#Wow I've written a lot

[tswwwit]

I'm putting Bill vs Bill up on AO3 for no good reason!

Forget everything else I've ever complained about with writing; titles and summaries are by far the worst.

#In other news I'm making some good progress on writing other stuff #Got 1k words in one document and 600 added to another #That's pretty good for me #Might answer some asks or whatever later tonight #Sorry for all the posts today with nothing substantial in them #Just know that I'm sure the upcoming writing will delight at least a few of you #I have that 'oh ho ho' writer cackle as I type some things here #Some of those things are saucy #By the next chapter I post on AO3 I'll have crossed the half million word mark #Wow I've written a lot

[tenshi-agerasia]

ensemble stars characters as things i experienced on a cruise to mexico

i'm waiting for a flight that i'm ten hours early for so here's some rare 鬼畜 text content . incorrect quotes and imagined scenarios, long post under the cut

starting off with some incorrect quotes

rei: can you walk?

eichi: i think so, i'm much more energetic nowadays-

rei: no you're not. shiratori-kun, get him a wheelchair, we're skipping all the lines at the airport‎‎

‎-

eichi, getting physically patted down by tsa in a small dark room because his wheelchair couldn't go through the full-body scanner and it was too much physical effort to stand up: this is all sakuma-kun's fault

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aira: tenshouin-senpai! you almost left your louis vuitton designer scarf at the security checkpoint! what if someone had stolen it?!

eichi: thank you, shiratori-kun! but it's fake

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akatsuki in the elevator with a group of strangers

stranger, in a thick southern accent: so what're y'all up to t'night?

silence

souma stares straight ahead. he thinks the stranger isn't talking to them.

stranger, feeling slightly awkward: so, y'all stayin' in your room?

kuro: um... yeah

-

afterwards

keito: how did he know that our room doesn't have a window

kuro: ???

keito: ??? he said something about our stateroom not having a window like his

kuro: you mean when he asked if we were staying in our room?

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hokuto: how much money have you spent at the arcade

makoto: uhhhh... i don't know, i'm not good at math

mao: how much did each of the figurine blind bags cost you

makoto: four plays is $4.50 and i get an average of 87 tickets at the piano game. the gachapon is 750 tickets each, and 750 / 87 = around 8.62 plays, and 8.62 x 4.50 / 4 = $9.6975

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wataru: iiiiiit's..... showtiiiiiime....

yuta: can we leave

hinata: the waiters are dancing now, we can't just leave

one minute later

yuta: can we leave

hinata: i'd love to see you try to leave in this situation

three minutes later

yuta: can we leave

hinata: QUICK THEY STOPPED MAKE A RUN FOR IT

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jun: i don't like my new haircut

jin, shaking his head knowingly: yeah you shouldn't have cut it on a cruise

jun: i lied. i love my new haircut it means the world to me

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jun, still struggling to come to terms with his new haircut: now i kind of look like the scaramouche guy from genshin

hiyori: i was thinking more like edna from the incredibles

some people that i encountered!

kaoru as the guy that (successfully) invited one of the waitresses to dance

yuzuru as the sweet lady who asked me how to swipe her room card for the arcade because her son (tori) wanted to play a game

ritsu as my mom who spent most of the time sleeping

rinne as the tour guide that would add "rawr" to the end of his jokes

tsumugi as the poor woman who got stuck in a hammock and had to ask me for help

yuta as my brother who i forced to go on a rusty cable sliding thing you could only hold on to by hand, only for it to get stuck before it reached the middle

hinata as me who dragged the rope attached to the handle and tried to run (on sand) to pull yuta/my brother on the cable slide, only for him to fall (on sand)

rei as the people who watched and laughed

yuzuru as me playing the discord golf game with my friends on vc, only to get screwed over by the lag from cruise wifi

anzu as my friends who were still at home and took this chance to win by miles

makoto as my brother and i when we made one of the arcade machines run out of tickets to dispense three times

makoto as my brother who dominated the entire leaderboard of a piano game with his high scores

tomoya as my mom who was upset that she didn't get to see any flamingos up close

mao as the guest services guy who kept getting interrupted by phone calls that lasted less than 50 seconds

tsumugi as the worker who asked me "do you speak mandarin or chinese?"

adonis as my dad who would only eat meat because "it's more worth it that way"

hiyori as the hair stylist that gave me the scaramouche/edna haircut and kept calling me "madame" and insisted that i trust his vision (he was a lovely guy, i just wanted it more short :()

anzu as my aunts that were constantly trying to video call my mom on wechat, only for the call to disconnect because cruise wifi sucks

mayoi as the dinner waiter that jumpscared my mom on the lunch buffet line

midori as the buffet worker who kept sorting the lettuce leaves by size and color

rinne as the guy at the casino who told a worker he wanted to "have a gambling addiction responsibly"

tori and tsukasa as the little girls who tried to convince their mom to let them eat only cake for lunch

kaoru as the white guy who tried to engage in a conversation with me in the elevator but only made the situation more awkward

souma as the guy who got into an argument with someone (kaoru) over whether the fish he ate was bass or salmon (it was salmon with some bass)

shinobu as the boy who ran up and down the stairs yelling that he was looking for ducks (?)

wataru as the russian lady in charge of the dining room who would loudly whisper "iiiiiit's...... showtiiiiiiime" into a microphone every evening

tomoya as the waiter with a tired, dead inside expression who still had to dance for the russian lady's "showtime"

adonis as the guy that woke up at six in the morning to run laps around the deck for some unknown reason

wataru as the guy who posed for a picture like he was pinching the setting sun

hokuto as the guy taking the picture, but from an angle that made wataru look like he was pinching nothing and standing there stupidly

promo time ~ preorders for the niki's cookbook fanzine are open until march 12! i made some recipes for it, go check it out :)

#i saw someone with a “cyberwar veteran” tag and a “taylor swift 2024” election shirt at the airport #i cannot be certain of their pronouns but i can raise my eyebrow and go “oh they're one of those” /neutral #i regret going on this trip #ensemble stars #i get home at one in the morning sob #enstars #enstars textpost #we were like the only asian people on the cruise and wow were we stared at a lot #enstars incorrect quotes #not proofread i've been awake for too long #midori takamine #shinobu sengoku #rei sakuma #eichi tenshouin #aira shiratori #hell dorm #i love them #couldn't even read lofter or ao3 on the cruise #didn't even get another eisekai chapter written #and i brought my tablet only for it to stay in my bag unused :( #my hair stylist was apparently a hairdresser for famous bollywood actors but my mom doesn't believe him #i look like a flat mushroom head now #souma kanzaki #kuro kiryu #keito hasumi #i watched joy ride on the plane #it was pretty good #hokuto hidaka #makoto yuki #mao isara

[secondbeatsongs]

replaying Life Is Strange, and hoo boy, I was not prepared for the emotional impact of seeing what it was like to be a teenager/young adult in the early 10s

I remember it all too well

#lis #life is strange #personal #I'm older than Max #so it doesn't track exactly #but still. this is. wow #remember when facebook was still a social media platform that millennials used? #remember when it was ten years ago and people used different words and wore different clothes? #well. some people wore different clothes #I don't think I've upgraded my wardrobe in a while lol #but yeah this is. a wild experience #I'm enjoying it but it's a bit bittersweet #and not just because of the plot of the game #2013 is gone and we can't get it back #but this is like visiting it just to say hello #it's not exact of course - this came out in 2015 and was written (presumably) by not-teenagers #but there's a lot of weird nostalgia here

[singsweetmelodies]

milestone time... 😳

this is my AO3 word count - from 2023 alone. this means that, when i publish my very next fic... i will officially have written over two hundred thousand words of piarles in this year. AND THE YEAR ISN'T EVEN OVER YET.

holy fucking shit guys x

#katie rambles #myfic #YEAH THIS IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE TO ME #two hundred fucking thousand????? #i've officially lost the plot #or; well; rather... #i've WRITTEN the plot #quite a lot of plots actually #😆 #in all seriousness though... WOW #(practically) two hundred thousand... sheesh #needed to come scream about this a bit! #😳🤯😍😵‍💫

[cookinguptales]

also I do think it’s so fucking funny that after learning that The Guide got banished/mind-wiped by the vampiric government after fucking a Van Helsing, Laszlo and Nadja immediately try to get her to do it again.

like they just give zero fucks if she gets obliterated as long as they get their nightclub, huh? lmao

#though I didn't enjoy seeing her predator on Guillermo that made me uncomfortable #them trying to set the two up again though was very funny #I have always had a weakness for Nadja or Laszlo being Concerned at Nandor and Guillermo's relationship #I've written it into... a lot of fics #but wow it'd be even more so now huh #I'm here for it #wwdits #wwdits s4 spoilers

[carlyraejepsans]

hi im literally obsessed with how you drew Cecil Palmer thats canon to me now especially the sandals with one sock. weird question: have you ever drawn kevin? 👁👁

nope, haha! sorry, but while i adore wtnv and it's been hugely formative to me growing up, I don't actually do art for it? that cecil design you mentioned is something i made up on the fly by mixing my jon sims and sherlock holmes designs. I'm so happy to hear you liked it though! i suppose if i were ever to draw kevin, he'd look very similar, except with tidier, slicked back hair and dressed... not like that lol

#it's been so long I've forgotten a lot about the show. i did pick it back up some time ago in honor of cecilsweep! #i thiiiink i got to the wheat byproducts episode? i did reach hiram mcdaniels at least #which. wow . that is actually the first time i see that written down! not how i thought it would be spelled. anyway thanks again :] #answered asks

[aroundthewaygirlao3]

After @fan-girl-able asked about missing moments from my AUs, I'm curious. My dozen or so Tumblr friends, which is your favorite AU that I've written for our fave couple? (I may do another one for my future fics that are in universe!)

#portwell #gina x ej #ej x gina #gina and ej #ej and gina #portwell fanfic #portwell fanfiction #aroundthewaygirl on ao3 #aroundthewaygirl on a03 #portwellfanfic #portwell nation #wow I've written a lot of fics in two years huh

[piratefalls]

writing patterns

Tagged by @wellhalesbells! thanks friend!

Rules: list the first line of your last 10 (posted) fics and see if there's a pattern! I'm going from oldest to newest.

What kind of rock is this? (Sedimentary, my dear Watson) | Hawaii Five-0 | McDanno | 3.7k

Steve is sitting in the driver’s seat of the Camaro, adjusting what has to be the single most uncomfortable seashell bra to ever be mass produced, and curses Mary’s inability to find even the most ridiculous costumes in an adult size.

2. & lift him back up again | Hawaii Five-0 | McDanno | 3.4k

“Steve,” Danny murmurs, one hand resting on Steve’s shoulder, gently nudging him to turn onto his back in their bed. “Babe, you gotta get up. You got -- you got stuff to take care of today.”

3. Got Your Body On My Mind (I Want It Bad) | Hawaii Five-0 | McDanno | 2.9k

Throughout the course of his life, Danny Williams has had to sit through a number of unpleasant experiences.

4. Always Let Your Conscience Be Your Guide | Teen Wolf | Sterek | 9k

Before he knows it, two months have gone by.

5. To Infinity and Beyond | Teen Wolf | Sterek | 1k

It’s a few weeks later, and Derek is sweating as he sits among a sea of people (but more specifically, right next to Stiles’ dad) as he listens to the Beacon Hills High School principal list off name after name as students walk across the stage to accept their diplomas.

6. this relationship we're staging | Hawaii Five-0 | McDanno | 2k

Steve generally doesn’t sleep with the fan on.

7. it's nice to say that we played in the dirt | Hawaii Five-0 | McDanno | 3.7k

She’s back on the islands for the first time in two years – at least, in the sense that she’s not there for work – and it hits her almost immediately how much she’s missed this place.

8. that's no concern when we're wounded together | Hawaii Five-0 | McDanno | 2.4k

Steve’s thrashing wakes Danny out of a deep sleep.

9. you and me get too real but all I feel is alright | Hawaii Five-0 | McDanno | 11k

Hell Week had prepared Steve for a multitude of situations, but it had nothing on two weeks of solitary confinement in Halawa Correctional Facility.

10. it's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes | Hawaii Five-0 | McDanno | 3k

It’s that weird period between Thanksgiving and Christmas where no one really knows what their plans are.

tagging: @priincebutt because you tagged me in the other thing so this is like...tradesies. and if anyone else wants to do this, that's cool too!

#wow can you tell I only wrote in two fandoms lol #a lot of these wound up being from the same 'verse #and I really wish I could have shared my favorite line from number 3 because I still think it's one of the funniest things I've written #about me

[not-poignant]

I hope this doesn't come off as pressuring at all, I'm definitely not expecting anything, I just wanted to let you know that I really enjoyed a game we can try (I made like 3 separate comments and then deleted them bcos anxiety skjdhkjh) and will definitely look forward to updates /if/ they ever happen (either way I'm rereading it regularly ofc ^.^) ty for the work you do & im so sorry it didn't get the engagement it deserved!!

<333 Thanks anon, I hope I can return to it one day. I'm definitely not calling it on permahiatus yet or cancelled or anything, it's more just, 'it depresses me to think about right now so Ima wait.'

For what it's worth, just leaving a heart counts as a comment. And it lets me know that people are reading. There's nothing to stop someone from later coming back and leaving a second comment if they want to (like one with words), but if you've ever looked in my comment sections, you'll always see a few people just offering hearts, and I always reply to them, and like... it counts!

Unfortunately authors just don't know how appealing something is if there's not much engagement. I think if my motivations had been different - i.e. if like Smoke in Autumn I didn't care if people were reading it or not - I'd be writing it still, but this story, while I've always wanted to write it, came at this specific time as my love for kind of the Iron Lion fandom and its people, and well...

Well... anyway, hopefully I can return to it. It's definitely not ruled out. But I might make it way way shorter than I initially intended to.

#asks and answers #a game we can try #thespectaclesofthor #i feel like there's a lot of fanfic i've written where i really haven't cared about the response #like my Houseki no Kuni fic #but wow it hurts so much more when you do #and it just kind of flatlines #like to date in a month's time #it's been around 15 comments #many by people who found it completely by accident #that's a LOT of comments to some #and i am VERY lucky to get any comments at all #but most of my stuff averages around 15 comments in *24 hours* #again i am very very lucky to get these comments #and these commenters are all incredible #i just also have to make money to eat food #and if i have to choose also between a popular fanfic and one that i *thought* would be popular #but is slumping along behind it #i have ADHD i will go where the dopamine is sfdalfkjdas

[cormorantgospel]

first sentence game!

Saw the wonderful and talented @bettsfic doing this and thought it would be fun to try.

Rules: share the first lines of ten of your most recent fanfics and tag ten people. If you have written less than ten, don’t be shy and share anyway.

1. Summer ends, and fall rolls around, and the golden child fucks off to university. (NMTD, John/Hero, WIP collab with @melhymnia)

2. When Changbin was three years old, his family moved from Korea to Australia. When he was four, Changbin’s brother was born. When he was five, his brother was stolen, and replaced with something else that looked like a child but wasn’t one. (Stray Kids, Changbin/Felix, WIP collab with @amorphine)

3. The summer after you turned 18, they found a perfectly preserved prehistoric bird in a glacier in Switzerland. (The Glacier Bird)

4. Mary woke with a start and sat up in bed, looking wild-eyed around the room. In the dark, the deep shadows resolved themselves into familiar shapes only because she knew what they were by daylight. (Reeling from the Fall)

5. It’s been two days, and you barely remember the reaping anymore. If you really dig you can sort of recall the very beginning, the jostling of shoulders as you found your place among the other 17-year-olds, the nervous breath of the boy behind you tickling the back of your neck while you waited for the names to be called. (Children of the Colloseum)

6. Song Lan’s sword pierces Xue Yang’s chest and the crazy, high pitched laughter hitches, but doesn’t stop. (Keep a Place for Me)

7. This is how the last year of the second wizarding war passes: before the summer has ended, the Ministry falls to the Death Eaters, and in the same breath, so does Hogwarts. (We’ll Never Be Those Kids Again)

8. Colonel Mustang and Lieutenant Hawkeye had been sent to a small village in south-east Amestris on what was supposed to be an easy job. (Dog of the Military)

9. Things have been good between her and Eddie lately. They’ve been surprisingly good between Eddie and Dan too, which is something she wouldn’t have dared hope for just a couple of months ago, but now it feels almost inevitable. She supposes that’s one good thing to come out of that whole… alien debacle. (The Opposite of Loneliness)

10. Your name is Dave Strider, you are in your first year of college, and you’re pretty sure you’re supposed to be having the time of your life. Instead, you’re at a boring party in a ridiculous frat-house where everyone seems hell-bent on acting out some Hollywood-prescribed vision of exactly what that is supposed to be like. (Feeding the Idea of You)

Tagging @amorphine​ @northerniodine @deservingporcupine @laurasauras and anyone else interested!

#fic game #my writing #homestuck #stray kids #nmtd #venom #full metal alchemist #cql #ofmd #harry potter #wow I've written for like... a lot of different fandoms at this point

[kuiinncedes]

all i know is a simple name everything has changed

#glee #klaine #kurt hummel #blaine anderson #not me doing the exact same thing i did for nick and charlie lol 🤪 #(that's on my main if anyone wants to see it's not that good lmao ) #it's literally Their Song but i decided to do this too XD #i even used the same filter lmfao #not me using these same screenshots for 3497658745 things lol #i mean this is a good way to kill boredom tho lowkey lol i'm just sitting here doing nothing and it's like #hm let's put some taylor lyrics that i've written on some screenshots lol #my new sketchbook is taking forever to get here for some reason so i can't do any new lyric designs so #there might be more of these coming XD i think i said that for my all too well one too tho lol #i mean i got a lot of lyric designs to put on screenshots lmao so 🤪 #what if i just keep doing this and annoying y'all with it XD #lowkey highkey eyeing my lyric thing for sad beautiful tragic to put on something lol #i actually finished my old sketchbook wow i got it as a bday present from a friend who isn't really a friend anymore in like 6th grade #probably lmfao but only just used up the whole thing #bc i mean only kinda recently found my love for handlettering and shit so yeah lol #anyway :] #this was so weird in terms of cropping the screenshots there just wasn't enough like shot where i needed more XD #so blaine is kinda weirdly very in the corner but it's fine lol #i did like two other versions that were worse so yeah 🤪

[thatskindasapphic]

My fucking neurologist confirmed that I'm autistic holy shit I can't believe someone listened to me for once I love her so much

#h talks #she brought it up and asked if I'd considered it because she's seeing a lot of cases with similar pain to me that are also autistic #and I said yes actually I just never brought it up. but I have a list of all of my symptoms that are common or match with the dsm criteria #and she said let me read it #and she read the whole list and was like yes ok so its definitely autism. you can have this as a diagnosis and if you need one written- #you can ask me for it #HOLY SHIT? #and she validated me too and was like you're doing really well considering your circumstances. and there's nothing wrong with you- #your brain just works different #and I was like amwjfjgfjfjrgjgjrjejfj *crying* #she said like I understand why you would worry that no one would take you seriously if you asked about it #but I've seen a lot of cases and because I'm familiar with it and you compiled your own list separate of that its valid for me to- #diagnose you unofficially #like wow. ok #by far the most validating doctors appt I've ever had

[brave-frontier-imagines]

Farewell, Summoner. Farewell, Brave Frontier

Imagine you, the Summoner, standing at the Gate that first brought you to this wonderful world in the first place. It’s always towered over you, bathing you and the surrounding light in a warm glow. Though now you think, has the Gate gotten shorter? Perhaps you’ve grown instead over the years.

Imagine you, the Summoner, standing there, gazing back into your original world. It is time to say goodbye. You knew this day was coming for a long time. But perhaps you didn’t think it would come so soon and so suddenly. Perhaps it’s been a while since you even came to visit the Units you’d come to inherit and cherish. Perhaps you came back for closure one last time, to make some final memories and say your goodbyes.

Imagine your Units, whomever they may be, seeing you off. All of them gathered just to say a final farewell. They all came to understand the course of fate. It brought you and them here, and now it comes time to part for good.

Imagine your favorite unit stepping forth, perhaps alongside the individual of the Six Heroes who was your very first summon, and perhaps alongside the very first Rare Summon you had ever pulled. Maybe it’s your entire favorite squad, too.

“Summoner,” they say. “This is it, isn’t it? Hey, don’t you worry about us. We had some really good times. The memories you made back then, and the memories you make from this moment forward, will all always be with you. Just as we’ll be with you in spirit when you look back on what you did for us here.”

Maybe they shake your hand or hug you afterwards. Whatever comforts you. 

“Don’t worry about the things you didn’t get to do in time,” they say. “You did enough. Be proud of what you did achieve.”

Maybe... you’re sad. Maybe you don’t want to say goodbye to this world after the years you spent here (however long it may have been; perhaps you were here from the very beginning, perhaps just a few years ago. But no matter how long it was you spent here, it still holds significance). Maybe you’re still coming to terms with it all. Maybe you hope one day you’ll be able to come back in some way, shape, or form.

Maybe you’re reluctant to step through the Gate for the last time.

Eventually, you, the Summoner, force yourself to. Time has to march forward, after all. Maybe this goodbye will be temporary. Maybe it’ll be permanent. It’s scary, like most things in life. But it’s okay, that’s natural.

Before you finally step through, however, one of your favorite units calls out to you again.

“Summoner!!” they call. “Thank you! For everything!! You gave us purpose again! You gave our second chances meaning! We hope... that you don’t forget us or the good times we had. Good luck wherever you go! And may we meet again one day!”

You smile, waving back at them. You turn back to the Gate.

Once you step through, it will close, perhaps forever. But the friends you made and the memories you shared will remain in your heart.

Once that Gate closes, another in your life will open. 

Look forward to it, and make the most of the next adventure in your life, Summoner!

#brave frontier #mod chu #summoner #Self Insert #it's been a while hasn't it? I'm sorry this blog stopped so suddenly ages ago #life had gotten in the way for all of us as it likes to do #I can't imagine that the old followers are still around to see this #but if you are it's good to see you again! i hope you're well #I've grown up since I was last here. it's kinda scary how much life changes right? #bf never permanently left my mind though; i was wrecked to hear it was closing and i'll be a wreck when it closes for good 4 hours from now #i looked back on this blog and realized huh wow some of the things i wrote are not good for lots of reasons! and i want to apologize for tha #i'm sorry. some of these old imagines i would not #have written or approved of if i had gotten them today #that being said i know this imagine has a sense of finality to it #but maybe one day when i'm not busy and back to mourning bf i'll go back and actually do some of the asks that were left in the box #so long as the prompt either interests me and/or the sender is still active #who knows; maybe i'll even be willing to answer new asks if anyone wants some closure of their own #no absolute promises though #until then make the most of the time you've got #and thank you for reading whether you're new or not #and to the other mods if you see this... thank you for the time we spent here #i'm around if you ever wanna say hi! but mostly on twitter!

[bsaka7]

i did finish the fic!!!! gave me the like “omg what do i even do with these feelings now” hahaha it really is such a masterpiece!

the character foils were everything!!! obviously pierre and esteban at the core but even the relationship of pierre and charles compared to his with esteban, pierres career compared to estebans, pierres family etc etc it all interacts to create such a wonderful picture of who they are and how they have… become who they are??? like even from the beginning, when theyre karting together and estebans first feelings are “i want to win and i want to be in the kart but hes going first :(“ and that… changes but never really goes away because its important to him and the little moments that show their diff upbringing too like… pierre asking for like. snacks for instance, and not having that fear of being rude and having something taken away from him that esteban has, like his interactions with pierres family made me want to scream because like. the cautiousness and politeness like so so so real

estebans ENTIRE relationship with crying. AGGHHHH!!!!!

and pierre not understanding why he cant separate on and off track but like. estebans put his whole self into it in a different way to what pierre has, and just exactly what its like to be kind of. insular and awkward as a kid because that DOES follow you, his difficulties fitting in with his peer group etc etc

the playing COD together made me 😭😭😭 😭 ESPECIALLY when pierre was like dude was that ur mum??? and its like. in my head ratatouille flashback pierre and estebans parents. AND ESTEBAN ADDED TO THE GROUP CHAT AND HES LIKE… im inside now :) UGHRJFJ SOBBING

omfg and all the unsent texts when pierre got demoted… esteban im literally reaching thru the screen to make u press send sorry anyway. beautiful beautiful beautiful fic thank u so much!!!! mwah!!! <3

Thank u!! This is long so under the cut haha

ahhh that's amazing to hear 😭😭 I love when writing makes me feel like that so it's an honor to be able to do it for u!!! I'm really glad I was able to flesh out that world in a way that felt real!!! I was sort of debating whether to tag this fic as a bildungsroman or not (obv I didn't) because I didn't know if there was enough character change/on loss/psychological focus... like they grow up but i wanted to keep that raw competitive core and also keep the elements of - Pierre's parents saying they tried to protect his childhood, but he moved away so young. Esteban saying he grew up quick. Etc. like you said - 'insular and awkward'. the stuff about crying (este talking about crying after getting scratched from Australia 2019 testing with merc. It destroys me). It sneaks up on u. You never escape that!!! And if you do, you have to work for it!!!!

the triangulation of Charles/pierre/esteban is like. Everything to me. I need a proper messy love triangle. i need Charles pov on the whole thing. the way Charles is. he's in a different league than them and he knows it but he wants to be loved anyway...

i think also capturing how people interact with each other online is - hard. i literally just sketched out a Cinderella story au with @nicotineteeth lmao and i keep thinking about it like. about the idiot by batuman. how can you know someone so well online and not know how it will flesh out when you meet each other. can you talk past each other without realizing it. obv here - and in most of my fic - i try to stay in the present but even with relationships like that. i feel like saying things you mean in text is. almost even worse. that was the only scene in this whole fic where both pierre and esteban weren't there and i was honestly debating it but like that's a connection too. ok sorry to ramble about something so tangential haha.

I really appreciate ur message haha. Screenshotted and saved!! I'm very glad you enjoyed my little fic and I really enjoyed hearing ur comments!!! ❤️❤️

#When i was a kid meeting my friends parents was always agonizing because I wanted them to like me and wanted nothing to do with them... #I was. A weird kid lmao. And probably also a weird young adult. #Idk like writing the fic was. Harder than normal. Maybe #But like I feel like so. Many of the comments r leaving me so raw #Like you guys r seeing so. Many things that are true but I didn't intend #And it's just. Idk. Crazy #Like yes I do love esteban. Yes he has a messy relationship with tears. Yes putting racing first closed him off to navigating things well #Idk you guys are. So insightful. It's. Wow. It's really special. #I've written a lot of fic but the response to this one is #Honestly unreal. I really can't even say how honored I am by it #I expected maybe. A third of what I've gotten like. Wow. And I've been so read. #Ask #Anyway #Next up... Fantasyfest #Then maybe yukierre cuz I have promised myself ill write it #Then 10million more. Pierresteban

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presidential alert the brothers are fightingggggg

#ramblings #em liveblogs master of ballantrae #wow that went to a lot of places so very very quickly! wow! #that was a surprising style turnaround to be sure #waitaminute this might be the first rls I've read that Actually Has A Woman In It #can't say I'm fond of alison graeme or the way she's written but it's a difference at least #I think we are supposed to find james durie rather interesting and mysterious but I just think he is Really Annoying #he's got a bit of something that reminds me of alan and silver but there's no heart behind it in the way that those two have #the captain's library

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God @ sera after the war (God made sera a war general in a war she didn't want where she watched many of her fellow angels die under her command and she became half blind)

#like wow nice you upped her to throne class which gives her more abilities but. the trauma. #<- criticizing god as if i'm not them in this story #she ends up choosing the name sera #i might end up fucking with angel classes later at least their names #a lot of the angel/demon stuff is based in christianity but i mess around with it a lot #angel classes are something i've always alluded to but never really researched so i need to do some digging there #ofc the biggest angel analysis video on youtube is by w*nd*goon which i will not be watching bc. you know. #so i'll have to do it the old fashion way by actually reading things #sassy speaks #my ocs #haven't settled on pronouns for God either need to figure something out #me when i drop random lore abt characters i've never written about here bc im always thinking abt them