#I wanted to be an author for a long time

[autisticmusings]

So I sometimes lose the ability to speak. Sometimes it happens when I wake up, but usually it happens due to overstimulation, exhaustion due to meltdown/shutdown, etc. I’ve been told by nonverbal autistics to not use the term nonverbal to describe these experiences, which I understand, so I would only ask would semiverbal be a better term to describe my hard time with speech? Speech does take actual work for me, I’ve had many people describe it as a “thoughtless action” but for me it is a conscious, deliberate action that takes work and if I use it too much, I will lose it for the rest of the day. But while it’s not as easy for me, I don’t want to step on the toes of those who it is impossible for. I thank any other autistics, especially those who are nonverbal, for their time.

#written language is easier for me #when my dyslexia doesn’t get in the way #but I notice it acts up with numbers more?? #anyway it’s much easier to write than to speak #probably because writing was/is a special interest for me #I wanted to be an author for a long time #actually autism #actually autistic #autism #autism spectrum #autistic adult #autistic experiences #actually neurodivergent #actuallyautistic #neurodivergent #nonverbal #semiverbal #autistic speech

[senselessalchemist]

The Beheaded makes a pitch

#saroart #dead cells #the beheaded #the collector #bad comic #art is all over the place because holy fuck im so tired #this idea has bounced around in my head like a dvd screensaver for a long time #also the views expressed in this comic are not necessarily the views of the author #dont come at me because its good and does amazing dps or whatever i know it has high damage per tick #it can be a little annoying in dailies when you dont get cells #and i do want more boss stuff #beheaded just wants a cool sword #collector would be one of those dont talk to me until ive had my coffee assholes #but yknow its panacea #in fact that was one of the earliest pieces of dc fanart i drew #dont think i ever posted it here and thats fine #god i miss when art was easy tho

[kyouka-supremacy]

I think we should just bring back Wungo Wednesday and start a fandom collective anime rewatch

#Because otherwise I can feel I won't last much longer #Because like. The last two hyperfixations of mine ended the moment I started feeling like there wasn't any new content #And two days ago in one day I started a new manga a new book and rewatching a favourite show #Whereas I hadn't started anything new in the two years ever since I got into bsd. Which makes it NOT a good sign #But the bsd anime has now ended for one month and 25 days and that's the last time the plot actually moved forward. #And if I counted right. The manga took 4 chapters (that is chapters 110-111) to adapt 6 minutes #That means it's going to take another 12 months (18 minutes left to adapt. that's 12 more chapters) to catch up with the anime #Yeah I'm not. sticking around this long with nothing new to see I'm sorry #Best case scenario I take a one year hiatus but that doesn't make it sound likely that I'll be back #And I know it's fresh news as early as this morning that author said they were introducing a new character but like. #They also said they finished writing this arc like. One year and half ago if I remember correctly? #And we still have yet to see the end of i t so... #That is to say. I'll probably be starting an anime rewatch starting next Wednesday. I've been meaning to do it for a while anyway #I don't want to leave the fandom I like the one chapter a month format #On the positive news I still have a queue of original posts that spans over ten months #And I was meaning to start the reblogs queue too in these days. So there's that #random rambles

[blooming-gwens]

I'm pleased to inform you that the wait is over! Here is CHAPTER TWO of For Everything

Chapters: 2/

Fandom: Spider-Man: Spider-Verse (Sony Animated Movies)

Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Miles Morales/Gwen Stacy | Spider-Gwen Summary:

~Perhaps they were meant for each other. It was written in the stars—stars meant to burn out in their all at once powerful surge. Stars meant to fall. Bright, burning and then gone. And in its sudden demise, no one would even remember it was once there, lost in the infinity of severed constellations.

That was the way of the universe. That was the way it had to be.~

Alternatively: Gwen Stacy is doomed but Miles Morales’ love might save her.

Please feel free to reblog to support and share my work!

#my oh my it’s been a long time coming #I’ve divided my time between finishing moving in and writing and while I may have made some unwise decisions #I’m still so happy to be able to post this #my garden may have suffered for it but heyyyy it was worth it lol #anyways #please read the authors note for special thanks #and please do tell me what you think of the newest installment #Atsv #across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse fic #Ghostflower #gwiles #Gwen Stacy #miles morales #ghostflower fic #all the characters are in this joint but I don’t want to clutter the tags #my wiritng #megan says things

[wayward-sherlock]

do you have any fic recs? thank you!

HELLO ANON I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO ANSWERING THIS ASK SINCE I GOT IT (im going to assume you mean byler fics since that is my most recent specialty🫶):

a cruel summer with you by the amazing @campbyler is by FAR one of my all time favorite fics. never in my entire four year fic reading career have i read something that obviously has so much love (and lore) put into it. if you haven’t read it already (or interacted with their blog, which i highly suggest!) this would be one of my first picks! (anything by suni or thea or andi is guaranteed to strike you speechless, though, so definitely check them out as authors, too!)

take a little moment (find the right words) by my lovely friend @astrobei is definitely also in my top all time bc i am SUCH a sucker for college aus it’s not even FUNNY. anything by suni is a banger, honestly, but this one specifically nails the miscommunication/idiots in love trope AND has rotund ducks. what is not to love.

a body in motion (also by @astrobei) is one of the best and most visceral mike character studies i have ever read. i’ve read it twice and the playlist has a permanent place in my spotify library. i don’t think i need to say any more.

sleeping with the lights on by singingseok is another mike character study that tore my heart from my chest and made me watch as it picked it apart and sewed it back together. okay. it’s SO good i highly recommend it for sure!

literally anything by @parkitaco is going to be fantastic, but three of my personal faves are the gaps and the silence, the windows of this love, and you were bigger than the whole sky because apparently i love sobbing into my pillow in the middle of the night. it’s healthy sometimes.

the strawberries are dying by my favorite doopel @lighthouseas is PERFECT if you’re looking for a unique take on byler with a historical spin <3 im a SUCKER for historical aus as well so this great depression fic was so incredibly perfect hehe

landslide by chamb3rs is. it’s so good i don’t even have words. it captures the spirit of senior year of high school so well, especially now that i’m in it lol. anyway, i’ve read this one twice and will continue to read it again for the rest of forever <3

and lastly, if you’re looking for spiderman aus (which i LOVE), look before you leap by lumism, the higher i climb, the farther i fall by @andiwriteordie, and mike wheeler’s guide to falling in love with a superhero by @smoosnoom are all wonderful perfect places to start 💗

i hope this gives you a good place to start anon :3 and also that im not overwhelming you. lol. but feel free to check out my bookmark page here for a more complete list of fics i’ve read!

#there are so many more great authors and fics out there btw. i just felt like this was already ridiculously long. #im realizing now what a suni astrobi fangirl i am. and im not sorry. #ANYWAYS i only recently started making my bookmarks public since i was so Scared before #so i will be updating it when i have time w more little comments so you can get a better idea of things to read! #also if i tagged you when you didn’t want to be tagged i sincerely apologize </3 #pov you’re a nerd and have so much to say about what fics you’ve read and you also love your friends and their works and - #yeah. okay. this is making me love the byler community a lot again. maybe i WILL start that side blog for fic rec fridays #BASICALLY I HAVE A LOT TO SAY i’ll shut up now 💗 #🫧🪴 #asks #💌 #anon !! #wayli’s fic recs

[fictionadventurer]

Potential March Reading:

Emily Wilde's Encyclopaedia of Faeries by Heather Fawcett

Celia's House by D.E. Stevenson

Something by C.S. Lewis

Something by G.K. Chesterton

Something by Tolkien and/or Wendell Berry

Something by Rumer Godden and/or Elizabeth Goudge

Jesus of Nazareth by Pope Benedict XVI

Gospels of Mark, Luke and John

#monthly reading list #this is actually mostly my lent reading list #which lines up nicely with the month #the last two are my lenten spiritual reading goals #the first one just came from the library #the author lists are people who i tend to want to read this time of year #this time of year being defined as either lent or the lead-up to spring #i've got two lewis books out from the library and i've still got mere christianity to read #i *need* to read one of the chesterton books on my shelf this lent #and i paired up the other authors so this list didn't get ridiculously long #celia's house snuck on there because i went to my bookshelf to get the godden book #and this one stuck out to me instead #the first page captures the beginning-of-march vibe i'm going for so on the bedside pile it goes

[unexpectedgeese]

Orv: Spoiler warning

One of the things I noticed after finishing ORV was the way Kdj treats all of the characters. To be more specific, how that treatment compares and contrasts with how he views himself. There’s SO. MUCH. IRONY THERE!

He tells Lee Jihye that she needs to keep living, no matter what. That no matter what she’s done, she HAS to survive. That she deserves to live. That she will always deserve to live. And then he becomes the oldest dream- dooming himself to an endless end akin to death itself- because he thinks he deserves it.

He tells Shin Yoosung that in a pinch, he’d choose her life over all of Seoul. That there’s always a way to survive. That a sacrifice like that is never the right play. That all the shitty stuff she’s done? She’s done it to survive. And then he sacrifices himself, again and again and again, like he thinks it’s inevitable. He calls himself a monster for trying to survive a shitty childhood.

He tells Jang Hayeon that the only way to overcome a wall is to fight it. That everyone has a wall, that you will never truly understand someone, that you have to try anyway. And then he throws himself into the abyss and never explains why.

He tells his mother that her sacrifice was not kind. That martyring yourself to help someone will only ever hurt them. That a ‘kind’ lie will never be better than the cruel truth.And then he dies, again and again and again and again, to help his friend. And he lies about doing it.

Kim Dokja teaches those around him the exact lessons he needs to learn. He gives them the exact kindness he’s never received. He uses the story as an opportunity to explore that first question he asks us- what if my life was a different genre? The world changes. He finally gets the chance to be something other than a reader- and he doesn’t take it. Instead, he guides everyone else to the ending he wishes he could reach. Because, in his mind, that’s the happiest a reader can ever be.

And that reader- character divide is the reason that Kimcom’s plan in the epilogue actually works. When he views himself as a character, Kim Dokja is finally able to apply his love for the characters to himself. He can finally learn the lessons he’s been teaching the whole time- because although he’s still the reader, ‘Kim Dokja’ can finally be a character.

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #literary analysis #long post #i just think it cool how Yjh's arc is about breaking free from being a protagonist #Hsy's is breaking free from being an author #and Kdj's is about breaking free from being a reader #but at the same time #just like how even when they break free from fate they return to it again #they all have to return to those roles in order to free themselves #Kdj becomes a reader to free Yjh from protagonist-hood #and then Yjh and hsy return to their roles to save him #idk i'll probably write a long-ass essay about how they reach the ends they want by perpetuating the cycle #but not right now #as always: if you have shit to add DO IT DO IT DO IT #regardless of quality

[alizalayne]

(wakes up as if from a 100 years of dreaming ) well i believe i have finished inking beetle and the chimera carnival

#that’s book 2 #i had a lovely time at a pride author event the other day and some people asked about the book #and it was difficult to like explain its slowness except that there was a full 1 year where my publisher wasn’t sure they wanted it #and then 2 years of work while i had many many many health problems and so did my family #and it is so long… it is SO long #but it is quite simply very very very good #i will have help coloring it so hopefully it will be out in a year and a half

[catoscloves]

enemies to lovers isn't "he's generally an unpleasant person to be around, he constantly puts other people down and disrespects/condescends/ostracizes them, he's cruel and a bully... but his one redeeming quality is that he looks attractive" like. bestie that's not a redemption arc!! or a redeeming quality!!! a person can and should control their behaviors, but how they look literally has no bearing on their worth as a person!

like... this trope is about an initial misunderstanding and miscommunication that leads to mild conflict and resentment of each other,but eventually they move past this rocky start by revealing to each other their humanity and good qualities, and communicating what happened the first time they met so that they can clear up that situation, and slowly becoming good friends who enjoy spending time with each other and eventually become really close, and the realization that one accidental mishap/slip in behavior/aashole mistake isn't what defines a person and sometimes your first interpretation of them is sometimes wrong!! an entire opinion of someone should be formed based on their behaviors, values, actions, and morals, and quality time spent with this person, not because they have nice cheekbones.

#and i can speak to this from experience #because i didn't outright hate this guy we just had very contradicting personalities and were polar opposites which is why we didn't #get along well when we first met #but then i realized how charming and sweet and kind and intelligent he was and i liked him so much for the same things #that I initially found as off putting and negative traits at first #and he had a similar experience with me and we found that our opposing personalities complemented each other #and THEN i noticed that he was literally so fine and had an amazing back and really nice eyes and a charming smile and good hair #he became one of my best friends first and the person i wanted to spend time with the most LONG BEFORE i ever found him physically appealin #or attractive at all #also this post is calling out middle school me because i read tlc and i wanted iko to have a love interest #and it was very heteronormative at the time too #and then the author literally didn't develop her or her love interest character AT ALL and designed them so poorly #and i didn't realize that this wasn't the correct way to do enemies to lovers #or that iko stood on her own as a character and kinney was completely unnecessary and so boring and bland aldjfkfkf #wait i might have to tag this #anti kiko #anti iko x kinney #the way I haven't thought about this book series in years akdjfkdmdl #enemies to lovers #tropes #anna speaks

[lethalhoopla]

I am once again losing my mind.

This time: I went to look up references of Varric, and just typed "Varric Tethras" into the search bar. I was going to just tab over immediately to the images section, eyes barely glancing over the obvious top-result fandom wiki, then (more entertainingly, but still expected) Wikipedia link-

but. but the next one.

GOODREADS??

.... There's absolutely no tongue-in-cheek in the entry either.

(of course I immediately clicked on it who do you think I am)

There are 3 quotes from him relating to storytelling, both from 2 and Inquisition, as well as a book attribution:

The Dragon Age Novel Edition of Hard in Hightown.

ATTRIBUTED TO VARRIC TETHRAS.

with Mary Kirby*~

Absolutely unblinkingly written summary/bio.

I love this with my whole heart. Varric you beautiful bastard -- and DA writers/editors (Mary Kirby very much most importantly included) you even more beautiful, dorky, wonderful bastards.

---

*if you're not in the know, Mary Kirby is a cornerstone of the DA writing team, including being the one who was in charge of Varric (and Merrill!). To say she's his "trusted human confidante" is certainly putting it one (delightful) way.

#dragon age #dragon age 2 #da2 #varric tethras #i love things like this idk its just so delightful to see the love for a character so clearly echoed from the writers to fans and back agai #like it makes sense HiH is on goodreads - its literally a published book! (you can read most of it in dai codex in fact) #very fun and cheeky novella - not originally planned to be written #but mary kirby did it during DAI's development during times the team would work on 'related projects' that #would flesh out/expand on the world but probably/likely wouldn't see the light of day (which is really cool and immersive) #she apparently banged out most of HiH in a WEEK as codex entries (which are only 500 words long MAX so she had a hard cap!) #woke up in a fugue state with it finished kinda vibes apparently XD #anyways a couple years after DAI she was contacted and asked if she wanted to make it into a publishable novella that'd be illustrated #she agreed and here we are lmao #but! it's By Varric *with Mary Kirby* #and idk #my lil storytelling loving heart just is so delighted about all aspects #and its lead to Varric having a true-blue goodreads profile #so much good shit in the world man #including weird lil website entries on behalf of fictional authors that have 'real' published novels thanks to Dedicated Writers #fucking impeccable shit man

[wof-reworked]

I’ve been thinking, and I think I’m going to change the way I talk about my headcanons and wof writing to something like a rewrite/reworking. I love wof but it’s become really apparent that the way I engage with it is really more as a world to expand and work in vs a book series I’m analyzing as-is. I think it’ll give me the freedom to actually post the stuff I’m thinking and working on bc I don’t have to keep chaining myself to making it work with all the confusing and contradictory canon tidbits that Tui barely remembers she established. Thoughts?

#this is no shade at all to ppl who do focus on headcanons/analysis I love you all and I’m giving all of you a kiss on the cheek /p #but it’s frustrated me for a long time #I think it’ll also help attract like. the convos I want to be having?? #since like. rn i feel like all I do is reblog art I like bc I feel like I’m on a way different wavelength than my mutuals #idk I write these honestly to see what other people do and think about them and to get out my own thoughts abt a world I do really love #but idk if all of you are here for jobs/canon compliant hcs/fanart it feels like I’m driving an unnecessary wedge in my blog #not to imply a rework wouldn’t be canon compliant #if I wanted to really make my own story with dragons I’d just. go do that #but needing to fact-check everything to see if I’m accidentally contracting smth is getting really tiring #and I know it’s not like. necessary to writing hcs but it’s how *I* do them if that makes sense #I wouldn’t feel right posting things I knew went against the authors world bc like. that matters to someone #even if that someone is only me #anyway rant over #sunny rambles

[reddd-robin]

I feel so crazy about that last episode I knew literally in my soul that the lich would appear eventually and be named the last scholar of golb. Throws up everywherr

#i canttt do this. i love betty and simon so much this new view on their dynamic makes me feel crazy #its undoubtedly like a strange power dynamic that simon is unaware of (heees kind of dumb but not a bad person by any means) that drives- #-betty to act how she does with him at first. like her perfect idolized interaction with a author she loves dearly #and for her to put aside her life like that for him in this manic sort of perfect scenario shes so enthralled by #gah i live them so much. simon being unaware of this and it damaging their relationship in the future unknowingly #she gives so much man. not to say simon doesn't i think hes just as great a lover as betty wanted but betty has this endlessness to her- #-devoting her time and her life and her dreams to this perfect world she gets to live in now #i do think she relaxes with it further into their relationship when she feels less like she has to be cool or prove herself to someone she- #-idolizes. and that they get better and closer and more equal (i say theyre never truly equal considering it revolves around simons whims)- #betty really learns to love for that period of their life. for however long it takes them to get to 'fianceès' its really their perfect life #and then everything happens. the crown. the portal. the war. the world ending. ice king. betty in ooo. and its all ruined again and she cant #acess simon so he is again returned to this state of a forbidden person she desperately chases and gives up her life for. she regresses to- #-when their dynamic was unknown woman and author she loves dearly appearing before her eyes #and that unnatainable aspect is what drives her insane. she cant do anything this time. he doesnt even know who *he* is. its hopeless #her trying to date ice king and freaking out about it because this perfect picture is gone and she doesnt /like/ him like this #agh. bety. siom #fionna and cake spoilers #fionna and cake #talking2myself

[aus-from-undertale]

NewTales

A sassy human falls to a very strange underground.

There's a link below with the author's sinopsis:

Chapter 1:

https://www.deviantart.com/bunnymuse/gallery/59225046/chapter-1

More about the characters and the AU on @bun-bunmuse :

The art style is cute and tore is a cutie pie 💕

#aus from undertale #undertale aus #repost #undertale #undertale au #ut au #ut aus #comics #newtale #newtale au #newtale!corina #kin!sans #this has been sitting in my drafts for over an year now. #sometimes i like an au but theres not a lot of content of i have some questions about why the story went how it went #ive asked around a bit but its been a long time and i think the author is not on the fandom anymore #so thats why this post has less info then my normal ones! #just wanted to take it of my drafts after so long :)

[noecoded]

If you could have any Asmo/reader fic what would be the things you would want from it? like an ideal fic would contain what tropes or AUS or situations or whatever

uhmm anything wellwritten that characterizes asmo similar to the way i do ! i rlly like character exploration , both more serious stuff & just sillycute...anything where asmo is a little cunning and toxic and also gets railed into oblivion.anything where hes a vampire. ill write a tag essay about the specifics

#xreaders are too unrelatable for me usually .. im aroace and the only relationship dynamics that r rlly interesting to me r likee #toxic or tumultuous...i think in many asmo fics hes just very one note or like not a complex love interest .which is fine because hes like #that in the game but i am especially drawn to fics where the author has their own kind of unique take on it. nuance. etc #it's really interesting to see situations in which asmo kind of reaps the consequences of shitty behavior or struggles with parts of himsel #f he doesnt like. not just in like ohhh im insecure sobsob but like deeprooted issues & patterns thought processes that come with being a d #demon that maybe clash with human morality or ideals...like what if he sees human lives as generally more disposable because hes lived for #so long?? what would a fic be like about him wanting a fling with a human that ends up taking apart their life but to him its just a fun #little romance without any real consequences or commitment?? even if he was obsessed w them professing his undying love etc etc he could ge #t bored and drop it anytime and outlive them by millions of years and forget...& how does a human love an entity like that? how could the r #relationship look anything close to normal ever...anyway i like fics that touch on questions like this theyre kind of rare though #this all being said i def dont think asmo is completely evil💭 nuance #at work so im literally just wasting time by thinking about this rn but this was like the asmotoni dynamic its too interesting to me #asmotoni is like this in my head but on papwr i just draw them fucking witj bunny ears sorry #this doesnt even answer ur question really. if i could write a fic rn it would be like 200k word emo band au that isnt xreader or a romance #fic it would just be asmo beel belphie as humans starting a band and their rise and fall etc ive been thinking abt that plot nonstop

[nettlestingsoup]

@ficwip's first word of the week is start, so have a snippet of the vampire au despite the fact i've been keeping it fairly close to my chest. for those of you who don't know much about this one, it's bloody, it's obsessive, it's minchan, and it's about generational trauma and desperate self sacrifice. i hope that sells it to at least one person <3

It’s a side of him that Minho has either never seen before, or been proudly, wilfully blind to; he’s been so sure of keeping the upper hand in this strange game of secrets they play, of leading Chan around the castle to find the rooms that frightened him the most, watching him turn pale at the blood-soaked stories Minho told. No magic of Chan’s had been able to shake him. Not when Minho was the one who’d watched this castle bloom and die like jasmine flowers in the last breaths of summer. But there’s a helplessness in the turning of the tide, and in the realisation that it was inevitable. The current that flows around his ankles is pulling harder now, and Minho is beginning to realise that Chan is something he’s been drowning in from the start. His magic. His mortality. The way he strips Minho to the bone with something simple as someone loved here, and offers himself up to be consumed whole in return, only to ask if it was enough.

#look i'm keeping it mostly to myself because i love it #and i want to get it right before i ask anyone else to love it too #i've wanted to write a vampire au for a very very long time #but held off because i wanted it to be perfect and i wanted it to have something unique #and i feel like i may have finally hit that vibe with this story #so i really hope people like it when i finish it #it's my weird gory traumatised child ok #i love you like i love being hungry #stray kids fic #minchan #ao3 author

[lanshappycorner]

This is how I look knowing that tsubaki's pronouns are allegedly confirmed to be he/him but idgaf I'm still calling her she/her

#the confirmation came from the editorial so we dont actually know what the author thinks but personally #she is transfem TO ME #idkidk i have read a good amount of stories okay and ive seen the Boy That Likes Girly Things trope done a million times #and i dont mind it i support gnc men but this story in specific doesnt seem to read like that at all to me💀 #it didnt feel like a narrative about her being a gnc man💀 if it was i feel like it wouldve been easy to get #but the fact that it took this long for her pronouns to be confirmed and we were all unsure goes to show that her arc was Not #her being a Man and liking feminine things.... #idk how to explain it but either ways she is transfem to me and unless the author directly calls me on the phone and tells me she isnt #i will call her whatever i want !!!! not even the editorial can stop me #ACTUALLY LAST ADDITION IM JUST SAYING #if her entire character arc was about how shes a man that likes feminine things end of story you would THINK #you would THINK that we would all understand it because her arc was AMAZING #but the fact that we all came out of it thinking she was transfem until the editors confirmed she apparently wasnt #means that either the writer sucked at getting their point across or maybe his point was not that shes a gnc man #IM JUST SAYIN....