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my mom doesn’t speak english and once we talked about the grapes of wrath (we called it les raisins de la colère) and she asked if it was the grapes of wrath in english but she said it like “the grapes of wart” and to this day i think it’s the funniest thing ive heard her say

#the grapes of wrath

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i got a friend to read hell followed with us and got this in return <3

#hell followed with us #benji hfwu #hfwu #benji woodside #benji hell followed with us

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im reading aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe and this book is slowly breaking me into pieces with a hammer and a nail and im only halfway through

#aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe #aristotle mendoza #aristotle and dante #dante quintana #im at letters on a page rn

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i realized i never shared these to tumblr

#benji hfwu #hell followed with us #hfwu #benji woodside #benji hell followed with us #silas tsbit #silas bell #tsbit #the spirit bares its teeth #silas the spirit bares it’s teeth

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the trans realization that benji and silas are right, there’s nothing objectively wrong with my chest, it’s just that people automatically associate chest with girl. my body is perfect as it is, it’s how people see it that’s the problem

#the spirit bares its teeth #silas tsbit #silas bell #benji hell followed with us #benji hfwu #benji woodside #hell followed with us #hfwu #trans #transgender #ftm

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since im apparently known for associating fictional characters with crane wives songs at this point, let me just say:

yadriel is curses and teo is icarus

(it’s crazy how many fictional characters relate to curses)

edit: julian is the hand that feeds and aurelio is never love an anchor

#also just and the backyard’s full of bones #you see it too right #that’s so yadriel #yadriel #yadriel x julian #yadriel vélez flores #yadriel cemetery boys #cemetery boys #teo the sunbearer trials #the sunbearer trials #celestial monsters #teo x aurelio #curses the crane wives #the crane wives #icarus the crane wives

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my friend asked how do you spell cemetery for an assignment and I’m reading cemetery boys so i just showed her the book. she read the title and went:

“cemetery boys- oh it’s gay.”

it’s a hard cover, i had left the dust jacket at home and she doesn’t know jack shit about this book. she only read the name.

#cemetery boys #aiden thomas

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being an artist and a writer is taking time off my day to draw two figures who are incredibly important to my fictional world’s history knowing they lived 700 years before my characters, that they’re mentioned twice and literally nobody alive knows even remotely what they looked like

#writing #artist #fr tho #yes you brought peace and democracy and power to the people but i do no give a shit my main characters just held hands for the first time

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Artists don’t forget to turn this on!!!

AI is shit!!!

#anti ai #ai is theft #ai is not art #ai is stupid

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is that a cosmo sheldrake reference??

#the folk of the air #tfota #the stolen heir #tsh #cosmo sheldrake

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it’s hard to prove stereotypes wrong when:

you’re ace and like garlic bread and cake

you’re autistic and you like pokemon

you’re aromantic and you feel like everything you planned for your future is crumbling under the fact that you’ll never find love and you’ll never get married and everyone around you will eventually find partners and you’ll be left alone with what? a cat? your books? and you’re just craving affection and love, even if it’s just platonic but it will always feel weird to others and eventually you’ll be an adult and everyone will be too busy to hang out with you and when you’ll die there will be no one to remember how you were in the comfort of your home when you thought no one was looking, only the vague and distant memory of the mask you put up when you met up with them once every 5 years and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it

you watch the life series and you listen to the crane wives

#this thing got so much attention i was actually surprised when i got a notification and it was from my main blog instead of this one

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It’s just a stereotype that asexuals like garlic bread, there’s not that much more to it tbh

it’s hard to prove stereotypes wrong when:

you’re ace and like garlic bread and cake

you’re autistic and you like pokemon

you’re aromantic and you feel like everything you planned for your future is crumbling under the fact that you’ll never find love and you’ll never get married and everyone around you will eventually find partners and you’ll be left alone with what? a cat? your books? and you’re just craving affection and love, even if it’s just platonic but it will always feel weird to others and eventually you’ll be an adult and everyone will be too busy to hang out with you and when you’ll die there will be no one to remember how you were in the comfort of your home when you thought no one was looking, only the vague and distant memory of the mask you put up when you met up with them once every 5 years and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it

you watch the life series and you listen to the crane wives

#asexuality

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it’s hard to prove stereotypes wrong when:

you’re ace and like garlic bread and cake

you’re autistic and you like pokemon

you’re québécois and you do swear like a sailor

you’re aromantic and you feel like everything you planned for your future is crumbling under the fact that you’ll never find love and you’ll never get married and everyone around you will eventually find partners and you’ll be left alone with what? a cat? your books? and you’re just craving affection and love, even if it’s just platonic but it will always feel weird to others and eventually you’ll be an adult and everyone will be too busy to hang out with you and when you’ll die there will be no one to remember how you were in the comfort of your home when you thought no one was looking, only the vague and distant memory of the mask you put up when you met up with them once every 5 years and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it

you watch the life series and you listen to the crane wives

#queer #trans #aromantic #asexual #aroace #lgbtq

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i made this painting a few months ago and never finished it and i want someone to find it in a thrift store in 40 years and finish it in a completely different style and wonder if it was intentional or not and if i died before finishing it or just never found the time to

#art #painting

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instead of listening in class i decided to write down the crows as crane wives/jhariah songs so here is

the crows as crane wives and jhariah songs

jhariah

kaz: enter: begginer’s guide to faking your death

inej: debt collector (obviously)

jesper: bad luck! (obviously pt. 2)

wylan: who’s eye is it anyway?

nina: flight of the crows

matthias: pressure bomb?!?!

the crane wives

kaz: tongues and teeth/icarus/never love an anchor

inej: strangler fig/ribs

jesper: the hand that feeds

wylan: easier

nina: little soldiers/steady, steady

matthias: the garden/curses

#hear me out on jesper #cuz it makes so much sense #six of crows #six of crows jesper #six of crows inej #six of crows matthias #six of crows wylan #six of crows nina #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #kanej #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #wylan hendriks #wesper #nina zenik #matthias helvar #helnik #the crane wives #jhariah

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you grew comfortable with the fact that no matter what I’ll always reach out to you

that it doesn’t matter if you don’t say anything because I’ll always be there regardless

to text you about some random thing i found

because it’s what i do

i wait here

it’s long

and silent

why won’t you say anything

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yea sorry english isn’t my first language and i struggle with words sometimes

benji is tongues and teeth and silas is curses no i will not develop