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#and Idk why i cant set boundaries w her cuz i can do it well with other people but she just paralyzes me somehow w this stuff EVEN THO WE
blueslight · 1 year
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#I domt think I made it clear enough to my now ex girlfriend that I broke up with her because she is absolutely unbearably clingy#and now.i feel guilty that she didnt get it cuz like until she realizes that all her relationships are gonna fail cuz any normal guy would#lose his fucking mind at her and anyone who WOULDNT would probably use her depedence to abuse her and like. I know that and i feel.bad for#evidently not making it clear enough to her#cause like also even now shes still being clingy with me ....and i find myself unable to set proper boundaries cause I dont wanna be mean#and them im morally unhappy with myself. but like then again i DO set boundaries she just doesnt respect them . and then I lose my#composure and get mean and thats even worse cuz i dont wanna be mean to someome as fragile as her but like. Shes suffocated me so much im#in the mindset of a cornered injured animal . and they bite#and it frustrates me that i cant react organically to her cause i always have to keep quiet and not protest even when she really crosses#my boundarjes cuz i dont wanna upset her#and she even said herself that even now im the omly.person she wants to talk to and i told her several.times to go talk to our other#friends cuz how am i supposed to comfort her about her breakup WHEN I DID THE FUCKING BREAKING UP..#plus I dont want that like i dont want the sole responsiblity for her social interactioms and emotional support just because shes#got unhealthy attachment behavior and refuses to get therapy ..#and like now its like well i domt wanna be mean or hurt her even more but also I dont wanna comfort my ex ABOUT *OUR* FUCKIMG BREAKUP that#is 1. fucked up EVEN THO we are still friends like id.comfort her about other stuff but how does she not realize that this wont. help#and 2. it gives me fuckin war flashbacks to my last relationship which just activates my injured animal instinct even further#and Idk why i cant set boundaries w her cuz i can do it well with other people but she just paralyzes me somehow w this stuff EVEN THO WE#GET ALONG WELL WHEN WERE LIKE NORMALLY PLATONICALLY INTERACRING#idk man i just need a fucking breather like i understand breakups hurt and i was anticipating giving her space until we can properly be#friends again (which we agreed on wanting) but like#Its not gonna get any better for her if shes constantly interacting w me#and on god her attachmenr to me isnt entirely healthy AND I DOMR WANNA SUPPORT HER UNHEALTHY BEHAVIORS but i also dont wanna be constantly#like acting on a meta level thinking whats besr for HER instead of just acting on instinct ...
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h1kari · 4 years
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hey lol idk if requests are still open but if they are -
can u ship me with a haikyuu character lol
im an aquarius, i’m 5’2 (shhh im short i know), she/her, i have rly crazy curly hair (i cant control it no matter how hard i try ~) and i have grey eyes. i don’t have many friends because im not that social, but once i become friends w someone i like i become crazy extrovert idk how... i rly wanna be an engineer or a forensic scientist when i get older - i just think it’s neat
personality wise - INTJ 5w4 (i am so sorry if u don’t know what that means) and i like to listen to a lot of music. like all the time. i’m pretty quiet and i tend to ✨overanalyse ✨ everyone and everything. i find loud and energetic people the most fun to be around - but i get drained super quickly when i’m w them. idk i’m also pretty touch starved (which sucks cause touch is how i like ✨express my love✨ or whatever u call it but u literally cant) oh and also i have anxiety and i hate it and it sucks :(
lol i’m so sorry for this dump of information - u seem super cool and i hope ur keeping well and yeah :)
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I ship you withh 🥁🥁🥁 suga! First ship with this mans alright! Let’s get right to it ^^
A relationship with suga gives me good ol classmates to lovers vibes, yknow? He seems like an introvert to me but that doesn’t mean he isn’t friendly or anything. So i feel like he’d just approach you of you, let’s say, were a new exchange student or something. Sugawara really is a god at making others feel comfortable, and you’re no exception. He also seems like a star student, class president type and all. Because of this, he’d show you around the school, and you’d both be like huh, they’re pretty cute ngl 👀 and polite 👀👀??? Sing me up b. SO you’d become pretty close relatively quickly! Doing hw together, studying, just hanging out, eating together, etc. Also suga is a gemini and gem x aqua go great together, and according to the personality database suga is an infj -> infjs + intjs are very similar so expect a lot of understanding and connection 😌
Onto confession part, suga would consider confessing to you, but he’d have a hard time. I mean it’s embarrassing ok ??😩 but his buds daichi and asahi def encourage him. “Dude open your eyes, she obviously likes you” “THEN WHY DOESN’T SHE CONFESS!!” “BECAUSE SHE IS SHE- YOU KNOW HER” dammit lady!! When suga finally gathers the courage to confess, it’s while you’re walking home together. It’s super sweet ngl. Like, those typical anime scenes where the wind is blowing and the sun is setting 🥺👉🏻👈🏻 suga is a romantic i won’t take any criticism. Obviously you say yes when he asks you out, but you take a few seconds to get the words out cuz you’re all like ???&$&?$?$?&(&)?$ cuz how the ✨fuck✨do you react holy shit this whole ass angel just told you he like likes you (ngl he lowkey thinks you’re gonna reject him cuz you hesitated akshsjdh poor bab)
DATE IDEAS!! Showing each other music and making playlists together 👉🏻👈🏻 suga has elite music taste 😳✋ so you guys are always listening to the other’s stuff. Picnics!! Idk why but suga gives me major picnic vibes, it’s fun alright!! You guys can cook and chill with some pretty scenery and music. Super peaceful!! Sometimes you just walk around town to go to the movies and later get some ice cream or coffee, so you can talk about the movie and ✨discuss✨
Anyways, onto couple shenanigans 🥺 you get along real well with his team ofc, but especially w nishinoya and tanaka, they’re just so hilarious and full of energy yknow!! They adore you too!! Suga is so full of pride and love when he sees you all having fun together, plus i don’t see him like the jealous type so he is genuinely happy. Also, you know how he is pretty outgoing right? So you really like that, he’s fun and sometimes even chaotic, but whenever your social battery runs out, he seems to match your energy and goes into his calm mom mode. Whenever this happens, he either leaves you alone (if you want to be alone, that is) or he’ll read, watch tv or study by your side. It’s adorable. He’s also quite a touchy person, but he takes his time in doing so, cuz he worries that you might get overwhelmed by his sudden affections. He’s quite the people reader as well, so he takes mental notes of your reactions at his advances, making sure he doesn’t overstep any boundaries. He wants you to be as comfortable as you can. Besides all this, he helps a lot with your anxiety, he did his homework, so he knows what to do and what works for you. And if you need help with anything, he’ll give you a hundred hands if you need it. He’s very reassuring too, whenever you get into your overanalyzing, he’ll tell you over and over how much he loves you. Even if it takes hours🥺💞💞
I hope you liked it and thanks for the submission!! Don’t worry about the info dump, it makes writing easier. So thank you again!! Have a great one lovely 🥰🥰
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matronaa · 6 years
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Jungkook “fuckboy?” drabble
Pairing: Jungkook x Reader
Word count: 1,637
Genre: Fluff/mentions of smut?
Okay look its about 1 in the morning while im writing this and i just got done literally scrolling thru @jungshookz  e n t i r e page and honestly ive been delusionally laughing over her stories for like an hour and a half like the tattooartist!jungkook fic legit killed me i love it  and i’m probably going to force my friend to check her out because legit i love it so much and she seems like such a funny person and if she sees this 1) ily and ur writing and i wanna be friends but idk how to start a conversation because im a awKwARd bEan and 2) im sorry for probably spamming ur notifications with likes okay i couldnt help it so now im inspired for the first time in a while to write but im way to loopy to put together an actual fic so enjoy this ig
Okay i should stop rambling (okay just note that im so sleep deprived that i had to google ‘words for excessive talking’ to remember the word rambling because im an idiot and i cant think and ooo its 1:11 am rn make a wish b*tches)
Okay im sorry ill begin~
A/n all of this is completely unedited and if bad grammar annoys you srry not srry
Lets talk about what fuckboy!jungkook is oki
I feel like in reality there are just a bunch of rumors about him but hes so smol and hes the quiet type so he doesnt have the energy to dismiss them
Like im sorry soft jungkook is way to good in my mind rn okay #cuddles4days im not in the mood for him to strangle me with his amazing biceps
Anyway
you never rlly met him in the 4 years of going to the same highschool as him (since you’re in those smart people classes like humanities) until senior year
You and him had the same AP Lit. class lmao english class is  l i t
Which surprised you bc of the rumors like i thought he was a badboy ?? arent those normally idiots ??
Nah my bby is a smart nugget, he just likes to look hella bf 25/8
First day of school cliche where you show up late to class and have to sit next to him because i  d i e  for those plots okay
But you dont know thats him because you’ve never seen him, so you’re confused on why most of the girls keep glaring at you
But soon enough you catch on and you’re like fml
And then the professor is like “where you are sitting is your assigned seating for the rest of the year” and you’re like f m L
He ends up introducing himself to you because i mean like table buddies
But hes really nervous because hes a cute little bean and you’re hella cute cuz lets be honest ur probably wearing like basic black leggings and a hoodie with your hood over your head to hide the bed hair you didnt feel like brushing that morning
Oh, just me? Okay…
He likes ur name because it rolls off the tongue and he thinks it suits you even tho he doesnt know you
Yet ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
You dont really think hes a fuckboy because he seems so nice and he has the cutest lil bunny smile sEE
That is until after school u end up getting to ur locker late because u left something in one of your classes
And u see him pinning a girl against the lockers down the hall
And ur like well shit nvm
And u quickly get ur shit and go because das  a w k w a r d
But then he sees u run off and hes like awh crap i dun fucked up
A few weeks go by and u notice he barely really comes to class so u usually sit alone
On days he does come his chair seems extra close to yours and he’s basically smothering you
But u dont mind because he smells nice
And on the days he does come you get kinda excited because
1) you get a partner who doesnt expect you to do all of the work
2) this boy cute when he gets all intelligent
Ur  like “yes pls continue speaking about the essay we are writing that i have no idea is on because i kept getting lost in the sound of ur voice”
He notices when u zone out because you start staring at his lips when hes talking and he thinks its the cutest thing
One day u get assigned a week long project and ur close enough friends with jungkook to basically scold and force him to come to class all week
But only if he can force u to come to his house to work on it after school
Which you’re low key nervous of because ur going to a ‘fuckboy’s house’ by yourself
And u dont wanna do the dirty because ur a pure child haha not for long
But you agree anyway
And honestly even after the project is done (which you got an A on) you continue going over to his house because his bed is comfortable and he always has snacks
And his mom loves you
Like legit on days you dont go the next day you do she’s like “wheRE WERE YOU”
When the semester is over the professor lets you pick seats but you both enjoy each other’s company so you stay seated together.
finally ur at his house one day and ur just laying on his bed scrolling thru insta and he’s sitting on his bean bag in the corner on his phone and u look up at him and realise
Shit
You like him
Like a lot
And u mentally face palm because this was not supposed to happen
But it happened and you’re too far down the hole to climb out
Sometimes u end up napping at his house after school because his bed is more comfortable than yours and one friday night u wake up in his arms
And its like the best feeling ever
Its so warm and hes so cuddly hes like latched onto you
You stay under the warm blankets before you question when he even got in bed since he was playing video games before you fell asleep
And then his phone lights up and ofc you check it for him bc ur a nosey bitch
But not before you observed how adorable he was while he was sleeping
Nope not creepy at all
its his friend tae texting him (you didn’t really know his friends since you had different friend groups)
You check it and its smth like “stop staring at y/n while shes sleeping and reply u creep”
And you’re like w a t
So you scroll up and see that while u were sleeping jungkook went on a full rant on how cute u are and how whipped he is
And ur like holy fadoodles dis boy likes me
And so u decided to text tae like “this is y/n, does he actually like me”
Which turns into you both having a convo on how thirsty jungkook is until he wakes up
Hes like wtf r u doing and he snatches the phone and reads through your messages with tae while u like sit up to stare at him
And he’s still half asleep so it takes him to realise whats going on
“Omfg y/n i can explain-”
He starts rambling about how long he had been crushing on u and that he didn’t want to tell you because you seemed uninterested so he kept it a secret and never told anyone
And honestly he was freaking out because the onE tiMe he tells anyone that he likes you, you find out
But while he’s rambling you’re coming up with an excuse to text your mom that you’re spending the night at his house, so you just say he’s not feeling well and his parents are gone for the weekend.
Lmao she doesnt care she’s just like “lmao ik ur lying but have fun dont get pregnant”
Or Maybe thats just my mom idk
You have to shut him up by snatching his phone out of his hands and kissing him
When you pull away you’re just like “you talk too much lmao”
You explain to him that you like him too and u just get under the covers again and snuggle up next to him, and he wraps his arms around you
And you stay like that for a while before hes like “its late you should get home”
And you tell him you’re staying the night whether he likes it or not
And he is so down for that
But then you end up just spending the weekend there because why not his parents love you
And every night is just filled with cuddling, watching netflix, making out, late night snacks, etc.
Saturday night he gets a lil touchy and soon enough ur like straddling him and grinding your hips against his
But then he’s like “Ive never done this before” and you c o m b u s t
Ur like aren’t you like the school fuckboy how have you not done this
And he tells you its all just rumors and hes too lazy to set the record straight
And you basically decide to take things slow that night since it was you’re first time too and honestly it was so cute
It wasn’t really steamy rough sex it was more soft fluffy love making that is filled with giggling and exploring and appreciating each other
That was definitely the night you fell in love with him
Which is big because you thought love was gross
The next day you’re cuddling and he’s like “you know ur my gf now”
And ur like duh
You start going on cute dates after that like going to cafes or amusement parks
He loved taking you to the beach during the summer because u looked gr8 in a bikini
You found out you were going to the same college with was fantastic, so you decided to rent an apartment together nearby the campus instead of living in a dorm.
Which normally you’d be against because moving in together so quickly ?? but you felt different like this relationship was going to last
UNTIL HE CHEATED
Lmao jk gotcha bitch
My baby is too pure and innocent to cheat
Well innocent until you both get into bed and then oh lord it gets steamy
He wants to experiment with like e v e r y t h i n g and honestly you were down
But ofc you set some boundaries.
There were lines he couldn’t cross
I mean sometimes he tried but you shut that down real quick
Overall your relationship was perfect and you couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend
I mean he brought you pizza rolls and dr pepper to ‘study dates’ how could you not love him.
Oml it took me over an hour to write this its like 2:30 am why am i awake anyway imma go to bed now, idk ur name jungshookz but pls write more fanfics i need more to read late at night okay gnite
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