AND OPINIONS. #one of you said this show would make me laugh and cry #and i didnt believe you #i want to issue a formal apology #you were right #i'm sorry #not art

[mbti-enemies]

I've seen some people shipping entp x infp and that took a genuine laugh out of me

I have a group of friends composed by 6 people, 2 of them are of those types and they are really really close, been friends since they were still in nappies, but honestly I'm yet to understand how...

infp is extremely touchy, she loves hugs, kisses, hand-holding, meanwhile entp hates being touched, infp kisses her randomly (I'm guessing just for the sake of taunting) and gets slapped for it, but then whenever they're saying their goodbyes entp gives her the awkwardest hug I've ever witnessed in my life, it's comical

entp speaks as though she owns the truth, she doesn't "think something", she knows it. and... the thing is she's right most times , which annoys the shit out of infp, who's all "you can't just assume stuff all the time, specially when it's about people's feelings or identities, you're entitled to have your own opinion on matters, but not to expose them however and whenever you want, that's disrespectful" and entp goes "I'm right, and I'll absolutely rub it in once it gets confirmed", and in the few occasions she's actually wrong, she just... I don't even know, she says a bunch of senseless stuff to try to convince you that she wasn't all that wrong, and she'll twist everything that comes out of infp's mouth simply to stress her out, and it always works, I don't know anyone who can get infp as worked up as entp does, it's chaotic

infp cries easily, be it of joy, sadness, anger, gratitude, she just cries whenever she feels like it, entp doesn't know how to deal with people crying at all, she always starts with some random shit to try to help without having to approach an actual conversation on the matter, she's all about "ignore your feelings until they go away" and infp is more of a "let it out so you can move on", but infp doesn't like to make people uncomfortable or concerned, so she usually isolates herself when she's not doing well, entp goes out and party. tell me about unhealthy coping mechanisms

entp is (I don't know if this is unusual for the types) very non confrontational, she just uncomfortably laughs things off, infp almost never stands up for herself, but when it comes to other people she becomes a whole personal lawyer, so she defends entp a lot, which is confusing because I swear to god she's the one fighting entp the most lol

I could give so many of other examples as to why I find entp x infp such an odd pairing, and I know that any type could go well with any type, that doesn't really define a relationship

and, I mean, these friends of mine do get along in their own way, they laugh a lot together, they fuck around and go along with each other's stupid ass ideas, they share interests and stuff, they always do almost everything together, they seriously sit across from each other to keep talking when one of them is using the bathroom, which... jesus christ. they advice each other and talk about everything (even though they never follow each other's advices) but mostly????? no, it's not very healthy in my point of view, they're too different to work out

 seriously, if anyone thinks this pairing is a good one, explain to me like I'm 5 because I legit don't see it

-

this is. SUCH A GOOD STORY....

but ngl i do love these dynamics of these friends you told us about like its actually brilliant im dying i kinda love it

i haven't really thought too much about this but i do still feel like this pairing could work out yk? quite chaotic one lol but yeah... because i guess i feel like even though an entp would always annoy the hell out of an infp they'd like deep down respect infp's boundaires maybe with the inferior Fe function (that values other's feelings (e.g non conforntational) and deep down wants the validation that infp can give) . like at the end of the day they'd really care baout infp and i think that would turn the tables - like with the awkward hug yk that im sure means something for infp. and like yeah other way round as well because as you said like infp doesn't usually stand up for herself but can really stand up for entp and at the end of the day so long as that dominant Fi (function that focuses on [own] feelings and values) values entp a lot a lot - i think they'll be set.

@audience feel free to pitch in :)

#entp #infp #ask #mbti

[syubub]

Hoseok soulmate reading

Let's get the disclaimer out of the way: This is for entertainment purposes only and shouldn't be taken as fact! This is my interpretation of the cards.

Oki. Before we begin I must say... I put this off as long as possible. For those of you who have followed me for a while, you know that hobi is THE HARDEST to connect with and tbh this was no different. I'll probably revisit this reading again at a different time (you'll see why)

So. To start things off... Hope has some.. strange(?) energy. His energy was really vague and weak. The color too is intresting because its 100% not a color I've ever seen and I'm not sure if something is afflicting the color of his energy? Its ruby red but also deep grey blue? Its really strange and honestly pretty but it doesn't feel like the normal color? The color is usually a nice red with some deeper hints but...Its usually a bit more... lively? It just feels dull right now.

It looks like this right now but with a little more red? Its really peculiar.

Now. Idk maybe some shit is going on with him right now? Or maybe bc there was a fuckin lunar eclipse in Gemini last night? Idk but the energy was a little.. hostile. That's not a bad thing but it kinda felt like he was being broody? Its all really strange but he was not very into the reading (more so than usual) blah blah he didn't want to talk and I asked some questions I probably shouldn't have and some stuff happened. Long story short his soulmate(?) Showed up and pushed our foreheads together so we'd have to connect.

I asked his soulmate if they could tell me what the fuck was going on and they said that they don't know him well. Idk if that means that they don't know him well on a soul level? I'll get into this more later but this feels like something that's already been concluded or comes back up from time to time.

"He's pretty closed off huh?" Yes soulmate. He is.

I asked for more info about them and they said May. I was like cool, is that your name or? "Nah" sick is that like you're birthday? "Not really" cool cool cool.

They did say that he deserves better than what he has. I'm gonna leave it at that but hobi is possibly going through some shit.

Now we can get onto the reading part. I do want to say though, this reading felt very disconnected and weird? Just like somethings off and I have a feeling that this soulmate is more of the "life lesson" type soulmate?

Oki. We have temperance, chariot, two of cups, queen of coins. This is a person who is definitely motivated and driven and 100% a business savy human. They are also very likely loyal and know how to balance work and play time very very well. Is well-off (or materialistic) lol. There's a very ride or die energy that tells me this person is the type of friend that will do anything for you but when you do stupid shit then you get a stern talking to. Idk why but it also feels lonely? Like they're on their own journey to find themselves and their path/happiness/self and if it doesn't fit in the wagon then it gets left behind. This person might move too fast and miss out on important things because they're always chasing after something. They take "its not the destination that matters but the journey that does" to a whole new level and they just never stop to enjoy the scenery bc they'd rather get the rush of newness.

As for their relationship. As I said before I think this soulmate specifically is the "life lesson" type and could definitelybe a platonicsoulmate too. The kind that provides you with an opportunity for growth. With the 5 of swords rev. I kinda think that this could be someone from either a past life or back in a less favorable time. The fool card to me makes me thin that this relationship provides a sense of being born again? Its that newness of having a new perspective and a whole new understanding of self. With the magician rev. Its about issues with communication i.e not being able to get across your needs and desires for both of them and a lack of energy to figure it out. I also feel like this was just something that they didn't fix and didn't want to fix. (I'm talking in past tense bc this reading feels like its someone from the past) This card also talks about deception. I'm not gonna go into this much. With the 3 of wands though!! Yay! This talks about progress and I feel like this points to them learning more and more about who they are and what they truly want. They're kinda like lines that were moving towards eachother, intersected and then continued going in their own direction. Its like this time together was formative in who they are as people and what they dream of! And with the father of cups it does seem that over all the relationship was/is (I don't know how to talk about this) relatively balanced and they had/have respect for eachother. This card specifically is about balanced emotions and emotional intelligence and I think that this is what they gain from this relationship.

Moving right along we have the oracle cards! Stand by you commitment, financial healing, unconventionality, socialize or join in and sensitive emotions. The flower cards are from hobi to soulmate and the others are from soulmate to hope. Now. Maybe his soulmate went through a failed business venture that they're recovering from or just general money trouble bc the whole world is being fucked over by a virus. Either way hobi is very strong in the message of commitment (that makes me think that its specifically about business or something they started but never finished) onto cards for Hope. He might kinda be going through the shitty times and his soulmates advice is to not isolate and celebrate himself more. He might be having some issues related to self image or a soul-identity crisis? Idk but hobi needs that good good self care and love.

Now the two unicorn cards. Those are also from his soulmate to hope about some personal shit and I will be leaving that out because its not my fucking business. (Hobi is fine don't worry)

Woo wee lets get on to traits! First for zodiac sign. Earth, fire, air. Possible Libra and Taurus placements.

Tiny cards. Light hair, dark hair, sweet, extrovert, hard working, tall, business oriented, loud, fate, sorry, open, faith, happy, wait.

First off I get brown hair vibes (maybe medium brown?)

The word cards sound like his soulmate trying to give him a pep talk so I pulled an affirmation card that says in stillness I receive. I think hobi is going through some soul stuff and I'm not sure if this specificly translates into his life right now (though I think it does and he's repressing it or hopefully he's sorting it out on his own privately)

Oki oki oki. Idk why but it also might be that hobi is doing work to heal his inner child? I honestly don't know whats going on or if its affecting him in his day to day life at this time but I want to come back and do this reading at a time that he might be in a better energy space?

Hobi is ALWAYS hard to read and its even harder when he's less open than usual.

I'll get another soulmate read from hobi at some point and see if I can catch a "future/current romantic soulmate"

I am confused 😕

Also!! I have a Ko-fi now! I'll drop the link here but its in my bio! Absolutely no pressure but its there for people who want to tip me and were looking for a way to support me! (Also, I'm not taking readings through ko-fi so please don't drop money and request a reading there.)

Ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/syubub

#bts tarot #bts imagines #bts reactions #bts #jin #suga #yoongi #kim seokjin #jhope #hoseok #jung hoseok #hobi #namjoon #jimin #taehyung #jungkook

[alison-anonymous]

♡ loose cannon ♡ pt 1

Warnings: nah man

Requested: I mean, you all were pretty hyped when I talked about this so😉

A/N: here you go, my darlings! This is the first part in a 3+ part fanfic about Hades from Descendants 3. He honestly doesn't get much attention, so I'm trying to fix that! This does contain some Descendants 3 spoilers, so read at your own risk. Please let me know what you thought of it after you read it and LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT ME TO CONTINUE IT! I'll start up the second part just in case😉 here is Part 1 of Alison's Hades X Reader, Loose Cannon...

Goddess of No Control

♡♡♡

Being the daughter of Boreas, the god of Winter, had its ups and downs.

One of those ups included your inheritance of extraordinary ice powers. Ever since you had been born, you had the ability to create the coldest of ice flurries with nothing but your bare hands. However, unlike your siblings who had inherited other abilities, you never really seemed to have gained full control of your abilities. You loved your magic more than anything, and adored anything that had to do with the cold from snowmen to ice cream. But while your brothers and sisters began to excel daily in their wind blasting and snow storm abilities, yours didn't dwindle, but instead grew more out of your control with every day. You tried your hardest to keep it under control through practicing and meditation, fearing that a lot of it stemmed from your emotions.

But none of it worked.

Your father had grown to overlook you compared to your successful siblings, as you were the middle child and frankly were pretty silent for the most part. You had always been a decently happy girl, but as time went on, you began to feel your happiness drain as it became replaced with hopelessness. Despite your best efforts, your powers were growing out of your control and you feared that it had something to do with you.

That something was wrong with you.

There were multiple occassions where you would be sitting by an open window, reading calmly when suddenly the book would freeze solid, the page stuck to your icy fingers. Or when you would be going for a walk, the trail behind you was left frozen, causing many others to slip and fall. Whole rooms would be frozen in the blink of an eye and brutal frostbite would happen to strangers who simply touched you. But it wasn't you, of course. You never wanted to hurt anyone. Once your father found out about the frostbitten people, he was furious. The two of you had a fight that night about the whole situation. He was furious that you hadn't learned how to control your powers yet and you were angry because he didn't seem to understand that you couldn't.

Through your best efforts, you didn't prevail. He forced you to pack up your things and hopped with you into a taxi to Auradon Prep, where King Beast and Queen Belle lived. There, he forced you to tell them all about your chaotic powers and the people you had hurt, despite your efforts to get better. They were very hesitant at first, but after some pushing by your father, they decided to enroll you to Auradon Prep on a transfer program from Olympus to see if they could help you gain control of your powers. You were terrified, as this would be your first time alone without your father and siblings. But wanting to get better more than anything, you agreed.

The program worked well for a while, but you found it hard to make friends. Most people called you the Ice Queen and shunned you because you were different than them, like you were someone from the Isle. Little did they know how right they were about to be...

About a month into the program, you got news that your father had passed up his entitlement as God of Winter to your brother, who had wind powers. Normally, it would make you happy because he was finally stepping down, but it made you furious and even more envious because he had promised the position of Winter to YOU. You were going to be the Goddess of Winter, not your incompetent brother! Boiling with rage, any progress you had gone through before disipated.

You tried walking it off, but once Audrey and her gang of princesses showed up to taunt you, you couldn't contain it anymore. Letting go of all of the anger and jealousy and sadness, you couldn't control your hands as they flew in front of you and an icy blue light flew from your chest and struck the princesses down onto the floor. Their lips turned blue, their skin a pasty white, and a thick layer of frost across their bodies. Not only that, but the whole hallway froze as well. They had hypothermia. Only this time, instead of freaking out, you felt free.

That was what scared you most.

Before you could do any more damage, you forced on a pair of gloves and forced yourself down to Beast and Belle, where you turned yourself in for the hypothermatic princesses and the damage in the halls. You had expected a suspension or a slap on the wrist, but what came next was cruel and unjust. It was what set the ice cold hatred inside your heart for the King and Queen and for everyone inside that fucking kingdom. Before you even knew what was happening, you had two shackles chained around your hands and a power restricting collar snapped onto your neck. Tears began to spill down your cheeks as you attempted to fight the guards dragging you towards the car. You knew where they were taking you. The other fucking dumbass students in the courtyard knew where they were taking you as they sat on their asses and watched as your screaming, thrashing body was shoved into that limo.

And now, you are here.

Standing next to the emotionless guard as he holds onto the chain linking your cuffs like you were a puppy, tear stains on your cheeks, glassy eyes, and a mat of hair on your head. One of the things they never told you about the Isle was how rank it smelled. A foul stench nearly burned your nose hairs as you felt your knees begin to shake. Hatred filled you from head to bottom, especially for the little guard who was barking into his walkie talkie. You knew better than to try and escape of course. In all your years of isolation and reading, you'd learned a long time ago that your powers don't work in the Isle. But of course they kept the bondages on. You felt the brace chafing against your neck, but refused to let it show as the guard turned to your ice cold glare.

You could've sworn you saw him shiver.

"Alright, Icy, since the King and Queen respect your father, they've decided to not just drop you off here to defend for yourself and have chosen someone for you to live with."

You chuckled to yourself, shaking your head. Of course your father would still be mentioned even though he's not God anymore.

"And just who might my lucky partner in crime be?" You snarled. The old you had been drained away as soon as they locked these cuffs on you. Everyone hated you, underestimated you, pitied you. They thought you were crazy, that you were out of control. That you were a villain. And if they wanted you to become a villain, then you were going to be badder than Maleficent herself.

"Hades, God of the Underworld. Found it suiting due to the whole Olympus thing."

You only shrugged your shoulders and cast a gaze towards the wall as the golden bridge finally deteriorated. This was it. You were trapped here.

An uncontrollable ice goddess, being treated like a villain. The envy coursing through your veins was enough to turn you green. One day they'd all pay, you vowed.

One day, they will all pay...

♡♡♡

Many years had passed since you came to the Isle, and needless to say, the second that Hades saw you, it seemed like time had frozen. You were the most gorgeous girl he had ever seen, and he had only been around Isle girls for a while so that was saying something. You only made things even better when you suddenly screamed and kicked the guard who had accompanied you in his special spot, knocking him into the misty underground below Hades place. He even took off his sunglasses to get a better look at you. You had thought living with the god of the Underworld would have been awful, but it turns out... he wasn't so bad. He helped you out of the chains you were in, and throughout your stay, you began to slowly realize that you were falling in love with him. Between the sitting sessions on the couch that gradually turned into cuddling and the constant compliments he would give you, you and the stealer of souls began to grow inseparable. Even his little assistant started to call you his girlfriend, to which he never corrected her. You even had long, late night talks with the God too, varying from anything. Your shared hatred for everyone in Auradon, his daughter Mal, your uncontrollable ice abilities, his ember. It felt like you could talk to him about anything, and you found it interesting how he seemed to be hostile towards everyone but you.

You felt like you finally had someone in your corner, and he was your other half. Of course, you were the first one to admit your feelings to him. You had been out for one of your walks when it started storming, and you suddenly realized that you had to tell him before he was gone. So, you frantically rushed back home and screeched to a halt in front of his sleeping form, the record player with Cerberus playing in the background, and blurted, "I love you."

No hesitation.

No barriers.

No walls.

Just... you. And your feelings.

Unfortunately, as soon as you managed to caught your breath, fear struck into your heart as you finally realized what you had just confessed. Yes, you had powers to defend yourself, but they didn't work now, stupid! And you just confessed your love to HADES, the Fucking God of the Underworld! What the hell was wrong with you? You had opened your mouth, prepared to take it back when he suddenly rose from the couch and slowly stalked towards you, lowering his sunglasses in such painful slow motion it made your stomach want to crawl up your esophagus and spew out your mouth. But something prompted you to stay, and your icy blue boots refused to leave their position on the boards, so you ended up staying as he stopped only mere inches away from your face.

He was a bit taller than you, so you had to strain your neck a bit to meet his eyes, and what you saw in them scared you even more than your confession. For once, you couldn't read his handsome, piercing gaze. You couldn't tell what emotion was swimming in those beautiful irises. The ones you could get lost in whenever he complimented you...

"What was that?" His voice suddenly snapped you out of your trance, and you frantically hoped you hadn't said any of that out loud.

"W-what?" You couldn't help but stutter.

"Did you say what I think you said?"

"Well, it depends what you think I said," you decided to try to tease your way out of it, knowing he loved to be a jokster. Only this time it seemed like he wasn't having it... weird...

"Come on, Y/n, seriously. Did you say what I think you said or not?"

"You're going to have to be a bit more specific than that, Had."

"You're as infuriating as you are beautiful," a blush coated your cheeks. "Did you say... that... thing that you said?"

Aww, you thought as you tried to surpress your grin. He was afraid to say it.

"The thing that I said? What is this thing that I said that you think that I said?"

"Y/n! For once, this is serious!"

He shook his head at you and stared at you with a look you had never seen on his face before. Desperation. Your heart began to pulse and you slowly reached out out of pure instinct to rest your gloved hand on his arm. He looked at it momentarily, suddenly noticing the intimacy in the action and reverted back to meeting your gaze.

"Hades," you breathed. No avoiding the truth. "I love you."

He stared at you, a look of unsureness coating his face. You were about to step away when a grin suddenly spread onto his face and he let out a deep chuckle, causing you to jump slightly.

"It's about damn time," he swiftly wrapped his arm around your waist and pulled you to him, cupping your cheek with his other gloved one. He never seemed to care about how cold your skin was. And before you knew it, his warm lips were against yours. Fireworks had exploded in your mind as you wrapped your arms around his neck, deepening the kiss. And let's just say that that was just the start of it.

After your confession, life for the two of you was something that fairy tale characters could never live up to. The love you two shared was something like true love, but on sterioids, you know, because of the whole god and goddess thing. When he finally did say those three words back, it was a while later. You had just come back home from a trip to the market, and the fresh snow was still in your hair and your eyelashes. Seeing you looking like you had just walked out of a christmas movie made Hades think about what you might look like on your wedding day... and Gods, you were beautiful. The conversation went a bit like this:

"Had, I'm home!"

"..."

"Hades? Are you oka-"

"I love you too."

You two were even more inseparable than you were before. Everyone on the Isle knew about it, and they knew to stay away from you. Not just for you being Hades girl, but also for your rumored chaotic ice powers and your burning envy and hatred for those in Auradon. You were a loose cannon, they liked to say. You took it as a compliment.

Things were perfect for you. You were finally happy with the love of your life, and had plans to stay with him for the rest of your life, maybe even have kids and sing rock-enhanced duets. The magic didn't matter. Auradon didn't matter. It was just the two of you.

At least until the VKs came along.

TO BE CONTINUED...

♡ a.a.

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