#Ysayle Lives AU

[disciple-of-frost]

Also also, obviously Ysayle stayed with Estinien in Ultima Thule and together they built the way forward for the rest of the Scions. It was an icy wind that helped part the fog of despair and lead the others forward, not a frigid chill, more like a much needed cold breeze when the air is thick and still.

#i'm fine i swear #ysayle lives au #au #spoilers #ffxiv spoilers #endwalker spoilers #ffxiv

[shivasdarknight]

you want a better story. who wouldn't? {ffxiv, one sided wolysayle yearning}

Chapter 1: I never liked that ending either

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Chapter 2: So maybe I wanted to give you something more than a catalog of non-definitive acts

❆fandom: final fantasy xiv, ffxiv

❆characters: Ysayle Dangoulain, named Warriors of Light (Gwendoline, Seraphin, Teodore), elezen OC (Melisande), Hydaelyn

❆relationship: minor wol/wol, past oc/laniaitte, past ysayle/heustienne, heavily referenced wolysayle and ysayle/venat

❆dynamic: gen, implied f/f and m/m

❆rating: m

❆key tags: fix it fic, Ysayle Lives AU, recovery fic, POV Swap (Melisande > Ysayle), flashbacks, character study, Ysayle's mine now so I get to decide how she develops from here on out, Spoilers for late Heavensward and Stormblood

❆content warnings: cursing, implied character death, canon typical existentialism, irreality, grieving, character death, blood and gore typical of injuries, needles, family deaths, fire and related injuries, homophobic Ishgard as a setting

❆chapters: 2/? {ongoing}

❆words: 27,108 {chapter 1: 14,966. chapter 2: 12,142}

❆series: Snow and Dirty Rain {Ysayle Lives AU}

In a hail of bullets, Ysayle Dangoulain fell and this is where it should have ended. The Garleans bring her down, the Warriors of Light continue on, and one in particular remains deeply traumatized for the remainder of the story.

But that's not what happened, and somehow: Lady Iceheart yet lives, thanks to the effort of a dedicated few. ...But is this the land of the living? Or is this just one elongated, cruel joke?

Fix it fic/Ysayle Lives AU that's part of my Snow and Dirty Rain au. Timeline goes over the end of 3.0 to 4.0, and is predominantly in Ysayle's POV (chapter 1 is Melisande, chapter 2 is how things will go). From her recovery, to her building a new life for herself - Ysayle's newfound freedom allows her to explore what's going on in Ala Mhigo while the Warriors of Light are in Doma. A few misadventures, a lot of sapphic yearning - all of this to lead into i had a dream about you.

{Read Here}

#ysayle dangoulain #ysayle #Ysayle Lives AU #ffxiv fanfic #ffxiv #Snow and Dirty Rain {Ysayle Lives AU} #stories and fables #ffxiv writing #wlwxiv #xivsapphics #ffxiv fanfiction #final fantasy xiv #writing #original #melisande #gwendoline #seraphin #teodore #fanfic #fanfiction #yup we're back on the Siken titles #the name of the fic + the chapters are all from A Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out #which was not only the first poem that i read of his but it's also one of my favorites #it knocks me on my ass every time i read it especially now that ive fully read Crush #it's just such a perfect culmination of everything leading up to that poem #it hits hard on its own but it hits WAY harder if you read the poems as they're organized in Crush #Snow and Dirty Rain is also from Crush and there are references to it in A Litany in Which Things Are Crossed Out #so duh ofc i gotta reference it

[amdapor-keep]

Summoner Ysayle with a diamond carbuncle. I just think that summoner would have been a great class for her

#Ysayle Dangoulain #Ffxiv #Final fantasy fourteen #ffxiv ysayle #ask me about my ysayle lives au #mine

[grimxswathe]

Thal's Respite in Wellwick Wood is an important spot for Katsu. She used to visit it a lot during Nidhogg's possession of Estinien to beg Thal to not welcome him into His halls yet. She even brought Ysayle one more than one occcassion. Now, she visits it to pay her respects to the deities she has now personally met.

#ffxiv #xiv photos #au ra #raen #nald'thal #katsu varlineau #img.post #and yes ysayle lives in my canon #she deserves to be a scion

[iamthespineofmybook]

Inspired by some posts I saw on @anneapocalypse's blog (I hope you don't mind my tagging you):

Myriam Sangvitrail

B A S I C S

Name: Myriam Sanvitrail

Nicknames: Myr, Captain

Age: 22 (Doesn’t know the exact number, though, only knowing that she was found with amnesia in her late teens in the aftermath of the Calamity)

Nameday: Third day of the third Umbral Moon (day she was adopted).

Race: Au Ra, Xaela

Gender: Demigirl, she/they

Orientation: Lesbian

Profession: Aside from Adventurer, she honestly loves cooking and alchemy, and could easily see herself opening a shop or restaurant somewhere once her wanderlust settles down.

P H Y S I C A L A S P E C T S

Hair: Auburn with slight red highlights at the end, kept in a ponytail.

Eyes: Bright yellow with black around the irises.

Skin: Extremely pale and covered in dark blue scales

Tattoos/scars: Her main scar is one that rests under her hair, and is surmised to be from the source of her amnesia.

F A M I L Y

Parents: Adopted by Osene and Draceone Sangvitrail, birth parents unknown

Siblings: none

Grandparents: never met

In-laws and Other: none

Pets: Used to care for a street cat until it didn’t come back.

S K I L L S

Abilities: After gaining skill with a lance and then becoming a Dragoon, Myriam found that she could mold the light in her self to form a weapon, which would let them throw as many lances as they wanted. After some losses that weighed heavily upon them, they also found a skill at molding the darkness as well, learning to hone it under the tutelage of the one calling themself Frey. Wielding light and dark in equal measure, Myriam is a skilled frontline fighter, and would best be described as a “dodge tank” if such a thing were actually a thing in FFXIV.

Hobbies: In addition to learning every form of gathering and crafting so that they can make and maintain all her own gear, Myriam honestly loves dancing and music, and will take any opportunity to do a quick step dance or one of the Manderville dances she learned from Hildibrand. She takes particular pride in making food and potions for people, thanks to their memories of hunger as the Calamity-induced winter caused problems for their adopted hometown’s farms.

T R A I T S

Most Positive Trait: Generally friendly with everyone, willing to learn all sorts of new things, generous with her time, and does not stand for injustice

Most Negative Trait: Angers easily, even if she tries to hide it. Also tends to get attached to pretty girls quickly, which always results in at least a little heartbreak. She’s also a ridiculous romantic, seeing romances in places they probably don’t exist, such as secretly hoping that General Raubhan and Nanamo are together.

L I K E S

Colors: Loves dark colours, especially deep reds.

Smells: A well cooked meal will always cheer her up, but her favourite scent is actually that of the Dravanian Lily.

Textures: Even though they acknowledge that their bed while she still lived with her adopted parents wasn’t the best, they have fond memories of the slightly scratchy covers, especially when their scales would itch and fingernails couldn’t do the job.

Drinks: They never liked the taste of alcohol, but found a drink made in honour of their friend (and crush) Ysayle, the “Drink of Shiva,” particularly amazing. (Actual drink from a FFXIV-themed restaurant in Akihabara, [Passion Fruit Collagen + Chardonnay Concentrate + Water + Blue Curacao (float)])

O T H E R D E T A I L S

Smokes: Never

Drinks: Non-alcohol only, if they can help it

Drugs: Only medicinal, and generally only what she’s made herself

Mount Issuance: As she greatly admires Midgardsormr, she likes to fly around on the back of his medium-sized simulacrum, but when flight isn’t an option, they default to their chocobo Chobi or the fascinating vehicle Cid made based on an extra-planar wanderer’s main mode of transport.

Been Arrested: Aside from the debacle of the Bloody Banquet, she did nearly get arrested back when she lived with her adopted family, thanks to their draconic features as an Au Ra causing some friction.

#final fantasy xiv #warrior of light #ffxiv #character bio #wol #images #au ra #au ra xaela

[bluedorke]

Found out Haurchefant was originally written to have survived but wheelchair bound. Similarly Ysayle was supposed to survive.

I was thinking up AUs or changing my personal canon to bring then back somehow and with Haurchefant I'm torn between draft hw survival or an alt timeline dark knight Haurche who lived while my WoL died.

Like which do I choose now? Both could be so interesting for his character. I like the idea of him navigating helping Sellenei while away from the front lines but I also love my dark angst of somehow timelines merging by weird shenanigans and Haurche crying at seeing Sellenei alive.

I'll have to think this out. At the very least I'm writing an AU of whichever one I don't choose as canon.

I'm still figuring out Ysayle but we never saw the body... (yes I know she burst into light...) But trying to figure if she's not in the main action, what has she been doing? Helping ishgardians who were transformed adapt to their new life? Maybe she allowed the heretics to think she died because she was afraid if they knew she lived they'd use her survival as a sign to continue the war.

sigh I just want them both back...

#ffxiv headcanon #Ffxiv AU #haurchefant greystone #ysayle dangoulain #Ffxiv

[rin-an]

going insane with power thanks to forbidden magicks. now i can live in a fantasy setting inside my fantasy setting when im not doing msq or nature photography in here

regarding the last pair of photos: if the au where haurchefant comes back in the first can happen then why not bring the whole goddamn gang back

bonus ysayle “i don’t go here” dangoulain

#ffxiv #ff14 #wol #gpose #alphinaud leveilleur #alisaie leveilleur #nier automata #haurchefant greystone #ffxiv themis #erichthonios #urianger augurelt #moenbryda wilfsunnwyn #ysayle dangoulain

[1driedpersimmon]

Oh yeah I forgot to tell you about DSR... there was a raid that implies an Echo-fueled Puella Magi situation where WoL keeps the spear from making impact after 90000000 tries

The caveat is the Yoshi Pissminstrel going "oooh because he lived we took too long to kill the pope and he acquired Dragons" but that is... a really tenuous and dumb link? People tend to just ignore it when their canon builds off Dragonsong Reprise

There's footage of the stages online, you can see Ysayle and Haurche fighting back to back in one segment of the fight

Do with this knowledge what you will. Or what you must

OUGHHH….. YES A FRIEND DESCRIBED THIS TO ME A BIT AGO…….

Yes…. Au time… hehe

#asks

[velnica]

FFXIV Write 2023: #26 Last

Explicit | Sanson/Guydelot | 1691 words

A/N: Part of Singing Along to the Start of Forever, my Modern AU. Mentions of sexting, sending nudes and delicious things the boys get up to when they can’t sleep in the same bed.

The first time Sanson had sent him a mildly suggestive pic, Guydelot’s heart rate had jumped several beats. He’d been away on a concert tour in Thanalan and missing Sanson terribly that the mere sight of Sanson’s bare chest, grainy and poorly-lit, nearly sent him into a complete tailspin. Of course he’d joked about partners sending their musician boyfriends something nice while they were away, but never in a million years did he imagine Sanson would actually do it.

There was decidedly a lot of sexting in their chat history that night, raising the bar for their long distance sex life.

The first time Sanson sent him an actual nude was the first time they had video sex. It was Sanson’s turn to spend a few days away for an interview. Not far, just to Castrum Oriens in Ala Mhigo for a research piece on the Autumn War. Guydelot had been throwing some bachelor’s dinner together of pies and chips when a picture of Sanson, clearly naked in his hotel bed, appeared on his screen. Immediately he pressed the video call button and needless to say his dinner was cold by the time he ate it.

The first time Sanson had sent him a lewd photo, he was on stage in Ishgard and didn’t see it until well past bedtime. Worse, he couldn’t do anything about it on account of sharing a room with Estinien and Aymeric—he’d never live it down if they found out. The earliest he could be alone was before lunch the next day, when he furiously stroked himself to a picture of Sanson gripping his cock until he came hard under the warm shower. When he saw Heustienne in a cafe nearby afterwards, she'd just looked at his flushed face and teased him until the tips of his ears were on fire.

Sisterly instinct was a terrifying thing indeed.

That night he sent back an equally explicit picture and a new tradition was born: for every night that they were apart they would take turns sending a photo, and the recipient would either have to video call back if their time zones aligned, or they'd have to describe—in great detail—their reaction.

Well, it turned out that Sanson, if he really wished to, would make a great erotica writer. So much for him thinking he had no gift for verses—each successive line he sent made Guydelot's collar hotter and hotter and by the time he finished reading he couldn’t even remember what good sex felt like before Sanson entered his life.

They continued this tradition for a while, both enjoying this new phase of their relationship, until that one fateful day when Guydelot thought he was going to have a stroke in broad daylight.

It was far too early in the morning and they’d just arrived at their hotel in Kugane. Fjora was talking—in perfect Hingan—to the concierge whilst everyone else slouched on the available sofas after more than half a day of flying. Guydelot had collapsed next to Ysayle, who was trying her best to fan herself with her boarding pass. True to her nickname, the ice queen was having decidedly less than great time dealing with the sweltering Hingan summer. Only Estinien seemed to be wholly unbothered by it though he’d kept his hair up in a bun anyway to combat the heat.

Fjora’s voice suddenly sounded a little tight and Guydelot grimaced, though he had no idea what was happening, it was clear that there was an issue or two about their rooms. With a sigh he pulled out his phone and connected it to the free hotel wi-fi; might as well browse some trashy news while he waited for everything to get sorted.

The connection had scarcely been established when his phone suddenly buzzed. ‘Don’t open until you’re alone’ the message had said. It then buzzed again and a blurry preview image came up. He grinned. Right, he’d been away technically overnight, and Sanson obviously couldn’t wait to send this picture. Oh, this should be good. He debated excusing himself away but one: he had his back towards a wall and two: everyone else was too busy browsing their phones too so he angled himself even more away from his bandmates, threw caution to the wind and clicked on the preview.

A loading bar appeared and Guydelot realised it was a video instead of a photo. Well, this was new, Sanson had never sent him one before; he always maintained that he didn’t like hearing his voice recorded. The bar filled up a few seconds later and it started playing automatically, showing a close-up of Sanson’s very much naked body.

His choker suddenly felt a size too small.

The camera shook for a moment as Sanson fiddled with it. Once he was happy with the position he moved away, showing Guydelot a backdrop of their bedroom. They’d finally decided to move Guydelot proper into Sanson’s room, and sealed the deal by going bed shopping together. Warmth seeped into Guydelot’s chest as he remembered how he’d flopped onto their new mattress, giddy at finally having enough space for his limbs to spread and stretch only to find Sanson looking at him with deep adoring eyes. He had smiled then and in return Sanson climbed atop him and kissed him thoroughly until he lost all sense of time.

They baptised their new bed multiple times that night.

Sanson re-entered the frame and sat on the bed. He straightened his legs, showing Guydelot a perfect view of his toned abs and thighs… and his proud, erect cock.

Guydelot’s cheeks burned and he wished his uncomfortably tight jeans could magically disappear right then.

There was a flutter of noises as Sanson rummaged for something behind him and when his hand came back into view, Guydelot audibly choked. Sanson was holding a turquoise-coloured dildo, which glistened with lube in the low light of their bedside table. Slowly he reached down between his legs with his other hand, slipping his fingers into himself with a sigh, stretching and prepping so he could comfortably take on the sizeable toy. His mouth dropped open in pleasure and when they moved, Guydelot could hear his name clearly as if Sanson was right there—

He turned his screen off and slammed his phone down, heart racing a malm a minute. His breaths came out hard and hot through his nose and his face felt like it was on fire. His throat was drier than the desert. His nerve endings buzzed incessantly, like he had far too much energy and no outlet for it to go.

Gods, what the fuck was Sanson thinking? How could Guydelot act like a normal person after seeing… after seeing THAT.

Next to him Ysayle scrunched her brows in concern. “You alright? You look like you just ran a bloody marathon.”

Aymeric piped up, “Did Sanson send you an angry message or something? That was him, right?”

Fuck fuck fuck, he forgot to lower his volume—

Hearing their voices Estinien perked up. He scanned Guydelot up and down, zeroed in on his extremely flushed cheeks, noticed the way he’d put away his phone as if he’d been burned and then smirked.

“Oh, he wished he was running a marathon right now.”

Guydelot wanted to glare at Estinien but all he could muster in his frazzled state was a squeak. Shite, he’d definitely given himself away now.

Estinien’s smirk deepened and he opened his mouth for another teasing, but thank every deity in the universe, Fjora walked in at that exact moment, delaying Guydelot’s doom.

“Managed to convince them to speed up our check in for a reasonable fee. I’m sure you’re all dying to get in the warm shower—what’s so funny Esti?”

“Oh nothing,” Estinien snickered, “Hey Aymeric, mind if I crash in your room for a minute? Need to see if your upgraded pad is worth the money for next time.”

Aymeric stared at him confusedly, “Uh, sure.”

“Excellent. So which room key is whose?” he asked Fjora, who just tilted her head in pure confusion but handed out the keys anyway. Ysayle had her own room, whilst Fjora and Haurchefant had theirs. Guydelot and Estinien were bunking together whilst Aymeric decided to splash out this one time and got a room with a view. All set up the group piled into the lift.

Just before it stopped on their floor, Estinien slung one arm around Guydelot’s shoulder and whispered mischievously into his ear, “You owe me one.”

Guydelot nodded his thanks, hoping he didn’t look far too eager doing it. Estinien just released and pushed him towards the door with a wink. “If you’re gonna have a shower, it better be free when I get back.”

“If that’s the case, don’t get back for another hour—at least,” he clapped back. The last thing he heard before the elevator closed was Estinien’s howling laugh, and Ysayle chiding him for making excessive noise this early in the morning.

As soon as he was alone, Guydelot sprinted towards their room. Hurriedly he opened the door before throwing his bag onto the luggage bench atop his already delivered suitcase. His shoes and clothes followed and then he dove into bed, phone clutched tightly in his hand like a lifeline. Heart still racing he turned the screen on and was greeted by the lovely view again. He wound back a few seconds and pressed play, and this time there was no need to hide anything.

“Guydelot…” Sanson moaned as he pumped his fingers in preparation.

Guydelot gulped loudly and grabbed his own cock. He wondered why Sanson didn’t like hearing his own voice so much, to him it sounded like the most beautiful music ever created. Another moan rumbled through the speaker and he let himself be carried away towards bliss. Oh, Sanson needs to reenact this video in person when Guydelot gets home, he’d beg if he had to.

The dildo came into view again and a brilliant idea popped into his head. Guydelot smirked wickedly.

He was definitely gifting Sanson a silicone moulding kit for their anniversary.

#ffxivwrite2023 #ffxiv #my fic writing #sanson smyth #guydelot thildonnet #guydesan #bard boys #I had to write this one down #I can never pass up the opportunity #to make Guydelot suffer #Technically I flipped the prompt #And wrote about a bunch of firsts lol

[7marichan714]

[Bad ending DSR AU]

Nidstinien x Forgiven Lament 💔

Triggered when Estinien doesn't survive after the posession of the Eyes, and Stellaris impales herself with her spear, after failing her promise to Alberic of saving Estinien.

During ShB, the Exarch summons the WoLs, including the twisted spirit of Stella and she becomes a sin eater called Forgiven Lament. She only craves peace and rest with her beloved. Unable to do so, becomes a menace for everyone, summoning the spirit of Estinien and Nidhogg to fight alongside her.

The world fails to be saved since the four WoLs are required to trigger Azem crystal, however with Stellaris corrupted this wouldn't be possible.

Only way to avoid this would be saving Estinien with the new DSR timeline too, where Haurchie and Ysayle live.

#my artwork #ff14 #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #final fantasy #estillaris #wolstinien #estinien #estinien varlineau #stellaris mikail #estinien wyrmblood #heavensward #shadowbringers #dragonsong

[disciple-of-frost]

Yeah, I've officially decided that I have a Ysayle Lives AU. I've been thinking about it, and I'm finally deciding it for myself by writing a post.

It happens in my Ishita x Aymeric timeline, since the Alpha timeline follows canon for the most part and Alpha is the one I use for Ishita x U'tala.

Her Crystal of Light got destroyed in the battle against the dreadnought and that was the light that was leftover in the aftermath and because her crystal was destroyed her Echo and her connection to Hydaelyn was weakened. She fell and would have died if Hrarsvelgr hadn't gone back for her, but he did and brought her to the Moogles in Moghome to safeguard her. I know it's kinda tropey, but when her crystal was destroyed she also lost some of her memories and that's why she didn't immediately return to Ishita and to Ishgard. I also am now obsessed with the idea that Ysayle gets taken to The First around the same time as Thancred. So Ishita learns that Ysayle is alive and they have a very tearful and emotional reunion during the events of Shadowbringers. That's all I have for now but I am gonna make more posts for this in time.

#ffxiv #final fantasy #final fantasy xiv #AU #FFXIV AU #Ysayle Lives AU #Spoilers #FFXIV Spoilers #Ysayle Dangoulain #Ishita Maryam #my WoL #headcanon #ffxiv headcanon

[shivasdarknight]

i had a dream about you {ffxiv, wolysayle}

❆fandom: final fantasy xiv, ffxiv ❆characters: named warrior of light (Surkukteni), Ysayle Dangoulain, Krile Baldesion, Tataru Taru, Ardbert Hylfyst, oc (Melisande + others referenced) ❆relationship: wolysayle, referenced wolestinien & wolcylva (neither estinien nor cylva appear, though) ❆dynamic: f/f, referenced m/f ❆rating: e ❆key tags: xaela wol, bi+intersex+bigender wol, polyam wol, sapphic bi4bi, YSAYLE LIVES BITCH, hurt/comfort, POV swap (Surkukteni > Ysayle > Surkukteni) ❆content warnings: cursing, implied character death, canon typical existentialism, dream fic, irreality, grieving, vaginal fingering, sapphic blowjobs, temperature play, clothed sex, praise kink, discussions of gender, reference to sexually fluid au ra (and how Surkukteni is intersex within that), brief discussion of sexuality (in a fairly humorous tone) ❆chapters: 4/4 {complete} ❆words: 31,395 ❆series: How to Obtain a Polycule (ft. Emotionally Constipated Dumbasses), Snow and Dirty Rain {Ysayle Lives AU}

If it wasn't bad enough that Surkukteni had not been allowed the time and space to grieve, her dreams became quickly plagued for a love she'd lost years ago. There's a strange sentience to this Ysayle that haunts her dreams, but was that really important? If she could seek some sense of closure for her broken heart, she'd take it even if it meant reopening that wound every night.

Set in Shadowbringers and ending in 5.3, this is Ysayle's reentry into MSQ. Chapters 2 and 4 are spicy, emotional support Ardbert through half of it, and a sequel planned very soon. I can confirm that this fic made someone cry, so have fun <3

{Read Here}

#ffxiv #Ysayle Lives AU #wolysayle #ysayle dangoulain #ffxiv fanfic #ffxiv fanfiction #How to Obtain a Polycule (ft. Emotionally Constipated Dumbasses) #Snow and Dirty Rain {Ysayle Lives AU} #stories and fables #surkysayle #ysayle #surkukteni #melisande #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv writing #xivsapphics #wlwxiv #ardbert #ardbert hylfyst #krile #krile baldesion #tataru #tataru taru #original #wol #surkie #mellie #writing #emotional support ardbert #yes ardbert is trans

[myrfing]

GIMME A G, GIMME AN O, GIMME A U, GIMME AN R, GIMME A D, GIMME 30 AND 26 FOR G O U R D

gawrsh som you spoil me…THANK you

30. What was their highest point in Shadowbringers? Their lowest? What caused it?

He has 2 really similarily high points! my cheating ass. but first was when he first split the light over lakeland and saw the wonder in Lyna’s expression. very something CAN give moment and he really likes to be like I can fix that for people he likes. The second is typical but it’s after the dying gasp and he sees g’raha is alive and they won. indescribable joy and relief for everything and everything having been worth it.

His lowest point is also preddy usual, post-crown of the immaculate when norvrandt is closed forever because the wol frew up and graha was hostage somewhere and it’s all gone to shitttt. He hated a lot of things about it, hated how big of a fuss everyone made over him, hated how he’d hesitated to push graha for answers, hated e-s’ strange fixation on him so that nobody else was a part of the scales, and he very much thought it’d be an option to steal g’raha’s idea and re-eat the light, and throw himself in the rift to explode. he hated not knowing what to do for a second there.

26. Do they suffer any traumas from any of their adventures? How do you foresee this affecting them going forward?

OK that boy USUALLY wicks off most trauma like water on a duck he does not think his adventuring or being the wol as a burden or hardship at all. he mostly thinks it’s just living and he has fun most of the time. and when he wasn’t having fun his denial-of-self-frozen-in-time-alienated-from-life thing did actually shield him from absorbing a lot of shocks, and then generally just having confidence in himself and others and constant curiosity parried the rest. He kills with little remorse, takes very little personally, and needs to run something through the world’s most secret mental maze to feel guilt. He doesn’t have the tendency to turn helplessness into self-loathing because he frankly thinks and feels it’s not his business to do so. things like: finding the waking sands massacred, having to kill edda, the bloody banquet, haurchefant and ysayle dying, seeing the mass of bodies in the garlean labs in ala mhigo, etc. that have made him colder and more ruthless in some contexts and changed his approach to some things (like becoming less passive), or temporarily made him lose direction (i.e. waking sands massacre) but it honestly hasn’t affected him nor his disposition in a traumatic sense that much. He’s largely remained the same at the core and doesn’t jump at shadows, hasn’t grown to distrust, still rarely gets angry, and isn’t prone to getting vortexed into his own thoughts.

He also is somewhat self-conscious about being au ra, because he didn’t like standing out and people do have prejudices. That’s a sort of trauma? He doesn’t hate himself or his body by any means, but he doesn’t like people’s perceptions of him.

The most traumatic thing that happened really was zenos bodyjacking him. the violation and loss of autonomy was pretty sickening to him and from someone he still ESSENTIALLY considered a stranger. He has little experience with things fucking with him to that extent as the sword swings the other way for once, so he has not dealt with it. he was like I’m good 👍 *throws up* I’m good 👍 Aether sickness (wants to disintegrate his own flesh for the next few days) (regresses completely on the progress he’s made over the years wrt nonsexual physical intimacy and vulnerability)

#THANK YOU sound of the sommar #the epic highs and lows of high school adventureball

[lavampira]

open mic night huh 👀 k so. my 'canon' for xiv is an au for a bunch of dumb reasons but one of the things is that. fray is fray's angry ghost, not fraysteem or wolsteem, and. my wol bless her had an extremely Bad Time during hw and ysayle's death was just the straw that broke the camel's back and she was like. hey, fray, you wanna live my life so badly, you can run the show for a bit. and fray, well, they weren't thrilled by this (especially since they were stuck on azys lla by this point so couldn't really just go awol until the wol got her shit together) but figured hey, how many dark knights get to kill an archbishop. i kinda handwave that my wol managed to extend her blessing of light to protect the both of them from thordan's tempering but otherwise the thordan murder was all fray. (ironically it was estinien getting nonconsensually posessed that snapped her out of it but. yeah. is there fic written? there might be fic written. send help)

open mic monday

‘how many dark knights get to kill an archbishop’ asdfgh fair motivation

ngl I’m always, always a sucker for concepts where Actual Fray is more involved than just esteem - that’s an interesting way to interweave that into msq too! and I imagine it’d be cathartic for fray after that death 😭

the loss of ysayle + fear for estinien being the catalysts for her letting go of the reins to fray and coming back to herself respectively also gets me so bad

#asked and answered #itsmeappo #heavensward spoilers #open mic monday

[thescions]

Ysayle for ship bias

Send ‘Ship Bias’ and I will share up to 5 Ships I have a bias for for my muse!

Ysayle x Hilda - If Ysayle lived long enough to meet Hilda, we think these two could have had an interesting relationship. It might start off rocky, as Ysayle's attack on Ishgard primarily hurt people in the Brume. But Ysayle would earnestly try to make amends with her, and Hilda wouldn't be able to refute it. They could bond over being leaders of their own outcasts, too.

Ysayle x Minfilia - Again, in an AU only -- where Ysayle survives and eventually works closely with (maybe not joins) the Scions, and Minfilia returns from her position as the Word of the Mother, although intrinsically changed in some way. The pair could bond over being vaguely possessed, discuss theories around the Echo and its uses, and then find they have other things in common. Like being romantically interested in women.

#ooc; #ysayle hc;

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i'm head over heels for your art and thank you for making so much wlw content 🫶 you are carrying ffxiv wlw. lesbian au estimeric means everything 2 me. they're the type of character where it's like yes this is lesbian couple and gay couple at the same time

That means a lot to me, thank you! 🥺💛 I am really trying my best!! I love the game but there isn't a lot to work with as far as wlw unless like.. you play a female character and ship wolnpc. Which.. ha funny story, I was head over heels for Merlwyb and Yugiri when I got into the game all the way back in 2013, but I was like... My femroe is a big clumsy idiot pirate swinging an axe at whatever, would either of them even like her?! 😂 She's probably Merlwyb's #1 headache every single week if I'm being honest... so wolnpc shipping for my own ocs has always been out because my ocs never have felt quite right for any npcs, which leaves me at finding crumbs for the npc/npc options!

I try to think of like, if there's a reasonable explanation for characters to ever meet and if they would have chemistry from what I know of them. Like we never see Ysayle and Heustienne interact but think how fun that would be, given that Heustienne ends up being drawn into the heretics inadvertently. Or like, Mylla and Adalberta, they both live in Ul'dah so they're probably friends!

And of course like you mentioned with my lesbian AU, I also will take ships that have more things in canon going for them and just make them into women too! I think with estimeric it's particularly easy to do since they fit so well into butch/femme dynamics, and I think it's why so many wlw enjoy the ship! Writing about them has been really personal to me so I'm glad you've enjoyed that AU, that means a lot! 🥺

I really would love to shift focus to making more wlw stuff, since I find as time goes on my interest in any other type of ship begins to wane... I still like some m/m and a handful of m/f ships but I really just like, want to focus on wlw in my work because it's really important to me! And there's just not enough of it!! 😭

#replies #sorry this was super long lol