#I feel like this is just the tip of the iceberg but

[hanatiny]

sorry for Ranting On Main™️, I just need to get this out of my system, feel free to ignore

#would literally be sooo cool if my family could stop being patronizing/borderline condescending #treating me like a child is getting old very fucking quickly. my mom always jokes how glad I'll be once I [finally] move out and it's like. #''ok but what if it wasn't a joke'' (internally anyway) #telling me what to do & not do with MY money like I'm not a fully grown adult is so...... #like yes I've made financially questionable decisions before. but never before fighting myself for DAYS on whether or not I really want it #stop treating me like I'm 5 challenge (impossible) #and also acting like I'm lazy just bc you don't see me doing uni stuff like.. idk I work my ass off for those grades but go off I guess... #even then. I'm allowed to take breaks. I'm allowed to lie down and nap when I have headaches that refuse to go away. I have FEELINGS man... #being ridiculed for expressing said feelings & being sensitive is really Not It either like newsflash all this does is make me hate u <3 #I feel like this is just the tip of the iceberg but #shit like this is a big part of why 1. I haven't come out to anyone irl & 2. I refuse to voice my 'neurodivergence theory' out loud #because I know I wouldn't get taken seriously!! I fucking KNOW it!! and it sucks!!! #tw toxic family #tw negativity #(trying to not fall into the mindset of ''but others have it so much worse''....) #I don't particularly expect/want pity from anyone btw. I'm just really frustrated and don't want to bottle it up anymore

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

#fucking love him #ai weiwei #I typed that out and tumblr suggested 'AI weight gain' and I feel like I just saw the tip of a horrifying iceberg #AI art #fuck ai art #post o' mine #Homemade memes

[koqabear]

dreamer is everything i wanted and more bye guys i’m deactivating!

#ok so #initial thoughts on the album #growing pains is that delicious rock txt we’ve been waiting for #and we FINALLY got it #like a proper song that indulges in the genre ugh it’s so good mf #chasing that feeling? i rlly like it!! it’s so cool and the instrumental is alone giving me too many ideas #the mv is another discussion. #dreamer. #that’s all ur getting #deep down…? i don’t rlly like the genre much but i appreciate the vocals they sound good (obviously) #happily ever after!!!!!! it’s so good and silly!! fuck!!!! #the vocals are just. exquisite and yummy #SKIPPING STONES. UGH DAY6’S LONG LOST COUSIN WELCOME HOME #ITS SO FUCKING GOOD IVE BEEN ANTICIPATING IT FR #I ALMOST STARTED CRYING EVERYBODY CELEBRATE #BLUE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 SPRING 😭😭😭😭 #there was no need to make blue spring even more gut wrenching than it already was. #i could write a whole essay on it and NO i’m not fucking joking!!!! #ok if u guys wanna ask me more abt my thoughts on the album and indulge w me i highly encourage it #this is just the tip of the iceberg #rambles

[nateslehky]

listen.... i love matthew and sasha as much as the next person, but sometimes i really do miss them

#the way this is just the tip of the iceberg too #don't even get me started on the fucking instagram posts they used to make about eachother #i know a lot of newer panther fans only became fans post-matthew-trade so they don't fully get the lore #but like !! they were in love i tell you!!! in love!!! #in my head if i was talented enough id love to write a fic where matthew and sasha are both trying to either navigate .. #...long distance relationships or dealing with the fall out/break ups caused by the trade #and maybe they resent each other a little bit but then they actually end up growing close together and help heal eachother and grow togethe #but it would be like a long haul slow burn teammates to friends to lovers sorta angsty type beat #but anyways #sorry but posting the 1619 fic has been making me think of them lmfao #jonathan huberdeau #sasha barkov #aleksander barkov #florida panthers #long post #never not thinking about 'im so lucky i get to be around him #'he makes me feel right' #HE MAKES ME FEEL RIGHT?? #WHAT THE FUCK

[everyfandomsprincess]

If I had a nickel for every autistic, blonde boy, who in some way has died several times before, was alone for a long time before finding a group of friends that he loves above all else, found a girlfriend who would kick his ass anytime, and has a bird.

Then I’d have two nickels, which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice.

#ninjago zane #hunter owl house #tell me I’m wrong #and I feel like this is just the tip of the iceberg #maybe the others match up too? #lego ninjago #ninjago #owl house #toh #the owl house #hunter noceda #hunter deamonne #hunter wittebane #hunter toh #zane julien #zane ninjago #ninjago zane julien #Willow park #toh willow #ninjago pixal #pixal borg #pixane #huntlow

[reinabeestudio]

everyday is pain and hell and suffering on earth (<- being dramatic)

#this is just me throwin a tantrum dw feel free to ignore ÑSKLFDLS #yomiel speaks #just a bit frustrated i guess. with my current focus. situation?? #bc i do enjoy what ive been makin so far mind you ☝ #. but theres also.... a lot i havent shared (self-insert related) #like the little ive shown here is only the tip of the iceberg. i got more ideas (mostly in text im lazy to illustrate lol) #and i dont share bc im just. #. idk im just so scared #like usually i dont mind it (or i ignore it). im a small account anyway. but in this case its just intimidating #even with the new sideblog its just too scary #got some hcs and concepts that might not be what. most fans agree with. idk and hrmm #like yes its ooc and dumb but im havin fun. and yet #so i keep it to just a few friends. and even then i dont share much bc its not their current focus so i dont wanna bother #and i feel so weird thinkin about sharing with new ppl ive met bc. idk how to feel about self-insert in this case. #(plus a lot happened this month that has made me kinda paranoid as hell and unsure of who to trust) #you have no idea how freaked out i get at the possibility of making others uncomfy with my s/i content (on private) #like i draw a lot of positive emotions from doing self-insert and sharing so. you can kinda imagine how it feels when im limited like this #its scary im scared and i feel kinda lonely lately #so theres a lot im just keepin to myself and idk. guess im just sad i feel like i cant share. scratches head #maybe i should start focusin on other past f/os i can be more vocal about idk. lays down and sighs

[whatthefoucault]

Literally looking at Ed Our Flag Means Death and, as a queer gremlin with ADHD, recognising a kindred spirit there, but then OH NO IF ED HAS ADHD THERE’S A PRETTY GOOD CHANCE HE HAS REJECTION SENSITIVITY DYSPHORIA, DOESN’T HE, BECAUSE I SURE DO AND IT’S AN

ABSOLUTE FUCKING FUCKER

dunno about y’all but I’m gonna go have a lie down and a little cry about it

#ofmd #blackbeard #edward teach #adhd #our flag means death #this absolute nerd out there having emotions #like #if you don't experience rsd i don't really know if i can adequately explain #like just how much perceived rejection SEEPS INTO YOUR BONES LIKE PHYSICAL PAIN #you feel it in your chest #it's a lead weight in your belly #that's also shouting into your brain that your loved ones all hate you and they're just being polite #your successes were all flukes and this one (sometimes imagined) rejection proves it #etc etc #blindsided by a punch in the gut when somebody at the supermarket asks you to scoot out of the way #because they want to pick up a pot of cream cheese and it's next to where you were standing #and suddenly you've got chest pains because YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO EXIST #that's the tip of the rsd iceberg #:) fun headcanons for my favourite new show

[mothocean]

Didyou guys know that. Raphaella la cognizi

#im not even going to talk abt the kind of thoughts i have abt her im fucking embarrassing #you've seen my category 5 lesbian moments. that's like the tip of the iceberg #rachel l hughes if you ever see anything i say abt your character im so sorry i promise i can be normal abt her <- lying #btw im this abnormal abt nastya and odin too. also ivy but slightly less #and dr carmilla... i need to get into the dr carmilla stuff more i feel like I'll really like her #but i just don't know enough abt her rn #also not a woman but. ashes <3333333 #anyway where were we oh yeah. raph jhnrjbrhvrgjvmgjhgjffjffgf #raph vivisect me please. raph let me help you vivisect someone else. raph let me vivisect you. raphhhhhhh #lets be lab partners. in more ways than one #I'll learn engineering just to fix your wings when they get broken. im sorry what did i say again #not main tagging this y'all are NOT seeing my gayass bullshit. everyone pretend you haven't seen this post #ok not really but i really gotta stop myself here or I'll get even more embarrassing #i will Say More if prompted tho #roseflower.txt

[cosmobrain00]

I was being so srs when I said time loops/ time travel could actually make relationships better AND worse simultaneously

#imagine the amount of betrayal another chara could feel knowing tht someone alrdy Knew theyre evry action n took advantage of tht #thts just the tip of the iceberg too baby I could go on #its like a momentary balm in a way ifykwim

[sundropglass]

hey look its a system map \o/ 

#pls dont reblog #system map #personal diary #dissociative stuff #yes i did make this bc chime did and i thought it was sooo sneat and wanted to share bunny lore w them #chime said the first system looks like the wheel thing in howls moving castle and it just clicked something in my head #like yes I did base a lot of my inner on the howls moving castle movie huh #the first system is made up of mostly clearly defined parts #but the bunny dosy and mr h clusters are all subsystemy stuff #and then the second one is just the tip of the iceberg i feel

[detective-werewife]

the "im not openly anything and gay doesnt even begin to cover it" line from community is how i feel about people saying that im a furry

#like. i watched patricia taxxons 'on the ethics of boinking animal people' enough times to Know something is up #but Wow is that just the tip of the iceberg of ehatever the fuck i have going on here #this wont mean anything to anyone but this is my letters great comet moment. once its on the paper we feel better we feel better

[ilkkawhat]

MK’s Favorite Post-Grave Danger Things for @letswaitforme​ Part One: Hope For the Future (my commentary below)

So one of the biggest things to admire about Nick (and a big part of why I love him) is no matter what he goes through, he has this optimism that I feel is displayed in full force in both the immediate aftermath we see where he goes to Kelly and gives her advice— something that I’m sure he does because he feels he needs to follow those words, too—and in the first half of season six as he displays hope that he can find another kidnapped victim because he was rescued so why can’t they be, that he can live his life “above ground” and do a good job playing with the hand that he’s been dealt with (spoiler for another scene I’ll be putting in this series), and finally, that once all the players are off the field in the case of his abduction, perhaps he can move on. 

But...it’s not that easy. Not even for him. There’s a part of him still buried, something still crawling under his skin, it’s not over and it never quite will be for him. 

#csiedit #csi cbs #nick stokes #george eads #grave danger #csi 5x24 #csi 6x12 #csi 6x01 #mk.op #mk.edit #mk.gifs #sorry i like to see you suffer nick #grave danger aftermath series #i have 10 parts planned for this lol buckle up everyone #some which will be re-tread of things I've giffed before but...i'll try new things with it #and plus i just idk i feel like my gifs have been better quality lately?? no idea why #but anyway here you go! just the tip of the iceberg #suicide attempt / #guns /

[dominijoyce]

I need to spread more of my ASPD giorno propaganda

Also more of my GAD fugo propaganda

Also more of my IED narancia propaganda

Also more of my OCD mista propaganda

Also more of my Catatonic bucciarati propaganda

Also more of my ODD abbacchio propaganda

Also more of my RAD trish propaganda

#mental health #my headcanons #i need people to start headcanon characters with other neurodivergencies than just autism and adhd #and maybe sometimes bpd #nothing wrong with those headcanons i have all those three #but sometimes i feel like tumblr forgets this is barely the tip of iceberg of mental health

[artiecore]

i've been thinking a lot about a pmmm x niigo au, which i will write properly and post to ao3 when i'm on my winter break. but for the time being lemme share my pmmm kin assignments for the nightcord at 25:00 characters because i think a lot of people who have thought of this in the past are just doing it based on aesthetics without considering anyone's personality whatsoever:

firstly, and most obviously, kanade is getting assigned homura. mainly because both kanade and homura have a huge "saving people thing." in the case of homura, she made her entire wish to protect madoka, and is doing everything to save her with no regard for her own well being. in the case of kanade, she's doing everything she can to write a song that can save mafuyu. there's other smaller reasons as well—the long hair, the physical weakness, their uninhabitable rooms, their absent parents, their shared belief that they are inherently bad people (re: kanade blaming herself for her father's illness and homura calling herself a devil at the end of rebellion), but their need to save another person, and dependence on saving that person in order to prevent themselves from falling into despair is the most obvious reason.

next most obvious is mizuki being assigned mami. this is because both of them are extremely lonely and have ended up becoming distant from others, while putting up a strong face to avoid people from thinking they need help. after realizing that most other magical girls only do their jobs for their own benefit, mami distanced herself from other magical girls. in addition, she is unable to befriend her peers because they can't understand being a magical girl. however, she still puts on the strong face as a mentor for madoka and sayaka until episode 3, where she ends up breaking down in front of madoka and admitting how lonely it is. mizuki is also extremely lonely—in secret distance, they end up distancing themself from the others in niigo to avoid being hurt by them like they were hurt by their peers in the past, and in my footprints, your destination, they still did their best to shield their loneliness and put on a strong face for ena, even when they were confronted directly by her. both mami and mizuki also have similar aesthetics (present as very feminine), and they both serve as mediators of their respective groups in a sense.

next, ena as kyoko. firstly, the daddy issues. oh my god, do they both have those by the bucketload. they both want validation and unconditional love from their fathers, and they both don't get it. in addition, they both have very similar personalities, especially when it comes to handling trauma. kyoko, after her father kills his family and then himself, ends up pushing away mami (see: a different story), and becomes extremely jaded and confrontational. at the same time, she's still extremely compassionate towards others: she tells sayaka about her past in an attempt to help sayaka learn from her own mistakes, the reason she pushed away mami was because she viewed herself as a liability after losing the ability to perform magic (see: a different story), and she ends up sacrificing herself to kill oktavia when sayaka becomes a witch. although her trauma is completely different, ena responds similarly to kyoko—she becomes self-depracating about her own skills, she becomes more "tsundere," she pushes away people she cares about (see: akito in insatiable pale color), and in particular, she's very confrontational towards mafuyu in the main story. at the same time, ena is very compassionate towards the people she cares about. when mafuyu tries to disappear into empty sakai forever, ena shows up and uses her jealousy of mafuyu to try and persuade mafuyu to value her talents more. in the case of mizuki, ena is also willing to do whatever is necessary to try and save someone she cares about. and as a bonus, she also views herself as untalented and inferior (similar to kyoko's belief that she is weaker because she can't do magic).

finally, the most controversial opinion i have, and one which i have never seen before in any other niigo x pmmm au: mafuyu is madoka. NOW I KNOW THAT AESTHETICS WISE, HOMURA AND MAFUYU ARE MORE SIMILAR. purple. i'm aware. they also appear similar on a surface level because they have the whole depression trauma thing going on. I KNOW. but yall gotta understand that homura and mafuyu are almost complete opposites in how they're handling things. mafuyu's depression manifests as her feeling numb, being unable to understand herself or her emotions, and a general feeling of purposelessness. she's a nihilist. she's given up on life, and she feels empty inside. homura is also empty inside, but she understands herself perfectly well—even if she's purely defining herself as the person who will save madoka. they're both severely depressed, but homura's basically the exact opposite of mafuyu in terms of how they're behaving because of it.

but why madoka? well, there's a bunch of reasons. firstly, madoka and mafuyu, on a very surface level, both appear to be perfectly happy, with no problems in their lives whatsoever. episode 1 of madoka magica shows how happy madoka's life is, and how few problems she has. and i know it's hard to remember since we see behind mafuyu's carefully constructed façade so often, but on the surface, mafuyu also seems like she's got it all—honors student, archery club president, class representative, talented at english, aiming for medical school. hell, she's even good at writing lyrics and composing her own songs! but dig a little deeper, and it's a cover for their deeper issues, although it's less extreme in madoka's case (probably due to madoka having a significantly better family than mafuyu). madoka struggles with huge amounts of self-worth issues. she wants to be a magical girl because she believes that this will make her special and give her the sense of identity and purpose that she currently lacks. which is startlingly similar to how mafuyu struggles to understand her identity and desires to have purpose in her life. they're both also extremely comfortable with the idea of disappearing forever. obviously, the entire main story for niigo is about how much mafuyu wants to just disappear, but madoka is also startlingly comfortable with the idea of disappearing and becoming a concept forever—not just because she wants to do the "right thing" or "help others," but also because, deep down, she does not care if she disappears as long as she is able to help other people, and make her life meaningful through doing so. not to mention? both mafuyu and madoka have a huge tendency to put others before themselves, and will do anything to help others. this is most obvious with madoka's wish to prevent witches from existing, as well as all her previous wishes being wishes to help others (whether it be homura, sayaka, mami, or even just a random cat), but also mafuyu originally wanted to be a nurse to help others, which spiraled into her living for others and losing touch with her own sense of self. they're both self-sacrificial and selfless to a fault.

in conclusion: based on personality, kanade = homura, mafuyu = madoka, mizuki = mami, ena = kyoko, and i have way too much free time on my hands in spite of the three essays i have due this week

#pmmm spoilers #pjsk spoilers #niigo spoilers #i will make this au real i promise #because even tho i made these kin assignments #i have way more ideas than just a strict one-to-one mapping of niigo characters onto pmmm characters #also feel free to (politely) disagree with me #because as strongly as i feel about this #i also know these are just opinions #and also i wrote these all in one go #so i'm sure i've probably mischaracterized someone at some point #yall gotta understand how hard ive been brainrotting about this #like this is just the tip of the iceberg too #the tippy top of what i gotta say on this #i have so many thoughts about madoka magica #i have so many thoughts about nightcord at 25:00 #can you tell im autistic

[passiveaggressiveturkeys]

You know it’s kinda batshit crazy that a debilitating condition that effects 1/10 who are AFAB is not only incredibly underfunded with no new treatments in 40 years and none of the existing treatments even being that effective but also pretty much everybody reporting symptoms have been brushed off by their doctor at some point or other leading to at best patients questioning their symptoms and at worst the disease being allowed to run rampant and causing dangerous health complications

That is 5% of the population, including children and elderly. Endo has been found in foetuses and symptoms can sometimes last past menopause

5% of the population, 400 million people alive today who are either currently being effected, have had their lives massively impacted, or are still oblivious to the disease slowly developing inside of them that will likely one day change their lives in ways that can never be come back from

These are often people who can’t work, can’t have children, many can’t even leave their house

How the hell is this not considered a bigger issue?

#I know the reason #it’s just ridiculous #so I have to keep questioning it #endometriosis #chronic pain #chronic illness #guess I’m going through a bit of an anger and disbelief phase atm #I mean it is ridiculous #I sought out a diagnosis to work out why I suddenly had massive side pain #which ended up being diaphragmatic endo #but during that time the cysts grew in #so I ended up getting surgery to remove the cysts #and apparently I’m fine now? #despite the pain that I was first looking for relief for not improving at all #which of course comes as no shock to anyone stuck with this shit #and really it’s the tip of the iceberg #just feel like I’m stuck walking around in circles