#IM GONNA HAVE TO TAKE AN HOUR BUS DRIVE

[gh0str3c0rd3r]

I LEFT MY HEADPHONES AT HOME 😢😢😢

#daily stuff i guess #IM GONNA HAVE TO TAKE AN HOUR BUS DRIVE #WITH NO HEADPHONES #AUUUGH

[mwagneto]

getting my driving licence tomorrow.. 😐

#for the record when i say i got it so I'd have it later i mean my licence. i did not want nor get a car -> #i feel really bad for my car coz brother i am never ever gonna drive you sorry. devil's machine #literally living in a city with one of the best public transports in the entire world and my parents expect me to drive... #i got it so I'd have it but like broooo im not gonna drive anywhere i fucking hate driving😭😭😭 #also fun fact getting a licence in hungary is literally harder than getting into heaven as a rich person like holy fucking shit #I've been going through the process for well over two years now. my god #you need 4 different exams and many many many hours of studying and practice #which is good in that i know most ppl who drive trained really hard to do it #but bad because boy they don't act like it<3 also bp traffic is fucking nuts. JUST TAKE THE BUS #or the metro. or the trolley bus. or the tram. or the hév. or the train. or the fucking . boat #no the boats stopped running during covid and they still haven't started again which makes me so sad. bring them back... #barking

[silverislander]

i'm going to be on campus for 9hrs at least one day of the week.

#pop used to help us get there/back but hes still in the hospital and mom/dad have regular 8hr jobs so #like. mom is a teacher. she cant drive to the next city to pick me up from school #we dont have enough cars for me to even try driving myself and taking the bus isnt going to work either #bc by the time i get home off the bus its going to be time to go back in for class again and someone ELSE has to take me in #what a mess #levi.txt #3 blank hours before class and a 4hr break between the last two classes. #its not even like theres anything to do on campus or anywhere to go im just gonna live in the library/uc this semester #god i hope my friends are free to come hang out often im gonna be bored out of my mind

[wintersoldeer]

everyone else gets: ...bells?

i get: my dashboard not working at all anymore (just an empty white page)

#i had to download the app this is horrible (why is everything in the middle? ads?? endless scrolling???) #at least im at my parents for chrisms so i can stea- uh borrow my moms laptop #i came here yesterday like ah i better leave early while it’s still light at least some of the way! wow the weather is really shit! #pick up my 90+ yo grandma! wow the weather is even more shit i literally cant see more than two meters in front of me am i even on the road! #i have to stop on this bus stop to clean the windshield wipers form the ice! yay done we can keep going now! ...oh no. the car wont start! #wait. try again! the car wont start! wait! start calling people like my parents an figuring out if we should take a taxi to the nearest town #and wait there for my dad to pick us up in 3+ hours itd take him to get us! call idk what u call them hinaaja! try the car again! it starts! #yay!! but oh shit! theres so much snow in that bus stop that we’re fucking stuck! try to kick some snow away from the tires! no use! #the road people say theyll be there in a half an hour or so! after half an hour or so they call and ask where are we ok we’ll be there in #a half an hour or so! after an half an hour or so someone comes and manages to easily unstuck the car! yay!! after like 2 hours we’re #finally on our way! and while we sat there in the snowbank the snowing and hailing has calmed down into a normal level! it’s ofc dark now #but i can actually see the road! yay!!! and then. we manage to drive like two kilometers before the road is blocked by an accident?? idek #theres just a queue of a hundred meters of cars now moving an inch we cant see whats happening on the road ahead! so we have to wait #another hour! i guess there were some trucks that had just... idk... frozen on the road and we had to wait for someone to clear the snow #from between the lanes so we could go past them idek?? but at least after that everything went smoothly for the rest of the way and at #that point it wasnt snowing at all anymore! but it did take us like 7 hours to drive that normally 3-4 hour trip! #anyways merry chrsimgs everyone! #im gonna go watch the snowman soon and maybe try to see it i can make 9 chrimsm cards in like two hours bc i did not put off doing that til #the last minute ha ha h a ... . . . . #i say

[mothmanns]

my car battery is dead 🥳🥳🥳 again 🥳🥳

#fuck this gay earth #i DESPERATELY need to go to work but now i cant unless i wanna take the bus for three goddamn hours to get to my job that is a ten minute dr #ive away #i JUST changed a car battery last month too im ughhhhhhh #gonna have to take it out and get someone to drive me to the parts store to charge it #hunter is coming to get me so i can help them dye their hair

[hughesurdaddy43]

Come over

Summary: I'm setting off. But not without my muse

Pairing: Quinn Hughes x fem reader

Note: IM sorry guys this one is actually so long so I cut it in half so the next part Ill post tomorrow & its gonna kill you

It's been three days since you've last seen Quinn. 72 hours since the two of you shared a kiss. 259,200 seconds of you replaying that moment in your head, over and over again.

Quinn had already left for his away game, and not seeing him in person again after he single handedly took your breath away was driving you crazy.

You sit on your couch, having yet another lazy day after opting out of going into your office today. Your mind is too much in a daze to deal with annoying coworkers who are a little too interested in your friendship with the famous hockey player. With your computer in your lap, you try and focus on an email from your boss that has gone unread for the last four days, and as soon as you start reading the first line, your phone starts to ring.

Quinns name flashes on the screen and you don't hesitate to toss your computer to the side and answer your FaceTime call. He flashes a smile as soon as the call connects. It's dim where he is, and you soon realize that he's on the bus. His under eyes are dark, and his beard is a little more scruffy than usual, but that doesn't stop you from thinking he's still the most handsome man you've ever laid eyes on .

"Shouldn’t you be getting some sleep?" You ask Quinn, raising your eyebrow at him. It's a mom kind of question, one that you know Ellen would ask if she had seen him awake this late at night after he had played, and won a game.

"Couldn’t sleep," He tells you, and you know it's a lie. His poker face never worked on you. You roll your eyes at him letting him continue. "I actually wanted to ask you something."

Your heart does a backflip, which seems like the only thing it's been doing lately.

"Go for it." You tell him.

Before Quinn responds, you watch as he pulls his headphones off and look off in the distance. He's talking to someone on the other side of the phone, so you take another moment to admire him. The way he listens intently to whoever it is he's talking to you, how his eyes don't look away until he's finished talking.

He makes it easy for you to remember all the reasons you fell in love with him.

"What are you doing right now?" He asks once his attention is back on you. You let out a laugh, pulling your phone closer to your face. "I'm waiting for that question you wanted to ask me." You say in a 'duh' tone.

Quinn laughs, following your own actions and pulling his phone closer to his face. You can't help but stare at his lips, reminiscing how they felt against your own.

"Oh yeah, I'm flying you out to Jersey. To watch me and my brothers play. Well," He pauses, "Just Luke actually, Jack's out with an injury, but mom and Luke would love for you to be there."

"That wasn't a question, Quinn. And what about Jim?" You tease, and Quinn smiles again. "Jim is Jim. So, you'll be there?"

You shrug your shoulders, looking over at your computer that still has the email from your boss on the screen.

"I already bought the flight and the hotel, and it's" Another pause, "10:45 right now. Your flight is tomorrow at 9 in the morning, and you'll get to Jersey some time in the evening. I have a driver picking you up." A final pause, Quinn catches his breath. "It's all taken care of." He says softly.

It's times like this, where you remember Quinn has money. Where he's willing to spend a lot of money for you to be anywhere with him, but with the sweet gesture comes curiosity and you can't help but wonder if he's done things like this for her.

A part of you wants to tell him no. You have your own life in Vancouver. Your job, half-assed plans that you'd already made with your friends, you can't always drop everything for Quinn. But he knows you better than he knows hockey. He knows you'll be there.

"I guess I should start packing then, yeah?" His smile grows wider, "Will you text me when you're boarding?" He asks, and you nod your head 'yes'

The both of you stare at each other through your screens. Silently admiring each other. Secretly acknowledging how easy it is for you two to be together.

Once you hang up, you immediately run to your closet. Most of the items hanging up are Quinns. Hoodies, t-shirts, old jersey and even a couple of suits that he's left after late nights and early mornings. "What's mine is his" You think to yourself. You start throwing in a mix of yours and his clothes.

New Jersey is a cold state, something you'd learned the hard way after a failed trip a few years ago. You'd insisted that you didn't need to bring a winter coat on your trip because you already live in a cold climate, you were used to the cold. Quinn reminded you how you were always cold, and that you'd definitely needed to bring your coat, but like a stubborn child, you'd ignored him. "I'll be fine," You had told him, and instead of arguing, he let you figure it out on your own.

You stare at the winter coat hanging up. The winter coat Quinn had ended up buying you because he had gotten tired of you stealing his.

And it's almost like he's listening to your thoughts, sharing your memory even though he's thousands of miles away, because once your phone dings and you look down at your home screen, you see Quinn has reminded you to make sure to bring your winter coat.

#hockey boys #quinn hughes #hughes brothers #hockey blurb #nhl fic #quinn hughes blurb #quinn hughes imagine #luke hughes #jack hughes #nhl

[ploodoe]

I am having a BAD DAY™

#got yelled at by the boss lady for not doing grant money right when no one showed me how to do grant money #was supposed to fly to my grandparents this afternoon but my car died right after i left work and i couldnt get out of an intersection #everyone wS out of town or couldnt leave work so i had to call a tow truck to drive me to the mechanics where i was stranded for an hour. #i have to reschedule my flight and figure out if i can take a bus to Phoenix #and then when i was walking somny two dogs ran up to us and i was yelling that hes not friendly and the lady was just walking slowly #and sonnys harness snapped while i wat holding him up anf i thought he was going to straightup murder one of these dogs #because i dropped him on one of these dogs that would not leave us alone #and i realized all i ate today was cheeseits and ao then i called clare crying and shes bringing me food and gonna help me rebook everythin #and i just wanted to read about someone having a worse day than me ao i opened dracula daily and its one goddamn paragraph about a door #im just very stressed and overwhelmed #my car is in the shop and i think her transmission died which will not be cheap #me

[penny-anna]

trying to leave my aunt & uncle's house this morning

wake up & realise that i forgot to tell anyone that i'm technically booked onto the 11am train. it is already almost 10. this isn't a huge problem as i have an open return so can get any train w/e

'i forgot to tell you i booked the 11am' 'oh that's not happening' 'yeah ik'

go to check on the app when the next train is. see that the 11am is cancelled due to weather conditions

oh no.jpg

tell my aunt

'oh no' yeah.

sit on her sofa for the next half an hour or so and watch the 11:30, 12 and 12:30 trains all get cancelled

my cousin (11): you could just stay 2 more hours

yeah the trains. probably aren't gonna be running in 2 hours sorry.

maybe they will drive me home?? (it's like 1 hour)

'are the buses running' *checks* yeah :(

go to bus stop. it's raining.

see a bus go by in the other direction. 'are you sure you checked the right bus timetable' *double checks* yeah we're good

stand around for 5-6 minutes anxiously trying to figure out if the buses are actually running or have been cancelled

the bus website is saying the next bus isn't coming through till 2pm but is saying that there will be a bus at the other stop in the village in 5 minutes so mixed signals!!

bus arrives

realise i'm so used to edinburgh buses (flat fare) that i forget i have to like talk to the bus driver and tell him where i'm going

take ages to figure out how to pay

bus driver waits for me to sit down before driving off. this makes sense given that i have bags and am the only person boarding but im used to the city so im just screaming internally at holding everyone up

bus is so so busy

windows are very foggy so hard to tell what's going on but fortunately i'm going all the way

at one point we start reversing and i'm like ???? before remembering ohh lol yeah this is the part of the Edinburgh-Galashiels bus route where the bus goes backwards for a bit i remember now

anyway i got home eventually

[pastadoughie]

Hey creature I’m going into 10th grade any advice?

im gonna be real, ive been dropped out for a while, so i cant give much school specific advice but ill try to give some

khan academy is free and it is your friend, use it if youre having any trouble, witch i did when i was struggling alot with math, i still ended up failing but the tutorials were genuinely really helpful, and having a video, that i can pause and rewind and replay helped me alot

if you have any kind of neurodivergence, like adhd or autism you should get a 504, (you should ask your parents) this makes the school have to give you certain accomadations, like test and assignment extentions, lecture reccordings (sometimes) and tutoring (sometimes)

thats all i can give advice for highschool, but as for more general things

GET A DRIVERS LISCENSE GETONE GET ONE GET ONE

if you live in america (witch im gonna be real im just gonna assume you are, because thats where i am and im not super knowlageable on other countries) YOU NEEEEEED ONE LIKE REAL BAD. at 15 and 6 months you can start getting a learners permit, this is your first step

now, theres gonna be a state website with a manual on how to drive, i live in arizona, so for me the site is adot, but if you google your state and "driving manual" im sure itll come up theres gonna be a big manual, and youre gonna wanna read all of it, this will tell you all the basic stuff, you need to study this because youre gonna take a written test, you need to pass this in order to get a learners permit

a learners permit basically lets you drive, as long as theres some other person with a drivers lisence in the passengers seat to make sure you dont fuck up anything, after you complete this test, you need to complete a certain ammount of hours of driving (with someone else present) before youre able to apply for a full drivers liscense

at 16 you can start getting jobs witch you will like pretty much need a car to get, because public transport in america is so shitty its pretty much required unless you wanna wake up at like 4 am so you can get ready and take your bus route that takes 2 hours (when with a car it would be like, less then half the time)

i cant give advice on jobs yet, because ive been postponed a bit in getting my drivers liscense and to start applying for jobs because im waiting for my name change to process. but, i do have experience in doing commisions, (commision me btw) witch i could do a seperate post on giving advice because i feel alot more knowlageable on that topic, and i have a good way of getting commisions and i was getting a bunch even before i had any sort of following

my general advice is that being an adult is scary and alot to keep track of, and your life will be alot better if you start working on things now. instead of waiting untill youre already an adult. especially if your family sucks (like mine) and you wanna move out at 18

if i got anything wrong or you have any advice for anon (i tried my best but yaknow, only 16) please comment !!

#the beast speaks #ask #asks #anon #anonymous

[glitchdollmemoria]

that last post mentioning masks got me thinking about how like... i quite literally cannot wear a mask at all times due to one of my disabilities. i TRY to wear one when i can but it isnt always an option for me, which fucking sucks because im terrified of getting sick and potentially worsening the very disability that prevents me from consistently masking. and hardly anyone masks anymore so its not like theyre helping to keep me or anyone else safe lmfao. to spell it out very plainly i am PRO-MASK so dont put words in my mouth here please.

i experience heat intolerance, as a symptom of some kind of muscle weakness fatigue issue that still hasnt been properly diagnosed. my body temperature runs warm, im overly sensitive to my environment, and physical activity makes it worse. if i overheat, my muscle weakness (and nausea, and brain fog, and-) will flare up and ill be forced to rest for what could range from minutes to hours to days to weeks to months depending on how bad it is. i have to take IMMEDIATE action when i notice myself getting too warm because i cant risk that, and taking immediate action includes removing anything i can thats keeping me warm, including masks.

so when i walk to work in the summer bc i have exactly zero alternate options? most likely cant mask right away when i come in unless the weather is cooler than usual, because i need to take like half an hour for my body temperature to go back to normal.

moving around more than usual during my shift? the physical activity is gonna increase my temperature and ill have to take my mask off.

going somewhere other than work, having to either walk or take the bus? either way i have to spend time in the sun and so again i will probably need a cool down period once i get inside / on the bus, depending on how hot the weather is.

and theres an intersection here of my multiple disabilities and my poverty. i cant drive due to another illness, and i cant afford to use a rideshare service or even regularly take the bus, so walking in the heat is my only option to get to work. my work options are limited because i couldnt complete college and cant perform heavy physical labor, so i have to stick with a retail job that requires a lot of moving throughout the store, which itself is physical labor that can potentially make me sick if i go overboard.

mostly i just wanted to put this out there because i never really see people talk about actual reasons they cant wear masks, its almost always antimaskers who dont give a damn about people like me. but if you take anything from my ranting, let it be these two points:

while most people who dont wear masks are just making that choice because they dont like doing so or dont think its important anymore, a few of us out here literally cannot always mask despite knowing its a risk to ourselves and others; and

IF YOU CAN MASK PLEASE KEEP FUCKING MASKING. covid still exists! disabled people still exist! many of us are extra susceptible to the long term effects of covid! please fucking help to protect us! please give a shit about us! i feel like im shouting into the void here because i hardly see anyone mask anymore but please.

#ok to rb #just a couple weeks ago my roommate got sick with a covid scare and it was fucking terrifying to think i might catch it again #i know most people see covid as something mostly or entirely in the past but it isnt #and some of us are still scared and trying to survive #spoonie #covid #covid cw

[stupidlyobbsessed]

Sleeping with a stranger

@autobahnzurholle

Sorry the pov is fucked up and also this isn't good in general

Pairing: kurt cobain and male reader

Summary: reader goes on tour with nirvana but they only booked 3 rooms so kurt and reader have to share

Warnings: none

Kurt was sitting in the tour bus talking with krist and dave or more so listening to their conversation, they were waiting for one of their friends who for some reason Kurt had never met, he was nervous if he was being honest. Kurt didn't really like meeting new people but from what krist and dave were saying he seemed like a nice guy.

"Hes really cool your gonna love him Kurt" krist said happily "yeah man y/n is awesome" dave adds, speak of the devil and he shall appear y/n walked onto the tour bus, Kurt's eyes widened when he saw him.

"That's him?" Kurt said trying not to blush, the other guys nodded and told their friend to sit down with them.

"Kurt this is y/n, y/n this is kurt" said krist introducing them, Kurt puts his hand out and smiles, y/n happily shakes Kurt's hand. The four boys sit on the tour bus waiting to get to their destination, in the mean time Kurt and y/n get to know eachother.

When they get to the hotel it's already about 10:00pm, the men go to their rooms to unpack but then they realize something. They only booked three rooms and there's four of them, y/n was a last minute person that they decided to bring so they didn't have time to get a separate room for him aswell. Two of the guys were going to have to share.

"I'm not sharing my bed I'm to tall to sleep with anyone else" krist argues, dave speaks up "that's a fair point, krist is a giant there's no room with him, but I'm not sleeping in the same bed as another guy" Kurt looks at his band mates "oh come on why me? I don't even know the guy, im not sleeping with a stranger" he complains "well to be fair you are the smallest of all of us and it would give you guys an opportunity to get to know eachother" krist explains, Kurt looks at y/n to see if he's ok with it "I don't mind, I promise I don't take up much room" y/n says, Kurt nods "ok, ok fine, deal you can sleep with me" Kurt agrees.

"Were gonna head out to a club, maybe get laid, do you guys wanna come?" Dave asks. Everyone just finished unpacking so dave and krist are planning to unwind and party, which isn't really Kurt's thing "I'm good, I'm kinda tired from the drive" Kurt says as he plops down onto his bed. "Yeah me to guys and I don't feel like picking up chick's right now" y/n replies laughing a little, "you guys are no fun suit yourselves" dave says and with that y/n and Kurt are alone.

"So...what do you wanna do?" Y/n asks Kurt who is smoking a cigarette while laying down, Kurt props his head up "I don't know man we could just talk?" Kurt says unsure, y/n nods.

"So do you have a girlfriend?" Y/n asks Kurt, "oh uh no I don't, not anymore atleast, she broke up with me a couple weeks ago" Kurt says taking a drag from his cigarette, "oh I'm sorry" y/n says feeling a little bad, "no, no its ok, she never loved me" kurt reassures him, "do you have a girlfriend?" Kurt asks changing the subject "no, I don't exactly like girls" y/n says to kurt, Kurt blushes slightly "oh" he says quietly "what?" Y/n asks "oh nothing it's just...I think I might like guys too..." kurt admits, y/n smiles "well if you do then I think your pretty cute...not in a weird way" y/n reassures him, Kurt blushes and smiles.

Kurt and y/n talk for a few more hours before finally laying down to go to sleep, they start out laying back to back but neither of them can sleep so they turn face to face, "do you mind if I call you beautiful?" Y/n asks kurt as he sees his bright blue eyes staring up at him, Kurt blushes "I don't mind" kurt says quietly "well your beautiful" y/n cups Kurt's face and moves closer, Kurt can feel his heart beating out of his chest, he's never been in a situation like this with a man. "You're beautiful too" kurt whispers, y/n moves closer and whispers in Kurt's ear "can I kiss you?" Kurt feels like he died and went to heaven, this gorgeous man just asked if he could kiss him, he's never kissed a man before but of course he says "yes..." and with that their lips meet, it's a soft and sweet kiss, their lips move against one another, they fit together like a puzzle, kurt can't help but smile against the other man's lips, they hold eachother close, Arms wrapped around eachother, kurt melts into the others touch and moans soflty into the kiss, he's never been kissed like this, so gentle, yet so powerful, the two may have just met but the kiss was filled with love. They make out until they can't breathe anymore.

Kurt lays his head on y/n's chest and he plays with Kurt's hair "Kurt?" He asks, kurt looks up at him "I really like you, how do you feel about going somewhere tomorrow?, I don't care where as long as we can spend time with eachother"y/n suggests, Kurt's eyes light up "I'd like that" he says smiling, y/n smiles aswell "it's a date then" he gives kurt one last peck on his forehead before they fall asleep in eachothers arms. I guess sharing a bed isn't so bad after all...

#nirvana #give me kurt cobain #kurt cobain #dave grohl #krist novoselic #kurt cobain fans #fanfic #fluff

[fleshdyke]

in honour of april fool’s day (even though its over in my timezone) and also the amount of insane shit that goes on in my life im gonna list a bunch of things that have happened to me and i want you to guess which one is a lie. i would make this a poll but i dont have those yet

when i was like 7-ish i went to the zoo with my neighbor and went to this bird show they put on and i got to race with like 20 other kids against 15 i think turkey vultures. in a footrace. the vultures outran every single one of us. also the zookeeper lady said “don’t trip and fall or they’ll start eating you!” and it scared the shit out of me

when i was in grade 3 i went on a field trip for school and on the bus home my bus driver literally got arrested for drunk driving. with like 30 8 year olds on the bus. it was like 2:45 and we (all age 8) had to stand outside for almost an hour in november. also it was like three blocks away from the school and my house was literally across the street. the distance back to school was very walkable but for some reason they made us wait for another bus to come pick us up and take us back. but the bus was one of those ones that went to each house individually and the neighborhood it operated in was literally across the main street from my school and for some reason instead of taking 5 minutes to drop us off first they made us wait an additional half hour dropping all the other kids off at home before taking us home. then i had to walk almost a km home anyways

also when i was in grade 3 we all had to take a diagnostic test to see if we could get into the gifted program. i got one (1) below the threshold for getting into it and i was so pissed. like two weeks later they changed the score you had to get to get in so they invited everyone who got close to do it again and i got a higher score than i did before but then i STILL got one below because they raised it. in hindsight i’m glad i didn’t get in because i know it would have been bad for me but i’m still so pissed about it bc of the principle of it

literally my first day working at the aviary there was a snake in one of the birds’ feeders just chilling there. we spent like half an hour trying to catch it and it scared the absolute shit out of like 7 birds

i was a niche internet microcelebrity on reddit when i was literally 12

when i was in grade 8 we had a water hydraulics project and my class was a split class with mostly 7th graders so my teacher just sort of left us alone with a bucket of little tube syringes while she did something else with the grade 7s. then i found 3 actual needles in the bucket for some reason. one of them was in that little wrapper but the other two were just loose in the bucket that we were rummaging around in. i went out to tell my teacher bc she was in a different room and she literally told me she didn’t care and to leave her alone bc she was working with the 7s (they were reading a textbook). i was like ??? but i didnt know what else to do so i just went back into the room to keep working. then this one guy grabbed one of the open needles and stabbed two different girls with the same one like uhhh what the fuck. i went out to go tell my teacher that two people had been stabbed by the same needle and she told me she didn’t care AGAIN like GIRL. honestly i wasn’t too worried about the girls because they both bullied me honestly but yk. then later the teacher came in and berated us for not telling her like I LITERALLY DID TWICE im still so mad about that honestly

when my mom and i were watching the last two episodes of ofmd together (this was before i came out) when ed and stede kissed she turned around and looked directly at me

i was in scouts when i was younger and there was exactly 5 people in my troop and it was me, 2 of my friends (one of them ended up being one of the girls that bullied me and got stabbed with a needle in grade 8), and two boys that i absolutely fucking hated. one time one of the boys said i was dumb and i threw a rock at him

when i was in kindergarten during recess i had to shit really bad and i asked the teacher on duty to let me go inside and she refused so i asked the other teacher to let me in and she didnt have keys. i tried to hold it but i could not go inside and i was 4 so i shit my pants and i was absolutely never a kid who had accidents so i didn’t know what to do and i was so embarrassed i just tried to ignore it. i just walked around for the rest of recess with a massive shit in my pants. when recess ended the teacher told us to come sit down on the carpet in a circle. you can guess what happened next

last year i had a substitute teacher for math and i ticced fuck while she was handing something out and for some reason she refused to believe me when i said i had tics. she sent me to the vice principal’s office and he didn’t believe me at first that i didn’t know what i was there for because she had sent me down for lying to him. when he did realize that i actually didn’t know what was going on he told me that she sent me down for disciplinary action so yk. he walked me back up to my class and took the teacher out in the hall to talk to her and i was losing my fucking mind with my friends for like 15 minutes while she was getting an absolute dressing down for not believing me. then when she came back in i was expecting an apology at the very least and she literally didnt. we waited for like 10 minutes and she said nothing. then my friend actually raised her hand and said she owed me an apology and this old lady started fighting for her LIFE. also she was only a little bit polite to my white friend who was standing up for me but didnt have an OUNCE of respect for either of my other friends who were standing up for me who were black and mohawk. like literally what the hell. my friend did record it though and i have that video now so

when i finally came out to my mom i was literally in a costco parking lot. my brother was in the car and he already knew bc he just guessed it ages ago and i said “did you know one in three people are gay” and my mom said “yeah i know”. also i made a cake for my dad bc he wasn’t there and he said “when do we make the ‘we know’ muffins”

i made my 13th birthday cake and right after i finished frosting it i dropped the entire thing on the ground

when i was like 4 i made a mess of paper in the kitchen and my mom told me to clean it up so i went in there and ate all of the paper

in grade 5 my teacher found out i was self harming and for some reason she decided to talk to me about it while we were doing kindergarten buddies. my kindergartener was literally just left alone in the room. i dont know why she decided to use that time

when we were selling my old house it was during covid so we had to leave during all the open houses and one time we came back from driving around the city during one and i went to the bathroom and there was a puddle of piss on the floor. some lady brought her toddler in and she pissed on the floor and she tried to clean it up with toilet paper but for some reason put it in the garbage instead of the toilet so the whole room smelled like piss

in grade 7 i was walking home from school with my partner and i guess i ate something bad and i ended up shitting my pants halfway home

someone here called me a terrorist for lying about gay sex in bathrooms

#some of you already know these for sure #theres more i just cant think of any right now #rambles #long post #best

[radio-to-trenchcoat-demons]

yeah im gonna finally elaborate

its a vent of some sort....and i never really told anyone but now that this song exists i feel like i can explain it so much better

I keep saying that this song hits close to home and it truly does. vent below ->

When i was in fifth grade all the way up to the end of middle school, i developed a really bad sleeping schedule. not because "oh im a teen and i stay up all night playing fornite with others" it was because i physically had sleeping issues. it was even when i was younger, id fall asleep through my whole class and missed the work i was supposed to be doing.

And it was unbelivable how long i stayed up, id be in bed but never truly sleep till 5 in the morning, well knowing i had to be up in an hour at 6 to get ready to get to my bus for school. and everybody could think, "its because theyre staying up, theyre online and thats keeping them up"

the truth is, i listened to music. just music. no screen in my face, no game or chat room loaded, just music. I thought it would help me sleep, like when people play cafe music or white noise. But it wasnt working.

So what i began doing was taking melatonin. i didnt know how bad it could be, i only knew it would help me sleep, or so I thought. I would take it every night with a tylenol, because i had began to have muscle pains everyday and i was hoping the meds would kick in by the time i woke up.

But everynight i remained up, i couldnt sleep, and the melatonin wasn't working. i was tempted to raise the dosage, tempted to do anything to keep me asleep and it was getting to me. i didn't know that i was starting to develop a very bad case of insomnia, and i didnt know many mental health terms or even political or social events of that time so i wouldn't have known what it was.

the worst of it was one night, i was struck between sleep and being awake. My paranoia had sky rocketed a lot more, and i was afraid to be awake, alone in my room. it felt like someone was watching me, looking at me. But then when i closed my eyes and tried to sleep, i had the worst, most horid dreams ever. I still felt the eyes, the danger and it was driving me crazy, and i was scared.

I eventually stopped.. with all the melatonin. it wasnt working and there was nothing i could do. i realised it was a horid and abusive thing to do to myself. I still have issues going to bed, but ive gotten better. i dont stay up as much as i do anymore. but the cues still remain, the bags will forever be under my eyes, ill always be a little more tired inside, but still keeping up my energetic composure up.

This song aired last night, and i was only up for the release, and i remembered everything again. But the song somehow made it more positive. It eased my pain. and i feel better now.

#tw!vent #tw!drug abuse #(i hope i tagged that right) #insomnia #spotify #wilbur #mammalian sighing reflex #al was here! #hector estaba aqui! #proceed with caution at my blog

[mugenloopdalove]

it really just seems like tumblr is not an affirming place for you and only makes your mood tank.

I think you would really benefit from a hobby you can do in a physical space with other people. It will do a lot of good for you to get out of the house and be around others rather than stay in a self perpetuating spiral of loneliness at the house. See what sort of events your library hosts etc.

Look into your local community to find others and keep an open mind. Yes its going to be hard and anxiety inducing at first but it gets easier each time you push yourself out of the comfort zone of your home/internet space. Its really hard work but you can do it!

Theres a very limited amount of help complete strangers online can offer, you need to start helping yourself.

Also please don't dismiss this as not offering a solution, because I am an internet stranger taking time out of my day to type this and try to help you. An F/O ask/comment isnt a healthy longterm solution to depression, its a momentary boost in serotonin that is gone almost immediately and only serves to fuel your depression. You have to at a certain point realize that some things you seek only make your issues worse and you need to try other things to help yourself.

I'd love to truly, but the hard part with that is. I don't drive. Like I've wanted to get involved with community stuff, especially theatre, for awhile, but I'm still working on getting my permit and overcoming the STRESS I have around driving. (I can control a car very well, I was almost a natural, but seeing other cards gives me panic attacks that cause me to disassociate).

The bus system here ain't great, shit schedule and buses constantly cancel randomly. Uber is way to expensive for me to regularly take for say. Rehearsals which will probably be almost daily. There isn't even a library on the only accessible bus route (which I have to trek up a hill for and even when I have my cane is difficult) and can I just say that's uh. Infuriating I feel like that should be a thing that is just. Default.

I'm rlly in the situation of suburban life being SO FUCKING UNFRIENDLY if you don't/can't drive. Bc I'd love to get out and do stuff. There's so much stuff I wanna do but I literally can't bc Im at the shitty mercy of so many shitty variables.

And like... Yeah the f/o asks won't cure my depression that's why I'm getting back into therapy. But it would be nice to like. Not have to deal with the 50 hours a week of being home alone + not even having someone to send me just a message online, even a simple one

I'm hoping that now that I have a job again and the hours are pretty good (tho. Opposite of hubby's which is gonna SUCK but not a lot of overnight stuff is hiring rn) I'll be. Better. Its really been the five straight months of being locked in my room that caused. This mess I'm in. I tend to make friends pretty easily at work and from what I've seen of kitchen staff in general working multiple restaurant jobs it's always a fun time w them shskdhd

I do appreciate it I just. God. Trying to find local community when you can't drive and have a shit bus line sucks lol.

[yn18]

pairs: Robin Buckley x fem!reader, Steve Harrington x Nancy wheeler

warnings: none that i can think of.

Hi im Y/n harrington . I'm Steve Harringtons sister and this is how i met my girlfriend Robin.

lovebirds💘

" remind me again why you're here?" Our mom sent me to hawkins with him since she said we needed more time together "i hate it too trust me there are many ways i would rather spend my summer but i can't go against mom or she will send me to camp hawks and although your bad, bugs and creepy woods are NOT my thing" camp hawks is hawkins town camp they have it every year and it sucks there are creepy boys, creepy woods, and so many bugs. "you couldn't have went with dad?" "No! he is worse i would have to fly with him to Arizona and god knows i hate heights." i fell off a swing while i was swinging really high when i was 12 and broke my arm and i have been terrified ever since of heights. he hits the radio and plays his music as i'm writing to my friends back in my hometown "are we close to a store yet i have to use the bathroom" we have been on the road for hours and i'm impatient "Gosh! yes get out all ready" he says pulling into a gas station "Finally!" i get out and use the bathroom. on the way back i see some snacks and buy a few. I got to the car and he questions why i got so many snacks "well we have been driving for 3 hours and it's still 4 hours away, i'm hungry man!"

Time skip

once we got to the hotel we went to our different rooms and got ready for bed. i went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and low and behold Steve made his way in there for his 12 hour hair routine. "Steve! let me brush my teeth first i have to go to bed so i can wake up early and get the hotel breakfast!" "to bad my hair is tired from the drive and needs some alone time in the shower, you should have thought about the breakfast before you sat on the phone for 20 minutes with Olivia" he always hogs the bathroom for his hair and i'm so close to shaving it off in his sleep. "come on Steve ill save you some pancakes and muffins! and maybe even get you some new hair gel from the store across the street?" i hear the door unlock and he loudly asks before opening the door fully "And a hair mask?" "yes and a hair mask." i smile and push him out of the way with my toothbrush in hand. he is so easy to bribe with hair products when we were seven i got him to swear at our mom in return for hair gel lets say he got the hair gel and a little something else. i got in bed and put on a slow Christmas song even though it's August It doesn't mean I can't listen to classics. I woke up and of course Steve was still knocked out i went out and got all the stuff i promised and then went to the bus stop, i was going to visit our grandpa in the next town over and since Steve is asleep and i don't have a drivers license or a car although i wouldn't mind using Steve's i didn't even know where he put his keys. once i was back i heard the shower running and assumed Steve was using his new products on his close to perfect hair that i sadly didn't shave off, yet. i walked over to the phone and pulled up a chair and called my BFF aka Olivia and we talked for like 40 minutes and when we got done Steve was out of the shower so i walked into the bathroom and got ready myself i put on some jeans a black long sleeve shirt with a short sleeve white button down shirt over top i put on a black bucket hat and went out after curling my hair.

breaking the 4th wall real quick to tell you this is my first story! i will be posting / updated every weekend and maybe if i have time during the week. i hope you enjoyed and sorry for the random cut off ill be taking requests so feel free to ask for anything and i will be working on this for a while since its gonna be pretty long but i hope you enjoy it!

isn't dustybun so cute❤‍🩹

see you soon!

#robin buckley #robin buckley x y/n #dustin henderson #stranger things #steve harrington #fem!reader

[myownprivatcidaho]

oKAYYYYYYY ok. ok .

so that guy in my class this semester id been talking to. basically it was like a month ago we got carried away in his car after 8 days of talking and hanging out and basically after an hour of being in his car with the windows all fogged up he said he thinks i deserve honesty and doesnt want me to get hurt so he told me last semester there was a girl he liked who led him on and flirted and ended up having a boyfriend and he was still hung up on her and said he really just wanted to keep it casual and wasnt open to commitment and im REALLY really glad he was just honest with me. and we talked it out and he was really respectful and understanding when i (pretty adamantly at the time) said i just wanted to be friends and needed some space (like. JESUS he handled it so well im still kind of taken aback and honestly embarrased for ever having liked that ginger who led me on for a semester before going “oh yeah i hope i didnt like totally crush you with that or something” when i found out the ginger was seeing someone else lol, lmao). 

so the last month ive just been friends with this guy from my class and our friendship is really really good and we get along and hes super duper funny and i really appreciate and respect him and he respects me yk. 

but RECENTLY. so ive been giving him rides back to his place in my car bc  weve spent a few evenings studying in the library, and it kind of got to the point we’d study just long enough that his last bus would just ~happen~ to leave and i, being a helpful friend, would just ~happen~ to offer to drive him back to his place

and thats been all fine and good but last wednesday he told me he really appreciated the rides and about an octave higher than i thought i would i replied “yeahhhhh ofc :’3” and he said “you know thats the only reason i stayed at the library, to” then he sorta backed off and said “to. to take advantage of the free rides” and i was like “omg youre exploiting the free labor of women” but after he got out of my car i giggled on and off like a schoolgirl possessed the entire drive back to my place. i kinda feel like hes testing the waters to see if im open to this conversation coming back up. which i AM ftr. a month ago we both didnt have those sort of feelings for each other but atp i thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiink im rlly starting to fall for him and hes really looking at me with this Glow in his eyes and its driving me nuts.not to mention the good morning texts every morning jesus CHRIST

ANYWAYS so here we are again at the library this evening and jesus CHRIST hes wearing this funky patterned button up and when he walked into class today my first thought was jesus christ i WANT him. and within the next hour we’re gonna go back to my car so i can give him a ride back and ive just perchance parked a couple blocks further down so that i get to spend more time walking and talking with him because its honestly my favorite part of the day. anyways. hes sitting across from me and i feel like the ice is really melted between us again and im ovulating and shoot me i WANT him and i think we’re on the same page.

#he looks good. he looks REALLLLLLLY realllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly good. #hungry eyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees #crushposting