#SCREAMS hesitation

[chirpsythismorning]

They were sick for this.

#byler #stranger things #forced conforming #that's what's killing the kids #the girl in the background with the scarf = el being choked in vecna's mind lair #the boy to the right of mike = will to the right of mike during his monolgoue #also mike starting his I love you speech with #'and...' #AND DOT DOT DOT?? #the most anti-climactic thing I have ever seen #like his body language and the literal words coming out of his mouth up to this point #SCREAMS hesitation #also just this entire scene in hellfire screams mike wheeler is going to be revealed as queer in s5... #also i'm dustin in the 12 picture pointing out this evidence like 'it's right there in front of your face'

[paula-dot-jpg]

Puffries!!!!!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i made this back in january but at first i was kind of hesitant to post object ship art but I LIVE MY TRUTH TODAY! #god they make my brain go so OAUAUAUGUAGOU like in a way that i cant even describe #they make me so happy whenever i am feeling the sad they are my source of comfort #his stupid grumpy ass is so happy when he is with her he is smiling!!!!!! #I MISS THEM SM #LET THEM RETURN CRYING SCREAMING P9ISSING #battle for dream island #bfdi #the power of two #tpot #bfdi fries #bfdi puffball #puffries #my art #artists on tumblr #fanart #digital art #digital drawing #clip studio paint #csp #also. genderfluid ppl r awesum

[finncakes]

"Fearne...are you with me?"

"Always."

#critical role #cr3 #orym #orym of the air ashari #fearne calloway #fey blossoms #crying screaming throwing up #this line got me so much #zero hesitation. she is ALWAYS by his side and he is ALWAYS by her's. #don't wanna be without ya by penny and sparrow was on repeat while i worked on this #i love them so so much #for the love of god let them both make it through the solstice 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 #i just got a BAD feeling abt it...smth isn't gonna go good and idm what #but i cannot stand losing any of the hells...they're all so dear to me #however. these two. priority number one for me.

[shima-draws]

I’m still so mentally ill over the whole Luffy refusing to eat unless it’s Sanji’s food thing. Like. We KNOW how fucking feral over food Luffy is. He loves food and loves eating so much that he steals it off other people’s plates and out of their hands and is so impatient when it comes to meals that he’ll literally try and sneak into the kitchen to mooch before it’s ready. Or he’ll try to break into the refrigerator. I know Sanji mentioned putting a lock on it at some point bc Luffy literally wiped it clean. He will not hesitate to eat other people’s portions or literally an entire meal meant for a whole ship of people! He’s unbelievably selfish when it comes to food and that’s just SUCH a central part of his character that it’s become almost endearing. Even in Totto Land Luffy didn’t think for a second before devouring everything in sight, including an entire fucking HOUSE, regardless of the consequences or the people it might affect. Homie did not care!! He’s food driven first and foremost!!!

Until Sanji leaves him. Until he decides that eating—something that he loves and brings him comfort—isn’t WORTH it unless it’s Sanji’s food he’s eating. It’s been shown that Luffy has zero self restraint when it comes to food so the fact that he was SURROUNDED by food on all sides on a food themed island and utterly refused to partake in any of that? Even though he hates being hungry and will always make eating a priority over pretty much anything else?? The amount of willpower it must have taken for him to sit there and purposefully let himself starve, for SANJI. Even when food was offered to him conveniently (in the form of syrup rain) he stubbornly rejected that. Because it wasn’t Sanji’s food. Because it wasn’t Sanji who made it, who always puts so much thought and care into the food he makes, who always indulges Luffy and prepares extra because he knows how much Luffy eats and how much he loves to eat. Luffy literally took one of the most defining traits he has and tossed it out the window. For Sanji. I’m going to fucking blow up

#RAGHHH. RAGHHHHHH #One Piece #Sanlu #Lusan #Sanji #Luffy #WCI #Whole Cake Island #Shima speaks #I just can’t get over it. I’ll never get over it actually. #Luffy refusing food. Bc he wants Sanji more. Bc he CARES about Sanji more #HE REALLY SAID ‘Guess I’ll die ¯\_(ツ)_/¯’ #This isn’t even half of it. This doesn’t even tie into the whole ‘I can’t become King of the Pirates without you’ line #Luffy really looked at his utmost goal (becoming Pirate King) and his favorite thing in the world (food) and said #’Without Sanji it’s not worth it. I don’t want it’ #SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP #He’s never done that for anybody else. I am just SAYING. JUST SAYING!!!!!! #Usopp jokingly: What do you want more the One Piece or Sanji #Luffy without a moment of hesitation: Sanji #Usopp: Haha see I—oh. Oh??? #Usopp: Was NOT expecting that tbh. #Luffy: I’ll pick Sanji over food or the One Piece every time :) #Sanji: 😳😳😳😭😭😭 #GIGGLING INSANELY. I CANNOT BELIEVE THEM

[lunar-years]

"I've noticed that sometimes having a tough dad is exactly what drives some fellas to become great at what they do. You know I hear Bono's father was a real piece of work but then again, so was Joshua Tree, so you know 🤷‍♂️" Ted literally should have been banned from ever speaking on Jamie's father again after this one because what a wild thing to say to someone you witnessed being physically and verbally abused by their father ?? 'sorry your dad sucks but maybe you'll be a great player because you were abused <3' UM? Not to mention Jamie JUST told you that actually, his "tough dad" became such a problem that it drove him to do anything to get himself away from the situation including abandoning the thing he's "great at" and thereby tanking his mental health like????

#i know ted is like. trying. but damn. #i just don't like this narrative that jamie is great as a pushback against his father (they pushed it in mom city too. and NO) #jamie had that passion ambition and drive long before his dad even came into the picture #Also for how upset ted was when jamie was sent back to city. he sure is oddly hesitant to take him back? #like even if jamie didn't already think it was ted who sent him back he certainly would after that convo. #and he wasn't even sent away because of burned bridges!!! he was making progress before he was sent away!!!!! ahhhhhhhh. #i scream into the void #tw abuse #ted lasso #jamie tartt #ted lasso rewatch

[twaterlaw]

It’s small moments that often define your relationship with Law.

On rare nights when the Polar Tang is floating above the surface of the water, you can sometimes find Law on the deck overlooking the ocean.

It’s quiet on the ship, save for the muffled sound of the crew down below. The ocean’s quiet for the first time in a long while too.

It’s easy to wrap your arms around his middle, press your face between the plane of his shoulder blades. You breathe him and revel in the knowledge that he no longer tenses from your touch.

He’s pensive tonight. You can tell (you revel in that notion too; that you can read the subtleties in his frowns and the slump of his shoulders).

Law doesn’t greet you. Hardly acknowledges your presence at all, if not for the way he moves one cold hand from it’s white knuckled grip on the rail to grasp on to yours where it rests at his waist.

To you, these moments have begun to feel like everything.

#law x reader #idk idk i have thoughts and they’re all about law #i haven’t written anything in literally years and i’m very out of practice and my grammar is atrocious #but my brain is rotting with thoughts of law #hesitant to really write for him until i get caught up on the anime #hesitant to write at all #these tags are just me screaming into the void

[drop-the-curtain-123]

mimura + his 2nd year friendship with maehara

#assassination classroom #ansatsu kyoushitsu #kouki mimura #mimura kouki #hiroto maehara #maehara hiroto #lyrics + titles in alt #from the ansatsu database translation of rollbook time: #When the new (1st) trimester started along with Isogai the 3 of them hung out together as the 'we-can-do-this group' #...but now Mimura has left the group. #oh to be a 'plain and average' 14 years old surrounded by ikemen... the heartbreaking potential... again i have so many thoughts... #could it be NOT angsty and just a NORMAL drift in friendship? INDEED. am I going to make it ANGSTY? yes. #i have... so many thoughts about them. let me scream about it all. please. #don't hesitate to join in on the 'fun' or message me or anything i'll gladly ramble or hear rambling

[stabbingandorbeingstabbed]

the thing abt my chemical romance is that i love them so much that i can only watch them perform under very specific circumstances without having to like get up and pace around every 15 seconds

#guy who is an empath but only for how i assume the members of mcr must be feeling performing for 100 ppl in 2003 #time traveling with a glock to these shows like if you don't clap and scream for these little ladies i won't even hesitate #if i think gerard seems nervous for even a split second i have to go hide under my bed

[t00thpasteface]

I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE TO MY NEIGHBORS FOR THE GIRLISH SCREAMS I JUST SCRUMPT AT 1:20 AM. THERE WAS A COCKROACH IN MY ROOM. SURELY YOU UNDERSTAND.

#i have grabbed live mice in the kitchen with zero hesitation but i see a big bug and i scream so shrilly it shatters all my glassware #i've handled dead animals in all stages of decay. i've shot a hog and cleaned it. but i'm too big of a wuss to handle one (1) roach #shebbz shoutz #bug mention

[woodenfawn]

He then proceeded to, among *many* other things, punch him in the face, literally bite his hand, and spit blood on his clothes

#re zero #re:zero #natsuki subaru #subaru natsuki #vincent vollachia #abel re zero #I cannot get over their dynamic. It is SO interesting!!!! The way they both claim to hate each other so so much but also #helping each other and abel's absolute trust of him in other senses. The fact they can literally hold each other at knifepoint #And scream at each other and let their emotions out the way they dont with anyone else #But will protect each other from any outside harm #If you thought julius and subaru had a complex relationship this is like that squared #Subaru's relationships keep getting more and more aggressive dont they #Emilia: oh youre so sweet youre the love of my life!!! Ill do anything for you!!!! #Reinhardt: Friend!!!! Buddy!!!! Handsomest coolest knight!!! #Rem: we're a little more than a bit codependent but thats only due to the circumstances :)) we're both in pain but we support each other :) #Julius: I wont get over you beating me up and being too handsome therefore i will be tsundere >:( #Otto: You'll punch me in the face and I'll laugh at your feelings #we'll torment each other a lot but hey we're buddies. #And then abel and subaru are just. Completely concerning as a duo but somehow id hesitate to call it toxic #I dont know what they are. Except maybe gay idiots #You cant tell me abel's not gay #Can you tell the Chisha Gold chapter and the shut the hell up/vincent & subaru chapters stuck with me a lot #Btw im caught up with re zero's web novel!!!! (Besides the last 3 chapters)

[ayushsan]

You wanted to kill him too.

The Killing Vote, Ep 06

#the killing vote #kdrama #park hae jin #park sung woong #whump #asian whump #my posts #i fucking screamed when that cyber lady stopped mu chan from punching him #let us seokjoo's face afterwards #but again #mu chan wouldnt have done it #he hesitated #i wanted to see what would seok joo's reaction be #he looks like he wouldnt mind he would understand #aghh these two #the story is frustrating idc for it anymore #but i wanna know what happens in the end

[novelconcepts]

There is so much nuance to the ep 6 scene between KJ and Lauren, I can’t get over it.

the motion older!KJ makes as they walk out, reaching for Lauren, realizing just in time that they are, in fact, in her hometown in Ohio and cutting short before she can land what was probably going to be an instinctive kiss

KJ coming in hot with the world’s most polite “hello!” and managing to make what must feel lightly like small talk for thirty seconds before dropping her voice to this shy, slightly-terrified question

the inability to hold eye contact. the faltering, wordless noises. the way she blinks like she’s seconds from just passing out in the middle of this theater--that is exactly how it feels to come out to someone for the first time. the edges of your vision go a little fuzzy, your heart is in your throat, you genuinely feel shaky, and all of that is so present in this performance

the sense of mild defeat in how she just lands on “movies” instead of “girls”, like she’s embarrassed she can’t just say it

the gentle ah hah expression on Lauren’s face as she realizes what this petrified kid is trying to ask her, and how smoothly she doesn’t correct her--just rolls with this safe code word

KJ’s nod and very tiny “uh-huh” without moving like any part of her face. like she’s reverting to standing as still as possible, protective coloring coming up in every inch of her frame

Lauren actually taking a minute to think about it before answering. and and then not giving the answer KJ asked for--”how did YOU know”--but what KJ actually needs to hear. what any kid in her position would: not everyone will get it, but everyone’s journey is their own, and there is no rush

(again, this is why I’m so delighted they wrote it the way they did--KJ and Lauren, not KJ and older!KJ, because older!KJ would have a definitive answer to give. it might be “I always knew, in the back of my mind” or it might be “when I was eighteen and kissed a girl for the first time”, but whatever the answer, it would cement KJ back into a box. this is your future, immutable, and there is no journey you could take that I haven’t already gone on. I’m so fucking glad they didn’t do this, that they let her have the reassurance that any timeline is the right one if it’s hers.)

again, that flutter-blink/quick breath combo that looks like she’s gonna pass out--but this time, there’s relief in it. it’s less “how do I say this Huge Thing” and more “oh thank god, she knows what I’m asking, she knows without me saying, and she’s being kind”

It is beautifully put together, such a gentle way of saying to this baby gay, “Nobody can tell you who you are except you, but whoever that winds up being is so okay. Listen to yourself. Trust yourself. You will be happy, I promise you.” It is a critical bit of advice so many queer people just don’t get, and to write it into KJ’s story is one of the show’s biggest kindnesses.

#paper girls #paper girls spoilers #kj brandman #i love this scene so much. i love that lauren doesn't try to make it about herself in the least #she could tell her story here--but that isn't what KJ actually needs #so instead she gives her reassurance that there's nothing wrong with what she's feeling and that it really does feel amazing to be in love #even if that love isn't what she might have expected for herself #i also just love that lauren is in her early 20s and maybe has never HAD a young kid ask this before--and you can kind of feel it #in the hesitation and the slight fumble before she lands on what is most likely what she would have needed to hear at that age #admittedly--god love her--she clearly lacks a few passive perception points #because there are so many pictures of young KJ in her girlfriend's house that she HAS to have seen them #but we forgive her this observational oversight because she's so lovely in these scenes #and it really does a great job of painting the feeling that she's drawn to this kid--who is the child version of her girlfriend-- #without EVER once being creepy about it. it's just 'oh this sweet kid i want to protect her'. a lesser show would have fucked that up #'ah she says she's KJ's cousin. they have exactly the same face at different stages of pokemon evolution but sure yeah that tracks' #'how can i help?' #again i LOVE the comics. i love them so much. but this is the same kind of gentle change as giving mac her brother for a while #it's screaming from the rooftops that these kids are not as alone as they feel #and i'm so soft about it

[mumbledramblings]

Survival Horror Vash who i met in a dream

i had a dream last night where a group of people and i were trying to escape this weird and spooky abandoned facility that kept changing around us as we moved forward and partway through vash showed up and joined us. he was kinda weird, though. he looked a little different and he kept saying morbid things and acting like he knew us well and was always part of the group, and no one seemed to think that was suspicious except me.

at one point he found a couch and kept asking this guy to sit and have drinks with him, but the guy was convinced that if he did he'd get cursed and die.

the one time i interacted with him myself near the end of my dream (i think he was avoiding me) he was taking a knife to the bottom half of his coat, cutting it lengthwise and taking apart the layers. i asked him why he was doing that and he just said that he needed it [like that] and wouldn't elaborate and i couldn't investigate further bc i somehow found myself leading the group.

suspicious and inexplicable behaviour aside, i don't think he was ~secretly a bad guy~ or anything. just kinda weird and lonely and. maybe not entirely human. i do think he was genuinely trying to help us get out and maybe get himself out, too. but god he was kinda unnerving to be around.

#trigun #trigun fanart #vash the stampede #mid draws #trigun au #? i guess ? #it's a dream #sorry for the shit sketches i could not be bothered to put more effort into them #tbh i'm a little hesitant to call it “survival horror” bc the only monster we encountered was at the very end of the dream #and it was a 7-foot-tall feral elmo-looking guy who caught sight of me as we were escaping #screamed and started banging against the fence until it found a hole large enough to fit through and then just barrelled towards us #and then i woke up sweating #and i never found out why vash cut up his coat #or what his deal was in general #but you know what i was kinda on edge the whole dream and also i like the genre so the label stays

[difeisheng]

few things have hurt me more than the recurring motif in chinese lhl fanart that is li lianhua using shaoshi to kill li xiangyi

#i can't find original links to all the pieces i have saved and they're scattered across xhs and lofter #so i'm hesitant to link them #but my GOD it makes my heart ache every time i see a new one #(and one time it was li xiangyi putting li lianhua to rest instead. and another it was both of them each stabbing the other) #the worst part is that the killing is always a soft act #li lianhua is so gentle as he lowers li xiangyi to the ground #ahem anyways. i needed to scream #mysterious lotus casebook #li xiangyi #ashton originals

[nonbinary-eddie-munson]

I was thinking about how the run away with me au Robin and Steve "should we get divorced?" conversation comes about:

Theyre about 23 and Robin comes home in tears after another break up. The reason: Robin had asked her girlfriend of 8 months, Lorraine to move in with her and steve. Lorraine assumes this means steve is moving out and when Robin clarifys that no Steve is staying, he's an important part of her life theyre married for chists sake. Well Lorraine doesnt take that well, says she isnt going to spend her life playing second fiddle to Steve.

This isnt the first time a relationship had ended for either of them because a partner hadnt been able to accept that Steve and Robin were a package deal. Things had been especially rough for them romantically in the first couple years of their marriage. It wasnt until a particularly awful screaming match between Robin, Steve and Steves first real boyfriend, that they were able to admit their relationship was incredibly codependent and unhealthy. Steves boyfriend had been upset when Steve had cancelled on him for the 3rd time in a row because of a Robin Emergency™️ and decided to confront Robin about it while Steve was in class. Things escalated quickly when Steve came home early from class to find them arguing and immediately took Robins side. The argument and Steves relationship ended with a slammed door, a lot of tears and a new rift in Robin and Steves relationship.

It took a lot of long conversations with Carina and Marjorie, Steve working through his toxic masculinity enough to go see a therapist - He and Robin made a deal that theyd both go talk to someone about, you know almost dieing "do you think me being fucked up by what happened at starcourt makes me weak steve?" "No of course not!" "Well then why would it make you weak?" - and a summer spent apart (Robin taking an internship in rome to study latin) for them to sit down and have a long conversation about boundaries and ground rules for how they would navigate their relationship as well as dating in the future.

Steve and Robin agreed to both take a break from dating while they worked through their respective traumas, and figured out how to navigate their relationship in a healthy way. Things werent easy, the both of them occasionally backsliding into unhealthy behaviors, more than a few nights where one of them spent the night with Carina and Marjorie in order to have space from eachother. But eventually they get their shit figured out and decide to brave the world of dating again. Steve and Robin both have their share of flings and short lived relationships but nothing so far seemed to stick. That is until Robin met Lorraine.

Lorraine was funny, sweet and a little bitchy. They had immediately clicked after being introduced by some mutual friends from school. Robin really thought things with Lorraine were going to work out. Steve and Lorraine had gotten on like a house on fire, she had slipped into Robin and Steves dynamic easily, trading jokes and light hearted jabs, cooking breakfast together on days Lorraine would stay at their apartment. Robin had fallen hard and fast, she thought she had finally found someone who accepted that her and Steve were a package deal. So 8 months in when Lorraines lease was ending Robin (with agreement from steve) asked Lorraine to move in. Things don't go to plan. Robins dreams of a future with lorraine are shattered. She goes home broken hearted.

After Robin has cried herself out, her and steve cuddled together on the couch Steve is the one to broach the topic. Robin immediately bursts back into tears before he calms her back down again saying he doesnt want a divorce but he also doesnt want to hold Robin back, doesnt want to be the reason she cant find happiness. Robin replys by saying if anyone is holding the other back its obviously her, steve gave up everything to protect her afterall. Steve calls bullshit -years of therapy and he can finally say that word without cringing- says he would do it all again in a heartbeat, that she doesn't owe him anything. They stay up all night talking about it, about what the both of them want from their futures. Neither can see a future without the other. they're platonic life partners, one day they'll find their someones who can accept that and if not well, they'll always have eachother.

Of course they do find their someones in the form of a charming if infuriating metal head and a brilliant, sweet, and badass reporter. Through trial and error the four of them figure out how to navigate life together. They all live happy ever after.

Robin and Steve celebrate 30 years of marriage with divorce papers. They'll always love eachother but now they dont need a marriage to keep eachother safe. They dont need a marriage to stay as platonic life partners. They have eachother and they have Eddie and Nancy. They have everything they need.

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Lmk what you think! I'd love to have someone to scream with about this AU and bounce ideas off of :D

Tagging by request <3 @ramyayaya

#i think steve and eddie find eachother infuriating in a good way and also a sexy way and i love that for them #i wrote this instead of sleeping #i'll actually turn this into a fleshed out fic i swear. i just happened to see a post talking about how a lot of fics make steve and robin #imcredibly codependent and started thinking about how i would handle that in my fic and decided to write out my ideas #i dont want it to come off as magically theyre perfect and okay. i think things would be messy in the beginning. and still a bit messy #even after bc theyre only human you know. i think having elder queers to talk to would be so important to them for helping them figure #things out you know #i think eddie and nancy wouldnt enter the picture until Steve and robin are 27/28 #im also still trying to figure out relationship dynamics bc the fruity 4 are in a polycule and how i think that would be for them #no matter which way you look at it the relationship between the 4 of them is inherently queer and thats beautiful #i hesitate to have eddie and nancy marry eachother in turn bc yknow heteronormativity #i think people assume theyre together and that eddie and nancy never confirm or deny why people make that assumption #but idk if they ever get married idk ill have to think about it #if you read this far in my tags feel free to hop in my dms and scream with me about this au #id love to have someone to bounce ideas off of #run away with me au #platonic stobbin #robin buckley #steve harrington #steddie #ronance #long post

[spacedlexi]

thinking about clem vi and minnie

#cant stop thinking about them....the Drama of it all.....the Gay Drama of it all #SORRYYY but like.... vi and minnie only ending their relationship bc vi thought minnie died and couldnt save her and blamed herself..... #vi finding out minnie was traded off by marlon and did not actually die #and finding out shes working for the enemy and vi has to accept the fact that the Real minnie is gone #the way minnie basically called vi a coward implying there mightve been some tension in their relationship(right after re-meeting after 1yr #the weird tension and mental battle between clem and minnie bc they are like 2 sides of the same coin #(and clem is dating her ex and taking her family) #vi reassuring clem that none of this changes her feelings for her and will go to battle against minnie for their friends #vi either getting kidnapped by the delta (bc clem doesnt save her) and brainwashed by minnie to act against her friends and fight clem #vs her saving clem from minnie by shooting her with her own crossbow with no hesitation other than a plead to stop (still makes me scream) #vi not being able to leave minnie alone and injured #brainwashed vi getting blinded in the explosion #ep 4 minnie not hesitating to try to kill vi for tenn #clem and minnie fighting to the Death #minnie being the reason clem gets bit..one last fuck you #vi having to leave clem on the other side of the fence leading to clem getting bit #s4 didnt have to give us one of the gayest drama-iest side plots in a game but it did and i still cant get over it #hehe hehe hehe :) :) :) infested with brain worms #thank u twdg s4 for existing i love u #need to draw more clem/vi/minnie tension #and also clem and minnie fighting i love when they fight #started replaying s4 but im taking it sooooooo sllooowwwlllyy i cant wait to get to ep3 this shit was written specifically for me #it speaks #twdg