#also some sskk as a treat

[sableeira]

skk started calling each other babygirl as a joke… turns out somewhere along the way it stopped being a joke and became an endearment that follows their insults

#this interaction prompted kunikida to make a work place etiquette powerpoint presentation #aka the presentation where he tells Dazai that exploring your sexuality is healthy but why does it have to be with a mafia executive #(-> still haven’t drawn the sequel to my other comic… oh well) #skk aren’t together btw they just are like this and continue to pine for the next 2 years while they’re basically already in a relationship #like they are exclusive behave like a couple still wear the rings from that one mission where they had to get married #soukoku #bsd fanart #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #osamu dazai #bsd osamu dazai #bsd dazai #chuuya nakahara #bsd chuuya #bsd chuuya nakahara #my art #also some sskk as a treat #a few weeks later atsushi calls akutagawa babygirl just to try it out but almost looses a leg again

[im-still-watching-anime]

writing bsd fics really is like some sort of palate cleanser for me like anytime i get unhappy with the way i write i go work on a bsd wip for a while and for some reason it’s always so much more relaxing than any other writing i do

#me writing bsd: 🥰🌸❤️🌻☀️ #me writing literally anything else: >:/ #idk maybe it just feels like my most in character stuff fanfic wise #or i just like sskk THAT much #i have no clue #but i treat my bsd fics so well because of it #im running over them with my highest grit sandpaper #smoothing those bad boys out #i have like six copies of one of them and i routinely edit every single copy #despite them all being versions of the same exact fic #i also have a few copies of some of my PUBLISHED bsd fics that i just like to edit or add stuff to for fun #my bsd folder is a nightmare and also my greatest treasure🥰🥰 #idk if any of my bsd fics are even necessarily my favorite of my fics but they’re certainly the ones im happiest with #probably also some favs though idk i’d have to look through all my drafts for that and that would be hard #and it’s like past 2am and im tired #sorry for all the tags but also #hey #nice 2 see u

[neevblanc]

„curious” ♡

a/n —hey all! hope ur doin' well, drink water if you haven't! have this as a treat. it's 2k and some more but i cant be bothered to check for specifics. (p.s sorry if the tarot aspects of this are wonky! i did my best to research and i pulled reference from my sister's experience with tarot cards/reading.)

૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡

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Dazai Osamu x GN!reader

Tags— 22/ada dazai, flirting?, pre-slash, don't question why reader's given a key, reader works under ango but he's also they're dad figure, it's a whole thing, mentions of sskk though not explicitly platonic or romantic, take that as you wish, dazai's infuriating habit of burying feelings and then one day he'll die

CW/TW— dazai. (/j, none i can think of.)

note — reader's ability in this is based on one that my friend chose for our self-ship au. "Teacher of Truth by Saneatsu Mushanokoji: The user can employ tarot cards to gain insight into the past, current, and possible future situations. The user needs to know what each of the cards mean in order to properly interpret what they say." it's from a post on tumblr, but I couldn't find it for the life of me! i'll credit if i can. anyway, it's been tweaked a little so i'm here to explain. in this, reader can choose to use their ability during a reading or not, but the tarot cards are always personal to them. people they know will sometimes show in the cards if they're important to them.

The next time Dazai sees you, it’s well before the ADA opens for the day. He’d admittedly had a rough night—sleep evaded him like always, and he hadn’t had dinner because of his own laziness. His futon was impossibly comfy. How was he meant to part with its loving warmth?

The Door to the agency creaks open, the sound not unlike the groan of the cafe floorboards only steps away. One of Dazai’s favorite activities was purposely seeking out the creaky floorboards and dancing on them so loud Kunikida would have to berate him, of course. He was intimately familiar with the annoying sounds this old building could make.

The office is darker than during working hours, but he notices the meager amount of lights still switched on. Distantly, he knows Kunikida would’ve blown a gasket about the electric bill if he had found them still on. He takes a step into the room-

Something rustles. Downstairs, an old radio plays a song he does not recognize. Pigeons flutter and coo from outside the window.

Somebody was in the agency, and had it been any of his fellow detectives, he’d have known.

“Hmmm, what’s this,” he mutters absently, volume low enough to alert whoever it was had decided to trespass.

”Dazai-san?” a soft voice calls, and Dazai pauses for a moment. A short, hollow sound follows—cards shuffling. He bites the inside of his cheek. How curious.

”Last I checked, you don’t clock in with the rest of us measly agents. Surely Ango’s fuming by now?” He hums, stepping into view of you. you’re sat at Atsushi’s desk, bag perched on top of Atsushi’s empty report trays. Dazai almost smirks at the sight— silly Atsushi, always rushing to complete everything in a timely manner. One day, he’d get him to turn them in later, hopefully months later- like he did.

”Hm, no. I clocked in earlier, but Ango wanted me over here early. Something about a mission I have to hand over to Fukuzawa-dono. I got a key from him last time, so I just let myself in.” you explained. Dazai pulled his own chair out and collapsed into it, peering down at what your hands were busying themselves with.

He realizes they’re tarot cards. Thick and sturdy under your fingers, you set them up neatly in front of yourself. The backs are a matte purple, decorated with silver details that glint as the sunrise light hits them for just a fraction of a second. The illustrations seem to flicker with movement, almost like snapshots of time shifting through an old camera, frame after frame.

”What’s got you so busy?” he asks, exaggeratingly leaning over to look at the cards. You laugh and smile, expression wobbly. He notes the change. You briefly shake out the bracelet laying on your wrist, almost nervously. You lay the last card on the desk’s surface. Atsushi’s cute cat clock ticks from where it’s placed near his report trays.

“I do readings for the day early in the morning, just in case. Sometimes, I don’t even use my ability.” You explain, keeping your voice low so as not to break the morning peace. Dazai glances at the cat clock. Soon, the secretaries and Kunikida will clock in and begin their work day. He focuses back on you and grins, intrigued.

“Anxious, then? I guess the ability to see the future will do that to ‘ya.” Dazai sighed, crossing his legs and resting his chin on his hand. He was content to watch you finish setting the cards down in a formation he admittedly did not understand.

” What does that one mean?” he says, pointing to one of the cards. Its flickering surface shows a woman with mint-colored hair pulled up into a bun. Behind her, there’s a black mass, and she seems to be standing in a graveyard. There are two Xs at the top of the card. You redirect your attention to the card he’s hovering his finger over and smile.

”That’s Judgment—renewal, reflection, awakening, or reckoning. For a personal reading, it would mean going through a period of self-evaluation or maybe even trying to understand the people around you and your situation more.” You explain, seemingly done with the spread and setting down the other cards nearby. Dazai purses his lips.

”Sounds gloomy. Lame!” He huffs, upset by his choice. you gasp and narrow your eyes.

”Don’t call them lame! You’ll piss them off, Dazai.” You hiss, smacking him on the arm. Dazai grins and leans closer, smile growing coy.

”Really now? And how exactly does one do that?” Dazai prods. You stick your tongue out and cross your arms.

“Not telling. Now shut up and let me do my reading.” You grumble, eyes flicking over the cards. Dazai whines and throws himself forward, almost shoving you off of Atsushi’s chair.

”Dude!” You yelp, hands scrambling to grasp his coat as he rights himself. Dazai grabs you by the shoulders and shakes, intent on being the biggest possible nuisance.

”That’s boring! Do your reading laterrrr; it won’t matter, right? Ne- do a reading for me! I wanna know my future,” He begs, grinning. You blink and scowl, pushing him away.

”First off, it would matter. Doing a reading later would be a completely different outcome. Just wait. All I have to do is interpret these. I’ll do yours after.” You grumble, adjusting their sleeves and settling back into the chair. Dazai harrumphs but settles into his own chair to watch you silently read the cards.

You focus back on the cards, and Dazai settles himself by watching you idly. You’re dressed in what you always wear to work, but it’s casual enough to know doubt have been breaking the dress code had you not been working under Ango for so long.  There’s a small scrunch to your nose as you focus on your task, and Dazai can spot how you run your tongue over your teeth in thought. Dazai looks away pointedly. Taking a few breaths, he forcibly clears his mind. How odd.

”Okay, done.” You hum, straightening and starting to pick up the cards. He shifts so his whole body is faced toward you. You take gentle care of the cards, putting them back into the deck.

”Why do they flicker like that? You aren’t using your ability,” he asks, curious about the shifting images on the cards. You shrug.

”Don’t know. It happens no matter what deck I use, though I prefer using this one. The images just shift into the same ones most of the time, though some have changed over time.” You explain, shuffling the cards. Dazai reaches out and hovers over your hand before poking the back of it gently. You let him despite knowing the outcome.

The images on the cards still lying on the table flicker, completely uninterrupted, even as Dazai feels the shiver of his ability eating away at yours. He hums and pulls away. He hadn’t been paying attention when he jostled you earlier, but you were right- they were unaffected.

”Strange, but not unheard of. Some ability effects aren’t considered active enough for my ability to erase.” Dazai says, allowing you to continue. you finish and present him with the deck, pulling away when he goes to take them.

”Don’t be mean to them. They’ll be mean to you. You can’t even think anything negative; they’ll know. You’re gonna cut the deck in 3, okay? We’ll do a simple reading.” you explain, and only once Dazai agrees (crosses his heart and hopes to die!) is he gently handed the cards.

”What do you want to read? We can focus on love, or money, or your career, things like that.” You say. Dazai ponders for a moment before sniffing, mouth settled into a pompous pout.

”I want to know if someone will finally be interested in a double suicide with me.” He huffs. You scoff.

”You’re insane. Okay, so love. Think about that while you cut them.” You nod, giving him the go-ahead. He runs his fingers over the well-loved edges and slots his thumbs through the deck where it feels right, setting the individual cuts down on the desk before them. He tries to take it as seriously as possible, though thinking about love has always made him squirm and itch beneath his skin.

You reach over once he’s done and clear your throat, carefully picking the top cards on each deck and laying them out in front of him. On the left, the first card flipped is a wheel, seemingly in the sky and surrounded by clouds. The clouds float by calmly, though Dazai can’t find anything particularly personal to you the way some of the other cards would show.

It’s made a little more difficult considering the card’s orientation- upside down.

You hum at it before moving on. The card in the middle is revealed, and this one piques his interest. He grins a little at the image. Two figures hold goblets in their hands, strings of power rising from the cups and meeting above their heads to form a Yin and Yang sign. The figures are startingly familiar- one dark-haired, the other light-haired. Accents in their hair match each other, silver and black clashing and melding nicely. This one’s facing right-side up. The image flickers to show the energy that swirls around, occasionally circling their respective holders.

The last one flicks onto the wooden desk with a hollow sound. The image is soft, not unlike the first one with the blue sky. A sun takes up the upper half, rays pronounced against the sky. Ttheire’s a little kid in the illustration, their beaming face scrunched up in happiness. There’s a flag clutched in one hand, with the other gripping onto the mane of the white horse they’re perched upon. Sunflowers frame them, peaking over the illustrated garden wall behind them.

It’s an endlessly endearing picture, and from the smile, he has a feeling he knows who it is. Like the last one, it’s right-side up.

You settle your chin against your palm, leaning on the table with a hum.

”That’s….a really nice reading, actually.” You move to point at the cards. Dazai sits patiently with his hands on his lap. Nothing more fascinating than seeing someone in their element, he supposed.

”That first one is The Wheel of Fortune. Upside down, it’s a little darker. It represents your past,” you pause, looking at him for a moment. “I think for you, it’s focused on the feeling of helplessness—lack of power or control…like you had love but couldn’t control how and when you lost it,” you say, your voice soft. Dazai fights to ignore the discomfort building in his throat.

”Well, what can I say? My dark past haunts me,” he bemoans, and you huff a soft laugh. You move on to the next card- the cups. You look a little embarrassed by this one.

”This one is the present. Two cups represent…well, partnership. More specifically, the realization of a new partnership. This one can be pretty romantic. I guess you’ve got something to look forward to soon,” you say, pointedly ignoring the images of his two kohais. He grins, sparing you of the teasing. He didn’t know how well you even knew Akutagawa- but it was amusing to see everyone could see what those two denied vehemently.

”The last one is the future. You got The Sun, which is actually really sweet.” Through your embarrassment, Dazai watches a sweet smile grow on your face. He matches it easily.

“It means joy and success, for you in particular. It means…whatever or whoever your two cups is for, you’ll be very happy together.” You say, and Dazai sighs wistfully.

”Maybe someone will finally want to commit suicide with me! This news might keep me alive a day longer just yet,” Dazai coos. You groan and take a deep breath, seemingly ignoring him as you duck your head down and then start to put the cards back.

”You better hope you didn’t piss this deck off, Dazai.” you huff, glaring. Dazai pouts, cradling his face in his hands.

“What?! I followed all your rules; I would never,” he whines. You flip him off and busily tuck the cards into a soft leather pouch. He lets his hands drop and watches for a moment.

”Thanks for the reading,” Dazai says, his voice back to normal. You glance at him and smile.

”Yeah, no problem. It’s nice to read without my ability once in a while,” you admit, expression soft. He grins. Something stirs in his chest.

”You can read me whenever you want, lovely.” He purrs jokingly. You startle, flushing. You glare and kick him with your foot.

”Don’t say shit like that,” you mutter. Dazai whines out a laugh, having settled on teasing you until he could see the smoke coming out your ears.

Before he could continue, the door creaks open, and the overhead lights flick on. Multiple people come shuffling in, and Dazai can hear Kunikida conversing lowly with Fukuzawa. The secretaries also file in, chattering contently amongst themselves. Fukuzawa and Kunkida pause only to greet them both. you wave politely, and Dazai salutes them both.

you blink your eyes to adjust to the light now flooding the room. Dazai huffs and stands with a groan.

”Alright, I’ve got five minutes to get out of here. You’ll be going in to see Shachou, right?” He asks, stretching. you stand and nod, giving him a look.

”Where are you going?” you ask, picking up your bag. He groans at the way his back pops as he rights himself from his stretching.

”Home. I only came here 'cause I was bored. But in the long run, it’ll be a lot funnier if Kunikida’s mad all morning when I don’t show up~” He snickers. you shake your head, a smile pulling at your mouth.

“You’re so lame. See you, then.” You sighed, heading down the hall Kunikida and Fukuzawa had disappeared down.

”And yet you love me. ‘Till we meet again,” he calls, pointedly ignoring the yell you let out.

”Whatever!” you yelped, and Dazai let the agency door click closed behind him.

He grins. Curious indeed.

note — can you tell i love brothers! atsushi and dazai? also, the woman in Judgement is Mizuki Tsujimura, who I headcanon is pretty good friends with reader in this one. :) please let me know if there are any pronoun inconsistencies! this was originally written with she/her pronouns, and i did my best to fix it to match the gender neutral style i like to use for tumblr stuffs.

©neevblanc 2024 // do not plagiarize or repost

#bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs #dazai x reader #gn!y/n #dazai osamu x reader #bungo stray dogs x reader #dazai x you #gender neutral y/n #neev.doc

[kyouka-supremacy]

Hot take, Bones doesn't deserve the amount of hate they are getting. Some, I understand but the amount I'm seeing is ridiculous. They have multiple projects they're working on and I get it, rushing through BSD isn't great but they can't animate everything. Also... the way they animated Aku makes more sense. Hard to give a soft smile losing such a large amount of blood from your neck.

Mmh, I understand that it can be disheartening to see something you like so heavily criticized, but I do believe the studio is doing some major mess up this season and that people are legitimately enraged.

I'm the first one to say that we're all here to have fun and there's not really any point on focusing on things we dislike, but I think it's also valid to be upset when something you care about a lot is treated unlovingly, and people are in their own right to express such disappointment. Moreover, I feel like in this case there is a point in expressing one's disdain. It's important to be critic of the media we consume: we could all pretend to be satisfied and settle on complacency, but wouldn't that be deeply detrimental? Otherwise, sometimes it's important to acknowledge and even state loud that you don't like something, because it's only by recognizing something is wrong that people can get to work to change it and improve. If we all tamely pretended we liked the new season, if there was no one to ever evaluate its direction, animation quality, pace, there's little hope for any of them to improve, simply because there's no need to change something people are happy with.

Theodor W. Adorno is my favorite sociologist. He once said, “the splinter in your eye is the best magnifying-glass available”. With that he meant that pain is the greatest source of knowledge. Pain allows to see things that otherwise would go unnoticed: only by acknowledging pain one can understand that something is wrong, that something needs to be changed and improved. I think it's always important to state: “this is wrong”, because nothing can ever be fixed if you don't first recognize it's broken.

Personally, I do believe what Bones studio is doing is wrong. I don't think it's fair to have such a drastic quality drop with the last season just like it wasn't in the third. I don't think it's right to not have an original opening sequence nor an ending sequence (that we know of). I don't think it's right to have such a fast pace that you can't keep up with the events. I don't think it's right to have a season filled with reused animations. I don't think it's right to have very little animation to the point there's up to 36 seconds of the same static frame in a single scene. I don't think it's right to have a quality drop in the drawings and quality inconsistency between one episode and the next. I think it's outrageous that the Fukuchi vs. sskk fight was so poorly animated and completely striped of any emotion. I don't think it's right of them to assassinate Akutagawa's chapter 88 panel. But most of all, I don't think it's right to have a season come out three months after the other. I don't think that's in any way ethically sustainable, and I don't think anyone needed that. I don't think it's right that studios don't get that people don't want an uninterrupted flow of content, people want quality content, and it's important to say that, or they'll never get it. I think they messed up greatly with this season, and I don't think being working on multiple projects can use as an excuse in any way, because as a studio you should be able to tell when you've got your hands too full to handle another project without meeting the quality standard. If Bones studio was working on too many projects, they simply shouldn't have set this season up for release so early, because again, NO ONE needs a new season after just three months.

I can see why you would say that the way they animated Akutagawa's last words makes more sense. It definitely is more rushed, and ugly. I guess one could argue that it conveys how death is precipitous and unpleasant, and doesn't leave space for last words. ... But I highly doubt that much was intentional. The sskk scene in its entirety was so poorly curated that I can hardly see the direction make thematically relevant choices. Even in the rare hypothesis it was a conscious and intentional directing choice, the outcome was still extremely underwhelming, because the moment itself doesn't feel rushed in particular since it's coming right after an episode that was rushed in its entirety.

I agree Akutagawa's death scene in the manga isn't realistic the slightest. But realism in that moment was never what the reader was asking for in the first place! It's a moment of conclusion for Akutagawa. It's the end of his cruel and hated life, and the author chooses to end it in kindness. By giving him a moment to smile and redeem himself, the author is showing Akutagawa the compassion he never received in his violence ridden life. Death scenes in media are almost never meant to be realistic! Their main aim is to move the audience, not to portray a realistic death. It's part of the deal the audience makes with the media the second they start interacting with it, to suspend their belief in order to enjoy the media at its fullest. It's, fundamentally, the same reason why you wouldn't question the characters having superpowers.

All the same, if you find yourself to be on average satisfied with the anime, that's perfectly valid too!!! I'm sorry people's disappointment may have resulted disheartening, and I understand it's hard to avoid, but my best advice is to try and curate your own internet experience to be so that you see the least negativity as possible. You might want to consider blocking and unfollowing people whose comments you find unpleasant, even if it's just temporary for the time the season airs. If it gets too much, refrain from visiting the main tag on Wednesdays when new episodes drop if that can work for you. I recognize we as a fandom could work better to build a space that is enjoyable for people who are liking the new season and wouldn't want to meet so much negativity, and I'm the first to admit I've been quite inconsistent in tagging my posts recently, so in the future I'll try to tag negativity accordingly. I do appreciate you for reaching out and sharing your opinion Anon! Let's all work together to build a better fandom space for everyone (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd s5 #bsd season 5 #bsd negativity #mine #people asks me stuff #Look‚ an opening sequence is the bare MINIMUM. I knew the season would have been a bad one the second I saw the opening. #If you don't have an opening ready‚ just postpone the release. Seriously. It's infinitely better than releasing an half assed season. #Nobody wants that. We're not getting a second chance to see chapter 88 panel animated‚ it's just gone.

[littencloud9]

Can I ask your top 10 fav fics ever (from any fandom, if you don't mind)?

Also, just curious, is there a story behind your name "littencloud9 "?

oooh! GREAT QUESTION i’m gonna rec my beautiful clever amazing mutuals’ fics obviously. and some others. i mainly read jjk and bsd fics so that’s probably all this list will have haha 😭

(also littencloud9 comes from my fav pokémon litten, + cloud9 was TECHNICALLY inspired by the song cloud 9 by beach bunny! but it’s a cute phrase so i stuck them together LOL)

in no particular order,

—> sun comes streaming through the window (& i can't sleep anymore) by @that-was-anticlimactic

| bsd, gen, teen and up, ~21k, kenji & ada

| good morning to one of my fav fics EVER. i have never sobbed so hard reading something. corey is the queen of kenji fics and this one is no exception i LOVE how the dynamics with kenji and the rest were portrayed and how much of a family they were 🥹🫶 (i also love her other fics.. the kunichuu ones and the pyramid ones especially you guys should check them out 🔪)

—> though i burn, how could i fall? by @zukkaoru

| bsd, gen, teen and up, 8.6k, kunikidazai + kunikida & ranpo

| HFHSGDHSS. i am always obsessed with grace’s kunikida characterisation. ada president kunikida is something that can be so personal. and i love that he had people helping him through the stress even when he pushed them away. TEARS. (also check out their other fics she has lots lots and i really like the tachigin, aku siblings, and kunichuuzai ones 🫶)

—> we can plant a memory garden by @ryuvnosuke

| bsd gen, mature, 4.2k, kunikida & yosano (during the great war)

| sorry not sorry for continuously reccing gen fics in this ship-focused fandom. anyway HELLO?? the set-up of this fic is already so so interesting, and i adored yosano’s character here!! and the description of.. pretty much everything, was super chilling. it was such a fantastic read 🫶 (i also adore ela’s tachigin fics and sskk fics too. she gets akutagawa like no one else)

—> reading between the lines by @spliqi

| bsd, m/m, teen and up, 12.3k, shin soukoku

| did you guys know that im spliqi’s biggest fan actually. their sskk characterisation is legit my favourite thing EVER i am always cackling when reading her fics. this one is my fav especially because of how ridiculously stupid yet clever they are. and how they cannot confess like normal people. highly recommend!! 🤍

—> baby, drive slow by zonnie

| jjk, m/m, mature, 15.8k, itafushi

| i am a SUCKER for roadtrip AUs. this fic was so so fun and i loved yuuji the greenest flag ever. i also love zonnie’s other itfs works! also megumi and nobara’s dynamic in their fics are the best thing ever i am obsessed 💗💗

—> quiet quitting is easy when your boss has already held your funeral and you’re technically still legally dead by @gothicakvtagawa

| bsd, m/m, teen and up, 24.5k, shin soukoku

| the sskk writers in this fandom truly get it. this fic was SUCH a great ride, and i loved that other character’s povs (kunikida, sigma, chuuya etc) were explored! i always love post-canon fics so this was such a treat. and fukuzawa father of the YEAR award in this fic. overall lovely lovely fic, amazing characterisation, and fun flow!! (their other sskk fics are also GEMS check those out)

—> and all i loved, i loved alone by featherx

| bsd, m/m, mature, 121.6k, ranpoe

| i always wonder how user featherx is doing after dropping this BOMB of a fic. it explores poe’s life from the start and i LOVED EVERY SECOND. the descriptions of how his ability feels, meeting new people, meeting karl, meeting the guild members, his relationship with ranpo and so on. exploration of sexuality too. overall this fic reads like the bsd poe wikipedia to me because of how on point everything feels. LOVE it

—> i hope i die first by @amythecinnabunny

| bsd, m/m, teen and up, major character death, 28.7k, shin soukoku

| yeah… this fic sent me into spirals. i sobbed so hard i had to take bathroom breaks. the epilogue was truly the cherry on top. if you wanna break your heart this fic is for you (also love her other fics! esp the higuchi & the sheep series, and the babysitting series!)

—> here and where you are by cityboys

| jjk, m/m + gen, teen and up, 17.3k, itafushi + jjk first years trio

| okay. i cry pretty easily reading things. but this one. ohhhhh my god. this one legit had me ugly crying for a whole hour. this one destroyed me. megumi is my pookie we know this so reading this HEARTWRENCHING fic from his pov was just. ouuuugh. basically yuuji’s memories are erased and he goes back to being a normal boy. but megumi and nobara remember him. enough said. please read this i was genuinely devastated

—> hey son, i killed your daddy by missingnooo

| jjk, gen + m/m, teen and up, 5.6k, gojo & megumi (+ satosugu and itafushi)

| THIS FIC!!! gojo and megumi are surprisingly underrated in this fandom which is crazy cause they’re literally related guys. but this was an emotional rollercoaster and i was hooked every second. gojo’s character felt very true to the story idk how to explain it but it was amazing. i cried. highly recommend

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THATS 10!! i only dared to tag my mutuals aksjfksbd but heres my fic recs. thank you for the ask! <33

#if any link is wrong please tell me bc it’s 2.30am and i am blurry when it comes to links #bsd #jjk #fic recs #ao3 #fanfic #there are also so so many other amazing fics out there. jjk and bsd fandom is simply making masterpieces

[a-stray-wretched-dog]

hey guys, i know nobody asked for this ... but this is the official intro for my blog!!!

enjoy~~ (´｡• ᵕ •｡`)

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hey hey, i'm @a-stray-wretched-dog! i usually prefer to stay anonymous about a lot of things, but of course i'd like to share with you some facts about me ...

i mainly like to post about shin soukoku, but i do like ships other than shin soukoku. it's just that the shin soukoku brainrot is too much for me (╥﹏╥)

first, these are some specific tags (to my blog) that may need a little bit of explaining...

⚝ #wretched japanese (random things i found out about japanese, the language.)

⚝ #wretched dreams (about my dreams, usually bsd related.)

⚝ #wretched wishes (drawing requests, expressing my wants.)

now, for the lists of likes and dislikes !!

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⚝ bsd characters: atsushi, kunikida, tachihara, tecchou.

⚝ ships: shin soukoku, soukoku, kunizai, suegiku, fukufuku, etc.

⚝ hobbies: cleaning, listening to music (instrumentals), taking showers, going on a walk.

⚝ foods and drinks: curry udon and peach sparkling water.

⚝ people: someone who listens to me, someone who treat others kindly (that's all i ask).

☆ ★ dislikes ★ ☆

⚝ forgetfulness.

⚝ guilt, contrition, regret.

⚝ disorder, messiness (i can't stand it.)

⚝ dread, hopelessness, powerlessness.

⚝ wasted potential (especially for sskk fanfiction.)

anyways, that's all i want to say ... i hope this made you more interested in me as a person.

my asks are always open (submissions are also open)!! feel free to say whatever there (as long as it's not too personal or intimate) !!

and last but not least,

virtual hugs for everyone !!! (づ๑•ᴗ•๑)づ♡

and thank you for reading this.

—--------byakko ≽^•⩊•^≼ rashomonƪ(`▿▿▿▿´ƪ )--------—

#pinned intro #intro post #bungou stray dogs #asks from myself

[lnkedmyheart]

Am I the only one who sees any fic where Chuuya goes after Dazai when he leaves the Mafia to leave too and goes “huh?” I’m not talking about fics where Chuuya leaves with Dazai, I mean fics where he tracks him down and is like, “I’m leaving too, I’m coming with you.” I just think if there was anything that caused Chuuya to leave the Mafia, I can not see him going after Dazai. I feel like he would just be like, “I am not chasing after that asshole.” Like I know some people are very into the whole ‘loyal dog who follows Dazai’ imagery or dynamic or whatever but I do not vibe with it

Personally I dont care for that trope. But I can see why people like it. Fanfics are for exploring things you would like to see but not as a canon event. Like I wanna see Chuuya snap and go full time villain that the Agency needs to take down in a fic but I dont wanna see it happen in canon cause it would be out of character unless something actually happens to justify it. However, i feel like the fandom tends to treat fanon as gospel, like no, Chuuya would not follow Dazai. His whole thing is that he refuses to be anything but an equal participant when it comes to Dazai. If Dazai had asked him to come along? Sure he might have considered it to some extent cause uts his loyalty to his partner vs his loyalty to the mafia people. But to actually leave he'd need some really substantial motivation. Its like with beast, what all would have had to happen to get Chuuya to despise Dazai so much and still snap when he dies, what needed to happen to get Oda to hate Dazai, what needed to happen to get sskk to swap places? In the world Asagiri mentioned where Dazai and Chuuya left together, something major would need to change.

I also stopped reading fanfics a while ago now so idk if there has been an influx of this trope. Generally speaking the quality of fanfics has been declining what with wattpad users moving their works to ao3 and in general the fandom growing larger. Ofcourse there are some great fics that come up once in a while but most of them are just a rinse and repeat of the same trope because news fans have not read half the content in the ln's. Can you really blame them for mischaracterizing when they only know what the loud side of the skk fandom insists is canon and not having read any of their actual dynamic?

[hesperidia]

tbh i really want Atsushi to be the one that gets transferred into the PM. Not only bc he would be an important asset for Mori and not only for the sskk potential content. But because the latest arc wasn't very focused on him, and i also want the PM cast to have the spotlight for a second.

(Them interacting with Atsushi seems the best way to do that + it'd be interesting to see Atsushi's pov in an organization that does not care about principles and justice, with dynamics so different to the ada).

I'd like to see Atsushi befriending Chuuya, HIM BEFRIENDING HIGUCHI (this would be the funniest thing ever but if it actually happens it would be done very badly because it might turn out as a "jealousy" competition over Akutagawa) But think about it: Higuchi has a little sister she cares for and that's the reason she's in the mafia, Atsushi has Kyouka. They could be the poor underlings that have to be under Aku's command at first and have to put up with his nonsense. There's so much potential for bonding between them i could go on.

It would also be an opportunity to see more of KOUYOU (+ Kouyou thanking Atsushi for taking care of Kyouka pretty please??)

Plus, Mori canonically has some kind of an interest in Atsushi. If we remember chapter 15-16 he gives him advice when they get out of Anne's room (when he didn't have to at all).

Bonus situation i'd like to see: Someone pointed out that both Mori and Atsushi both like chazuke, so imagine Mori recruiting him and treating him to some chazuke like a mirror image of when he was recruited into the ADA by Dazai. But this time in a way that's off. that's uncomfortable and feels so wrong to him.

#bsd #not everything should be through rose tinted glasses i'd love to see atsushi being put in heavy situations #not in a corruptive way but him dealing with things he would never in his life do and then defying his own orders #facing the consequences of not following them then maybe getting backed up by akutagawa or aku taking the blame for him #sorry for making it sskk again but. there's so much to explore. #poor atsushi if this actually happens he'd be in so many situations. he wouldn't find peace anytime soon #i just remembered there are beast parallels also. Mori helping Atsushi w/his ability could very well be a thing in the main timeline #lazu stop making everything about sskk and beast challenge #bsd atsushi #lazutxt #dumb theory tag

[chuuyanakaahara]

im going to say it my bsd pet peeve is how ranpoe is SO consistently treated as an always fluffy ship and given no depth beyond that ever other than being the one token “cute wholesome” ship and like. do i think they’re cute? yes absolutely ofc they are. do i think they have way more than that going on, and also poe literally tried to KILL ranpo, and also the reason ranpo respects him and likes him so much is because they are more or less intellectual equals? ALSO YES but nobody EVER talks about those parts ohhhh my god can we PLEASE get these guys a fraction of the thought put into them that people give to skk or sskk or fyolai. Please. please stop reducing them to wholesome fluffy couple with no depth

i don't even go here <- does not do much ranpoe thinking or writing or consuming. however. i know for a fact that you're right.

they are weird dudes. ranpo is so weird that the entire police department collectly sighs when he comes onto the scene. he's so weird that fukuzawa made him a whole detective agency because otherwise this genius kid is going to get shot and killed because he cannot shut his mouth.

and poe. oh my god. poe is a weird dude. he spent six years crafting a novel for this guy he met once and didn't like because he was better than him. again, met once. he began the 3rd highest rank in a criminal organization because of this. he fixated on ranpo in an incredibly unhealthy and frankly weird way! let him be weird!

and beyond just letting them be weird, let them have angst. i have genuinely seen people say it's weird whenever anyone mentions ranpoe as a ship for any nsfw content. as though. they are not older than the rest of the cast by like 4 years. they're grown ass adults, and they have arguments and rivalries like everyone else, and nuance, and frankly i do not think they got to be equals the way they treat each other without some arguing and fighting off-screen that we don't get to see.

#SO RIGHT FOR THIS #cherri.txt #send me ur bsd pet peeves :3

[pmreaper]

enjoy a quick little sskk drabble for sheep au thats probably not winding up on ao3 <3 it's in character for the changes the au makes but too ooc for the source material which makes me feel weird about posting it to ao3/in the main tag. hope yall enjoy anyways!

“Hey, Ryuunosuke.”

One eye peered open from where Ryuunosuke had been resting his eyes. He was deep in Sheep territory, about as safe as he could get. Chuuya was out somewhere prowling the streets for any threats, so Ryuunosuke had an off shift. Since Gin was otherwise occupied, he had decided to take a moment to “relax.”

It was nice.

Having his rest interrupted wasn’t exactly a poor thing, either. The voice that called out to him belonged to the strangest member of the Sheep, Nakajima Atsushi. The weretiger. (Not that the boy knew that last part, Ryuunosuke thought dryly to himself.)

The fact that Atsushi didn’t know was a constant thorn in Ryuunosuke’s side, but not one that he could exactly do anything about. Chuuya had been clear in making sure that nobody told Atsushi about his ability.

Regardless of Ryuunosuke’s annoyance over that particular situation, Atsushi was still strange enough on his own. He was a member of the Flock, but didn’t have many qualms anymore about talking with members of the Sheep. He barely had any about socializing with Chuuya or Ryuunosuke himself, and what ones he did have disappeared when Dazai showed up and took an interest in the cub. The boy had no sense of self preservation, either. He thought he was defenseless and still surrounded himself with people much stronger than him.

And, Atsushi always treated Ryuunosuke like they were at the same level. It was different when Chuuya did that to Ryuunosuke, when Chuuya was arguably more powerful than Ryuunosuke was. Atsushi’s stupid ability to turn into some fluffy creature every full moon wasn’t as strong as Rashomon, though, and Atsushi didn’t even know he had an ability at all.

At first, Ryuunosuke found it disrespectful. If Atsushi was talking to him as an equal while being weaker than Ryuunosuke, that meant he thought Ryuunosuke was weaker than he really was.

After a while, Ryuunosuke managed to figure out that Atsushi still had respect for Ryuunosuke’s power. He spoke of Rashomon openly- not treating it as taboo to bring up directly like so many Sheep- but also with awed breath. It was something that he recognized, but which simply did not pose an obstacle to his desires. It was strange.

Ryuunosuke first brushed aside Atsushi, but after repeated attempts from the younger boy, Ryuunosuke came to respect Atsushi in turn for his determination, however misplaced it may have been. So, he’d begun responding to Atsushi’s attempts at contact.

“Atsushi,” Ryuunosuke said in acknowledgement. He was sat on the roof of some hut, his back resting to the stone wall it was built against. Meanwhile, Atsushi was on the street level, gazing up at Ryuunosuke. “Is something wrong?”

From down on the ground, Atsushi shook his head ‘no.’ “I was looking for you.” His eyes narrowed a little, in confusion instead of anger. “How am I supposed to get up there?”

To anyone else, Ryuunosuke probably would’ve huffed and said, ‘you’re not.’ But as it was Atsushi, he merely rolled his eyes and activated Rashomon. It wasn’t perfect, but a thin ladder now descended the wall, and Atsushi scurried up. “What is it?” he asked once Atsushi scampered on over, retracting Rashomon back into his outfit.

“I have something for you!” Atsushi wasn’t even out of breath after scrambling so quickly up the ladder, something that Ryuunosuke noted with a stab of envy before realizing what Atsushi had said. A gift for him? Ryuunosuke watched as he took something out of a pocket inside of his jacket, a small brown bag that jangled with every movement. “Well, a few things for you.”

Ryuunosuke blinked. "You have… small bits of metal for me?"

"Yup!" Atsushi turned the bag upside down and let the pieces of metal scatter over the roof of the hut. Ryuunosuke looked at them blankly. They were his now? "I've been gathering them for the past month."

Picking one up, Ryuunosuke examined the metal scrap. It had writing on it that he recognized from a soda can. About the size of a coffee lid, it had sharp edges and a hole torn out of its center. He didn't understand how he was supposed to carry all of them around without cutting up his hands, a distressing thought. Cautiously, he asked Atsushi, "are you giving me the bag too?"

"You don't need the bag," Atsushi said, waving a hand around. "Just put them in Rashomon."

"What."

"What? It's a good idea!" Atsushi looked genuinely offended, which put Ryuunosuke on edge. What had he done? "If you attach bits of metal to Rashomon, then if anyone attacks you, you have extra protection."

Frowning, Ryuunosuke explained, "Rashomon can be sharper or more serated than any piece of scrap metal."

"Have you ever heard of shrapnel?"

"...Ah." Ryuunosuke took a second to consider the possibility of leaving bits of metal in the body of an attacker. He wasn't opposed to it. He took the piece of soda can he was holding and let Rashomon wrap itself around the hole in the center near his shoulder. It looked almost like a piece of a pauldron. "Like this?"

Nodding excitedly, Atsushi said, "yes, exactly!"

Ryuunosuke took a few minutes to strategically place the bits of metal, all of varying sizes, where they wouldn't rub against fabric when Ryuunosuke was moving. But after a while, he was struggling to reach onto his back.

"I've got it," Atsushi suddenly piped up, picking up one of the scraps with deft hands. "Just do what you do with Rashomon and I'll put it on."

Reminded not-so-vaguely of the way Atsushi could turn into a giant tiger on full moons, Ryuunosuke hesitated. He would have hesitated to give his back to anyone else, even Chuuya. But there was something earnest and kind about the offer that made Ryuunosuke give in. Haltingly, Ryuunosuke turned away from Atsushi, biting his lip as he did so.

Despite himself he half expected an attack.

But none came.

Instead, Atsushi simply fell into a rhythm with Rashomon, placing the metal scraps onto protrusions which would then retract into the fabric, leaving the shrapnel embedded in the outer layer.

When Atsushi was finally done, Ryuunosuke turned around, jangling slightly. He saw Atsushi trying and failing to stifle a laugh. Ryuunosuke rolled his eyes.

Sure, he wasn't going to be able to use any stealth, but anyone who saw him coming should turn the other way anyways. Probably a few members of the Sheep and the Flock would do that, too.

But not Atsushi. Definitely not him.

#reaper art #🐏: sheep au

[kitkatnerds3]

BSD SEASON 5 EP 3+4

So, I just watched ep 4 and I forgot to write a thing on my thoughts about the third episode, so I'm gonna do that first and then scream about the new one.

The third episode wasn't bad! Hunting dog Akutagawa looked dope and that imagery with the clock was dope. Also having just a black screen with white scrolling words was a cool decision for the ending, really not letting us have any distractions from what just happened. Still upset that they didn't include them being silly.

Now that that's done we move on to the next episode.

NOOOOOOOOO! GODDAMNIT BONES I WAS SO EXCITED FOR THE AKUTAGAWA SMILE RIGHT AT THE START OF THE NEXT EPISODE! THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN SO GOOD!!! HOW DARE YOU YOU COULDN'T HAVE JUST GIVEN HIM ONE SMILE!!???

But anyways, as FUCKING PISSED, I am about this slaughtering of Akutagawa, the rest of the episode wasn't awful. Tachihara was on some cool hot girl shit, and I'm always happy to see the Black Lizard squad and seeing Hirotsu care about him. Higuchi was beautiful as always and I was happy to see her too, even if it was only for like two minutes.

Back to Tachihara and also the hunting dogs, I feel like they did Tachihara pretty good! Probably could've done better but it wasn't awful! Really hope he ain't perma dead, probably not seeing as Asagiri hates killing off main manga characters, but who knows. The hunting dogs were all delightful, Tecchou looked gorgeous, Suegiku did a bit of gay shit, Teruko displayed her terrible taste in men, all in all they were doing great! Particularly liked that soft family photo that kinda looked like the one of the agency!

(Also, on the subject of the hunting dogs, Fukuchi is so fucking overpowered I hate him.)

And finally, my favorite part of the episode.

BRAM FUCKING STOKER

When I first entered this fandom and heard that Bram Fucking Stoker was a character, I nearly died. Not sure why Bram shocked me more then any of the other authors, such as F Scott Fitz-fucking-gerald, but he did. And seeing him in the anime was an absolute treat! He was so pretty! Seriously why did they make him so pretty? And seeing as they did make him so pretty, why couldn't they have done that to fucking AKUTAGAWA- but I digress. They really did make Bram positively gorgeous tho, and his voice fit him perfectly too! We've found the third thing Bones has spending all their budget on, Dazai, Fukuchi's man-tiddies, and Bram Stoker!

All in all, the sskk shipper in me is dying but as a whole this episode certainly could have been worse! I have no idea what's gonna happen next episode, this might be where Aya shows up? Or maybe the Fukuchi v. Jounno fight? maybe we'll go back to Mersault? I don't know the order of what's gonna happen after so I'm excited to see what happens next. Praying that whatever it is will be adapted well!

#bungou stray dogs #bsd season 5 #bsd akutagawa #bsd tachihara #bsd fukuchi #bsd bram #why couldn't they just let Aku smile!!?? #it's not like it would take more money for him to care!!! #also #bram is so babygirl i adore him

[violets-arepurple]

Sskk headcanons that are probably ooc because I'm in the need for soft things once more

Akutagawa likes to stroke through/pet Atsushis hair when they're cuddling

This is perfect for Atsushi as he do be having those cat like tendancies

Whilst Akutagawa does have money he tends to keep the expensive gifts and meals to the house were Atsushi can't see price tags as he worries that Atsushi may feel inadequate

When they do have dates it tends to be somewhere more lowkey due to their mutual dislike of crowded areas and the fact that Akutagawa is a wanted criminal regardless of how unlikely it is for him to be arrested

Preferred date spots include aquariums, botanical gardens, little tea shops, or Akutagawas place

They rarely go to Atsushis place because it's at the agency and Dazai once made a joke about making sure they keep the door open

They hold hands a lot Akutagawa has really cold hands because he's basically a sickly victorian orphan and Atsushi runs quite warm so together they make the perfect temperature

If they're somewhere secluded Akutagawa will lift their hands up so he can kiss Atsushis hand

I feel like he read some old fashioned courting books, applied some common sense and is trying his best

Atsushi usually goes for cheek kisses

When given the choice Atsushi prefers to sleep with things around him because anything else reminds him of how empty the cage is so if he's sharing a bed with Akutagawa he'll often times get Akutagawa to sleep on top of him

Akutagawa also brought extra pillows even if he completely denies it

Akutagawa also wraps rashoumon around them like a weird mix between a weighted and heated blanket

They have nights were they sit and trace eachothers scars and feel any emotions they need to without fear of judgment

Atsushi still transforms on the full moon Akutagawa was kind of freaked out the first couple of times because the tiger is overwhelmingly powerful and just didn't tell Atsushi about it

Now he's just kind of accepted that he may sometimes wake up in bed with a giant glowing tiger, with the tiger making sure he goes back to sleep

He informed Atsushi of this by asking him if he wanted to see a cute cat video and then sending him a video of himself as the tiger

Atsushi hasn't quite gotten over it or the fact that Akutagawa has a collection of video and pictures of himself and the tiger but he's never quite felt so loved

Something about the tiger being loved hits different when everyone else in his life treats him as threat

I feel like Akutagawa refers to Atsushi as 'my love' if it's just them two or something equally sappy

Atsushi is one of two people who call Akutagawa by his first name, the other being Gin

Speaking of Gin she and Atsushi get on great, they are slightly the bane of Akutagawas existence

They have eachothers contacts as brothers boyfriend and boyfriends sister respectively, they find themselves hilarious

It took a long time for them both to process Dazais past and present respectively but they're getting there

Akutagawa depends on him a bit less and Atsushi doesn't idolise him as much and they're getting towards a healthy balance

The first time Akutagawa took rashoumon of around him was when Atsushi fell asleep at the table writing reports in an effort to stay up and wait for Akutagawa to get home and woke up with rashoumon around his shoulders whilst Akutagawa was making dinner across the room

It was a massive display of trust on Akutagawas part and Atsushi has vowed never to break that trust

Atsushi display of trust came in telling Akutagawa everything that happened at the orphanage

They've briefly discussed marriage (this is further down the line) and Atsushis happy to become an Akutagawa as Nakajima as a family name means little to him

I like to think they eventually get a little black and white cat that gets spoiled rotten

They're in love your honour

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd atsushi #bsd akutagawa #bsd headcanons #shin soukoku #sskk

[aroace-polyshow]

Bsd anon again im gonna be here a few times im having many thoughts- but I think Sin Soukou is so freaking interesting, more interesting than even Soukou or their predecessors that I cant remember the name of (Mori and Fukuzawa) Its just- something about how different they are compared to either, how much that actually affects them, the difference between how they are turning out vs how the previous Soukous turned out, how despite everything, I don't think they ever actually will kill each other. I think its so interesting the change you see with the two, the affect they have on each other compared to the others-- its just so,, interesting- Also, question of the day. Do you think its good that Dazai changed from his Port Mafia ways? With the way he treats Atsushi vs Akutagawa specifically? Do you think there's similarity between the way he treats the two at all? I often find myself thinking about how despite Dazai being better as a person, and trying his hardest to not be a bad mentor, he still ends up giving bad ideals (Thats not the right word but I cant remember the word) to Atsushi. After an attack his slapped Atsushi and told him not to pity himself, despite the fact that he had just been shown some of his worst memories and accidently hurt people he saw as friends, some of the first friends in years. Its not punching him right in the face because he cant put up a shield, no where near that, but its still not a good thing to do. I can accept that Dazai has changed a lot since the port mafia but I think he still has a very long way to go, especially when it comes to being a mentor to both Atsushi and Akutagawa, even tho he seems to messing up a lot less w Atsushi thanhe did w Akutagawa But tbf the only reason I'm thinking about this is cause its always bothered me how Dazais treated Atsushis trauma as more of a,, annoyance than anything?? Like,, idk I'm rambling at its five am lmfao I should stop before I start going off on tangents

MY FUCKING LAPTOP SHUT DOWN AGAIN WHEN I HAD ALREADY WRITTEN SO MUCH GOD FUCKING DAMMIT

anyway hello again bsd anon :DDD

about shin soukoku, tbh i really like their dynamic a lot more than soukoku or mori and fukuzawa. not to say i don't like soukoku, if you couldn't tell by what i reblog so often i definitely like them (the same cannot rlly be said about mori and fukuzawa but that's another thing lol), but i really enjoy the sskk dynamic :D they have such cool effects on each other as people and they work so well together in fighting and like i mentioned i think their conflicting views of dazai is also rlly intersting and like hrgahgdhfkjs i like them a lot kjdfsj

then to answer your question, i do think it's good that dazai left the mafia, and i do think he's trying to be better. and he's definetely a lot better than he was in the mafia. i do think he's trying to be a better mentor. but like you said, he still isn't the best at it with atsushi. he's definetely doing a lot better with atsushi than he was with akutagawa, but yeah i do think he fucked up with that slap. atsushi's, yknow traumatized from when he rlly young and he literally just hurt people he cared about who also literally wouldn't fight back. like?? idk man i think there's many much better ways to deal with atsushi spiraling??? my dude??? though i guess dazai wouldn't have experience with it lmao

i get what you mean by it kinda feeling like dazai was treating atsushi's trauma as an annoyance. didn't really like it either. to be fair dazai didn't exactly have like. a good example what to actually do. sdkhfj,,,

he is definitely a better person now though. good for him lol

#bsd #:D #bsd anon

[kyouka-supremacy]

Ryu for the ask game?

Omg thank you all for asking this character I totally didn't specifically ask to be asked about and who I love a perfectly normal amount giggles and twirls hair

Favorite thing about them: He really strives to be good. Good at something, anything, but just good. He constantly fights against his own narrative and I find it very admirable. He was doomed from the start to fail and I feel like he knows that, and I don't know how he finds the strength to keep trying anyway but he does and it's really neat. Maybe his skull really is too thick to listen to the words of a predetermined fate. Just the whole thing about being the tragic character of all time is very compelling to me. Also, his inherently meaningless seeking a validation to live he shares with Atsushi makes me like him for reasons similar to Atsushi.

Least favorite thing about them: MMMHHHH,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Like I really like his flaws, I'm happy he has them, I wouldn't like him the same if he didn't? But at least I can safely say it's someone I wouldn't like to deal with irl lol.

Favorite line:

<3

brOTP: GIN AND RYUUNOSUKE!!!!! They make me go insane. Holding hands while working in the darkness fr. Being lonely together. Someone who's seen you at your worst FOR REAL but still hasn't abandoned you for some unfathomable reason. I don't know what goes through your mind but I see your eyes and they're the same as mine. Also mmmmhhhh sskk. Chuuaku. Kyouka and Akutagawa though I'm not sure that can count as brotp. Lucy and Akutagawa.

OTP: Sskk is like, pretty cool if you ask me <3 Imagine a fully rotten individual who was never meant for anything but killing and making people suffer since they were born, loving someone. Imagine the “I will kill you” being replaced by “I will love you”. But also imagine being so deeply interlaced with another person, your existence just can't escape the other. Destined to be together and destined to fall apart at the same time. I'll never be able to move forward until I've denied your very being but if you die my existence will stop having a meaning. Don't tell me what to do. I will follow you to the end of the world. I will kill you. I will die for you. I just think them <333 Chuuaku too, have already spent countless words on them but. Finally a ship that's real and relatable. Finally something that doesn't feel ethereal and idealized and distant and untouchable, but real and stained and messy and human. What if I didn't understand you but I wanted to. What if we walked together home. They're neat <333 Other Akutagawa ships I vibe with would be Akutagawa × Beast Atsushi, Akutagawa × Tachihara, Akutagawa × Kajii, akuatsulucy...

nOTP: 🤨🤔🧐

Random headcanon: I think he's numb to pain. And I don't mean it in the “oh no he suffered so much he's used to it at this point :((( ” pitying way, I mean it in the “he's felt such very strong spikes of pain in multiple occasions, his pain detectors just gave out” way. The “he won't notice a wound because he just can't feel it” way.

Unpopular opinion: In the last period, it's been bugging me a little how Akutagawa and Dazai's relationship is portrayed in fancontent. It's just always so black and white, while actually I feel like there's so much nuisance to it that just gets lost in fandom. Yes, the way Dazai treated Akutagawa was horrible and inhuman. Yes, to an extent Dazai thought highly of Akutagawa's abilities and cared for him. Yes, Akutagawa was victim of Dazai's heavy abuse. No, Akutagawa isn't entirely subject to Dazai, he explicitly gave his consent to an hard training (which, I reiterate, doesn't justify it at all; but does give more nuisance to the whole situation) and did oppose him in multiple occasions. I just think sometimes Akutagawa is framed as this helpless damsel in distress and Dazai as this inhuman monster whereas their relationship is indeed unhealthy, but still so much more complex than that. And just, really, I feel like portraying Akutagawa so helpless in Dazai's hands makes him a disservice? Even though in canon he said to be willing to kill Dazai on multiple occasions, has punched him more than once, has told straight “no”s to his face. I just think... People tend to make Akutagawa a lot less aware than he actually is. Here, there it is, that's what really troubles me. Akutagawa does know Dazai hurt him. He does know Dazai's treatment of him was cruel, and unfair. He is aware of what Dazai did to him. That just can't stop him from seeking his approval, even against his will. But to think that Akutagawa is blind to everything Dazai did to him does him a disservice, because he really is not that stupid or with completely null self-awareness. The fact that he tends to run after Dazai despite knowing how much he's hurt him is just further proof of how complex and human-like Akutagawa's psyche is. Also, he does NOT like reading. All my homies hate booknerd Akutagawa.

Song i associate with them: Well, I associate with him songs I definitely shouldn't associate with him alcfjyalfiygaslfiya. One song I always listen to that infallibly makes me think of Akutagawa although it really DOES NOT fit Akutagawa is Patchwork Staccato by toa, with its delicious sewing symbolism and words of toxic codependent relationships and the line you, I'd really rather you just stop existing I just can't help but link to him. Or Vampire by DECO*27, which. self-explanatory. but really shouldn't be associated with Akutagawa. On the side of songs that do fit Akutagawa, Tokyo Teddy Bear (AKUTAGAWA SEWING SYMBOLISM MY ULTIMATE BELOVED) and Lost One's Weeping (“Who stained that heart black? Who was it? Who was it!?” “Can you untie the rope around his neck? Can we keep going like this? What're you gonna do? I don't care anymore!” “But why does this lump in our hearts // Say we want to disappear? Say we want to die?” “Can you remember the dreams of your childhood? Who threw those dreams in a ditch? Who was it!? You know who it was! When are you going to grow up!? What is a grown-up anyway? Who has the answers? What're you gonna do? I don't care anymore!”) and basically everything from Neru. And Rolling Girl by wowaka, obviously.

Favorite picture of them:

Favourite panel from the manga: The one above LMAO. I. Really like that scene and think it's the most beautiful climax Akutagawa's character arc could have ever had. Here's my second favourite though:

Favourite illustration: There's a lot of beautiful ones...

Favourite illustration in the anime art style:

BUT ALSO this please don't make me choose. And various anime screencaps. I feel like I'm cheating but maybe it's unethical to ask from me to pick a favourite Akutagawa picture in the first place.

Favourite Mayoi card:

Send me a character?

#Thank you both for asking him!!! <333 #For the text color I have picked from the character's icons from some old bsdanime twitter campaign #With Akutagawa it's hex. 0d0015 and I feel so silly changing it when it's near to completely indistinguishable from pure black text... #ryūnosuke akutagawa #bsd #mine #people asks me stuff #You kind of get what kind of series bsd is when every song you associate with it opens with a big banner #“WARNING! This subject has questionable content‚ such as: SUICIDE THEMES.” on the Vocaloid Wiki

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A legitimate question this time - if it hasn't been answered already, how do you think the Akutagawa siblings pass time together when they're not in the midst of PM missions? Also, how would Gin have reacted to changes in her brother's personality as he was taken under Dazai's wing?

OHH! A fun question!

Gin and Ryuu already live extremely exciting and dangerous lives. It’s fair to assume that they don’t see each other very often as stated when he picks her up at the mall.

Because of that, I bet that they prefer to spend their limited time together in each other’s company and at home where they won’t be recognized.

Neither of them strikes me as social or talkative types. I think they would simply just want to be with each other, maybe reading books curled up on the couch together or making small meals and eating together.

I also imagine that they pick up small gifts for each other, Ryuu getting Gin clothes or weapons and Gin grabbing him books or rare teas. Just small things to show that they think of each other often.

Gin is important to Ryuu because she makes him human. She is the only one who can see him when he’s not acting or putting on a face at work. She sees Ryuu at what is clearly his best and most vulnerable. Unlike the Tanizaki siblings, (where Naomi makes Junichiro violent and impulsive) Gin makes Ryuu calmer and more open. I think that’s very important.

As for Gin’s view on Dazai, it’s a bit more muddled. In the brief interaction they had (in Yumeno’s episode), she doesn’t seem too angry with him, but I imagine she is. In the BEAST manga (which was written by Asagiri and therefore credible) we can see that Ryuu in the slums had some bad personality traits, but was overall caring and warm to those he housed.

However, Dazai took all his worst qualities and amplified them by the hundreds. (Again I do not hate Dazai at all, but his relationship and the way he treated Ryuu just to lash out at the world was not okay.) 

Gin knows this. She understands Ryuu probably better than most people do. Which is why I think she hated what Dazai did, but also knew that there was no way she could stop it. Ryuu would simply get mad at her for making him weak and she knows better than to approach it bluntly like that. Maybe those little gifts she keeps giving him are just small reminders to herself that her brother is still here or small reminders to him to stop surviving and simply live instead, or maybe she just wants to see him happy for once, who knows? 

But I do think that Gin is going to be important to both SSKK’s arcs because too put it simply, she’s the only thing that keeps Ryuu human (right now).

-MI

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i don’t want this night to end (like you always did) ➸ auston matthews

idk this popped into my head and i couldn’t wait to write it aksksksks it’s kinda long pero i hope you guys enjoy it!

words: 3345

auston and you have been hooking up for two years every time you’re in toronto visiting your best friend, and he always wants you to stay until morning. so when you get a job in toronto, you want so badly to give it.

warnings: smut, lotta fluff at the end, mutual pining, kinda angsty sskks

PSA this is a song fic so listen to this song while you read this!

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girl, I know I don't know you

but your pretty little eyes so blue,

are pulling me in like the moon on your skin

it was your eyes that pulled him in. so bright and so blue that they looked fake. they were. fake, that is. you wanted to try out some colored contacts and the blue ones happened to be in that night. he thought your natural color was more beautiful though, even more enticing than the colored lenses you had been wearing.

you didn't know him well. you’d met auston 2 years ago when you were in town visiting a friend. he was charming and had a voice that could probably convince you to do anything he wanted. one thing led to another and you ended up at his place. and then you left. and when you came back to toronto it happened again. and again. and again. and again. and your visits just happened to line up with when auston wasn't on the road.

and then your friend talked you into applying for jobs in toronto. you got the one you were hoping for. but you didn't tell him. how were you supposed to say “hey auston, we’ve fucked every time i’ve come to toronto and now i conveniently got a job and i’m moving here now”? no. especially not when he asked you to stay, every time. stay the night he would say, like he always did. i can’t. you would say, like you always did. i have an early flight.

i'm so glad you trusted me to slide up on this dusty seat

and let your hair down, and get outta town

you didn't tell auston that this time you were staying for good this time, only sent him a text that said back in town for a little while :), like you always did, that was met with an immediate response. come over? was his response. and you said yes. like you always did. this time though, he met you at the door, wearing sweatpants and tugging on a blue hoodie with a maple leafs logo. you pretended not to notice it, like you always did. you also pretend not to notice the bruise on his bicep, probably from getting checked into the glass. he greeted you with a gentle kiss to your lips,  hands cupping your face, one of rings on his car keys on his finger.

“c’mon,” was all he said, before taking your hand and leading you back down to his car, a pickup truck. he opened the door for you - ever a gentleman - and helped you up into the passenger’s seat.

“where we goin, aus?” you hummed when he climbed in next to you. he started the truck and pulled out of the driveway. he’s driving on a main road before he answers you.

“don’t know yet,” he looks over at you. the roads are empty - you came over late, like you always did. “don't have work for tomorrow so m’gonna drive around for a bit, see where the night takes us. that okay?” he leans over to take your hand, giving it a reassuring squeeze.

“yeah,” you say, “yeah that's definitely okay.”

got the stars comin' out,

over my hood

it’s nearly 11 now, and you know you won't be back at your new apartment - it feels strange to call it home so soon - till early tomorrow morning. auston keeps his fingers tangled with yours when he reaches over to turn on the radio, using his knuckle to push the buttons. he pulls your hand to his lips and presses a soft kiss to the back of your hand, letting your intertwined fingers fall in between the seats.

and all I know now

is it's going good

the silence is comfortable. good. everything was good with you. auston felt relaxed, at peace whenever you came over. even when he got the text that you're in town, it feels like a relief for him to know that you're close. he wishes you would stay with him, stay in toronto even, he'd like to take you out on a proper date. but you wouldn't, and he can't.

he knows he's taking a risk when he glances at you again and says, “i missed you.”

the corners of your mouth curl upwards. “missed you too, aus,” you murmur. this time you're the one to kiss his hand.

you got your hands up,

you're rocking in my truck

you got the radio on,

you're singing every song

a song comes on that you can’t ignore, and you start to sing along, leaning over to turn it up with your free hand. auston can't help the smile that overtakes his face as you belt out the lyrics to some random pop song that came on the radio. and then the next song. and the next.

i'm set on cruise control

i'm slowly losing hold of everything I got

fuck, you're beautiful, he thinks, but he doesn't say it. he keeps his mouth shut, like he always does. if he says things too serious or intense or too emotional that could blow his cover. it could expose him to you. and then you’d know that who he was. (you knew, but you never told him.) and you'd also know that may or may not have stalked your instagram, and almost hit follow one too many times. he refrained from following you, like he always did. (you’d gone private a few months ago, and he mourned the loss of seeing your face every time he missed you.) that given any chance, auston would ask you out, take you out on a date, and maybe ask you to be his girlfriend. it didn't help that you didn't even live in toronto, much less canada. and it definitely didn't help that you were friends - if he could even call your relationship a friendship - with benefits, but only when you were in town.

auston definitely didn't want you know that he wanted you to be around, to always be in town.

you're looking so damn hot

and I don't know what road we're on,

or where we've been from starin' at you

girl, all I know is I don't want this night to end

auston doesn't recognize the street you're on anymore, too busy sneaking glances at you singing along in the moonlight. he’s in trouble, and he knows it. you’re just so beautiful and he's so distracted and never wants you to leave. maybe this way he’ll be with you til morning. just once, he wants to wake up with you next to him.

gonna cuss the morning,

when it comes

'cause I know that the rising sun,

ain't no good for me

'cause you'll have to leave

auston hates mornings. he’s never been a morning person, but he's even less of one when you're around. you usually stay until he falls asleep, curled around you in his bed, and when he opens his eyes in the morning, you're gone and he's left feeling empty and longing.

gonna make the most of every mile

do anything to make your smile,

land on my lips

and get drunk on your kiss

aus parks the car at some viewpoint overlooking the city, he doesn't even know where he is anymore. if you're going to leave again, he's damn well going to make the most of it. get as much of you as you can before you're gone again. you turn to look at him, just as he leans in to kiss you. “missed you,” he mumbles again against your lips. “missed this.” the words register but you're too distracted by his mouth on yours to respond to him.

your lips fit and auston can't help but think that they're made for each other. that you're made for each other. he hates that he's falling so quickly and he barely knows you. but with his mouth on yours, he wants to know you. he wants to know your favorite food and if you hate mushrooms and your starbucks order and if you like pineapple on pizza or not. he wants to know it all.

his left hand comes up to cup your jaw, his right untangling from yours to rest on your thigh. he disconnects your lips a couple times to change the angle or let you catch your breath, but he's so addicted to you, he can't stay away. he deepens the kiss as his hands slides up your thigh, towards  the apex of your thighs. you whine softly into his mouth. you want to say touch me, auston but he won't leave your lips long enough for you to get even a word in. your hands card through his hair, tugging at the roots. a groan escapes his throat when give an especially harsh tug.

it’s when you're tugging his shirt over his head that auston releases both of your seatbelts and pulls you into his lap. the moment your seat on top of him he lowers the back of the driver’s seat and pulls you back into him by the back of your neck. you’re clothes come off in a hurry - he needs you.

auston has always given you the option of being on top but you've never taken it. this time, though, it seems like you will. before you can lower yourself onto him, auston’s hands are on your hips, pulling your center towards his face. “aus-” he shushes you before you can say anything.

“wanna taste you,” comes his grunt, and you don't argue. before you can say anything else his mouth is on you. you almost scream at the feeling, his tongue sneaking out do lap at your slit.

“oh fuck auston,” you moan, tangling your fingers in his hair. “fuck don't stop, that feels so good.” auston hums as he seals his lips around you clit and it’s almost embarrassing how close that action brings you to the edge.

auston nips at your swollen bud, and this time you do scream. “fuck! auston!” he does it again and your gasping out, hips grinding into his face. he hums in approval at the action, his hands moving to your ass and guiding you to ride his mouth. what auston doesn't know is that he completely and totally owns you. you’d do anything he asked if he just used that voice, the one he used when you first met. deep and seductive and it made you weak in the knees. and when he was so so good at eating you out like this, treating you right, you almost want to tell him that you're staying, for good this time. and you almost want to ask if maybe he wants to go out for real.

you’re snapped out of your thoughts when auston slides his tongue into you, and you almost cry from how good it feels.

“aus, aus, feels so good, m’so close,” you almost beg.

auston pulls away for just a moment to say, “i got you baby, let go for me.”

it’s not even five seconds later that he pulls your clit into his mouth again and you're thrown over the edge, seeing white. the only things leaving your mouth were his name and broken moans. god, he treated you so so good every time. his tongue guides you through your orgasm, long, soft strokes against your clit until you came down again.

auston places you back in his lap, sitting up so that his chest was against yours. “think you got one more for me honey?” he murmurs against your neck, peppering soft kisses on your throat and shoulder. no visible hickies he remembers you told him. maybe he could leave just one this time. after all, he doesn't know when he’ll see you again and wants to give you something to remember him by. he sucks gently at the spot below your collarbone just at the top of your breast. it isn't a bold mark, just a faint bruise. he knows you feel it because he can hear you let out a sigh of contentment at the feeling.

“want you,” you mumble into his hair. “want you so bad, aus.”

“okay. okay,” he breathes, lifting his head to look you in the eye. “still on the pill?” you nod down at him, leaning down to give him a quick kiss. at least, you intended for it to be quick. he keeps you there, lifting your hips with one hand and lowering you onto his cock with the other. you break the kiss as he inches you down on him.

“fuuuuuuck,” comes your moan. he’s so big and thick and you feel so stretched out. “please, please, aus, fuck.” before you can start to move, auston does. he’s holding you in place with an arm around your waist while he fucks up into you. the moans leaving your mouth are heaven to him, the most beautiful sound he's ever heard. he thrusts even harder when he thinks she’s making those sounds because of me. you cry out at the sharp thrusts, gripping his forearm that’s wrapped around your waist for dear life.

“fuck me, auston, fuck i’m gonna come again, fuck, aus.” the moment the words leave your lips, auston is working even harder to push you over. you’re clenching around him, holding onto him as if it’s the last time (for all you know it very well may be). his other hand comes down to rub your clit with his thumb, and you feel tears well up in your eyes from the overstimulation. you cry out his name again as you come.

the way you clench around him is enough to send auston into his own orgasm. his voice is rough and deep as he says your name, groans muffled by his head buried in your neck. “Y/N, i'm coming, fuck.” you have to push auston’s hand away from your pussy when you both come down, the feeling too sensitive and too painful for you to bear.

auston slips out of you as gently as he can, relishing in the moan that you let out when he seats you back on his thighs.

the clock on the dash,

says 3:35

there's plenty of gas,

and the night's still alive

he glances at the clock, and - 3:35 am - fuck it’s late. aus peppers kisses along your neck and collar bone, humming into your skin. your hand comes up to brush the bruise he left, hissing quietly at the sting.

“aus,” you start.

“i know,” he mumbles, “m’sorry, couldn't help myself.”

you tilt his head up to kiss him. “it’s okay, i like it.” warmth floods auston at your words and he kisses you deeper.

“will you stay?” he says it so quietly you're not sure if you heard him correctly.

“i-” you pause. you live here now, permanently as far as you can see. and maybe this should be the last time you see him, and if you weren't going to see him again then fuck yes you were going to stay. “yeah,” you continue, “yeah, i’ll stay.” you can feel auston’s grin on your lips, and you're almost shocked at how happy you staying through the night would make him.

you got your hands up,

you're rocking in my truck

you got the radio on,

you're singing every song

i'm set on cruise control

i'm slowing losing hold of everything I got

auston lays back down, pulling you down with him to lay on his chest, and curls his arms around you. you start to get sleepy with how comfortable you are and how he’s stroking your hair like that. you wished you could tell him that you were staying for more than just tonight. but it was a bad idea, and you knew it. who were you to date a hockey player? someone who was recognized everywhere he goes in the country of canada, and in most places in the states.

no. no you can’t tell him.

you're looking so damn hot

and I don't know what road we're on,

or where we've been from starin' at you

girl, all I know is I don't want this night to end

as auston slips deeper into sleep he can’t help but think again that he wishes you lived here. that you’d stay longer than just tonight. maybe then you could be a part of his life. permanently.

it’s 2 weeks later that auston sees you again. at least - he thinks he does. he’s drunk out of his mind at some bar or club that he can't even remember the name of and even then he can’t get you out of his head. he sees a flash of your hair, and then a peal of laughter that sounds so much like you. the girl’s eyes widen when she faces him. he thinks that she probably recognizes him, everyone in this goddamn city does.

he stumbles away before he says something he regrets, like calling for you in the middle of a bar. he finally gets outside, gasping for air. your name is the only thing going through his mind. he imagines your face, and your smile, and the smell of your hair, and the way you held onto him when you came 2 weeks ago, in the driver’s seat of his truck overlooking the city.

auston shakes his head, he's had too much to drink and needs to go home.

it’s 3 months after the incident at the bar that he sees you again. this time he’s sober, and so are you. you’re coming out of a starbucks with your friend, facing towards her, when a giant body almost runs you over. you almost drop your drink, barely holding onto the freezing cup as some spills out of the lid that wasn't closed tightly enough.

“oh fuck, i’m so sorry,” a familiar voice says frantically. your blood runs cold. fuck. auston. “i’m really sorry, i didn’t mean t-” he stops, freezing when he looks at you. “Y/N?” his mouth is open in shock.

“auston, hi,” you stutter, “hi-i-uh-”

“why didn't you tell me that you're in town again?” he interrupts you. your friend turns to raise her eyebrows at you, as if to say auston matthews is the guy you’ve been hooking up with?! before touching your arm and walking away, leaving the two of you to talk.

“you didn't tell me you were here,” he repeats, his voice falling into the monotone one he uses in interviews. (yes, you watched some of his interviews.)

“i know,” you look up at him shyly, “well, the thing is, i’m actually, like, i’m in town, um, permanently now?” you blurted out. fuck. you should have lied and said you just landed. but now he knows, and there's no going back.

“what?” a hint of hurt slips through his voice. “permanently? you live here now? since when?”

you look away from him. “i- i was offered a job here almost four months ago and i accepted the offer.” you don't see his eyes darken.

“so the last time we were together?” you nod, refusing to look at him. he probably hates you now. and whatever this thing is that you had going on is over. but he reaches out and tilts your head towards him. “you should’ve told me, baby, i’ve wanted to ask you out for 2 years.”

“you what?” you couldn't believe what you were hearing, auston felt the same?

“you heard me, honey,” aus chuckles, he cups your face, his other hand pulling you in by the waist. he presses a sweet kiss to your lips as your free hand comes up to hold his jaw. once again, you can’t help but think that your lips fit. auston breaks away from you, resting his forehead against yours. “what do you say we give this a shot, hm? me ‘n you? for real this time?”

“yeah,” you smile up at him, “yeah, i’d really like that.”

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