#almost believing this one's not pretend

[aqvarius]

can't believe i only just realised that the song "so close" from the movie enchanted is literally so evajacks coded

#so close to reaching that famous happy end #almost believing this one's not pretend #evangeline fox #jacks prince of hearts #evajacks #a curse for true love #acftl #tbona #the ballad of never after #once upon a broken heart #ouabh

[pocketgalaxies]

C3E37: marisha + nonverbals

#critical role #criticalroleedit #laudna cr #marisha ray #gifs #* #*cr #cr3 #angst tag #cr meta #nova shh #marisha ray supremacy #scheduled #2h45m c3e37 #i almost went blind staring at her face to pick scenes for this. worth it :) #sorry matt for making you look so red in the last one. it's bc your wife is pale and i wanted her to look good 😌 #OK FIRST. THE NODDING. listening to imogen...burning those words into her mind and playing them on loop....... #bc they are the only things that have brought any semblance of hope for what feels like an eternity of being trapped in this space #even if she doesn't believe them she can pretend to. a bandaid at best but something to ease the fear #and then 'can you get out of the tree' just the sliiightest hints of a head shake. a gulp. a 'god have i tried. god i wish i could.' #'god god god i would do anything to get out of this tree. how do i tell her that i can't.' #and then blatant doubt when it comes to fighting delilah #LIKE...after sharing this space with her for so long...of COURSE it chips away at her confidence like this...makes her feel weak #even if she thought she could fight her off in life everything is distorted now. has she ever even gotten close to fighting her? #it feels like an impossibility now. of course not. never not for 30 years has she been able to fight her. #and then as the cage closes...the flinch...the hyperventilation... #it's the hopelessness /everything/ here feels weak and scared and tired. like she was about to give up. like she still might give up. #i think marisha ray wants me to die <3

[spamsandsuch]

All of the valentines cards i got from the undertale newsletter lol

#deltarune #ralsei #ralseiposting #undertale #not fanon #toriel #papyrus #i didnt get any spamton ones but i saw there were like 3 different versions LOL #i think its rly funny how 2 of the 3 i got arent actual valentines cards #h. how do i tag the first one of its just pretend smoking #ask to tag #lancer #lancerposting #i cant believe i almost forgot lancer.. #undertale newsletter #EDIT: SUSIE HOW DID I FORGET TO TAG SUSIE #susie deltarune #susieposting #oh and sans too ig

[eccentricmoonlight]

I know everyone likes to joke about Shu’s restricted access to social media and how he would be a menace about Valkyrie’s online presence but I also like to imagine him having an alt just to be incredibly defensive of Ra*bits. And specifically ibara finding out about it due to a suspicious number of French death threats sent to Ra*bits haters. Like the whole account is painfully obviously his but the only posts are replies to people saying mean things about Ra*bits. The conspiracy scene for fans in the Enstars universe must be insane.

#and not just nazuna either. just all of ra*bits. for no particular reason. #shu is THE tsundere and I 100% believe he is Ra*bits stan number one #obviously his favorite is nazuna but he does his due diligence buying merch for the other three #sorry y’all I am plagued by Shu Thoughts atm and it’s making writing very difficult #he by design cannot be the focus of almost any of my historical fantasy AU but that’s the only thing I wanna write. so. #my brain is full of bees I cannot think coherently #Enstars #itsuki shu #ra*bits #yori rambles #I’m sure people have said this before in ways that make more sense but my head hurts and I’m trying to pretend I still feel things

[jonathanarcher]

What they won’t tell you about aeryn and john is that they’re xena and gabrielle coded. I’ll say it though.

#it’s about meeting a beautiful dark haired warrior with a dark past who does one nice thing for you so you fall in love instantly. and you #believe in her and encourage her to grow and she acts kind of gruff and pretends she doesn’t care but clearly she likes you back even if #you’re kind of a liability early on. and while she gets her redemption arc you get your corruption arc until you’re almost unrecognizable to #yourself but the one constant in your life is that you know you love her #and when she gets a strange pregnancy you step up to be the dad even if you’re kind of not the dad #farscape

[desnaa]

just remembered the song “so close” on the enchanted soundtrack exists and how heartbreakingly perfect it is for simon and betty. i am now emotional

#so close to reaching that famous happy ending #almost believing that this one’s not pretend #now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come #so close and still so far #petrigrof #betty grof #simon petrikov #adventure time #fionna and cake #mine

[watercolor-hearts]

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#i don't know what's it with tiktok but i either cry or become really sad/disappointed when i watch some videos #now there was one about driver pairings people think are close not actually being close (especially charlos) and while i know that's almost #everything between teammates is for pr but... it just can't understand why they have to pretend this much if they really are not close or #not friends or anything like that. like... they could act normal. #and when i think about this pr shit/them acting like they're close i feel bad for liking them together and believing that their #relationship really is how it looks like it is #i feel so naive and it feels so childish to find happiness in a relationship where almost everything is for pr #like... i can feel people laughing at me for liking this or that pairing and calling me blind and things like that #i've seen so many toxic things in this fandom it's hard not to remember them. and sometimes i just don't know how to ignore what other #people say/think #like... this is a fictional world here. especially when it comes to shipping/enjoying pairings #and i should be able to ingore some things and focus on the things that make me happy but sometimes i just can't #and in times like this i just want to stop writing about them so people wouldn't think what my brain tells me they think when they see it #my useless posts

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#so i got a message from my sister telling me something rather tragic had happened in our family #on my mom's side. one of my aunties passed away&my little sister let me know. #she also let me know that my mother is taking it really hard&shed probably really like to hear from me. #&its weird bc any sadness i felt about my aunty dying almost completely evaporated upon it becoming a way to guilt me #into talking to my mother-- like i was not almost dead for a long LONG time&she was actively disowning me bc i wasnt sick the right way #after a lifetime of refusing to believe i was sick AT ALL which directly lead to developing cancer she screamed at me in public #that i was lying about before pretending to drive off a cliff&then refusing to pick up her phone until she called me an hour later #after i had been calling not just her but anyone in our family who could possibly check on her to tell me that i never loved her #&i wouldnt have cared if she died&it would have been my fault. #so like. i dont really give a fuck if shes taking a death in the family poorly? like i dont actually fucking care that this-- like literally #everything else-- needs to center my mother's bad feelings. i just fucking dont lmao. #&im really fucking pissed off that i now have to feel like shit bc i dont feel like i properly feel bad #about my family member dying bc IT BECAME ALL ABOUT MY MOTHER IMMEDIATELY. #i do not fucking UNDERSTAND. #i cannot even put into words how this all makes me feel lmao. why. literally fucking why. #the cherry on top? my aunty died of gastric issues. you know. the family curse that i def didnt get so i got to work thru it all #while being called a liar. you know the type of illness that almost killed ME. that might STILL kill me. #but yeah my mom is sad so i should call&make sure to hold her hand like i always fucking did lets just forget an entire lifetime #&esp the last five years thatll be totally cool. #a tragedy happened in the family so fuck all MY tragedies actually i guess.

[snekdood]

me, on the one hand: its weird to gatekeep people identifying with characters just bc they don't share their same race

also me, upon watching a video of someone wanting the saiyans to be in ssj form 24/7: you just want them to be blonde with blue eyes all the time bc you're mad that otherwise you can't project on to them since they're likely asian 🙄

#ig these aren't mutually exclusive stances but still #in fact if anything it bolsters my former stance bc why tf cant you just identify with them as they are #anyways ive been holding this back bc of whiney people on here but yes i kin with bruno from encanto and theres nothing you can do #to stop me. #if i relate to him in every other way ASIDE from being fuckin colombian then thats a very stupid and arbitrary line to draw im sorry and #i also dont care about your weird gatekeeping #its almost like familial abuse isnt restricted to ones race and also race is fake but anyways #fuck your weird ''white' people cant imprint on these characters' shit like. you're literally trying to stop ppl from seeing themselves #in other races. how tf do you think thats beneficial to stopping racism like AT ALL? #me when i hate when 'white' ppl put themselves in my shoes and try to empathize with me #me when i reinforce the racial binary and act like its real and not made up by white supremacists and pretend im not contributing #to white supremacists' delusion that race is real #theres literally a woman who would conventionally be recognized as white in the movie but ig gingers cant imprint on her at all or w/e #bc they dont speak spanish or something idk. is it about skin tones? bc babe give me a couple of days on the beach and ill look like bruno #dsjhfsvdhjvgfhdsvhgdf #and no i dont believe you if you try to say that the abuse he faced was somehow unique to colombian culture or something. #if anything that kinda abuse was prolly passed down from europeans who colonized the lands so i have even MORE of a reason #to feel like i can identify w it since im mostly of 'european' decent ._. #at least as far as ik. #('european' is in quotation marks bc its a place w a lot of different types of people some of which aren't recognized as white by #some white supremacists even and idk what im mixed with so)

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how I was legitimately the most hated and bullied kid in my entire class, and probably entire school. I knew this as a fact. there was nothing I could do about it. not just by the kids either, but the teachers/staff as well. all because I was autistic and unable to speak and they didn't want to treat me decently. and I ask why. (rhetorically of course, because I know all the excuses given as answers)

being an autistic kid and knowing damn well this is true, that you're the most hated person in the entire building with not a single person on your side, knowing you're the main target for everyone's aggression every day, is....truly something. you know. like carrying the weight of everyone's hatred and negativity on your back alone, being their punching bag, internalizing their hatred for then. from ages 4 to 18. nonstop. never getting better. never knowing why. not being able to stop it. never getting any help. on your own and alone. blamed for it all.

yet i'm simply told to "get over it/stop caring" and get blamed for it fucking me up and having a lasting effect. lmao ok. let me just forget more than half my life existed at this point and magically get better! thanks!

#those assholes are lucky I didn't have the heartless soul to take revenge on them or something. #instead it just became internalized trauma 🙃 #lee rambles #autistic #autism #actually autistic #school trauma #what would they have done if i lost my shit and lashed out at them???? #the most i was ever able to do was take a plastic knife and stab an apple at lunch while glaring at a table of the kids #that scared them enough to leave me alone for a few days. then theh forgot and back at it again #why is it always the victim's fault and the bullies win? even years after the fact. why cant my brain “get over it” like people tell me :/ #and yes i was able to get a therapist. no it hasnt helped yet. i do all the coping stuff she suggests already #basically distractions and whatnot. no it hasnt cured me. #she always tells me i have good coping mechanisms. im doing a good job. i deal with things reallt well. ok why am i still a mess 🙃 #its almost as if theres no cure and only pretending #what am i rambling about. this sounds like an emotional rant but i genuinely feel nothingness atm. just reminiscing how fucked up it all was #why were things like that allowed to be put onto one single child and why did they never get any help or justice and are blamed #s i g h s #also ive always felt like no one believed me when i said i was the most hated and bullied kid at school. it is 100% true lmao unfortunately

[adamwarlock]

do you have any panels of Adam smiling?

OF COURSE!!! I've got them all babyyy behold my prized collection

Wildly out of order since I had to glue these together to try and squeeze everything in lol. Forcing you all to look at him :^)))

Incredible Hulk vol1 #177 / Strange Tales #179, 180 / Warlock vol1 #9, 12, 13 / Avengers Annual #7 / Marvel Two-In-One Annual #2 / The Infinity Gauntlet #3, 6 / Doctor Strange Sorcerer Supreme Vol1 #36 / The Infinity War #1, 5 / Warlock and The Infinity Watch #1, 6, 7, 15, 16, 17, 20, 23, 24, 29, 33, 35, 41 / Warlock Chronicles #2-6 / The Infinity Crusade #1, 4, 6 / Silver Surfer/Warlock: Resurrection #1, 2 / Silver Surfer Vol 3 #87 / Rune (1995) #2 / Ultraverse Unlimited #1 / Warlock (1998) #4 / Warlock (2004) #4 / Thanos: The Infinity Abyss #1 / Thanos: Redemption #1, 4, 6 / Annihilation: Conquest #4, 6 / Guardians of the Galaxy Vol2 #8 / Infinity Countdown: Adam Warlock / Infinity Countdown #1, 3 / Infinity Wars #6 / Thanos: The Infinity Revelation / Thanos: The Infinity Relativity / Thanos: The Infinity Finale / The Infinity Entity #3 / Thanos: The Infinity Conflict / Thanos: The Infinity Ending

#I realize some of these are barely smiles but just trust me bro. There's a couple more I didn't include bc I had to draw the line somewhere. #he's like this -> 😇😈 #adam warlock #space jesus #I would've put the issues under a read more but the post breaks on desktop if I do that so. nvm. great website. #clarklexlois #hi ilu <333 would you believe me if I told you I got distracted and forgot this in my drafts for quite a bit dfjkdghskgh #also almost forgot about infinity countdown and infinity wars lol they're bad. let's just pretend they don't exist. #there's another small one in Infinity Relativity that I can't be bothered to find room for so shhhh just pretend it's there ok #he smiles on the cover too but I opted not to include that. #editing this months later but I fucking forgot one. I'm a fake fan. it's fixed now lol

[strawberrymilkshakeearrings]

i know im complaining abt this on the gay website so im preaching to the choir but im just absolutely exhausted at the fact that im seeing literally almost word-for-word the same arguments against trans people that i used to hear about LGB people fifteen years ago. cant we just skip to the part where its at least socially unacceptable for a politician to pubically campaign on that platform.

#society is so exhausting and horrible #and ill bet in 10-15 years or so society will almost definitely be on track to more or less normalize transness #but god its so. annoying to have to wait for it. #and im cis #also i know LGB people are obviously not free from homophobia OBVIOUSLY but you cant deny the situation has improved significantly #like most republicans have to at least pretend not to be homophobic these days which #was absolutely unthinkable back in 2008 #source:me #rant #2023 #guess ill have to look back at this post in 2038 and see how the situation has changed #for future me reference: drag shows are getting banned in public places and there was a mass shooting by 1 (one) trans person #so r/conservative is acting more unhinged than usual #for the sake of 'protecting children' LMAO #same arguments. word for fucking word. #im an optimist in the sense that i believe the world trends in a progressive direction but #a pessimist in the sense that its just. legitimately infuriating how long it takes to get there. #on a topic we basically already know the outcome for!!!!! #ugghh. im in a mood tonight. #vent

[gazelessmenagerie]

(reaction after reading the latest ask) ...well he really fucked that one up didn't he? Damn.

The Ask in Question

( Majorly and it haunts him worse than anything else he’s known. He won’t admit he did feel a certain joy that wasn’t from enacting violence upon enemies or destroying in a sadistic, uncontrolled glee. It was calm and even peaceful for him, with Mirin taking him for walks to try and help clear his head among many other small things she did to try and help him. )

( It’s only now that he is facing what’s been building within for months on end, wrestling with it even when he doesn’t know why he feels this way. Its something he needs to face but for the moment, he keeps running away from it even if he doesn’t know that he is. Village out in the rolling hills and mountains? Greenery surrounding? He makes his home in the desolate region of a desert fraught with canyons and doesn’t linger too far away from it. 

( Have a dumb child follow him around again..? He won’t say anything but allow it to happen with an unintended gentler way, just to hear something trail behind him again. To ask him for things even if he snorts and complains over it. Tell him they need him for whatever reason. )

#Anonymous #|| Tag: OOC #( just. FNASLDFJSG FUCK. Mirin just did so much in warming a cold heart enough to actually feel fucking guilty ) #( granted it took a long time for it to soak in but tbh. thats why broly living on his own or the drabbles written were ways that he ) #( slowly began to understand what she meant by finding beauty in the world. ) #( when he watches the storms pass and the rainfall pelt. the days after.. flowers of the desert are abundant. ) #( he sees with a clearer mind sometimes and though he's pushed down those memories so far for a while ) #( they're coming back. in fragments. in shards. ) #( but he remembers them. and it hurts like no physical wound does. ) #( frankly. he doesn' tknow what will stop the pain ) #( all he knows is he's hurting and it keeps paining him. which is why he tries to shove it down again. ) #( ignore it. pretend he never felt almost happy until he ruined it. ) #( but lmfao thats....where I have a plot in mind ) #( Mirin's village is destroyed but should Broly ever learn about the Dragon balls.. he may do something stupid ) #( Stupid in the sense of his own principles.. but.... maybe it'll pull out his pain. Maybe it'll stop the dreams he's had in places. ) #( maybe.............. it'll be enough to have Mirin again. ) #( but lmfao thats still in the works. bc he doesn't know about the dragon balls yet. or no one's told him about them ) #( along with him actually believing they grant wishes bc lmfao he can't make anytihng easy )

[tuulikki]

The thing is that the portrayal of Neanderthals as having been inherently grotesque and alien to H. sapiens is something we will never have proof of. But we do have proof that, in different locations and in different populations across time, we all found eachother desirable. We saw eachother and wanted to touch. And the offspring were held by their mothers and raised and had their own offspring in turn.

When you look for the first proof that H. sapiens found Neanderthals repulsive, you have to wait until the Victorian era, when the white masters of empires were busy portraying Neanderthals as stupid, brutish, and (of course) dark-skinned.

In more modern times, we’ve had people arguing that instead of seeing Neanderthals as Benighted Savages, they should instead be seen as Noble Savages, (allegedly) cruelly destroyed and driven from their lands by H. sapiens. Which one of their two you believe says more about your modern political views than it does about ancient H. sapiens.

And, whether we construct Neanderthals as Savage or Noble Savage, the fundamental assumption we project into the unfathomably distant past is still that H. sapiens saw Neanderthals as an Other, with the language we use being almost explicitly that of modern racial dynamics.

But we have no proof of any of that. We have no proof of hostilities. We know we co-existed and we had sex. That’s it.

Humans obviously have sex with some humans and kill others. We also know that, when small groups of humans occupy vast spaces with infrequent contact with others, unique cultures will always form, some more hospitable, some more neophobic/xenophobic. But many cultures of small settlements placed among huge unpeopled landscapes place supreme emphasis on hospitality to strangers. Plus, we fucking love other social animals, as evidenced by how we befriended wolves.

I’m a humourless weirdo and a wet blanket about popular constructions of Neanderthals as “monstrous”, and I freely admit it. But that’s because it’s tied up in legacies of imperialism. Not only that, but it also privileges one culture (yours, mine, modernity’s) as being most human by implicitly assuming we can project it onto people in the past. Since you don’t pretend that all global cultures share exact same values as you do, it doesn’t take more than a few moments’ reflection to realise you can’t do that to the past.

#neanderthals #opinions

[srkgirlblogger]

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#im going to sound crazy and angry but thats bec i am. i hope my mom dies #wont stop yelling at me. wont stop being passive aggressive all the time and criticising everything i do. wont stop treating me like shit #and then making me feel guilty for being mad at her. #shes always complaining abt me being lethargic and tired and she thinks its because i dont eat good (i eat atleast one meal everyday and #i eat healthier than almost every single kid of my age that i know) or bec i eat too little (after she literally made us give up eating #breakfast when we were like 14 and yelled at me for wanting to eat something for breakfast). #shes a dickhead. it never occurs to her that maybe me being continuous depressed for almost half of my life is a factor in my tiredness. #and im constantly anxious and i used to cry whenever i would pick up a pencil to draw bec i wasnt good at it and i wouldnt get to the #college i need to go to get away from this house if i didnt know how to draw. and literally ive just wanted a stupid skateboard for like #years at this point and she told me shed get me one on my birthday which was two months ago. and even before that when we were in the store #she told me she was going to buy one weeks before my birthday and then got mad at me even when jntold her I didn't want one then. now shes #not even pretending to care about it anymore. + she told me she was going to kick me out of the house if i failed my entrance exam days #after. actually no months after ive kept on talking to her about re attempting my exam if i fail it the first time around. #i hope she rots in hell and i dont even believe in hell #delete later