#and need to find that post again later

[tls123]

everyone (jiujiu and jin ling fans) look at this right now

#the link opens on an instagram post #fra.txt #next tags are so i can find this again if i need to happy cry at a later date #mdzs #art #animation #jin ling #jiang cheng #rs: the one who loves him the most

[angelsdean]

ruthlessly deleting old 2021/2022 posts (not by me) from my dean studies tag like *click* un-incorporating that from my beliefs system! also the way SO many posts have me like ok uh-huh good aaand then say one completely wrong thing that loses me. it's so many posts.

#it's usually when they randomly drop some line of fanon. like saying dean has never admitted to being wrong in his life #or never expressed an emotion or been vulnerable or doesn't Talk About Feelings or is super duper RepressedTM #like i'm sorry. have you watched the show. oh and have you taken off the sammy POV goggles first? #bc this guy is always crying and being vulnerable and talking about his feelings. he is self-aware. #he may not always want to talk to sam abt things! but he sure does talk about things with other people #do i need to reblog the compilation posts AGAIN? #(also re: his sexualiy? AWARE. sorry i saw him flirt and be flustered by so many men. he knows how he feels.) #and then 'first time ever admitting to being wrong' this one came from a post abt dean's prayer in the trap #like i'm sorry but first of all. dean apologizes more than any other character on the show. there are hard numbers on this. #people have tracked this on spreadsheets. i think ilarual is one of them. #and often he is apologizing for things that aren't even his fault! but he still feels responsible for bc he's been made to feel that way #his whole life!! #other characters *cough samandcas *cough* apologizing Less doesn't mean they've Done less things wrong #it just means they're not owning up to it and brushing it under the rug. something both do frequently. #anyways. aside from apologies. dean also has no problem admitting he's wrong y'know when he's actually wrong #which is less often than you'd think bc he has pretty good instincts and intuition and often suspects things which turn out to be Right #but anyways. another thing abt the trap prayer is. i don't think cas Needed to be forgiven #i think dean was justified in feeling angry w cas over the circumstances leading to the Death of His Mother! totally normal grief response! #i think cas also understands dean to be someone who needs time to process and deal with his feelings (he says as much to jack) #however. despite me not think dean Needs to forgive cas. the thing is. with dean when it comes to cas the forgiveness is implicit #when he says /of course i forgive you/ and in the cut like /of course i wanted you to stay/ like. yes he was mad and dealing with grief #but also. yes cas was already forgiven even back then. he just needed Time to work through the feelings #anyways i think dean says he 'forgives' cas bc it's what CAS needed to hear to stop feeling guilty and dean gives him that closure #but i also think cas was already forgiven even in dean's anger. he wants him there always. i'd rather have you. we can fix this. etc etc #a lot of tags for a non-rebloggable post ajksdfs maybe i'll make these into a real post sometime #vic.txt #dean and feelings #so i can find this all again later

[melioradeluxe]

I've seen a lot of ppl (myself included) saying that they skipped at first but then came back so fast so i really wanna know!!

#i remember very vividly #i came across majesty like a few years ago. IT WAS ON A SAURON PLAYLIST (i need to find it again) #and I was like ok. not my vibe #then a year later i came across ghost again so i just realized that i love their sound so much #this was meant to be come on #also majesty is one of my faves now. GO FIGURE #the band ghost #ghost band #text #polls #please voteee #my posts

[r-truth]

me who doesnt watch aew, when some shit happen on aew

#i posted smth like this before and i couldnt find it so. #i need a tag so i can rb this in the future again fjfjdkjd #anywau love u aew mutuals!! have fun w ronda #at least u have joe and mjf having sex via telepathy or smth like that idk #rb later #i'll use that tag i guess #delfi.txt

[kotekenobii]

The more I think about Cody in the tbb s2 trailer the more insane I feel about it and the more sorry I feel for him. Put yourself in his shoes. He’s got something in his head that’s not letting him think straight, let alone make his own choices. That something in his head told him to shoot and kill the love of his life (or if you don't subscribe to that, one of his very closest friends). He no longer has Obi-Wan or Rex or anyone else to lean on for support: he’s all alone. He doesn't have anyone he can trust. And so, in desperation, he is talking to the one person in his life who he still has a bit of a connection with - Crosshair, who he helped as best as he could before the war ended through his involvement with the Bad Batch (I'd love to know the full canonical extent of how much Cody had to do with the Bad Batch, and have many thoughts of my own about it, but that's for some other time). "Rumours are, more and more clones have been questioning the order." Cody's a smart man. He knows he can’t say what’s really on his mind, that he’s feeling terrible for having carried out Order 66, that he knows it was wrong, that he feels too much guilt and regret to ever voice or be able to put into words and that the pain is eating him alive. So he takes the tactical approach. He is testing Crosshair - probing the waters and seeing if perhaps he can trust him, wanting to know if he's not alone. If there are others struggling with the consequences of Order 66. But Crosshair says the exact opposite of what he needs to hear - whe says that those clones are then traitors, like the Jedi. And Cody, who is known for his loyalty, who is meant to set a prime example to those around him, who is in charge of so much and has shouldered so much responsibility for all his life - and who is now struggling with this unimaginable, unspeakable grief and guilt, is confronted with this sudden realisation of being a traitor and it’s so incredibly confusing and heartbreaking and all he wants is to talk to Obi-Wan, but he murdered Obi-Wan and he really is lost and alone. He can't trust anyone. He can't trust Crosshair, sure, but what's worst of all is that he knows he can't even trust himself and his own mind.

#i have so so so many thoughts about this #cody is so alone and isolated #he probably never had much of a support network even during the war but he did have obi-wan #another thing to post about later #and now he thinks he's killed obi-wan #and he feels so overwhelmingly trapped and lost #i really want to give him a hug #he needs to at least find out he didn't kill obi-wan. i'm begging for that at the very least. please let them reunite and be together again #one day i will also post exactly why cody would never willingly stay with the empire because i am so sick of seeing people say he would #and i need something to throw at them on short notice #poor cody :( #star wars #the bad batch #commander cody #crosshair #codywan #so sorry for how long this post is

[mirroredmasquerader]

Holy moly, I drew this ages ago and forgot to post it!!

So

Drew this over a month ago because I was dissatisfied with the other ones I did back in, what, November?

Obviously the proportions still aren't 100%, and I'm still not super proud of them. Definitely still too elongated. But it's certainly better! It is genuine improvement, even if it isn't up-to-date improvement!! So y'all get to see it! Enjoy!

#art #drawing #payday #payday 2 #doodle #payday 3 #traditional drawing #traditional sketch #hoxton payday 2 #payday hoxton #wolf payday 2 #payday wolf #once again! the lil doodle of them in their masks could be gay or it could be platonic! #the potential wolfhox interpretation is the viewer's choice! #i also have another thing to post later but I need to find a piece of information to put up that one so it could be today or in five years #it's a lottery

[oflgtfol]

i was talking to my therapist last week about how i'm kinda excited but also equally apprehensive about starting grad school this fall because yes, i so so desperately needed a gap year otherwise i think i literally would have killed myself and/or had a breakdown big enough to land me in the hospital, and even beyond that i just needed to figure out a more concrete plan of what i'm going to do with my life in general -- while all of that is true, and i'm glad i took the gap year for it, i'm also apprehensive because i genuinely feel like an entirely different person than i was even at this exact point in time last year, nevermind anything earlier than that. it's only been a single year of me being out of school but my life has changed so dramatically, mostly for the better, and my whole personality has flipped on its head, it's just going to be so fucking weird going back to the same school, the same campus, potentially seeing my old friends around. augh

#sorry i was trying to find a post in my music tag in my archive and i scrolled so far back i got all the way to april 2023 #where i referenced sitting in a dining hall #and its like. DINING HALL ?!?!?! #im going to be sitting in the fucking dining hall again in just like four months. UGH #brot posts #it's almost similar to the separation between high school and college. where i feel like hs me was completely different than college me #and now only a mere year later i feel like. post-undergrad me is completely different than undergrad me #although now that separation is exacerbated by how short a time it was and just HOW drastic a change it was #like . a bitch goes on antidepressants suddenly theyre a whole new person. #like im lowkey excited to see my old classmates and friends again #but i also am dreading it bc like hi. hey. i have the same name and face as the person you knew but i'm someone else now. sorry #and also just the persistent fear that i'm going to regress or at least even just /feel/ like im regressing #just by being back in that environment again? #even if i'll be on meds this time and actually going to therapy and overall having so much more support than i did in the past #so as nostalgic as i am to be on campus again it's also like. hard to separate the present from the past #like despite it all. this bathroom was still the very same place i went to have a mental breakdown weekly #this bench outdoors was the place i sat by myself to eat lunch in the blistering cold bc i couldnt eat indoors during covid 2020-2021 #this bench indoors was where my friends had an intervention with me and forced me to call the on-campus mental health services #just . idk. feeling a strange mix of nostalgia and also being haunted by bad memories #oh the woes of going to grad school at the same place you got your undergrad. While mentally ill #but alas i need to save money by commuting and having instate tuition

[icewindandboringhorror]

Misc. photos from the past year or so ~

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that -- #1. napping bapy boye sneeping on his own foot as if it were a pillow #2. The little primrose that I have seems to bloom sporadically all year around as long as I bring it inside and don't let it freeze #in the winter. This was a flower that came up randomly like mid november lol #3. Rainbow where you can see a little bit of a second rainbow near the bottom of it :0 #4. CHILDREN.... love to see them..... #5. Halloween Candy ranking tierlist. not important enough to post on it's own. so throwing it in with one of these I guess lol #I am also not really a candy person at all and prefer bready stuff like cakes rather than chocolate bars (if I even have to have sweets #at ALL which usually I prefer savory food). I suspect the apple is controversial but.. I do love apples .... huzzah #actually am having applle and peanut butter snack right now as I'm writing this lol #6. Various bowls/cups/etc. that I got from a store at COMPLETELY different times like.. years apart from each other #yet at some point realized that they all mostly match in paint color and seem to be part of the same pattern #But I totally didnt make that connection until a few years ago when I was putting up dishes. I just bought them all invidually because it's #like 'oh cool! a cat' *1 year later* 'oh cool! a cat!' etc. lol.. I guess it must be a popular design if it's been around being sold that #long. #7. carne asada burrito and matcha bubble tea... oughhgh.... again one of my very rare meals where I actually go and get something.. #probably my favorite meal currently. Something about the Chronic Anemia makes me crave beef burritos madly despite only having one #maybe twice a year or so ghjbhj.. plus the beans.... onions.... many of my Diet Forbidden foods... Also of course the little aishas #are there.... somehow they shall split the meal together even though it's like 10x bigger than their bodies.. they are also hungry #and vastly anemic... huzzah to them... #8. I've had this shirt for a long time but it fits very weird so I can never find a way to use it in outfits?? But I recently had #an appointment where a doctor needed to be able to look at my back and it's one of the only actual Shirts that I have (mostly i just own #long robes or tunics or jumper dress type of things that would be hard to lift up or etc. like... I dont even own a single normal 't-shirt' #or anyting aside from one giant tshirt that I sleep in in the summer lol.) So I wore this there.. I forget how much I love the pictures on #it.. how pleasant... little hummingbird... AND I think one of the flowers is supposed to be columbine ... ! #photo diary

[analyzingadventure]

You know I actually never realized this before-- so you remember how tri. retconned Original Chosen fighting and defeating Apocalymon into them fighting the Dark Masters instead? (To be fair it is possible they could've ALSO fought Apocalymon afterwards but that isn't the Epic Final Showdown tri. decided to depict so it's borderline a retcon)

If the Original 5 Chosen fought and defeated the Dark Masters once in the distant past, doesn't that mean that

A) They survived and hid for just a few thousand years until they came back for a Round 2 at conquering the world

B) They died, were reborn, and THEN went for the Round 2

You know I've just DYING with curiosity, desperately wanting to know if any of the villians in Adventure would ever be reborn after Adventure, right. Because according to the lore they should, right (unless their data was like somehow absorbed by Apocalymon and destroyed along with him (though that would still leave Piemon as an exception (and Vamdemon but we all know what happened to him) and the sole survivor))

And what tri. has essentially done is confirm that most of them should, in fact, be reborn sooner or later

But that just raises the question of if Apocalymon was lowkey driving the Dark Masters nuts (as suggested by the novels), and if tri. was kind of about destroying the last remnants of Apocalymon's data (within Meicoomon), if they were reborn this time would they be free of Apocalymon's influence

If so, would their third (?) lives then turn out different? Would they still try to take over the world all over again for funsies (this time just without Apocalymon giving them power etc), or were they just the same as Ken was in Zero Two? I mean Apocalymon was supposed to be a spawn of Milleniummon and Ken was infected with Mille's malice directly, so while it may have been a bit filtered it was still the same source of malice and corruption, right

And like regardless of how their next lives would turn out, shouldn't the kids (OR AT THE VERY FUCKING LEAST GENNAI) like realize that this is going to happen eventually and like. Go and see if they can find them (either as their pre-Ultimate forms or even when they're still in their Eggs) and try to figure out what to do BEFORE shit hits the fan

I JUST

#Sorry I'm rewatching the second half of Adventure while working (it improves my focus actually) and #Oh the brainworms are real #Text post #I'm sorry I'm just thinking about Pinocchimon. My sweet poor murder child just needed friends 😭 #But even if he was reborn without the craving for blood- who would be friends with him. After all he did in his past life #Who would want to be friends with him. Who would forgive him #IS HE GONNA BE DOOMED TO BE ALONE FOREVER. I'M 😭😭😭 #Meanwhile for all we know Piemon is still stuck in that other dimension 10 years later lmao #Depending on if tri.'s reboot ever affected him at all or not because god fucking knows we'll never find out #(Or if he even COULD be affected by the reboot to begin with. God knows Wizarmon seemed to be fucking IMMUNE to it) #(Even though it was supposed to reset EVERYBODY) #But also that could have horrifying implications too if Piemon was just left to cook overnight with a part of Apocalymon #Like Apocalymon is just a collection of grudge and hate from Digimon who've gone extinct right #What's stopping that part of Apocalymon from just restarting the collection of hatred and grudge all over again #This time using Piemon as a vessel to just contain it #Like Apocalymon came from beyond the Wall of Fire to begin with so it's not like dimensional barriers should stop him either #I mean the good news is that there probably haven't been that many Digimon species that've gone extinct after Adventure #But still kids. Y'all might have a timebomb on your hands #Edited to remove some of excessive cursing lmao. I was feeling very intense when writing this sorry lmao

[dromaeo-sauridae]

brightwall was built on trying to figure out a cure for the infection and its split into the church and hospital. the church hunts down and kills things that were taken over by the infection and the hospital focuses on trying to heal infected people who havent been taken over by it yet. thats like the surface level what everyone thinks of when they think of brightwall but theyre actually doing some fuck shit behind the scenes.

they use prayers and incantations taken from the nomads who worship the god of death to protect themselves from infection

and the hospital is kind of, kidnapping the people that come to them? some of them atleast. they want to use the infection to get closer to the gods and become like them. so a lot of patients end up at experiments that get tossed out into the bigass swamp that surrounds the academy. the academy was also founded after cinder broke out of prison and died

the church at one point tried to go find her prison and get inside of it to see if there was anything interesting or useful but since the labyrinth is built to make people go crazy they gave up and left

theyve also got some internal conflict cuz the church and hospital both think theyre better than the other. sparrow ended up studying in the church for a while cuz he knew they were doing something weird but couldnt figure it out. eventually he left the academy and later they straight up kidnap him like. twice

#copypasted from dms with a few edits #again i need to find an actual name for this place and stop calling it brightwall but naming things is my worst enemy #promethea #another request by night8 to elaborate on wtf im talking about #i SWEAR i’ll have some art and make an actual post later

[bonetrousledbones]

i am scrolling my dash and i scroll down to see gaster holding a little baby skeleton and im like ok sure whatever i have seen this 4 million times and then i scroll down more to see a school-aged child papyrus walking next to him and i go OOOOUOOUHHH!!!!!!

#trousled dumb #delete later maybe #this is a really stupid post i jhust . i need to get the feeling across #made me realize again how fucking rare it is to see babybones pap shown with gaster as like . an actual kid #not a skull sticking out of a red blanket burrito not a 1 foot tall little baby guy sticking to his brother's leg not a permanent smile #just a kid hangin with his dad. and sans is the skull blanket burrito this time and the universe is off balance but its alright #yes this is slightly me spreading big brother papyrus propaganda but also me saying ffs give him as much personality as sans PLEASEEEE #its so so rare to find any babybones papyrus where he;s not just an eternally happy cheerful Wholesome Baby Child #(who is always able to cheer sans up because sans is the only parental figure he can have and that's all his character is in the story for) #this is so much thoughts to get from one (1) very very simple drawing but man. man #i have been in this fandom for too long i think

[nostalgia-tblr]

i've been trying to Do Tumblr Correctly and only Like posts so I can return later and Reblog them but I don't remember to do the Reblogging and some of the Likes were just in case I did so my Likes page is as unhelpful as it was before but now I also feel the loss of Liking things just to show whoever posted it that that I saw it.

Also I must say I am, in general, not a fan of the Tumblr Use Rules that you only find out about when people tell you off for not following them.

#i saw someone blame AO3 non-commenting on tumblr's “DO NOT add your thoughts to the OP except in tags!” rule once #which apparently teaches The Youth Of Today that their thoughts are not wanted and will only annoy the OP? idk does it? TELL ME O YOUTHS!! #that said the person who reblogged and added that they can't find Fucked Up Shit on AO3 when looking in the wrong tags #is less irritating than the HUNDREDS of people who have since reblogged to point out their mistake in the tags #wish someone would reblog and tell them that ON THE POST so i could have peace (hang on I could do that myself couldn't i?) #probably too late now anyway - too many versions without that addition to reblog and tag with “lol skill issue” LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DID #...sorry i clearly have something here i need to work through #mostly my fear of making Popular Tumblr Posts (“popular” here means > 100 notes btw) #they never die you know! five years later they will reactivate and your notifications will fill up all over again! oh what a lark! #:| #tumblr

[senseiwu]

Sometimes I will keep a badly shot photo (overexposed, blurry, etc) simply because it is funny

#it feels. SO good to be into photography again #gonna post some pictures later :) #but i need to find an alternative to adobe's camera raw.....

[fakemagicjaye]

I HAVE FIVE PAGES. LEFT. TO DRAW.

#i don't want to jinx it AGAIN but tomorrow........ i might have adhd meds #should the fucking stars align #vacillating wildly between #okay tangent but that “draft saved!” thingy that shows up ON TOP OF THE TAGS I AM CURRENTLY TYPING #DO YOU FUCKING MIND #anyway #vacillating wildly betweennn #there's no way you really have adhd you're using other peoples' struggles to justify being a shitty person #and okay time to draw i just need to look up every person i remember from elementary school on facebook #oh yeah name redacted has a beard that suits him so time to draw oh and name redacted IS cool even tho my shitty brother said he was like #a huuuuuge stoner well i didn't believe him anyway #time to draw i just need to find out if mika is on tour and if he's coming to canada and read his entire wikipedia page and time to draw #i just need to listen to his new song but the song youtube is playing next is not the vibe but i DO need to see a giant spruce beetle #not a cool giant beetle the kind that make a clicking noise and pinch you and strike a visceral fear into my heart #and i need to rewrite this later scene because i was thinking about it and thought of something better #and time to draw but first i need to write this tumblr post #this is because netflix doesn't have himym on there anymore #the concept of talking about himym ends all rambling bc i could talk about it for so long i don't even know where to start #thanks for coming to my ted talk

[wuxianxkexing]

In the context of a dating profile what does NSA mean?

Pei Ming: "No strings attached."

Xie Lian: "National Security Agency."

#post yet again inspired by me being the same type of stupid as xie lian #literally just matched with a guy on tinder who said he was looking for nsa and I'm like? #the nsa is already watching you you don't need to be on tinder to find them #i messaged him asking what he meant by nsa #i messaged the group chat asking what nsa means #only to realize it like literal seconds later #xie lian #pei ming #tgcf

[britneyshakespeare]

throughout the series of drake and josh it pretty consistently implies that josh nichols is a christian (josh peck is jewish) and in the finale of the series helen (played by yvette nicole brown, not jewish[?]) is portrayed as a practicing jew

#i dont have a problem w either of those things necessarily i just find it interesting #if i had to guess. drake and josh was a mainstream that didnt wanna touch on religion generally #but josh was kind of a dork and usually when josh's religious beliefs are implied it is in dorkish ways #such as praying and thanking the lord after he has his first kiss. #but since dan schneider is jewish perhaps he wanted to make helen have a jewish wedding in the finale? #not that there needs to be a reason. but u do notice occasional jewish-related jokes in d&j but none of them are what you could call #offensive. in good faith that is. 'eric is a pacifist' 'i thought he was jewish?' like come on #text post #i have been rewatching drake and josh recently and i have had so many thoughts #im almost done. i just have left that stupid dance episode that they premiered last for the stupid reason #of a special dance-themed premiere night in fall 2007. they premiered the third episode of icarly and a new zoey 101 on the same night #which i think is so stupid. they should've aired really big shrimp last. it messed w my understanding of the series at the time lol #i remember not really knowing that the show was ENDING. like i knew icarly was starting & miranda was doing that #i thought really big shrimp was like just another special like go hollywood. #and then like two days later they premiered the helicopter episode for some reason #and i was like why is drake not famous in this. he just had a number 1 song in a superbowl commercial #and then a month later the dance one. which. if anything is satisfying about that as a final episode it's just that #that unnamed girl from the blues brothers episode who is obsessed w drake shows up again and congratulates them #and the very final line of the series is 'who is she?' because. because really who IS she? #that's a funny enough throwback to wrap things up with i suppose #drake and josh wasn't a highly serialized show so i can see how they could air those after the intended finale and act like it didn't matte #but i have to tell you it did fuck with my brain a bit at the time. lol. i still think of those episodes as having 'happened' after #and on paramount plus those episodes are still placed after really big shrimp. the injustice #but thats kinda messy. what a weird way to end such an influential and popular sitcom #season 4 had a few lowpoints while still also having some VERY solid episodes. #idk. ill have to continue my series review another time im getting way too longwinded here #helen dubois is jewish