#I wanna go in to detail but idk if I should

[ordinarynightmare]

These two pairs have the same vibe.

No further explanation.

#definitely going out of headcanons because- well LACKING SCREEN TIME xD #I wanna go in to detail but idk if I should #caring brothers #idiot brothers #sherlock holmes #bbc sherlock #mycroft holmes #holmes brothers #gif #mafia #mafia 1 #mafia definitive edition #mafia the city of lost heaven #marcu morello #don marcu morello #sergio morello jr #mafia remake

[puppyeared]

is this your card? ♦️♣️♥️♠️ it isnt but you dont wanna hurt his feelings

#this was supposed to be a warmup but i got carried away.... i havent drawn in so long that its been hard to focus orz #im testing a new brush for fun. again.. i think i can use this for clean lineart..?? im surprised i went as long as i did with the #narinder brush honestly... but i wanna try something new so here we are again #if i could get my shit together id love to draw a model of his van because i have smth really cool in mind..i was looking at pictures #of old wooden caravans like the horse drawn ones and i wonder if i could combine that with the shape of an RV #i like the ones with a door at the rear bc it kinda lookslike a train caboose.. maybe he'd get someone to weld him a custom ride!! #idk how intricate and detailed i can design it without making it a pain in the ass to draw every time BUT i have a general idea #it would probably have a door on the side but idk if itd flip down to make a stage or upwards to make a roof?? and then theres a #curtain behind it where he would come out and do his show methinks.. ive been looking at pictures of camping vans on pinterest for ideas #i dont think he LIVES in the van since i mentioned his home is an old run down theatre when he isnt on the road. i wanna draw that too #but the RV should have enough for long travels like a bed and cabinets..? maybe a net hanging on the ceiling where all his props go #id like to think of ideas for a hometown.. toronto has a huge entertainment district so it would make sense for him to live there #although id also love to base parts of it from vancouver since id love to go back and visit </3 #..would there be furth names for those places?? nyancouver... clawronto... whinnypeg (like a horse whinny)... #pawson creek.... purrlington... otterwa.. i love coming up with names lol #my art #myart #my oc #oc #sleight #laikas comet oc #fan character #fur #furry art

[chibishortdeath]

Yippie! So silly (kinda sad) idea I had I while ago that I need to draw about again aaaa— Anyway, there were a lot details that had me thinking about stuff in certain games. Harmony of Despair has the “Helmont/Shiimon/Simon Wraith” enemies that have this ominous description of “some say this is what happened to Simon Belmont in the end”, and it’s just never mentioned again. Like damn ok that’s uh some interesting information wow uh— Also that coupled with the hanging skeletons being a reference to Simon in CV4 and also being in the hanged man position, the family heirlooms in the ghostly Dracula’s castle in Harmony of Dissonance, and the quest for Anna in Order of Ecclesia about helping her cat protect her from dark spirits that’s ended with a really sudden line about her having nightmares about a man with a whip fighting something scary, my guy is haunting the narrative and doesn’t sound like he’s doing so great 💀.

So the Ghost Simon concept was born and uh here he is I guess lol. Part of it also came from the idea that we’ve already seen a ghost companion in the series in Wind (if you know you know), but what if there was one you had to help that was a little more uh what’s the word… tormented? Vengeful? Upset in general? Yeah. He’s kinda just a mix of a bunch of different ghost lore, not one in particular. Fun fact: Dulahans sometimes use their own spines as a whip :3. And in a lot of folklore Strigoi often prey on their own family members, especially the younger girls in the family. But yeah, he’s just kind of a nuisance, not really like ‘evil’ or anything. Breaks things sometimes, generally pesters people, only occasionally a minor threat. Maybe leaves bloody footprints sometimes, turns paintings crooked, writes omens on walls, ya know, average ghost activities. I like to think that the boss rush with him in HoD is what he’s been doing for a while. Maybe Juste unknowingly takes him home with some of the furniture, probably the grandfather clock lol. Idk it’s just a fun what if idea for fun tho mostly d(^^ ).

#castlevania #castlevania games #simon belmont #art post #my art #does this count as an AU? #I don’t really think it does??? #it’s just some ‘what if he spooky’ funny idea idk #does this count as cringe or whatever (joke I know it’s cringe I’m just happy with it) #some of these details I would love to see more on tho like #Konami what do you mean Simon’s name can be a pun in Japanese on the word for death #what do you mean if you spell it a little differently it means Gates of Death Konami I need answers— #or don’t explain anything and give more random ominous vague information #i would appreciate it #a lot actually #please say more random spooky things about this guy #what little to no content does to a mf #Simon’s Quest is a great game (I am going insane) #should I even tag all the games I mentioned in this or is putting this on the main tags enough of a risk as it is— #anyway I wanna make more random speculation collages I’m just on and off burnt out constantly help #this is primarily for silly situations like idk Maxim asking if anyone else has seen that dead guy in the mirror they brought home lol #thinkin about the idea of a game set in the 50s about a horror movie being made about the legends of Simon #and he’s there (in spirit lol) being a complete nuisance on set #the lead actor is just trying to work and here’s some ghostly voice say ‘I would not have my hair that short ewwwww’ #aaaaa I should also draw that idea damn #maybe Halloween being a thing will get me to do it (TwT ) #TUMBLR JUST KICKED ME OUT OF THE APP I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA LOSE THIS WHOLE POST THAT WAS SCARY—

[fox-guardian]

does anyone have any tips/advice for writing image descriptions for art tutorials. like text heavy stuff where the images are still Important to describe in detail. how would I go about this.

#ramblings with major #accessibility #how much detail would i need to put into it #like idk much about the varieties of visual impairments #whether there's folks out there who can maybe like. see and draw on paper but struggle viewing stuff on screens?? #like a light sensitivity thing or smth #POINT BEING how should i go about formatting ids for that stuff thats like the one reason i haven't done tutorials in like 1000 years #i imagine there's folks out there that would benefit from a good id of a tutorial i just dunno how to format it and i wanna be sure

[selenealwayscries]

fuck you *puts your wizard scar in hanfu*

#mcyt #last life #last life smp #trafficblr #goodtimeswithscar #gtwscar #one funny thing bout this is that this fit isnt like an actual fit you can get #i actually looked up concept art from the p2w mmo i used to play religiously and just put him in it #... while also taking certain details out because if i do include them my hands will try to put a hit on me #i actually struggled a lot with the belt . the amount of time i spent redoing it over and over again is truly ungodly #had to take out some of My personal design preferences but its fine since i like it better like this #miss the mourning veil tho . its a banger idea #anyways more hanfu propaganda amirite haha #i wanna do hanfu designs for like . 1 or 2 characters from each last life faction #idk if i should do the southlanders or team best first . depends on which one i can find outfits for sooner ig #maybe send me some in my asks . make my life easier /j #anyways esona vc time gotta go binge insane football with my besties goodbye #catgirl supreme

[dreamwinged]

ignore that i remade a month ago but remaking sounds sooooo good rn

#ok my reasoning is. #i feel so strange and bad about the way i exist in the community lately #NOBODYS FAULT everyone is so niceys and welcoming its just me tripping over the small stuff and guilting myself #but Still. not good i think i’ve vented abt it in depth a lot so i’ll spare y’all the details #i just think a fresh start might be better if i wanna change thins #does that even make sense. idk i just feel bad #WHY CAN’T I BE NORMAL #and i’m wondering if it’s even that deep like i should prolly just let shit go and stop hating on myself all the time #but. You know. siiiiiiiiiiiigh #.unrelated ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖ #.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#so i survived my 1st week as a phd student. it's interesting. im not sure how i feel #the negatives are that i forgot how much stress being around people causes me. as a research assistant i was able to be on my own schedule #and go into the lab at odd hours so i never had to see anyone. but now im in classes and teaching and have a shared office #classes are tolerable stress wise so long as im sitting on an edge. i only feel a lil like im dying. teaching makes nauseous beforehand. #which is odd bc im not really worried while im doing it or before im doing it. i thibk its just that i have to interact ans i kno im a #mediocre teacher bc id rather die than do the back and forth of asking questions and u should teach interactively #i like to break down complex idea and help people with problems but i was not build to teach in classrooms. i get knocked off points when #i give class presentations bc i cant make eye contact lol. so that'll b annoying this semester. and its just so hard to function in an #office space. idk its weird like i dont even feel it that much while im there its just like a flashing *i need to leave* alarm. and then #when im alone its like a physical weight off of me. and i cant tell if thats what's draining my energy or if ive just cycled into a low #energy lul bc im just like. i wanna sleep. and for me thats always a sign that somethings wrong. i dont feel that bad mood wise but its #like there's a rock weighing me down as im trying to tread water. so those r the big negatives. the positives r that #i do enjoy being back in school. i love the structure of it. but im also self destructive abt structure so well see how it goes. but my #lab mates seem nice as does my advisor. i feel a bit bad bc ill have to learn genome stuff from the ground up. and today i was trying to #convey ideas to him like an insane person. bc i dont have enough background to talk fluidly abt my prospective project and i have a picture #of what i mean but not all the details. hopefully i made some sense. i think the idea is cool. and thats the other really positive thing. #the papers i have to read associated with this project r waaaaaaaaaay more interesting than anything i ever had to read for my masters. like #they're the types of papers i would force other ppl to read for lab meetings. so im optimistic abt not hating it by the end haha #yay for being excited abt science. but i guess thats the other thing i feel bad abt. like im interested but haven't read a lot to prep bc #i cant express how difficult dyslexia makes things but also i cant control how interested in things i get so i bassically banned myself #from reading papers im actually interested in like 3 years ago bc in retrospect i was prob going thru a hypomanic episode #and i was like reading papers abt microbes in Antarctica all day and not working on my stuff. and i just remember walking into the lab at #like 5am to trasfer alage with tears streaming down my face bc i was just like. i cant have this nice thing and b functional. it has to stop #so i just created this weird barrier in my mind where im not allowed to read fun papers. so its odd to b reading them now for work. its odd #also i was walking to my office worring abt things and then i saw some moss growinf around the edge of the sidewalk and it made me wanna cry #bc i am an extremely normal individual. i have normal feelings abt photosynthesis. but anyway yeah. its been interesting #hopefully ill stay optimistic. next week we have a orientation for new grad students. and i might have to drive like an hr away. hate that #the driving i mean. not the orientation. that should b fun #unrelated

[hannibalismos-jaaneman]

i read a hannigram fic last night where op decided it was an okay thing to mention vatsyayana and my brain chemistry is fucked now.

#raj shitposting #afghdaklkjfdakjfgaskjgf #so for context i read the kamasutra as a joke earlier last month and istg i was not expecting what i read. #bro- listen i thought it'd be about heterosexual sex only but it's really not specified IN SO MANY PLACES IT MAKES ME WANNA YELL. #there's this entire section in the text about scents. now idk how many of y'all know seema anand but you should def check out her tedtalk. #because she kinda boils it down to the very basics with the best examples for all of those who do not want their brain chemistry altered. #and that was what got me into her stuff and i read the arts of seduction a couple years back but i wasn't unhinged back then- #-so i forgot all about it until like a month or so back when i came across a video of hers on yt and damn those floodgates BROKE man. #which lead to me finally putting my foot down and reading that shit and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST- #so back to where we were. there's this entire section about scents alright? and we all know where this is going so bear with me please. #so this section talks about how different scents stimulate excitement and how different parts of the body should be scented. #like seema anand does NOT warn you about how fucking DETAILED this shit is in the original text. AT ALL. #it's got i think somewhere around 600 different scents and the optimum intensity of the scents for like IDK TURNING INTO A MONSTER. #so like when i read the fic my brain thought HEY THESE ARE TWO UNHEALTHY OBSESSIONS OF THIS FUCKING SICKO THAT SHOULD ALIGN RIGHT? BOOM. #and i imagined post fall will experimenting with scents for fun and shit because why not who's to stop him at this point in his life? #and then my brain flashed me a very vivid image of hannibal BURYING his face into will's waist to smell the perfume he put there- #and then my brain short circuited because that is too powerful an image for a mortal brain to comprehend. #i don't think anyone will understand what the fuck it is that i'm on about but y'all should watch that ted talk. #and get ahold of the nearest fic writer you know and force them to write a fic on this BECAUSE THIS IS THE PROMPT THEY'VE BEEN WAITING FOR. #this is actual psychosexual bullshit and istg i've had SO MANY vivid dreams ABOUT SCENTS ALONE it's making me lose my fucking mind. #GAAAAAAAAAAAAH #hannigram #hannibal

[bunnihearted]

the desire im capable of feeling for a person is insane like i rlly cannot see any other way my life could go that i'd be happy w unless im by their side in their arms :((

#genuinely idgi. w my other crushes i daydreamed but i didnt wanna get close to them rlly. this is more than a crush how does it work #r u supposed to go crazy or am i a freak #i mean like.. idk!!!!! idk anything im so confused!!!!!! #all i know is that when i wake up their my first thought. when i do anything during the day i wish i was w them doing those things #when i go to bed i think of them #every thought i have i wanna share w them. it feels good nd nice to share everything w them #it's exciting to talk abt my boring fkn day. it's exciting to listen to details of their borinf day #like thats music to my ears. everything. i want. when i think of watching a show i want to know what they think of it #when i come across a movie my 1st thought it hmm wonder if theyve seen it #when i come across various ideologies nd stuff im like hmmm i wanna discuss this w them #it's all them them them them! #im jealous of the air they breathe the ground the walk on. those things get to be so close nd im so far away #i dont know #cant.. imagine. i mean maybe to other ppl #being in love and loving someone is .. idk. i've never experienced it before so idk anythinf #im just... so.. dizzy #i cant focus on school even if im like yeah wow im gnna go homeless if i dont do my homework lmao #i cant read my books or watch shows bc i keep pausing nd being like ok but what if WE were in this position #well. maybe. im ??? is this what love is? or am i too intense? should u be able to function anyway? idgi

[chibishortdeath]

So much happening in the world and in my personal life at once and I am completely unable to do anything about any of it. I am completely exhausted. I need to move out, but I can’t.

I’ve been stuck with a headache for a few months.

#text post #vent post #tw vent #cw vent #I’d say delete later but I don’t ever actually do that anyway #maybe I should go through vents and delete them Al #tbh I’m starting to realize that maybe never being allowed to do anything and never being taught how to do anything as a kid was neglect #it probably also wasn’t normal that I tried to be the ‘easy kid’ and avoid any perceived trouble as much as physically possible #I usually just sit in the furthest part of the house dissociate and try to immediately appear fine if anyone walks in and sees me #idk maybe I should just make that super self indulgent Simon’s Quest comic since it’ll probably be practically vent art anyway #he’s a little bit too relatable for comfort #and man I didn’t even fight Dracula to end up messed up how lame smh 😔 #I feel like I would just end up feeling guilty that I’m not doing something else more important though #most of the things I can do right now I can’t without guilt that stops me somewhere through #and that includes trying to rest haha yippie :/ #I can’t even draw the blorbo dead about it like it’s past that level of bad #I guess I shouldn’t even suggest doing anything I can’t do too #I don’t even wanna look at my instagram rn I can’t fix any of that either #idk if I should go into any details or not but I literally just can’t change anything #and I know I can’t get better unless I leave but I can’t leave and there’s nowhere to go #even places online are starting to become uninhabitable #we truly live in a time :/ #I’m just typing anything I think of as I think of it #tldr ​I am a terrible person who can’t get better because I’m stuck in a terrible situation and everything sucks basically #i’m exhausted #i feel so trapped #it feels like I have no autonomy or effect on the world at all #ugh I’m not explaining anything correctly enough anyway #I guess supper is almost ready and I should stop ranting at nothing #I’m basically just here to try to make it to 29 at least for the silly Simon game reference haha that is so pathetic

[torchiiko]

One Of these days im gonna draw me and spamton wedding just u guys wait. we either both wear a dress or neither of us do

#if he wears dress it should be white n poofy right with like. pink n yelloe under layers ykow??? idk how 2 desctibe clothes #4 a tux he at least needs a bshot bowtie... me too actually we both wear his bowties <3 #and he will be just as gorgeous in either <3<3 #depending on how detailed i wanna go on it id like. ask 4 ppls ocs 2 put in the bg.. who wanna be at the spamton x torch wedding #what would our ship name be?? spamtorch maybe #torch chatter #real simping hours #spamton #💌 number 1 rated wife - spamton 💌

[sunnydice]

man.

#i had this whole post ive been trying to formulate for so so long. abt my issues w ceewilbur and ccwilburisms and #to clarify i do like cwilb he is one of my faves. ik it may seem i wanna bite his arm off smtimes and i Do but #its mostly bitterness directed to the stuff Around him if that makes sense. yk the response to lots abt him #the way the overcompensation abt how he can be villanized swinging into a state where he Cant and never Did and wrong and if you critique #or acknowledge it you get snipped at and demeaned and treated like its a targeted hit on the mentally ill when its like #a mild disagreement with one of the most popular characters in the fanbase Easily #and w cc wil i do think he is just sm guy. im sure he's a nice dude idrc abt the ccs usually but he seems alright enough even tho he has v #goofy ahh takes and opinions but that doesnt make you Evil #but when i dive into what really has made me feel so alienated and snippy its. llmao its the racism yeah lol its super very much the racism #its very very prevelent and very common and very unchallenged. and it like. upsets me so bad its why i keep bailing on making my actual #full detailed post abt it. cuz everytime i try to formulate my thoughts i just get upset and frustrated i wanna rip my hair out #its hard not to feel like im talking to a wall when its so common and unchecked and. ive seen rightful critiques of these spaces and how #ppl interact with them Openly Mocked and brushed aside and treated like 'petty sensative internet drama' that ppl need to 'just get over' #sorry man im a fucking 🇲🇽 i cant exactly log off and Stop Experiencing Racism. and sorry that me feeling alienated and tired and sad abt #it is an inconvenience for you llol #and like idk. im not upset w anyone in particular this isnt a call out post or vague who give a shit and. #eh maybe im stupid but i really really believe a lot of ppl arent doing it on purpose #its just bein parroted ik i get it but #am i rlly not allowed to be tired? why should it feel like my responsibility to hold ppls hand and go hey mb treat poc and darker skinned #ppl like ppl. maybe you should examine why you need so many things made palatable to you through conventionally attractive whiteness first #idk. idk!!! am i crazy who fucking knows #but it has been weighing on me stupid style so bad #the shrinking fanbase and primarily yk common stragglers has just. rlly felt like a magnifying glass to my already existing issues abt it #idk man. idk im tired and im at work its 100°+ and my head hurts so this is all yr getting. lea me alone #and again this isnt a vague who Cares. just wanted to get it off my chest finally #huri.txt #discourse #<- ig

[skrunksthatwunk]

haruka should be allowed to be mad at kiryu tbh

#not just in y6 but like all the time #dont get me wrong i LOVE them and i love them being sweet and happy and i love kiryu being a good dad ok #but kiryu is uh. not always the best. in ways that i think she should be upset about #and i think the canon narrative doesnt rlly wanna address that bc kiryu is trying so hard and that effort must be forgiven #and for a happy ending to occur the family must be reunited #and i get that but like. haruka's side of the story is often ignored completely #or else boils down to unconditional daughter love in ways that are supposed to be admirable #and again. i love these two dearly. i love them very very much. but i think that tension should be explored #their relationship would be Very Complex and i think it would be Messy tbh. not like screaming fighting per se but i think haruka should be #allowed some moments of Uncle Kaz Im Sick Of Your Shit type stuff #im not even sure why i feel this way specifically bc i know i used to have reasons for it but like. yeah #even if you dont think haruka's justified or that she's missing some details/perspective or whatever i think she should be hurt and upset #about some of The Bullshit. baby girl needs therapy she needs some support and sometimes kiryu just. idk. #anyway go listen to welly boots by the amazing devil. thats basically my thesis statement #look maybe I'm just projecting my own daddy issues or whatever idk. maybe more people should do that with them like. shit #I'll do it someday I'll make that content i swear #sorry thinkjng about the unconditional daughter love again. she's kind of an ideal. she's a fantasy sometimes of a daughter figure who will #always understand how hard you're trying and be cute and love you no matter what. does that make sense??? and it's like. like i almost feel #bad for knocking that bc i get parents are under a lot of stress but i think she should have that power and that agency to be upset with #him. idk if im making sense. she's reduced to the Ideal Daughter and i want her to be loving and kind but with some moments of bitterness

[orcelito]

ok ive straight up made a copy of my full ITNL doc, and i think im just gonna go thru and reread there and make edits as i go should i see any need

doing a full ITNL revamp as i get back into the groove for writing it

#speculation nation #itnl shit #now a lot of U may think this is not necessary #but get this. i am a perfectionist. #if my main project isn't as good as i think it should be then i will go insane #there r some details i need to smooth out. possible inconsistencies with canon #those are the DEFINITE necessary edits #but besides that. idk i just want things to read better #but i dont wanna post it in parts ykno? i'd rather have it all ready at once #so instead of rereading in ao3 like i usually do. im gonna reread in docs. #i made a copy of the doc bc i care about keeping record of the original version of it #for my own personal purposes. but for what's publicly available? yea i want that to be the best version it can be #this is what im gonna b working on today. now that ive finally finished One Episode of the anime lskdjflskdjf

[avacadokin]

This is the part in the story where i read ahead to the ending

#its getting a little to close to some of my past trauma and i can handle it if it's a happier ending or at least hopeful #and i really really like where this is going im so intrested in it #but im more scared than i can handle (and handle my other responsibilities lmao) #and i really wanna know the ending now so i can just focus on the details and the fun and the plot #not the scary #theories are so cool and i love playing around in that space #but i think in this instance id rather know everything and not be able to play cuz i think id enjoy it more #i should prolly take a step back but i need to know more i cant not #qsmp has me in a chokehold #also this over emotion stuff might just be cuz im really sleppy atm #idk i have lots of thoughts #and even more emotions #i love how passionate i can be about things and how much i care so quickly about everything #but it also leads to me having too many emotions i can't control at inconvient times #it feels like im trying to brag when i complain about being over empathetic but it does actually inconvenience me a loot #also like if being overempethetic can hurt me and does not necessarily make me a good person and can make me refocus situations #that should be focused on others on me #its logical to conclude that being under-empethetic is similar in can inconvenience but does not make you a bad person #i love my empathy level but it does hurt me at times and i don't think everyone should necessarily be more like me/more empathetic #it makes me more me #but me does not mean inherently good #i can love what makes me me without insiting that its the pinacle of humanity #idk rambling #sleppy time now

[swiftfootedachilles]

"dni ageless blogs" ive been on this website for nearly a decade i promise i didnt make my blog when i was 4

#like tumblr is just one of those site where you wanna learn my name? go to /about page or scroll thru my archive until u see me mention it #i dont even like my blog description now bc its too detailed #should just be my favorite tv show quote or song lyrics. not actual info abt me #a.txt #idk tumblr is its own space and you can tell when people from other sites migrate here bc they dont get the unspoken rules #im turning 23 this week btw so no im not a minor 😭