#THEY MAKE ME CRY IN THE WORST WAY

[t4kispace]

more of my steinspirit art!!! im normal

#steinspirit #soul eater #spirit albarn #spiritstein #franken stein #dr franken stein #stein soul eater #spirit x stein #stein x spirit #agrjuaagwhjeekajaiqer #THEY MAKE ME CRY IN THE WORST WAY

[weepynymph]

This is so bad. I’m sorry.

#i couldn't get it out of my head ok?? #has this been done already #this is literally so dumb wow #graphic design is my passion #the rings of power #galadriel #sauron #halbrand #rings of power spoilers #like HUGE spoliers #the best and worst plot twist of all time #i love this show it's literally fanfiction in the best way #makes me cry at least twice an episode #lowkey highkey i do of course ship it #rop #rop spoilers #rop meme #rings of power

[frnkiebby]

i could watch his fucking talking hands for HOURS~🎃

#also this is me in like 2hrs bullshitting my way through my part of my groups finals presentation #fuck #and the worst part?? #EXCEL WONT WORK AND I STILL HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO MAKE THE GODDAMN CHARTS FOR THE DATA FOR MY BIT #pls #i’m gonna cry #frank help #frnkiebby #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #mcrmy #mcr5 #frnkie #my chemical romance #my chem #ilhsm

[campbyler]

gna queue some asks up

#i have 15 more minutes of Rotting In Bed before i have to go to work #<- fucked up. #and i have the worst cramps i am so sad. #like woke me up at 7am cramps. making me curl up and cry cramps. #can’t wait to run around for a billion hours 🫠 #N E WAY let me answer some of these we have so many built up 😭

[masquerade-of-misery]

Mutuals, can I get a virtual hug and headpat from you? I'm feeling so sad tonight😔💔

#this is honestly the worst #when I cannot even put into words what exactly makes me feel this way I just simply do #getting these random urges to cry #everything just feels....wrong #wtf is wrong with me 😭😭 #Vani's personal

[fantasticalleigh]

awake and unafraid | asleep or dead

just wanted to draw them dead together bc I'm a masochist but then I got too sad about it so I made one where they’re alive and together and happy 

also yes I used a twilight meadow scene screen cap for this pose 

Instagram | Ko-Fi

#reylo #reylo art #reylo illustration #fantasticalleighs art #ben solo #rey nobody #rey of jakku #rey skywalker #dyad #dyad in the force #the rise of skywalker #the lovers #the fact that it's taken me THIS long to reference MCR in any of my work is a fuckingmiracle ok #and it was not the plan from the beginning but my god! there it is #famous last words makes me cry bad but thinking about THEM AND the song makes me want to die #it goes so well in the worst (saddest) way #I'm a glutton for angst you should know this by now

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

[c00kietin]

why must I cry so much.

#vent #I don't mean this in a dramatic way or anything. I just. cry a lot. #and it's annoying. #my parents aren't the cause for it- school can be anxiety ridden but I get over it sooner #but me? #ohohohoho I blame myself for making me cry so much #i come up with the world's worst “what ifs” and “whys” then I cry a lot and refuse to talk. #sorry for venting publicly. I wanted it out of my system. #might make this private someday. #it feels wrong sharing it to others. #this is half-humorous half-serious because joking a little makes me feel less bad. #I'm sorry. #also #thanks.

[birdblorbo]

I feel like Stan would be a really good mixologist for no reason. Whenever the losers want to drink they will just goes to Stan’s instead of the bar. He acts annoyed but he enjoys showing off

#adult losers club #he will never share his secrets #not even to Bill #he is too scared after Bill tried once and put way too much fucking vodka #surprisingly the worst at making drinks is Eddie #he always freaks himself out in the process #it 2017 #it 2019 #it fandom #losers club #it headcanons #yes this is cause of the one scene in my fic where Stan mixes a shit drink at frat but not frat party #cry about it #stanley uris #bill denbrough #stenbrough #because everything with me is stenbrough even if it’s not #ben hanscom #beverly marsh #eddie kaspbrak #mike hanlon #richie tozier

[azumasoroshi]

the shizu-chan song

just discovered the shizu-chan song by none other than johnny yong bosch. help me

id transcribe if i didnt have a final in 10 hours. maybe when i get back

oh nvm someone already wrote them out

this has similar energy as the bro duet song but like. in reverse bgskjdghjkgsd the no homo is for real

plus an animatic version and amv version because holy hell this is old

#i hear there's another shizuo song by johnny yong bosch according to the comments from 2017 but ill have to wait until yt recommends me it #anyway this makes me want to make a bro duet animatic for shizaya #which would be hilarious because. they're not bros #the ship dynamic of 'two guy best friends who maybe kiss sometimes' is very good but very not shizaya #so the spontaneous love confessions just come out of fucking nowhere during one of their fights #it would be really funny. trust #and probably better than the angst and self-denial festival i would make animating the actual shizu-chan song #i can already see the half-smiling-to-himself half-looks-like-he's-about-to-cry pining semi-regretful izaya face at the last shizu-chan #also. izaya guitar player headcanon hello #if someone can make an artist hobbyist izaya au i can make a guitar hobbyist izaya au #tbh izaya's more spontaneous and i feel like he wouldnt like all the hard work and practice time that goes into learning an instrument #like his main hobbies like parkour and switchblade throwing are stuff he gets to put into practice all the time and are more 'useful' #but instrument practice it's just him and his thoughts and callused hands for hours at a time #feel like he'd get frustrated pretty easily in that way #anyway wouldnt it be hot if izaya played the guitar LMFAOO fuck my characterization and let that man play fingerstyle #izaya playing piano is a somewhat popular headcanon anyway #god i have the worst habit of putting the entirety of my post into the tags. must be the incorrect lov joke bits spilling over #shizaya #shizuo heiwajima #izaya orihara #durarara #Youtube

[islenskihesturinn]

This is a picture from half a year ago, but it occurred to me yesterday while I was keeping Lilja’s head in place during her second treatment that these animals really have to trust us a hecking lot to just let us do these things to them.

She’s been drugged to stay calm and feel a bit less as her teeth get filed down from being like a staircase to nearly straight (it was bad, now it’s almost good). Machines that make loud noises and vibrate get put in her mouth and there’s weird smelling dust everywhere. Meanwhile her human is gently patting her hair and praising her for staying put, and half an hour later she’s back with Fjara and eating hay like nothing happened.

Same goes for the other 3 (namely Týra, Solita and Ieniemini), who just come walking up to you after all that, asking for a treat (and a brush bc it’s shedding season and they’re all itchy ladies).

I don’t really think about it often, but sometimes it’ll hit me how much they trust that we have their best interests at heart and they know this in their own way.

#brb crying but in a thankful way #anyway Týra is fully okay again (had a freshly broken tooth pulled) #Lilja can actually chew normally again now and with one more treatment she should be normally aligned again #same goes for Solita and Ieniemini! #Hviða and Fjara were both fully alright and only need yearly check ups now #Lilja…Lilja was off worst and had basically spent longer than I like hanging a jaw like a bulldog #lower jaw forward #she couldn’t put it back bc her teeth had been ground down wrong #I could tell at first from the weird squeaky noises she made while chewing #and then lots of shaking of her head and holding the bit #but now at this point in time 1. all her hooves are nice and regular and supporting 2. she can move her jaw normally and 3. her entire body #is physically okay (got checked by a physician yesterday) #she’s mentally happy as well (was a bit down since December (same Lil. same.) #I’ve been making an effort since for both her and me to spend more time with her #I wasn’t well and aside from it taking a toll on me it also took a toll on her #naively I didn’t think my absence would matter #stupidly even. my own sad brain got to me. #lesson learned: horses make happy chemicals in the brain. apparently humans can do that for their horses too. #and now I’m crying again. been doing that a lot lately🥲 #anyway the trust my horses have for us are not something I take for granted and it’s humbling and an honour

[elegyofthemoon]

well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost

#avil plays hi3 #tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This. #yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17 #i. :( #the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :( #ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart #BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI #BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA #AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER #MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE #tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3. #kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but #now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because #'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS' #also idk i was thinking about it too #mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time #and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option #IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING) #sprawls on the ground #at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that #and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag #can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else) #idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people.... #but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other #okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL #MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it #but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying

[yohankang]

shit went down at work today and there's a chance they'll fire me 🙃

#my boss will talk to the ceo tomorrow and it's entirely up to him....... #multiple people at work saw me crying and i was so ashamed i wanted to cry even more lol #i'm just so bad at this job and i hate it but it's so hard to find a job when you dropped out of uni twice #and they pay well and i truly love some of the people there #like my boss expects me to do better (if i won't get fired) and she wants me to propose some improvements #but like. the problem is me. the workload is too much for me and there's no magic way to solve it #and the worst part is i'm so emotionally unstable i can't even talk about it without crying #i'm crying even now lol #and i know if i start crying tomorrow it will only annoy him #and i'm not doing it to seem pitiful i just can't control it at all #godd i'm so tired #i wish i could just cry it out today and then have a serious conversation tomorrow but it doesn't work like that #i had plans today but i start crying every 10 minutes so i just came back home and opened a beer #maybe it will put me to sleep idk #at this point i'm also annoyed with myself #i will let you know how it goes tomorrow 🙃 #k.txt #dl #btw please don't try to comfort me because it only makes me cry harder lol i'm just writing to let it all out

[tariah23]

Twitter is literally just… Liveleak/ rotten.com all over again. You cannot go on there even casually without running into fucking assault shit, animal abuse (a few zoo clips just went viral within the last two days……….. TWO had been rec to me because of twitters atrocious algorithm that just puts literally anything on your feed. I don’t really go on my feed like that anyway so I miss out on most stuff. I scrolled by so fast🗿), child abuse, hardcore gore/murders, and accidents, literally anything, man.

#there is something to be said about moderation and censorship but man the same ppl who cry about their right to be able to view gore #because “’it’s real’ (really because they enjoy it. I can’t be bullshitted) #be the main ones complaining about lgbt ppl ‘forcing an agenda’ #there was this popular channel I’d check out sometimes but he always gave me strange vibes #like alt right leaning but never vocal enough on his own opinions to outright say how he really feels #but this guy really pulled a ‘thank you for those who’ve been fighting the good fight’ #at the end of a video where he talked about a tranwoman castrating herself alluding to it being ‘mental illness’ #but in other videos of his he’d go on whole tangents about how nothing even the worst things ever should never be censored just because #‘some people are sensitive’ like oh brother go to hell #rambling #people like this have strong opinions on the way that others chose to identify and live but when they are hurt and are suffering #these are the first clowns to rush to make content about their pain

[head---ache]

I feel like i do have to say, btw, that I'm not actually taking requests at the moment. I say this because I've been getting a few more requests these past few days, and some people are sending them more than once after I ignored their first ask, which is really not pleasant. I'm not mad at anyone!!!! I kind of understand the confusion since I did take a rather big batch of requests the other day and I've been answering some asks with drawings, but those are isolated instances and do not give you permission to harass me trying to get me to draw whatever you want.

If you want a drawing from me then you'll just have to wait until I specifically ask for requests, and if even then I don't take your request, well that's too bad, but I don't owe you any art, sooooo yea

#also my brain works in a way in which the more im told to do something the less i want to do it nxksjslsn #so if you want me to draw something the worst you could do is send a request more than once lol #also ive gotten some people trying to gult trip me into drawing something for them like????? please go cry somewhere else i really dont care #ALSO BAHAHAHZGH #THOSE PEOPLE WHO TRY TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE THEY'RE NOT ACTUALLY REQUESTING SOMETHING #SO THEY CAN GO 'oh no i wasnt asking you to do it i was just saying' #'hmmm i wonder how my oc would look like in your style 🤔🤔🤔' #idk dude youre free to try to copy it you have free will idc #in fact post it and tag me i want to see #anyways #enough rambling #back to drawing whatever my stupid and picky ass wants

[katyspersonal]

It is only first month of 2024, and I've already lost not one but two subjects of nightmares, paranoia and reoccurring emotional torture. I really wish there was another way to get rid of these besides having extremely painful conversations.. but at least these scars are closing, one by one

#/vent #personal #and this time was like.. opposite of the previous one #previous one absolutely wrecked me with very ugly insight and basically made all puzzle pieces fall together #this one was just pain and crying and having my worst suspicions about other person AND self faced and confirmed #but again it got solved #I really want the power to move on without having a closure. #I hope I will be strong enough for it one day. #I just need to think.. #I think I really should avoid other depressed/traumatised people until something can be done with how I react at perceived threats #(which is eternity because hell I know when I will be able to afford therapy. probably never with how my life situation is going) #as jarring as being close only with 'healthy' people would be I just can't make things worse for both me and them #until I can change my default response from aggression into avoidance I'll just stay away from anyone with depression #I say very terrible things when I feel threatened and it is way too easy to make me feel threatened. it is THE easiest thing in the world. #I won't survive without close friends anyhow but there is category of people that can't recover from these words normally #I mean I am ALSO this 'category'. I also hurt from awful words thrown at me for MONTHS don't I #it is very hard to be aware of my glaring flaws when everyone that points them out is outright malicious and wants me bullied off the Earth #and then everyone who does think I deserve my human rights either doesn't see my flaws or doesn't mention them #so at least discussing it without outright intention to harm me was helpful for a change #maybe one day I'll have a friend that can be open if I've hurt them a lot so I can work on it but that's another story I guess