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lenalec · 9 months

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Well, I guess it’s not Alex, Henry and us anymore. Go stream Red, White & Royal Blue on prime!

#top ten in 108 countries and the first place in 88 of them?#rotten tomatoes best 100 romcoms of all time?#IM SO PROUD ILL CRY #THEY DESERVED IT #rwrb #firstprince #taylor zakhar perez #nicholas galitzine #alexander claremont diaz #rwrb bts #red white and royal blue #henry fox mountchristen windsor

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eeveekitti · 1 month

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day 23: pearls

all is to wash away within the grand cycle

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bugflies00 · 2 years

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mending what’s broken

#tommyinnit #wilbur soot #dream smp #mcyt #crimeboys #tommyinnit fanart #wilbur soot fanart #dream smp fanart #mcyt fanart #crimeboys fanart #c!tommy #c!wilbur #c!crimeboys #alex.arts.jpg #okay im like actually proud of this one #started out as a simple comfort ccrime hug doodle then i thought Hmm what if i gavetommy wings then i blacked out and this was here #clementine by pink martini held me up this entire time and i think its why i added so much orange.#if this flops ill cry x

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librideluna · 13 days

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Only showing up here to inform you all that this gay ass shot her gay ass shot and is waiting patiently (not so patiently) for answer.

#either way is fine #im already proud of the fact that I asked her at all #and if she doesn’t want to that’s fine #completely fine #ill just cry #so fine #wish me luck guys #need all the manifesting I can get #life is a highway

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oh-gh0st · 7 months

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comfort

#ghost's doodles #oso san posting #youkai au #ghostoro #GOOODDD IM GENUINELY CRYING IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF FOR THIS. ILL BE BACK IN LIEK HALKF AN HOUR....

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wildmelon · 2 months

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survived the weekend from hell and after a packed, sad, heartwarming, healing, and stressful couple travel days i'm home again... exhausted and drained, but home and feeling so much better after mourning and saying goodbye as a family ❤️ and we also got good news from the vet 🥹 thank you once again to anyone who left a kind comment last week, it meant the world to me 🫶🏼

#im so happy with how the service went bc i put so much effort into making it nice and was so anxious about things going smoothly #i was crying every day about my cat as well while trying to work on everything and be there for my parents who were both falling apart #but now i can say im so proud i was able to be there for them and help make the service beautiful #good example of a time when without my medications i wouldve been toast #instead i was able to process the grief and overwhelm and take care of myself and others #still lots of feelings and grief going on but im glad i can acknowledge ive come a long way in the middle of it ❤️#lush.talk #personal #death cw #funeral cw #grief cw #animal illness cw #pet illness cw

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qualityrain · 6 days

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in shambles thinking abt hny 36 because yk. the mirror. yk how in 8 satoko has this flashback of how when she was a kid she would look at her scar in the mirror and know that it makes her undesirable but she shows it to shinpei and is proud of it even calling it her badge of honour and then in 36 she once again sees her scar in the mirror and realises that shes getting so thin her ribs are showing and she knows shes looking more and more undesirable and ugly and shes so ashamed she tries to hide and pass it off as a lol i havent been eating thing instead of it being yk. her chronic illness thats supposed to kill her. and she literally expects shinpei to think shes disgusting or something like tachibana. tachibana. i am on my knees take all of satokos pain and suffering and give it to literally anybody else

#claude txt #shaking crying and throwing up because literally everybody in her life is like #always saying her illness is bad and undesirable and nobody will want her #and like. URGHHHHHH ASAGIRI.#shes like ohh u dont have sex appeal nobody will want u dont u want to have sex w shinpei when ur still beautiful #LIKEFUCCKKKKK OFFFFD FUCK OFFF FUCK OFF #and the way its so understandable. that her family always sees her ws a burden because of her illness #and so shes like very very particular abt not beinfba burden to others.#so shes terrified of being in a relationship w shinpei because she’ll just become more of a burden #she cannot change it shes only going to become a heavier burden and its FUCCKKKK FUCKFUCKJFUFKFKCUFCKKK #FUCKKK #aOk! OK! OK! I NEED TO LIE DOWN FOR AN HOUR #URGHHHHH THE WAY ITS LIKE HER PRIDE TOO THAT SHES PROUD THAT SHES MADE HERSELF #LIKE YEAH SHES INSANEKY BEAUTIFUL BUT ALSO SHE MAINTAINED IT RIGHT #AND ALL THE OTHER THINGS TOBBE as desirable #and and. losing that.#she doesnt want to be seen as. lesser i guess?#from her loved ones and i THEOW UP SO HARD PLEASE #IM ON MY KNEES TAKE ALL HER PAIN AND AUDFERING AND GUVE IT TO SOKEVODY ELSE #JUST MAKE SATOKO HAPPY ONCE W/O STRINGS ATTACHED PLEASEPLEASPLEASEP

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upsidedowngrass · 1 year

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i LOOOVE like. the whole “designing object characters to be more biologically probable” and i mentioned in a previous post that i put way too much research into actually making liams limbs have the capability of working. but also now every time i try to draw him walking at all in this style i cannot remember how to pose him correctly bc he has fucked up kangaroo-esque legs that use an ostrich walk cycle. so i did a very rough animation for reference so now i can have a general idea of how to draw him in this style better :)

#hfjone #liam plecak #hfjone liam #hfjone backpack #my art #i always forget how exhausting animating is #also this was supposed to be a gif but tumblr wasnt letting me post that so. mp4 i guess!#im proud of this but also nervous to post this bc while like... osc tumblr has chilled out in the past few yrs #i still occasionally see like. more animalistic object designs be joked a little and if people are mean to me i cry for 2 thousand years #but!!! that is irrelevant bc i worked hard on this even though its pretty rough!#and i think ill be okay :)#anyway! i hope everyone has a nice day #queuing this for later bc its currently 6am lol

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lightbulb-warning · 9 months

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local audhd having idiot has to do something not related to their hyperfixation and fuCKING EXPLODES!!1!!!!!! /j

#/silly #don't mind me im just trying to brainwash myself into being productive #i am capable of focusing on things. i am capable of focusing on things i am capable of focusing on things.#im using my stupid blog to keep my stupid self accountable #i did a page so now i get to bitch and moan!! as a treat!!#this has zero entertainment value #if this is what my emotional regulation is gonna look like then so be it #*crying and throwing up* i love art its my passion #this might b a sign i OFFICIALLY FR need medication but thats gonna b incredibly hard to achieve. groan. ill figure it out. hopefully soon??#hate my countrys mental health system!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! ill figure it out!!!!!!!#shut up maiora #fandomNOT #is this liveblogging???#maiora shitposts #once i figure out how to hack my own brain chemistry into doing what i want it to its is so over!!!! im gonna kick so much ass!!!#im gonna draw silly comics!! im gonna draw platonic affection in many different ways!! i wanna make shit people find interesting!!#i wanna make shit im gonna be proud of!!! i wanna make my corner of the world a lil less lonely!!!! earnest cringe lessgooooooooooooo!!#maybe ill even learn how to write coherent stories?????? that might be too high to aim at rn but its not impossible!!!#ill figure it out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's gonna be okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ok ok ok what matters right now is i gotta calm down and lower my heart rate lmao #its gonna be okay #thanks for reading have a nice day!!#<3

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deicide-doll · 23 days

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trigger warning. do not read if you dont want to read something triggering.

#my bf is a fucking rapist #i told him i didnt want to have sex again because it was getting late and i have work tomorrow #and he usually takes a long time to finish after round 1 so i didnt want to stay up an extra hour #and he started manipulating me and pleading and saying he loved me and i dont know why i capitulated but #the fact that i said ok after 10 no's?#and i was crying #i was crying while i sucked his dick and while he fucked me #and he told me to struggle more because he found it hot #he thinks rape is hot #and after he joked about being a good manipulator and being able to get me to disregard my boundaries #which is true #but like he knows im an abuse survivor and have trouble with boundaries #the fuckdd up thing is he was the one who taught me to have boundaries #he told me to tell my mom to eat a dick when shes egging on my eating disorder #he told me i didnt have to stick around when my mom was calling me slurs for breaking dishes or failing classes #and here he is being proud that he managed to get through an abuse victims boundaries #he also joked about waking up to the cops at his door #which like shows that deep down inside he knows what he did is wrong #and if i wasnt such a cool girl i could get him into trouble #not like cops here persecute rape anyways but #i pretended to like it after the fact because i still needed him to take me home and i didnt wanna start a fight #but holy shit #idk what to do...#i mean im going to leave him fuck the trip #im shaking i dont even know how ill be able to go to work tomorrow #when this whole thing was over me wanting to get a reasonable amount of sleep on a work night #misiabear rants

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flamboyant-king · 2 years

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I’m going through it right now

#i'm remembering that even in high school i would cry in the shower about how much of a nobody i would become #i wanted to make an animation about an artist who kept throwing away sketches and art pieces because of the unsatisfaction #breaking down and opening drawers of drawings through the years and just throwing them everywhere #and the camera focuses on a very old crayon drawing. two little hands pick it up and bring it up to the artist #'look what i drew.' of course the lil girl is just the younger artist #the artist takes the picture and tells the lil girl 'wow it looks so good. i'm proud of you'#and the lil girl says 'im proud of you too'#and that the point where im crouching int eh shower sobbing #like i was imagining this whole scene during one of my showers #like right now. im not in the shower but im crying #im in the shower telling myself 'im proud of you. im proud of you. im proud of you. look at how far youve come'#'you have stacks of drawings that are taller than that lil girl. look at you'#well taller cumulatively if you like printed my digital stuff onto paper #oh well. im gonna go blow my nose pssh #this was supposed to be a warmup but im just wasting half an hour crying man #one day ill have my lifechanging moment. for now. ill continue to cry in the shower #doodles #egg king

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prettyboykatsuki · 2 years

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UM pleek advice i’m turning twenty soon nd i’m scared 🥹💔 ageism eating me alive i feel like i havent lived my teen years because Brown Parents just idk… IDK!!!! im over reacting i think but im crying everyday like my youth was stolen from me cuz abuse and insecurity and pandemic but idk what to do now i feel so lost and seeing ur posts u just seem so smart and excited about life and exploring urself so i come humbly for advice 😞

i know this feeling bc i have the same parents but like i really mean it when i say life doesn't start for a lot of people until they're 25-30+

i was blessed with older siblings and cousins in my life and pretty much all of them say the same thing. my cousins did all the fun teenager things and even so they're all so much happier now then they ever were before.

you're never gonna be 15 again, that's true. but the life you imagined or dreamed of living at 15 isn't the only life you'll ever live and really isn't even that important. you have a romantic idea of it because you never experienced it.

but you have the rest of your life. do you know how long that is? you're only 20. that's nothing. 25 is nothing. 30, 31, 32. you're just starting in comparison to the rest of your life. the only reason you feel that way is because you're suffocated and the idea that being young is everything but it simply isn't. statistically if you only live to be 60, you have 2 entire thirds left to exist.

don't listen to people on the internet who can't fathom being over 17. adulthood is only a curse if you glorify being young. and you're not even an adult. any real adult thinks you're a kid. the only person who thinks your old is a person who's sitting in calculus one who eats lunch at 10am. why are you listening to them anyway?

i don't especially like being young honestly. there's nothing i look forward to more than getting older every year. i want to be 50 with a garden. i want to spend the rest of my life being a good person. i am so comforted by the fact i still have all this time.

you are so lucky to be alive. you must believe that the time you have left is a gift.

being young is only easy for those who come from privilege. but any person with responsibilities knows how suffocatingly lonely it can be trying to care for yourself and make something of your life.

and it's because of that gradual reality that you have to believe life hasn't reached it's potential. that this isn't your limit. if you're incessantly thinking that you've wasted so much time, than how will you grow? if you're constantly chasing at teenage years that you'll never get again, how will you learn to love the fully realized version of yourself?

if you spend your 20's looking back how can you look forward to the rest of your life? is it fair to yourself to ignore all that's made you who you are, just because you missed out on certain experiences?

look at how far you've come. look at how much it's taken you. look at all this life you have left to keep pushing. i know it feels like you're meandering, but the virtue of living is gaining experience. every minute you engage the world is meaningful to your life and this isn't a hope thing but a universal truth. it is the only facet of existence that has been respected since the beginning of civilization. experience that you can only gain now by opening your eyes to whats around you.

life is hard now. you are going to do your best. and maybe your best is ugly. it never feels good enough. it's not as good as what other people do. but it's yours, so solely. and if all you ever do is worry about the life you haven't lived instead of cherishing the life you have, you're going to feel miserable and you don't have to feel that.

you'll never be 15 again not once. you'll never know what that's like and it sucks. i won't tell you to feel fine about what you might've missed because i know and i get it.

but maybe you only want to be 15 because you think it would've changed who you are now. maybe you think the you now isn't good enough.

but you are. and it is. and there's nothing to be afraid of. every day of living despite it's many solitudes is worth it. even the worst of your tomorrows are to be cherished. you are so young. a drop in the massive of sea.

but that means you can go anywhere and do anything. with time, with patience, with struggle, with tears. you have now and tomorrow. between then nothing will change. you will do it a thousand times, and then you will look back and suddenly be so different. this is your finicky existence.

the only way to not be afraid of getting older is believing with your heart that living is meaningful. count your blessings and celebrate your small joys. you have the rest of your life to do that. i think that alone is something worth celebrating.

#return to sender #i think about my past a lot #i suffered a lot #i will never gain those years back #but it's because of that i can wake up and say #im okay. im alright. there's still time #i struggle because i have to do much on my own #i cry a lot. i get sad. i feel miserable #im a human with ups and downs just like you #ill do it again tommorrow #with time i can say look at all the life ive lived #and i want that #i want to look back at myself when im much older and think #look at the poor girl. she didn't know what was ahead and she suffered so much #she went through so much for me. to be here #sometimes you're your own big sister #make yourself proud and hold your hand #live your life slowly and steadily #there's nothing to be scared of and there's nothing wasted #not a single moment you've lived was a waste. not one #you have all this time to be the version of yourself you look up to #your whole entire life to that #i think that's exciting #and i want that more than anything #so i live everday and do it little by little #and i fuck up and make mistakes but i always know there's tommorow and that makes me so happy #sorry this wasn't advice as much as it was me shaking you by the shoulders #but im really passionate because i hate seeing people my age talk with one foot out the door #it's miserable to think you've wasted your life when you haven't at all #don't be an active particpant in your misery

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ma-douce-souffrance · 1 year

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Happy birthday bbgirl sunshine jaan jaaneman dilruba husnpari thanks for saving my life so many times who would i be without you love you Lou babe you rock