#angsty buck

[wildlife4life]

Fuck-It Friday

Tagged by the always fantastic @exhuastedpigeon, @spotsandsocks, @jeeyuns, @hippolotamus, @theotherbuckley, @wikiangela and @disasterbuckdiaz. Thank you all so much! I look forward to all your fics!

Putting the fuck in fuck-it friday with some angst today from NFL Buck. Hope you all enjoy!

The first time Eddie and Evan went past the stage of making out with some light grinding, Evan was on his knees and showing Eddie his skills beyond the football field. He was like a teenager again, bumbling movements that had him almost poking Buck's eye out, trying to decide what to do with his hands. And then coming down the younger man's throat without warning in just a few short minutes. To top it all off, the high of his orgasm quickly bled into a full blown panic attack. Eddie didn't return the favor that evening. Instead he stumbled his way into the bathroom, pants and underwear around his ankles and his father's voice screaming in his head. A man shouldn't be letting another man suck his dick. He shouldn't have enjoyed it. A lone blowjob shouldn't have felt better than anything he ever did with Shannon. He isn't gay. Thank god Evan kept a pin to the bathroom lock above the door, otherwise Eddie knew the quarterback would have busted down the door himself. Screw getting his deposit back. After going though a handful of breathing techniques that Evan learned from his own therapist, Eddie left. Two days later Buck broke up with him. Less than 24 hours after that, Eddie was watching gleefully as Evan smothered himself with a pillow muting his moans of pleasure so not to wake the toddler that slept just down the hall. Eddie finally returned the favor with a very sloppy, but enthusiastic blowjob of his own and he swallowed every last drop of Evan's cum. Evan licked the taste of himself out of Eddie's mouth afterwards, and not a trace of panic followed. Instead, Eddied buried his own gasps and grunts into Buck's shoulder as he thrusted his leaking cock into his boyfriend's hand. He lasted a little longer this time around and reveled in the orgasmic bliss mixed with the sting of the hickeys Evan left down his throat. "Can I stay?" Evan asked in the quiet of their post carnal come down. Eddie didn't even hesitate, "Always."

This fic won't have a lot of smut, but its always fun to sprinkle a little here and there. I also wanted to put some of Eddie's journey to be where he is when he gets to the 118. Hope you all enjoyed. If you want to see more NFL Buck, just go here.

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[sunglassesmish]

BUCK IN 6x12 - RECOVERY

#i am biased towards buck smiles so this gifset is mostly happy even if he was angsty #my gifs #911 #911 abc #911 6x12 #evan buckley

[myimaginarywonderland]

I am sorry but I am just imaging that if we keep Tommy and have Bucktommy for a while (as we should), there will inevitably be an episode where Tommy's helicopter goes down right?

Like, we all know that if Tommy stays because the fan support will presumably only grow for him, they are going to traumatize him in the typical 118 fashion?

Now, imagine Buck and Tommy have been dating for something around half a year obviously going strong and maybe Buck is at a stage where he considers the "I love you" even.

And then, there is a call.

The 118 is called to a helicopter crash somewhere and Buck feels anxiety but it's fine because he knows Tommy has his day off so it can't be him, right?

Except suddenly dispatch informs them that it is from Tommy's hanger because of a bigger call. They are already nearly at the scene so there is not turning back.

And Buck's anxiety sky rockets.

Everyone tenses up. Bobby, tentatively asks Maddie (because it has to be Maddie to make it more dramatic) if they know who is in the helicopter, how many.

There is a short silence.

And Buck knows. It hits him like a fucking train. He knows his sister even if it is only a split second, so minimal most wouldn't notice.

Maddie just says that there were a 2 pilots, a paramedic and a civilian.

And Buck has to know, he has to be sure, he needs to confirm, needs to hear it.

He tells Bobby to ask Maddie. Bobby hesitates, clearly not wanting to upset Buck but he is getting frantic, because he knows deep down that something is so wrong.

After a few arguments and silence Buck comes onto the comms and ask "What pilots? Is it Tommy?"

And there is silence.

A silence that speaks louder.

And Buck demands, he has to know if Tommy is okay, still clinging to that tiny bit of hope but then he hears Josh (who has to take over because he tells Maddie she is too close eventhough he feels himself breaking too) "Firefighter Kinard was one of the helicopter pilots."

Another short silence.

"We haven't heard anything since there mayday call."

By now they are at the scene.

And Buck acts before he can even think, before anyone can even attempt to stop him.

He is jumping, running, sprinting towards where he can see the helicopter crashed into a small valley. He is ready to run down, already preparing himself to jump to get down when he feels arms holding him back. It's Bobby.

And Buck is kicking, screaming, not even noticing because he needs to get to Tommy.

Because Tommy has to be okay.

Because Tommy is always there.

Tommy can't be gone.

He just can't.

And then Buck's scream for Tommy shatters the quietness that didn't even realise.

There is nothing, no response, no sound, no movement.

Buck just slumps. He is like a puppet whose strings were cute, all the energy drained from him.

Bobby tightens his hold, directs everyone else on what to do while he himself has to stay up here, holding Buck.

Buck isn't aware of anything.

He just slides to the ground, Bobby gently going with him, not losing his grip.

Bobby feels horrible because he knows. He knows what Buck is feeling and he prays that if nothing else, that at least Tommy somehow survives this because he doesn't know how Buck would survive without Tommy.

Tommy (which none of them saw coming Bobby admits to himself) has calmed Buck in a way he never thought possible.

Tommy has grounded this wonderful man who he is proud to see as a son.

And Bobby can't see Buck losing him because he knows that Buck would lose himself too so he holds onto Buck, praying (for the first time in a long time) that please, do not take this from him. Buck has already lost so much, has already been through so much, experienced death more than any person should and he isn't sure that Tommy's death wouldn't be worse than Buck actually dying himself for the younger man.

So Bobby holds on, tightens his grip on Buck and knows that as soon as he let's go it will only be to let his son reunite with his boyfriend.

Buck is numb.

He can't hear, feel or see anything.

The world, his world has gone still.

His world might never start again if he can't see Tommy's little nose scrunch, hear his loud laugh, feel his strong arms, smell his stupid shampoo (he will forever deny he likes the weird mixture of sweet and bitter that Tommy's hair have after a fresh showe) or feel his giggle against his mouth.

His world is Tommy and he never told him.

How could he have never told him?

Buck only starts breathing, living again, when he bears the crackle of the radio.

"We have a survivor, coming right up, needs an immediate transport to the hospital."

Bobby hopes, hopes to a power he barely believes in that someone up there heard him and granted a wish. It doesn't even need to be for him, just spare Buck this. He breathes and ask "Do we have an ID?"

"Firefighter Kinard. Tommy is alive.

#don't mind me and my angsty scenarios #a genuine relationship for Buck means the opportunity for yet more trauma which we all know the show won't resist #bucktommy #tommy kinard #evan buckley

[watchyourbuck]

hey~ no10 from the prompt list, if you feel like it~ 💛

Eddie knew Buck like the back of his hand.

No, that was an understatement. He knew him like his own heartbeat.

Every single look, or stance, or smile. Every single thought. Buck could bend over backwards trying to hide something from him, but he could only ever do it unsuccessfully. Eddie knew Buck. The real Buck.

So, truly, it shouldn’t have been such a shock.

“Who is he?”

Buck seemed taken aback, momentarily stunned by three simple words. “E-excuse me?”

“The guy,” Eddie continued, his body on automatic and his thoughts far. “The one leaving hickeys on your neck. Who is he?”

The indifference of it all made the firehouse cold, sending a chill up and down Buck’s spine. His eyes turned to Eddie, who kept stacking supplies.

It’s not that he didn’t have an answer. A name, more accurately. But still, how did he know?

Silence invaded their space, like a drama scene from a movie where the backgrounds blurs. It was uncomfortable, a hollow little piece of dialogue he wasn’t aware he was assigned.

It must’ve been too long. Eddie’s arms went down, the pile of bandages forgotten, just mere inches away from his face. “Who is he, Buck?”

“No one,” he replied, much more centered this time.

The change in tone made Eddie purse his lips, suddenly aware of the fact that he was being pushed off. Buck didn’t wanna tell him.

He nodded, a minor scoff creeping up his throat. His mouth bent downwards. “No one you wanna tell me about.”

The implication was broad, and pointy. Buck was dating, or he wasn’t. He was in love, or he wasn’t. The only safe haven was that he was fucking. Eddie would put his hands to the fire on that one.

Ironic, innit?

“Could be a she,” Buck said, avoiding his stare.

“No, it couldn’t.”

“How do you know?”

Because I’d mark you like that, too.

Eddie sighed, running his hands through his hair. The rest of the firehouse was running smoothly, completely oblivious to them, or their words. How could anyone not notice Eddie’s heart bleeding into its own?

“Forget it,” he mumbled, short of biting his tongue. There was a moment in time where the beggar had to stop begging; where the needy had to stop needing. It was time. Time to let him go.

Buck’s reached for Eddie’s shoulder, stopping him in place. He added no pressure, so if the man wanted to bail, he could. “You don’t get to do that, Eddie.”

This time, the scoff did come out. Angry and bitter, and all the bad feelings you’re supposed to swallow. “Do what, exactly?”

“Run away.”

“What?”

“He’s no one,” he said rashly, running his tongue over his front teeth. “He can be no one.”

It was tough to follow. Buck’s eyes gave away his feelings, but not the meaning of his words. Eddie frowned, taking a step closer. Buck’s hand fell to the side, brushing along the skin on Eddie’s wrist. “What do you mean?”

Buck blinked, his breathing heavy. It was now or never. He grabbed his face with both hands and kissed him.

Sharp. Fast. Telling.

“If you want me, he can be no one.”

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

Please take this as my Fuck It Friday!

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#fuck it Friday #idk how this turned kinda angsty sjdjdjdjsj #it truly just escaped me #I hope y’all enjoy it anyway sjdjsjs #buddie #911 fox #911 #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 tv show #evan buck buckley #buck x eddie #buck and eddie #911 abc #buddie fic #buddie ficlet #buddie wip #buddie fanfic

[theladyyavilee]

for @diazactually, because I love youuu 💕 part i | part ii

‘I watch him in the kitchen. I think of how much it hurts to love somebody. How deep the hurt is, how almost unbearable. It’s not the love that hurts; it’s the possibility of anything happening to the object of your love.’       Augusten Burroughs || Magical Thinking

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#9-1-1 #buddie #911 edit #911edit #buddie edit #evan buckley #eddie diaz #evan buckley edit #eddie diaz edit #911 abc #911onabc #tw blood #my edit #I have been thinking about making a second set with this quote but this time from eddie's pov for a few days #and today's insanity fueled me through the whole process xD #I am still obsessed with this quote (thank you arah!) because it is just SOOOO buddie coded and makes me want to claw at the walls #love is stored in the kitchen <3 #arah 🤭🤺 #as always it was a pleasure making an angsty edit for you xD <3 #in other news: in making this edit today I learned that buck dangling from the ladder makes for as good an edit base as eddie's pool of #blood from 4x13 <333 #love that for me <3

[makorragal-312]

Everything is gonna be all fun and games at the wedding until the reception, where Buck and Eddie are talking at the bar and Tommy pulls Buck away for a dance. And as they're on the dance floor, Eddie is looking at Buck and how happy he is with Tommy before deciding to turn away to ask for a drink and possibly chat with another guest.

And all the while he's looking elsewhere, Buck is looking at him from over Tommy's shoulder, longing and not even realizing.

#911 #911 abc #911 on abc #911 show #911 season 7 #911 s7 #911 speculation #911 s7 speculation #evan buckley #eddie diaz #tommy kinard #911 buck #911 eddie #911 tommy #buddie #911 buddie #buck x eddie #buck x tommy #already know this is a long shot #but just imagine #the oblivious mutual pining of buddie #eddie being happy for buck and not knowing why he feels so uncomfortable #and buck being happy with tommy and not knowing why he feels so unfulfilled #all the while tommy is oblivious #or maybe he does and is just enjoying the ride before he decides to put an end to things if we're getting angsty #buddie angst #madney wedding

[majorbuckyegan]

"Yeah, well, that's easy for you to say, isn't it?" He snapped, "We all know what you're rushing home to, since you never shut the hell up about it. Marge, this. Marge, that. Give me a fucking break." (x)

(Credit to some of the episode 7 screencaps: @itstheheebiejeebies 🫶)

#this isn't as angsty as it sounds lmao bucky is just going through it #buckbucky #buck x bucky #gale x john #masters of the air #mota #mine #mota fanfic

[ihearteugeneroe]

im having so many feelings about john and gale in the new episode and i NEED to share them. buckle up guys this is a long one because this last episode was angsty for these two and i love psychoanalysis

HUGEEE MOTA SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!

first and foremost, john is absolutely not okay. like i know we have seen this so many times already because he’s been on a mental decline since episode six but it’s gotten worse. the beginning scenes where him and gale fetch the water and gale tries to create some playful banter only to receive a mostly silent john is scary, especially because he knows that man is a chatterbox that can’t shut up to save his life. something has changed and gale knows, but gale doesn’t push it.

second of all, the topic of marge. nobody would ever make fun of a guy getting a letter from his girl because that’s the only source of joy they get inside the hell of a pow camp. but the way john seems almost annoyed by it, as if it is personally inconveniencing him is so noticeable. now one could argue it’s just because he doesn’t have a girl back home, but i don’t think he cares even a little bit about that. john has realized that his home is wherever gale is. which brings me to my third topic.

the scene where gale tells john he asked marg to marry him. the fact that he doesn’t even say those exact words, but rather “popped the question and she said yes”. god, the tension in that scene was goddamn near unbearable. john is entirely stoic which is concerning knowing that he is a man of emotion who feels things on an entirely different level than most men. something is turning within his brain and his way of congratulating gale was so robotic and almost calculated. i feel like a part of him kind of froze in that moment. i mean, he likely knew they would never get anywhere serious because hell this is the 1940s in the middle of a war but still. his buck is no longer his. and who does he have besides buck?

which brings me to one of my final points: john is realizing he doesn’t have anybody. that scene between them where he mentioned he never got letters because he didn’t set it up right, and was so concerned gale would only know this version of him and not his old self. i don’t think anything gale could’ve said would help, but it was nice that he tried at least… john’s whole world is gale, but gale has his world back in america. he has a home. he has something to return to and someone to love when he’s out of this mess. all john is going to return home to is his own loneliness and severe ptsd. john is a feeler and he feels things deeply and painfully, like a knife in the belly, especially when it comes to gale. the man he’s in love with has a woman to return to, and he might as well just be a legend that gale tells his kids about someday. but to john, gale is everything. he will never forget.

anyways this episode for them was VERY angsty and it’s late and i’m tired so this is kind of all over the place but i wanted to share my main thoughts. thank you for reading if you got this far i’ll probably continue my rant tomorrow depending on if this actually gets any traction LMAO i still don’t know how tumblr works.

#mota spoilers #mota #masters of the air #john bucky egan #gale buck cleven #angsty thoughts #john is not okay #they both need hugs #and therapy #the brainrot is consuming me #bucky x buck

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

several sentences sunday

tagged by @jesuisici33 @daffi-990 @tizniz @spotsandsocks @wikiangela @shitouttabuck

thank you beloveds! <3

so i finished drunk confession fic this morn and am so excited to share it with yall! hoping to have edits done soon so it can be posted. and as always, this is for my darlin nina, ily <3

Something sacrosanct passes from tongue to tongue, handed back and forth in such languid, luxurious movement.

Buck sighs into it, a feeling he can only describe as lovely unfurling in his chest and spreading spreading spreading until he feels like the mutli-faceted colors of a sunrise, all pastel and glowing and warm.

That sigh quickly transforms into a whimper when Eddie sucks on his tongue, delving inside of Buck like it's where he belongs, the fingers he still has in Buck’s hair burying themselves deeper until his grip is firm and commanding and stabilizing.

Buck happily lets himself be directed, eager to become pliant enough that Eddie can do anything with him, illustrious stars raining over his skin and digging into his blood as Eddie tugs and pulls and shoves, turning Buck’s head at just the right angle for the kiss to become something much more sensual, a true mouth fucking that leaves Buck dizzy and panting, head spinning and chest tight.

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#this is probably the ooeiest gooiest thing ive written and im as besotted as buck and eddie are with each other #tho things get a wee bit angsty bc these boys are stupid yknow #buddie #buddie wip #evan buck buckley #eddie diaz #911 #911 abc #buck x eddie #drunk confession fic #ryan writes #several sentence sunday

[exhuastedpigeon]

Do you think Buck is going to tell Eddie he’s in love with him and Eddie is going to spiral about it because he knows Buck settles and he wouldn’t be able to handle it if Buck settled for him?

#buddie #911 #I’m feeling angsty today lads #because you know Eddie doesn’t want Buck to settle even if it’s for him

[buck2eddie]

2x01 / 4x14

#if i had a nickel for everytime i took blank space lyrics out of context to make an angsty buddie edit i would have two nickels! #also i had to move eddie closer to buck so i can fit them in. and also deleting bobby in the background of the first one i felt bad akshsjs #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddieedit #911 #911 abc #911edit #lyrics #m*edits

[sleepy-hyperfixations]

Bucky: I think I'm in love with Buck.

Curt: I'm sorry.

Bucky: I said i-

Curt: No i heard you the first time, i'm just sorry.

#its bcs buck is fucking oblivious #that's why curt's sorry #NO OTHER ANGSTY REASONS #masters of the air #mota #buck x bucky #clegan #buckbucky #curt biddick #incorrect mota quotes

[wannabemylover]

Omg omg PLEASE okay I was thinking about season 7 and everything I want from it---Hen and Karen having a baby, madney wedding, Bobby and Athena honeymoon, buddie canon---but like what I really want from it is Buck meeting Eddie's sisters. Like can you imagine???? We see what Eddie's like, can you imagine what his sisters are like??? And I just know Buck would be charming them so much and they both realize just exactly why Eddie has legally tied himself to Buck. And after they corner Eddie and are all like "we know Buck's your 'best friend'" because Eddie's an idiot if he thinks he's fooling anyone, "but we didn't expect you to be his 'best friend' as well." And then they spend the rest of the episode playing matchmaker, making little remarks about how domestic and entregado they are to make Eddie blush, and hanging out with Buck because he's fucking hilarious and they really want him as a brother-in-law.

#buddie #gay firefighter show #buddie 911 #buck x eddie #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 abc #911 fox #like dont get me wrong #i want angsty angry divorce era part 2 as well #but also #so much of their lives have been angsty and angry #so much of what ties them together is painful #the thing that finally gets them together should be fun and easy #like please just give me buddie not getting emotionally suplexed for once

[housewifebuck]

7 sentence sunday

tagged by @spotsandsocks @shitouttabuck @devirnis @lover-of-mine @wikiangela @honestlydarkprincess @cowboy-buck @callaplums

I cannot believe whump won the poll with u horny bastards. but here's a little bit of a sickfic I impulsively started and wrote 1k words of at approximately 2am last night 🤪

“Oh, Buck,” he murmurs, and Buck starts suddenly, lifting his head like he’s only just noticed Eddie’s there. His lips quirk upward into a weak smile that Eddie can’t help but return.  “You’re here,” Buck says, voice raw and scratchy. Eddie moves to his side, sitting on the half of the coffee table that isn’t already occupied by a six-pack of ginger ale, an uncapped bottle of Pepto Bismol, a bottle of water, and a sealed sleeve of saltine crackers. It paints a fairly obvious picture even without the lined wastebasket on the floor beside Buck’s head. Eddie reaches out to flatten his palm against the base of Buck’s neck. His skin is hot to the touch, and Eddie’s hand comes away damp.

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#do not be fooled this isn't actually angsty or anything #its like if whump was crack. basically #just buck being an absolutely horrible patient and Eddie being in love with him so hard #vomit tw #<- implied but still. just in case your emetophobia is as bad as mine #im facing my fears fr by writing this #ur welcome everyone (standing in front of an empty auditorium) #wip tag #tag games #untitled: sickfic

[nostalgic-shamefest]

I know the girls are fighting and all but is anybody else super excited about a potentially messy, intertwined, complicated, non YA, hopefully maturely handled, with a side of self discovery, mlm love triangle with like some of the main characters of a big ass mainstream tv show???

#idk i feel like it's Christmas you know #personally a buddie endgamer but I respect the bucktommy of it all #and either way this will be fun #can't wait to see where this goes #fun and angsty places I hope #buddie #bucktommy #911 abc #eddie diaz #evan buck buckely #tommy kinard

[donationwayne]

Feelin Good (Could be Better) Chapter Three

Hello, I've posted chapter three of ten of my first ever chapter fic!!

You can read the first, second, and third chapter of my fic over on AO3 right here

Summary

The Buckley parents come to town, turning Buck's already shaky mental status from precarious to worse. Despite avoiding a dreaded dinner at all costs, Buck consents to join Maddie, Chimney, and his parents for dinner. Buck is super fine thanks for asking, he'll just bake about it. And think about kissing Eddie, obviously. Secrets are revealed, leaving the 118 reeling.

snippet

He felt safe here, on the complete opposite side of the US. Buck has been spiraling so badly since that dream he worries seeing them will only make things so much worse. He knows it’ll set him back that much further. “I would have taken vacation time to skip town if I’d known sooner.” That does earn him a reaction from both Bobby and Eddie, who simultaneously raise their eyebrows. It would be comical if Buck wasn’t filled with such existential dread. In therapy, Buck avoided talking about his parents like the plague. Dr. Copeland had noticed him dodging the questions each and every session—she never let up in her pursuit of asking after them, but she was also content to wait until he was ready, simply prodding him in the meantime. They had plenty of other work to do first anyway. It could wait in the wings until the moment he had enough strength to address the elephant in the room. He thinks he knows what she’ll say, and Buck knows he’s not ready to hear it.

#911 abc #911 #aubs rambles #buddie #evan buckley #fanfic #buddie fanfic #this is a fic for all the buckley parent haters out there #angsty!buck #whump!buck #eddie diaz #aubs writes fanfic #911 wip #buddie wip #this is not a maddie bashing fic btw she just doesn't know bc buck has never told her #things will get worse before they get better im sorry #feelin' good (could be better) #chapter three #buddie chapter fic