#also i scratched my glasses

[polithicc]

started my period and now im evil

#ok gonna rant in the tags bc i need to just let it out and then i can be normal again #i was literally in and out of meetings all day so i got 0 actual work done #i dont feel good and ive been so nauseous #i had half of a sandwich in the conference room while handling a fucking disaster #it's so unbearably hot today #i wore the wrong pants so i had to safety pin them and then i looked weird #the pants are also too long #i was so overstimulated in the metro #that i got home took off my clothes by the front door and went straight to bed to lay on top of my duvet #and its thursday so its a chores day for me #so i need to clean my house #i also need to find the time to fix the dress im wearing to the gala next week #my hair is dirty #i ran out of primer and felt oily all day #also i scratched my glasses #i made coffee had three sips and then forgot to bring it to work #i had an anxiety attack and stood in thje hallway to calm myself down #just to then have the most awkwaerd interaction with the new hire who was coming out of the bathroom \ #in conclussion #fighting for my life a bit today

[kayatoastkkat]

i actually finished something wahoo 🎉

GO READ HOW TO BE A PROPER GENTLEMAN BY @quilna!!

I think it's impressive that the original sketch dates back to early August, meaning this piece in total went through 2 months of exams, procrastination, switching to iPad and starting again on it from scratch, and still I had enough leftover motivation to finish it. This shows that Quill fics have great power to sustain motivation to draw, out of sheer talent and guilt if I don't finish it.

once again go read the fic please I beg of you

#the glass scientists #this is actually the first piece I started on iPad #i had like the lineart already done on phone but I didn't feel like syncing it #so i just restarted from scratch again lmao #tgs fanart #tgs jekyll #tgs lanyon #i guess?? #my art #how to be a proper gentleman #i also realised the inktober prompt for today is “chains” #this is intentional and only I find it funny #ipad art

[popponn]

i'm this close to opening discussion whether (is it possible that) kaiser is a playboy or not

#poponing #seeing how he enjoys feeling superior? this seems highly possible esp in a modelling au etc #BUT this guy also hits me like someone who is married into his job and if the other person doesn't give me the feeling of sueriority #for him in his field then he won't bother (i.e. how he acts @ yoichi & @ others at the beginning aka rizzlord kaiser vs default fridge guy) #kaiser (also sae) where is your back story ln chapter im begging here #okay lets stop here before i go off to some weird tangents. now back to rl business. will prob del later #babblings #also adding another note kaiser does seems to kinda focus on something or someone then appear disinterested in others #also will he even bother making someone feel special?? im asking really at this point im going off on semi baseless assumption #that fragile self image is making me scratching my head #but you know ness—magic and then kaiser—blue yellow—glass (chain) kinda like a fairytale (cinderella) ok off topic #....okay not gonna del this. this is my personal note #ugh but anyway playboy kaiser...? he really is confusing for me to write now because his facades are so different #and that cold guy part is STILL a facade. what are u kaiser #now back to rl fr

[journeyman-tier-fibercraft]

Been busy enough to justify a full round up for this WIP Wednesday. The TL;DR being that I'm back to being fully lace brained.

Blanket 10 is NEARLY finished. I've started attaching the last row and just need to finish out this row and then do a border (and give him a good wash, I've owned some of this yarn for years and it smells a little dusty). The nights are starting to get really cold here so I'll be happy to have it done, I just gotta force myself to work on it.

Doily 14 (Yarn | Pattern) needs to go on a longer needle but other than that is very fun and cute. I've decided to put it down for a bit to work on the next two projects but I expect when they get boring I'll go back to this. This pattern is surprisingly simple for a Neibling as long as you're prepared for the long pattern rows. Absolutely going to have to break out the washi tape to mark off my rows for the second chart, but the first one has been very easy lace knitting.

Unnamed project aka me fucking around to see if I can freehand this sweater design. I had started with a two row lace ("Honeycomb lace" from A Second Treasury of Knitting Patterns by Barbara G Walker) but honestly didn't find it fun to knit. So I transitioned to a favourite of mine (ssk, k2tog, yo twice). It's going a lot faster now tho it looks a little weird. I'm going to knit to the underarm and if it fits, it stays. If it's too small I'll rip all the way back and redo the shaping in this lace pattern instead with longer shoulder saddles. It's unfortunate that I didn't like knitting the honeycomb lace, I really like how it looks, I'll have to try swatching it in different yarns to see if the problem is just that this yarn has zero stretch (100% cotton).

I have decided I will put short sleeves on this tho. I had planned to just add ribbing for the arms but I saw a drop shoulder vest in a similar style and did Not like it, so this just saves me from having to rip back. I also think I'm going to have to leave this cropped, I'm not a big crop top person but with this yarn being cotton, having a full length body along with the sleeves is going to have the neckline very stretched. There may be no helping it regardless but there's no harm in trying. I imagine if this is does become something I wear it'll either be in the dead of summer or layered over a button up/some sort of top anyway, so a crop wouldn't be too uncomfortable.

Last but certainly not least is Shawl 14 (Pattern | Yarn). My precious Evenstar is coming along very well, I'm actually on the second to last pattern row before the set up for the border. I know the border is going to be a slog but I'm excited for it regardless, he's huge even all compressed on the needles. My self imposed deadline for him is April, but the border is only 56 repeats. If I can do one every other day I should be right on time, which sounds do-able even tho I know I'll get bored by the halfway point.

I need to keep an eye out for patterns for this yarn, I have a whole second cone plus what'll be left after I finish this shawl. These cones staring at me will probably be the push I need to settle on an Orenburg shawl pattern. (Or possibly a large Neibling, or one of MMario's patterns.)

#knitting #knitblr #lace rot #wip #wip wednesday #project: blanket 10 #project: shawl 14 #project: doily 14 #i haven't really touched shawl 15 so i didn't feel it necessary to include him (also it took me an hour to write up this much anyway) #i'm procrastinating from working on blanket 10 lmao it just makes me so eepy. heavy and warm blanket = nap time. #I gotta find something interesting to listen to while crochet it. I watched Astroid City with my dad and tried to work on it #but got so distracted by the visuals I made like 1 dc every other minute. #also my new cellphone camera is fucking awesome in comparison to my old one holy shit #it's like i just put my glasses on except they're not scratched up for once

[obstinatecondolement]

It feels like every day I read attempts to debunk the social model of disability that fundamentally misunderstand what the social model of disability is and who the people who developed that model were, including what the nature of their disabilities was, and I want to scream.

But I don't, because yelling at people on the internet is basically pointless. Instead I check to see that I'm not mutuals with whoever reblogged said misunderstanding and vague about it.

#'but [x impairment] would still exist and have [y implications] even if the world were completely accessible!' #okay well yeah but equating impairment and disability is explicitly the opposite of the social model of disability #the union of the *physically impaired* against segregation who developed this model #*were* by and large privileged in ways many other disabled people are not‚ yes #mike oliver who wrote the fucking book on the social model of disability #(social work with disabled people‚ published in 1983) #was a white man with a phd who pioneered an academic field‚ for one #and there *are* criticisms about the limitations to a purely social model of disability to be made #but like... our pal mike oliver was also a wheelchair user who broke his neck in a swimming accident as a teenager #which caused paralysis that affected his upper and lower body #not a clueless 'physically abled' autistic who didn't understand how physical limitations work #he lived the first 17 years of his life as a physically abled person #so I think he was aware of the difference between what his body could do before and after his accident #and like 'disability is socially constructed' #is not saying that differences between people and what they are able to do or do easily do not exist?? #my eyesight is so bad that if I could not access corrective lenses I would be functionally blind #and even with glasses my myopia and astigmatism cause a lot of tangible effects on my body #e.g. migraines‚ eyestrain‚ so many floaters that even looking through pristine glasses is like the lenses are scratched to hell #but my eyesight is not considered a disability #because the accommodations that enable me to participate in society fully in this area are so standard as to be invisible #can I magically see without corrective lenses? no #does wearing glasses not being considered a disability mean that I do not get migraines and eyestrain? no #so the arguments the thing I am vaguing are trying to debunk are not what is being argued! #well seems like I screamed about it after all #oh well

[agena87]

The second time Wolfgang and Malcolm met; when Mal went to sign up Joy for some art classes. The little girl had already shown some talent for drawing and painting, even at the young age of four, and expressed her desire to learn more to become an artist when she grew up. Mal, being the awesome dad that he is, never refuses her anything (though he tries not to spoil her). When going to meet the art teacher, Malcolm actually didn't know the name of said teacher, he just had been told by Max that there were courses for kids on the week-end at a certain art studio, and that it was the best teacher in town who held them. He was pleasantly surprised to see Wolfgang there, since he had been on his mind since their first meeting at Lucas and Max's wedding. Wolfgang was just as happy to see Malcolm, who he had found quite nice and interesting when they had talked during their first meeting. He was even more happy to see Malcolm wearing a more casual (and quite fitting) outfit (Luna hadn't been at Mal's that day, and hadn't bitch at him for wearing "hobo clothes"). Both men (well, a man and a Wolfie) ended up speaking for two hours while Joy explored the studio. And Mal left with the promise of a future coffee (friendly) date with Wolfie.

#wow i actually edited the hair for once #and i played a lot with blender's proprierites and values #i actually created my first window from scratch (glass and all) for this #i know it's some rather basic shit but i never tried it before #i also got better with the shadows i think (i also played a bit with stuff in blender for this) #anyway #my babies are on the road to looooove (luna who?) #to be fair neither luna nor mal are really happy to date each other #their relationship is more business than anything and had been pushed by both nancy and jacques after mal's wife died #fun fact: joy HATES luna (not 'cause she misses her mom because she doesn't even remember her that much - she was just 3 when her mom died #but because luna is really not the maternal type and don't like children - she's not mean or anything #she just doesn't how to act with a - very opiniated - little kid) #ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 render #render #sims 4 render #sim: wolfgang munch #sim: malcolm landgraab #oc: joy landgraab #story: well met

[candyheartedchy]

As much as I love the new robe look, Scratch wearing glasses is underrated ❤️

#if there’s one thing you must know is that i ADORE when silly little cartoon characters have reading glasses #like my heart skipped a beat when I saw him wearing those glasses again #and I have a thing for glasses so 🤷‍♀️ #also sorry for the bad picture quality of the first one #I couldn’t get a screenshot on the app and had to use my phone #💬 chy chatter 💬 #👻 scratch 👻

[8bit-mau5]

I need ppl to be online for when I post this Homestuck fanart request I had buried in my file from a year ago

#I couldn’t fit her glasses in I also forgot that like #the pre-scratch trolls had white eyes? #JHJGHDS #8bit beeps #this was a file I’ve technically had finished FOR A YEAR NOW but I literally #couldn’t open the file to save a PNG for because I had such little space #left available on my prev laptop (‘:

[sparky-scratch]

absolutely criminal that we never got to see the others wearing the Lou Jitsu fit... luckily for everyone i have remedied this evil

#rottmnt #tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #art #leonardo #raphael #donatello #michelangelo #the glasses might be my favorite part because i. made them all different shapes. gettin a little silly w it #also i can't come up with realistic poses so thats why mikey is Like That #my scratches

[arceal-doodles]

Nerd. <3

#CHECK OUT NAX'S ART #THE WAY YOU DRAW JEVIL AND SNAS ARE JUST *chefs kiss* #also i had this exact cat mug #but then i poked my eyes twice and scratched my glasses once #never drank from it again #i do use it as a pencil holder in the living room tho #arci talks #ask #naxlevelnat

[leverage-ot3]

I need to know the story behind you breaking into an abandoned asylum! That sounds interesting as hell!

okay so I’m prefacing by saying if you actually looked it up you could probably tell the area in which I grew up, but I don’t live there anymore so I don’t really care and I don’t feel like any of you would, like, look for my identity so it’s fine

so one summer day I was going to hang out with my friend and we wanted to do something fun. I’m like hey K, do you want to go to holy land? I know you’ve never been there before and it’s a cool place to look around (having been there once myself before

for those of you not native to connecticut, holy land usa is an abandoned christian theme park (no, I am not making this up). I won’t go into the whole history because that’s not the purpose of this post but you can read it here. there has been a murder or two there but it has in recent years been bought by a church and is now semi-maintained again (as in, it doesn’t count as trespassing anymore and they sometimes hold religious services by the 56 ft illuminated cross)

ANYWAYS so I drove us 30 minutes from where we lived to waterbury and just as we were about to pull in SOMEONE FUCKING CLOSED THE ROAD so nope, we couldn’t go :(

so we’re in the car driving back home, still wanting something semi-spooky so I’m like, hey, I’ve never seen fairfield hills (abandoned asylum) up close, why don’t we stop by and take a look???

so we drive there and park. now, it’s not especially spooky NOW because part of the huge complex has been, like, converted into community buildings (like a community center, rec center/gym, a fire house I think) because after an internationally known tragedy happened the community got a shit ton of money and they invested a lot of that into community resources

so we park near one of the still abandoned buildings and get out to walk around. mind you, it’s still 100% STILL FUCKING DAYLIGHT out.

we round the corner backed by woods and what do you know- there’s a hole in the fence and an open second story window. my friend and I look at each other like 👀👀👀 and decide, fuck it, let’s try it. yolo and all that

she boosts me up as far as she could and I used the outside little ledge (I wish I had a picture because this is a flex) and pull myself through the window. I then pull her up from the ground and get her in too.

we look around. we are somewhere in what used to look like some sort of wooden cubicles which were no longer really there. her phone is dead, we only have my phone flashlight, but it’s still sunny out and barely any of the windows are boarded up so it’s fine

we walk around, obviously people are in here frequently because there is graffiti EVERYWHERE, some wrappers, a few c*ndoms for some reason, I think maybe a needle or two (yikes). so like, it’s frequented but we didn’t think anyone was there with us

it wasn’t even really that spooky during the day (I would probably never go at night because 1. more of a chance other people would be there and I’m not going to risk possibly having a negative interaction yk, 2. I feel like more police would be patrolling it then, and 3. I’m not all that superstitious but I would never go there at night as a group of two)

we found what we assumed was an old rec room with a still mostly functional pool table (and an old dress in the window???), some bathrooms, an elevator stuck between floors, and some cool graffiti

we were in one of the stairwells with cool large windows when we saw a police car further away in the parking lot and went NOPE and continued down into the basement. aside from the little windows towards the ceiling it was PITCH BLACK and my tiny phone light did fucking NOTHING lmao.

we were able to get into the attic and I REALLY wanted to find out how to get into the bell tower but one of the doors was locked I think and we couldn’t find another way :(

all in all, I wish it was spookier but it couldn’t really get that spooky in the daylight, but I like that I can say that I did it because it’s a fun story. I would honestly love to go again now that I have lock pics and investigate some more but I don’t live there anymore

here are some pics and a video:

#abandoned asylum story #jackie talks #about me #yes the internationally known tragedy was sandy hook but I felt weird about putting it directly in the post #because I would have felt like that took away from the Vibe #lmao don’t ask me my opinion about guns unless you want a LONG ASS rant that shit happened the day after my thirteenth birthday it was awful #look up the history of holy land it’s wild lmao #also I didn’t include the picture but I realized in the car ride back home I had a small scratch that must have been from crawling out of #the window. the window was hella rusty and it could have been glass or something and the cut was tiny but like. paranoia #so long story short that’s how I remember when I most recently got my tetnus booster LMAO #I hinted to my dad that I might have done that and he was SOOOOO MAD LMAOOOOO #I brought part of a fabric picture I found back home but then remembered it might have #abestos so I threw it out lol #I want to go to a spookier one tbh #not leverage #asks #answered asks #nick nelson my beloved #mine

[smute]

on the topic of the touchscreens-for-heavy-machinery trend: i have one of those touch controlled stovetops. not technically a touchscreen, i know, but it is completely buttonless. and it's the dumbest thing ever. it's easy to clean and that's literally the only advantage.

first of all, the "buttons" are way too close to the part that gets hot, and since its all one single slab of glass you regularly have to touch hot buttons if you want to turn down the heat 😐

second of all, it is completely unintuitive. turning the heat up or down quickly is literally impossible. instead of just turning a knob you have to *beep* unlock the controls, then *beep* select the right ✨cooking zone✨, then *beep beep beep* tap the plus or minus and *beep* lock it again so it doesn't do anything you don't want it to do.

which brings me to my third and most important point 🤓 THE TOUCH CONTROLS CAN BE ACTIVATED BY LITERALLY ANYTHING. i cant even tell you how many times ive turned the stove off WHILE COOKING because a drop of water touched the power button. for some reason the lock button only locks the plus/minus buttons, not the power button. and yes, anything you put on the stove when it's off can potentially TURN IT ON. the other day i dropped a bag of sliced bread on there and it registered as a long press, unlocked the controls, and the thing turned on 🌝 thankfully i heard the beep but if i hadn't, it could've started a fire. just this morning the same thing happened with a fucking carrot 🥕

#& #also those black glass stovetops only look good for a few months #but if you use them regularly they WILL get scuffed and scratched #there are cleaning products that can can make them look a little better #but at the end of the day it is glass #anyway. why am i talking about my appliances again? #oh right. death by fire #well im moving out next month #but as a psa i guess: dont get a buttonless stove

[qoldwater]

I always forget how people back in the olde days used to just die so easily from the flu, until I get the flu myself dhhdhdhf because on one hand I know our medicine is just soo much better now a days but on the other hand I have the immune system of a dead man and once I get sick I'm like the ye olde victorian child on a death bed dhdhdhhd it's been 4 days and I just NOW can get on my phone to watch videos and text, and eat and drink water, and coherently string words together and do more than just lay in bed and moan in pain, and sweat and cough in sick delirium 😭

#im being so deadass #i only slept once between just staring at whatever i was hallucinating on the ceiling and that was last night #and i dreamt that i was eating glass #i know its because ive hurt my stomach and ribs from so much coughing because i can barely talk #at least in my dream i was picky about the glass i was eating LMAOOO i was like NO I WANT THE BUBBLE AMBER DRINKING GLASS NOM NOM #and raided a flea market just to find it and eat it #i dont fucking know #i finally ate some chicken noodle soup and apple sauce too and ive finally had some wonderful and amazing water #i swear i never enjoyed it more in my LIFE #i hate being sick because i get so sick so easily and soo soo so bad #fucking rough man #i had no idea it was Saturday until i just checked #fucking was Tuesday last I remembered god damnit #also its really scary looking in the mirror because I dont look well or look like myself right now #body image warning #but my face looks so hallow and dark and scratched up because apparently I either was scratching in my sleep or something happened #and I'm soo much thinner than the last time I looked in a mirror and got out of bed like 4 days ago #my beard is big and shaggy and i need to shave but i really really don't look good and its hard to do any self care #when you go from looking healthy and glowy to pale and dark and thin in just a couple days #like fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck that #im caught in a state of #this isn't reality #which i know isnt safe or good but ill be okay because i know im just in shock and that i cant push myself through it #especially in this weakened state #i just need to take it slow and steady #drink my water stay in my blanket and eat what i can and take my meds and thank FUCK I came through the fog and rest

[vargaslovinghours]

In case it was ever a question

#💟 #Doodles #Lol #Yes I do in fact still think about Vargas every single day #I'd tell you when that changes but that would still be a Vargas thought wouldn't it lol ♪ So for now situation normal! Nothing to report! #Haha ♫ #It's not always to this level or even this consistent but it does average multiple times a day and especially around sleep #The dreams have mostly completely tapered off but they're a common comfort/come-down from the day :) Reliable thought pattern #And even tho I'm not posting them for the most part outside of sketchdumps/the occasional video/fanfic/etc. etc. #I can tell you they still grab every sixth or so scratch page lol - and that's not counting their hefty backlog! #Plus I don't always doodle my ideas a lot of them go into my notes #Honestly considering a part two of an incorrect quotes post quite a few have built up and even I've forgotten some of them haha #They're silly ♪ #Oh yeah and you'll notice a near-matching uptick in WOY (Wander Over Yonder) :3c Haha wonder what that's about hahaha #And SCII to a similar degree but I don't have anything cheeky to say about that (right now) lol #Also completely off Vargas-topic I think it's really funny how often I forget my bracelet #Obviously didn't here! Got all 'em colours - which is honestly probably /why/ I forget that's a lot of tools for one small detail #But like - I never forget my glasses they are very much ''part of my body'' but I quite often forget my bracelet even tho I wear it way more #I take off my glasses to sleep and shower and the like but my bracelet follows me everywhere! How is it not part of my body just as much! #I guess I have been wearing glasses for longer overall but sequentially! Y'know! Haha

[darabeatha]

❝ Please do not wear glasses with wrong prescriptions nor purchase regular fantasy contact lenses if you have astigmatism ❞

#;a.sclepius #;ic #(def a reference to our glasses event in f.go yes) #look at his chair he's zoominggggg #/also i dunno if this is common knowledge or not ? but it was lit in -this- year that i learned- #/that u cant/shouldnt/ wear just any contact lenses if u have astigmatism #/like u know those pretty lenses that make ur eyes bigger or cosplay lenses that people just buy wherever? #with people with astigmatism; u actually need prescribed lenses; u cant just buy regular fantasy lenses bc basically ur eyeball's shape is- #that of a football; so regular fantasy lenses are made for the regular more rounded eyes #so u can imagine this would fck up ur eyes if u have astigmatism #i mean ideally everyone should get prescribed lenses but regular people have it safer-ish #i read that it can scratch ur eyes and u can get blind if ur not careful so its a big thing if u have astigmatism #i dunno why i just never see this getting mentioned anywhere; bc even for a con; 6 hours with wrong lenses can do big dmg #basically all this talk comes from me thinking about cosplaying a character with red eyes and then sobbing bc of my own astigmatism #anyways; my headcanon is that both h.olmes and da vinci craft glasses #a.sclepius can take ur measurements but thats it

[protect-namine]

went through a series of very small inconveniences and mistakes that are honestly not A Big Deal but it's putting me in a bad mood nonetheless

#mine musings #i bought soju and coffee and dropped it... the bottle was glass so #i was really looking forward to cooking something but the vegetables i bought have gone bad now bc uhhh i was supposed to cook it #earlier this week #but my eye got scratched so i postponed it but now i can't cook it without going out to buy ingredients again #also saw a leafminer on one of my plants #this day is just not going the way i want it to lol