#also house calls people trannies

[dontlookforme00]

….should I watch House md

God. I don't know how to answer that question. Roll a die or something

#its fucking insane i cant put it into words. you wont understand how insane it is until youve watched it #but jesus christ #theyre very gay however and if you ignore the insanity /pos that is the social situations its a pretty thrilling medical drama #also uh. they're pretty good at addressing issues such as disability and discrimination and loneliness ans that sorta thing #also house calls people trannies #but. he uses the correct pronouns for said tranny so #its like a seesaw of pros and cons #i would say yes. if you think ur prepared #why did i talk more in the tags than the actual post???????? #answered asks #ghostly-one #hate crimes md

[voredere]

Did you know:

-agab is decided arbitrarily, sometimes by a doctor, and sometimes by the parents, based primarily on their best guess as to which gender will work out best or which surgery has the "best" prognosis.

-agab is not necessarily determined by the baby's genital configuration, hormone profile, or genetics. it is literally just whatever the doctor and/or parents thought sounded good at the time.

-sometimes agab is reassigned equally arbitrarily due to childhood genital injury.

-some people do not have an AGAB

-some intersex people used agab colloquially to refer to whichever sex they personally consider their "birth sex" regardless of their actual AGAB.

-some peoples agab does not actually align with what they, or society, would view as their "biological sex"

-(this is because "biological sex" as a concept is pretty bullshit to be clear)

-some people do not discover that their sex was reassigned at birth until adulthood

when we discuss concepts like TME/TMA, we need to keep these things in mind. TME/TMA are great terms because they're explicitly inclusive of intersex individuals. but there's an alarming amount of people misconstruing the words, using them as synonyms for AFAB/AMAB, or defining them based on AGAB, which accomplishes very little beyond shutting intersex people out of a conversation that very much includes and impacts us.

i understand TME intersex people absolutely exist, and absolutely are capable of perpetuating transmisogyny, but there are also intersex TMA people out there and we are constantly, CONSTANTLY shut out of conversations and viewed as invaders by the trans community, by the queer community at large, with our struggles viewed as collateral damage of someone else's struggle that we, without exception, are never allowed to claim.

we are viewed as filthy, alien creatures by everyone we meet, even in "queer leftist" spaces. our bodies are fetishised and commodified, and there are dozens of wild assumptions about us. we are never real men or women or even people, just some third category good for porn or shock value to be rejected and disposed of and speculated about like we aren't there everywhere else. we are relegated to sex work and freak shows. and yes, we are excluded from sports, locker rooms, restrooms, "lesbian"/"womens" spaces, queer spaces at large, housing, employment, medical care, and so on.

some of identify as cis, but a lot of us never had the option to be cis. many of us are essentially assigned tranny at birth and that was the end of it. many of us were called slurs before we were old enough to know what they meant.

we are not collateral damage. we are not invaders. we are not appropriators. we are part of your stuggle, we are your siblings, and if we don't stand up for each other, trust me: no one else will.

#intersex #trans #transmisogyny #transphobia

[wronggalaxy]

The urge to cut off like 99% of my friends is constantly growing.

1) They keep calling me slurs(I'm literally OK with being called a faggot and tranny by the ones who also fall under those slurs, but somehow not wanting to be called a cripple, by able-bodied people no less, is somehow toxic???)

2) They make fun of me for having to have my phone on 'light mode' even though I've explained a billion times I literally CAN NOT SEE THE TEXT OR PICTURES OTHERWISE

3) They constantly mix up my lazy eye and strabismus and say it makes me look like a token idiot from movies(I wonder fucking why?! Could the answer maybe, possibly, be ableism in the film industry?!)

4) They take my cane without asking which I don't really mind when I'm sitting down but they'll literally take it while I'm standing and leaning against it, knowing I'm a severe fall risk and that falling is extremely dangerous for me, which they also make fun of

5) They treat me like I'm being ridiculous because I'm upset that after 13 years of modern, contemporary, and classical ballet and 2 of tap and hip hop I can no longer dance at all(not even with my arms as they tire easily or my head cause moving it too much triggers tic attacks)

6) They refuse to slow down for me when walking to class, even on staircases, but also get mad when I don't walk with them(not to mention walking alone is dangerous for me for multiple reasons)

7) They treat my absence seizures as if they're not serious because they don't involve shaking on the ground and said it's basically just dissociation(which they also get mad at me for doing)

8) They call me dramatic for having trauma responses to things like cars back firing and plastic water bottles popping even though they know I have untreated PTSD from my house being shot up by my neighbor when I was 11

9) One of them gets angry at me if I'm upset about being called a slur because "they're just telling the truth"

10) I told them that I want to go by Nora-Zachary and They/Them this year instead of my old 'preferred name'(it was never my preferred name I just had to pick the first name that came to my head the first day freshman year so I wouldn't be called my deadname) and He/They, but only one has complied on pronouns and no one has on my name

11) They laugh and call it 'cute' on days where my rhotacism, struggle to verbalize, and/or accent(both regional and autism accent)are more prominent

12) A couple have said I don't have a lisp, which is true, but what they actually meant is that I don't have a speech impediment(literally why do able-bodied people think only lisps and stutters exist, I'm pretty sure rhotacism is one the most common articulation impairments along with lisps and lambdacism, yet not even my parents know what it's called)

And like a billion other things too. Being around them is quite literally making me more suicidal. But IDK. Do I just need to suck it up? Is this as good as it gets? Before literally a year ago I only had 3 friends, and before 2 years ago I had 0, so I don't know what's acceptable.

#autism #disability #disabled #physically disabled #developmentally disabled #fuck ableists #ableist nonsense #ableism #uncensored slurs #cw slurs #ableist slurs #vision loss #vision impaired #partially blind #lazy eye #strabismus #cane #cane user #walking canes #fall risk #ex dancer #tourettes #absence seizures #dissociation #harrassment #ptsd #trauma response #misgendering #rhotacism #speech impediment

[joe-bidens-big-naturals]

Pinned post I guess

Call me Hela, Local tranny faggot, which way? Who knows! Pronouns N/a so like if you are radfem altright idc get out of here this place aint for you. also of note I made this blog title before genocide joe started doing what he is known for, I am a bit anarchist but I aint like one of those verbose people, all I know is that hate has no place and that the government doesnt actually exist for the good of the people.

Fandoms or whatever:

house of leaves, HLVRAI, RVB, Signalis, Kane pixels backrooms, neon genesis evangelion, NITW and monty python and the holy grail.

For askers:

Dont ask for donations I’ll send you evil wasps, send hate mail and ill just block you bbg,

[gaz-light]

CW: Me but ugly

Ya know what fuck it. I don't intend to this mid week. I wanna do it now while I've got the time and honestly I'm a bit excited.

This is John. He's the guy I used to be. I don't have many other pictures of him but I saved these ones for this purpose. They're some of the few I could stand for some reason.

It's hard to think I ever used to look like that. Think or act the way I did. You could go back right now and tell him the events of the past like year or so and honestly he'd probably understand it. Would be too scared as shit nervous and doubtful to ever believe it. Hated himself too much to imagine it being this way.

This is how I started off on Hormones 1 year ago. 5/31/22. Somewhere between 11/7/21 and 4/9/22 everything went to shit. I crashed my motorcycle and broke my arm, ended up broke, didnt get into grad school, the girl I was madly in love with just let me know I was being replaced by someone with a pussy. It took about everything happy in my life turning to shit over night to finally crack the egg that I had been growing in for so long.

There were signs before. Things I always knew. Always hung out with girls. Liked sapphic content. Felt detachment from peers of my agab, enjoyed pretending at being an internet femboy. Horribly autistic. Fucking hated my body. Hated hated hated hated hated. I had a closeted sissy kink and dressed up FOR YEARS. So much more. Eventually I started hooking up with trannies the same way I hooked up with lesbians and things began to click. Something in me thought ya know what, I don't have to just admire and adore and yearn for them. Then a good friend of mine consoling me one April night more or less extended an invitation and I didn't look back.

And then she was born. I think these photos are from maybe a month post starting HRT. Would you believe I hadn't seen myself without facial hair in like 10 years before this point. I hadn't shaved it all off since I was 13. I'm hispanic. Greek and Cuban so I've had this accursed facial and body hair for fucking ever. I was so afraid the first time I picked up that razor. I didnt know if I'd like what was on the other side. I felt safe and secure in the validation I got from other people that I thought it'd be ok if I was just unhappy with myself forever. I hated whatever I was so much that I didnt have the energy to care for her.

Then I shaved.

I looked in the mirror and I thought that girl looked kinda cute. For the first time I really didnt think I looked so bad. My friends were very supportive thankfully. Not everyone was. Certainly not dear old dad who still wont call me by my name or gender me properly. The man who told me god had cursed him with 2 faggots. My little trans brother and I. The man who let me know I was a disappointment and that neither I or anyone of us were real women. I still havent forgiven him for so much. But I am trying to let it go. Even the cis people were kinda nice. I lost some who were kinda edgy friends from highschool. Nothing of value was lost.

Since then I've worked to navigate the professional world as a woman. My first boss at my first real post college job was this British woman from England who made my life kinda hell. Preyed upon and picked on me and embarrassed me professionally. One of the 2 other women at the office. She never would admit to it but I think she resented me for it. I was also the only tranny there. Well sorta. There was 1 other who worked down in facilities doing the trash and dishes for the labs. But not up there. Not on the 8th floor with us in the "war room".

And this is where and who we are now 1 year later. Same eyes. Same 5'0 looking ass. But happier. Smiles when she looks in the mirror. Can actually do things for herself. Set boundaries. Care. Maybe she can even love too. I've placed myself into countless lesbian romance fantasies and I feel like I have a shot at living them. I used to be like 200 pounds. I'm down to 128 and also built like a brick house full of muscle. I was horrified of being trapped in that body of mine forever and the fear and doubt that I'd never make it even this far scared me into doing nothing until i had little else to lose.

Let me leave you with some wise advice that friend who cracked my egg once gave to me: The best time to plant a tree is 20 years ago. The second best time is right now.

Transitioning was the best decision I ever made for myself. Happy birthday Morrigan. I love you.

#pin #anniversary #morri posting

[heirofnepeta]

New and improved Funky Pinned Post!!

Hey there! I'm Eowynn! I'm a Bi-Lesbian Trans girl who goes by She/It/They pronouns! Tranny fag girlie for the win 💥💥💥

I like Dr. Pepper!!!!! I'm highly addicted to it!!!!!!!

If you want you can also call me by a few other names! I go by Eowynn, Wynn, Amity, Vea, Dirk, Nepeta, Kyll, or Click! Any of those names are fine, and I enjoy using them :)

I'm a minor so like don't send unwanted nsfw stuff. Weirdo.

I reblog things like way too many times if I like them so uh. don't follow if you don't wanna see that ig.

I am part of the LGBTQIA+ community, and if you have a problem with that, then go sulk about it in your room and try to figure out why people being themselves makes you so mad.

My Art blog is @heirofdirk and I'd love if you stopped by there and looked at it and maybe requested something ;33 <

Extra stuff that's not as important below cut!!

I am in a few fandoms, and have a few interests so I'll list those here!

Interests:

Homestuck, Hollow Knight, Ultrakill, The Elder Scrolls, Pokémon, Warframe, Chainsaw Man, The Owl House, MegaMan, Minecraft, Borderlands, Fallout, Subnautica, Metal Gear, Team Fortress 2, and probably way more that I can't think of right now.

Hobbies: Making art, Gaming excessively, Scrolling through Tumblr excessively.

I have a Steam Account here, and my Discord is available through DMs if you wanna talk to me :33

Sideblogs Ill care to link:

@meowmeowhisshissmeow @colon-three @heirofdirk (again) @nepeta-knot (beware. There is horny shit there!!)

The rest of my sideblogs i got rid of since i dont use them often enough

Also what I mean up there by Bi-Lesbian is that I am bisexual but i have quite a heavy preference towards women. I still do like men tho.

Tags I Use: #Wynn answers #Asks #[url or nickname] <- my ask tags, might change in the future. #Wynns art <- my own art tag wowie! #tgirl horny swag <- occasional horny posts. thats it. thats all the tags i use for now

Sea dwellers and clowns are free to follow dw high blooded doods :thumbsup:

Kinlist: nepeta leijon, dirk strider, cats (just in general)

If I find I need to put anything else here, I will.

Have a nice day, fine reader! :)

#Pinned post #new pinned #idk what else to tag this as

[ribcageeater]

Rant about living homeless in the US under the cut

For the past few months I have been living in motels because we were displaced by flooding, we did everything "right" in the eyes of society, my mom and dad had jobs and me and my brother were doing good in school but a flood made our apartment building uninhabitable due to mold growing in the foundation of the house and the insulation in the walls.

We lived with a friend for around three months and then we moved three and a half hours away from the small town I grew up in and enrolled me into a school where I knew absolutely nobody and LET ME TELL YOU HOW AWFUL I WAS TREATED AT THAT SCHOOL.

I have a viable disability (I need a cane) and there is a group of boys who steal my cane at lunch and the teachers tell me that it's not a big deal because they "just want to be friends but don't know how to say it" SO THEY TAKE MY FUCKING MOBILITY AID???

The girls are worse. One of them wanted to "hang out" with me and asked me where I live, I was dumb enough to tell her and bring her over to the shit motel room I was living in and we talked for thirty minutes and then she had to go home, sounds normal right? Well she told everyone in the grade that I'm homeless and my parents chain smoke cigarettes (a lie) and my brother sells drugs (also a lie) and a group of girls started buying soap and giving to me at lunch. Keep in mind I'm lucky enough to have a place to stay clean and even smelling "nice" (I have sensory issues so nice to nerotypical people smells gross to me) and when I told a teacher they said the girls were just "worried about my living situation"

I've been called all sorts of names and slurs, I've been called a dirty animal, my peers have told me they want me dead, I've been called a schizophrenic freak (there is nothing wrong with being schizophrenic), I've been called a fat tranny, I have been put through hell because my home was flooded, something that is COMPLETELY OUT OF MY CONTROL!

Can we please treat all homeless people like people and not animals. It doesn't matter if they're homeless because they are addicted to drugs, because they lost their job, because they were kicked out of where they were living, or displaced by a natural disaster, I just want to be treated like a fucking person please.

#Don't point out any spelling mistakes/srs

[existentialqueer]

Tranny Bladder

In light of the renewed wave of transgender bathroom bills being pushed and passed, I thought I would share a relevant chapter from S. Bear Bergman’s Butch Is a Noun.  "I have a tranny bladder. You know what I mean, right? The amazing ability to go approximately forever without needing to pee? I am the person who leaves the house, has two meals with a soda and a glass of water at each, returns home eight hours later and finally pees, after having stood around several times, at least after each meal, trying not to look like a sexual deviant (you know, in the bad way) while hanging around the restrooms waiting for my date to finish up. I wait to pee until I can get to a "safe" bathroom, safe bathrooms being the kind in which I am not screamed at to get out immediately, where I am not followed in by the lurking-outside-waiting-for-his-daughter father looking to kill me slowly, and that I can use without an NYPD officer and an Army private on Homeland Security detail (just, you know, for example) being called in to look at my ID.    This mostly means waiting until I am no longer in a public place, and so I just wait. The years and years of waiting, and holding it, have taken their eventual toll, it seems. And so, like so many butches I have known, like so many of my trans-siblings, I have developed this miraculous ability to just... wait. I mean, we are also probably dehydrated. You do not see deviantly gendered people walking around with Nalgene bottles, getting our sixty-four recommended ounces as we go through our days. I am sure that somewhere there is an argument to be made that the trans community as a whole is a little cranky because we could all use a nice big glass of water.    It makes both my grandmothers crazy to the point of neurosis, by the way. They think there is something the matter with me (you know, in the bad way). They look at me with eyes full of the measuring, medical expertise that apparently comes with being a Jewish grandmother, and they shake their heads and quiz me like a six-year-old with an unfortunate habit of wetting myself.    Did you go? Do you need to? Are you sure? Did you try?    What do I say? No, Nana, I don't need to use the bathroom, and I will not for the entire forseeable future because I'm sure as hell not using a women's bathroom here in South Florida, which is populated entirely by slender blonde girls and elderly women with failing eyesight?    This is leaving aside entirely, for the moment, how angry it makes me to write about these things - drinking water, and pissing it out - as though they were not the most basic kinds of freedom, as though even political prisoners both here and abroad didn't have more and better freedom to drink water and piss it out than most of the transfolk I know do, or did at some stage. This is not engaging what it feels like to be quietly peeing in a women's bathroom and hear, after a knock at the stall, "Sir?" or pounding and then, "What the fuck?"    No matter how I pitch my voice when I answer, even when I use the most head-resonant and high-pitched voice I have available to me that doesn't make me sound like Flip Wilson on helium, I still have to open the door and show someone my ID and smile my beta-wolf smile at them, while the alpha inside me is tearing a hole in my chest trying to get out and teach them a lesson about manners and respect.    When I get harassed in the Ladies' room, or the cops are called, I can produce ID with the telltale F and add the story to my collection. Transgressing in the Gents can have its consequences, legal or chillingly illegal. Men's rooms can be more forgiving because the culture of a men's bathroom insists that men not look at the others in the restroom lest they be labeled fags. Most curious looks can be deflected with a quizzical but hostile glance that seems to convey the idea that a man looking at you as you enter might have some sort of queer gaze.    Transfolk wait for the day that they can use the restroom with members of their chosen genders without problem or comment, and swap pissing stories and methods like trading cards in the meantime. I have heard arguments made that bathroom experiences are the defining measure of trans-ness: have you ever had anxiety, apprehension, or problems using the restroom which corresponds to you assigned-sex-at-birth? Then you're transgendered in some fashion. It's not the worst idea I've heard.    The bathroom is where gender performance meets public perception with a resounding thwack, one that sometimes hurts and sometimes reverberates down my butch life in unexpected ways. It's where I have to make a public declaration and I can never be sure which one might match what people are expecting from me, and the consequences for being wrong are always so unpleasant, because the wrongness is so basic. I am wrong in the world, they're saying, wrong to have fooled them, to be a coyote among dogs and cats, to stand in gender's doorways and whistle, and they'll make me pay while my pants are down, if they can. When I use a bathroom in public, I piss with one hand on my belt buckle so I can make it into a weapon if I have to.    Tranny bladder is my saving grace."

#trans rights #queer #lgbt #butch is a noun

[meanieinspace]

The way the Ursula K. Le Guin quote where she talks about the first Harry Potter book is used is a bit disingenuous because she is talking about the literary quality of the book and like that's not what the "Rowling really fucking hates and slanders trannies"-discourse is about. People are acting like she called Rowling herself "ethically mean-spirited" when she did not and it actually doesn't matter whether the books are in fact actually evil or just trash or widely acknowledged masterpieces because it doesn't change anything about what Rowling does. But apart from that it annoys me because the people sharing that quote don't care about the quality of the books, they only care to reframe the books as a symptom of the author's decrepit morals which is fair insofar as a lot of an authors social and ideological hangups shine through in their writing (some authors are even said to try to mediate, reflect and transform their hangups through writing, the monsters) but it's also unfair in that it completely ignores what Le Guin was actually saying and in that it is actually worthwhile to try to process HP as a book series and a phenomenon. Because Le Guin is right. I used to really like Harry Potter - when I was a kid - and now I can't fucking hear about it anymore, but it really is "good fare for it's age group, but stylistically ordinary, imaginary derivative, and ethically rather mean-spirited". Le Guin is talking only about the first book here, where the age-group is 11 year olds, and what she is saying is it's an okay children's book, nothing special, pretty judgy. Harsh for a die-hard fan to hear maybe, but hardly the revolutionary takedown people make it out to be. But I think it holds true for the book series as a whole. Like I said, I think it's disingenuous to portray the books as uniquely evil when what they really are is exactly what people expect and want from YA books: lots of characters they can relate to, a seemingly big world they can imagine living in and a nice, inoffensive, boring sentiment like "love is the strongest magic" or whatever. If you were to read the books to find out about the authors political and social opinions, you would expect her to become famous for being very racist and classist, with the role the centaurs, house elfs and gnomes play in the story. Trans-what? Anyway, none of that really stands out in a late 90s, early 00s kids / YA books. And it has all those things the YA audience (which of course includes much more people than just those in their late late teens) desperately craves, even if it is nothing special ("imaginary derivative" would be a baffling criticism to levy against a YA book btw but it does make sense in context where Le Guin talks specifically about how much it annoys her that apparently none of the reviewers at the time have ever read another kids fantasy book). And here my well trained distrust comes into play. Because I have seen so many tweets and hour length youtube videos about this (okay only like two videos but still) that I don't think it's about Rowling spreading hate speech anymore. But it's also not cancel culture, because people are already trying to cancel Rowling, and they should continue to do so, but what you aren't explaining when you're talking about how uniquely awful the Harry Potter books are, is why and how Rowlings statements may classify as hate speech. Let me be the asshole here and say that

#there is a fucking character limit on tumblr?? #since 2021?? #fuuck youuu

[musherum]

found a room in a duplex in the city for fairly cheap. something like 540 a month. utilities included in that number. it will be a little hard going back to having no money all the time again, but god do i need to get out of here.

the people there seem... whatever, they seem fine. no obnoxious harry potter houses in their bios, nothing about them having frequent loud, obnoxious sex. although honestly... im desperate, i could probably handle some amount of loud obnoxious sex noises.

theres three of them. all seem to be white, tme nonbinary people. this could be a point of contention given that i am a tranny, and sometimes tme nonbinary people can be, lets say, more biased then they would deign to admit, about transgender women. but i dont know that for certain.

theyre a little, like, social justicey?? i mean, i guess i am too. but i've kind of mellowed a little and i try to keep it sweet, most of the time, unless the situation really calls for vitriol. and i guess i am worried that they might be more confrontational, even about small things. but again i do not know for certain. its just sort of a vibe, and my vibe detector is not always up to spec. also, again just a stupid nitpick, but it kind of strikes me as a little bit off, that a house of three white people would include in their ad, "We will prioritize BIPOC." it seems maybe a bit performative. but what do i know?

im going to send them a little blurb i threw together. it feels humiliating doing so, and having to admit that yes, i am asking to be your roommate while being neither in employment or education. but ultimately who the fuck cares. if they think thats funny and dont want me to be their roommate, ill probably never have to actually see them again.

im kind of wondering what might be wrong with the place, to be so cheap. i mean, i think it has some questionable renovations, and slightly unsafe stairs. but surely in this economy that is not enough, right? does it have bugs, or mice, or roaches? is it downwind from a sewage treatment plant? but those are things to ask later. for now i should focus on finalizing what i am going to send them.

[chaoticgenders]

Long post warning lol, rant warning too. I need to get this off my chest, it's going on 7AM.

TW for drinking, transphobia, and just overall shitty parents/people.

My dad was talking about our family friends' (Who I'll call Dave from here on out, who I also don't count as a friend.) ex-girlfriend, I don't know her name because my entire family including Dave deadnames her. I'll call her Rose. Rose was an abusive piece of shit, apparently. I wouldn't know, I wasn't with my parents at the time when Dave was with Rose..so I know nothing about Rose other than her fuckin' deadname and the fact she's a transwoman. Dave, my mom (sometimes), but mainly my dad are extremely transphobic when it comes to her and it makes me peel off my skin.

My dad claims she deserves this because of how she acted and abused Dave, and he'll also go on spews on how Dave is gay. It usually comes out in all of them when they're drunk, unsurprisingly enough. On new years eve, I think in 2020, me and my dad were both drunk and we both had a small argument over it. My dad getting red in the face and telling me to "shut the fuck up" because I don't understand it. While I'm standing here apple pie in hand just wanting to have a good time, trying to hide the fact I might be some form of trans myself. I told my dad (from what I can remember I was shit faced lol), "Even if she's an abusive asshole, you don't deserve to deadname her! It's transphobic!" , and apparently my dad absolutely hated that response and my mom had to step and and tell me to calm down.

It was understandable, my dad is one thing angry when sober...but when he's drunk he's a lot more in your face and wouldn't hesitate to throw a punch. I let the topic go, but maybe every single time when they're drunk...they'll deadname her.

The biggest one was, I think, around last month. It's a long story on how this stranger got on our front porch but I'll just say she saw us cooking out and decided to join and be nice, I guess. She was very sweet I suppose, although made me dysphoric because she said I would get rid of my "girl face" when I went on T. (My mom also outed me as trans against my will, which made me wanna kill myself.) I digress, at one point someone deadnamed Rose (she's always a Hot Topic when they're drunk.) and I rolled my eyes and kinda stormed off, grabbing a beer from the fridge for my dad out of habit. My mom got so fucking angry at me, and when I came back my mom was explaining to the stranger that Rose was trans..and just outed another goddamn individual.

My parents will never understand the concept of being personal and secret. I've told my parents multiple times certian things they've done is ableist, transphobic, racist, etc. They'll usually give bullshit stupid ignorant excuses to me, claiming "Saying the N-word isn't racist! I grew up around black people that let me!!" which makes me so flabberghasted, or my dad (who's cishet) saying fucking slurs like tranny and faggot to my face, and even being bi-phobic. He literally married a bisexual woman.

Adding on to this, my dad literally said that most bisexual people have a higher chance of cheating. I got defensive because..I'm queer, abrosexual, and also label myself as bisexual so it just hurt. My dad passed it off as a joke as my mom did nothing and said nothing other than back me up a little by saying a myth of being bisexual was that they're cheaters and my dad got even more defensive and started saying it was a joke x3 (times three). Sure, whatever man, it's a "joke".

My mom is also a cunt, because she doesn't belive in pansexual people, genderfluid people, and barely understands nonbinary people. Same with my dad, when I came out as nonbinary, then as a transman. My dad told me to my face that "You'd need to do the surgerys out of the house" and "they/them pronouns don't even make sense" when he's literally like idk..40???

My parents barely misgender me now, I've trained them well (/hj), but I know for a fact my parents don't see me as a man. I know for a fact they just see me as Girl Lite.

Also the process to get my parents to use my pronouns was hell, because they kept using excuses.

Also, my parents are anti-neopronouns (and probably xenogenders), they've claimed its a mockery to trans people and when I try and explain they brush it off like my opinion as a TRANSman doesn't matter.

IDK I can't wait to move out, my parents have tried fucking everything to keep me here and I'm manifesting so hard I can finally just leave this terrible place.

My parents are racist, anti-MOGAI (i use mogai in replace of lgbtqia+, for future references), anti-everything I am and more.

I only semi-recently got 'accepted' by my parents as "might be autistic" because my cousin just got diagnosed with autism.

My parents also don't believe in DID/OSDD, the last time they talked about it, it was all stigma. It hurts living here man, i hate it.

Also, too add flame to fire, my mom fetishizes asians, japanese culture, and gay men. It pisses me off, my mom literally consumes yaoi and is so fucking weird w/ gay people.

#chaos chatter

[doddgold32]

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[withcrafts]

yes you can subscribe to whatever thought you want obviously. but subscribing to 'certain facets of islam' while calling yourself a gender critical feminist is just hilarious. there is not a single facet of islam compatible with women's rights, that's pure delusion. so if you wanna follow your misogynistic pedo cult, feel free, but at least own up to it. it's not feminist. it's the islamic version of rightwing white women who call themselves 'radfems' because they hate trannies.

you just benefit from being in a political environment where if a religion is 'POC' (theres white muslims but those are colonial victims of islam so they dont get visibility) it's above criticism lest you be considered racist. plenty of people hate islam, many of them not white (even though whites are right to hate islam. y'all shitting up their countries with acid attacks and terrorism).

Professional yapper #2

There are things in Islam that benefit women, you just don't know that because you get your information from Fox News. Also did you know that Arabs are like... Majority white? The white folks fighting amongst each other has nothing to do with me and my people. I don't live in a political environment where Islam is left alone because the second I step out of the house in hijab there are eyes and whispers following me. You can keep making up whatever fanfiction you want about myself, the world, and Islam 🤷🏾‍♀️ like who TF are you to me? Literally just pixels and empty words

#neuron activity #idiocracy

[yeetus-feetus]

Okay random question but what are eshays like up in Sydney?

They wear a lot of Adidas and Nike- they're obsessed with overpriced shoes, have really really stupid haircuts, they bark at people they think are 'emo'. And they vape so much I'm pretty sure they're brains have shrivelled up, they're actually idiots. They drink so much rockstar and alcohol they'll probably die of liver failure in their late 30's too. They're self entitled and rude, they literally think they run the place, and they speak mostly in pig-latin so half the time they make no sense at all- which is kinda funny when they try threatening you. Also the ones in my town throw shit at me when I leave the house. Like I can't go anywhere without them harrassing me and calling me a faggot tranny. Most of them play football, track and field (which is why I had to stop), and they hang out at all the skateparks with their oilslick scooters which sucks because now I have nowhere to skateboard. Also they're all highschool dropouts, which gives us much cooler dropouts a bad name. Oh and a lot of them end up doing traineeships to become tradies, so I fear for the future of our infrastructure because they can't even do basic math.

Basically a bunch of loser asshole bullies who are gonna end up with a bunch of kids from different women because they skipped class and never learned about protection. And if they don't end up dead they'll end up in jail for assault and harrassment. Or idk, maybe get sued for poor quality building and creating unsafe working conditions.

#Sorry I ended up ranting a bit #I hate eshays

[vamptoll]

Ok, so, I like reading academic articles off of Google scholar in my free time because I'm a nerd, and I found one about Tumblr porn microblogging (there are a lot of articles about this- very established genre).

(discussion of transfemme/Gay Male identity below- very long analysis sorry)

But the article was... Shockingly bad? In an interesting way but so bad. So the thesis is- while western gays are very masc4masc, femme bottoms are a thing and we should respect it.(Again, this is a thesis I've seen plenty of times before- not a shocking post). But to prove this the author.... Looked at some Tumblr porn tag I've never heard of about "Men" who call themselves wives to other men. And I put "Men" in quotes because some of the posts were included and... This is just Sissy Porn? It's just "I'm a girl now b/c I do house work and that's girl stuff in a heterosexual context (also we're both boys but you can't ever call me a boy).

And the author can't say that because he wants to argue this is just dudes being dudes, gay men do this all the time (which fair enough, yes. You can call yourself a wife and still be gay). But many of the posts hyperfocus on gender transition as a DESIRABLE thing! Saying "I wish I could be an even better wife by getting a real pussy"... Is not gay dudes being dudes....

And I don't really care about the hyperspecificity of whether or not these random blogs are more sissy porn or more gay male porn- the real issue is that this same process of placing obvious transgender identities as homosexual is replicated in the article on obviously transgender non-Western identities.

The hijra and Travesti are both listed and those are not effeminate bottoms... the Travesti use hormones and inject silocone. The word itself is literally transvestite. Hijra meanwhile is just... Not even a little bit a sexual identity. Sure some Hijra have sex but the identity itself is more commonly associated with asexuality!

And now we get to my thesis, and the real reason for this post. So the article wants to talk about effiminite bottoms while not actually addressing that what we're actually looking at is just transfemme. And the reason WHY the author does this is the same reason why gay men in general don't view effiminite bottoms as a respectable thing- transmisogyny.

To do a very basic history- when gay men were getting respect in the post stonewall context, their main strategy of getting it was pushing out the fags, fairies, and trannies out and saying the anti-effiminate sentiment that is the primary reason for homophobia against gay men (In my opinion, this isnt an actual paper) shouldn't be thrown on them. And these identities have a massive amount of overlap, naturally. And now this author is just replicating the same violence, arguing that fags and fairies should get that sweet sweet respectability while ignoring and keeping away those bad awful trannies.

And why is it that we can't just say "There's overlap between these two?" Well, A) some people are deeply committed to whatever reason for a stable fixed queer identity- and fair enough I wouldn't want someone to analyze me as an effiminite bottom(for several reasons). And B) If we say effiminite bottoms have overlap with transfemmes... Then gay men become associated with trans women which is a net loss for gay men. So the author has to carefully dance around this because if he just says it outright, he knows he'll be ruining any chance for femme bottoms to get any respect.

Also the article ignores reblogs, and if you're doing a Tumblr Analysis, You HAVE to talk about the reblog function. Come on man, this is 101 stuff.

#anyway thats my notes #grad school life #honestly though i actually have very little skin in this game funny enough #I'm a trans dyke so like... these questions are very different over here

[stumblngrumbl]

Our "lawn tractor" (ie riding mower) mostly stopped moving a week-ish ago. I've had it for about 15 years now, got it pretty inexpensively off craigslist because of something call a "mechanic's lien". Basically someone had a mechanic fix their car, didn't have that money to pay the mechanic, so by law they're pretty much able to sell your car to get the money they're owed. Rather than have the car sold though, the mechanic took this lawn tractor - it was barely used, like 10 hours - in trade, and fire-saled it on CL, and I got an almost new thing for about half price (replacing an even older mower from the previous owner of our house, its transmission had literally cracked open, quite dead).

This tractor is used mostly for towing around a big wagon/trailer for hauling trimmings from the landscaping... especially this time of year, when things have been growing like crazy all year long and you finally get tired of not being able to easily look out the windows of the house because eg rose bushes that were 30" in the spring are now seven feet tall.

We also have a small lawn that's mostly tended to by the ducks and geese now, but it needs an occasional cutting too, and I mow our orchard once a year around the trees. TBH I need goats, but that's probably next year or so.

So, the tractor wouldn't go. Push the pedal, it makes "go" noises... and doesn't go. I look online and find references that say that it's either the drive belt (thanks, I replaced that last year) or the transmission... and the tranny in this unit is "unserviceable". Bad news. Local shops won't touch them, they say "we'll install a new one for about $900 in a few weeks, we're pretty backed up right now". I priced a new one at about $650, still no thanks. I'll get a push mower first, honestly I don't know how much longer the engine will last, these things "aren't built like they used to!" and most people have ditched theirs long before 15 years (I replaced the starter and coils a few years ago, and spindles on the mower deck... it's like a used car and something is always going wrong).

Still, people manage to change the oil in these allegedly unserviceable things, so it's obviously not entirely unserviceable.

It turns out it's fairly simple to take the trans out of the tractor. Or get it out from under it. Yeah it's dirty.

Likely problem. The oil cap is cracked and probably has allowed some water to infiltrate. The transmission is a "hydrostatic" one which means it's full of oil; the engine drives a pump inside the tranny which immediately drives a hydraulic motor which drives the wheels.

If there's not enough oil, a hydrostat won't go. If you mix water into the oil, the filters will clog and you won't get oil flow, and it won't go.

I drained the oil and found that it looked like thick creamy chocolate shake - very dirty and signs of water. Decided that it really needed to be taken apart and cleaned. The oil cap obviously needed replacement, so I bought a seals & filter kit from the builder of the transmission - apparently they sell service kits for their unserviceable transmissions... curious

Lots of parts. Gears etc. Filter covered in goo definitely not going to flow oil well.

Pulled it all out, saw mayonnaise (oil & water emulsion). Yuck. Cleaned out, replaced some seals, put it all back together (skipping many hours in the narrative here, I've never done this job so I'm super slow), filled with oil.

Put it back on the tractor and put the wheels on it and... it works now! $900 vs $75+way too many hours but

#diy #lawn tractor #transmission #k46 #I'm not a mechanic but all you need is a few tools and a willingness to take things apart clean them put it back together #and you can easily fix most things #it's slow but cheap and you don't feel wasteful