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#100 Song Lyric Prompts

No one specifically requested, but I wanted to do this so bad! Here we go...

“Will nature make a man of me yet?”- The Smiths, This Charming Man

“If I leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me?”- Lynyrd Skynyrd, Free Bird

“When my time comes around, lay me gently in the cold dark earth. No grave can hold my body down, I'll crawl home to her.”- Hozier, Work Song

“I don’t think that we should be alone together, when we’re in a room you get my eyes, you open your mouth I’m hypnotised”- The Neighbourhood, Single

“She looks as if she’s blowing a kiss at me and suddenly the sky is a scissor”- Arctic Monkeys, That’s where you’re wrong

“You think you want to be alone, just wait until you’re crying on the shower floor” “They’ve got a pretty face, but they’ve got a pretty empty head.” “But how the hell do you fall in love, the last time I checked you can’t fall in slow mo”- LANY- The Breakup *There were too many good ones in this song, I couldn’t help myself*

“I know it’s mad, but if I go to hell will you go with me or just leave?” - Panic! At The Disco, Do you know what I'm seeing?

“I don’t know who’s protecting me, but we hit it off”- Drake, Sandra’s Rose

“Do me a favour and break my nose, do me a favour and tell me to go away?”- Arctic monkeys, Do me a favour

“Baby just came back around, said she needs time to explore, said I can’t love her no more”- The Neighbourhood, Baby came home

“Just one mistake, you say you’re not in love no more, but was it really love if you can leave me for something so innocent is this the end?”- LANY, Thick and thin

“You can have Manhattan, I know it’s for the best, I’ll gather up the avenues and leave them on your doorstep. I’ll tiptoe away so you won’t have to say you heard me leave.” “You can have Manhattan, the one we used to share, the one where we were laughing and drunk on just being there. Hang onto the reverie, could you do that for me?”- Sara Bareilles, Manhattan

“You don’t love me, big fucking deal, I’ll never tell you how I feel.” “I'll send my best regards from Hell”- Marina and the Diamonds, Starring Role

“I been writing these songs ‘bout how I can’t be with you. I don’t want to be a monster, but I’ve been here for days, drinking too much now I want you, can’t get you off my brain.”- Henry, Monster, Eng. version

“Change lives, get better, yeah that be the plan” “That’s why you see me winning, yeah, even after I lose”- Jay Park, Ask bout me

“Love is not looking over shoulders, Love is you should trust what I told you” “Love is not struggling to say I love you”- 6LACK, Disconnect

“All these people taking miles when you give them an inch, all these followers but who's gonna follow me until the end?”- Drake, Emotionless

“She’s in the rain, you wanna hurt yourself I’ll stay with you, you wanna make yourself go through that pain, It’s better to be held than holding on,”- The Rose, She’s In The Rain *Absolutely love this one, don’t @ me, I will die for the The Rose**

“Sex by the fire at night”- Bruno Mars, That’s What I Like

“I’ve got the good side of you, sent it out into the blue.”- Troye Sivan, Good Side

“Standing by the window, rain falling, I want to have you full in my embrace and tell you, even when I’m born again and love you, even then, will you be with me?”- KREAM, 선물 Gift *Translated*

“It all passes, Someday, For sure, Certainly”- RM, ft. NELL, everythingoes *Translated*

“Please stay as long as you need, can't promise that things won't be broken, but I swear that I will never leave. Please stay forever with me”- Sleeping With Sirens, Scene One- James Dean & Audrey Hepburn

“When you move, I'm put to mind of all that I wanna be, when you move I could never define all that you are to me”- Hozier, Movement

“Wake up and smell the coffee, is your cup half full or empty?”- Billie Eilish, come out and play

“Am I a bad person? Or am I just in pain?”- DEAN, Sulli, Rad Museum, Dayfly *Translated*

“Kiss me on the lips, a secret just between the two of us, deeply poisoned by the jail of you, I cannot worship anyone but you and I knew the grail was poisoned but I drank it anyway”- BTS, Blood Sweat & Tears *Translated*

“When the sun sets and darkness comes, I only remember your warmth, where the stars wrap around us. I’m going there, I’ll be there”- SEVENTEEN, Highlight *Translated*

“I don't ever wanna feel like anything I do ever had a fucking resonance or meant a thing to you.”- Frank Carter & The Rattlesnakes, I Hate You

“You can’t take this away from me, the way I hit the melody, the waves bring clarity, running through me”- Tom Misch, Del La Soul, It Runs Through Me

“It was a lie when they smiled and said you won’t feel a thing”- My Chemical Romance, Disenchanted

“The fog has lifted and things get clear, all the lies pass by like a reel of film. I hate you”- EXO, 내가 미쳐 (Going Crazy) *Translated*

“I’m sorry- no, I’m not sorry, I’m just getting started and my life’s a party”- DEAN, Eric Bellinger, I’m Not Sorry

“Ain’t it fun, living in the real world?”- Paramore, Ain’t It Fun

“Ready or not, we are coming back- yeah, we’re over, we can tell you ‘bout what you need. You can look it up when you’re older”- Evergreen, Cargo Cult

“You, you got so much potential, every moment spent with you I bet was always eventful”- Aminé, Kehlani, Heebiejeebies- Bonus

“Could you imagine the taste of your lips if we never tried to kiss on the drive to Queens? 'Cause I imagine the weight of your ribs if you lied between my hips in the backseat”- Halsey, Roman Holiday

“Forever isn’t for everyone, is forever for you?”- Arctic Monkeys, Snap Out Of It

“Wish you good luck being lonely, I’mma push red every time you phone me. You vow to be a memory”- Ella Mai, ft. Ty Dolla $ign, She Don’t

“I’ve been dazed and confused from the day I met you, yeah I lost my head and I’d do it again”- Ruel, Dazed & Confused

“I just want you closer, is that alright? Baby let's get closer tonight”- Paolo Nutini, Last request

“You have no idea how pretty you are when you wake from sleep, you have no idea how beautiful you look as you get ready for bed”- Zion.T, No Makeup *Translated*

“I was thinking I could fly to your hotel tonight, baby, ‘cos I can’t get you off my mind”- Shawn Mendes, Lost In Japan

“She's soothing like the ocean rushing on the sand, she takes care of me, baby, she helps me be a better man. She's so beautiful, sometimes I stop to close my eyes, she's exactly what I need”- Jeremy Passion, Lemonade

“And her lips are like the galaxy's edge and her kiss the colour of a constellation falling into place”- Arctic Monkeys, Arabella

“It's how you look, not how you feel. A city of glass with no heart”- Queens of the Stone Age, If I Had a Tail

“I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife”- Hozier, Take Me To Church

“Bitter and hardened heart, Oh, aching- waiting for life to start”- Keane, Bend & Break

“When you move I'm put to mind of all that I wanna be, when you move I could never define all that you are to me”- Hozier, Movement

“She said, ‘Baby, I'm afraid to fall in love, 'cause what if it's not reciprocated?’ I told her, ‘Don't rush girl, don’t you rush, guess it's all a game of patience.’”- Pink Sweat$, Honesty

“Share a casket with you, we’ll be buried alive, me and her playing truth ‘til the day we die.”- Granata Ft. Phoniks, You Dont Need Me

“And hope that I had survived yesterday, and today is jealous of tomorrow.”- Emeli Sandé, Breathing Underwater

“Heaven if you sent us down so we could build a playground for the sinners to play as saints, you'd be so proud of what we've made.” Stephen, Crossfire

“Tell me how do you cope with it? How do you sleep with yourself at night? How do you cope with it? How do you sleep with yourself at night?”- blackbear, make daddy proud

“If anyone looks perfect, you look perfect next to me.”- Nick Wilson, Obsolete

“When I meet you after time passes, I’ll know (you were my future), I’ll know (I was your yesterday). When I meet you after time passes, I’ll know (you protected me), I’ll know (I desired you).”- SEVENTEEN (Wen Junhui & Xu Minghao), My I *Translated*

“I need my sex n’ drugs, I need my money first, bless me with all my sins.”- Abhi The Nomad, Ft. Harrison Sands & Copper King, Sex ‘n Drugs

“Naked and fallin' in love, look here I got you. Safe where there's no one to judge, keep it insightful.”- Keiynan Lonsdale, Preach

“All alone, all we know is haunting me, making it harder to breathe, harder to breathe.”- The Neighbourhood, Leaving Tonight

“Now I see you get off of the subway, haven't seen you in months but it's okay. I'd forgotten but I feel the same, hate that I still wish you were...”- Claud, Wish You Were Gay

“A perfect stranger lying next to me, he's playing God with broken figurines. He keeps calling me his little queen and I believe.”- Jake Wesley Rogers, Little Queen (This song deserves way more recognition, make sure to give it a listen!)

“Hell is so close to Heaven, hell is so close to Heaven. Hold on don't look back, you know we're better- we’re better than that. Lost and thrown away, you know we're better- we’re better than that.”- Sleeping With Sirens, The Strays

“Alone tonight, I’m drawing my dreams across the sky farther than I can imagine- She wants it.”- CIX, Movie Star *Translated*

“Yeah I mixed words and some whiskey on the flight just to make sure I landed on time and I wrote me a song I could sing just in case I forgot everything.”- Marc E. Bassy, Last One I Love

“Don't ask questions you don't wanna know, learned my lesson way too long ago.” “Deadly fever, please don't ever break, be my reliever 'cause I don't self medicate”- Billie Eilish, my strange addiction

“And it's worth it, it's divine, I have this some of the time.”- Hozier, Cherry Wine

“And I realize you're mine, Indeed, a fool am I.”- Queens of the Stone Age, No One Knows

“Look in the mirror ‘til I forget everything I know, everything I did was just a way to make the time feel faster.”- Miya Folick, Stock Image

“Do you feel how I feel? Are you numb? Do you tread crystal waters, bound to be stung? Are you scared? If I see you, we're upon, will you dye your hair dark so you're no longer blonde?”- Isaac Dunbar, Cologne

“Tell me; To you I’m bad & hurtful. Because I’ve been busy, you’re hurting. Bad, bad, bad, I’m bad, bad.”- Crush, NAPPA (나빠) *Translated*

“Just for the record, the weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of: A. Indifference or B. disinterest to what the critics say.”- Panic! At The Disco, London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines

“‘Cause you don’t say what you feel, I'm the one driving but you take the wheel. You wanna wait, 'til we're older, I'm the one who started this, but now I just want closure.”- Ieuan, Closure

“Our names carved in the pavement, sealed by what's left of our handprints, now. I told my mom, she'd love to meet you, but it's too bad she won't get the chance to.”- COIN, Malibu 1992

“I'm running outta time to hold you close, running outta time to be your man. I'm just lost in this moment, I've been zoning.”- blackbear, 4u

“Standing on your mama's porch, you told me that you'd wait forever. Oh and when you held my hand, I knew that it was now or never”- Bryan Adams, Summer Of ‘69

“I'll go out, grow my hair too long, sing your least favourite songs at the top of my lungs. I'll go out, kiss all of your friends, make a story and pretend it was me who made this end.”- The Vamps, Hair Too Long

“Getting my mind right, I'll wait 'til the time's right. I'm meaning to tell you why it's hard to sleep at night. There's nothing to fear now, girl, we should be here now. So why don't you hear me out?”- Jeremy Zucker, Ft. blackbear, talk is overrated

“We haven't spoke since you went away, comfortable silence is so overrated. Why won't you ever be the first one to break? Even my phone misses your call, by the way.”- Harry Styles, From the Dining Table

“Look overhead at the stars and the ocean, foggy emotions, moments, erosion. This supernova could cause a commotion, my minds of the notion, you'll still be my motive”- Ansel Elgort, Supernova

“I love that new dress you bought, yeah, you sure look nice. Heard you liked that new restaurant, you know, I've been there twice. And the way that you switch up your hair, all of the moments we've shared, strolling the streets back in Rome, oh, how I wish I was there. It ain't fair.”- Ruel, Face To Face

“Welcome to your life, there's no turning back. Even while we sleep we will find you acting on your best behaviour, turn your back on mother nature.”- Tear For Fears, Everybody Wants to Rule the World

“I'm wide awake, not losing any sleep, I picked up every piece and landed on my feet. I'm wide awake, need nothing to complete myself, no.” Katy Perry, Wide Awake

“If you don't realize, all of the things your life can do you will be left behind, swept up by the storm of those you knew.”- Meltycanon, thankful

“I always knew that we'd be by each other's side forever, now our time has come and I'd be satisfied if we died together. Yeah, our climate's fucked, we might as well enjoy the weather, our time is up and I'd be satisfied if we died together.”- Samsa, Anthropocene

“There's still so much to say, I'm faded, broken, pretending you're on the line, wasting my time. Sinking deeper, watching you spend your night, like I'll be fine and I'll be over this.”- NYK, Faded

“I’d rather go to hell, than be in purgatory, cut my hair, gag and bore me, pull this pin, let this world explode.”- My Chemical Romance, Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na)

“I reached for a shooting star, it burned a hole through my hand Made its way through my heart, had fun in the promised land.”- blink-182, Wishing Well

“Let go of your baggage, but don’t think I don’t understand it’s probably a challenge,”- Isaac Lewis, Fly

“It's been a long night in New York city, it's been a long night in Baton Rouge. I don't remember you looking any better, but then again, I don't remember you.”- John Mayer, Who Says

“They say that love kills, it ain't quite what it seems, don't be shocked when you lost what you called ‘meant to be’.”- StayLoose, Bryce Fox, Sociopath

“When they come for You, I will shield Your name, I will field their questions, I will feel Your pain.”- Kanye West, Ultralight Beam

“Two steps forward, one step back and it won’t be long til my heart attack, yup! And common sense falls second place to the way it feels when you kiss my face, yup!”- The Band CAMINO, 2 / 14

“Leaving empty souls when he avenged, evil spirits flowed, he drank the blood like lemonade.”- Morcheeba, Blood Like Lemonade

“Your smile will become a classic; the brilliance of sunlight, the haziness of the moonlight exist for the sake of promises.”- WayV, Moonwalk

Dear God, I hope you got the letter and I pray you can make it better down here. I don't need a big reduction in the price of beer, but all the people that you made in your image- see them starving on their feet.”- Lawless, Sydney Wayser, Dear God

“Down below, sandy, like the ocean floor, quiet, like I like it; here I'll never be alone.”- slenderbodies, anemone

“I love everything, fire spreading all around my room, my world's so bright, it's hard to breathe but that's alright- hush.”- Sub Urban, Cradles

“I'm telling myself, I'm telling myself, ‘I don't need you anymore’.”- Lia Marie Johnson, Cold Heart Killer

“So I moved to California, but it's just a state of mind, it turns out everywhere you go, you take yourself, that's not a lie. Wish that you would hold me or just say that you were mine- it's killing me slowly.” Lana Del Rey, Fuck it I love you

“See, she knows that I love her, but I don't think she'll stay and she knows that I need her, but my love's lost its weight. Spend my days longing for something real, spend my days stuck in the way I feel.”- JOBA, Sad Saturdays

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angelhummel · 3 years

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once again i spent hours of my life answering >5000 questions in order to sort almost all of the glee songs ever (there’s 683 songs in the sorter when there’s over 700 on the show) anyway if you wanna see my rankings for those then check it out <3 [also here’s the sorter!]

1 Being Alive 2 Rose's Turn 3 Baby, It's Cold Outside 4 Le Jazz Hot 5 Maybe This Time 6 And I Am Telling You I'm Not Going 7 Come What May 8 To Sir, With Love 9 As If We Never Said Goodbye 10 Valerie 11 Somewhere Only We Know 12 Cough Syrup 13 Teenage Dream 14 Not The Boy Next Door 15 It's Too Late 16 It's My Life / Confessions Part II 17 Start Me Up / Livin' On A Prayer 18 When I Get You Alone 19 The Happening 20 The Boy Is Mine 21 Home 22 Don't You Want Me 23 How Will I Know 24 Bad Romance 25 Not While I'm Around 26 Scream 27 Shake It Out 28 On My Own 29 Hate On Me 30 Bills, Bills, Bills 31 4 Minutes 32 True Colors 33 There Are Worse Things I Could Do 34 Go Your Own Way 35 Jessie's Girl 36 Proud Mary 37 Tongue Tied 38 Last Christmas 39 Somebody Loves You 40 Back To Black 41 Sweet Transvestite 42 For Good 43 At The Ballet 44 Gloria 45 Blame It (On The Alcohol) 46 Like A Prayer 47 So Emotional 48 Misery 49 Nasty / Rhythm Nation 50 Toxic 51 Don't Speak 52 Born This Way 53 Dog Days Are Over 54 Defying Gravity 55 Last Name 56 Womanizer 57 I Will Always Love You 58 Broadway Baby 59 The Lady Is A Tramp 60 I'm A Slave 4 U 61 Centerfold / Hot In Herre 62 Thriller / Heads Will Roll 63 Bust Your Windows 64 Candyman 65 Brave 66 Boys / Boyfriend 67 The Scientist 68 The Scientist (Acapella) 69 Dream On 70 Hey Jude 71 I Lived 72 I'm Still Here 73 I Believe In A Thing Called Love 74 Me Against The Music 75 Like A Virgin 76 My Man 77 Everybody Wants To Rule The World 78 I Have Nothing 79 Blackbird 80 Got To Get You Into My Life 81 Animal 82 3 83 I Follow Rivers 84 Just The Way You Are 85 Constant Craving 86 Don't Stop Me Now 87 Hung Up 88 Let's Have A Kiki 89 Love Shack 90 Marry The Night 91 Hit Me With Your Best Shot / One Way Or Another 92 It's Not Right, But It's Okay 93 I Want To Hold Your Hand 94 All You Need Is Love 95 Getting Married Today 96 Don't Rain On My Parade 97 Don't Stop Believin' (Regionals) 98 We've Got Tonite 99 Smooth Criminal 100 Uptown Girl 101 Sway 102 If I Die Young 103 No One Is Alone 104 Look At Me I'm Sandra Dee 105 No Scrubs 106 Mamma Mia 107 Papa Don't Preach 108 Teenage Dream (Acoustic Version) 109 Santa Baby 110 We Found Love 111 Roar 112 She's Not There 113 Spotlight 114 The Way You Look Tonight/You're Never Fully Dressed Without A Smile 115 Some Nights 116 Rumour Has It / Someone Like You 117 You Make Me Feel So Young 118 You Keep Me Hangin' On 119 I'll Stand By You (Amber) 120 Hand In My Pocket / I Feel The Earth Move 121 Crazy / U Drive Me Crazy 122 Funny Girl 123 Cold Hearted 124 Keep Holding On 125 Bye Bye Bye / I Want It That Way 126 I Know Where I've Been 127 I Kissed A Girl (Season Six) 128 Hopelessly Devoted To You 129 Homeward Bound / Home 130 Into The Groove 131 Hold On 132 Tell Him 133 Nutbush City Limits 134 Because You Loved Me 135 Perfect 136 Cherish / Cherish 137 Do You Wanna Touch Me (Oh Yeah) 138 Ding-Dong! The Witch Is Dead 139 You Are The Sunshine Of My Life 140 Tik Tok 141 The Safety Dance 142 Oops!... I Did It Again 143 Run Joey Run 144 Time Warp 145 Something's Coming 146 Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go 147 The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face 148 Vogue 149 Downtown 150 Diva 151 Dancing With Myself 152 Rockstar 153 Wrecking Ball 154 We Are Young 155 I Saw Her Standing There 156 Jumpin', Jumpin' 157 Just Can't Get Enough 158 Take Me To Church 159 Wannabe 160 It's All Over 161 Take Me Home Tonight 162 If I Were A Boy 163 Landslide 164 Pompeii 165 The Bitch Is Back / Dress You Up 166 Christmas Wrapping 167 Buenos Aires 168 Call Me Maybe 169 You Can't Stop The Beat 170 Seasons Of Love 171 Safety Dance 172 Dream A Little Dream 173 Alfie 174 I Want To Break Free 175 Baby One More Time 176 A House Is Not A Home 177 Daydream Believer 178 I Don't Know How To Love Him 179 Hungry Like The Wolf / Rio 180 Suddenly Seymour 181 People 182 Silly Love Songs 183 Love Song 184 Shout It Out Loud 185 Some People 186 One Of Us 187 Sing! 188 Up Up Up 189 Torn 190 Popular 191 This Is The New Year 192 Paradise By The Dashboard Light 193 Let It Snow 194 Let It Be 195 Never Can Say Goodbye 196 Touch A Touch A Touch A Touch Me 197 La Isla Bonita 198 Tightrope 199 My Love Is Your Love 200 Love Is A Battlefield 201 Losing My Religion 202 Total Eclipse Of The Heart 203 This Time 204 I Dreamed A Dream 205 Leaving On A Jet Plane 206 Locked Out Of Heaven 207 Chandelier 208 Girl On Fire 209 Telephone 210 Don't Cry For Me Argentina 211 Human Nature 212 Halo / Walking On Sunshine 213 Anything Goes / Anything You Can Do 214 Make You Feel My Love 215 Stronger 216 Nowadays / Hot Honey Rag 216 Pumpin' Blood 218 Papa Can You Hear Me? 219 Summer Nights 220 Sweet Caroline 221 Superstition 222 We Will Rock You 223 Alone 224 Hello, I Love You 225 Against All Odds (Take A Look At Me Now) 226 A Hard Day's Night 227 Mine 228 My Prerogative 229 Beauty School Drop Out 230 My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It) 231 Extraordinary Merry Christmas 232 Every Breath You Take 233 Express Yourself 234 Everybody Talks 235 Everytime 236 Marry You 237 Moves Like Jagger / Jumpin' Jack Flash 238 My Favorite Things 239 Santa Claus Is Coming To Town 240 River Deep, Mountain High 241 My Life Would Suck Without You 242 Be Okay 243 Applause 244 Cool 245 All I Want For Christmas Is You 246 American Boy 247 Cell Block Tango 248 Breakaway 249 Don't Dream It's Over 250 Let Me Love You (Until You Learn To Love Yourself) 251 Whatever Happened To Saturday Night? 252 Without You 253 Science Fiction Double Feature 254 Loser Like Me 255 I Kissed A Girl 256 I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How To Dance With You 257 I Can't Go For That (No Can Do) / You Make My Dreams 258 Don't Stop Believin' (Season 5) 259 Empire State Of Mind 260 Old Time Rock & Roll / Danger Zone 261 Take My Breath Away 262 You Get What You Give 263 Take On Me 264 Beautiful 265 It's Time 266 ABC 267 Afternoon Delight 268 Don't Stand So Close To Me / Young Girl 269 Don't Stop Believin' (Season 1) 270 Colorblind 271 Cool Kids 272 Dancing Queen 273 Songbird 274 Somebody That I Used To Know 275 Singing In The Rain / Umbrella 276 I Feel Pretty / Unpretty 277 Borderline / Open Your Heart 278 In My Life 279 I'm Still Standing 280 Blow Me (One Last Kiss) 281 Do Ya Think I'm Sexy? 282 Do They Know It's Christmas? 283 Mustang Sally 284 Pinball Wizard 285 Anything Could Happen 286 America 287 Any Way You Want It 288 Higher Ground 289 Flashdance... What A Feeling 290 My Life 291 Let It Go 292 If I Can't Have You 293 L-O-V-E 294 Closer 295 Addicted To Love 296 Heroes 297 A Boy Like That 298 Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend / Material Girl 299 Holding Out For A Hero 300 Dinosaur 301 Disco Inferno 302 Party All The Time 303 Raise Your Glass 304 Push It 305 Lean On Me 306 Pure Imagination 307 Lovefool 308 Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin' 309 Americano / Dance Again 310 All Of Me 311 At Last 312 Promises, Promises 313 Hair / Crazy In Love 314 Happy Xmas (War Is Over) 315 Chasing Pavements 316 Don't You (Forget About Me) 317 Love Child 318 School's Out 319 Poker Face 320 Boogie Shoes 321 Bootylicious 322 I Love New York / New York, New York 323 One Less Bell To Answer 324 Signed, Sealed, Delivered I'm Yours 325 Rehab 326 I Don't Want To Know 327 Shout 328 I'm The Greatest Star 329 I Love It 330 Never Say Never 331 Juke Box Hero 332 One Bourbon, One Scotch, One Beer 333 Glad You Came 334 For Once In My Life 335 Here Comes The Sun 336 Baby It's You 337 Drive My Car 338 Last Friday Night 339 Roots Before Branches 340 The Only Exception 341 Survivor / I Will Survive 342 All Or Nothing 343 Time After Time 344 You're The One That I Want 345 Yeah! 346 Starships 347 You've Got To Hide Your Love Away 348 Story Of My Life 349 Something 350 We Need A Little Christmas 351 Gold Digger 352 Beth 353 Fighter 354 Forget You 355 How To Be A Heartbreaker 356 Get Back 357 Love You Like A Love Song 358 There's A Light (Over At The Frankenstein Place) 359 We Got The Beat 360 Make 'Em Laugh 361 Sing 362 U Can't Touch This 363 Try A Little Tenderness 364 Pony 365 On Our Way 366 Lucky Star 367 Loser 368 Over The Rainbow 369 Outcast 370 Stop! In The Name Of Love / Free Your Mind 371 What Makes You Beautiful 372 Will You Love Me Tomorrow / Head Over Feet 373 Wide Awake 374 Wishin' And Hoping 375 Yesterday 376 Out Here On My Own 377 You're All The World To Me 378 Somethin' Stupid 379 Someday We'll Be Together 380 River 381 The Longest Time 382 Somebody To Love 383 The Edge Of Glory 384 The Most Wonderful Day Of The Year 385 Lucky 386 Memory 387 Mary's Boy Child 388 Longest Time 389 My Dark Side 390 Taking Chances 391 The First Noël 392 Smile 393 Celebrity Skin 394 All That Jazz 395 A Thousand Years 396 Big Girls Don't Cry 397 Ain't No Way 398 Don't Sleep In The Subway 399 Doo Wop (That Thing) 400 Don't Stop 401 Uptight (Everything's Alright) 402 New York State Of Mind 403 Turning Tables 404 Vacation 405 Fire 406 Hold It Against Me 407 I've Gotta Be Me 408 Endless Love 409 Run The World (Girls) 410 Saving All My Love For You 411 Give Up The Funk 412 I Am Changing 413 I Melt With You 414 I Could Have Danced All Night 415 Fat Bottomed Girls 416 Hot For Teacher 417 Never Going Back Again 418 Imagine 419 Jolene 420 Arthur's Theme 421 Damn It, Janet 422 Control 423 Barracuda 424 Copacabana 425 Barely Breathing 426 I Look To You 427 Come Sail Away 428 Jump 429 Clarity 430 Friday I'm In Love 431 Jar Of Hearts 432 It's Not Unusual 433 Footloose 434 Here Comes Santa Claus 435 Happy Days Are Here Again / Get Happy 436 Help! 437 Greased Lightning 438 Hell To The No 439 All Out Of Love 440 (You Make Me Feel Like) A Natural Woman 441 Candles 442 All By Myself 443 Hello Goodbye 444 It's A Man's Man's Man's World 445 I Say A Little Prayer 446 It Must Have Been Love 447 Just Give Me A Reason 448 Come See About Me 449 Born To Hand Jive 450 I Want To Know What Love Is 451 I Wish 452 I'll Remember 453 Get It Right 454 (I've Had) The Time Of My Life 455 I'll Stand By You (Cory) 456 Forever Young 457 A Change Would Do You Good 458 Smile (Charlie Chaplin song) 459 Best Day Of My Life 460 An Innocent Man 461 Dreams 462 All About That Bass 463 Home (originally by Michael Bublé) 464 Black Or White 465 Baby 466 Bad 467 Problem 468 Oh Chanukah 469 What Kind Of Fool 470 Wings 471 You're My Best Friend 472 You're All I Need To Get By 473 White Christmas 474 Whenever I Call You Friend 475 Wanna Be Startin' Somethin' 476 What Doesn't Kill You (Stronger) 477 Wedding Bell Blues 478 More Than A Feeling 479 More Than A Woman 480 Our Day Will Come 481 P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing) 482 Here's To Us 483 Honesty 484 Hall Of Fame 485 It's All Coming Back To Me Now 486 Teach Your Children 487 Night Fever 488 What The World Needs Now 489 Listen 490 Let Me Love You 491 Live While We're Young 492 Light Up The World 493 Trouty Mouth 494 Werewolves Of London 495 Kiss 496 Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas 497 Movin' Out (Anthony's Song) 498 Mickey 499 Mean 500 Mercy 501 Merry Christmas Darling 502 Let's Wait Awhile 503 Man In The Mirror 504 Rather Be 505 Rise 506 Good Vibrations 507 Faithfully 508 Firework 509 How Deep Is Your Love 510 Fix You 511 Fire And Rain 512 Give Your Heart A Break 513 Rockin' Around The Christmas Tree 514 Little Girls 515 Cry 516 Bust A Move 517 Bridge Over Troubled Water 518 Bring Him Home 519 Cheek To Cheek 520 Break Free 521 As Long As You're There 522 Big Ass Heart 523 Bitch 524 Bamboleo / Hero 525 Away In A Manger 526 Deck The Rooftop 527 Christmas Eve With You 528 Angels We Have Heard On High 529 Creep 530 Crush 531 Make No Mistake, She's Mine 532 Lose My Breath 533 Look At Me I'm Sandra Dee (Reprise) 534 What I Did For Love 535 Wake Me Up 536 Thousand Miles 537 Take A Bow 538 Still Got Tonight 539 The Music Of The Night 540 Stereo Hearts 541 The Chipmunk Song (Christmas Don't Be Late) 542 Take Me Or Leave Me 543 I'm The Only One 544 Isn't She Lovely 545 I Just Can't Stop Loving You 546 I'll Never Fall In Love Again 547 Unchained Melody 548 You're A Mean One, Mr. Grinch 549 You Have More Friends Than You Know 550 You Should Be Dancing 551 I'm His Child 552 You Learn / You've Got A Friend 553 Somewhere 554 So Far Away 555 Uptown Funk 556 The Winner Takes It All 557 They Long To Be Close To You 558 Tonight 559 Being Good Isn't Good Enough 560 You May Be Right 561 To Love You More 562 Don't Wanna Lose You 563 Do You Hear What I Hear? 564 Ice Ice Baby 565 Don't Go Breaking My Heart 566 Don't Make Me Over 567 I Won't Give Up 568 I'll Be Home For Christmas 569 I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For 570 I Still Believe / Super Bass 571 I Wanna Dance With Somebody (Who Loves Me) 572 I Want You Back 573 Father Figure 574 Everybody Hurts 574 Gangnam Style 576 We Are The Champions 577 Stayin' Alive 578 Superman 579 The Rose 580 Don't Stop Believin' (Rachel) 581 Fly / I Believe I Can Fly 582 Gives You Hell 583 I Love L.A. 584 Mr. Roboto / Counting Stars 585 O Holy Night 586 Only The Good Die Young 587 One 588 Silent Night 589 Piano Man 590 Sexy And I Know It 591 Sgt. Pepper's Lonley Hearts Club Band 592 Pretending 593 Physical 594 Danny's Song 595 Stand 596 The Final Countdown 597 You Can't Always Get What You Want 598 You Are Woman, I Am Man 599 You've Lost That Lovin' Feelin' 600 Your Song 601 Say 602 No Air 603 Need You Now 604 No Surrender 605 Piece Of My Heart 606 Thong Song 607 Blurred Lines 608 Another One Bites The Dust 609 I Was Here 610 Bella Notte 611 I Know What Boys Like 612 God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen 613 Glory Days 614 Friday 615 More Than Words 616 Waiting For A Girl Like You 617 Welcome Christmas 618 You Spin Me Round (Like A Record) 619 You Give Love A Bad Name 620 We Built This City 621 Whistle 622 Who Are You Now? 623 You And I / You And I 624 Take Care Of Yourself 625 Tell Me Something Good 626 The Rain In Spain 627 Can't Fight This Feeling 628 Jingle Bell Rock 629 In Your Eyes 630 Hello 631 Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life) 632 I Only Have Eyes For You 633 Jingle Bells 634 Joy To The World 635 I Wanna Sex You Up 636 Fight For Your Right (To Party) 637 Feliz Navidad 638 I'm So Excited 639 Uninvited 640 The Living Years 641 The Fox (What Does The Fox Say?) 642 O Christmas Tree 643 One Love (People Get Ready) 644 Ohio 645 Only Child 646 Hello Twelve, Hello Thirteen, Hello Love 647 My Sharona 648 Dance The Night Away 649 Poison 650 My Cup 651 Not The End 652 What It Feels Like For A Girl 653 Listen To Your Heart 654 Little Drummer Boy 655 One Hand, One Heart 656 Bein' Green 657 Big Spender 658 Billionaire 659 Ben 660 Gimme More 661 Burning Up 662 Hey Ya! 663 Hey, Soul Sister 664 Baby Got Back 665 Blue Christmas 666 Bohemian Rhapsody 667 Far From Over 668 The Trolley Song 669 Starlight Express 670 Whip It 671 You're The Top 672 Red Solo Cup 673 Next To Me 674 Rolling In The Deep 675 Rainbow Connection 676 La Cucaracha 677 (You're) Having My Baby 678 A Little Less Conversation 679 Happy 680 Highway To Hell 681 Same Love 682 Rock Lobster 683 Girls Just Want To Have Fun

#glee #glee song ranking #ranking #my thoughts #mine #umm so funny story #well first of all some of the mash ups werent even together #like anyway you want it and lovin touchin squeezin #they were listed as their own songs #i thought they'd end up being closer but they arent and thats hilarious #also there's the scientist and then the scientist acoustic?? idk what that is #but they're close together #umm home by michael bubbles #it did not tell me what the song was #it literally said (michael buble version) or something #and i did not think to look it up until after my results #sooo... if i knew it was a rory song it would not be that high lmao #anyway as you can see it is a bit of a mess #but my top ten is really solid again<3 #oh also there was only one 'just the way you are'#so i chose to pretend it was the s5 version which is why its higher #than if i were pretending it were the s2 version

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* ( HOW I'M FEELING ALBUM BY LAUV / SENTENCE PROMPTS.

These may have been edited for clarity or length or to better apply for roleplaying.

❛ We hit the bar ❜

❛ I wonder what it feels like to be more than I am ❜

❛ Am I a winner yet? ❜

❛ I don't wanna base my actions on reactions or the things they say ❜

❛ I don't wanna hit delete on all the parts of me that they might hate ❜

❛ I'm laying in my bed ❜

❛ I know its been a minute since you walked right through that door ❜

❛ I don't know how I'm gonna make it out ❜

❛ I'm lonely ❜

❛ I still watch the shows you showed me ❜

❛ These days it tastes more bitter than sweet ❜

❛ All my friends are way too drunk ❜

❛ Miss those nights when you would come over ❜

❛ I don't mean to be rude ❜

❛ There's things in myself that I see in you ❜

❛ Where you are, I'm right there too ❜

❛ Stay the night ❜

❛ When you're gone, I don't sleep ❜

❛ I wish that you and I lived in the Sims ❜

❛ We could build a house and plant some flowers and have kids ❜

❛ I'll probably never see you again ❜

❛ I'd erase the things I said and that I'll probably say again ❜

❛ Hit rewind on all the times I got lost in my head ❜

❛ I guess I'll never see you again ❜

❛ I wish we would've met on another night ❜

❛ I wish that we met walkin' round the MoMA ❜

❛ I'd try to impress you with some bullshit 'bout Monet ❜

❛ If I had a time machine I would take it ❜

❛ Now I'm reminiscing 'round the clock ❜

❛ Shoulda believed in us while we existed ❜

❛ I wish I would've been patient ❜

❛ Is my love too much? ❜

❛ Love only knows broken ends ❜

❛ I can't explain ❜

❛ It's almost like I've been here forever ❜

❛ I'm obsessed with your brain ❜

❛ What if we move to Canada? ❜

❛ That could be us ❜

❛ You sigh like a movie ❜

❛ I guess we're lucky ❜

❛ I keep you right here in my brain ❜

❛ I'll love you through the phone ❜

❛ I'm really gonna miss you ❜

❛ You're still my best friend ❜

❛ For now, just come home to me ❜

❛ I can't tell what you're thinking ❜

❛ Please tell me what you're thinking ❜

❛ Last night we were more than fine ❜

❛ Just tell me if you changed your mind ❜

❛ 'Cause I'm all in ❜

❛ Don't build me up just to let me down ❜

❛ Don't tell me you're falling with your feet still on the ledge ❜

❛ I'm all out of breath ❜

❛ Don't kiss me ❜

❛ You know you got me in the palm of your hand ❜

❛ You only let me hold you when he can't ❜

❛ Hurry home, let's never leave the house ❜

❛ Let's stay in bed while all our friends go out ❜

❛ Why you let those words come out your mouth if you don't mean it? ❜

❛ You've been staring at me with a heart of doubt ❜

❛ I been thinking that life's too short ❜

❛ I hate myself ❜

❛ I been hiding pain ❜

❛ I been up so long I'm scared to sleep ❜

❛ I'm sorry for the pain ❜

❛ Lately, I been so annoyed cause they think that I'm just paranoid ❜

❛ Don't judge me ❜

❛ I do anything to get by ❜

❛ You don't wanna know ❜

❛ You don't care anymore ❜

❛ I can't really blame you ❜

❛ I don't wanna know ❜

❛ Feels like just last week we were together ❜

❛ I really miss you ❜

❛ I think I need a minute ❜

❛ These choices and voices, they're all in my head ❜

❛ Sometimes, you make me feel crazy ❜

❛ Sometimes, I swear I think you hate me ❜

❛ I need a walk ❜

❛ I need to get outta here ❜

❛ I need to know ❜

❛ Who are you? ❜

❛ You're not the girl I fell in love with ❜

❛ Something has changed ❜

❛ I'm sick of waiting for love ❜

❛ Don't lie to me ❜

❛ I'm so tired of love songs ❜

❛ Everybody around me is falling in love to our song ❜

❛ Killing my lonely nights with strangers ❜

❛ I need you now ❜

❛ Got another margarita ❜

❛ Drinking after dark, that's when she stole my heart ❜

❛ I fell in love and there was no going back ❜

❛ I never come here solo ❜

❛ I always find myself in random situations ❜

❛ Do you wanna have a little bit of fun tonight? ❜

❛ I'd never fall but then I fell for you ❜

❛ If it's not forever, then at least we'll have tattoos together ❜

❛ I could never love nobody else ❜

❛ I love you ❜

❛ Your cherry earrings are my favorite ❜

❛ There's nothing better than you and I ❜

❛ I'm getting rid of all my clothes I don't wear ❜

❛ I think I'm gonna cut my hair ❜

❛ These days I don't feel like me ❜

❛ I think I'm gonna take a break from alcohol ❜

❛ I could use some sleep ❜

❛ It's all going to work out someday ❜

❛ I've tried it every other way ❜

❛ Life feels like a daydream ❜

❛ I just wish that I could wake up ❜

❛ Voices always keeping me up ❜

❛ I've been in the backseat to my own life ❜

❛ I don't wanna be sad forever ❜

❛ Everything's gonna be okay ❜

❛ I don't know what words to say ❜

❛ I'll make it through to tomorrow ❜

❛ Do you still remember the way that we felt when we were kids? ❜

❛ We built castles out of couches ❜

❛ Now we're always second guessing ❜

❛ Happy is expensive ❜

❛ Let me hold you close ❜

❛ I wish I never lied to you ❜

❛ I never meant to hurt you like that ❜

❛ I've been trying to find a reason to get up ❜

❛ We love to get high, but we don't know how to come down ❜

❛ You get what you give and you give what you get ❜

#rp meme #rp memes #rp prompts #ask meme #Ask memes

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Song Prompts #1

“Will nature make a man of me yet?”- The Smiths, This Charming Man

“If I leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me?”- Lynyrd Skynyrd, Free Bird

“When my time comes around, lay me gently in the cold dark earth. No grave can hold my body down, I’ll crawl home to her.”- Hozier, Work Song

“I don’t think that we should be alone together, when we’re in a room you get my eyes, you open your mouth I’m hypnotised”- The Neighbourhood, Single

“She looks as if she’s blowing a kiss at me and suddenly the sky is a scissor”- Arctic Monkeys, That’s where you’re wrong

“You think you want to be alone, just wait until you’re crying on the shower floor”

“They’ve got a pretty face, but they’ve got a pretty empty head.”

“But how the hell do you fall in love, the last time I checked you can’t fall in slow mo”- LANY- The Breakup *There were too many good ones in this song, I couldn’t help myself*

“I know it’s mad, but if I go to hell will you go with me or just leave?” - Panic! At The Disco, Do you know what I’m seeing?

“I don’t know who’s protecting me, but we hit it off”- Drake, Sandra’s Rose

“Do me a favour and break my nose, do me a favour and tell me to go away?”- Arctic monkeys, Do me a favour

“Baby just came back around, said she needs time to explore, said I can’t love her no more”- The Neighbourhood, Baby came home

“Just one mistake, you say you’re not in love no more, but was it really love if you can leave me for something so innocent is this the end?”- LANY, Thick and thin

“You can have Manhattan, I know it’s for the best, I’ll gather up the avenues and leave them on your doorstep. I’ll tiptoe away so you won’t have to say you heard me leave.”

“You can have Manhattan, the one we used to share, the one where we were laughing and drunk on just being there. Hang onto the reverie, could you do that for me?”- Sara Bareilles, Manhattan

“You don’t love me, big fucking deal, I’ll never tell you how I feel.”

“I’ll send my best regards from Hell”- Marina and the Diamonds, Starring Role

“Change lives, get better, yeah that be the plan”

“That’s why you see me winning, yeah, even after I lose”- Jay Park, Ask bout me

“Love is not looking over shoulders, Love is you should trust what I told you”

“Love is not struggling to say I love you”- 6LACK, Disconnect

“All these people taking miles when you give them an inch, all these followers but who’s gonna follow me until the end?”- Drake, Emotionless

“Sex by the fire at night”- Bruno Mars, That’s What I Like

“I’ve got the good side of you, sent it out into the blue.”- Troye Sivan, Good Side

“It all passes, Someday, For sure, Certainly”- RM, ft. NELL, everythingoes *Translated*

“Please stay as long as you need, can’t promise that things won’t be broken, but I swear that I will never leave. Please stay forever with me”- Sleeping With Sirens, Scene One- James Dean & Audrey Hepburn

“When you move, I’m put to mind of all that I wanna be, when you move

I could never define all that you are to me”- Hozier, Movement

“Wake up and smell the coffee, is your cup half full or empty?”- Billie Eilish, come out and play

“Am I a bad person? Or am I just in pain?”- DEAN, Sulli, Rad Museum, Dayfly *Translated*

“When the sun sets and darkness comes, I only remember your warmth, where the stars wrap around us. I’m going there, I’ll be there”- SEVENTEEN, Highlight *Translated*

“I don’t ever wanna feel like anything I do ever had a fucking resonance or meant a thing to you.”- Frank Carter & The Rattlesnakes, I Hate You

“You can’t take this away from me, the way I hit the melody, the waves bring clarity, running through me”- Tom Misch, Del La Soul, It Runs Through Me

“It was a lie when they smiled and said you won’t feel a thing”- My Chemical Romance, Disenchanted

“The fog has lifted and things get clear, all the lies pass by like a reel of film. I hate you”- EXO, 내가 미쳐 (Going Crazy) *Translated*

“I’m sorry- no, I’m not sorry, I’m just getting started and my life’s a party”- DEAN, Eric Bellinger, I’m Not Sorry

“Ain’t it fun, living in the real world?”- Paramore, Ain’t It Fun

“Ready or not, we are coming back- yeah, we’re over, we can tell you ‘bout what you need. You can look it up when you’re older”- Evergreen, Cargo Cult

“You, you got so much potential, every moment spent with you I bet was always eventful”- Aminé, Kehlani, Heebiejeebies- Bonus

“Could you imagine the taste of your lips if we never tried to kiss on the drive to Queens? ‘Cause I imagine the weight of your ribs if you lied between my hips in the backseat”- Halsey, Roman Holiday

“Forever isn’t for everyone, is forever for you?”- Arctic Monkeys, Snap Out Of It

“Wish you good luck being lonely, I’mma push red every time you phone me. You vow to be a memory”- Ella Mai, ft. Ty Dolla $ign, She Don’t

“I’ve been dazed and confused from the day I met you, yeah I lost my head and I’d do it again”- Ruel, Dazed & Confused

“I just want you closer, is that alright? Baby let’s get closer tonight”- Paolo Nutini, Last request

“You have no idea how pretty you are when you wake from sleep, you have no idea how beautiful you look as you get ready for bed”- Zion.T, No Makeup *Translated*

“I was thinking I could fly to your hotel tonight, baby, ‘cos I can’t get you off my mind”- Shawn Mendes, Lost In Japan

“She’s soothing like the ocean rushing on the sand, she takes care of me, baby, she helps me be a better man. She’s so beautiful, sometimes I stop to close my eyes, she’s exactly what I need”- Jeremy Passion, Lemonade

“And her lips are like the galaxy’s edge and her kiss the colour of a constellation falling into place”- Arctic Monkeys, Arabella

“It’s how you look, not how you feel. A city of glass with no heart”- Queens of the Stone Age, If I Had a Tail

“I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife”- Hozier, Take Me To Church

“Bitter and hardened heart, Oh, aching- waiting for life to start”- Keane, Bend & Break

“When you move I’m put to mind of all that I wanna be, when you move I could never define all that you are to me”- Hozier, Movement

“She said, ‘Baby, I’m afraid to fall in love, 'cause what if it’s not reciprocated?’ I told her, ‘Don’t rush girl, don’t you rush, guess it’s all a game of patience.’”- Pink Sweat$, Honesty

“Share a casket with you, we’ll be buried alive, me and her playing truth ‘til the day we die.”- Granata Ft. Phoniks, You Dont Need Me

“And hope that I had survived yesterday, and today is jealous of tomorrow.”- Emeli Sandé, Breathing Underwater

“Heaven if you sent us down so we could build a playground for the sinners to play as saints, you’d be so proud of what we’ve made.” Stephen, Crossfire

“Tell me how do you cope with it? How do you sleep with yourself at night? How do you cope with it? How do you sleep with yourself at night?”- blackbear, make daddy proud

“If anyone looks perfect, you look perfect next to me.”- Nick Wilson, Obsolete

“I need my sex n’ drugs, I need my money first, bless me with all my sins.”- Abhi The Nomad, Ft. Harrison Sands & Copper King, Sex ‘n Drugs

“Naked and fallin’ in love, look here I got you. Safe where there’s no one to judge, keep it insightful.”- Keiynan Lonsdale, Preach

“All alone, all we know is haunting me, making it harder to breathe, harder to breathe.”- The Neighbourhood, Leaving Tonight

“Now I see you get off of the subway, haven’t seen you in months but it’s okay. I’d forgotten but I feel the same, hate that I still wish you were…”- Claud, Wish You Were Gay

“A perfect stranger lying next to me, he’s playing God with broken figurines. He keeps calling me his little queen and I believe.”- Jake Wesley Rogers, Little Queen (This song deserves way more recognition, make sure to give it a listen!)

“Hell is so close to Heaven, hell is so close to Heaven. Hold on don’t look back, you know we’re better- we’re better than that. Lost and thrown away, you know we’re better- we’re better than that.”- Sleeping With Sirens, The Strays

“Alone tonight, I’m drawing my dreams across the sky farther than I can imagine- She wants it.”- CIX, Movie Star *Translated*

“Yeah I mixed words and some whiskey on the flight just to make sure I landed on time and I wrote me a song I could sing just in case I forgot everything.”- Marc E. Bassy, Last One I Love

“Don’t ask questions you don’t wanna know, learned my lesson way too long ago.”

“Deadly fever, please don’t ever break, be my reliever 'cause I don’t self medicate”- Billie Eilish, my strange addiction

“And it’s worth it, it’s divine, I have this some of the time.”- Hozier, Cherry Wine

“And I realize you’re mine, Indeed, a fool am I.”- Queens of the Stone Age, No One Knows

“Look in the mirror ‘til I forget everything I know, everything I did was just a way to make the time feel faster.”- Miya Folick, Stock Image

“Do you feel how I feel? Are you numb? Do you tread crystal waters, bound to be stung? Are you scared? If I see you, we’re upon,

will you dye your hair dark so you’re no longer blonde?”- Isaac Dunbar, Cologne

“Tell me; To you I’m bad & hurtful. Because I’ve been busy, you’re hurting. Bad, bad, bad, I’m bad, bad.”- Crush, NAPPA (나빠) *Translated*

“‘Cause you don’t say what you feel, I’m the one driving but you take the wheel. You wanna wait, 'til we’re older, I’m the one who started this, but now I just want closure.”- Ieuan, Closure

“Our names carved in the pavement, sealed by what’s left of our handprints, now. I told my mom, she’d love to meet you, but it’s too bad she won’t get the chance to.”- COIN, Malibu 1992

“I’m running outta time to hold you close, running outta time to be your man. I’m just lost in this moment, I’ve been zoning.”- blackbear, 4u

“Standing on your mama’s porch, you told me that you’d wait forever. Oh and when you held my hand, I knew that it was now or never”- Bryan Adams, Summer Of ‘69

“I’ll go out, grow my hair too long, sing your least favourite songs at the top of my lungs. I’ll go out, kiss all of your friends, make a story and pretend it was me who made this end.”- The Vamps, Hair Too Long

“Getting my mind right, I’ll wait 'til the time’s right. I’m meaning to tell you why it’s hard to sleep at night. There’s nothing to fear now, girl, we should be here now. So why don’t you hear me out?”- Jeremy Zucker, Ft. blackbear, talk is overrated

“We haven’t spoke since you went away, comfortable silence is so overrated. Why won’t you ever be the first one to break? Even my phone misses your call, by the way.”- Harry Styles, From the Dining Table

“Look overhead at the stars and the ocean, foggy emotions, moments, erosion. This supernova could cause a commotion, my minds of the notion, you’ll still be my motive”- Ansel Elgort, Supernova

“I love that new dress you bought, yeah, you sure look nice. Heard you liked that new restaurant, you know, I’ve been there twice. And the way that you switch up your hair, all of the moments we’ve shared, strolling the streets back in Rome, oh, how I wish I was there. It ain’t fair.”- Ruel, Face To Face

“Welcome to your life, there’s no turning back. Even while we sleep we will find you acting on your best behaviour, turn your back on mother nature.”- Tear For Fears, Everybody Wants to Rule the World

“I’m wide awake, not losing any sleep, I picked up every piece and landed on my feet. I’m wide awake, need nothing to complete myself, no.” Katy Perry, Wide Awake

“If you don’t realize, all of the things your life can do you will be left behind, swept up by the storm of those you knew.”- Meltycanon, thankful

“I always knew that we’d be by each other’s side forever, now our time has come and I’d be satisfied if we died together. Yeah, our climate’s fucked, we might as well enjoy the weather, our time is up and I’d be satisfied if we died together.”- Samsa, Anthropocene

“There’s still so much to say, I’m faded, broken, pretending you’re on the line, wasting my time. Sinking deeper, watching you spend your night,

like I’ll be fine and I’ll be over this.”- NYK, Faded

“I’d rather go to hell, than be in purgatory, cut my hair, gag and bore me, pull this pin, let this world explode.”- My Chemical Romance, Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na)

“I reached for a shooting star, it burned a hole through my hand

Made its way through my heart, had fun in the promised land.”- blink-182, Wishing Well

“Let go of your baggage, but don’t think I don’t understand it’s probably a challenge,”- Isaac Lewis, Fly

“It’s been a long night in New York city, it’s been a long night in Baton Rouge. I don’t remember you looking any better, but then again, I don’t remember you.”- John Mayer, Who Says

Prompts 101-119

#song prompts #prompts

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dajaregambler · 3 years

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HeliosR - Dino Albani Character story - part 1

Translation of the first part of Dino’s character story from ‘Helios Rising Heroes’.

Dino: Ooooi, Keith…. Keith, wake up-?

Keith: Hmn….nngh~......? Shuddup…. lemme sleep lil’ bit more…

Dino: C’mon, Keith! Don’t hide under your comforter!

Keith: Uuuuu~~ stop….. Put it back, Junior…..

Dino: Huh? Junior? What are you saying, Keith. I’m not Junior, you know?

Keith: ...Mmh? Not, Junior….. Dino!?

Dino: Ahahah, you jumped awake. Your bed hair is still impressive as always♪

Dino: Actually, has Junior been waking you up until now? The rookies are looking after you and yet you’re the mentor, good grief…

Dino: From now on I’ll be the one dragging you out of bed. Eventually I want that you’ll wake up on your own though…

Keith: A-ah okay. It was today… that you're moving in here huh…

Dino: Yep yep, my bad that it’s on your off day. But thought to better wake you up since I’ll be organizing my baggage and dust will be blowing all over

Dino: I’ve carried most of it in already. I started to get a bit worried because you wouldn’t wake up at all and I was running all over the place-

Keith: Uoh, what is this!?

Dino: Eh, what what? What’s wrong?

Keith: The hell’s all this baggage… It’s all crazily squeezed in here….

Dino: Aah, ahaha~..... While being shut in the medical room, I’ve chosen furniture and things necessary for life however,

Dino: Before I knew it was really fun looking through the catalogue. There was this and that, and like that…. I kinda ordered a bit too much♪

Keith: The hell you’re all ‘’I kinda ordered a bit too much♪’’, no matter how you look at it it’s overkill!

Dino: I’m sorry!

Keith: Apologizing to me won’t do anything… Anyway, besides all this there’s stuff of yours from a long time ago too. Do ya get it?

Dino: I-I do… It’s the ones you took and put in your room right?

Keith: There’s a lot y’know. Thanks to that it's making my room unbearably smaller

Dino: N-no way….?

Keith: Haaah…. You had that habit of impulse buying since forever, if there was something that caught your attention on TV shopping, you’d buy it without thinking ahead

Keith: Sooo relieved to see that it hasn’t changed at all even now

Dino: Ah, you’re relieved? Then that’s good-

Keith: That was sarcasm, sarcasm! Who’s gonna be relieved with that, of course I’m fed up with it!

Dino: Eh, sarcasm!? And you’re fed up with it…. I’m sorry~~~~, so sorry Keith!

Keith: I already told you apologizing to me won’t do anything… C’mon, hurry up and clean it up. I’ll bring out the stuff I’ve put aside

Keith: Geez… Why do I gotta put so much effort this early in the morning on an off day? Gonna evacuate to the living at once and drink beer….

Keith: When your room’s all cleaned up and you’re reinstated, I’ll make you work hard as much as I had to keep at it on my own until now, got it?

Dino: Absolutely, I was already planning that. However together with Keith, that is♪

Keith: Haah? I’ve been doing my best to the point of dropping dead until now, starting now I’m gonna kick back and take it easy

Keith: Looking after the rookies, that’s clearly work cut out for ya. I’ve always been the kind of guy thats better off working alone

Dino: No wait, I can’t turn a blind eye to skipping. You’re saying that you’ve worked so hard till you died, but I’ve been hearing dozens of complaints from Junior

Dino: Like to what extent you’ve been careless and slacking off so far… Though now that I’m here, I absolutely won’t forgive any negligence. You better be prepared, Keith?

Keith: Th-that Junior…. That unnecessary stuff, when did he…

Dino: Good grief, you didn’t drink at all in the past… Even though your behaviour wasn’t good you kept your hands off of it, I was sure you wouldn’t end up drinking

Keith: It’s… At that time, I just didn’t think that I’d wanna drink yet

Dino: ? Then what made you start drinking?

Keith: ...Who knows. Forgot ‘bout it

Keith: Anyway, don’t just chit chat, get your hands to moving. Look, this is yours. And this, that, this and… aah, this too huh.

Dino: Uwaah, amazing! So many things full of memories are coming out…!

Dino: Uh… there’s seriously a lot of things. It’s already overkill, where in the world can I put this….

Keith: I dunno. You’re the one that bought it, deal with it one way or another

Dino: O-one way or another…

Keith: …….. Geez, ya haven’t changed at all y’know?

Keith: Impulse buying unnecessary things without thinking of what you’ll do with it, and keep them forever without throwing anything out….

Keith: Ya said that’s also ‘love and peace’ or whatever, but if ya keep saying it it’ll end up in getting yourself buried alive someday

Dino: G-guh…

Dino: But throwing it out makes me feel guilty you know. Once I recognize or form a connection with it, I grow extremely fond of it…..

Dino: Of course there’s also things that my grandpa and grandma gave to me but like, there’s clothes I bought on a whim, or the stickers and badges I got as a freebie with something too...

Dino: Keith, you also have at least something right? Something that you can’t throw out no matter what….

Keith: There ain’t, that kinda thing

Dino: Really?

Keith: ….Yeah, ain’t

Dino: I see…..

Keith: ……..

Keith: Oi. In this pile, what’s something you haven’t touched in a year?

Dino: Eh? Where’s that suddenly coming from…

Keith: Anything’s fine, just think about it thoroughly. Answer only where ‘’One year, haven’t touched’’ applies

Dino: One year…. I haven't been here until recently so that makes ‘all of it’ though….?

Keith: Then, all of it is going in the trash can

Dino: EEEEH!? Wa- wait wait, what are you saying Keith!

Keith: Ya know ‘bout ‘’simple living’’?

Dino: S-simple living….?

Keith: It’s been said that abstaining desire, discarding irrelevant things, letting go of attachment…. or something and whatever, is roughly what the innermost secrets of tidying are.

Keith: Originally it was something taught at yoga, but I dunno much ‘bout if I had to be honest. Just thought of it since Brad had said something like that before

Keith: Peeves me off to borrow his words but, it fits ya perfectly right now.

Keith: Haven’t touched something in a year means it isn’t needed, so throw it out completely. With that strategy in mind clean it all up at once

Dino: Clean it up...wait a second! Going as far as putting a game console in the trash is awful, Keith!

Keith: Shut it! Everything here is going to be thrown out! Don’t goddamn meddle!

Dino: ….!

Dino: U-um… Ah that’s right, didn’t you want to drink beer? C’mon, I’m fine from here so go to the living….

Keith: That I can do after. I’m good so you go on the other side and clean up

Keith: ….Tch. The hell with that you won’t forgive any negligence. I’ll absolutely never let those bad habits of yours off the hook.

Keith: Prepare yourself, Dino

Dino: H-hiiiieee~~~!?

Notes:

The ‘simple living’ Keith speaks about is actually ‘’断捨離’’ (danshari), it’s kind of hard to translate in English since it’s more of an ‘idea’ meaning about how you should clean up and let go of unnecessary things, making room for better ‘mental clarity’ in life. In a sense, it’s what Marie Kondo’s core of her teachings entails too but executed in a bit of a different way (Does it spark joy? If not, throw it out).

#heliosR #helios rising heroes #dino albani #keith max

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nimjatortles · 4 years

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A Taste of Heaven

Mikey helps a drunk girl get home ~2000 words

“I don’t know you! Stop touching me!” The girl turned her face up to the sky, shouting for any and all to hear over the loud pop music. Her words fell on a beat, with purpose and clarity. Mikey skidded on his heels and turned right around to check over the edge of the roof and down into the alley below him.

His hand went to the walkie-talkie on his shoulder to call his brothers but hesitated. Leo’s orders were to report any activity on the experimental patrol. Splitting the city into routes between the four of them was risky but they covered a lot more ground. Donnie was close by...but Mikey didn’t need help with this clown. It was just a routine rescue. Damsel in distress. A lone girl cornered by some jackass outside of one of the smaller clubs in Brooklyn. Easy peasy.

“C’mon, don’t be so loud, babe. You were all for it a minute ago.” The assailant persisted, covering her mouth with his hand until an empty bean can struck him in the temple. “OW! The fuck?!”

“The lady said back off, dude!” Mikey called from the fire escape before dropping down to street level. He landed intentionally loud to try and spook his opponent, a tactic Raphael liked to do. The shadows still hid most of his form but there would be no denying his size.

“Hey, this don’t concern you, fuckface. Get lost.” The assailant pointed, shoulders raised and hands otherwise balled into tight white-knuckled fists.

“Nah, bro. That ain’t how this works.” Mikey drew one of his nunchucks from his belt. He didn’t need a weapon against a common schmuck, but better safe than sorry. Plus, it looked cool.

“I said fuck off. I’m not gonna te-” He took his eyes off his prey for too long. The girl leaned her shoulder back to wind up a doozy of a haymaker right into her assailant’s cheekbone.

“Ohmygod-that hurt!” She gasped and shook her hand to try and rid herself of the pain. She paid no attention after that even as the man recovered from her strike and turned his angry eyes on her.

Mikey leapt forward and baseball slid into his shins to take him out. There’s nothing quite like the sound of a skull hitting the pavement. The man groaned and didn’t get back up as the ninja grabbed him by the back of the shirt to toss him in the pile of garbage bags lining the building.

“To the trash with you! Heh. That was easy.” Mikey put his nunchuck back in his belt and cautiously approached the girl. “You, uh, you good?”

“His face hurt my hand…What a douche…” Her voice was scratchy, words slurred together. “S’it s’pposed to hurt like that..?” The girl finally turned her head to look at him. She stared and squinted her eyes. “...you’re very green. Are you s’pposed to be green?”

“Been green my whole life so far. Life of a turtle, yaknow.” Mikey laughed nervously. She was very drunk but at least she didn’t scream. That was a nice change of pace. “Listen, you got friends inside the club or somethin’?” He couldn’t stay on the ground much longer, but he couldn’t leave her alone either.

“No…” She scowled and pushed herself off the wall. “They suck…” The girl let out a squeak when she felt herself lose balance from a moment of standing.

A quick shuffle of the feet and Mikey caught her before she fell. He helped her find her footing in her wedges but she stayed leaning against him. The warmth of her skin a dramatic contrast to the cool night air and the mix of perfume and beer was a welcoming scent so close to the garbage. Her head rolled to the side and then back up straight as she faded in and out of consciousness. She scowled again as she tried to get her eyes to focus.

“Where’s your nose?” She poked his beak with a painted nail and giggled. “Boop.”

“Uh-” There was a loud banging sound of a side door being opened loudly. More people were coming and Mikey felt himself panic. “Ok listen, I’m just gonna get us to a safer place so we can find your friends, okay? Please don’t scream.” He scooped up her wobbly legs in one arm to quickly scale up the fire escapes on the side of the building just as a group of loud drunks passed underneath.

“Woah..! Fuck was that..?" The girl looked around at her new surroundings. "How'd we get ...up here?" She stared at him. "..d'you fly? That-that's tight." Her head dropped against Mikey's shoulder, too heavy to hold up.

"Nonono don't pass out on me! I gotta get you home or somethin'." Mikey bounced his shoulder a bit to try and wake her back up with minimal success. Her head straightened up but her eyes remained glazed over and unfocused and she fell back down to his shoulder. "Aw man..! Okay, we're gonna call for backup. This is a good time to call. Leo will know what to do."

He adjusted the girl in his one arm as he reached up to press the button on his walkie-talkie.

"Yo, I got a problem. It's not, like, an emergency problem but I'm, uh, stuck."

"What happened?" Leonardo came through immediately, voice stern and commanding.

"I rescued this drunk girl and now she passed out and I don't know what to do."

"Jus' leave her where her friends'll find her. They're probably lookin' for her." Raphael chimed in.

"I can't just leave her! Someone's already tried to pick her up! That's what I meant by 'rescued', duh!" Mikey looked over the edge of the building. There was no sign of anybody looking for her.

"Does she have a purse? Her I.D. will have her address on it." Donnie suggested.

"Uh.." Mikey looked down at his unconscious charge and what she wore. No purse. No jacket. He looked down in the alleyway for a discarded purse. "No purse, Donnie. I don't know where she'd even put a wallet with this outfit."

"Hm. Where are you? I'll come help."

"Who'zat?"

Mikey jumped a bit when she spoke. He hadn't noticed her wake back up.

“That’s my brother, Donnie. He’s gonna help us get you home, okay?” He tensed up when she stretched her arm across his chest and her hair tickled his neck as she ducked under his chin to grab the walkie.

"Donnie! Come out with ush! We’re havin’ fun!” She laughed as her voice cracked and she raised her phone to take a selfie. “Le’s do shots!”

“Girl, where were you hiding your phone? Your pants don’t even have pockets!” He stared at her dumbfounded as he took the radio back to return it to his shoulder strap.

“Which ’s bullshit…” Her scowl only lasted a second before transforming into a smug smile.“Titties, babe. Hide stuff in ya boobs and they safe.” She pulled her shirt to look down the collar. “I got lotsa stuff in here.”

“Oh boy.” Mikey didn’t know his face could grow so hot so fast. For all his peacocking, he’d never actually been this close to a girl, or her boobs before.

“Mikey! Mikey! Hey! Does she have an iPhone?” Donatello’s voice was a welcoming distraction and the little brother answered in a shaky affirmative. “Great. Tell her to ask Siri how to get home. If she has her personal contact card set up, the A.I. will be able to give you directions. It’ll probably only work with her voice so she has to ask.”

Donnie for the win. After a quick battle of fighting with Siri to recognise the girl’s drunken dialect, it provided the address to an apartment building a few blocks away.

It was an easy run across the rooftops. Michaelangelo held onto his sloppy charge tightly and dropped down the fire escape to the window she pointed out.

"You sure this is the right one? Don't wanna end up in some rando apartment.” The turtle quickly scoped the area out, watching for neighbors and people walking down below.

“S’right.” She pointed at a potted plant of questionable health. “Them’s my tomato. They gon’ be spaghetti someday.” She informed him with a proud smile and rested her head on his shoulder. “M’little green babies...”

“Heh. Neat.” Mikey withheld his innuendo and pried the window open with a kunai from his belt. He held her close to carry her through the narrow opening and scraped his shell against the peeling paint of the window frame in the process.

The girl lazily pointed him across the apartment to a bedroom, clearly content with being carried. Mikey was careful to make his footsteps silent and keep an eye out for any roommates. He pushed the door open with his foot and stepped on a fluffy rug.

“Wow. Smells like girl in here.” Mikey blinked some at the mix of smells that hit his senses. Perfumes, candles, deodorants and whatever product she put in her hair all mixed together with the personal scent of the girl in his arms. It was soft, almost fruity, and reminded him of summer.

"Am girl. I live here.” She held her arm out to find her balance as Mikey set her feet down so she could stand and immediately kicked her shoes off, shrinking down a few inches in height.

“Well, uh, home sweet home! I gotta get back to work, so. See ya later? Be safe?” Mikey thumb pointed back at the window they originally came through and tensed up when she turned and wrapped her arms around his neck.

“No, stay. I gotta pay you for the ride.” She pressed her lips against the side of his mouth as she leaned awkwardly against him.

“NOPE.” Mikey pulled his head away even as he held her to support her. “It doesn’t count if you’re drunk! That’s not okay!”

“Well then, you get drunk n’then i’s fine.” She grinned and kissed his newly exposed neck. Causing the turtle to let out a squeak of a noise he didn’t know he could make.

“Idon’tthinkthat’showthatworks!” He whined and took her shoulders to hold her away from him and stared at her. “...my face doesn’t freak you out?” He asked quietly, cautiously. Even hopefully.

“I was in anime club in high school. This is not the first mask I’ve kissed. Or even the weirdest.” She poked his beak again. “Boop.” Her head rolled to the side as she laughed then she suddenly scowled. “Oh man, I almost threw up. Nevermind. Maybe next time. Mgoin’ to bed.” She turned away from him and pushed her laundry pile onto her floor before ungracefully flopping down on the bed. “Leave me your number and I’ll Venmo you money in the mornin’.”

“...Okay.” Mikey stood completely frozen, and yet on fire, as he watched her blindly burrow into her blankets. He eyed her desk and the stack of colorful sticky notes. His brothers wouldn’t leave her anything. It was a huge risk. She’s drunk, she doesn’t mean it. But what if she does. What if she could?

A decision made. A breath for courage and he wrote his name and number down on an orange sticky note for her to find. He added a little turtle in the corner for a personal touch and left the apartment with haste. He scaled to the rooftop and yelled up at the sky.

“Dear God, it’s me! Yer boy, Mikey! This is some bull-shit!” He pulled on the ends of his mask in frustration. “My first kiss from a girl and she’s drunk so it doesn’t even count..! Damnit.” He pointed upwards. “You better let this work out! I think you owe me by now!” He pouted and then sighed. “Please let it work out…Even a little bit would be nice. At least she didn’t scream…That’s a good sign.”

Mikey dared to crack a hopeful smile and ran across the rooftops to find his brothers.

#tmnt #tmnt michelangelo #funny #someone teach me how to do Read More Under Cut on mobile

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kiserusmoke · 6 years

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The Other Side Of Paradise

For my sweet @maidofstars, happy birthday! I love you so much, and I’ve had this in mind for a while now. I told you I’d write you Ota, and what better day to get it than your birthday? Pairing: Ota/ MC Struggling Artist AU, Angst with a happy ending Mentions of violence, swearing.

⌈ When I was young and stupid my love

Left to be a rock and roll star

He told me please don't worry

Wise little smile that spoke so safely⌋

“I’m telling you, I won’t be gone for that long.” The words barely sounded believable to him, yet here he was uttering them through a cheap payphone in the parking lot of a diner. It had been hours since he left home, the open road at night being the only comfort as he made his way to his new established life. He used a free hand to tug at the collar of his faded denim jacket, pulling it closer to his person to keep off the chill.

Ota paced as much as he could with the cord of the phone, allowing himself just enough give to wrap the metallic cord around his finger once. The coldness of the metal felt familiar, like an anchor tethering him to this moment as he listened to her speak. He stared down at the scuff on his shoe as he heard the worried voice on the other end of the line.

“There’s nothing to worry about, I’ll be fine” he murmurs into the receiver. He can practically picture her, perched on the edge of the bed with her phone pressed to her cheek. Ota wants to reach out and smooth out the hands that are likely gripping the skirt of her uniform, to kiss her head and tell her everything will be okay.

But times are different now, and everyone must make sacrifices. Ota isn’t stupid, he knows it isn’t only affecting him. The voice, the person on the end of the line is sacrificing just as much as he is.

He just has to work hard to prove it was the right decision, for both of them.

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Ota never liked sharing his living quarters, especially with near-strangers. He found the whole concept trivial, fitting the narrative for a struggling college student instead of someone like him who came from a well-off family. That’s why he scanned the room in distaste, noticing the five other bodies in the cramped two bedroom apartment. At least I have a bed, he thinks.

His thoughts are drawn to the poor sap who got the fold-out couch in their living room that was far too small to be anything more than a glorified bedroom. Ota rolled his eyes and turned towards the window, craning his neck slightly to make out the large Hollywood sign above them. He really has to strain, seeing as they were nearly a half mile away and surrounded by another dozen run-down apartment complexes.

The sun glared into their apartment, making the room nearly sweltering. Ota groaned as he turned away from the window, peeling off the sweat-soaked shirt sticking to his skin before tossing it on the floor. He kicked his roommate’s foot that was hanging off the couch, muttering that he’d be late for work if he didn’t get going. Ota tried not to scoff at the fact that he was quickly becoming the mother hen of the house instead of making masterpieces in the studio.

This was it, this was his big shot at stardom. What a fucking waste.

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Ota wasn’t exactly sure when his fifth vodka soda was pressed into his hand, but he certainly wasn’t going to question it. The comfortable buzz in his system and the bass of some oversaturated pop vibrating through the floor of the party was the perfect combination to relax his mind after his third meeting of the day.

It was meant to be a simple celebration to commemorate the fact that Ota’s latest series was headlining the biggest art gallery in West Hollywood, but the plan quickly spun out of control. Gone were the close-knit group of friends he had made in the past year, being replaced by countless aspiring models and actors, underground rappers and photographers. Ota doubted he could name five people in this venue.

Those thoughts filtered out of his mind with the scent of artificial strawberries and hairspray infiltrated his senses. Ota shook his head slightly and let his head lull to the side, catching the obnoxiously-dressed girl that took up residence next to him on the leather loveseat.

“Can I help you?” he asked lazily, his gaze already turning back to the drink in his hand. He tried not to flinch when she snapped her gum right in his ear.

“Wanna dance?”

Ota wasn’t expecting that, the question giving him sudden clarity as he whipped his head back to look at her. The girl’s faux feather coat was rustling slightly from the air conditioning, the collar of it brushing up against the sparkling body glitter across her collarbone. She leaned in close, her bright eyes peering out from behind her rose-tinted shades.

She was the artificial kind of pretty, the kind of girl you took back to your place after too many beers and hoped she was gone by the time you woke up. She was nothing like the girl with soft eyes and so much love back in a small town, likely waiting for him to pick up his phone and call.

The thought of her made Ota’s answer an easy one.

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

“I can’t wait to come pick you up in it, baby.” Ota was practically vibrating in place as he reported the status of his new car back to her. It was one of his first big purchases after getting his own place. He held his cell phone in one hand as the other held out the keys to his new Camaro. The logo caught the light from his bedside lamp, making a small smile dance across Ota’s face.

He scanned the room as she congratulated him. Having been the main artist for a half dozen galleries had paid off, seeing as Ota traded his stuffy apartment with five roommates to a secluded loft uptown. His eyes trained over the ornate wallpaper, a soft gray complimenting the velvet blue couch he had picked out last week. His floors were covered in plush carpet, the feeling between his toes whenever he paced his room was a welcome change from the cold hardwood floors of his former residence.

He placed the keys on the nightstand, instead choosing to weave his fingers between the sheets of his bed as he sat on the edge of it. The white cloth felt like satin underneath his touch, and a satisfied smile crept on his features as he remembered a time when he swore to her that he’d buy himself nice sheets someday.

With thoughts so occupied by the countless new material things surrounding Ota, it was no surprise that he didn’t catch the uncertainty in her voice.

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

(A thousand miles away in a dorm room, she sits on the edge of her bed and slips tired feet out of her work shoes. Slender fingers massage out the strain on the back of her heels, the hours on her feet making the sinews and muscles spasm erratically. She strips off her stockings, reaching up to undo the zipper on her uniform.)

A thousand miles away outside a club, Ota is letting the breeze tickle the back of his neck. The music is blaring, and people are mingling about on the road-blocked street. Someone bumps into his arm, and Ota feels the sensation of hot breath in his ear. “Not bad for a last-minute gig, huh?” his roommate asks him, a cigarette hanging out of the corner of his mouth. His sunglasses are low on his nose, peeking over them with a gleam in his eyes. Ota laughs and shrugs him off.

“Yeah, yeah, get back to flirting” he says, slapping him on the back and pointing him towards a group of actresses trading whispers and glances at them.

(The bedding feels soft beneath her, duvet cover enveloping her in a gentle comfort. She reaches over and her fingertips brush a familiar picture frame. Pulling it to her, she stares down at the two of them. Ota has his hand wrapped tightly around her waist, scrunching up his face as he places a kiss to her cheek. She looks at her own image, lips pulled back in mid-laugh. She remembers being this happy, this carefree.)

The drink in Ota’s hand is nearly empty by the time he gets the courage to make his way over to the director near the club. It’s his chance to make a good impression, to get his foot in the door for his next big project. Ota finds himself winding through the crowd, brushing past B-List celebrities dancing to the music and snobby actors with their nose in a wine glass.

He feels the liquid courage coursing through his veins, the bass of the music traveling from his feet all the way up his spinal cord. He feels confident that this is his big break, that his life is about to change.

He hears an ear-rupturing noise. He hears screams.

(The room is so, so silent without him. No matter how she lays, it’s never comfortable. There’s too much space, too little heat where Ota should be by her side. Her palm slides over the empty space where he would normally be, searching for a body she knows isn’t there.

She hears her own heartbeat. She hears the clock ticking)

He isn’t sure why people are running, but he’s more concerned with the fact that he can’t. Ota’s limbs feel heavy and slow, like he’s trying to tread water. He smells something sharp and metallic, and a damp feeling settles on his front. Instinctively, he rests his hand on his abdomen. His hand comes back a deep crimson. The smell is stronger now, and he can hear someone calling his name.

Ota looks up to see his roommate, his sparkling eyes wide with panic. He wants to ask him what’s wrong, but it feels like his lips are glued shut. Ota leans into his roommate’s grasp and he feels the world start to fade out.

(The call comes in the early morning hours, before the sun even thinks to light the sky. There’s a rush of throwing on clothes, of searching for shoes in the darkness. She feels like someone is grabbing her by the shoulders and shaking her, but she can’t seem to wake from this dream. This nightmare.

The car ride is seemingly endless, the plane ride is excruciating. By the time she makes it to the hospital, she wants nothing more than to collapse by his side.)

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Nobody really tells you how bright the fluorescent lights in a hospital are when you’re first waking up. Ota feels like he can’t squeeze his eyes shut tight enough, that the artificial white hue has seeped into his brain and made a home beneath his cerebellum. He doesn’t know why his body feels so heavy, but there’s a sensation that pulls him out of his thoughts enough to slowly open his eyes. It takes his vision a minute to focus on the slender hand encased in his own, but his first instinct is to squeeze it.

The owner of the hand shifts slightly under his touch, and soon they’re lifting their head from the edge of the bed. Ota’s heart aches as he sees her lashes dusted with tears, the bags under her eyes the color of violets. She blinks away sleep, reaching up to cup his face.

“Hey” she whispers “How are you feeling? You’ve been asleep for a while.” Ota’s brow furrows-- how long had he been out exactly? His eyes scan her face for an answer, but the anguish etching her features makes the question die on his tongue. Instead, he nuzzles into her palm, taking a shaky breath.

“I'm okay now that you're here" he replies, his voice small. He lets her brush his hair out of his eyes, pressing their foreheads together.

“The doctors said you’ll be okay” she whispers. “You… you got shot.” It doesn't bother Ota as much as he thought it would, he's more worried about easing her pain.

“I did it for us" he says, taking her hand off his face and intertwining their fingers. “I think I lost myself along the way. But seeing you--" he stops, bringing her hand to his lips. “I know what my priority is now.”

Her eyes shine with tears at his words, and Ota meets her gaze. He smiles faintly, threading his fingers in her hair and pulling her into a kiss. All he can think of are two words, repeating like a mantra. It’s you, it’s you, it’s you.

#Kissed By The Baddest Bidder #kbtbb #ota kisaki #my writing #Voltage #voltage inc #voltage games #angst #angst with a happy ending #I hope you like this #happy birthday!!! I love you <333333

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jasperstan408 · 3 years

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January 10, 2021

holy shit so much has changed and i have so much tea for myself lmao 1. i got my first job as a graphic designer!!! after months of being insecure and depressed about it, i start tomorrow!!! 2. i got my first heartbreak that isn’t A!!! Sad but exciting that it’s not him im crying over anymore.

writing my notes from my app on here

I am so upset right now. I went over to fuck bryan in a hotel room. We had sex for 20 minutes, i didn’t even cum. He said i can be on top and then i never got the chance. And then we just laid there on opposite sides of the bed. We talked a little but mostly just watched family guy awkwardly. He kept checking stuff on his phone and then he played a game on his phone while i watched. This is just stuff i would do if i was bored or didn’t want to be where i was at the moment. Even when we sat close, he obviously just didn’t want to be there like he didn’t touch me at all. Barely talked to me. He was so distant and i hated it. I think it just triggered something in my brain that reminded me of how andy acted around me and it upset me. Ive been crying all night about it. I hate andy so fucking much. He literally ruined everything for me. Is this how it’s going to be with all men? They just want me for my pussy and nothing else? When we had sex the first time it was amazing. I felt connected and it was good. This was literally just to fuck me and be done with it. I tried to keep the conversation flowing and nothing. He didnt even ask me how my day was.

Yeah i was gonna talk to you about how you were weird and distant last night so I’m glad you noticed and its not just in my head. I’ll be honest, i dont really know what to say back. I could just tell you why im upset about this and how upset i am but i just feel like it doesnt matter what i say tbh. It’s not going to change anything. I will say you made me feel like shit. I just felt so used and unwanted last night. It was obvious you were only there to have sex and nothing else. It was such a shitty feeling for me to lay there after and have you not even notice. I didn’t pay $40 to watch family guy with you and to watch you play a game on your phone. Yeah it wasnt a relationship but if we were friends with benefits, the friendship part wasnt there. Neither were the benefits since last time i gave u a bj and this time i didnt even cum. That hurts that you feel that way because i really did like spending time with you and was excited to keep spending time with you but its also out of my control and i cant make you feel a way you dont so i guess it just sucks.

What you are not about to fucking do is downplay how i fucking feel and try to make what you did any better. If you felt this, you felt this i dont fucking care but you had so many chances to fucking cancel and so many chances to be honest with me but you still went just to fuck me. Im not a fleshlight you can stick your dick into to hopefully forget about someone else, if there even is someone else. I cant even trust you after you lied about so much. Cincinatti and the keys and who knows what else. Dont treat me like im a fucking idiot like i didnt pick up signs that you weren’t interested anymore. If youre not interested, okay fine but dont lie to me. I thought we could get a hotel room and it would be a good time like the first time. Not have you fuck me for 5 minutes and then ignore me for another hour and a half. So dont say “we knew what we were doing when we got the hotel room” because I thought you actually wanted to spend time with me. That shit hurt and my feelings are valid. What did you think would happen? I would wake up and see your text and feel sorry for you? I would say “oh sorry you feel that way hit me up when you wanna fuck me again 😏😉😍🥺😂” we’re not gonna just be friends so you can string me along and fuck me whenever you want. I’m not anyones rebound or second choice. And dont use my fucking words against me like that. When i said “fake scenarios” i meant that I thought us sleeping together last night wouldve been fun like the first time. Not me creating a scenario where you used me. I didnt create that, thats what happened. Get the fuck out of here with that shit.

The thing you don’t understand is that it was so out of nowhere for me. I thought you were interested and then acted like it didn’t matter if i was there or not. Waking and reading a text saying “I’m not over my ex but we can be friends” made me think you were getting back together with an ex and just wanted to soften the blow by saying we can just be friends. Like you didn’t actually want to be friends, you just were trying to make it easier on me. Idgaf about how you feel. If you’re not over your ex okay but that’s your baggage and that’s your problem and you didnt have to dump it out on me like you did that night.

Okay so like I’ve said and like you know, I was really hurt the other night. I get everyone has their baggage and their insecurities and that’s okay but what was not okay is projecting that baggage on to me and hurting me like you did. I have my baggage with my ex and I spent so much time working through it so I don’t do this to anyone. That’s all your problem, not mine. I did like spending time with you and talking to you. I do want to be friends. We can still talk every once in a while and maybe we can hang out and smoke but I just don’t think I want to hook up or anything like that. That was just way too much and it obviously didn’t end well.

My hopes were crushed because i liked what we were doing and it sucks that it had to end so soon. I just miss talking to you and i miss that time in my life, being excited that you were in it and it just sucks that it had to end so quick. It sucks that you didn’t feel the same as me. It sucks that none of this is my fault. I cant change anything about what happened and i cant make you feel a certain way that you don’t. It’s scary that we went thru the same experience and had different feelings about it. This was all out of nowhere for me because i really thought you were into me tbh until we were in the middle of sex and i felt like something was off. And then you sat there, wouldn’t look at me or talk to me and honestly it made me think i did something wrong. You dumped your baggage on to me.

Id like to go back to how it was when we first met. We can just be friends. We can hang out every once in a while, smoke and get something to eat but obviously sleeping together isnt a good idea and i dont want to do that anymore.

Reading your message, I thought that you were saying you and your ex were getting back together and by saying “we can still talk and still be friends”, you were just trying to be nice and not hurt me i guess?

Love language is quality time

Hey can we talk?

Okay so i just kinda wanted to be open about what i think and am feeling. Im sorry if this is out of nowhere. I know this was 2 weeks ago lol i just have not had any time to talk to you. So when you first texted me the other day, I took it as “my ex and i are getting back together and i wanted to fuck someone for the last time.” Maybe I was just jumping to conclusions idk but I took you wanting to be friends and saying you wanted to talk to me like pity tbh. Like you didn’t actually want to do that, you were just saying that to soften the blow. I did like talking with you and hanging out with you. I would like to be friends but I don’t want to intrude if you’re with someone else, I feel like that’d be awkward lol

I’d like to just go back to how it was before it got messy. I’m fine with still talking and maybe someday we can smoke and get something to eat and hang out. I did like hanging out and talking with you but obviously, sleeping together isn’t a good idea and I don’t want to do that.

So I do want to talk about the other night just to get some clarity and it can stay in the past. I understand how you felt and tbh I’ve been there before too. I’ve gone on a date with a guy and the date was fine but the whole time I was just sad over my ex and it ruined things. It happens and it sucks, I get it. But the thing is, that’s your baggage that you need to deal with. Not mine but you dumped the baggage on me. I have baggage with my ex but i dealt with it and healed from it so I wouldn’t do this to anyone. My ex was the worst and that night, you were acting like him and it triggered something that made me really upset. My love language is quality time so when i hang out with someone, it’s important that they’re there with me and their attention isn’t somewhere else which is also why i got really upset.

I just remember at one point, the way you were walking or something made me flashback to him and i just wanted to leave. You’re the first guy I’ve opened up to like this since we broke up so you acting like that made me think every guy is going to be like that towards me and i got upset. I know now that’s not the truth. My love language is quality time so when I’m with someone, id like them to be there with me. To talk to me instead of being on their phones and acting like i wasnt there. Having sex with me and then ignoring me was how my ex was the last half of our relationship and it triggered something for me. That night just wasnt a good night for me. Like i said, we all have our baggage but it wasn’t okay to treat me like that. I would just like to go back to how it was when we first met. We can smoke and get something to eat but sleeping together isn’t what I want right now.

Basically, you already know, but the way you treated me wasn’t okay. I understand how you felt and I’ve been down that road too but dumping that baggage on me wasn’t okay. It made me uncomfortable and it upset me. My love language is quality time so when i do hang out with someone, I’d like them to be focused on hanging out with me but you weren’t. You were on your phone and watching tv instead which is why i got upset. Like i said before, the way you were acting reminded me of my ex and it triggered something for me which is also why i got upset. After all this, i am a human with feelings so of course I’m going to get hurt. I would like to be friends. We can still talk and maybe we can still hang out and smoke together if you’re down but obviously sleeping together isn’t a good idea right now and i dont want to so that.

I’ll be honest, the whole time you were talking to me, i just kept waiting for something like this to happen and here it is.

You’re right. You’re very confusing and obviously don’t know what you want. You made all the first moves and ended it first too. You said you wanted a friendship and i said i did too and now you dont even want that. You’re very back and forth and yeah, i dont need someone like that in my life. You aren’t listening to anything that ive said, youre just getting defensive when im trying to just talk through it. We were just fwb i get it and like ive said multiple times, thats all i wanted from you. I never saw you as a guy to meet my parents or to hang out with my friends. Just someone to fuck at the end of the night. This all got messy because of you. I’m a human with emotions so stop trying to gaslight me into making me think what i feel is wrong.

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83 truths tag

tagged by: @changbinlovesfreckles

tagging: @teambusan (idk know anyone else’s user im sorry lmao but if u wanna do this then do it and feel free to tag me)

1. drink - Vanilla latte

2. phone call - my wife Alexa

3. Last message - “im so tired” (cousin) “i cant help but call nucksal nut sack” (nissaba)

4. Song you listened to - one of clarity’s songs

5. time you cried - idk its been a minute

Ever …

6. dated someone twice- nope

7. kissed someone and regretted it - no

8. been cheated one - nope

9. lost someone special- yes

10. been depressed - yes?

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - I know my limits

Fave colors

12. Gold

13. Lavender

14. Pink

In the last year have you

15. made new friends - No

16. fallen out of love - NEVER FELL IN IT WONT CATCH ME SLIPPIN

17. laughed until you cried - yes

18. found out someone was talking about you - nope i keep to myself

19. met someone who changed you - nope

20. found out who your true friends are - YUP

21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - NOPE

General

22. how many of you Facebook friends do you know irl - all

23. do you have any pets - i got fish now

24. do you want to change your name - yes but idk what to lol

25. what did you do for your last birthday - nothing

26. what time did you wake up today - 6:30am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - studying

28. what is something you can‘t wait for - idk to get into business school ??

29. what are you listening to right now - some spotify playlist

30. have you ever talked to a person named Tom - nope ive talked to a Tim

31. something that is getting on your nerves - my fucking philosophy class i hate all my classmates(im doing this tag in that class rn)

32. most visited website - youtube

33. hair color - dark brown

34. long or short hair - that awkard medium length

35. do you have a crush on someone - no

36. what do you like about yourself - idk im cute asf

37. want any piercings - belly button

38. blood type - B i think

39. nicknames - Slim lol

40. relationship status - single

41. zodiac - virgo

42. pronouns - she/her

43. fave tv show - criminal minds (workaholics or drunk history if im feeling funny)

44. tattoos - no

45. right or left handed - right,

46. ever had surgery - yes

47. sport - swim

48. vacation - hawaii or thailand

49. trainers - what does this mean?

More general

50. eating - cookies

51. drinking - vanilla latte

52. I‘m about to watch - psych

53. waiting for - sk’s debut

54. want - money

55. get married - someday

56. career - student

Which is better …

57. Hugs or kisses - hugs

58. lips or eyes - eyes

59. shorter or taller - idk

60. older or younger - personally older

61. nice arms or stomach - stomach

62. hookup or relationship- relationship

63. troublemaker or hesitant - neither

Have you ever …

64. kisses a stranger - yes

65. drank hard liquor - yes

66. lost glasses - yes

67. turned someone down - yes

68. sex on first date - no

69. someone‘s heart - i dont think so...

70. had your heart broken - no

71. been arrested - no

72. cried when someone died - yes

73. fallen for a friend - no

Do you believe in …

74. yourself - yes

75. miracles - no

76. love at first sight - no

77. Santa Claus - no

78. Kiss on a first date - depends

79. angels - no

Other

80. best friend‘s name - Nissaba

81. eye color - brown

82. fave movie - Emporer’s New Groove

83. fave actor - nobody lol

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Chapter 11

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

The last thing I remember was going to a pub next to the hotel and drinking some tequila shots. And now I am apparently at the apartment again. What the fuck happened?

I looked around trying to find my cellphone. Where the fuck did I put it?

- Looking for this? – The voice came from the other side of the room

Silence. That was all I could make now. My legs were shaking. My head was exploding. And I was delusional. Is it possible that it was only something in my mind? It has happened before. I heard his voice many times and somedays I only got drunk cause I wanted to hear it I wanted that part of him with me. But I never really saw him. I never really had this perfect vision in my mind. It was so real. Standing so close to him was an endless pain. Just look in those blue eyes. That perfect mouth. I could never imagine I would see him again that way. It wasn’t the monster I know now. It was my Peter. He had this sweet smile in his face. He was wearing a white t-shirt and jeans. His hair was wet as he had just left the shower. He had a towel around his neck.

I walked towards him in silence and he didn’t move an inch. He had that angel look in his eyes. So peaceful. Nothing could break the effect that eyes had on me. We were so close that I could feel his breath in my cheeks. I could feel him all over my body. His body fits perfectly on mine working as a magnet. I touched his face. I didn’t know what kind of games my mind was playing with me but I know it was working. I know I was falling hard again.

In a glance of an eye I see him crying. Sweet tears running on his face. I touched them. Why was he crying? I have no idea.

- I never wanna lose you again – He said pulling me closer.

- You never lost me – I looked at him and he was still crying.

- I love you. You know that. I love you.

And then he kissed me. It wasn’t possible. It couldn’t be. Was it real? That was really happening? The kiss was so real. My head was killing me again. Next thing I know I blacked out.

It was almost morning again and Thais hadn’t returned to the hotel.

- I missed doing things like this with you – Harry said – I never imagined I could see the stars with you again. I never imagined I could have you here with me one more time.

- Well, I guess I can say the same thing. But unfortunately I have to go now. I left the hotel yesterday and I didn’t talk to Jackie. She must be worried about me.

- Let me go with you. I promise I’ll behave.

- Hahahaha Harry I am sorry but you can’t come with me. Did you forget who you are? What would the press say about you? Did you think about that?

- I guess not. I am sorry I know they said some terrible things about Jackie. I don’t want this to happen with you.

- Wait, what did you say?

- You didn’t see it?

- See what? Come on Harry

- I was trying to see what time you were arriving here so I googled you. And the first thing I saw was a seventeen magazine with a cruel article about Jackie. Calling her a heartless bitch.

- Do you have it with you? I need to see it. I need to know everything.

- Yeah I guess I have it just a minute

Harry took his phone and showed Thais the article

- I can’t believe they did it. They are basically saying she’s a monster.

- Do you know who this Peter guy is? I mean, do you know him.

- I don’t really know him. She never told anyone about this. The only thing I know is that he screwed things up and hurt her a lot. She suffered like hell for endless months. She spent the first whole month locked up in her apartment. I used to buy food and let at the door for her. She didn’t want to talk to anyone. She didn’t reply any of our messages and she didn’t care about her job. She spent a month isolated.

- All this because of a guy? It’s seems crazy.

- What he did was serious. It was something that broke her in two. I never thought I could see her that way. She was always happy and she’s a lovely person. She never said anything mean to anyone and she’s not the kind of girl who likes to hurt people. She cares about people’s feelings more than hers. She has a really good heart and I guess that’s why she was so hurt. She is fragile and even though she says she got over it I know she didn’t I can feel it.

- Wow. If she’s as fragile as you are saying I guess you should go talk to her. If she saw this she’s probably gonna be upset. – She looked at him. She didn’t want to say goodbye. Not again. She didn’t want to lose him. They had a long and complicated story. One of those love stories from novels but it’s been a long time since they were together a long time since she didn’t feel everything she was feeling now and she didn’t want to let that part of her go. She didn’t want to feel empty again.

- I know. You can go. I see you later.

- See you later Styles.

Thais ran as fast as possible to the hotel. It was morning already and she just realized now how much time she spent with him. Being with him was like connecting to a part of herself that she lost a long time ago. A part of her that was really hard for her to let go. She never admitted to anyone and it was hard for her to admit to herself too but he was a very important part of her life. He was the one who saw who she really was. Who understood her weaknesses. The one who realized she needed help and even thought she didn’t let him help her he was the one who didn’t give up. He had his heart bleeding out of his chest for her and she knew that he would do it all over again if he needed too. The only thing she never wanted was to hurt him but that was the only thing she did for a very long time. That was the only way for her to keep her feelings safe. To protect herself from the world. Sick world.

Even though they are two different people now she fears that she will do the same. That she’s gonna find a way to hurt him. She’s gonna try to protect herself again and he is gonna suffer the consequences and that is the last thing she want to see. Cause if she could she would give him her heart. She would protect him from everything and everyone. They would be only one forever as they were a long time ago. But she was too afraid to tell him that. She was scared of bringing back something that was more powerful than both of them. Something they couldn’t control. That’s why she was determined to keep things under control to keep her distance. They were to different people now and she had to accept that. Maybe she still had those feeling but it didn’t mean that he felt the same way. It’s been a really long time since all these things happened to them and he seemed to have moved on. He had lots of different girlfriends since she left London and she had some affairs too but did that mean that they stopped feeling the things they once felt? Did it mean that it was over?

Her mind was a maze and she was lost inside of it. She didn’t really know what she wanted and how she felt about things. She used to avoid all her feelings. Push them away hoping someday they would just disappear. Hoping she could be free somehow.

I opened my eyes again the light and all the colors coming back to life. Someone was shaking me. Wait. What the hell just happened? My head was still exploding and I couldn’t quite understand the pictures around me. All I could see what the clarity and a bunch of colors. Colors that didn’t make sense. I could feel my eyes closing again. It was just too much for me. Too many colors too much information. It was too clear.

Have you ever asked yourself where you go when you die? Have you ever thought about it? What comes next? I wonder if it’s like we never existed. If we just disappear like a white cloud in the sky. If we lose our memories. We just don’t exist anymore. Sometimes I wonder if this is the easiest way. Do not exist anymore. Erase your existence. But no one really knows what happen. If we just disappear why do we even exist? Why do we live? If we don’t disappear where do we go?

I guess we can never know the answer if we don’t die. If we don’t see it for ourselves. But what is really the reason we are living today? I don’t know mine. I guess people have a reason to live. They have a reason to wake up every morning and want to live. I had my reason once. It was never something about me. He was my reason. He was the reason I smiled all the time. The reason I used to sing in the shower. The reason I was happy. Just his smile.

I could spend the whole day just looking at him and the way he moved.

- Jackie! Jackie! Please answer me! – I could hear now someone screaming

So I didn’t die. All those lights and colors they weren’t me disappearing. They weren’t a goodbye from all my suffering. I was still there. I tried to focus to see through all that light and now I could see it clear. It was Thais she had her hands in my shoulders and she was shaking me in a desperate attempt to wake me.

- I… I am…

- OMG you’re alive – She hugged me and started to cry. – I thought… I thought

- Re… relax.. – It was the only thing I could say. I was still trying to understand all that.

- Don’t you ever scare me this way. Do you hear me? Don’t you ever do this to me again? – she said staring at me

- I am sorry – Things were coming back now. I was in the hotel room apparently on the floor. I remember being drunk at some time. I also remember him. He was there somehow. He was real. It wasn’t just an illusion. It couldn’t be. I couldn’t have been that drunk to make him appear to me. I couldn’t start doing these things. – I can’t remember what happened exactly.

- I came here and I found you on the floor. I.. I thought

- I know. I thought I was dead too.

- Did you…?

- No. I guess I just drank too much last night.

- So I guess you saw the magazine right?

- Yeah, I saw it. I read and I still can’t believe it.

- Do you wanna talk about it?

- Not really. I need to shower. I feel like shit.

- Okay. So I’ll order some food or we can go somewhere to have breakfast.

- No please, I don’t wanna go out today.

- Okay. Don’t worry.

- Thank you. Really – I said looking her in the eyes and she knew exactly what I was thanking her for.

I took my phone and went to the bathroom. I know it seems stupid but I had to do this. I needed to see what was going on. So I googled my name and there it was. Exactly what I was expecting. Another magazine.

This time I didn’t read it. It hurt too much. Just the picture in the front page. Just that ripped my heart out. I have been destroyed time and time again and I don’t know how much longer I can keep going. I don’t know how long I can keep carrying all these bad feelings. Right now I am a bomb just expecting the right time to explode.

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Chapter 2

Dear Jamie,

Somedays are harder than the others. It’s hard to get up in the morning and face the sun when there’s all this darkness inside of you. The clarity just doesn’t do any good now. Hide. That’s the first instinct. I wish I could hide in my room forever. Run away from things. Just lock myself up in my mind.

How am I supposed to get better this way? If I have absolutely no reasons to wake up in the morning and live? All I have is a dream that is constantly hurting me. Can I choose another dream? A different life? I guess I can’t. I’m stuck with it.

I know this is annoying. Keep complaining about everything and doing nothing is absolutely not the solution to all this. I think too much. I repeat every scene of everyday in my head just analyzing all the details. And I write to keep my mind away from my problems.

I wonder how you can write all those songs so easily. Maybe it’s not as easy as it looks. Maybe you’ve been suffering too. Struggling to get somewhere or to be with someone. I just know that you’re the songwriter that inspires me the most. You’re the soul of a lot of songs around the world and they’re as amazing as you are. Someday I believe I will say this to you. I believe we’re gonna write a lot together. I’ll tell you all about my struggle and we’re gonna make something good out of it. We’ll see the positive side of all this pain.

Love u,

Jackie

One more night without sleep. I just can’t understand what’s happening with my head. Every feeling is so intense and every choice has a different weight. The feeling of giving up. The fear is always surrounding me. I took my phone and checked the time. It was morning already. 5 am in the morning and I couldn’t close my eyes yet.

People say you decide how your day is gonna be so I decided to have a good day. I went to the bathroom and took a long shower. I had a lot more time to get ready for work cause I just had to be there at 8 am. I prepared a really nice breakfast pretending I like to eat before leaving the house. When I cleaned up everything I went upstairs and turned the computer on. And like usual I went to my favorite website. Looking for a way out of the country. It was a students’ website where we could find different kinds of scholarships. That was my last hope. I was focused in going back to the United States or move to London. They were my two best options but I could take any place right now just to get rid of this place.

I’ve had the most amazing month in the United States if not for the fact that I fell in love there and things didn’t work out. Why that isn’t a surprise? Since this day I keep rambling around imagining what would happen if the things had been different. If he didn’t cheat on me the way he did. If he didn’t hurt me. He was the only thing I cared when I was there. I wonder if I go back there again that city is gonna have the same meaning for me. If it’s gonna have his smell. He was the heart of the city for me. I could do the most stupid things ever if he joined me. It wasn’t about the place. It was all about him and somehow think about that place now doesn’t have the same color as before. I was completely blind and I kept going deeper and deeper every time. I just didn’t see that I was going deeper all alone. I missed all the fun. I gave up everything just to spend every and each moment with him and even when we couldn’t be together I was always trying to reach him. I was always worrying about him. I thought it was real for both of us. But I was alone in the dark. I missed all the good things. I couldn’t concentrate anymore when he wasn’t around cause the only thing I had in mind was him. I couldn’t even breath when he was next to me. I was so afraid of the end that every single moment had to be spend with him I used to hold on to the foolish hope I had that we would still stay together even living in different countries. I just didn’t see that the end was there since the beginning.

My phone rang and I thanked God for taking me out of that paranoia. It was Thais.

- Hi there.

- Hey, what time should I pick you up today?

- I don’t know I’m already dressed. I’m just waiting for you.

- Me too. Argh. I hate to work on Saturdays.

- Who doesn’t?

- At least today is the last day of this terrible week.

- Thank goodness.

- We have Sunday to relax.

- I don’t. I have to clean the house and organize everything. Anyways, are you coming now?

- Yep. I’ll see ya in 5 minutes.

- Okay. See ya.

Well I was ready, at least physically. It’s not that we didn’t like our job it’s just we didn’t really know why we were wasting time in something we didn’t want to do for the rest of our lives. At least that was what I was feeling. I had a really clear mind about what I wanted and I knew how hard it would be for me to get there but Thais was still trying to figure it out. At least she knew that being an interiors designer wasn’t what she wanted to do for the rest of her life.

The day was good. We received some costumers and had a lot of projects. I was very good at it. Projecting was one of the things that used to take me out of the blue. When you’re projecting you need focus and concentration so you just spend all those hours in your computer trying to figure out what goes best in each place how you could make a very beautiful, comfortable and functional project to present after to the costumer. And that was exactly what I needed to keep all those depressive thoughts away.

My current project was a bedroom for a 9 years old kid. She was crazy about Katy Perry and her parents wanted to surprise her with a very especial room. So I had to use all my creativity to project all the furniture and everything according to Katy Perry’s scenario in her shows. What means that I had to watch the show to have a better look in her style. And as I wasn’t doing anything important I just started to watch in the company. I never was a crazy Katy’s fan. I liked her songs and everything but I was never so addicted like some of my friends. It was almost afternoon what meant I just had three hours to watch it and finish the project.

I turned my computer on but I couldn’t find any of her shows. So I went straight to the Netflix and I found there a documentary of her life that also had some parts of the show. It was only one hour so I had time to see it and still finish everything. I didn’t realize I was singing with her until someone knocked on my offices’ door.

- Come in

- Jackie, is there anyone here with you? – It was my boss Geremy

- No, it’s just me. Why? Is there anything wrong? – I asked without really wanting to know the answer. Geremy was a very nice guy. He was always supportive and I never had problems with him before. And the fact that he was in my office at that time was making me really nervous.

- So you were the person singing?

- Yeah. Oh I’m really sorry about that I thought I wasn’t singing too loud. I am working in this project where I have to get the Katy Perry’s essence. It’s an almost teenager bedroom. And I thought that I couldn’t get better if I watched some parts of her show so I found this documentary on Netflix. I’m really sorry.

- I didn’t come here to complain about it. I came here to see who was singing because I loved it. Congratulations Jackie, you have an amazing voice. I think you should invest in it. Not all people can sing like you do. You’re gifted.

- Oh! Thank you Geremy! Thank you very much. You have no idea how this support is good for me. Not all people think I should invest in it. Most people think I’m just wasting time. That this should be a hobbie you know? No one ever said I should go for it… Except Thais but she’s my best friend so it doesn’t count hahahaha

- You really like this, don’t you? You really care about all this singing thing.

- Yeah. I’ve always been in love with it. I wish I could invest more. Like have singing classes and stuff. It’d help me a lot. I know that if I go for it I have to be the best on it.

- Well, I have a friend. He’s a singing coach. I can talk to him and maybe he can help you with some classes. If you want to do it of course.

- OMG are you kidding me? I would love to do this. This is a dream coming true. Thank you so much.

- So it’s all set. I’m gonna talk to him and then we set a day for you guys meet.

- Fine for me. Thank you again Geremy.

I was still shocked. I was actually going somewhere. I felt like a kid who is learning how to walk. That was my first step. The first of many I have to walk. But it was good to see that there was someone there to encourage me to take this step. Someone to tell me I was good enough to take it. And it meant the world to me.

Two hours later I finally finished my project. It was just amazing. The perfect Katy Perry land. I turned off the computer and went to Thais’ office.

- Hey. Where are we going now? I don’t feel like going home.

- It’s only 7pm we don’t have to go home now.

- So what do you suggest?

- Somewhere with food.

- I wanna drink some wine today. There’s this cozy pub down the street they have an amazing lemon pie we should go there. Since you’re driving I can get drunk and you can eat whatever you want to.

- Okay. Let’s go.

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