#TRUST MY INSTINCTS RIGHT

[dreamerwriternstargazer]

OHHHH THAT WAS ACTUALLY SO FUN BUT NOW IM HAVING OVERTHINKING BRAIN I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOOOOO

#star speaks #*screams into a pillow* #I FELT COMFORTABLE AND GREAT AND OMG THEY WERE SO GREAT AND LIKE YEAH WE’RE DEFINITELY FRIENDS BUT ALSO SERIOUS STUFF SHOULD I HAVE SHARED #THAT #BUT ALSO IF I FELT COMFORTABLE THEN THAT’S GOOD RIGHT #TRUST MY INSTINCTS RIGHT #BUT WHY THE KNEEJERK REACTION NOW #*screams* #it’s the trust issues it’s the trust issues think empirically Star #it’s the trauma saying no you don’t talk about this stuff #*cries* but what if it’s not

[s0fter-sin]

something happening on a mission, something personal that has soap spiralling; panic and rage making him reckless, thoughtless, and ghost has to draw the line

“you’re compromised johnny; you know what that means?”

“you’re not pulling me out,” soap immediately snarls. he turns on him and ghost barely recognises him; venomous fear turning his eyes to unyielding ice. "you're not sidelining me; i need to be in this-!"

but ghost has never been afraid of venom; spat or dripped straight from bared fangs.

he snakes out a hand grip the back of his neck, jerking him in a rough shake. "if you can't think, you can't be a soldier," he growls and he flinches like he's been struck.

his lips quiver as they twist in a sneer and he wrenches, trying to free himself of his hold.

ghost doesn't let him.

"it means you give your body to me because your head ain't fucking attached to it anymore."

soap stills, body trembling beneath his hand as he sucks in shaking breaths.

he tightens his grip, pulling him closer and digs his forehead hard into his. “it means you give yourself to me so i can have the weapon that you are and use you the way you're meant to be used."

the ice in soap's eyes fractures.

ghost’s voice drops to a whisper, spoken only to johnny, not this facade of vengeance and pain, and wills it to reach him through the glaciers.

“so i can keep you safe ‘til it’s done and i can bring you back.”

#in my head its bc graves abducts his sister and is using her as hostage to draw him out knowing ghost will always follow him #but the intensity and intimacy of saying ‘you cant trust your mind not to betray you so let me be in charge of your body until you can’ #after what happened to tommy he could never deny johnny his right to save his sister #but its bc of what happened to tommy that he knows he cant let him do it alone with only his rage to guide him #hes more likely to get himself killed and ghost wont live through that #so he has to balance it #and the only way he knows how is to completely shut down soap’s mind until hes no more than instinct and muscle memory #if he cant think practically then dont let him think at all #reduce him to a place where he can only follow orders #and when its finally over and his sister is safe and graves is dead #only then will he drag johnny back up to the surface #he’ll do it even if it means dragging him kicking and screaming back to humanity #instead of letting him sink in the depths where nothing hurts. theres no fear down there. no pain. only order #and thats the risk ghost took sending johnny to that place but he only did it bc he would stop at nothing to bring him back #and help him through the after #the breakdown. the rush of panic and rage and relief and anguish johnnys been supressing on his order #it was his word that turned johnny into a ghost #and its his touch that brings him back to the man #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #cod #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghost x soap #ghoap #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #john soap mactavish #soap cod

[fentoaster]

The first time I draw vlad and it's for a shitpost. sorry vlad (I'm not)

based on this

#I spent entirely way too long on this #danny phantom #dp #maddie fenton #vlad masters #maddie #vlad #meme #shitpost #my art #alchohol #for blacklist #secret in the tags for whoever reads this: I was imagining the scene in trust your instincts where maddie's coerced to have dinner w/ vlad #and I was gonna double check that scene to see which color dress maddie wears but couldn't find the right chapter #I really hope it was white haha

[sparring-spirals]

my dash: Bell's Hells are doing doppelganger trust exercises in the feywild for bonding purposes

me: oh???? :) my fools?

my dash: half of them wanted to use detect thoughts to get through it. they werent allowed to. but they were absolutely planning to do it.

me, with great affection: oh, my fools :') of course

my dash: They Handled This Less Than Optimally and were accusing each other suspiciously and randomly and using all kinds of strange tactics

me: my fools :'DDDDD of COURSE they did-

my dash: Even in an ACTIVE TRUST BUILDING EXERCISE with live doppelgangers, they were still grappling with their chronic Fuck With Each Other impulses

me with all the affection in the world: u fucking <3 bet <3 they would <3 maladjusted trainwrecks <3333333

#comforting to know that all of my instincts about how BH would handle a doppelganger trust exercises aligned wIth what they did. everything #im seeing feels right. trust exercise? detect thoughts time . what do you mean im not alllowed to is that NOT how trust works. #of COURSE i trust u. my trust is dependent on very specific things that are kind of indistinguishable from my distrust of u. thats normal #and good even. #hey this is an important exercise to build trust. however it would be SOOOO funny if i fucked with u rn so... hmm..... #anyway. maladjusted. im sure im missing plenty of details but this was fun to catch up on everyone keep up ur posts theyre great #critical role #cr spoilers #c3e80 #? #bell's hells #shitpost #still alive! just tremendously behind and busy! but glad good and fun things are happening in campaign still lmao

[qrovidcore]

sometimes you long rest on eight (8) bottles of wine and exactly nothing else and then find out that night that you’re a bhaalspawn. just normal things.

#and then have the ensuing conversation about being a bhaalspawn with your partner while both of you are very hung over #astarion: so how are you feeling? #durge: Please Throw Me In The Pit. Definitely The Pit. #how’s bg3 going? well i picked a great night to try to get that one achievement :) #it did hit me VERY hard that my first instinct was to run right to astarion and tell him everything ;-; #<= fully in character. we’re being slow about breaking the news to everyone else but astarion can be trusted right away ;-; #bg3 #the paranoid android speaks!

[stargirl-and-potts]

Ed was right, there were several storms coming — Ned Lowe, the British invasion, the end of the age of piracy — and Izzy dismissing him as “a mopey twat” means he never did learn 1) Ed’s gut feelings usually have a reason behind them, something he’s observed, even if he can’t articulate it 2) Ed’s moods have tangible reasons too and bullying him over them just makes him bury them 3) Ed doesn’t need a “hell no” guy. He needs a “yes and” guy who trusts Ed’s instincts and helps him talk his feelings out till he figures out what the problem is and a solid plan for tackling it.

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #that’s why he and Stede are perfect for each other #Izzy got that part right #I have adhd and yeah. this is exquisitely relatable #I’ve had good and bad mentors and that was the difference #did they trust my instincts #did they make space for me to work through my problems #or did they just try to push me to handle things their way

[atlantis-just-drowned]

"You were so right to distance yourself from that group of people !"

Thanks for the ego boost. I did it with the help of my coping mechanisms, my trauma responses and the ability to over-analyse everything until it makes sense.

Now, spill the tea. What happened, in great details.

#I LOVE IT WHEN THEY ADMIT I WAS RIGHT #TRUST MY INSTINCTS GUYS I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING #(i don't) #when it comes to people i always have my reasons #and damn it they're very good reasons #i didn't notice how much i needed this validation until i received it #like 'ah yes you were right from the beginning your opinion is valuable' OH MY GOSH BESTIE THANK YOU I LOVE YOU #i won against the hesitation and the nostalgia i'm gonna celebrate it right now guys i was RIGHT and they ADMITED IT #it's so comforting to know i'm right when it comes to the people i can trust #sometimes i'm wrong yeah but most of the time i can trust myself and it's good news #but also i love to hear their dramas i need all the details without getting involved lmao #they're so stupid and toxic it's fun to watch them destroy themselves <3 #toxic people #toxicity #toxic relationship #toxic friends #toxic frienship #whispers from atlantis #bestie's trinkets box

[loz-the-noob]

This is Jay (short for JJ… which is short for Jellycat Jack), and he loves adventure so much that he went on one even before coming home for the first time!

#I AM SO GLAD I TRUSTED MY INSTINCTS he was the last one in my local store <333 #His fur is this lovely off-white that makes every picture look like it has a filter on and he has this inexplicable nostalgic aura #I love hiiiimmm #DON’T let people talking about the fur quality put you off it feels like it’ll wear better than the stuff they use on bashfulls #and it’s still really soft #and easier to clean! As I learnt the hard way when he fell in the mud</3 #seriously it brushed right off it’s great #it feels sort of like the stuff they use in tassels on like rugs and cushions and stuff #plushblr #Jay! #jellycat jack #Jellycat 25th anniversary

[craycraybluejay]

i miss them.. they made me feel so excited and hurt and scared and things.. i fucking hate them its been years and i miss this stupid motherfucker suddenly again

#all the degrading and control god take me back #the cruel indifference #do all dreams have to end? #i dont know if ill ever feel so indulged again #so allowed to be feral. animal. nothing but instinct and sensation #it was complete chaos and it was 'morally corrupt' but by god it kept me so happy and satisfied #i dont think ive felt anything but fleeting (minutes) joy since it was over i didnt have that crutch anymore #i was right. it left me untethered. #untethered much like a balloon i will float float float away #and im still angry still impulsive and pain seeking and hungry #whenever i felt i was going to explode out of my skin i had an outlet #without one i get physically sick with it with all the energy and feeling and impulse #its like my whole body is wrapped in live wire #worse was that i trusted them and it wasnt just a clean cut and dry its over #it was ugly and fucking awful and completely caught me off guard #i still have the memories saved i could go and look #i shouldnt. not tonight. not this impulse #i will become so much angrier it isnt worth the pleasure

[neverendingford]

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#ughhhhh I fee like a fucking animal in human skin I want to race and scream and tear and howl and fuck and climb and tear and bite and twitc #how do people survive how the fuck do people survive I can't live with the human ability of forethought and future prediction my mind goes #linsane with the fact that there's so many possibilities and it's all unknown asnd we're all just fucking around hoping things work out lik #we hope and it's all just fuckin cerebral torture and torment and I just want to be a fucking labrador I just want to be an animal followin #.instincts and just doing what feels right without having to constantly doubt my own thoughts because I can trust the physical messages my #body sends but I can't fucking trust my thoughts or emotions basically ever and I joke about doing science and collecting data but for real #I'm doing that becasue I can't trust my conclusions I can' #t trust my hypotheses I can't trust my theories I can only trruyst the outcome of my actions because I can't predict what will happen I can #just trust what actually happens when I do it. I have to fuckk around and find out because I don't know what will happen otherwise because #can't trust what will happen otherwise oooohohsdlfkhslgkhasl;dkfjfslkghjlk fuck I hate this #.

[dgct2]

I'm taking Byrne with me. I trust her instincts.

2.05 BOLO

#absentia #partners #already trusts her instincts #the right team #emily byrne #stana katic #cal isaac #matthew le nevez #emily x cal #cal x emily #my gifs #absentiaedit #2x05 bolo

[kikiknits]

Deducing the problem in your lace pattern and debating whether or not to rip out…

Got off track abt 7 rows back.

I course corrected, but the entire thing is off by a singular stitch, and trying to figure out if I am bothered by it enough to rip all the way back.

#It is a lace pattern lace weight towards the end of the shawl. Like two days worth of work 😬 #and I didn’t use a lifeline #and it’s lace #which is risky to rip back and i am less than confident i could do it without risking the integrity of the pattern further #but also it is a gift for my mom #and wanted it to be perfect for her #shoulda just trusted my instincts bc at that row i was like #this doesn’t feel right #but the pattern is wonky and it was a transition section #so i was like no babe we’ll trust the process #shoulda trusted myself instead #kiki shouts in the void

[supernovaa-remnant]

god sapnap and dream's synergy is actually insane they're literally on each other's wavelengths like they're having the same thoughts of when to stop when to go and they're communicating it to each other (and everyone else) so well

#I love them so much :(( #vod watching #okay bit funny timing because literally right after making this post I unpaused the vod and sapnap made a slight error #and dream was like 'I told you I told you' #but also smth abt dream trusting sapnap over his own instinct :(( #refusing to leave sapnap behind even when his instincts told him to go #dreamnapies my dreamnapies <33

[boligona]

Lese grade der Puppenmacher und bin auf Seite 140/197. Bevor ich weiterlese, stelle ich eine eigene Vermutung auf, wer der wahre Täter ist und was sein Motiv ist

[SPOILER ALERT! NICHT WEITERLESEN, WENN IHR PLANT DAS BUCH SELBER ZU LESEN]

Für Pecj aus der Zukunft: Mein Verdacht liegt auf den Nachbarn von Tricia, Mr. Rice oder wie er nochmal hieß 💀 Der Mann will doch eh das ganze Land, das einzige Stück was er noch nicht hat, ist das von Tricia, die es unter keinen Umständen aufgeben will.

1. Er hat easy access zu der Scheune

2.beobachtet Tricia‘s Haus nachts durch ein Fernglas

3. ist sowieso abgefuckt, dass ihre Gäste/ihr Hund/sonst irgendwas was annähernd von ihr oder Kenneth oder sonst wem auf sein Grundstück läuft (dawg der typ ist obsessed mit seiner Schrotflinte), das Land zu kriegen gibt ihm weniger Kopfschmerzen

4. Da sowieso jeder von Johnsons Gefängnisstrafe und seinem Wohnsitz weiß, kann er auch easy an die Maispuppen kommen

5. Daher, dass er auch von Kenneth und Tricia‘s Hochzeit weiß, kann es sein, dass er a) kein Bock auf ungebetene Gäste auf seinem Grundstück hat und b) diese Tatsache ausnutzt um Streit zwischen den Verlobten auszulösen und sie zu trennen, weil Tricias Vergangenheit mit Johnson Kenneth glauben lässt, er ist für den Terror verantwortlich —> Aufbau von Krisen lässt Hochzeit verblasen und mehr Stress zwischen die beiden aufbauen —> Sie trennen sich (in Rice‘s Hoffnung), Auszug folgt und durch den emotionalen Druck und Tiefschlag kann Rice wieder das Gelände gewinnen, weil Tricia kein Bock mehr auf irgendwen und keine Nerven für einen solchen Nachbarn wie ihn hat.

Johnson eignet sich sowieso als Sündenbock durch seine Vergangenheit mit Tricia. Er hat sie über 30h in den Keller ohne sonst was eingesperrt, er hat ihr bei seiner Verhaftung gedroht, Rache zu schwören, dann taucht er früher als erwartet wieder und die Puppen mot den Gruselgesichtern erscheinen an den „Tatorten“. Was braucht man mehr, um von sich abzulenken? Es ist ein geschenktes Fressen für jemanden wie Rice

hatte noch irgendeinen Grund im Kopf aber ich hab ihn vergessen. Egal, nur Pecj in der Zukunft weiß, wer es wirklich ist und ob ich Recht behalte

-Pecj aus der Vergangenheit

#die drei ??? #die drei fragezeichen #Folge: Der Puppenmacher #I better be right I need to trust my female instinct #btw die Szene wo Kenneth von seiner Verlobten verhaftet und kaltgelassen wurde hat mich so zerstört

[ironwoman359]

Hey question does being a hetromantic ace means youre a straight cis person who doesnt have sex right? Bc that describes my cishet parents very well.

(I am a gay transmasc who knows very little abt asexuality but ily!! 💛)

No, being a heteromantic ace means I am a person who doesn't experience sexual attraction but am romantically attracted to the opposite gender. Being asexual has nothing to do with whether or not a person has sex, plenty of asexual people do have sex, just as there are heterosexual people, including your parents apparently, who do not. Attraction does not equal action OR inaction.

#asks and answers #ace things #honestly anon imma be real i dont trust this ask one stinkin bit #it REEKS of bait #but im going to make the charitable assumption that you are both young and inexperienced on tumblr #and therefore dont know the history of 'ace diskhorse' on this site #nor do you realize how this ask comes across #however if my gut instinct that this is some aphobe in my inbox trying to make me get all defensive turns out to be right #then i will block you so fast that your head will spin #<3 #taylor talks

[57sfinest]

what do you think the best case scenario is for jean and harry's relationship post-martinaise?

okay so not to be Like That but i do have one fic up about this with another one currently in the works

but anyway. obviously their relationship is never going to go back to the way it was. there was just SO MUCH between them that they have no hope of restoring with harry's amnesia, and also jean knows rationally that things shouldn't ever be the way they were again. it's not like they were ever supposed to be that way anyway.

in the best-case, i think it takes MONTHS for them to even start to bridge the gap, and harry has to initiate it. jean is done being the one reaching out, being the fixer, overlooking things. IF harry wants him back, as a friend or anything else- and secretly jean wants him to want him back, but he'll never admit that- he has to take the first steps and do the work. so first harry has to put in the work to recover (if harry kept using drugs, i don't think jean would care, but he'd have to kick the alcohol) and then harry has to put in the personal work and learn how to communicate properly and respect boundaries. even when he starts trying i think jean pushes back for a while and harry has to take his turn being the bigger person and let jean complain or shut him down or whatever and not bitch about it or start a fight, because that will just push jean away more.

best-case is that harry passes these little trials of jean's, and they finally sit down and have an actual conversation about everything and clear the air. i don't think it's a pretty conversation, but they (jean mostly) says a lot of things that have needed to be said for a long time. assuming this goes to jean's satisfaction i think they agree- harry gets ONE more chance to stay on jean's good side.

buffered by the few months of jean REALLY hating harry and resenting him and being jealous of his second chance and all that, i think a friendship between them has a better chance to be healthy at this point. harry is ostensibly working on his shitty habits and behaviors, and now harry probably has kim (and possibly others) to talk to, which takes a lot of the burden off jean, because imo one of the biggest issues harry and jean had was a lack of distance. they just couldn't get away from each other, and ended up not wanting to. so now they have an opportunity to keep a healthy buffer and *choose* to engage, which also allows them to step away from one another if things get heated. yes, they'll definitely still clash sometimes, but it's a lot easier to deal with when they can just agree to leave the argument there and not speak until they've gotten over themselves.

the best-case requires harry to do a lot of personal work but assuming he does do it, i do think he and jean could go back to being friends. their new relationship would definitely start off very rocky and tentative- mostly harry is afraid to ruin it again- but given enough time i think harry proves it's for real this time and they can come to actually trust each other and be comfortable around one another.

#there's a lot of capacity for hurt in that first year or so of their new attempt at friendship #no matter what jean just can't get the old harry out of his head #like harry has some kind of crisis and jean's instinct is still 'he's doing this for attention :/' #jean is still in this mindset of 'fuck harry he hurt me so i can hurt him back' and it takes a lot to get him out of it #he's not super comfortable being a shoulder for harry to cry on for a while because he's just holding his breath #waiting for the other shoe to drop. for months he doesn't believe harry is capable of getting better #and he's justified given harry's old attitude but like. post-amnesia harry is a different person #and he can't come to terms with that right away #once harrys earned trust back though theyre menaces. #harry holding jean in the most annoying bear hug on earth like #'hi everyone this is my beeest friend jean he loves me soooooooo much he'd never say anything mean to me' #jean pinches harry as hard as he possibly can like 'let go of me i fucking hate you. fucking moron' #then they go get dinner #thats a minor hc of mine. in their repaired friendship jean stays playfully aggressive towards harry a lot #but harry feels he needs to be a little more careful so doesn't do that much. although he does taunt jean a lot regardless #kiwipost #ACTIVATING MY MENTAL ILLNESS!!! #harry: this is my bestie jean. i made him a friendship bracelet but threw it in the trash #jean: this is my rescue dog harry. i don't kick him as much these days even though i really want to #(they are best friends. jean won't say so) #jean vicquemare #harry du bois #ask #jv meta #hdb meta