#I won’t see you tonight

[l3irdl3rain]

I’m sure I’ve told you guys before about my coworker at my part time warehouse job that hates Duncan but I had to work with her again tonight and she was on her bullshit regarding him again.

I would like to clarify, this doesn’t upset me. I mean it does in the sense of “I can’t stand her and she’s a bitch” but also it’s fine. She can think what she wants to think. What matters is that I know Duncan is happy and I love him.

BUT ALL THAT TO SAY! It is so funny to me that she is a grown woman and this is who she has beef with. He’s just a little fella. Girl you are so dumb to be beefing with a cat.

Anyways he’s mad in this video because I stopped him from trying to eat Gertrude’s breakfast and gave him a bath.

#I haven’t had to see her in a few months bc I only work a few hours a week there and she had a temporary schedule change #and tonight she was like ‘oh I saw you did a fundraiser for Duncan… hmmm what is the point of that?’ #‘if his condition isn’t curable what can the neurologist even do for you?’ #and like a regular person this could be genuine curiousity #but I am not dumb. she believes I am wasting ppl’s money #she is just jealous that ppl like Duncan more than her #I keep the peace bc I don’t want to make the work environment hostile but I won’t give her the time of day anymore #I also went to HR and was like ‘you guys have to make her leave me alone before I kill her’ #and they actually switched her department so I won’t have to work directly with her anymore #my post #Duncan

[mako-ink]

The eldest sibling’s burden.

#dislyte #digital art #fanart #anime #art #digital artist #original art #dislyte fanart #dislyte leon #Leon dislyte #painting #digital painting #gacha games #gacha art #he’s a perpetually rained on wet cat in my mind #listening to I won’t see you tonight by avenged sevenfold like…..

[galaxywarp]

Ended up being too upset to let mom take me to dinner. Couldn’t even answer my sister’s call earlier because im crying too hard to speak. And I’m still sitting here feeling more guilty about possibly making my birthday an unpleasant experience for others.

#I don’t think I can even drive with my head like this so. #I guess I won’t see my mom tonight #god fucking damn dude. you had happier birthdays when you were on fucking heroin.

[cybercanadian]

just got stood up by a Grindr date 🙃

#sigh #we hooked up before Christmas and it was good #he joked see you next year so I messaged him when I got back #we were supposed to meet up tonight he said he’d keep me posted and nothing #I checked in at 10pm and ——— #sad #but also…like not that big a deal I get it he told me he was going out with friends so they probably stayed out and whatever #but like at least let me know right #if he says sorry for not letting me know then I’ll be okay but if he doesn’t I probably won’t see him again 🙄 #am I dramatic? #and if you read through this you’re a real one love you

[enrapture]

stay alive.

#the happiest people can be going through shit #the saddest people #the meanest of people #all walks of life you could never know what they’re dealing with #life is so hard so fucking difficult #I didn’t think I would be here #so many years before this one I didn’t think I would be alive at all #honestly? I didn’t think I’d live to see today a few days ago even just the other day I felt it #it’s really hard to stay tonight even with a good thing like meeting my favorite band right now on the 31st #internally I won’t share these feelings and thoughts allowed y’all don’t care about that or even wanna hear what I feel and what I think #but yeah #I just wanna share this because I’m struggling with it sand sometimes it’s a good and bad thing to keep finding reasons to stay #but you should stay because you want to be here to experience life with others and to help others #that life wouldn’t be life without you and you would want to see your near future self happy among your childhood past near past selves #evolve and be happy you’re staying and relive your childhood and grow as a person #you’re meant to be here if no one else tells you that #means a lot being heard and understood #staying is just a. little difficult rn #I never thought I’d make it this far and I don’t like the act of growing and I don’t like how life is a lot of the time #but that’s a story for another time if desired and shared #I’m gonna hop off now #bye #internally I won’t share these thoughts #these feelings aloud because y’all don’t care y’all don’t wanna hear about the dark parts that stay and stick in my head or pass through #but I just wanted to share it for those that needed a sign to stay #to stay because I too am one of those that could use it #spread love #be there for those that struggle #life is so fucking hard #take it one day at a time

[wlwgang]

Ohhh I’m not the Alex Turner of this relationship I’m Alexa Chung

#I think we have to break up like #I keep trying to be positive abt it but she’s going to weigh me down on this move I can tell like she hasn’t once said she’s excited for me #or anything just how she’s going to miss me and like I’ve tried communicating how fucking big of a change this is going to be and how a LDR #is going to be hard and how I’m not going to be able to just come see her at the drop of a hat anymore and like #I just don’t think she gets it #like at all #the age difference and emotional maturity gap is really showing herself tonight #just talked myself in circles abt it for an hour w my best friend and her roomie and like I think I will have to #like we were at her place earlier tn and talking abt flights and her spring break is like a week after I move in #and I’m like in my head like I don’t want you coming out there so soon like I won’t even be settled or unpacked yet #like I’ve spent so much energy focusing on my move and how it will be good for myself personally bc I have to and I’m scared to do it #like I do not have the bandwidth to handhold you through this at the same time I need you to grow up or this won’t work #Augh #personal #mine

[switch-bladefights]

i love gerard way

#i’m intoxicated it’s my bday night out!!!!!! #i sang 5 mcr songs at karaoke!!!!!!! #and it’s so true gerard way the person you are #you are my muse you are my saviour #when i was singing famous last words i felt it #also shout out to tayla if you see this i <3 u #but like yeah famous last words hit harder tonight it’s easier to sing that you’ll keep on living that you’ll walk this world alone when #you’ve consumed plenty of alcohol oopsie #i just remember being stood there and thinking yeah i can do this #i’ll feel different when i get back off holiday this week and have to face reality again #but until then #I AM NOT AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVING I AM NOT AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE HONEY IF YOU STAY ILL BE FORGIVEN NOTHING YIU CAN SAY #etc #also they won’t see this cos they don’t have tumblr but becca tilda kairren beth and alex i lov u

[i-want-men-i-cant-have]

stop 👏 reading 👏 smut 👏 and 👏 go 👏 hang 👏 out 👏 with 👏 your 👏 family 👏

#stop #reading #smut #and #go #hang #out #with #your #family #yall need to chill out on the christmas smut #you should’ve posted it before christmas i can’t be reading smut with my granny next to me #still mad i didnt see a christmas smut say something like the tip glows and someone says won’t you guide my sleigh tonight #i think im going insane #have a good christmas holiday or day

[keepfight1n]

can i interest you in a meme while i rot at work? 🖤

#I’m seeing scream right after work #so i won’t be around until late tonight #but i also know i will be bored… #and i always want to write with more of you #* out of character. #( mobile. )

[my-wildflwr]

i have a severe one-sided beef with this very very very big popular taylor blog on here

#i won’t name names but im 95% sure you have seen them they are VERY big on here #they just… always answer asks which is whatever but the way they talk about taylor’s private life… ooof… #it’s not even about omg xyz sons reminds me of 123 event in taylor’s life #is more like #anon: taylor wrote this song about this situation and she said this bc of that right? #the blog: so close! actually here’s a very detailed explanation about her personal private life that tells us in thorough detail #what she thinks and feels #anon: thoughts on tonight surprise songs? #the blog: of course she chose those she’s SAD and HEARTBROKEN did you see her CRY she misses him SO MUCH she cant do without him #…uuuuh sure…. #like maybe they’re right ! but its so weird how all they do is talk about that ! in that way ! #anyways as i said its a one sided beef i have cause apparently no one else bats an eye cause they’re beloved here #x

[payslipgig]

…

#my mum came to visit on Thursday for the weekend #I haven’t seen her in a little over 3 years #I was in the hospital and she flew over to be with me. so. I was in pretty bad shape. not prime interaction there either #and THAT was probably after a 2 year gap? idk anymore #but she visited and tonight she went to her hotel and I won’t see her in the morning bc work so. this was the last night #and it was a fantastic visit by and large. complaints are for things that aren’t her haha #but she left bc the trip is over of course. I’m an adult and I still can’t get over it #I’m happy - seriously so grateful bc her life is very busy and my stepdad picked up a LOT to make it happen #but I guess there’s always going to be that empty wanting for my mum like I’m 4 again and she had to go off to college never REALLY returns #summers off and then occasional holidays and then maybe once a year and. idk I guess you don’t get over some things. I know that! but #I suppose it’s a good thing that when she leaves I’m sad for it #complicated relationship still but. she’s my mum. #no worries I’m just going to be a sop for the next Whenever. needed to jot it down. explain myself haha #payslipgig talks too much #I need to fucking change playlists tho jfc I’m listening to my bloody valentine and expecting a chipper mood?? like babe come on

[angelofbloodlust]

shoutout to my friends that genuinely view me as masculine instead of just calling me more masc/neutral terms purely bc it’s what I said I prefer 🥰

#100% in my feels tonight sorry y’all #gonna use the tags as a little way to get some of my feelings out since I just. wanna get it out #but something I’ve always genuinely struggled with is knowing that people irl always perceive me as a girl no matter how hard I try #and as a non-binary person who likes to dress both masc and fem it does really make me sad that I probably won’t be able to be genuinely #viewed by other people as non-binary since it’s not really easy for me to make myself not look somewhat feminine to some degree #which can REALLY suck #and it absolutely did not help that when my parents’ ex was still around I was CONSTANTLY misgendered and called a girl #to the point it would ruin my mood entirely. and listen I don’t get upset when strangers misgender me bc they usually just can’t tell #but this woman literally knew me for months and was REPEATEDLY told what to call me and even though she claimed she was supportive of it #she literally never once genuinely tried #and luckily my family does do a great job at using my proper pronouns but it’s kinda rough knowing deep down they still see me as a girl #so it really does mean so much to me when my friends make me feel validated <3 more than they could ever know #thank you #not scream stuff #billy rambles

[feartheoldblog]

this is an incredibly casual post for a serious interp but as per usual i cannot take anything seriously

potentially controversial take but i don’t think it was the case that gehr/man didn’t care about mar/ia and her feelings of guilt or take them seriously (take i’ve seen a lot or at least implied) but it was more that his own feelings about the hunt/massacre were so repressed that he just couldn’t ‘understand’ them

if he did consider her guilt (bad wording but i’m lazy rn) would mean he’d have to admit to himself that he’s been massacring people (beasts) for many years (decades possibly). he’d definitely have felt uncomfortable about doing this at the beginning of his career- after all, they’re beasts but they’re still incredibly humanoid (another post i’ll write at some point- laziness). to do his job effectively and protect ‘sane’ people, he couldn’t falter whatsoever. he needed no consideration for any possible humanity in those beasts to ‘protect yharnam’.

years, potentially decades of this thinking…

why is she concerned about the incident? we killed beasts as we’ve always done (if they were already feral fish people- another debate to be had), why is she upset this time? not really an ‘i don’t care about her feelings’ more a sort of ‘i don’t understand her feelings’.

idk if this makes sense i’m rambling and it’s taken me ages to get to the point but yes

#i forgot to censor names oopsies #pic is semi related #sorry i just love it so much #emotional support header #i typically stay away from lore discussions #but im feeling bold tonight (beer) #i’m kinda biased tho bc he’s my fav #so yes this is a very me take #i don’t rly care abt other people’s interps of him #but i figured i’d drop in mine #i see this trope a lot n it’s always confused me #i don’t want any arguments or whatever #about gehr #in a negative sense #you won’t convince me otherwise and i cannot change your opinion either #it’s a wasted discussion even if it is civil #just block me or blacklist or whatever #you are simply wasting your time and energy #be mature <3 #i will simply compile

[astronomy-two-worlds-apart]

the urge to spontaneously confess to them is high. it’s stupid but like. i kinda want to do it. i’m not going to but it’s interesting to just think about what would happen

#neo.txt #probably shouldn’t post this bc they might see it but it’s not like i’m obvious about this (i don’t think) #i don’t wanna make a mistake though. if i did ended up confessing #either way it won’t be tonight noooo thank you

[shmooooo]

Imma go look for more fun stuff

Do that :D

#i have fun stuff too #but you won’t see it tonight #dumbass 🍒 #mutuals 💫 #✉️: mail for isa

[fabiansbattlesheet]

no ap lang tonight

#so you won’t see me repeatedly die on tumblr #but that means i also probably won’t watch a fun movie tonight