#Cuz people can be just friends right?!

[urostakako]

i actually cant stand people who dont know politics or watch the news because its "too much" or its "too complicated to keep track of" like actually kill yourself no one is asking you to glue your eyes to the news 24/7 but what good can you think possibly comes from not knowing what the fuck is going on around you and what your actions are doing. and these people are always the ones who are annoyingly centrist or "my politics are based on my moral compass" KILL YOURSELF KILL YOURSELF KILL YOURSELF.

#i seriously dont understand how can you not see how harmful this mindset is #this is lowk cuz so many of my friends dont watch the news and then i talk about stuff cuz thats what people do and they smile awkwardly #because theyre 'uncomfortable' like bestie i dont know how you think you have enough right to feel uncomfortable about genocide when you #havent said a single fucking thing and arent even remotely harmed by it god i dont fucking know it just makes me so mad #i hate centrists i hate politically neutral people youre all spineless fucks. #hanancouldyounot

[lecliss]

The choice from Sunday is kinda weird cuz the options are build a cage in the house for the bird or build a nest where it fell and one leads to the bird growing up but dying once its set free and the other one probably leads to it dying much sooner. They both feel like the same option and even tho obviously the most kind, caring, morally right thing to do is keep it inside so at least it lives longer even if it's in a cage. But like to me both options suck and are basically nothing cuz I'm sorry if I look like a bad person for this, but I'm not sorry, but I'm not fuckin touching a wild animal. Even if I knew it was there even if I bothered to check out the sound to find a bird, which I wouldn't, I'm not touching it. I'm not even getting close enough to find out it's too young to fly yet. Whatever happens to it happens man and I'll never know what happens to it cuz I'm not even gonna look at it. Like, where's the 'you seem like an asshole but really it's quite a normal choice' in this whole trial thing??? That's usually an option you can pick. Sunday!!! Sunday, listen!!! There are more than two choices!!! You don't have to always do something!!!! You can just walk away!!! You don't have to try to do something for everyone all the time!!! Think about yourself sometimes!!! It's not selfish I promise!!! SUNDAY!!! OH MY GOD HIS WINGS ARE COVERING HIS EARS HE CANT HEAR US!!!!

#i genuinely dont wanna pick anything #like okay. i know they dont have animal control or a shelter in this setting. but irl genuinely just call some people and see if theyll take #it if you wanna do something about it. #you are not getting my ass to touch a wild animal of any kind. i dont care what the situation is #i was asked once if i could help take care of some baby mice a friend accidentally ruined the nest of and a shelter wouldnt take them #and i was like. im sorry but no cuz i know for a fact im not equipped to handle something like that and i dont wanna touch wild mice and #i KNOW at least some of them will die and i wanna now have to deal with dead mice. and you know what happened? #the friend couldnt keep up with how often they needed to be fed and they died. and now you have dead mice. #something could have happened where they survived outside like the mom came back and fixed it maybe or at least one fended for itself #like its a shame the nest accidentally got ruined but it was an accident and things like that happen all the time #yes its an accident you caused but in the case of something like that i really dont think its suddenly your responsibility now #and i know itll make you feel better to try to make up for it but now you have dead mice #and i know for some people at least trying to help makes them feel better but now we're at the point where i just dont understand #i just cant comprehend the feeling or the idea or the thought. #so its like. i get sunday feels like he HAS to do something for everyone all the time but its genuinely turning him into a monster and he #cant see that. like trying all the time despite getting nothing done will tear you apart. let yourself rest #do the small things you can do around you. dont put the weight of everything on you all the time otherwise you wont get anything done #and youll start thinking not doing anything isnt even an option anymore #i promise its okay. take a break. #im not even referring to sunday anymore. you 🫵 its okay. take a break. make yourself feel better #then come back to things with a clearer calmer mind and do the small things you know you can do #dont force yourself to do everything because you feel like you have to. itll be okay. i promise #hsr 2.2 spoilers #hsr spoilers #oh right this is a spoiler post ifnfjfnfk #long post

[cinnamon-phrog]

Do you ever see a take in a fandom tag and you're like HNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHH

#it was SO contradictory too ugh. and a mutual liked it! #you disrespect me. you disrespect my whole family #you call us 'stinky poopy babies' #you punched my wife. you kick mah baby you KICKed my FOCKin BABY #you ate our dog. YOU ATE OUR HOUSE #/ref #it's always the people i like too. everytime i want to find a d/ hmis artist or mutual BAM they're mean petty and even a nonce #and mean to peoples with hc's like mine. yes yes it happens in every fandom but not to the point where literally everybody sucks! #aside from my mutuals who are casually into the show you guys are boss <33 #a d/ hmis artist will tell me they don't care/ even like my hc's and i'll feel great #a couple months later and they're talking shit about it or liking posts about why people who have said hcs are somehow predatory #as if there aren't actual predators in the tags and their little supportive minions running amuck. who draw LITERAL cp of Yellow #i'm not mad anymore i've become very numbed to this. i end up losing 'friends' to the point where i don't know how to make them anymore. #'course that doesn't mean i'll stop trying though. but give benefit of the doubt and be MASSIVELY let down. #or assume the worst. be RIGHT and yet still be somehow worse for assuming. #so i'm just gonna not interact. i'll still put my s/elfship stuff in the tags though i am above guilt or shame now. Look At My Post Boy #cuz like if all these people can get away with being petty and two faced then i can get away with smooching puppets #make Love not War

[cinnamon-notes]

i have been ghosting my friends for idk a month??? and they have been doing the same??? except for when we meet in a workplace cuz somehow our jobs decided to cross over :)

#feeling so bad about it but like i cant bring myself to interact with people right now but i am also constantly sad because i dont interact #with anyone out of work :/ but working makes me socially exhausted & tbh all i wanna do is be depressed with my books & my movies &my tunes #but i also crave affection like i realize i have zero social life and i sometimes schedule some hangout with my friends but it's almost #become like idk a task? something i look at through work eyes. like- i arrange our hangouts the way i arrange work meetings. it's so sad. #i know it is. but still- i cant help it. through all my life ive been missing having a lifelong friend who knows me like the back of their #hands and i know like the back of mine. never had it. cant cry over that. it's passed. i cant invent lifelong friendships that never existed #and i gotta make peace with that. plus- what am i complaining about if im just incapable of keeping any friend for longer than a month??? #after the first month- maybe the first couple of months- it all gets boring and dont get me wrong i really love my friends but somehow they #lose interest in me and i lose interest in them and we become just people who know each other and occasionally hang out but like- i've never #had a friend who's there for me when things happen in my life. i've always had friends to tell things to afterwards. like- i know i cant #really pick up the phone and say “hey. im having a bad time. can we take a walk? talk on the phone? can you tell me about your day? can you #just be here for me?“ and i cant even idk just randomly pop up with a ”oh my god i hate him i hate him i hate him it's a whole montague vs #capulet but if romeo and juliet never existed kind of hatred!!“ i just cant vent right away. ive always thought that that's my problem. #and maybe it is. but still- how's come they can vent to me? im always there right away. i do love my people and i show up for them. #sometimes my depression makes it soooo difficult to hang out constantly but if there's one thing that cannot be said about mw is that i dont #care. cuz i do. and maybe that's the problem #and maybe it's just easier for me to care than let others care? idk? but then again- i did try to open up. i did try to let them care. i did #try everything by the book & off the book but still- idk it's always just an “im sorry” never an “i care so much to say more than im sorry” #and yeah it's my problem cuz i am not a constant person im not that steady in what i do. i still dont know if it's because i havent found #yet the people worth doing it or if i am just traumatized (my ex is knocking on this door lol) but- idk it makes me extremely sad!!! #and ive rambled on way too much but i jusg needed to let some things out of my mind cuz i cant understand whats wrong with me and why i #crave true friendships although im hella scared of and bored of and unwilling to nurturing one :) #cinnamon diary

[candlebel]

I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.

#I was interested. I wanted to get to know you. #I did not want validation. I only said it because you said it... I don't know why. I was susceptible. #I was blindly accepting certain things that you said about me. Judgement that you had for me. #I was under severe stress from my job at the time; while at the same time dealing with unresolved emotional trauma and very low self worth. #I was burnt out. Crushed... Completely. #I didn't want attention. I did not want you to cure my depression. I though I was just letting you know me. I wasn't aware I was oversharin #I tried... SO HARD to get over the things that triggered me and hurt me but I just couldn't... #I wanted to. I did everything in my might; I took it to therapy; I looked everywhere within me; to either get over it #or completely forget about you and stop caring at all; so things were ok and normal again; but it didn't go away... #to this day... #I just feel so... unsafe... at the idea of talking again #I know I wasn't the best listener and I profoundly regret that. #I was not only thinking about myself like you said and I was aware of the effort that other's put; but I was afraid/resistant to PRECISELY #that cause of past events with other people. Because in some I was the one putting that effort and ended badly for me. Looking back #that was inappropiate of you because you felt too comfortable generalizing my past relationships and why in your head they failed. #“I cant help but feel you are looking down on people who” Stay away from me if you ever make a stretch like this again. #By “experiment” I meant that you don't know how a relatioship with somebody is gonna turn out until you go and try. That's all I meant. #I didn't want things to turn out this way. I'm sorry they did. #The effort I put for you may have been shit to you. But to me it was a lot. And I'm done taking judgement. #Altho I love my friends I still keep distance. I still can't completely help that. I can go months not talking to my BF. #You were my BF during my teenage years. I remembered you fondly. I still do. #I don't feel ready to talk again having to keep to myself interest that I might have. Related to trauma. I do not feel comfortable with tha #No I do not look at your blogs. #The day I said I was abused I had a panic attack right after that. That's mainly why I had to cut contact: I didn't want another one. #I didn't tell you because I didn't trust you to not say “talk to the void” again. I didn't trust you to want to hear about it. I didnt feel #safe with you anymore. Event tho we ressumed contact I felt that way the entire time. #I wanted to answer all the questions you had; I really did; until I couldn't stand it anymore. #And the day I removed you from discord... I know you probably had an awful day that day... I'm so; so sorry... #I'd like to one day be completely unbothered by assumptions and stuff cuz I know it's not your fault... You went through stuff too... #vent

[gianfraola]

Started to realise that where you were born doesn't make it home. Started to realise that I really don't want to live in this place and never come back. Started to realise I don't care who I'll leave behind and who will miss me. Started to realise I want to be selfish and stop listening to others. Started to realise this post was a waste of time

:p

#im tired #im done #i just want to leave #right now #make something #be something #stop listening to fucking people problems guess they be saying their whole fucking story life #and im just there having to listening cuz otherwise im not a good person #im not a good friend #a good sister #a good daughter #a good teen #not an example #if i answer back they say i have a fucking attitude #well excuse you im so sorry for speaking up for fucking once #i cant do this #i desperately need to leave #why need therapy when i can just go away #im venting too much #lmao #im prolly will delete this

[levil0vesyou]

Having a post get popular enough to be independently reblogged by someone you follow but aren't mutuals with is. Wild

#yes it was the sex poll obvs #given the person is a minor i'm very glad they picked answer one lmao #like i do think minors in general are allowed to want and even have sex (with each other obvs) but when it's a minor i personally follow it #would just make me feel pretty weird lmao. like on a personal level ya feel? i mean when u reach an even closer level it becomes not weird #again like my dear friend ness (17yo) who afaik doesn't actually HAVE any sex but occasionally wants to and i support her hot girl summer. #but as stated this person barely knows i exist i just follow his blog (i used they earlier but this was incorrect but tumblr won't let me e #edit the tag 😔) and he's 16yo so seeing him talk about wanting and/or having sex would have been. uncomfortable. like obvs he'd be allowed #to because my personal discomfort is no indication of morality but you get it. like if my big little cousin (she's 15 now by god the years #don't stop coming) were to talk about sex and stuff to me or within earshot i would ummm. throw myself out the window? but like i'd still t #try to be supportive and if push comes to shove then yes i would give her condoms 😔 cuz like if a minor wants sex i will not be able to sto #stop them lmao but i can at least try and make it somewhat safe y'know #actually i remembered i have literally given a 15yo a condom before lmao she's prolly over 20 now but like as the adult dormmate it was alm #almost like a responsibility y'know like what do you want me to DO?? let her get pregnant?? anyway enough tangent lmao #btw all this is also why in the poll i included 'too young' but didn't specify an age cuz that's individual y'know. some people are p late #bloomers (i was one) while others choose to have consensual sex by 14 y'know. not something i like to think about but that doesn't mean it #won't happen ya feel. i mean what am i the american education system? lmao. so some ppl have interpreted being 17 as too young but there's #also folks like this who clearly consider 16 old enough and that's defo ppl's good right. and again i usually don't mind just the fact that #he in particular is someone i already knew made it uncomfy. but anyway yea back on topic it's very interesting in general when your post #gets big enough to independently make it to ur dash thru a non mutual lmao. love the hellsite honestly where else amirite #personal #mine #ok to rb ig #like the actual body of the post anyway. i'd be pretty uncomfy if said person saw my tags on this cuz y'know it's kind vagueing even if it' #not negative but anyway. anyway #*kinda

[justmeinatree]

yall i had the most fucked up dream last night

#i was at the bathroom to change a pad and realized i didn’t have anymore on me #then randomly this girl bursts into the stall (i mean like picks up the door and takes it right off the hinges) #and she just rips my pad right outta my underwear and takes off 🤨 #so i’m stuck there on the toilet with no door asking people for a pad and naturally nobody has one #my mum shows up (which is weird cuz this was happening in my old highschool) so i tell her to call my friend because #he was holding onto one for me from a few weeks ago #but he had gotten rid of it so my mum asks me what kind i want and she was going to run to the store to get me some #BUT SHE COMES BACK WITH TAMPONS 😩 #(random tmi sidenote : i haven’t been able to wear internal period products for years my body just rejects them) #so i flip out like wtf this is not what i sent you i need pads #and my mum goes ohh i have something you can use !! and i shit you not she whips out a fkn sub bread 😳 #cuts it in half lengthwise and expects me to use a mothafkn bread piece as a pad 🫣 #anyways dont do drugs kids 😅

[bootyful-seventeen]

I usually send the money in installments according to my paycheck so I can budget it correctly. I always tell my friend about what's going on in terms of me paying back and when I can. I can't imagine not paying back my friends for months without a single word

first off thank you so much for responding and i gotta agree with the installments cuz i know we all have bills and other things to pay for but at least it's something that gets the ball rolling on the repayment. cuz at least if you share what's going on, even if its not a deep dive but even just saying things are tight, its fine cuz budgets are suffering rn and i'd be fine with it but when it's crickets for so long... its just irritating at this point

especially when she'll send a vid of the clothes she just bought but ain't ever gonna wear to the groupchat and i sit there like girl you owe too much money to at least 4 people like this is not the time to shop for a new clothing style for the third time

#ask #answered #anon #random #the last time i owed another one of my friends money for her covering me at an antiques store cuz they only took cash and i had plastic #i sent her money right away like 2 days after we went out when i got money and i didn't tell her #like i just sent it and went to bed and things were fine after she checked a couple bank accounts cuz normal people have 1 email #while i will not hesitate to have like 3 emails but for different purposes but still i sent that shit right away when i could #and if i can't send it in one go i tell them i can send like 80 this week and the rest in 2 weeks on payday like

[kittlyns]

Just got a check from the IRS that cured my depression

#at least for a month or so 🥹 #apparently my taxes got fucked up so they owed me that + interest so girls.... fast food dollar menu is on me tonight ✨️ #no but fr I can make a substantial dent in my credit card debt and have a bit left over for savings which is HUGE #since the whole phone incident wiped me out #my mom was saying stupid shit like 'it gets bad before it gets better' but for once she was actually right. even if it's just briefly #I actually cannot stress how much this means to me and I think I might actually cry in a minute #I try not to complain much cuz I know there are so many people worse off than me but it really has been bad lately #and I don't really have anyone to talk to it about irl cuz my family can't help so they'll just feel bad and suggest I work more #and my friends are people who (while I love them dearly) HAVE family who are fully capable of helping them financially without trouble so #they're always like 'just ask ur mom' and I always have to explain that there is literally not a single member of my family who has savings #like I said I do love them but that is the one area that frustrates me the most. they joke about growing up poor when in reality they were #actually middle class and then I was born and raised well under the poverty line and don't remember a time we werent on WIC or food stamps #I'm a little bitter about it. esp because they still rely on family to help and that's never been nor is it going to be an option for me. #but whatever. little rant over. tonight I can go to bed knowing I can cover my bills this month and hopefully next month is better #time for me to go have a cathartic cry.

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Maybe its just that I don't actually read tarot

But how the fuck are people getting such specific and direct answers from reading tarot lol

"They said he was using lucifer to force me to be friends with him" bestie how the fuck did you get that. Where are you getting that information from? I DO know what the individual cards mean and none of them say anything like THAT. What the fuck were you asking????? How are you inferring these things???? It feels like you're extrapolating quite a bit here.

#like dont get me wrong. i enjoy tarot. i have my own cards. im currently trying to develop my own deck (mostly just for fun) #so i have spent a lot of time trying to learn the meanings of all the cards #like i dont know much about how to read combinations of different ones or full on spreads or anything #so that may be where im having trouble understanding how people get such specific readings #but idk man #i feel like if your tarot cards are telling you someones cursing you to be friends with them you may be projecting a bit #like just cuz youre getting bad vibes from a guy doesnt mean hes cursed you or some shit #god i hope that aita anon was a teenager #like hey i befriended a guy in highschool that put off some weird vibes right at first and disregarded it cuz hey man i can be weird and #off putting too so whatever. and then it turned out he was into some really fucked up shit and lowkey stalked me for most of highschool #shit happens. it doesnt mean hes using the powers of lucifer to compel you to be friends with him #he may just be a creep

[lecliss]

I think a 10yo just got attached to me in genshin and if this keeps up its gonna make me not wanna play cuz I don't wanna come off as mean if I have to tell her to give me some space, but I wanna play in peace ya know?

#she came into my world i think saturday night or sunday morning. thats how long i played. and chatted for a minute then left #then the second i logged on this morning she immediately hopped in and started calling me Ed #and she was asking questions and im polite so i answered and she was like you can ask me questions #and since she asked how old i was i asked back snd she was all uh um well im 10 #and thats fine to me cuz im not gonna be a weirdo anyway #but then she asked if i had a wife and i said no im not interested in girls so thats probably when she was sure i was a safe adult #and someone else joined and she dm'ed me that she didnt like him and right after he left so did she #and when i opened my world back up later she immediately popped in again #and wanted me to go to whatever a playstation party is while i was doing a quest and i had to politely tell her no twice #and then it segwayed into material hunting with her so i could still do something productive in game at least #but at one point she called me her bff and started talking about how she just got a phone #and im worried she may end up asking for my number or something. like hell nah #like. im all for being friendly and playing a game together and casual chatting. again. i have no intention of EVER being a weirdo #but shes coming off as immediately REALLY attached and i dont need to be going through shit like that again #ive had people get REALLY attached to me in some games previously and not leave me alone while im trying to play #and then they blow up at me when i ask for some space. so i dont wanna deal with that again #especially from a 10yo. i really dont wanna upset anyone by rejecting them or asking for space #but sometimes its too much and i just wanna do what i want in the game #and i kinda really dont wanna have a 10yo tailing me the whole time i wanna play #especially cuz shes 10 ya know? friends are cool but im a little too old to be a bff to her imo #i think i'll just try keeping my world closed when i log off so i wont log on and she immediately pop in first thing #i dont wanna block her off completely cuz i dont mind if she comes by every once in a while. just not all the time ya know? #personal

[sgt-celestial]

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#genuinely i forget how draining it can be for me to reconnect with certain old friends like. #genuinely i have such a low tolerance for drama it scares me a bit because im exposed to ONE heavy story and im immediately slammed into th #ground even tho its not my problem #and it probably doesnt help that certain people around me make it feel like it IS my problem. like this morning i was totally fine knowing #all these things but then someone was like DO NOT GET INVOLVED!!!! and i was like im just reconnecting i am literally just wishing them wel #but now its plaguing me and i feel like i got involved when i should have even tho i literally have not said anything other than like. hi #anyway ive turned off do not disturb and its gonna sound mean but im just gonna keep my distance for now cuz i genuinely dont want to be #stressing about these things RIGHT at the moment that im starting this phase of my life. #sigh. #anywayyyyy i need to buy a new guitar saddle cuz the one on my acoustic guitar broke LOL so thats my homework for today #delete later #*shouldn't have

[salsflore]

#going back to school tmrw and i obviously have Feelings™️ abt that #warning this is a vent? post? idk not really cuz i'm not sad nor do i need comfort and theres nothing for me to really vent about but #well! i suppose you can just call it a way for me to talk about my feelings a little. but the way i am right now? i'm actually fine so if #anyone reads this then don't worry! ya know but. anyways this morning i woke up and overheard something i shouldntve #and for a moment (and what feels like the veryyy first time in my life) i considered if it was worth it to kms LOL a bit overdramatic right #to clarify i WOULD NEVER. i do not want to die but just! very briefly‚ i thought it’d be better if i did #(only for that short short short moment) did i consider if it was truly the best thing to do. like there was a possibility i really would #but i know i would never actually #and now i just wonder what i should do! i guess. like where do i go from here? what am i supposed to do to cope? #how do i get better? very obviously i don’t wanna get stuck in the same sad loop of self pity or anything! #so when therapy isn’t an option‚ and school (an unavoidable) seems to be 85% of the problem‚ what CAN i do if not just tolerate it? #what option is there for me? reach out to my friends? i feel like talking it out doesn’t do anything for me anymore #my calendar is littered with small events and reminders just so i can get by. when does it get better? where do i go from here because it #very much feels like i'm going to be stuck in this cycle forever. i know theres good intentions but i am Very tired of hearing #people say they're there for me and articles telling me to go outside and touch the flowers i! #i don't know what to do with myself anymore. i think i'm going to have to live with this feeling forever actually #but i really do want to get better. i suppose i just don’t know how #⠀mika’s chatroom !⠀

[infinitetrainss]

i guess it's good i had started to re-gain my zest for life and enjoying my life in my body before this happened lol

#safe #i don't know how to tw this so im just going to do a ton ig #tw suicide mention #suicide mention #tw self worth #i was just starting to feel comfortable as an individual #and now i feel like thats all i have #im just #trying to experience myself right now i guess #if this had happened like two months ago that would be really bad cuz i was not doing good #i relapsed and it was bad #im just trying my hardest right now not to #she did it for what ahe needed and what she thought i needed #even if it wasn't what i needed i need to treat it like it is #im focusing on spending more time on others #i neglected to really bond with friends because i knew i can't handle to many people being close so i just foucused on her but now im #gonna get good at being better friends with my friends #since she already broke up with me i can be as cringe as possible #sonic everything babey #its hard to do anything rn because i involved her in everything in my life #sonic is pretty much the only thing i didn't so hes the only thing #other stuff might make me cry and i don't want to scare my sibs #anyway #im choosing a new pfp! #i just get sad looking at this one rn

[stardustanddaffodils]

i love being genuine i love being friendly i love being excited and loving and open and wearing my heart on my sleeve i want to be like sunshine to the people in my life i want to be bright and warm and welcoming and if im too warm or too bright for some then we can cross paths and go our separate ways and if i am the spot of sunshine that others are looking for i hope they will welcome it and reciprocate it and stay with it, with me, for as long as they'd like or as long as they need or for as long as we can last.

#thought puddles #abt #to my future self #note to self #save #i want to keep this in mind so badly i think itll really help my irl social life. cuz thats died and it feels bad #i was talking abt this with a friend ? i hope and they said theres no such thing as too friendly #and BY GOD i want to live by that. i want to live like that. i want to be as open and friendly as i want #and the people who vibe with that will stay i hope and the people who dont will go but i wont be so dang lonely. i hope i hope i hope #GOD. why are relationships are so hard #humans are social creatures but we make these stupid social norms n stuff that make it so hard for us to be social !!!! #little kids have the right idea. go up to someone say can we be friends and let life happen. whys socializing so hard when u get older ;-; #also hi toby if your reading this ill reply to ur ask soon ive just told myself i cant answer til i finish my hw but i keep finding ways to #rpocastinate #whoops #yk what that meant