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darlingpwease · 9 months

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I completely forgot about those HAHA– I hope your travel back home was well!! And I can be ur hypeman!! Ur works are always stunning (and ik many others agree, so u technically have many hypemen) but you truly are very talented, so no matter how big or small ur works are, they always deliver and are very good <33 /gen /pos aahhhdjwaks ur too lovely and a tad bitter but that's okay Dove <33 /t /j /pos

Wuuhhhdjsh,, Wei Wuxian who loves to show you off, but when one day the rolls switch, where you are the one showing him off as if he's your omega, he's feeling all soft and weak in the knees, his chest fluttering in joy at the thought of you adoring him as much as he does you,,, he will always find excuses to cling to you, both before and after he became a demonic cultivator. Him sometime biting your neck (as you do to him) and loves to see others reactions to it, because no matter what, you two are meant for each other, even if others don't seem to fully understand it.

Luo Binghe definitely wasn't the most "alpha"-esque alpha, you can't help but find it so cute at times <<333 Sure, his possessiveness and aggression to others who get close to you are definitely (somewhat) expected, but those moments when he willingly submits to you, sticking to you like taffy and being anything but an alpha towards you, well.. it'd be a lie if you were to say that you weren't at least a bit effected by it </33 Yes, he turned, yes, he used to be a beta, but the fact that he is now an alpha, still emits those alpha tendencies towards others but not you,,, even when he grows very confident and stronger, when he is so pliant towards you, only you, so willing to shed tears and keen into you, begging for your attention, for just a small kiss for how good hes been, just a small one— hhdbskdhs baby boy baby <333

AHH THATS SO CUTE,, Hua Cheng just releasing his scent because he's so happy to be around you is so fucking adorable omg 😭😭 maybe he got scared the first few times,, what if you didn't like it, would you hate him?? Think he's disgusting?? What if you never want to see him again?? He couldn't have that, he can't, he couldn't bare that– but when you keep brushing it off, not acknowledging it, he just gets happier, sometimes willing to release it as a way to not so subtly claim you as his dbska Maybe you know as well?? It was odd at first, but with how adorable it is, you can't help but indulge this cute little alpha who trots around, willing to be a beta/omega just for you <33

YESS!! When he finds out that ur just an alpha like beta, he can't help but think that you're just for him, how the heavens must have blessed him with you because of just how perfect you are,, for you seem to know whats comfortable for him without needing him to tell you, for you seem to know exactly what he likes, for he seems to wanting to be with you always– and when you allow him to cling to you as you keep scenting him and even marking him, he can only think how perfect you are, his perfect disciple

-panna cotta

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because you embarrassed me (in a good way though) and I do not know how to answer you, since I can't even think of teasing, while I have already said everything about you in posts before about what a charming little panna cotta you are and how I love you<////3 'many hypemen' shush silly shush I appreciate the feeling of exclusivity and prefer to give it to others so you will be my only one<///3 /ht /affectionate / I'll pretend like I didn't see it after all these sweet words otherwise we'll have to get a gif with a hard block<3 /ht /hj very srs~<33333

WEI WUXIAN, whom you have known since childhood, and who constantly rubbing against you and leaving his milky smell, — because the appearance of smell during puphood feels slightly similar to teething, — and you didn't know if this was due to subconscious reaction to the fact that he treats you like you're 'omega', a simple puppy competition between alphas, or you also like to touch him, but you did exactly the same, sometimes even participating in incomprehensible for Jiang Cheng — who was an omega and regularly tolerated the two of you — attempts to hold the other and rub, even if there was no smell yet — and over the years it did not disappear; on the contrary, it became almost impossible to understand exactly what kind of smell you two had, because you constantly continued to mark each other with the smell, continuing to participate in all sorts of playful fights and chases, especially when WEI WUXIAN played dirty and jumped up, catching you by surprise, only to immediately try to hide from you.

(that's why you loved visiting Gusu Lan sect — after all, he couldn't use dirty tricks anymore!!!)

and this incomprehensible mutual dependence and obsession almost confused others, especially when you tried to treat each other like omegas, bragging and teasingly shamelessly asking for compliments for surpassing the other — and at the same time, ready to 'play along' with each other, even if still continued to maintain this playful struggle for dominance, forcing his brain to work to the maximum in attempts to surpass you, make you consider him "the best alpha" — and at the same time recognizing in his heart that when you surpass him, it's much nicer and even... mmm... hot, especially when you look down on him, — just like he feels — playfully arrogantly demanding that he acknowledge your superiority, but teasing his alpha instincts and inflaming him emotionally rather than actually suppressing.

(like 'step on me' let's be honest)

and it's really both hard and easy for you to explain why you have each other's bites on your neck, because, well, who is objectively better than you for each other? even if there is a feeling of rivalry and attempts to be better and stronger between you all the time, you are forced to step on your throat and agree that everything would be too smooth without it — even with the quarrels that sometimes arise, WEI WUXIAN is too attached to you and malleable, needy and clingy, and you are not better towards him, finding your home in him, just as he has found his home in you,,,,,,,

but just imagine that a cute hardworking turnip is running around next to you, like your pet that you first tamed and then made a puppy that you have to take care of, a sweet meek beta maiden who looks like only a lotus and looks at you with trusting adoring eyes, like a member of your pack, such a cutie — only to in a few years this 'cutie' turned out to be the demon king and was presented as an alpha, although you were sure that he was a beta, but he remained the same physically sticky and emotional; rather, even more adoring than he was, since the demonic blood strengthened all his already innate traits, making him completely whipped and obsessive, but you are surprisingly okay with this, even when he asks you to mark him as yours, shamelessly using the role of a servant boy, forcing you to even forget who he is now is — until it begins to seem to him that you are looking at someone else — and he explode emotionally, demanding that you look only at him, and you need all your perseverance and a smell, that acts on him like a tranquilizer, to convince him that he is your only charming husband and of course you will leave a bite!!! you will treat him like your omega!!! he's your adorable demonic hubby!!! you're not looking at anyone at all!!! no one can compare with him!!!

LUO BINGHE, who has moved to another universe where you are alive and coos and cares for you, knowing that in the future he will become an alpha anyway, while for now he can abuse his position as a beta (which he never did in his first life, wanting to look strong in front of you) and enjoy your protection and overprotection in view of the fact that someone has offended your beta, without hesitating to whimper or make a sad puppy face so that you feel sorry for him, knowing that he is not the type who will cheat or engage in acting, and LUO BINGHE purrs, snuggling up to you, although in fact smoothly makes you start to become too protective and loving, so that even after his conversion to alpha, you continue to consider him unknowingly lower/weaker and spoil him :(((( tell me that after your death in his time line, he did not have a thing for your belittling of his abilities and/or treatment as with your cute little thing, because your absence has dealt a huge blow to his psyche and that's how he felt while you were gone what's the name of this kink that's about belittling the intelligence of a partner so yes, he's your silly affectionate needy puppy do what you want with it dumbification & objectification i remember it. and so. he wants to be your pretty trouble-free doll, even if he is an alpha, but then he does not detach himself from you in search of love and adoration. you don't know what happened to your beta now alpha, but you're doing everything in your power,,,,, he's your shidi, after all,,,,,,,,

HUA CHENG is the type who cunningly follows you, continuing this role with an omega-like beta — and you gently nod, encouraging him to walk with you and get close (of course you don't see how his hand is constantly trying to touch you, and even when he touches you so unexpectedly, oh, it's so unexpected and imperceptible, it's so implicit), even if you have long known that he is a demon and an alpha, because, well, his scent so obviously seeps in and tries to wrap itself around you, as if clinging to you, that even with his disguise — after you have said goodbye to each other — for some time his implicit scent remains on your clothes.

he is just so excited to see you again, having previously spent several hours looking good for you and choosing the most suitable place to 'accidentally' meet, that his control unconsciously slips, — especially when he senses your own scent and wants not only to leave your scent on himself, but also to leave his own on you. even knowing that he should not do this so as not to arouse suspicion — but he is completely defenseless when inhales deeply while you are not looking and unconsciously wants to see if you also react to his smell,,,,,,

HUA CHENG who doesn't understand when suddenly he just stops hiding his smell, jealous, afraid that he's not good enough, and you really don't expect when you are almost knocked down by his strong and strong smell, trying to scare everyone away from you before you realize that your 'omega-like beta lover' suddenly began to smell like evil and the jealous alpha — wow what a coincidence apparently it's just some couple passed by with a jealous alpha of course it couldn't have been your lover!!! — and HUA CHENG is no longer sure, is he ashamed or funny if you say something like that when they ask you 'what's wrong with this guy', — but, well, what can they oppose? can they guarantee that no one was around?? of course not. your beloved beta is, well, beta, it's clear from his smell alone! besides, he's human!! he's a beta and a human!!! it's not very right to blame a person... unless they're betaphobes, of course!!! but you're not a betaphobe!!! betas are cute too!!! they're just looking for a way to humiliate someone because of their gender!!! they know how hard beta is, especially omega-like betas, but they still tell him like a face!!! not very good!!! they should think about their behavior!!!

and HUA CHENG in the background, not sure if you are protecting him or really think so, and experiencing butterflies in his stomach from your protection — and at the same time embarrassment, even more not understanding how to admit now that he is an alpha,,,,,

CHU WANNING, who may be becoming too... dependent on his disciple — of course, he cares about all his disciples, they are all members of the pack, as a teacher and students should be, but he is so implicitly and at the same time clearly favored towards you,,,,,

hates when you smell someone else, even if it's other disciples, constantly rubbing against you and scenting to get rid of the fragrance that makes him feel disgusted, touching possessive feelings that he didn't even know about before — until one day you and other disciples were engaged in random scenting in the winter in an attempt to warm up and establish contact (especially with those, who suffers from a lack of bodily contact, which is especially common in winter due to the lack of skin-to-skin contact and a small amount of sun), before visiting him — and Chu Wanning does not understand whether he is sick from the abundance of smells or because these smells are on you, but you stink so much that he can't help but try almost from the threshold, rub against you, ridding you of a mixture of other people's flavors and replacing it with his own, jealously snuggling — but you obediently accept, also slightly rubbing against him, leaving your smell that always relaxes him, but rather waiting until CHU WANNING feels that now you smell only of him before letting you go out of his hands, purring contentedly, and returning to the role of a calm and cold shizun (not so cold and calm though, but you prefer don't talk about it out loud), finally having the opportunity to be alone with you, even if he is not the best conversationalist — until you find a suitable topic and he becomes almost terribly talkative, especially for his usual personality, feeling the desire to answer your every question and explain everything that causes you perplexity.

but what can he do? you are too precious, too perfect — and even after getting used to giving and working without waiting for recognition, CHU WANNING cannot deny that you seem to have been created to complement each other, even if he has long grown out of these fairy tales and understands that this is impossible. but you smell so charming, alluring, and at the same time implicitly, as if specially smelling so nice and soft for his hypersensitive nose, which does not tolerate any strong aromas that are inherent in most people or even things,,,,,,

maybe neither of you two had a choice from the very beginning — especially when his teeth touch your skin, understanding little of what is happening under the influence except that his is hot and divine, feeling like he puts a mark for the first time in his life on something very desirable and important — while you are lying, not so confused by the label, but rather amazed that it was you who turned out to be what he so longed for. leave a mark on your neck? is this shizun's dream? you are so puzzled and confused... ,,,,,,,,

#[📂] — voice from under the bed #❖.my jewelry #✮.panna cotta <3 #.spicy♡#✉.wei wuxian #✉.luo binghe #✉.hua cheng #✉.chu wanning #🧸.yandere au #🧸.omegaverse au

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trippygalaxy · 8 months

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Pairing: Sr!Time x gn!reader (headcanon, romantic) Warnings: Fluff?Time being a grump! I ramble a lot, sorry ._.'

OKAY I KNOW I HAVE REQUESTS I SHOULD BE WORKING ON BUT MY BRAIN IS FALLING IN LOVE AGAIN WITH SACRED REALMS TIME!! The comic is @/zelda-the-sacred-realm (no I will not tag them, they're cool and I would rather die then have them acknowledge me being a simp :3 /hj)

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Honestly very surprising that you managed to woo the grump! His salty attitude and tough exterior is a hard one crack, let alone break enough to allow you to worm your way into his stubborn heart!

But once you're there, I can promise you that he isn't letting go that easily! He's your problem now! >:P

Isn't big on PDA at all. He has a image to keep and he doesn't want his team mate to see him weakened (by your charm)! Well- actually its more like he's trying to save both you and himself from their never ending teasing

cause oooo boy!! Those boys are RELENTLESS!! Its such an odd and rare sight for them to see the might hero of time is such a...soft state! You turn the frightening grizzly bear into disgruntled teddy bear with a simple kiss to his cheek!

This isn't to say he'll shove you off of him if you come to hug him, but he will give you a gentle reminder as he gives you a soothing but small rub to your arm before pulling back.

BUT behind closed doors/away from prying eyes?? He will take your loving in strides! (he still gets flustered when you hold hands) The hero will let you smother him until he does need to take a step back to calm down--

His favourite acts of affection to receive (tho he wont admit it) are kisses on the tips of his fingers while you cup his names! He doesn't know why but the act just makes him melt

He still struggles a lot when it comes to giving and receiving love, so please be patient with him!

Speaking of giving love, I see Time as the type of fella that uses gifts as a way to express himself!! He sees an object/item that reminds him of you? Oops, it's in his pocket now :3! You've been taking about this one really rare item to add to your collection? Oh how strange, Time had this little thing laying around, here ya go!

The hero also enjoys just...being in the same room as you! You both could be do your own little tasks, not talking or even sitting that close, but he'll enjoy the company you give him! It might seem strange to others but the simple fact that Time knows your there and within reach is just so...comforting?

The boys have used Time's love and affection for you as a way to protect themselves from his wrath LMAO

Like, World of Realm (link) will be hauling ass as they're running away from the furious spirit until they catch sight of you!! Their saving grace!!

And before you know it, two shaking heroes are hid behind you as your dashing lover comes to a screeching halt infront of you. All you can do is give him a raised eyebrow and curious smirk and boom! legendary hero defeated (turned in a small flustered mess)

But that's not to say you don't quietly chew out the two heroes! Nono! Time is still your lover and you don't appreciate the heroes riling him up so much. This tends to end up with u pull the heroes along to give the hero an apology (if they actually did do something to make him angry/upset) when you darling had the chance to calm down.

Overall, you're relationship is one that starts slow as the hero gets used to being loved once more. It's a lot of figuring out what does and doesn't work within your relationship and how to navigate those challenges!

But even with the difficulties, the hero can and will love you with his full heart (no matter how cold the others say it is) and will do everything in his power to make sure you're kept safe and happy!

Taglist: @the-cucco-nuggie @miadancer24 (If you wanna join it, just ask and I'll add you!)

#tales out of orbit #zeldathesacredrealm #sacred realm #the sacred realm #sacred realm x reader #sr time #sr time x reader #reader insert #first time writing for sr time...kinda scared heeh ._.'

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obslovemutt · 25 days

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Mfw when I just stated I'm a minor so NSFW and mdni accounts need to stay back and an account with BOTH OF THOSE THINGS FOLLOWS ME. GO AWAY PLEASE. I DON'T MIND THE ELDERS IF YOU ALLOW ME TO INTERACT AND YOU'RE NOT NSFW/DON'T HAVE YOUR ACCOUNT STRAIGHT DEDICATED TO IT. PLEASE MY EYES ARE BLEEDING I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE. Next account like that who follows me is getting cussed out /hj /srs

Me rn:

#ADULTS THAT DON'T WANT MINORS INTERACTING LEAVE. IMMEDIATELY.#mutt's yapping!

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threeais · 1 year

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-introduction post thing a-

HELLO!!!!! im longbai! but you can also call me: Yuki or Ivy!

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Pronouns: he/him/himself/They/Them/Themself/It/Its

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sexuality i guess???? polysexual, im also trans, [female to male, if you wanted to know.]

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i usually draw my aus, fanart, fankids or smth, or my ocs! please dm or ask to know about them!

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i have alot of aus, and headcanons! if you want to know what they are, then please ask, or dm me!

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you are allowed to draw, make fanfics, or even make theories on my aus! please tag me in them, so i can see the lovely things you made!

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I am really interested into these fangans, i also hyperfixate on them<33

Super Danganronpa Another 2/Danganronpa Another.

Danganronpa Deception Examination, [on instagram.]

Project: Edens Garden

and many more!!

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i dont really understand things much, so please put tone tags like: /hj, /j, /srs whenever your speaking to me!

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I am a fictionkin of Yuki Maeda and Iroha Nijjue From SDRA2. (please search it up if you do not know what fictionkin means.)

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Enough Of The Introduction, Time For DNI stuff....

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DNI IF:

basic DNI stuff, your a pr/shipper, you draw NSFW of the SDRA2/DRA cast. [i dont care if their adults of not, it makes me very very uncomfy.], you make NSFW jokes with Yuki Maeda, Nikei Yomiuri or Iroha Nijjue.

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I MIGHT UPDATE THIS SOON..

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crxssez · 2 years

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INTROOOO

hi, im Karl or Craig, whichever one. I go by he/they and im trans (ftm) I say im unlabeled leaning towards gay but meh i hate labels. I am also on the asexual spectrum. i will not say my age but just know i am ACTUALLY old enough to be on tumblr /srs. my goal is to reach 100 fans on either sudomemo, twitter, or tumblr :)

requests are open so PLEASE give me things to draw. those can be any fandoms, and ships. CLYDE DONOVAN MY BELOVED. try not to tell me spoilers but the only spoilers i allow are mcyt and sp spoilers (and other fandoms ive been in.

i like watching ranboo, quackity, wilbur, tubbo, and tommy but i sometimes watch others but not as often as them. with that said do not call me a dream stan. yes i might watch some content and draw him but im not a stan. clyde and kenny are my favs in sp- I WILL APPRECIATE ANY ART YOU MAKE FOR ME AND IF YOU MAKE ME A PFP I WILL GLADLY USE IT :D also my persona isn’t final because i cant think of any cool designs so just draw kenny or clyde and i will cherish it.

ANYWAYS THANKS FOR YOUR TIME IM GOING BACK INTO HIBERNATION/hj

<333

#introductory post #introduction #intro post #introduction post #what else can i tag-#sp #AGH

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sunlitmcgee · 2 years

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hello sorry for bugging you again andb/gen

do you have any thoughts abt transfem C!tommy?

hwhbh tommy wears dresses n stuff but i interpret that as Pretty Boy in Pretty Clothes so i was just curious about ur thoughts

TRANSFEM C!TOMMY MY DARLING BELOVED!

ahem sorry. So first of all I should say that I am a transman, not a woman, and that therefore I cannot speak too heavily on the Girl Side of the trans spectrum. But when it comes to c!Tommy and trans headcanons, transfem chommy is something I really enjoy and really wanna write more in some oneshots I've got in the back of my head. Something about c!Tommy being allowed to express themself, regardless of if they're a "he", a "they", a "she" or whatever else chommy may identify as at any given moment, is very good and very comforting to me.

I imagine her as what she'd be: c!Tommy, girl edition. Lots of boob jokes! Lots of gremblin vibes. Lots of her goofing around and probably running into a tree. IDK why that's a fem chommy specific thing in my mind. It just is.

There's also a note to be made about how different c!Tommy's abuse(most of which is rooted in violence being committed against him by much older and oftentimes very obsessive men) would be perceived if he was a she and presented as a typical younger girl. I doubt there'd be anywhere near as much victim blaming in this fandom if it was a little girl begging for her life in that prison cell as opposed to a little boy. But maybe that's just some projection on my part :P lol (/hj but in a /srs way)

HWHBH!Tommy is very much a pretty boy. He's 100% cis and very cozy in his identity as a man, but he's no stranger to more stereotypically feminine interests and greatly enjoys wearing dress/skirts/more "girly" clothing. He is a boy! He loves to look pretty! He's most at home in frilly skirts and cotton cardigans and loves to mess with his Dad's make-up! I love to imagine him and XD watching make-up tutorials on YouTube and having some good ol' father son bonding. :) it's fun to me.

But yeah! Hope that answers your question! :D /gen

#dream smp #HWHBH #ask #i have a whole ramble in my brain #about hwhbh benchtrio and gender #and the different ways they embody masculinity #maybe i'll put it in endnotes #or maybe I'll put it here if enough people from ao3 come over and follow!#IDK!#fun thought though :)#trans guy rambles #hwhbh!tommy #transfem c!tommy

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ells-mind-place · 18 days

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HII

I'm mellohi !! Ell for short

As you can see 2022 me did a uh, thing when choosing a name.

I use any pronouns besides it/it's (unless I give permission!!)

I'm going to use this acc to interact with RP accs and stuff so yay.

Mainly TMNT ones and the ones Abt companies!

Connected to @mellohidoesart

IMPORTANT NOTE:

while you CAN pm occasionally, I ask that you PLEASE talk to me through my ask box!

My parent who allows me to run these accs, made a deal with me. She doesn't put on parental controls, if don't privately talk to strangers! A message everyonce and awhile is perfectly fine! Or if it's just a message or two! But not full on conversations!!/srs

At least until I feel comfortable breaking the rules./hj

Idk what else to say sorry. other stuff later ig 😅😅😅

#tmnt #rp #rottmnt

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arthropoid · 11 months

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you can tell the narrative of being autistic is being told by neurotypicals with a hard on for looking inclusive. being autistic is so normal actually, but it's not i literally don't care about being normal lmao. i love their version of inclusivity is them being let into whatever space so they can tell us about how brave we are for being retards in today's society and how hard they're trying to stop saying retarded oops i mean stupid oops i mean silly. i wasn't fucking allowed to be autistic. my parents would call me a useless retarded bitch because the sound of silverware hitting glass and plates makes me scream and cry about my teeth hurting. and you just get to come flapping your hands in my face because you're so inclusive after you graduated from your pet sped kid in high school /srs /lh /nm /hj

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hopeaterart · 1 year

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YOU. YOU GET IT. It always makes me irrationally mad when fanfic writers make Splinter out to be abusive because he isn’t! He is traumatized and trying to care for them and Rise Splinter wanted to protect them from the Hamato clan destiny and it’s not 2012 Splinter’s fault his sons grew up to be jerks! /j (but only for the last part everything else is completely /srs)

I just…have a lot of feelings. About the family dynamics of the turtles and Splinter. And I will not tolerate slander of them. And I’m happy you don’t either.

Yes, thank you, that's what I (and everyone who's not completely stupid) have been saying! Is Splinter perfect? No! Does that mean he's abusive? NO! (Also I saw someone bring up that Splinter is Asian and raising his kids in an Asian way/environment and it being labelled as abusive by white fans and that's worth consideration but I am white so it's not my place to talk about that)

On the 12!Turtles being jerk: I know you're joking on that part, but the sheer fact that you're not omitting Mikey shows that you understand them and their dynamic better than everyone who woobifies him. They're fifteen, and that alone means they're going through the worst time of their lives (/hj, but seriously the 12!Turtles go through some shit). They're allowed to be jerks.

#answer #tmnt

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donald4spiderman · 3 years

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Can you do a request where virgin/perv Spencer won’t stop looking at your cleavage all day and conveniently you two share a room for the night. You notice he gets a hard on when you put on your pajamas and decide to help him with that problem, whether that be just oral, a hj, or full on sex.

I get it if you don’t want to do this request but I would LOVEE it and appreciate it if you did!! Love you and your writing!

Beat The Heat

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Summary: It’s hot, and you’re wearing a tank top. Need Spencer say more?

Pairing: Perv!Virgin!SR x BAU!Fem!Reader

Category: smut, fluff

Warnings: virgin!spencer, VERY slight d/s dynamic, oral sex, hand-job, kissing, cum-play

thank you to @zoeygraygubler for the amazing request bc this shit is right up my ally <3

The entire team is restless. Arizona’s heat is unforgiving, even if the police precinct runs the air conditioning at full power. JJ fans herself with her Manila folder, Emily’s extra cranky, Morgan constantly wipes his face with this shirt, and Spencer tries his absolute hardest to beat the heat in his sweater-vest and button-up combo.

At the moment, you’re nowhere to be found. Spencer’s thankful that you don’t get to see him sweat pathetically as he circles addresses aligning with the geographical profile. Beads of sweat drip down into his eyebrows, and he swiftly wipes them away with the sleeve of his shirt.

The dry heat makes it hard for all of you to work, but all of Spencer’s remaining productivity flies out the window once you enter back into the room. Your face is flushed, cheeks adorned with a rose-colored hue. The high points of your face glisten with sweat, and your neck cranes back as you sigh, sitting back into your seat.

But, your usually beauty isn’t what’s shocking him. No, it’s the light blue tank top hugging your waist and chest perfectly. He can see every curve and dip of your breast— they’re practically spilling out of the neckline. Your collarbones and sturdy shoulders contrast the roundness of your cleavage deliciously— Spencer’s so enamored he almost forgets to breathe.

His eyes are firmly planted on the dip of your breasts as you work; he doesn’t even bother to finish his task (this serial murderer can’t wait a little bit longer). He sucks his lower lip in between his teeth with anticipation as you reach over to grab a file, blessing him with the most sensual view of your breasts. Spencer’s trousers grow tight around his dick, and he shifts back and forth in his seat to relieve some of the tension. Everyone is too focused on the case— including you— allowing Spencer to stare uninterrupted as your chest falls and rises.

He's confident you’d chew him out if you caught him indulging in his perverted fantasies— picturing you beneath (or above) him, lips mashing with his, your hands running down his stomach— he’s sinful. So sinful, in fact, that he would only grow more turned on if you were to yell at him about the matter.

But that’s all they’d ever be— fantasies. Spencer is an infamous virgin. He knows Morgan’s made sly remakes about his lack of experience in your prescience, and he knows there’s no way in hell you’d ever want to do anything with him. Your much too far out of his league for him to even attempt to ask you out. Here you are— this intelligent, strong, assertive woman with a beautiful smile and a dangerously attractive body. You could have any person you wanted. So why would you want Spencer?

He spends the rest of the workday alternating between staring down your shirt and exploring the parameters defined by the geo-profile. Hotch and Rossi return later in the afternoon. The temperature has decreased, but luckily for Spencer, you don’t make a move to change out of your tank top.

“Everyone, get some rest,” Hotch announces. “Be back here tomorrow morning at 6:00, please.”

He hands out the room key cards to every other person. Emily and JJ immediately pair up, Morgan and Hotch share their room, and Rossi gets his own.

“Looks like it’s you and me, Doctor Reid.” You smile, waving the card in his face. “Can I shower first once we get there? The heat was killing me all day.”

Warmth creeps up Spencer’s neck ever so slightly. He manages to force out a slight nod even though he could probably use a cold shower more than you.

The drive to the hotel is short and sweet. You hum to the soft R&B tunes playing from the radio, and Spencer watches you. Once the cars pull ups outside the hotel, you’re hopping out, swinging both of your go-bags onto your shoulder before Spencer can protest.

“I’m doing you a favor.” You laugh as the two of you walk through the parking lot. “It’s hot as shit out here, and your wearing a goddamned sweater-vest, Reid.”

“I-I don’t really w-wear anything else.” He stammers, rubbing his neck nervously.

“It’s not a bad thing,” You reassure. “It totally suits you.”

Spencer doesn’t have much time to think about what that statement means before entering the hotel lobby. The air is much cooler, and you feel the weight of the day lift off your shoulders. You take the elevator up to the sixth floor, and once you’re outside the room, you swiftly unlock the door, allowing Spencer to go inside.

“Geniuses first.” You tease, motioning for him to enter.

He chuckles nervously before shuffling in. There are two beds, one for you, one for him, and he can’t decide on whether that’s a good thing or not. On the one hand, the separate beds mean that he’ll always be at a distance, but one bed would be absolute hell for him, considering his strong feelings for you.

“I’m gonna go take that shower.” You state, grabbing your pajamas and heading into the bathroom.

Spencer can hardly focus, knowing that a door— no thicker than two inches— is the only thing separating him from your naked body. He tries not to let that thought work him up any more than staring at your breasts all day have, but Spencer Reid is admittedly a weak man. He’s rock hard again, and the friction provided by his fitted pants continues to torture him.

Steam seeps from the bathroom as you swing the door open. You step out wearing quite possibly the most stunning silk tank top he’s ever seen. Its thin straps and lacy hem are a sweet contrast to your somewhat gritty personality, and oh my god— you’re not wearing a bra. Spencer can your puckered nipples through your top with perfect clarity, and the erection in his pants has grown from slight uncomfortable to borderline painful.

He watches the slight bounce of your breasts as you’d stride over to place the damp towel at the foot of your bed, and Spencer sitting completely dumbfounded, with the largest tent pitched in his pants.

“Okay, the showers all yours now, Reid...” You turn to face him and your voice trails off.

It’s far too late for Spencer to run, hide, or curl up into a ball and melt into the ground. You’ve gotten a clear look at just how turned on he is by the site of your nipples. His dick is painfully hard, and a wet patch of precum has seeped through his khakis.

“I-I-T-The Shower!” He announces pitifully as he attempts to rush off to the bathroom.

But, you stop him, places a firm hand on his shoulders, yanking him back around.

“What’s this?” You feign naïveté as you glance down at his impressive bulge. You run an experimental finger up the side of his hip and watch the way he whimpers and trembles. “Oh? Is this for me?” You look up at him with a devilish grin.

His throat is dry, so he settles for a bashful nod.

“Doctor Reid, have you been hard all day?”

“Y-yes...” He stutters, watching the way you pull your bottom lip between you teeth seductively. “I can’t help it.”

“I know.” You smile, running your hands along his firm shoulders. “I noticed that you were staring at me.”

“You did?”

“Yep, all day. You’re not very discreet about it. I would reach across just to see your eyes widen when you looked right down my shirt.”

Spencer blushes because you noticed, and there’s no way in hell Morgan or anyone else didn’t. Then again, Morgan had a definite idea of what Spencer’s feelings towards you were.

“So, how do we wanna play this?” Spencer’s confused when you ask, raising an eyebrow. “We can pretend this never happened— continue to dance around the fact that I really like you, and I know you really like me— Or,” Your hand runs down from his shoulder to lightly grasp his cock through his pants, “We could have a little fun with this?”

Spencer’s hips buck when you continue to rub your hand up and down his length lightly, and he’s almost forgotten that you’d just asked him a question.

“U-Uh... W-What was the question again?” He pants.

“You have an eidetic memory— think.” You deadpan.

He ignores your immediate question, asking one of his own. “You like me?”

Your hand stops it ministrations for a second, and he whimpers. “Yeah, I’ve liked you for a while.”

“Why?”

“Is this gonna be an ego stroke for you, or are you genuinely curious?” You sigh. But considering that it was Spencer, there’s no question whether or not he’s genuine. The poor boy has always been insecure. That’s what a lifetime of being a child prodigy in public school gets you. “I like you because your kind, and smart, and unwittingly adorable. You’re nice to everyone— almost to the point of being avoidant— but sometimes confrontation isn’t needed. You have the cutest eyes, and you're constantly licking your lips or playing with them, and it makes it really hard for a girl to focus, yeah?”

“I like you too, (Y/N), a lot. I really do.” He confesses. “How could I not?”

“Flattery with get you nowhere, Doctor Reid.” You joke.

That’s because he’s already where he needs to be. The young genius’s hand has had a tight hold on your heart since the first day you met. You were just as much of a coward as he was when it came to love, dodging every chance to tell him how you feel. But not anymore.

“So, I’m gonna ask you again.” Your voice has an unmistakable roughness to it, and Spencer’s dick twitches. “How do you want to play this?”

“I’d do anything for you.” He says, and it’s true. He spent the past year knowing you trying to find ways to win over your love— subtle ways— by ways nonetheless. “And, I really want to be with you, if you’ll have me.”

“What kind of question is that?” You scoff, but before he has time to be hurt or confused, your crashing your lips together.

It’s slow at first. Spencer’s hardly moving because he’s shocked. His fists clench at his sides, and as you continue to move you mouth softly against his, they relax a bit. Your hand firmly grasps his jaw, deepening the kiss slightly, and he decides to rests his hands in the dip of your waist, something you seem to appreciate considering the fact that you moan into his mouth.

He pulls away, “I-I need to tell you something...” Spencer begins to rock back and forth on his heels, and you encourage him silently by running your fingers along his cheek. “I’ve n-never, you know, done anything with anyone before.”

Spencer’s preparing himself for the inevitable laughter, the humiliation. It’s as if he bracing himself for the impact of an impending car crash. Surely it would be the Alexa Lisbon situation all over again. The blow to his heart would be so severe that he might not recover.

But the laughter never comes; instead, you stand on your tiptoes to place a soft peck on his plump lips. “We don’t have to do anything you aren’t comfortable with, Spencer. There’s nothing wrong with being a Virgin. If you want to wait to do certain things, that’s perfectly okay.”

“I want you, i-in that kind of way,” His unfamiliarity around sex adds to his dorky charm, “But I don’t think I’m ready yet.”

“Okay,” You smile. “Maybe then we could try other things. Sex is a spectrum; there’s a lot in between chastity and full-on penetration. Whatever you’re comfortable with is alright with me. And if you wanna stop right here and cuddle, that’s alright with me.”

Spencer shakes his head, “I don’t think I’m ready to have sex, but I’m willing to try, um... other things.”

“Alright. If at any point you want me to stop, say so.” And with that, your lips meet his again.

This time the kiss is more decisive on Spencer’s part. His lips move with yours, and his large hands grasp the sides of your face. He feels you grin, and your hands get to work undoing his belt.

“Have you ever had a hand job, Spence? A blow job, even?” You say, pulling back to free Spencer from his thick sweater vest.

“Never. Nothing.” He states, shaky hands rushing to undo the buttons on his shirt. “You’re my first— everything.”

The thought of him trusting you that much is a pleasure in and of itself. “I don’t want anything to be bad for you. Please tell me if you like or don’t like certain things, okay?”

“Of course.” He says, finally freeing himself from his sweaty shirt, beginning to fumble with the button of his pants.

You watch him eagerly undress. Seeing how excited he is at the prospect of receiving a blow job from you makes your thighs clench together with an unmistakable desire.

Once his pants fall to the ground, you’re immediately on him again, hand lightly stroking and teasing him through the thin material of his underwear. “Lie down for me, hm?”

Spencer’s flat in his back in seconds, chest heaving with anticipation as you pull down your shorts. His obedience is a huge turn-on, and you make a mental note to tell him that later.

You quickly crawl onto the bed, seated your hip right above his erection. Your tanktop is off with one swift tug, and Spencer’s eyes practically fall out of his skull. The poor boy is so turned on; you can’t help but give him precisely what he wants.

“Like what you see?” You tease, and he nods furiously. “You can touch them.”

Soon enough, his long fingers explore the soft flesh, rolling your nipples between two fingers every so often. Your hips move instinctively over his bulge, eliciting the most beautiful noise from his mouth.

“If you keep doing that,” He moans out. “I might finish too soon.”

“Don’t worry about lasting long. Tonight’s all about you, Spence.”

He whimpers at the loss of contact when your body moves from his hip to in between his legs. But it’s replaced with eagerness as you play with the waistband of his boxers. Watching him squirm beneath you is the most rewarding feeling. But knowing that he’s been hard all day makes you more sympathetic, so you free him from the constraints of his underwear far sooner than you usually would’ve.

His cock is almost as pretty as he is. With a flushed pink tip, veins running down the sides, and precum glistening from the tip— it's perfectly enticing. Your hand wraps around the base lightly, hips jolting up from the minuscule amount of pleasure. Your hand slowly begins to pump up and down his shaft, thumb swiping over the head every so often— just enough to get him worked up even more.

“F-Fuck, (Y/N).” Spencer gasps, and you stroke him faster. “Ahhh.”

His eyes wound shut, and his mouth falls open as he gasps. Suddenly, the feeling of your hand is replaced with something much warmer and wetter, and he glances down to see that you’ve wrapped your mouth around the head of his dick. Your tongue massages the ledge beneath the tip with skill, and Spencer’s moans and whimpers are continuous. His hands grasp and claw and the hotel sheets, head thrown back as he moans your name over and over.

“(Y/N)! F-fuck! I’m close!” He groans.

Your movements speed up, and you take dick deeper down your throat, stimulating what you can’t take with your hands. The sight of Doctor Spencer Reid, resident genius and good-boy of the BAU, moaning and cursing your name as you milk his cock is far more sinful and pleasurable than anything you could ever imagine.

You feel his dick twitch, “I-I’m so close!”

Continuing bobbing your head up and down, you alternate that with sucking directly on the head of his sensitive cock, and that just about does it. Soon, he’s moaning and shaking as he cums in your mouth. You almost swallow, before reaching up to pull Spencer in for a kiss, his cum swapping between both of your mouths.

Tasting his cum is something he wouldn’t have tried in a million years, but it’s erotic and hot as hell to hear you moan as your tongues swirl together. You both swallow, panting as you roll over to lie next to him on the bed.

“You didn’t get to finish.” Spencer pouts. “Do you want me to...”

You shake your head, “Not tonight. We have all the time in the world to try new things, right?”

“Right.” He nods. “Thank you, (Y/N).”

“For what?”

“For taking a chance on me.”

You smile, “I don’t think there’s anything but certainty when it comes to my feelings about you. And I'm glad I wore that tank top.”

“Yeah, me too.”

holy fuck this is so long i’m sorry lol! hope y’all enjoyed this. feel free to send more requests!

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rotshop · 2 years

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leans back and sips from my wine . swirls it around quietly. theres a lot but ill quickly go over what was my snapping point(s)

quick disclaimer ; this is all stuff that made me (and a few others) PERSONALLY uncomfortable, I'm not going to say that i have the last say or law of the land or whatever. i rlly dont give a shit, this is just to clarify why *I* don't want him near me.

[ TW ; talk of minors around n/$f/w , weird interactions between adults + minors revolving n/$f/w content , n/$f/w ]

1 ) weird dni on an nsfw post

while i can understand that this could entirely be a case of bad wording, i'm still uncomfortable with it. it -unintentionally or not- dismisses the whole 'minors dni' part of it, with a sort of 'you CAN read, just be sneaky about it, k?' sorta vibe. while, i do hope this was just a case of bad wording, given his other interactions with minors i still think its something worth glancing at.

2 ) accepting suggestive content from minors

ANOTHER quick disclaimer - i cannot, in good faith, blame the minor in the situation for this at all. salem, while not incredibly old, is still over 18 and should be aware of how that affects his interactions w/ minors in these sorts of lights. he should be aware that it is under no circumstances ok to accept / support nsfw (or nsfw aligned) content from a minor. again, i am NOT at all blaming the minor in this situation.

while it isn't SUPER blatant nsfw or anything, I still think the art is suggestive enough that it's worth acknowledging. and while i am aware that this could've been miscommunication / misinterpreting, i still find it questionable.

3 ) repeated untagged content

this one i really dont think i need to bring specific examples up for. it's happened time and time again that it's hard to not notice. they allow minors to follow them with this warning:

this is fine. whatever. i dont care yknow. however, the problem comes when this content isn't tagged, meaning there's nothing keeping said minors from viewing said nsfw content. this makes the point fall apart. i KNOW this untagged content is a problem because, again, i and several others have seen it again and again.

if you need a specific example, here's this (again, nsfw warning. this time explicit kink mention). while im aware this was a mistake, that doesn't mean the reblog of the deleted mistake post should have no 'minors dni' tag, as they're still going to see something that was originally meant for a no minors blog.

again, im not law of the land. this isn't a 'callout,' if anyone calls this that ill go fucking deranged /srs . it's not a callout or anything, this is just an explanation for those who are curious. im not going to argue with anyone about this because quite frankly i really dont fucking care. salem has violated my dni in two different ways and followed me twice despite that until i hardblocked. im personally uncomfortable with him and i personally dont want him near me or my content.

this is only my personal few points, there's a lot more but i don't want to get into it for my own comfort / sanity. /hj

#henry dont look #if this is worded weirdly uhh sucks to suck i guess idk.#this isnt supposed to be some elegantly worded like google docs or cancel i literally do not have the energy for that shit #this is -again- my feelings #i cant speak for everyone and im not trying to go 'top 10 reasons why you HAV E to hate salem or ill HATE you' .#im lich rally jus t giving my side of things #plus im in my right he obviously didn't read my dni and still interacted w/ me anyway #im tired of playing nice with people who honesstly i dont want to fucking see

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I am getting so tired of how poorly some people in this fandom treat c!tommy and how differently from any other character they treat him, for example c!ranboo. It shows so much after every single stream, especiay this one and its such a pet peeve of mine because its so unfair.

If people don't like c!tommy thats absolutely fine, but don't pull stuff out of your arse to tear the character down.

When c!tommy lost henry and was clearly grieving and feeling terribly, c!ranboo didn't really deal with that very well and did a bad job comforting him and thus sometimes came off borderline mocking. And that is very justified and in character from his pov because he is not at all equipped to handle peoples mental breakdowns and shouldn't have to be, hes basically a walking mental breakdown himself. Not once after that stream did i see a comment anywhere that was like 'c!ranboo is ignoring tommys trauma/isnt taking it seriously!!bad friend!!'

But after c!tommy makes one tiny offhand comment about c!tubbo having thicker skin, from his pov also fully justified and in character, its suddenly 'ooh he isnt taking his trauma seriously!!!bad friend!" Or again today, with them deciding that ranboos 'tubbo is only using me for my items' (which was absolutely a joke and not serious lore) isn't cannon, but tommy accidentally blowing up tubbos stuff, (like tubbo did to him on his birthday btw and Nobody said a word about it BECAUSE IT ALSO WASNT CANON NOR INTENTIONAL) is.

I see people bragging about not watching c!tommys pov and not c!ranboos despite them having about the same viewership numbers during lore streams. They complain about c!tommy taking away attention from others and being the protagonist, while declaring c!ranboo who is also involved in many plotlines the 'next protagonist' in the very same sentence...

Some people just pick and choose anything that makes c!tommy look bad and put both c!ranboo and cc!ranboo on a pedestal. And don't even get me started on their totally invasive takes on the irl friendships. At this point they should just admit that they hate cc!tommy, stop watching his stuff if he annoys them so much, and shut up.

this isn’t ranboo critical in any way at all, because it isn’t his fault that people in this fandom behave this way/there’s a bias between them, but yea, you’re right.

i don’t know what it is, but people seem to be more open to supporting c!ranboo than they do c!tommy under any circumstance. and it’s like, that’s fine, you’re allowed to have characters you’re more open to supporting/you like more than others —god knows i do— but it gets the point where when you’re actively comparing the two characters/saying things like “ranboo wouldn’t ever do this” or “ranboo is so much better at __/for __ than tommy is!” is like. Okay Pal. i don’t know what it is, if i’m honest. i don’t know if it’s tommy’s abrasive personality that throws ‘em off, but the double standards in this fandom never fail to astound me —and, it isn’t always with ranboo. there’s a lot more people that are willing to be forgiving with any other character than c!tommy. there’s always the “i’m not excusing c!tommy but i can understand why he did __” or “he shouldn’t have done __!! he’s evil!! a monster!” but when it comes to anyone else it’s just “they popped off 🥺🥺🥺 deserved!! never did anything wrong!” and it’s getting to the point where i’m genuinely tired of it. people in this fandom take any opportunity they can to bash on his character but when it’s anybody else it’s just crickets, and they like do this funny little things /s, where they make fun of apologists for c!tommy for only liking a character if they’re nice to him, but then turn around and do the same exact thing and when said character isn’t nice to their fave they’re the devils incarnate, so it’s hypocritical for them to stereotype c!tommy apologists as people who only care about certain characters if they have a positive opinion of tommy when they do the same thing.

i’m just sort of tired of it. when c!tommy makes the slightest mistake i’m always anxious to check tumblr or twitter because i already know —i’m already expecting thousands of people to have turned against him. there’s such open support of c!tommy one second, but once he makes one harmless mistake it’s suddenly he’s unforgivable once again and i’m getting tired of people not bothering to understand his character and brushing him off as horrible but when it comes down to anyone else they’re way more open for second chances.

i don’t fucking understand it, is the problem.

genuinely, i don’t . i don’t understand why the vendetta against him goes so far, and i’d be open for people to tell me why they hate him but half of he time they don’t have a reason beyond him being annoying/the mistakes he’s already made up for and theyre just choosing to hold a grudge against him for.

i don’t care if you don’t like c!tommy, don’t take this post as an opportunity to debate with me (/srs), because i’m tired of explaining to deaf ears why “hey, he isn’t actually that bad guys”, because it’s 4:51AM and i’m being driven by spite and pettiness only. i will bite your head off /hj

#unfortunately everything i said extends to cc!tommy as well #but i’m not opening that can of worms tonight </3 #fandom critical

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ro-sso · 3 years

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Well,, it's been a while

My goodness...

I haven’t posted in a while, i’ve been busy with life, i’ll give an update below but be warned I will be talking about mental health (depression, anxiety, getting help w/ the aforementioned stuff) & other potentially triggering subjects. please ask me to tag things <3

Note: most things are in /srs or /gen unless stated otherwise. in this textpost

One of the last things I worked on before going on an unannounced hiatus was Jorvik Divined. Although I did not play a big role, I still felt valuable and it was an amazing experience. I left for personal reasons, and whilst I felt bad about leaving, my lack of experience and inability to fully focus on what I was doing/explain my thought process hindered me a lot, and with hindsight I can see that is a personal thing I need to work on (I've never been excellent in group projects! /lh).

I don't think I was ready to work in a large scale group project. I am not the best at communication although it's something I'm trying to work on.

In other news, I got a diagnoses for my mental health. Depression and Anxiety suck, honestly. It's a constant battle, but I'm working on it.

I still have a long way to go on my journey of recovery, and I don't think I'll ever truly be 'stable' because I don't think I was in the first place, (don't think I've ever been neurotypical, looking at 7 year old me doing barn owl screeches for the morning register /hj /lh),

I'm grateful to my friends, who I met through d&d, who have continually affirmed I am allowed to be confused. I appreciate them a lot, although I struggle to vocalize it - I'm ironically not one for words, even though I love writing.

Oh! Also realized I was not gender - Pronouns are they/them - and yeah. it's been a while, I know. I don't really expect anyone to be reading this but if you are, thanks, I guess? It's a confusing journey, and one I'm still on, but if you could respect my pronouns I'd appreciate that.

One of the reasons I felt the need to write a post explaining where I'd been was just this longing of community. After an unannounced hiatus, I hopped back onto SSO yesterday. I fell in love with the game I had joined over 5 years ago. The graphics, the stories & the soundtrack just make me feel at ease. It's probably partial nostalgia as I was like 10 when I first played it... I forgot why I loved SSO in the first place. I still have critiques and feelings about it, many that I can't wait to share with everyone again.

I stopped playing because I felt like I was being pushed into the 'ewww horsegirl!!' stereotype, and whilst that stereotype is partially true about me, I would say that horses mean quite a bit to me, which is why I can get pushed into that category so easily; It's something I had in common with my siblings; something that brought me closer to my mum; it helped me feel like I could hold conversations.

I don't know if this makes any sense, apologies if you're reading through this waiting for a big announcement or a cool thing,, there isn't anything here, just ramblings of someone who has found love for a game they used to play daily. SSO means a lot to me, and I wish I could vocalize it in a better way than I have now. Anyway, I may post more on here, I may not.

But yeah, thanks for reading this. I hope it made some semblance of sense. If you want to send an ask you can? Anyway, have a wonderful day, blessed be.

#textpost #long post #mental health #depression #anxiety #tw: mental health #tw: depression #tw: anxiety #please ask me to tag other things!#personal post #SSO Adjacent

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