#ah.....

[utsukares]

BOKURA NO SHOKUTAKU episode 4

#bokura no shokutaku #our dining table #jdramasource #asiandramasource #boyslovesource #jdrama #*gifs #ah..... #someone pls give them a hug :(((( #and when i say someone i mean they should hug each other

[baezdylan]

#jo in the tardis* #ah..... #Spotify

[frankboeijen]

okay but like nothing will ever compare to how incredible a fretless bass guitar sounds. just utterly transcendent.

#p #just one of the most unique sounds i have ever heard #ah.....

[typheus]

ah...... you can decorate everywhere.... not just the farm....

#other #t talks #ah..... #stardew valley #also i hit 100 hours played today....

[hxlcyon]

college.........

#i should think about it more seriously #or rather. to say that implies like i havent been even though i have #i have a set 5 year plan that i can instantly repeat if asked but #im beginning to wonder if that's more for convincing for my sake than anything else #haha this is not meant to be sad or anything because it's not as if im doubting myself per se #i was just finally catching up to a fanfic ive wanted to read for a LONG time and its a uni fic #it goes through the basic tribulations of academia and the stress and upkeep #and honestly. this is not even because im a sophomore/early on but my college classes and life? #kinda just go with the flow easy peasy (sort of. i think because im not back for fall i can say this LOL) #that's probably just my degrees though LMFAO #i plan on dual majoring but i wonder if i should adjust my minor to be more odd #i plan on highly networking this year since i pretty much skipped all meetings my first year #hm... #i should be asleep. i tried to. sleep early. but i woke up cuz of a nightmare #ah.....

[crazysodomite]

My pc died in a power surge while I was asleep last night... Motherboard and power supply are gone... I'm hoping the graphics card and processor are alive but my hope is waning quickly. I'm a stoic so I'm already resigned to my fate... On the bright side all my files survived except I forgot to save some of my brushes but it's not the end of the world. I suppose. At least I finished my artwork before this happened... I can still hear his voice sometimes (my pc)...

Moral of the story: buy a surge protector and UPS while its not too late.............................

#i was supposed to get a ups but i couldn't do it in time #ah.....

[szlachtas]

Hahaha... I did break Dravyn's nose

#Ah..... #Good times #ic

[mothheart]

I need modern verse Isaac art awaagghghh

#theres a lot on the To Comission list already #ah..... #miles rambles

[neonun-au]

ok i cant write rom com rn maybe i will just return to form and do a floaty sort of angst sort of...nothing piece hahaha

#ah..... #the cycle begins anew #maybe if i stopped listening to boards of canada i would be in a less floaty mood LOL #mads.txt

[unstablebill]

I've been scream laughing at this for several days

#carbonation #ah

[arowrath]

#text #copypasting a 21 chapter chat fic i wrote in 2018 into one big document #seeing glimpses of it #most of the time it's like. man. i did not write this #but then i see a phrase i was certain i came up with last year #and im like ah . so ive been making that joke since i was 15 ? #peer reviewed banger #rbsoff

[mangozic]

my dead goth son and his friendly neighborhood personified concept of insanity

#really happy with how michael turned out :] i might stick to this design #rapunzel ah glowy hair <3 #i do need to workshop gerry though orz #have been working on this during breaks from my other projects and god it took way too long to finish #fun fact the final file for this is over 2gb 👍 forgot i was recording the timelapse #i could post it if anyone would be interested #the magnus archives #tma #michael distortion #michael shelley #tma michael #tma distortion #gerard keay #gerry keay #tma gerry #gerrymichael #doorkeay #technically? i’m not one to draw ship art usually but this one’s close enough i think #tma fanart #fanart #my art #digital art #illustration #magpod

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[o0kawaii0o]

ROMANCE DAWN TRIO

#I have been drawing more pre time skip stuff then actual recent stuff of OP #pre time skip really just had this dumb (but fun) energy #ah don't get me wrong tho OP is still very much a joy #in case you were actually wondering - yes sanji gave zoro that keychain as a joke but uwu #working on 1 more silly drawing atm! #one piece #op #roronoa zoro #op nami #luffy #monkey d luffy #o0kawaii0o

[bibbysstuff]

do not worry im still gonna draw them silly and cute together teehee

#fanart #fan art #my art #the amazing digital circus kinger #tadc kinger #the amazing digital circus #kinger x queenie #tadc queenie #the amazing digital circus queenie #the amazing digital circus art #ah yes #yummy angst #for u all :) #kinger x queener #tadc queener #the amazing digital circus queener

[yesokayiknow]

i hope that sometimes fifteen's psychic paper shorts out and shows what fourteen's thinking back on earth. he tries to sneak in somewhere and the guard's like this just says 'need to pick up cat food'? and fifteen's like 🥺 they got a cat

#doctor who #the doctor #fifteen #he shows up at the noble house next day with a bunch of cat toys and 14 explains that he was just picking up food for next door #and 15's like ah. well. the thing is. i thought if you only had one cat they'd be lonely so. and pulls out a kitten #rose after 15 leaves: is this an alien cat #14: 100% yeah. don't tell donna that bit