Loving a dead star
I’ve known you for awhile now.
And everyday I learn something new.
About your life, your past, just, you.
You have so much more lived experience than I.
And I have to wonder, what were you like when you still shone bright in the night sky?
Before your light faded, before it died?
Because I know it died.
I don’t know when. Probably years before you met me.
But I’d like to know if you’d let me.
And I know it scares you. You won’t admit it but I know it to be true.
It’s alright, I’d be scared too.
But more importantly, you have to know I’ll always love you.
Even if we peel back all of the layers and your core is as empty and all consuming as a blackhole, I will gladly fall in.
I don’t want to return to reality outside of your gravity. I want to be encompassed by you entirely. So that we become one entity.
Inseparable and indistinguishable from one another.
The lines between you and me will blur with each other.
That’s the funny thing about black holes, the nature of the universe is that the reality outside of a black hole is so vastly different from that of the reality one would perceive near or inside a black hole.
Not unlike the way love distorts our reality in some ways that are truly bizarre.
Especially when you fall in love with a dead star.
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the owl house, a childrens show which the creators had to get their rep in under fucking disney of all people, managed to have a sapphic couple kiss and declare their feelings and display multiple pride flags in the most recent episode
doctor who can’t even manage to acknowledge the sapphic relationship they’ve been dancing around in the final episode, let alone a kiss or expression of feelings, 13 just drops yaz off who is suddenly totally fine leaving her with little to no fanfare beyond getting ice cream together, not to mention tegan’s “my husbands” and not even a reference to nyssa
bbc and/or chibnall you absolute cowards
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I'm so excited for this weekend. I have this week's chapter of Anima Sola finished and next week's chapter halfway completed. We're reaching the end of the story and things are getting juicy...
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Seeing good art literally fills me with such anger and fury and i literally start acting like a demon has entered my body i am an unholy creature the only thing i am capable of feeling is anger and envy i want to rip myself apart
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overall i loved the finale... i need to work out my thoughts on what they did with shiv and it feels so open to me idk if it's satisfying but maybe that's just bc i don't want to say goodbye. but yeah i really enjoyed it and im glad we got some nice moments
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As soon as I get a window of free time (which should be in the next 1-2 non-business days) I NEED to write a post about how knowing / interacting with Kolya gives off a very... surreal vibe. The kind you got every summer as a child. The same as a summertime fling that only exists on borrowed time and will vanish just as abruptly as it started, never to be felt again after summer ends. The sort you sometimes wonder if you've dreamed up or if it really happened, but no matter which one it is you're certain you'll never forget it.
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sooo after getting two rose candles and a eucalyptus candle (the least interesting part of the series), i FINALLY got one of the fish tanks from the mga make it mini series, specifically the angelfish! got a lot of air bubbles even with tapping like the instructions said and getting rid of the ones i immediately saw with a toothpick, buuut i think that it's fine since it's y'know, supposed to be water. anyway its very cute! i've taken a liking to getting miniatures for my ocs since the first mga make it mini i picked up, and i really do find the aquarium specific ones the cutest, so here's hoping we can get more cute pets and decorations for my ocs! snacks for scrabble. sorry i mean snacks for scrabble. sorry i m
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One thing I will always appreciate about my mom is that she never judged me for my hyperfixations through the years. She gave me room to love whatever I wanted to. She never made fun and she never thought I was weird. She always supported me and, in fact, she even enjoyed them with me.
She'd watch One Direction music videos with me when I was a teenager. She even took me to see the 1D movie in theaters on a school day and she saved her movie ticket. I hate that I wasn't able to find it when we cleaned out her apartment. I remember her crying at the party where Zayn bought his mom a house. To this day she would listen to History. She sent me a link to the mv in August and reminisced on the days when life was easier.
In my later teenage to young adult years she would watch kpop videos with me. We would watch BTS and Astro videos in her room. I remember after Jonghyun passed away I watched Before Our Spring for the first time with her because I was too sad to watch in on my own. She ended up really liking BTS and she'd call me into her room whenever they were on TV. I have videos of her in my phone dancing to Move by Taemin.
We'd even watch anime together. We watched about 7 or 8 episodes of Death Parade and she really liked it. I didn't think she really cared all that much but every now and again she would bring the show up and tell me how much she like it. I hate that we were never able to finish all 12 episodes.
I always thought she'd pretend to be interested in my hobbies to humor me. Whenever I would go to her room and pull up kpop on the TV or watch Sohyang performances with her I would apologize and tell her "I know you don't really care, we don't have to watch if you don't want to." And she would always tell me to stop saying stuff like that. She was so happy to just hang out with me. She was interested in the things I like because I liked them and they made me happy. My brother would make little jokes about my interests from the time I was like 9 years old and obsessed with Justin Bieber. I know they were just jokes but, being a little black kid, I always felt weird about the media I consumed. My mom never made me feel like I was doing anything wrong by liking what I liked. I was able to explore all kinds of stuff and I'm so grateful to her.
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the biggest most important thing about regulus's narration about sirius is that he has constructed a semi-accurate portrait of sirius designed to make regulus feel better about him leaving
while he's accurate with regard to concrete things sirius did or said, he also makes a lot of assertions about what kind of person sirius is and what he cares about, and that is where regulus begins to tell himself stories
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