#and post darkness falls too

[figureofdismay]

i need more post firewalker 30 day quarantine fics to read :c

#favorite genre rn honestly #and post darkness falls too #lock em in a room together for weeks at a time! forced domesticity! #idgi 'stranded together'/'captured together' fics are such a staple in sam/jack land i expected quarantine MSR fics to be way more popular #i've enjoyed the ones i've read but.... sure there are more? #tbh i'm struggling to remember how to use gossamer so that's part of it probably #i remember reading one like 20 years ago that I really enjoyed and i haven't found it again yet #scully was trying to spend the time writing a paper about their experience from a pure science pov #and mulder was trying to get her to decerebralize and spend time with him #icr if it was post Darkness Falls or post Firewalker -- or maybe it was an AU quarantine event? maybe that's why i haven't seen it? #anyway! it's scully's first case back post abduction and it it's *that* and then they're put in lockdown for 30 days! the possibilities!

[azapofinspiration]

Chuuya who doesn’t let himself want things because he has to put everyone and everything else first, who feels like his own wants shouldn’t matter because he has power so he needs to be responsible and prioritize those weaker than him.

Dazai who doesn’t let himself want anything because the moment he gains it he will lose it, who can’t handle opening himself up to that kind of pain and vulnerability because he’s been taught that that is a weakness.

Both Dazai and Chuuya whose experiences tell them that the moment they want, everything begins to go wrong and they’ll lose the things they care about.

#nakahara chuuya #dazai osamu #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd fifteen #bsd stormbringer #bsd dark era #skk #soukoku #I know we talk about how that line suits D a lot but it goes with C’s experiences too #he lets himself want to learn more about his past and he loses both the sheep and later the flags #D wants human connections and friends and then everything falls apart and his friends are gone #another connection between these two #meta #my meta #bsd analysis #my posts

[thelastdayalive]

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#rasputinaillyanna #poets of the fall #potf #marko saaresto #my dark disquiet #idk what to tag this #we're objectifying that old man #“marko shittalking the board on the hotline” - inna #will probably make more but wanted to keep this one phone-themed #and not too long (yes i made even more gifs which i didn't post) #i know the colors are off don't @ me #bear with me while i get back into gifmaking #ok i can go to sleep now #giffing #editing

[liquidstar]

sleepovers save money on hotel rooms while on missions 👍

#finn's ocs #finn's art #sorry i was super offline the past few days but i had some time to draw between stuff so. them :) #besides i might as well draw all them hanging out like this after drawing PJ designs. but unlike in those i gave polaris and saiph pants #let them at least be decent while hanging out LOL #i want to draw lots more misc oc stuff now that i have all the refs done #but somehow i have too many ideas and yet none at all at the same time! if you have suggestions lmk 😅 #anyway polaris is annoyed at saiph here because he wont stop moving his head even though the braiding was his idea lol #bella passed the fuck out shes one of those ppl who have a very set sleep schedule #wakes up at 6am falls asleep immediately at 9pm #lets all pray she doesnt wake up with something stupid drawn on her face tomorrow #mira is just having fun tho shes reading to everyone every cute :) saiph interrupts with commentary (causing further annoyance from polaris #al is mostly observing like hes just happy to be hanging out. also having al be the most in the shadows because of course #but he likes watching his friends interact. but also hey man his eyes are up there #anyway i tried my best w the colors here so hopefully it looks okay. i wanted something warm but also kinda dark to give off late night vib #i hope tumblr doesnt kill the quality tho! it looks kinda blurry rn but it might be ok when i hit post #if it fits well i might make it my new blog header too? maybee #^_^

[ana-cantskywalker]

If I had a nickel for every time a folk band I adored released an album meant to be listened to in order, which tells the story of the fall of man/ a prodigal son character (one of them is both), started with man being close to God then followed his journey of rejecting him, realizing his life was empty without him, and eventually returning back to God, had consistent themes and motifs woven through it, and ended with a reprise of the first song to represent the restoration of fellowship,

I'd only have two nickels

but it is weird that it happened twice

#like technically principium is only about Adam and Eve #and Through the Deep Dark Valley is mostly about a prodigal son figure and only kind of about Adam and Eve #BUTTTT #the point still stands #and based off of 'Like the Dawn' it is atleast partially about Adam and Eve #probably way too niche of a post but whatever #the similarities are fascinating #also STRONG recommend for both of these albums they are incredible #the oh hellos #through the deep dark valley #The Oh Hellos band #the arcadian wild #Principium #Principium The Arcadian Wild #song #song post #christian #the fall of man

[maegalkarven]

No, but all the implications!!!

Gortash starting to treat Durge's wounds as a mere way of ensuring his ally doesn't die while he still needs them.

Durge begrudgingly allowing it bc fighting against it is more trouble than it's worth, though they're a little peeved by the idea first. Letting others treat their wounds feels too vulnerable, too...intimate.

Gortash slowly establishing that as the means of control because well-treated dog is a loyal dog and he needs Durge loyal to him.

Durge getting used to that because for the first time ever they're offered comfort, for the first time ever their pain eases, even if only the physical one. Learning they don't have to bear pain, what they can simply go to Gortash and he'll make the best healers take it away. Or better yet, would bandage their cuts himself, almost as if he cares.

This gradually turning into routine to the point where Durge once gets hurt Badly, blacks out and drags their uncooperative body to Gortash's house bc subconscious is a bitch and connected Gortash = comfort/relief/no pain/etc.

Gortash being met with the bloody unconscious body of his ally on the floor of his bedroom and being both annoyed and, strangely, relieved, because his plan of leashing Bhaalspawn is working and because he'd prefer to know if Durge is hurt and be in control of their healing.

#durgetash #dark urge x gortash #gortash x durge #the dark urge x enver gortash #levi so would #he Doesn't Care about himself till he does #which leaves the post-tadpole levi being confused af why the evil tyrant is so Comforting for him #turns out Evil Tyrant not just the only one who offered help but the only one levi gradually learned to accept it from #post-orin fight levi def turns into a bird and flies to the wyrm keep #falls into a bloody heap on Gortash's floor and passes out #making Gortash live through the most awful storm of emotions as he enters #annoyance relief satisfaction worry #enver sees vivisection scars as he treats the wounds and has even more questions #leaves for a moment and returns to levi climbed into his bed and snuggling his pillow #bc it 'smells nice' #having to fight a wave of affection bc he should be annoyed! everything is covered in blood now it will take ages for staff to clean #meanwhile bane frantically searches for some black hand to challenge and defeat Gortash bc This Shit Has Gone Too Far #Gortash had gone soft and needs to be dealt with

[androgynouspenguinexpert]

avior really fell off huh (audience booing as i am dragged offstage)

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #art #illustration #redacted avior #my avior design hasn't really changed since last year but it needed a fresh coat of paint so TADA #eagle eyed viewers will notice that post-fall avior's nose has been broken and healed incorrectly #bro broke EVERYTHING i don't think it's too hard to imagine his nose got mashed #and the magic soup would have put him back together fairly effectively #i figured since he doesn't breathe and doesn't have access to a mirror (and is completely alone) he probably didn't care about his nose #that's my excuse anyway #idk man something about designing characters who are Worse Off Now really fries my rice #those dark circles aren't leaving any time soon

[tragicotps]

Masriel AU: After jumping into the abyss together, Asriel and Marisa fall into another world with no recollection of their past life. When Marisa finds a wounded man washed ashore in the exact same spot she was found a couple of weeks prior, she’s determined to find out who he is and why he seems so familiar.

#his dark materials #masriel #asriel x marisa #au #masriel au #okay so I started out wanting to make gifs for three-atoms amazing new masriel post abyss fic #but then the gifs didn't work for it so this just became a whole other au #with roughly the same starting point but not really #sometimes these whole fanfic ideas play out in my mind and it becomes a little wild #like what if they both had no memories of their past lives or that they did all those horrible things or had daemons or a daughter together #would they still fall in love in that other reality??? #(the answer is obviously yes lmao) #and when they do remember everything all hell breaks loose again obvi #okay ignore me #those two first gifs fit too well together not to use in sth #hdm #mine

[phasebun]

| Sol Nath | Bhaal’s spawn | Assassin/Poisoner

Experimenting with hairstyles cause I might change it in her current state and not “pre-tadpole” and got distracted…

#bg3 #bg3 screenshots #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 ocs #bg3 oc #my ocs #bg3 dark urge #dark urge #OC: Solene #Solene #tiefling #don’t mind me just feeding my squishy bi brain #whenever I post men too much idk I always just uh…miss girls lmao #I hate late shift jobs cause if I fall asleep early after WELP #time to open my eyes and go back to my second home :) #Spotify

[kirbyddd]

#thief the dark project #thief 2 the metal age #yes the origins of the mechanists and city watch are fully explained #as well as the origins of the trickster and the nature of the eye #and the world's predisposition to forming citystates rather than nations and the fall of the precursors #also sorry Deadly Shadows the Keepers are not jedi and are a young Order compared to the Hammerites #go find a different series to inject your starwars fanfiction into #(I love Deadly Shadows by the way but it goes far beyond butchering the Thief story it's outright not even the same setting) #read the botany book by Constantine's bed and then play The Cathedral by the way #the nobility and barony and spiritual realm still arent fully explained though. Thief 2 Gold i miss you so much you wouldve given us it all #(T2G wouldve let us explore a noble university and the tower of the banished Hand Brotherhood acolyte) #(and also wouldve given us the actual version of Karras' story instead of the sudden ending) #Thief 3 wouldve been insane. Can you imagine the fall of the Barony and the City changing hands as the digital era approaches #oh yeah Thief is a post-electrical revolution modern setting with analogue electronics and advanced medicine didnt you know that? #you just don't see firearms often because there was little demand for them in the City compared to more versatile bows. but theyre there #theyre just used more for field and naval battle. the City is too cramped and winding for them to be effective #and there hasnt been the demand to lead to the development of advanced loading mechanisms #due to the fortification-centric nature of infrastructure (due to REDACTED) premodern structures arent torn down just reinforced with steel #yes you learn all of this if you actually play the games all the way through. the opening levels of T1 are bait and switch #portraying the world as primitive and backwards as seen through garrett's eyes #dont get me started on garrett's full character. play Ambush! and really look through his apartment

[spacedlexi]

i Need to draw more clemviminnie shit but how am i supposed to do that when minnie only exists alongside them for 2 episodes then dies

#its why i alive her for some post s4 stuff just so i have more to work with 😔 #but i dont Love doing that....she sealed her fate..she was lost in the sauce... #but theres so much there.............. #the way minnie was concerned for vi while betrayed!vi and clem were fighting in the cell she def still had feelings... #they still wouldve been dating if she was never taken like...... #ITS SO MESSY I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #like while i Do think there was some tension in their relationship somewhere bc that line in the woods didnt come from nowhere #no matter how changed she was by the delta that sentiment had to come from somewhere. maybe she could just never say it #but idk if they wouldve broken up over it and there was no reason for violets feelings to change either. she just grieved her 'death' #vi says the real minnie is gone and that she'll do what she has to to keep everyone else safe but like.... #theres no way shes not still conflicted on some level like you can see it on the boat she cant leave her. esp since she kinda blames hersel #minnie being clems dark reflection but clem is minnies reflection just as much (obvs) the tension is palpable between them #clem being the part of herself that she killed when she killed sophie...the symbolism of killing your own twin... #and how much does clem remind her of sophie too like whos clem Really mirroring here #THERES SO MUCH MEAT THAT IM CHEWING ON THIS IS A GRAND MEAL #and i cant fucking do anything about it 😭 seriously how do i work within these constraints #there isnt even a 2 week jump like there is in ep2 theres no unaccounted for time in eps 3 and 4 ITS KILLING ME #i bet in a betrayed!vi route minnie was glad to see her when they made it to the boat. and vi feeling betrayed by clem was a perfect target #totally susceptible. minnie gets in her head that its safer to give in instead of fighting back... and now theyre together again... #vi betrayed by clem falling right back into minnies arms OOF girl get away she is Fucked Up..theyre both fucked up 😭 clem u broke her #betrayed!vis reaction to hearing minnies confession about sophie..girl must have been so emotionally fucked in that cell #mmm toxic yuri mmmmm :) #god clemvi really has it all.............................................. #why would i need anything else...when clemvi is here #twdg #it speaks #still cant believe my fave girlie really got it all :)

[binders-and-beanies]

Doin bad again folx

#might delete later I’m just wide awake and miserable #summer bill came out today and it’s $7100 not including housing which will be $2400 #literally dunno how im gonna pay for that and my dad is. adding to the emotional turmoil of it all #not able to get a loan at least not before the bill is due #able to get aid luckily but again who knows when or how much #my bday is tomorrow and for months I’ve been like please just let my bday be a good day i need one #i need some hope. not that I haven’t had good experiences lately bc I have. but nothing that lasts #nothing i get to feel good about for more than a day before a new problem drops #I need to enjoy my birthday without feeling this deep dark dread and fear and fucking guilt and hopelessness #I have fun plans for today And tomorrow and I’m grateful but honestly stressed about that too #bc it’s gonna be a lot + bc of all I need to do outside of that #+ I don’t get to spend my bday w friends the way I want like I have one friend Maybe coming w me #my bday is supposed to feel celebratory and instead it feels like absolutely forcing some illusion of choice or joy in my life #on top of it all. the most peaceful I usually ever feel is in bed w my partner and now my body won’t even let me hold or be held by them #currently laying next to them not touching them so I at least don’t keep them up w how physically miserable I am rn #I’m literally always physically miserable at this point and it feels like spring is never gonna come and provide any relief #but it’s like can I at least be cozy w them. nope instead I’m wide awake facing various horrors #despite being permanently exhausted and falling asleep in class after 40 ounces of coffee #Im just. so fucking unhappy in life rn dude I don’t want life to be like this forever with the constant threat of it getting much worse #fucking shred of joy in this godforsaken world: the sleep noises they r making rn #mine #txt #vent post #suicidal ideation tw #<- cry for help

[oatbugs]

shaking of leaves by into it over it is genuinely one of the top songs of all time

#the sun is setting later which is a shock because i was too bruised up to celebrate the winter solstice this year #i got lasik surgery just to start a staring contest with the sun. two of my names mispronounced in a row by the butchers. i can still see #arithmetic as construction in space and geometry as construction in time. follow two parallel lines until they meet. #piazza stairs in the sun drinking aloe lychee juice watching young and beautiful people talk about money. notice the small fine lines #forming at the corners of their lips between their brows the sides of their eyes. what is representable for you is necessarily what there #is. subjective necessity transfer to objective necessity. why is this compelling? why are you compelling? would you like to kiss #by the river? would you like to walk 30 minutes to broadway so we can kiss by the river? ar 3³ #ive learned a lot about turner's watercolours but i havent said enough about the ways neurons dance together. about the way all of it is a #process without emotion and how that makes it beautiful. chipped nailpolish on his nails and dark circles under his eyes and a smile that #says i have learned to study the nature of the mind and how intuitions form reality and i no longer want to die. instead of taking #that horrible fall he reads kant to himself and he reads her to sleep and he reads my horrible jokes. #dont think like a psychologist and dont write like a philosopher. dont do maths like a physicist. #ironically read the science of logic. ironically a caffeine adict. ironically drink steriliser for its 74% alcohol solution. #ironically a 1:1 student. there are birds hanging in the archives. orions belt over the red glow of a very normal house. #each time i walk home the stars are brighter. i hope you are brighter too. i hope i am brighter too. i am going to win #that staring contest with the sun. #[i drafted this post on jan30 and forgot abt it]

[foxgloveinspace]

Do you ever figure out your Type and you go Oh No cause it’s just 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩

#very much so #haha i’m in danger #listen. big. full face coverings weather it’s mask do helmet I don’t mind. staff maybe. long cloak. mostly the mask though we gotta focus on #the mask/helmet kink ok? that the big one here. someone who looks like they can command a lot of power. and like has the confidence to just #dominate a fuckin room when they speak people listen. but they are kind and soft and pick up kittens #and maybe they hold your hand and they definitely wrap you up in their arms when sleeping #I have a size kink and a helmet kink. I don’t know what else to say ok #hold me big man. I am small and need of comfort #I’m tired. I’m trying to hard to get through this stupid af ow battle pass to get the new hero while also unlocking Ramattra cause I didn’t #start playing ow2 until like late last month. don’t wanna talk about this post is… well it started out cuase I was think of my current fav #characters and Ramattra is on the list so it’s k #ok. him. Vessel (he counts… they all count tbh). Tron. technically Vanitas but I don’t wanna uhhh. Be With Him. #hmmmm. let’s see who else. Daft Punk. they fall under the ‘just masks though’ category of this #I liked Mando at first but he’s just kinda everywhere now and it’s Too Much for me. #anyway. big strong man with a mask/helemt. to reiterate #but also like. if they have a dark aesthetic👀 that’s a major plus. Otay okay

[emblemartyr]

honesty - muse a wipes muse b’s tears away from under their eyes (if its easier you can place it post or during our thread 🫡)

TO BE GENTLE, AND TO ACCEPT GENTLENESS ・ accepting!

VULNERABILITY WAS A DELICATE FLOWER, naught to be unfurled by the reckless hands of another person lest they risk tearing the petals curled inwards over its heart. and that, truly, was all she could imagine as the boy broke into tears before her, his theatrics weakly caked into his voice to fruitlessly level what had already begun rasping and choking up. he made himself to be a sorrowful image; stepping away from her as he clutched onto his chest, as if to hug or curl in on himself.

had emmeryn said something she was not supposed to? all she could remember uttering was what he asked of her; an introductory to be shared between the pleasantry gap she had yet to bridge across. but, even a full sun after their last interaction, his wonderous eyes still water at the sight of her.

should she have given more of herself? laid her past, whether from her lips or anothers', bare at his feet until he was comfortable enough to poke and prod through it at his own pace?

the epitome of gentleness stepped forward, gloved hands raised to beckon and guide, to remind odin, once again, that she was a space of comfort rather than anguish.

"you. . . you poor thing. . . come," came her whisper, merely the ghost of an invitation, as her hands have already cradled the back of his head, gently pulling him closer until he was near enough to embrace. simply by instinct, had emmeryn's eyes closed, her focus entirely subjected to the physicality of something between them she could not understand. not yet, but she would learn to, until his gaze felt only the urge to brighten once fallen upon her.

his shoulders remained trembling when she pulled back, not far and not dismissive. instead, her hands moved in time with the soft curl of her lips, offering him an all - knowing and none - the - wiser smile as the pads of her thumbs brushed away the tears gathering at the corners of his eyes. there was much to say, yet too little time to articulate any if all thoughts properly.

thus, confident in her silence, emmeryn whispered, only, "you are. . . are safe, oh━━━odin." before embracing the golden - haired man once again, canting her hand slightly to press against his as he shuddered and shook in her arms; sudden, came the memory of little sister clutching her skirts and sobbing until the fabric became wet with her grief. and, just as she had before, in the body she remembered nothing of, the former exalt gently held unto the back of his head and cared not for the dress his sorrow stained.

#fellpurpose #♚ ━━━━━━ ❝ the immortal light that beckons a kingdom forward ・ 【 𝐈𝐍 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 】 . #♚ ━━━━━━ ❝ let us fill in the gaps of memory with those anew ・ 【 𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐃 】 . #THANK YEW FOR THE ASK SARA!!! #decided for this to be post - thread but kept it vague whether or not odin told her who he was though we already discussed emm telling him #+ about her. anyway! I BURST INTO TEARS AND DRAMATICALLY FALL TO THE FLOOR WHILE HUGGING MYSELF #used this as emmeryn voice practice and! not entirely ready for drafts yet but i have a list to get through so #also this shall be her first ic post on this blog .... :softsmile: her nephew has the highest honor please know she loves you #ofc lmk if the color is unreadable! gold / yellow is quite hard to work along the lines of when you're avoiding too bright too dark shades

[hurryupmerlin]

Shhhh, hörst du das? Hörst du das Gemunkel? Um dich wird es dunkel. In deinem Kopf dreh'n sich die Gedanken Bringen dich zum wanken. Geschichten um die sich Dramen ranken Nie erzählt und doch gekannt. Oh, du lauscht gebannt. Die Angst der and'ren tut dir nicht gut Doch es nährt die Glut Die das Feuer entfacht, das dich anlacht, Einladend und warm. Es nimmt dich in den Arm Und verbrennt dich mit seiner Zärtlichkeit. Dein letztes Geleit führst du selbst an. Du hast dich entschieden Und wirst kriegen Was dein Kopf dir befiehlt das richtig wäre. Es ist dir keine Lehre. Du trinkst Gift wie süßen Wein Doch dein Durst wird nie gestillt sein. Armes Kind, wer soll dich jetzt noch retten? Das Schloss für deine Ketten Wiegt schwerer noch als selbst dein Herz. Du kannst nicht mit noch ohne Schmerz.

Shhhh, do you hear that? Do you hear the murmur? It's getting dark around you. Your head is spinning with thoughts. They make you waver. Stories entwined with dramas Never told and yet known. Oh, you listen spellbound. The fear of others does you no good But it feeds the embers that kindle the fire Which laughs at you. Inviting and warm. It takes you in its arms. And burns you with its tenderness. You lead your last escort yourself. You have made your decision And will get what your head tells you is right. It is no lesson to you. You drink poison like sweet wine. But your thirst will never be quenched. Poor child, who will save you now? The lock for your chains weighs more than even your heart. You cannot live with or without pain.

#as always when i write poetry or lyrics in German it's happening in total darkness #right on my way home from walking the dog #and then i stand there for 5 minutes and write it down. #And immediately forget how the German language works afterwards. #this happens about once or twice every year and inbetween i am completely unable to write anything German thar rhymes whatsoever #chicken writes #my writing #- found out i have two tags. gotta clean that up some day #This is a poem about my how my toxic grand aunt keeps luring my mum and me in ever so often but we fall for it over and over again #we are too bound to her to fight it and her constant stories of drama #also it's about how listening to the suffering of others really can damage your own mental health #Just posting this here cos I have no place to collect my poetry yet