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albedosarmpit · 1 year

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Oof after reading your venti cock rant I AM DOWN BAD my size kink is going FERAL. It's not gonna fit tho like that thing can't go inside me,,,,

if you feel like writing for this, can i please request a smut where Venti and his s/o have sex for the first time and his s/o is like "it's not gonna fit" but he ends up fucking them anyways hfksljdkd (preferably gender neutral reader)

yesyesyesyeysyesy i'd love to- i also wrote an actual story before hand??? this is crazy for me, sorry if it doesnt go exactly as you wanted i think i got carried away idk hdoihsoihv also reader is literally a spaceholder im deserate for venti aoichdsoihvoi sorry if it doesnt make sense and sorry for the rushed ending sodichsoihvos

tags: gn reader, morning sex, morning wood, Venti thinks sex is so normal, ameno powers (i dont know how ameno powers work)

Going out with to the pub with Venti was almost always a bad idea. not only was the invite random, you'd think he would invite you out on fridays or weekdays but no, any day of the week was perfect for him, Other than the random invite you always felt bad leaving Diluc to clean after him.

thankfully, today you were able to join him. somehow, this was the drunkest you've seen Venti, his voice loud and irritating as he stumbled around flirting with almost everyone he sees (as a good bard should) causing Diluc to force the two of you to the attic where he left a spare bed just for this occasion because leaving a cute drunken bard in the streets honestly made Diluc loose sleep.

your arm wrapped around Ventis shoulder, helping him up the stares as he yells down to the other patrons about how he needs to go save the world and how the god of wine needed him to leave, the secondhand embarrassment making your cheeks burn as you finally carried him into the room "w-why are you s-so embarrased?" Venti almost yelled as he fell ontop of you landing on the bed, his hand stroking your cheek, his breath smelling of alcohol as he instantly passed out, you hugged him close to you making sure he was on his side as you made him rest his head on your shoulder.

you wake up just laying there, your head pounding, you couldnt tell what the cause was, a hangover or Ventis constant snoring in your ear, you woke up with him pretty much connected with you, a leg over both of yours and a arm over the top of your chest. this would've been find except you could feel it. something rubbing against you through his tights, you tried to pry away but he wouldnt let you, his eyes opened as he moved a hand to your cheek "5 more minutes? pleasee" Ventis breath stunk of alcohol. you tore his arm off of you and sat their waiting for him to notice the main problem.

Venti didnt say anything but moved his hands up to stretch, letting out a groan as he looked down at his own body, his face red "i-i suppose this is the reason you woke up? there a things even a god cant control im afraid" Venti instantly pushed a blanket off of him and pulled his cock out, the 7 inches instantly making your eyes widen. Venti put his hand at the base and slowly jerked himself off from there, driplets of precum already landing on his clothes "After this we can go back to sleep right?" Venti smiled as he said that. he was pure evil.

you began to get aroused looking at it, seeing him slowly shiver as he put his palm on his tip, Venti looked down to your crotch and smiles "Seems you're enjoying yourself as well, care to join?" Venti put his hand out, the same one he was rubbing his tip with, reached for it, feeling his precum in your own hand as you just watched him continue to jerk off, Venti swirled his hand around and instantly you were floating, Ameno energy swirling around you, taking your clothes off "i suppose we should speed things up" Venti looked at his cock, throbbing in his hand "I am getting pretty desperate~"

Venti smiled again as he moved his hand, forcing you forward onto him, his tip against your hole "V-Venti- thats- i-it wont fit" Venti smiled as he began to hold your right hand with his right hand, his left hand going to your thigh, pushing you down so the tip is inside, the precum acting as lube "come onnn, even i've had bigger" Venti winked as he lowered you down causing you to moan "You do know Morax don't you?" Venti laughed as he got slightly frustrated, forcing you down on his cock entirely, filling you up with his cock causing you to instantly finish causing the god to laugh at you as he came inside of you, cum dripping out of your hole and onto his own cock, he sat you there and made sure you stayed ontop of him, if you were to move the bed would be stained beyond saving. Venti yawned as he closed his eyes, hands wrapping around you as you began to drift off to sleep

#venti smut #genshin smut #genshin impact smut #genshin imagines #genshin venti

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what-if-nct · 1 year

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hiiii is it ok if i ask for some advice? im sorry im gonna sound rambly but uhhh i'm 14 and starting high school next year (which i alrdy dont feel too good abt haha) and my (overbearing asian) parents are going to send me to this private lutheran hs instead of the public one i was supposed to go to bc its more upper class and smart (?). tbh i was genuinely surprised that i liked the school, academic-wise, and i rlly liked that i had the space in my schedule to take more fine arts classes (i dont have any in my hs) but like the first thing the principal said to me was that i "needed to learn to be a good christian". a whole hour each week is dedicated to jesus and i just know my atheist ass is going to be uncomfortable asf. first, one of my best friends has a thing for jesus (he says jesus is too hot to be straight 😭) and i cant tell if hes joking anymore, and second, i dont have a problem with people who are religious, but i do when they are flat out hateful and harrassing people from communities they "dont agree with", and i just know the people preaching at this school are the latter.

also rn i am the *only* poc in my entire school, and i noticed there were a lot more asian students and students of color, so hopefully there'll be less kids pulling at their eyes or calling me slurs :D

anyways i not a fan of the fact that "homosexual behavior on or off campus" warranted for expulsion, since i am a *very* queer and bisexual individual. at my current school, i dont really need to hide my gayness bc no one cares, and my teachers are accepting (my homeroom teachers a lesbian lol <33). i dont think i can handle having to hide such a big part of my identity at home *and* at school :( too add to that i really suck at making friends, so being somewhere without people i'm comfortable with, my anxiety gets really bad, and i just shut down completely.

my hs is p rundown (like most public highschools are) and the classes are average at best, so idk man, im torn :( i dont know if i should suck it up and go to lutheran school bc their good academics, or ✨be myself✨ and go to p shitty school :/

i dont know what to do (or if i can even do anything) abt it i just dont feel too good about this :( you've mentioned you went to a christian school, so do you have any advice? even if you dont, thank you so so much for listening to me rant for a moment there <33 i really treasure you and your blog, atp you feel like the big sister i've never had. i love youuuu <333

That is such a sticky situation. Cause maybe you can try to persuade your parents especially since they'll be paying for the private school on top of college tuition in the future, it can be a huge selling point. I know that's how I won in the decision of beauty school over college it's cheaper. And christian and catholic schools are heavily based in religion like it's a huge part of it so if you don't believe in it it can be absolutely mind numbing. I actually didn't go to Christian school, actually wasn't forced to go to church as a child, I was like 11 and for some reason told grandma Christianity is responsible for all the bad things that happened in the world. Which is wild that I even was able to come to that conclusion as a child she just brushed me off. But I did go to church summer camp to be with my friends which my friend and I got scolded for holding hands but she was just leading me through the crowd of people. So that's still unfortunately a huge part of christian beliefs

the thing that really caught me off guard is the homosexual activity off campus can lead to expulsion. On campus like sucks but is expected of a christian school sadly. But off campus in your day to day life is like your actions off campus shouldn't be judged by the school. Like I can't wrap my mind around that. I think since you have a whole summer maybe look for more schools you can attend I remember doing this in middle school because my home high school was an F school so you could choose any high school within a certain range. You'd be really surprised with how many schools are around you I'm assuming you're in the us but I'm sure everywhere has a ton of schools. And look for a school that holds some of what your parents want and also your own values and needs for your education. And maybe your parents seeing you take initiative might be an extra point.

If your parents are deadset on it. I think try to make the best out of it as much as you can usually there's a group of people in the same boat you're in where their parents forced them to be there. Trust me no matter where you go you will always be drawn to those like you every single time. But if you do get the choice of going to the original public school firstly screw every single racist little bitch who does that to you that is horrid I am so sorry you have to endure that. People suck. But you can also learn extra independently I always did that cause I was a bit ahead of my class. But I really think researching more schools in your area would help you find the perfect school for you. I personally was in love with Waldorf schools they're more creative led schools and freer, I wanted to go to one so badly. So figure out the exact kind of education you want like a magnet school, charter school it doesn't hurt to see how receptive your parents will be to it.

I really hope this helped at all and I hope it works out well for you. And Awwww it's so sweet you see me as a big sister, I gladly be your big sister, love you too🌸🌸🌸

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starfleetakaashi · 4 years

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Heyy! I just found your blog and I AM IN LOVEEE 💞 So um,, I’ve got a competition coming up and I was wondering if you can whip up some hcs for Ushijima, Bokuto, Goshiki, and Iwa-chan comforting their s/o before their game? Thank you so so much! Have a good one😘

ANON IM GONNA CRY??? YOU LIKE MY BLOG??? 🥺🥺🥺🥺💞💞💞💞💞🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 GOOD LUCK ON UR COMPETITION U ARE GONNA DO GREAT AND KICK ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also this is my first time writing for goshiki (someone idk that much) so i hope i didnt do him dirty🥺🥺 hope u enjoy this!❤️

putting a read more bc i got a lil excited 😀

ushijima, bokuto, goshiki, and iwa comforting their s/o before their game:

— 𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐣𝐢𝗺𝐚;

this man isnt rlly good with expressing himself so the way he comforts u is kinda odd to ppl on the outside but since u know him u know hes doing his best

since he knows what it feels like to be nervous before a match (despite not showing it) he relates to u very well!!!

the night before ur match the two of u are getting ready for bed and he notices that ur a lil silent and more kept to urself

“are u ok honey?”🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

after a heart attack u respond with “im just nervous for tmr” and hes instantly ON YOU RAWR

not in a dirty way unless..?😛 but he will wrap his arms around u and encage u in silence while u inhale his sexy scent....

“im here if you’d like to rant.” welllll he offered so its time to run ya mouth!!!

u start telling him abt ur worries and hes sitting there with his chin resting on top of ur head and listening intently

honestly could u even find a better man than him bc i strongly believe the answer is a FAT NO

then on the next day when u see him on the stands with a smile on his face, ur worries are gone bc ur number one supporter is here and nothing else matters

— 𝐛𝗼𝐤𝐮𝐭𝗼;

RARARARRARA THIS MAN IS SO HYPED FOR UR MATCH!!!!!!!!

he doesnt rlly get nervous before a match tbh if anything hes so excited to be playing against good people so he cant rlly relate BUT HE TRIES!!!!!!

u two are eating and hes happily stuffing his face with ur good ass cooking but ur like im bored let me eat myself away with thoughts,,,,

he notices ur silence when he looks up and asks if he can have ur plate but u dont answer bc ur looking at ur fingers

“babe????? can i have ur plate??????”

he cant get enough of ur cooking sorry

“um... ya!!” so u give him the plate and he blows u a kiss before stuffing his face again only to notice that YOU WERENT EATING??????? THIS CANT BE YOU HAVE TO EAT U HAVE A MATCH TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!

“WAIT BABE HERE!!!!! EAT!!!!!” he panicks and shoves ur plate back to u and ur just like 😃

“not hungry baby, im thinking abt tmr” u said and he finally calms down, taking ur hand in his and gripping it tight

its to let u know that hes there always

“u will do amazing, baby!!!!” “after all ur the best!!! since ur with me, aka the best, that means ur the best too!!!”

god he is just so precious u tackled his cute ass on the floor and started kissing him like a hungry hyena

the next day he is in the stands with a huge ass poster with the fukurodani vbc yelling out ur name and cheering for u GOD HE IS SO PERFECT I AM GOING TO SCREA

— 𝐠𝗼𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐤𝐢;

baby is just sooooo🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

he knows ur good at what u do so he shows off whenever he can

he invites people to ur matches talking bout “my s/o is a beast out there u should come watch btw did i mention theyre my s/o :3” shut him up with a kiss pls.

anyways!!!! its the morning of ur match and ur getting ready and hes sitting on the bed just watching u bc damn he could watch u all day

but he notices a frown on ur face??? THAT IS NOT OKAY FROWNS ARE NOT ALLOWED.

so he gets off the bed and wraps his arms around u and ur already swooning like damn bitch CHILL

“ur nervous arent u?” HOW DID HE KNOW?????????

u turn to him as he grins at u “i just know babe,” and ur like ok is it simp hours😀😀????

he caught u red handed

“its ok to be nervous baby, but you’ll do amazing like you always do. even ushijima-senpai agrees!!!” hes so fucking cute he mentions his idol and ur just like damn how can i be nervous now when he’s just so cute

anywayyyy lets say ur like 5 min late to warmups bc u and him were too busy making out 👁👄👁

— 𝐢𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐳𝐮𝗺𝐢;

this man is a PRO when it comes to being nervous before matches since he’s from a powerhouse school its obvious that he has so much pressure on him to do great

aaanddd bc hes always against powerhouse schools as well so he cant help but be a tiny bit nervous even if he tells oikawa to fuck off and claim that hes not

anyway ur team had a before match practice the night before and u decided to stay a little after bc u wanted to get ur mind off things and also heighten ur skills even if it did so just a teeny bit

iwa comes to pick u up and runs into a few of ur teammates and theyre like “oh [name] is at the gym” and hes like thanks before heading to where u r

he keeps himself hidden for like a min or two bc he wanted to keep watching u while u were concentrated bc u were just hot as fuck when u were focused

but thennnnnn he notices that ur kinda overdoing it so he steps in and is like “hi baby”

immediately recognizing his voice ur like baby!!!! i missed u!!!!

u run to him all sweaty but he doesnt care bc u do it all the time when he comes home from his own practices all sweaty and stinky and bc he missed u hella

he wont flat out acknowledge ur nervousness bc he doesnt want to use the wrong words and get u even more nervous so he chose to do the little things and that made u appreciate and fall in love with him even more as if that was even possible but here we are

he massages ur shoulders and gives u a peck on the cheek and lips and even helps u practice bc hes just perfect like that

u almost started crying but u were like let me not give him a heart attack at 9 pm....

anyways the two of u head home holding hands like a cute ass couple and he occasionally squeezes ur hand🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

he kisses u passionately, waving u goodbye when u walked inside ur home, the nervousness for tmr’s match all gone bc of him

and when tomorrow came, the only thing u were worried about was HOW THE HELL WERE U GONNA FOCUS WHEN OIKAWA’S LOUD ASS KEPT SCREAMING FOR UR NAME......

good thing iwa being the best boyfriend that he is smacked oikawa on the back of the head a few times for the sake of ur match and for the sake of his poor insanity

#requested #ushijima x reader #ushijima headcanons #bokuto x reader #bokuto headcannons #goshiki x reader #goshiki headcanons #iwaizumi x reader #iwaizumi headcanons

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homestucky · 5 years

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ok ok this is like not anything new but still since i havent been on here i havent fully ranted about this yet. big long rant incoming

re the epilogue (spoilers etc)

ok. i have onl y read meat. but fucking? dirk? dirk? ok? dirk??

no.

i am aware of what happens in candy. i know he dies.

i also know in the version i read, in meat, he becomes his ultimate self, all versions of dirk. as many people have said, this includes AR, this includes bro, this includes even to some degree, LE. its an interesting idea ill give you that. but its also.... shitty and not backed enough by well, anything?

so heres my personal rant about the shitty things in Meat.

when i first finished it i couldnt help but think. was the dirk narrative even necessary? on the one hand it was meant to be the MAIN PLOT and it defined the narration etc, but.... it honestly didnt seem to have any importance. i know it was likely a set up to imply future stuff like making the next sburb or whatever but like

who CARES? why on earth would that be interesting or important? maybe im crazy but like, the ‘b plot’ which was mostly about character relationships and jobs in earth c, was compelling and enjoyable. the narrative with john ‘not important and not the main character anymore’ egbert had details and conclusions ACTUALLY RELATING TO HOMESTUCK, THE COMIC I LIKE AND WANTED TO READ AN EPILOGUE FOR. it was tragic and frankly very upsetting! im not saying i liked it!! but the tragedy felt compelling and significant.

i appreciate that dirk as narrator IS BIASED so him saying that these narratives are less important is inherently like. not to be trusted but. just. i cant help but feel like you could have cut the whole ‘main dirk reality affecting’ narrative OUT

and that seems to me maybe like... not good? if such a central part of your narrative has almost no bearing on homestuck or anything anyone cares about?

but im sure there are other people who found it compelling and necessary. thats fair. cant relate but you do you. there are other issues.

me saying that the dirk narrative felt weirdly isolated and insignificant sounds pretty weird given that it put jade into a coma, manipulated kanayas mind, effectively killed rose and destroyed rosemary right? WELL that brings me on to the next thing. people have noted that meat barely passes the bechdel test. and hey, sometimes things like that can just be a coincidence or unlucky. but the repeated erasure of the female characters minds, motives, identities and autonomy was???? a little too consistent to dismiss. like ok terezi was still her dope self in a lot of ways. jane kinda did some stuff (under dirks direction, and only shitty stuff but . whatever).

(sidebar: ofc it doesnt make sense to talk about calliope and roxy in the context of the female characters in Meat but either way they were very in the background. like cool an all, and i always love roxy. and i respect they were mostly just minding their own businesses??? which is fair)

i just. urgh. homestuck has such a genuinely good track record of giving female characters genuine motivations and powerful abilities etc. the fact that almost ALL the female characters involved were working for or manipulated by DIRK. DIRK of all people. is like... is this even based off the real comic? idgi????

roses loss of autonomy.... rose is such an important character. and she goes along with everything dirk says because dirk is suddenly all OP and ‘theyre basically the same person anyway’ like i get that there was some magic bullshit going on or whatever but at the end of the day rose was still written as weak and passive. dirk as strong and skilled and decisive. i get the undertones.. hes a prince of heart. a destroyer of souls, and identities. he messed with kanayas identity , destroyed roses, repeatedly ignored roxys and calliopes, and god i wont even get started on jake yet. but that doesnt make it satisfying to read. or even really feasible.

so theres a possibility im missing something. but im confused about WHY dirk is allowed this power. in the narrative its waved off as a kind of ‘i guess because im like a prince of heart or whatever and im just super good at managing identities and being a strong boy’ like ok if theres some implication somewhere that that is MEANT to be a bogus explanation id be interested to know because it sounds pretty goddamn bogus. why would this happen to dirk? why? literally? one reason? one that makes sense? because there arent any i can think of. why, in the new universe, would dirk, a prince of heart, manifest into a narrative controlling supergod. and fucking WHEN has dirk showed any actual capabilities in this area before?? he KINDA sucked at it in the game. dirks an idiot! hes smart and capable in like, some ways but. its like

why is dirk so powerful suddenly -> its because hes become super ultimate dirk -> ... ok why -> uh because like. hes just so naturally inclined towards being a great manipulator yknow..... canonically.... uhhhh

it just. canon dirk to epilogue dirk is the most ridiculous leap character wise, skill wise, arc wise, personality wise, with minimal reasonable explanation.

which brings me on to the next thing. so i roasted dirk and said he wasnt strong enough to be able to manipulate things this well. well, obviously through some other means dirk HAS been afforded this power. but what about his personality? its obviously gonna be warped with self importance and knowing how things ‘have to be’. but hes heartless, cruel and hateful. in some ways it seems like canon dirk levels of ruthlessness, especially when it shows that he is actually doing something dumb and petty like his treatment of jake. that shows that he STILL has emotional connection to people as dirk. he also seems to care about some people, like dave and roxy, and cracks jokes and wants to have ‘fun’. this makes the ways in which hes so warped and cruel seem even worse. maybe on the one hand im giving dirk too much credit, everyone knows he has the potential to be a real bastard. but i dont think that was the trajectory he was on when we last saw him. and if this is truly due to him just.. becoming other versions of himself too including LE and bro and stuff..like. i dont see how it could have gotten that bad without say, roxy or dave noticing.

‘oh they didnt notice because hes just so good at hiding’ why on earth would i believe that!! dave especially this is kinda insulting for. dave is shown to have an almost supernatural ability to detect danger. partially this might be timeline stuff, knight stuff, but also notably im sure his upbringing is involved too. he was trained to be hypervigilant. who was he trained to be hypervigilant for? bro. bros manipulation and traps. near the end of the epilogue we show that dave IS capable of detecting the mindfuckery thats happening. how would that not set off 1 million alarm bells? theres literally apparently a twisted dirk-bro mutant INSIDE HIS HEAD telling him what to do. i just. know that scene was played for comedy and romance but at the very least thats gotta like???? mess with u if ur traumatised? and thats like , why i think dave should have had an inkling abt what was going on!! this is exactly the thing he hates and fears and was traumatised by! and it just going under his nose n him not even knowing , and still pretty recently being all buddy buddy with dirk seems just stupid and infeasible to me. maybe this is me being naive or kind of a stretch but i just feel like daves danger instincts would have been kicking up a whole assed ruckus that whole time.

also kind of unrelated but i associate sunglasses with strider style toxic masculinity and hiding things so like. ok transitioning or changing gender presentation is one thing but roxy apparently permanently wearing sunglasses makes me NERVOUS

and ill probably wrap up this mighty rant soon but i wanna also say jake was done so fucking dirty. i know he was like, meant to be, because for some reason god dirk just hated him? like ok petty much. but. urgh jake is such an interesting character with a lot of potential and while i appreciate that him being manipulated by someone who may reasonably have a problem with him may make him do stupid and embarrassing stuff, all the narrative seems to have taken a backward step in how hes represented. jake isnt stupid, dirk clearly knew this in canon and he maybe was the only one even including jake. and there was some acknowledgement of this near the beginning of the epilogue. but then for some reason it goes back on itself. everyone still thinks jake is just completely stupid, including the embittered superdirk. so yeah i guess hes upset with jake or whatever but. its still dissatisfying to be like oh yeah jake isnt stupid he actually has a complex set of motivations and potential etc BUT over the X number of yrs on earth c no one else has realised this yet?? hmm. then his narrative is just gonna end up with him being a total joke and essentially becomes as stupid and incompetent as his worst critics say he is. feasible given the mind control ? yeah. enjoyable to read or having any kind of satisfying bearing on anything? nope!

so anyway. i feel like any criticism i have could be argued back with ‘but oh it has to be this way’ or ‘mind control!!’ or ‘not everything has to be nice and happy !!’ but like. dude. there are flaws. many of them. and seeing characters just get shat on is never gonna be good writing.

#hs epilogue #epilogue #meat #epilogue spoilers

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moanbyul-yi · 5 years

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hey yall i have a lot of thoughts abt twit and i usually do these ‘hot takes’ so i thought why not post it here this time in case some of yall wanna waste ur time reading my rants lmao,, so if u do u can read below

my hot take on twit - hwasa: im gonna start off by saying,, from the moment i heard the teaser i was already in love and im so proud of hwasa for taking this step and im so glad that its really working out for her and its charting well and i hope she enjoys promoting this sm,, so without further adieu,, heres my hot take 1. the aesthetics of the video are so good????? like the pOwer in the scenes where she has the crown on like yEs queen ahn hyejin is thRIVIng,, i read this post about the symbolism in the mv and honestly i would expect nothing less from hwasa. making a video all about women supporting and leaning on each other??? my fuckin iCON,, i also really love that she included the outfits like the wrapped in plastic ones esp after the whole ‘scandal’ where people said her outfits were too revealing bc fuck them and im glad shes continuing to be whoever she wants. ill be honest some outfits i dont really like but like ykno its hwasa u could dress her in a garbage bag and she’d still look flawless and she does look that good in the mv,, her stylists deserve all the fuckin awards 2. the song itself is such a bOP???/ i heard the teaser and immediately knew i would love it but i didnt know thIS much??? i highkey love the pause after the bridge im not sure if thats in the live/studio ver or not but i think it gives a good sort of build up,, i eSP love that she included a little bit of wheeins backing vocals (or so it sounds like to me). wheeins voice just fits so nicely into the song and i love how even tho its a solo debut they’re still tgt supporting each other in true wheesa fashion,, i also wanna talk about how i love the lyrics bc wow hwasa really said fuck toxic relationships and i love that she made a song thats kinda different and is about not being 100% reliant on ur partner and being in ur love bubble,,, also pt 2 i love the fact that its not like a ballad or anything but it still shows off her power vocals and just showcases her talents and works for her so well 3. wheeins cameo. i felt like this deserved its own point bc i honestly love it so much,,, i mean we all know that wheesa are goals af whether its friendship or rs whatever it is the love and care they have for each other is goals,, and i love sm that in both of their own solo songs they had cameos bc it just shows how even tho theyre branching out and doing their own thing they still are supporting each other and they still wANt to do those things together and its the cUtest thing i love them sm 4. usually i do a point about the dance also but in this case we’ve only had a few glimpses so i cant comment a lot but from what ive seen it seems simple and very hwasa style and i like it overall,,, im so fuckin proud of hwasa for this whole ass bop and all the work shes put into the mv and everything and i hope she gets all the love and support while she promotes bc she really deserves it bc from the aesthetics to the song i love everything about this solo so anyways i love her and i love this song and thank you for coming to my ted talk

#i forget how long these hot takes go for #yikes #o well not like anyones reading it anyways #this is more like word vomit #i usually only do mamamoo/seventeen hot takes #mainly bc i dont watch anything else #but if some of yall want me to hot take another mv #or a group #feel free to hmu #send an ask or smthn #im v bored and i have too much time on my hands #rabs talks #hwasa #mamamoo #twit

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nobuuses · 2 years

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yk it all by now-

books, shows, songs, hobbies, how ur day, has been, etc etc. talk to me about anything you want and whatever u can think of!!

hi my love

ok since you asked abt the toilet paper thing... so basically when you finish using a roll of toilet paper you end up w the cardboard roll and naturally,, supposedly,, youre supposed to throw it away. but i hoard them cos im a hoarder (clean. theyre all clean i promise sjksdj) and ive been trying to think of a way to use them and i was ranting abt this to my friend, who jokingly said that i should paint them. as a joke. that i took. very seriously. so ive been painting empty toilet paper rolls as a hobby. this is so embarrassing to admit but i swear theyre so therapeutic LIKE I PAINTED YESTERDAY FOR HOURS AND HUNG THEM UP TO DRY AND THEYVE ALL DRIED DURING THE NIGHT NOW AND LOOKING AT THEM MAKES ME SO PROUD anyways. yeah..,

oh and btw if we were villains IS. SUCH. A. GOOD. BOOK. its good to hear that youre enjoying it so far! if youre looking for something similiar after reading it, i highly highly recommend the secret history. its by donna tartt (author of the goldflinch, you mightve heard of that) and it has the same vibes as iwwv, but instead of shakespeare its ancient greek mythology instead. im pretty sure the author of iwwv took inspo from the secret history, so yeah. if youre looking for a similar read, the secret history should be up your alley.

i only just woke up and its 11AM where i am rn so my day havent really started yet! i wanna go to noble or booksamillion to buy more books to read soon , and its 2 days before i have to go back to school so im defo not excited abt that. ive been staying up so late and waking up so late lately idk how im gonna adjust to my old routine so im pretty freaked out 😀 my school starts at 7am on the dot sooo..it just sucks. ok this is getting pretty long but one last thing -- OVERDRIVE BY CONAN GRAY IS SUCH A BOPP i stan conan so hard you cant even imagine. i was 0.7% of his listeners on my spotify wrapped and im pretty damn proud of it

mwahmwahmwah

#aristos inbox #favorite mutual ever #wherearetheplants #i think this is check in no. 4?#yup! it is

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littlebitoffanfic · 7 years

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My Pleasure

Fandom: teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Character: Raph, Mikey Relationship: Raph/reader Request: If you're still up to taking requests (I'm real sorry about your laptop! That really sucks :( Hopefully everything turns out okay!) can you do a RaphxReader 2003 version where reader's 3 year boyfriend is found cheating on her, and she runs heartbroken to the Lair, where she cries in her best friend, Mikey's arms, while Raph overhears and goes after the guy, and later while everyone's in bed, reader quietly climbs into bed with Raph, which ends up with them both confessing their feelings? Thx! You hated him. You hated him with such a burning passion that any sort of feeling that may have remained were long gone. Running to the lair, you were nearly blinded by your tears. Bursting through the front door, you searched for your best friend who you found on the couch. “Hey [y/n]!” Mikey greeted, smiling. But that smile faded when he saw your tears. “Hey, hey, what happened?” He rushed to your side, wrapping his arms around you as you sobbed on his shoulder. “He cheated on me!” You cried. Your boyfriend, well ex, had just admitted to you that he had been sleeping with another girl. You were furious and left his house before you started screaming at him. Or crying. Mikey pulled you over to the couch and sat you down. You placed your elbows on your knees and cried into the palms of your hands. “3 years, Mikey. 3 Years!” You cried, unable to stop the hiccup that came next. “The guy was a ass anyway.” Mikey comforted you as he rubbed your shoulder. Just then, your phone buzzed. Taking it out of your pocket, you looked at it and nearly threw the phone across the room. It was your ex. “I know you’re upset, but I think we need to speak about this. It was a mistake! I still love you.” You read the passage out loud to Mikey, who made a scoffing sound. “Who does he think he is. He thinks he can just send a text and get us back!” Mikey pointed between you both as he spoke, making you laugh. You were heartbroken and there was no denying that. But, for some reason, you weren’t angry. He had betrayed you in one of the worst possible ways and yet a part of you was relieved. ‘its because you’re in love with someone else’, a voice whispered at the back of your mind and you shook your head. But you knew it was right. You loved Raph. But when your ex had asked you out 3 years ago, you had said yet. You were trying to get over Raph and you were trying to move on with your life. But you never could. Your ex never knew of the turtles and you were glad of that. You always put the turtles and Raph first. For a while, you and Mikey just talked. You spoke about everything and nothing. He made you laugh and the heart ache soon left you. Not completely, but enough for you to not keep thinking about it. Maybe, if it had been Raph who had done that to you, it would be different. But it wasn’t. it was a guy who you loved, but you weren’t in love with him. The relationship was more one of convenience than love. “I think im going to go see him.” You mumbled, playing with your phone as you thought it through. “What! No, you cant get back with him!” Mikey gasped, reaching out and taking your phone from your hands. You couldn’t help but smile at him. He was so concerned for you and always looked out for you. “No, not to get back with him. I need to tell him something.” You looked away then back to Mikey. Mikey frowned, but handed you your phone back. “Just remember, youre worth more than that!” He shook his finger at you. “I know. Thank you.” You wrapped your arms around him for a quick hug before rushing out of the lair. --------time skip----------------- You were waking along the small alley way just beside your exs apartment. You were planning how you were going to tell him everything. You knew you were going to say something along the lines of ‘it would never have worked out anyway because im in love with someone else’ but you wanted it to be somewhat civil. but then you say something in your peripheral vision that made you look up. There, descending the building, was Raphael. “Raph?” You called out, confused as to why he would be here. He had obviously not noticed you till you spoke as you saw him jump a little before jumping down to you. “What you doing here?” He asked. “I came to… speak to him.” You nodded at the building. You assumed Raph didn’t know about what had happened. Apparently you were wrong. “After what he did to you? You’re not getting back with him, are you?” Raph growled the first sentence but then sounded hurt in the second. “No, no, god no. I-I just need to tell him something. You know, for closure.” You shook your head and smiled at him. “Wait, why are you here?” You asked, tilting your head to the side. “Gonna knock some sense into that thick head of his.” Raph growled as his attention turned to building and you saw his hands clench into fists. “You cant go up there!” You ran forward and grabbed his arm. You wrapped your arms around his arm, holding him in place. “Why not? Gotta make him pay for making you cry.” Raph didn’t move from you. Instantly, it clicked in your mind. He had heard you speaking to Mikey. He had heard you being upset and he was willing to expose himself, open himself to ridicule, just to defend you. “How about…” You looked up at him just as he turned to look down at you. “Neither of us go up there?” Raph took a moment, looking down at you before nodding. he moved his arm from your grasp and wrapped it around your waist, pulling you close. The small action made you smile. You reached into your pocket and pulled out your phone, dialled your exs number and held the phone up to your ear. You felt Raphs grip tighten a little but didn’t say anything. The phone only rang a few times before he picked up. He started to babble about how he missed you and how he had made a mistake and wanted you back and it would never happen again. But you stopped him. “Listen, this isn’t health for either of us. We both want different people so lets just call this the end and move on.” You said, keeping it short and simple. “We ‘both’ want others? What, you want someone else besides me?” He asked, sounded both hurt and offended. “Yes, the truth is im still in love with someone else.” You became very aware that the very person you were speaking about had his arm wrapped around you right now but you didn’t dare look up at him in case you gave something away. it was safe to say, your ex was not happy. He started to swear at you over the phone, making you frown and pull the phone away from your ear. To be fair, you had acted the same way. Before you could do or say anything, Raph grabbed the phone from your hand. “Listen here, you don’t ever speak to her like that. Got it?!” He growled down the phone before hanging up and passing you the phone back. You couldn’t help but giggle. Raphs voice was deep and threatening so even though your ex couldn’t see how muscular Raph was, he would be intimidated by his voice. “Do you mind if I stay over tonight? I don’t want to be alone.” You asked him, turning a little to look up at him better. “Of course. I think Mikey was planning to stay with you no matter what.” Raph chuckled as he started to guide you back to the lair. ---------------time skip----------------------- You were currently cuddled up on the sofa, surrounded by covers and pillows. After getting back, you, Mikey and Raph sat and watched a movie. You were later joined by Donnie and Leo who, after Mikey ranted to them about your ex, agreed it was for the best. They had all went to bed at different times, with Raph being the last to leave. Before he had left, he turned and looked over his shoulder that you, telling you that if you needed anything to come to him. Your mind wondered to his room. And, before you could stop yourself, you were walking there. you quietly knocked on the door before pushing it open. The room was dark but you could just make out the outline of Raph in his bed. “Raph?” You called into the darkness, tiptoeing over to him only to get no response. when you came to the edge of the bed, you climbed in, cuddling under the covers that smelled of him. He slept closest to the wall on his stomach, meaning you could cuddle in beside him easily. You missed this. Once you started dating your ex, you knew you shouldn’t be going to Raphs bed. So you hadn’t for the best part of 3 years. But as you cuddled back in, you felt safe, secure, at home. “You alright?” A voice whispered through the darkness, making you jump slightly. He was awake. “Yeah, sorry. I- I couldn’t sleep.” You gave him a weak excuse, hoping he would take it. “You wanna talk?” he asked, and you saw him turn slightly in the darkness to face you. You rolled onto your side to face him. The dark masked his eyes, and that gave you a small boost of confidence. “Is it strange that im not as upset as I should be? I mean, I knew it would never last and all.” You shrugged a little as you lay your head on the pillow. “Cause you love someone else?” Raph moved closer to you. You were thankful for the darkness as it meant to you could hid the blush. You mumbled a ‘yeah’ to him. “Who?” “what?” You deliberately intended to act stupid to his question. “Who were you in love with?” He clarified. You could swear you heard pain in his voice. You took a moment before answering him. You could tell him, and if he doesn’t feel the same way, you could blame it on the break up. Or it could be the best decision of your life. Taking a deep breath, you closed your eyes. “You.” You answered. There was a moment of silence which felt like a lifetime as you waited for him to react to the news. You saw Raph sit up, the covers falling off him, so you mirrored him. “Me?” he said with an air of disbelief around him. Once again, you let out another ‘yeah’, not sure how he was taking it. That was until he moved forward and pressed his lips to yours in a surprise kiss. You jumped, taken back by his sudden boldness but quickly jumped at him, wrapping your arms around his neck. This kiss carried more passion in the simple and first moments that your entire relationship before had. His arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you against his hard chest, holding you tight. “I love you, too.” He mumbled as you pulled back for air. Smiling, you dove back in for another kiss as Raph lowered the two of you back into bed. You lay on your back and he lay on his front but to the side of you. One of his arms was draped across your torso while the other held him up. “Id better not be dreaming, again.” Raph muttered against your lips. “Again? You dreamt about me a lot?” You asked, raising an eyebrow at him even though he couldn’t see. “More than I’ll ever tell you.” He chuckled. “Good, cause I dreamt about you.” You winked. You could just see the outline of a smirk appear on his lips as he moved to your side to lie his head on the pillow. You were quick to cuddle into him. “In the morning, we need to talk.” You said, running a finger along his arm. “We will, but let me just enjoying having you in my arms.” He hummed. “My pleasure.” You giggled, happy to finally fall sleep in the arms of the man you loved.

#raph #raphael #raph x reader #raph/reader #raphael x reader #raphael/reader #reader insert #fluff #angst

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jimiin · 7 years

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◤°░｡ ✕ MOODBOARD ; HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIEN !’ 〉

this is just stuff that reminds me of you (’: since im untalented and cant make gifs i went for the aesthetic route but i didnt wanna make an actual aesthetic bc i think moodboard aesthetics are kinda cuter dcbfdjbfj anyway happy birthday i love you sm emo message is under the cut bc i want this post to look cute <3

AHHHH HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIEN !!!! <3 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I CANT BELIEVE YOU’RE GETTING OLD JDCBJBCJ GOD age backwards turn 15 for the 200000th time pls 16 is too far that’s not allowed /: i adopted you this year & i just wanna say....i love being your mom i love passing on my choking ways to you except not really because you didn’t know what it meant but djcbjdbvj thats gOOD bc you’re still a minor so ! we’re basically the same person sometimes and i lOVE it im so happy i can come to you to and scream about jimin or come to you and rant about something i just love you sm you’re my fave virgo by far you give virgo’s a good name (bad virgos are shaking!) im so happy we bonded more this year you’re so funny djcbjdbcjfbgj TRULY LIKE i know you call me funny all the time but bitCH that’s all you ok you make me laugh so much !!! i just wanna say i hope today was a very good day for you because you deserve the world ok there’s a lot of yellow in this moodboard because i associate it with you because you’re like a tiny ball of sunshine and you try really hard to be positive which i admire sososososo much. you’re one of the nicest people (like genuinely nice) i’ve ever met i hope you never change. also you always try very hard to make sure people are happy and feel loved and i hope you take the time to return the favor to yourself sometimes because it’s good to focus on others, but you gotta focus on yourself too !!! you are TOO YOUNG to be bitter ok im coming for you /: *bts voice* love yourself !!! I HOPE YOU GOT BOBA TODAY AND JUST HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME OK I HOPE YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY SAID NICE THINGS TO YOU!!! i love you sm tien & i admire you so much you’re so young but you’re so responsible and level headed i mean it i know you’re hard on yourself and you say you can be sensitive or that you’re being childish but you’re so much more mature then you give yourself credit for. i’m also really really proud of you for always working so hard like whether it’s with school or for rp you always put your all into it & you’re extremely talented you’re like barbie tien you can do anything you want with your life & i know you’d make it djcbdbgcjf im gonna wrap it up gOD but im so happy i met you years ago im so happy i got to see you grow & you got to see me grow & we’re gonna be friends forever bc i wanna chill in a retiring home with you & just gossip abt the other loser old people that arent us /: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH TIEN HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3333 THE FIRST DAY OF FALL IS ON YOUR BDAY YOU’RE THAT ICON ! GET YOU A WOMANS WHO CAN CHANGE THE SEASONS haha ;) @jeonsguke @overdefiant idk which to tag now u get double the notifications djcbdjcj

#tien #HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIEN ILYSM MY DAUGHTER !!#this moodoard doesnt do u justice goD look away queen of graphics

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irl-futaba-sakura · 7 years

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im super worried about one thing in particular

i want some honesty, u can message me or send an ask, anon or not, or whatever, just not reblogging this with a comment if possible, please ;n;

if i was therian, otherkin, fictionkin or had copinglinks

would you think differently of me?

would you hate me? would you not really care? would you believe it or just brush it aside as something but otherwise not pay much mind?

obviously i am, or i wouldnt be asking this anyway, and i’ve been had in my about for ages that i was “alterhuman / nonhuman” so it’s not like this is out of nowhere. i’m just... tumblr is a weird place to be more open about this, but im really not the kind of person who can deal with forums very well. so tumblr is probably the only place i will be open about it ever. maybe.

but on this website it’s treated very badly, either like it some kind of mental illness (it’s not) or like it’s some role playing collectibles game with added pressure from people who don’t know what the fuckie they’re talking about telling you the “rules” for being kin like “you cant kin with that character bc they’re nothing like you in the real world” like ??? what ???

mini rant aside, this behavior on tumbl makes me nervous to be open about it, and even more is that recently i’ve sort of like... “picked up on”? a few new ones, one of which im questioning right now. but it makes me feel like shit bc of the people here who do just treat it like some collectibles game, i feel like if i ever happened to pick up a kintype from a current popular media i would be mocked for it. or maybe mocked for having multiple kintypes in the first place. honestly if i could have it my way i would probably drop it all.

this is something i’ve been struggling to accept since like 2007, and the addition of potential kintypes from current popular media is just giving me an assload of stress, especially since i decided i wanted to be at least sort of open about it on tumbl. and stress is bad for me since it not only fucks up my skin but also gives me near constant headaches and can lead to hallucinations again.

i’m def giving more info that i probably should here, but oh well.

i mean, i even made a kin-page and linked it in my about, but right now it’s just the abridged version of this post, talking about how i’m nervous to really reveal these things about me. i fear ridicule and judgement, not only because of being kin in the first place but also because if im open about it people might try to pick apart my kintypes and something something something with them. and i dont want that. like i wouldnt mind if someone saw me as X fictional character or species if i happened to have them as a kintype, but i also wouldnt want them to make assumptions about it because that’s not all i am. im more than that.

and how everyone talks about memories and past lives and shit, like thats so cool! thats amazing and i love hearing about it! but i have none of that. what i have that proves it to me is not so cool, and actually kinda annoying if anything.

it’s just weird, okay. im weird i guess too, but whatever right?

we’re all kinda weird in different ways. -shrugs-

i dont pretend to know myself very well, and i may even be wrong about this anyway, i mean i dont think i am but like i still could be. maybe 10 more years down the road i look back and say “wow okay” and never look back. i wouldnt know where im gonna end up, how im going to get there, or how im going to see myself. further in the future i could turn into the worst person, or maybe someone you barely see around anymore but im still here. who knows.

im gonna wrap this up, im gonna go get some sleep because i have a horrible headache, but i’ve been thinking about this a lot over the last few weeks and just, i dont know why i have any reason to hide but i feel like i should.

goodnight.

#pupsonal

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imsarabum · 7 years

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Responses to {Part 25} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU Asks~

Please ‘Keep Reading’ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last night’s chapter to avoid clogging up people’s dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^

(I have also included asks that I received in the hours before IWSY was posted ^^)

@ofwolvesandbutterflies said: Oh mai gawd it's tuesday! you know what that means... IWSY part 25 is coming tonight!

IT’S VAMPDAY! Hehe :3 I’m excited!!

@life-guru said: It's Tuesday!!!!!! I am so ready😙

Yay! I hope you’ll enjoy it love :D

@openup-yourmind said: Hi, i just wanted to let you know that i can't wait for the next chapter! ♡ You're a breat writer and i send big love from Montreal/Canada 😘❤🍁 *big hug* :)!

Thank you so much honeypot! I really hope you’ll like it :D Yay hugs from Canada! Have some hugs from the U.K too *hugs* hehe ^^

@bangtangurlarmy said: Girl, I live for your writings. ABANSJWJAIWKAKKWNWIMWALMAJW I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER AND I HAVE FINALS ON SATURDAY BUT IT'S MY LAST EXAM SO HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. I love you❤❤ And Justin Seagull❤ and Jack, Christian Chim Chim....Yoonki Min as well... Oh wait, I love Monie and Jin and J-dope too😌

I BURST OUT LAUGHING AT J-DOPE LMAO OH YM GOD xD Ahhh your nicknames for them all are so cute, when will I ever~ And hey, you’re one to talk! I’ve been sneaking through your Taehyung scenarios like *wiggles eyebrows* and I love your writing so much! And of course, I love you a lot too ❤ I hope your finals won’t be too stressful for you my dear, you’ll do well I know you will!

@mocking-butts said: I like can't focus properly because I'm waiting for the new update~ I need to know what happens mumsy oh god I'm dying here ㅠㅠ

I hope you’ll enjoy it honeypie! :3

Anonymous said: OMG ONE FUCKING MINUTE

LET’S GOOOOO!

Anonymous said: AHHHHH SHES PREGNANT DJAJVDJSJSBSKSKNXNSNZJ

GASP!

Anonymous said: That was heavy man...

Good heavy I hope~

Anonymous said: ACKKK THAT WAS SO GOOD! CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK!! LOVE YA❤ -Anon+friend⚇

Thank you so much anon and friend! I love you too :3

@mocking-butts said: WAIT WHAT OH MY- IM MAMING THE MOST UNGODLY NOISES IM LIKE I CANT EVEN MUMSY WHYYYYY PLEASE BE NEXT WEEK FATSER~ ksjsndndkdkdkek I forgot how to speak I'm going to go cry now and drown in my tears 😭

Please don’t cry please smile for me :( I hope you enjoyed it though! :c Thank you for reading my love!

Anonymous said: Shit just went down I love when your fanfics get angsty OMG thank u Sara --wifey anon

I’m glad you enjoy the angst wifey anon c: Plenty more where that came from! ^^ Thank you so much for reading it :D

Anonymous said: I was having a poop week, and this made my day. BUT THAT CLIFFHANGER!! AND I'M PREGGERS *screams* PS I forgive you and love you too :) *more screams* -Vampnip anon

I’m sorry you had such a poop week *hugs* I hope your week gets better! AND YES OMG YOUR PREGGERS CONGRATS BABE! lolol c: Thank you for forgiving me Vampnip anon c: And thank you so much for reading!

Anonymous said: *says in ratchet voice* OMG NO! You did not just do that to me bitch! Like how the fuck am I supposed to be able to live for another week to read the rest of this story! Like, hell to the no... just saying you better come to my funeral Luv u bitch xxx

I DID JUST DO THAT TO YOU~ muhaha ^^ I’ll be there dressed in my best I’M KIDDING NO PLEASE DON’T DIE ID BE REALLY SAD FOR REAL :( I love you too lol and thank you for reading the update :3

@mini-mini-jiminie33 said: In response to the cliffhanger on chapter 25 of I Won't Stop You--yOU ARE THE GOD OF CLIFFHANGERS AND IDK WHETHER TO LOVE YOU OR HATE YOU FOR THAT OMG IM SCREAMING AAH

I WOULD PREFER IT IF YOU LOVED ME BUT IF YOU WANT TO HATE ME THEN THAT’S OKAY TOO I’LL SPEND THE REST OF MY ADULT LIFE TRYING TO EARN BACK YOUR LOVE *cries*

Anonymous said: I SWEAR!! I FLIPPING SWEAR!! DO YOU ENJOY THE THINGS YOU DO TO ME?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS FEELS LIKE!?

I do rather enjoy the things I do to you ^^ Does that make me evil like Yoongi? Probably c: thank you for reading my love :3

Anonymous said: OMG THE OC Is PREGNANT FUCK YES! Hmm pregnant from all that fucking 😉😏😏I HOPE THE BABY IS OK

*jay parks aquaman plays in the background* ‘lemme call you mama cos we abouta make a baby’ OML YES ALL THE FUCKING~ haha thank you very much for reading the new chapter doll :D

@jynxy24 said: YOU. MAKE. ME. WANNA. SCREAM. AND CRY. OMG. SAAAARRRRAAAAAAAAAAA! HOW COULD YOU?! I TRUSTED YOU TO PROTECT MY HEART BUT MY HEARTEU! MY HEARTEU IS, ARRRHHHH!! Okay, rant is over. How've you been, Sara!! I hope you have been well, is the weather there great? Stay healthy!! >.< CHAPTER WAS AWESOME BTW AAAAHHHHH!! I'M SO FRICKIN CURIOUS OF WHAT YOONGI IS GONNA DO!! I hope Namjoon turns good at the end(I can frickin sense it) :3 I have to go, stay awesome, Sara! Love you!

I promise you that your heart will be okay and that everything will work out in the end!! I’ve been okay, super stressed and busy and hardly any time to do anything other than study and work but I am trying to hard to stay on top of things ^^ The weather is FREEZING but I wrap up warm. How are you doing?! And thank you so much for reading the new update and I love you too honeypie!! :3

@deangetoutofmyspleen said: SARA IM UGLY CRYING I FUCKIN KNEW ITTTTTTTTTTTT OHMYGOSHIMINSHOCK MY HEART IS EXPLODINGNGGGGHHHH

shh...it’s okay...it’s all gonna be okay c: ehehe~

Anonymous said: jimin hates white ppl xoxo

xoxo Gossip Girl xoxo

@doubletroublesince1994 said: This is literally making me die and anticipation omgg I loved every bit of this chapter but man waiting for another week for the next chapter is gonna be hard for me 😂😂😂 Thank you so much for writing this, this is truly a blessing I love youuu ❤

Ahhh thank you so much for reading it and I love you too! I know it sucks waiting for things to come out :( but I’m glad that you still read every week despite the wait!! I appreciate it so much :3 Thank you darling :D

Anonymous said: I... Don't know what to say... So much just happened in part 25, Yoongi has 'me' in custody, 'i'm' pregnant with Jungkook's baby, and Jungkook has it so bad that he decided to protect both 'me' and the baby. Fucking Yoongi. Literally, the song 'Why' by Taeyeon is playing in the background and that is the one word going through my mind right now. How do you write so well and give me the ultimate feels?! I love you, take care of yourself, and yeah. r.i.p. me. - army anon

It really was a chapter filled with so many emotions and feelings and points of view, I’m glad it could give you ultimate feels! Ahhh Why my Taeyeon is a beautiful song, you’ve put me in the mood to listen to it now! I love you too and I hope you will have an amazing week Army anon ^^ thank you so much for reading it!

@theninjachan said: this is gonna sound weird but yoongi is my bias so instead of being pissed of or angry with his villainous chuckles i was rather......turned on???? HAHAHA. anyway this was a great chapter as usual. and y/n is pregnant? oh boy oh boy oh boy i'm excited for tuesday to come

No no not at all! I rather enjoy that passive-aggressive asshole type behaviour and it is high-key sexy as fuck in so many ways lol (THIS IS WHY ALL MY RELATIONSHIPS HAVE FAILED I MAKE THESE BAD DECISIONS) lol thank you so much for reading again this week love ^^

Anonymous said: I'm dying a little bit by every sentence I read, I know this is a fiction (and a VERY GOOD at that), but it still rips me apart reading this chapter especially when Serrena told Jungkook about the unborn child, and I know JK love her and their unborn child with all his life, he will protect them at all cost even if it means his life been taken away :( --Lotsa love Erica from U.S--

Hello Erica!! Thank you so much for reading IWSY it means a lot to me and I’m so happy you think it’s good! And yeah, it’s both a happy and a sad thought. When I was writing the chapter, I was actually listening to Flyleaf’s song ‘Circle’ and the lyrics ‘no man shows greater love than when a man lays down his life for his beloved’ was echoing throughout my mind ^^

@mysr3 said: WHAT!*still shock*What! I thought they were being sAfe! Sara u 've serious explanations to do! I luv how u had JK shift on so many emotions in such short span. the moment of JK n his mom is touching. N u w/ ur evil genius plot Twist! U n this ch r the reason my emotions r over the place rn! Just "Ding-dong” at the end had my imagination run wild of what will happen next. Y Yoongi sounds so hot! Ahh the torture week of waiting for IWSY now begin 😭glare, pouty 😤lol LuV u! ❤️ Thank you!

Don’t glare or be pouty at me!! :c hehe but heY WAIT I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU WEREN’T LOOKING FORWARD TO THE UPDATE HM?? ;) lolol I’m glad I could put your emotions all over the place, this makes me very very happy ^^ But thank you once again for reading this weeks chapter and I love you too despite the amount of apparent pain I’ve caused you :3

Anonymous said: It's 11:35 pm my time and I can't control my emotions. Like fuck man. Y/N is preg-a-nant and like I'm happy af. But why Yoongi gotta fuck everything up. Like couldn't their happiness have lasted a little longer. But it's okay cause y/n a bad bitch you can't kill her. Then JUNGKOOK gonna fight Yoongi and save his girl cause he a real man-vampire. This story so good that I'll wait another week but these dramatic cliffhangers gotta stop mom (Name the baby after me plz) Love you 💜 ~LilKookieAnon

She is definitely a bad bitch, Yoongi don’t know who he’s fucking with! :3 AND NO NEVER THE CLIFFHANGERS ARE HERE TO STAY I’M SORRY JUST EMBRACE THEM AND ACCEPT THEM AS A PART OF YOU OKAY?! hehe~ thank you my love for reading and I hope you’re having a great week LilKookieAnon ^^

@jeonjungrude said: OMGG THE CLIFFHANGER AND THE FACT THAT SHE IS PREGNANT!! OMGGG WHY U DOING THIS TO MY POOR POOR HEART !! 😭😭😩😩 now i have to wait till next week omg may god save me !! 🖤

Because...I enjoy your pain *evil laugh* I guess this makes me similar to Yoongi lol we are sadists with our intentions :3 But I think mine are far less sinister, well...I hope :3 thank you so much for reading my love and I hope you enjoyed it ^^

Anonymous said: Didn't they have unprotected sex after the ball? How come she become pregnant?

Do you know how sex works my love? :3 You can still get pregnant when you use a condom because nothing (except abstinence) is 100% safe!! And also - if you read the parts when they have sex, there are instances when Jungkook is having sex with the reader when he isn’t wearing a condom. For instance, the morning after the first time they have sex. The reader is on top and he hasn’t got a condom on. Yes - he doesn’t “finish” inside her, but that doesn’t mean you still can’t get pregnant ^^

Anonymous said: Me: OH ITS TUESDAY! *reading IWSY* Fic: Ding-dong” the bell chimed. To be continued..." Me: -_________- well shit NOOO WHY?! EVEN JUST ONE MORE DETAILED SENTENCE THAT EXPLAINS EVERYTHING. *depressed* *needs to wait for another week ㅠㅠ* Hehehe...i honestly love ur works! Specially IWSY! It's really unique for my opinion and it's im telling u IT'S WELL WRITTEN. It's soooo gooood. I've never been this excited just for tuesdays, ever in my life😂. It's really of the best and one of my favourites! 💕

Thank you so much for thinking that it’s unique and well written, that makes me so happy ^^ Thank you very much my love!! :3

@coppertopging said: I KNEW IT!!!!!! I KNEW SHE WAS PREGNANT!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!! WHY IS TUESDAY 7 DAYS AWAY AGAIN?!?!?!?!?!?!

DUN DUN DUN! c: You guessed correctly! I’m sorry for the long waits :( I wish I could write more than one chapter a week :( thank you my love for reading :D

Anonymous said: OH MY GOD PLEEEASE let this have a happy ending!!! My heart my poor heart😭😭😭

I hope it will have a happy ending for you my love!

@ananyak26 said: Omg author nim! Part 25 was cruelxD. It was amaaazingly written, and I loved it a lot. Great job!

I apologise for it being so cruel :c but thank you so much for reading dear!!

@life-guru said: Ahhhhhh she's pregnant!! I hope everything works out and that namjoon gets saved somehow! Thank you for blessing us with such a great story!!❤️😘

I hope so too c: thank you so much for reading my stories!

Anonymous said: FRICK. That is all I have to say about IWSY chapter 25. Thank you and goodnight. - 종달새 ❤︎

I hope that’s a good thing! c: Thank you very much for reading my love - good night!!

@animeimmortal said: WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT LIKE SHES PRGNANT WHAT AND ANOTHER CLIFFHANGER PLEASE LET ME LIVE IM TRYING TO LIVE IN PEACE AND THIS IS OMG the storm is really not helping and Serena? Lord she could have told Y/N about it at least -.- love you 😍❤❤❤

ALL THE FRUSTRATING THINGS GAHHHH! hehe, thank you so much for reading it aand I love you very much too ^^

@noceurash said: Im!!! I'm so hyped over iwsy omg it's happening!!!! I can't wait for the next part, I love you!! This chapter was so good aaah. I hope you have a good day~~

YAY I’M SO GLAD IT GOT YOU HYPED! Thank you so much my love, I hope you have a good day too :D

@toxic-seoul said: I AM FREAKING OUT SARA OH MY GOD dcdjsjicfk I'm so ready for the next chapter I wanna kno what Yoongi is planning. I want Serena 2 come in like a badass mama & save her son & every1 cuz moms r awesome & shit but I also want JK to tear Yoongi apart. But then I also want Yoongi 2 fuq reader up cuz I'm messed up like that lol bUT NO YOONGI NEEDS TO CHECK HIMSELF BIH IM NOT LIKING HIS ATTITUDE. Bitch boi got another thing comin if he thinks he's getting away with that pfft. Amazing as always btw lol

Badass mama here to save the day! I hope she does that c: AND YES WE CANT LET HIM GET AWAY WITH IT HOW DARE HE, HE’S SO RUDE D: hehe, thank you so much for reading honeypot, you’re awesome an I hope you have a great day ^^

Anonymous said: Oh my god!! All those asks about the reader getting her period!!! And now!!!!! The latest chapter was great and I'm always amazed by your vocabulary :3 Thank you so much for writing I Won't Stop You!

I KNOW LOL IT’S LIKE ‘JESUS CHRIST JUST WAIT FOR THE STORY OH MY GOD’ lol like...please :( haha thank you so much doll, that really means so much to me :D Thank you for reading IWSY and for messaging me too :D

Anonymous said: IM ABOUT TO EXPLODE!! I DIDN'T EXPECT THAAAAAT FHRJKEDJJDKDJFJJ A CHILD?? OMG YAS!!! I WON'T BE ABLE TO SURVIVE THIS WEEK GOD DAMN IT

Please don’t explode no D: YES A CHILD! YES YOU CAN SURVIVE THE WEEK I PROMISE YOU CAN :D hehe~ thank you so much for reading my love ^^

Anonymous said: Wow for once I'm here relatively early and //HOLY SHIT !! The plot is thick and everything is so emotionally charged right now and I'm dying ... but lowkey looking forward to full squad next week (even if 4/7 of them are baddies)

Thank you very much for reading it! I’m glad you’re finding it emotionally charged c: And yep! The gang is all together hehe :D

Anonymous said: i can't wait for nxt tuesday alrd 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Me either! :3 thank you!

@brilliantbellesoares said: IWSY FEEDBACK: I don't know if I'm crying of joy because I'm happy they're having a child or of sadness because of what could happen to that child

That two edged sword tho ;D hehe! thank you so much :D

@wanda-rog said: You're so nice and such a good writter! Still so evil...how dare you give us another cliffhanger? You probably laugh maniacally when you type "to be continued". I just want her to be back with Jungkook! And now she is pregnant and in danger TT another long week before update 😭

My evilness is a charm, I promise ;D Whenever I finish it and read it out to my mum, she screams in distress, so I already have an idea of what will happen :3 thank you for reading my love ^^

Anonymous said: HOOOOOOO BOY SHE FUCKING PREGNANT SJDJDJ oh my god this chapter has my ass up the entire time djdjdjd WHAT THE FUCK im dying to know what yoongis after for y/n what thefcuk

All will be revealed soon! :3 hehe thank you so much for reading ^^

Anonymous said: FUCK ME ON THE ASS WITH A SPOON IM FUCKING DYING I CANT FUCKINT BELIVE JINT HSI FUCKING BITCH OH MY GOD DJSJSJDJS SHES FUCKING PREGNANT DIDNT THEY USE PROTECTION LIKE UNTIL THE LAST SEX PART WHERE JK FUCKED HER RAW IM FUCKING DYING AND SHES GONA DIE INT HECOLD FUCKING YOONGI THAT BITKCH ASS MUTHAFUCKIN I SWEAR TO GOD

LMAO OHMY GOD hahahaha xD Well - if you read the parts when they have sex, there are instances when Jungkook is having sex with the reader when he isn’t wearing a condom. For instance, the morning after the first time they have sex. The reader is on top and he hasn’t got a condom on. Yes - he doesn’t “finish” inside her, but that doesn’t mean you still can’t get pregnant ^^ And also, just because you’re using a condom, doesn’t mean you can’t get pregnant! Thank you for reading love :D

@semisweetsuga said: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA -IWSY by Koto

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA - by Sara THANK YOU BBY

Anonymous said: The scale for this story isn't 0 to 100 anymore. It's just 100 to 5000 at this point ya know? There's never a point where this story rests at 0

heh, I think that’s a matter of subjectivity my darling. There are points in which I believe this story is calm and tranquil depending on the situation - take the moment in the restaurant for example, or various soft/romantic moments that the reader is subjected to. Of course, it is a Vampire fiction, so the element of thrill would naturally be quite high :D

@xokookiebts said: I swear im choking. If her baby gets hurt, im breaking my phone i stg. I will sue min yoongi. That little shit.

Please don’t break your phone! I hope that everything works out for you in the story c: thank you for reading my love!

#Responses #Asks #imsarabum #I Won't Stop You #IWSY

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flowisk · 7 years

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A-Q :3

(A) Do you have any autistic friends? What are your favourite things to do together?You’re autistic dude. And I looove to infodump and rant about SIs we share, that’s the glorious shit right there. idk i do so much shit together with you it’s kind of hard to think… i love our talks, i love playing games w you, and i love you introducing me to your interests and getting the chance to share my interests with someone who’s patient and gets it. nice shit.Weirdly not a lot of people closest to me (minus you, the Closest to me) are autistic? I know other peeps who are autistic but for w.e reason I’m often not super close.(B) What sense do you most like to stim with (tactile, visual, proprioceptive, etc.)?hmmmm probably audio. It was a Big one in my childhood. i used to carry a cd player and my specially constructed playlists everwhere. i’ve always been esp fond of playing amvs on repeat, so id say that has audio/visual components, but visual on its own doesnt do as much for me. probably, that’s the funnest one as well.maybe this category is vestibular? my ‘anxiety’ stim tho is touch, pressure. i’ve recently become more aware that when im overwhelmed i have a tendency to lay down or wrap myself up. hug my dog. i pace a lot unconsciously if im worked up or anxious but… for reasons i tend to try to avoid this as it draws comments. i have to doodle, rip something up or play a phone game when im sitting for long periods of time, otherwise ill start fuckin w my face.(C ) What are some of your favourite stims?you ever get some of that synthetic sand shit? fuckin cool. neatest fuckin stim toy i got.i like my scented shit, the erasers and pencils. i just think theyre fuckin neat and they do help w concentration. huff that minty scent.but #1 is probably amv watching, since it’s cheap (free) and fun, and i can get really into it. most exciting, viscerally.(D) What was your first special interest? Do you remember anything about it?oh jeez haha i was gonna say bats, and although that was a little more alienating, pokemon actually was my SI before themluckily pokemon made me friends, bats didn’t as much. only gifts i wanted for christmas had to do with pokemon. i remember the one year i was like ‘all i want for christmas is a pokedex’ and my mom lied and said santa got it to me ahead of everyone, but it was a well-intentioned lie. you inputted the pokemon’s number manually and it gave you little facts. i was super into pokemon before i could even read, kindergarten. i can remember my dad reading the episode where all the pokemon are stuck on the island together to me (which was one of my favourite episodes). he hated it. i remember relatives used to tease me when i was 6-7 by saying something like they ‘saw a pikachu’ outside and id run out. relatives still tease me about how obsessed i was w pokemon as a baby, and i cant deny, i was. actually i really only have five memories or so of my grandpa (he died when i was 8), and one of them most vividly is showing him my pokemon collection and telling him all their different names.there was a kid i visited once a year and played pokemon with back in 2000 when my uncle thought he’d try to start a ski lodge or some shit and every year we’d exchange one pokemon toy.when i was… 8? my arm went through my family’s front window. literally painless, if you’ve ever doubted what going into shock feels like. anyway i remember clearly when the ambulance showed up that my last request to my panicking mother was to ‘grab my gengar and lickitung’ (two pokemon small plushie toys id gotten from a canadian tire that i was super attached to and used to ‘fake train’ by throwing around the backyard and giving speeches to)i bought those little silly straws w pokemon attached and id rip the pokemon off them to ‘free them’.i dont talk about it a lot, but i was actually Quite An Obsessed Little Pokemon Fan haha.anyway i was into bats for awhile after that, i read the book silverwing in… what must have been grade two or three? because i vividly remember drawing a bat for my ‘science book’ cover page in gr.3 based directly off its cover. i used to go around parroting bat facts in a little ‘bat fact notebook’ i made that was a little notebook id gotten from halloween with an orange cover and little black bat on the front. gr 3 kid: ‘hey whats ur name’me in gr3: ‘hey did u know they attached bombs to bats in ww2′anyway i remember once a parent on a school trip tried to correct me spouting my bat facts by condescendingly telling me ‘bats lay -eggs-’ and i got so furious w them until the teacher had to awkwardly admit they were wrong(TBC bc im sorry, im rambling)

#replies #necromin

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Day 4-7

Tuesday, January 7, 2020 22:32

look at that. I missed more days. This is going swimmingly

Today was memen’s bday and overall it was lovely.

It was a pretty frustrating day otherwise though. I was frustrated with both my father and my older sisters.

But memen herself and her birthday was the highlight and made the day much more manageable despite everything else.

I just really hate how Donna needs to be in control of everyone’s bday. I know she means well, but sometimes she just needs to relax and let everyone else celebrate how they want to celebrate their own birthday. Also what is her problem with driving and money? She’s so stubborn it hurts. Like she is not willing to compromise even if it benefits the whole group. She will be stubborn unless it benefits her. Dividing up the check was like pulling teeth. It came down to 6 cents and she was asking how we were going to divided that. We’re already agreed that everyone is paying for what they got, splitting taxes and such, and there were still cents unaccounted for, so now she had to recalculate everything.

Daisy needs to come to terms that she lives a whole state away. She’s married and even has her own house. Why is it suddenly my fault that I forget to include her in plans when she has a whole life of her own now? Its no one’s fault. Its life. People move on. We can’t stay a pack forever. If she really wanted to be there for memen’s bday then she would come here herself. I shouldnt have to tell her anything, thats not my responsibility. She lives 4 hours away. I asked her this past weekend when she was going to be back and she said not until this coming weekend. Did she forget it was her sister’s bday in between those days. I assumed nothing. I asked when she will be back. I wasnt going to tell her to leave her home and come here when she was planning on being back this weekend. I understand that she’s not the happiest down there, so why did she get married and moved there if she’s not happy? She said she wasnt working or doing anything anyway so why didn’t she make a point to come here on her own? Did she have to wait for me to tell her of a plan? Maybe she could’ve made plans herself. Would she only want to come up if there was a plan? We always have plans for our birthdays. This is why I’m so frustrated. We have always had a plan for the day of the birthday and weekends prior and after the day of the birthday. There’s usually at least 2 plans. She didn’t have to wait for anyone to tell her anything.

Then theres my dad. I was at home, trying to fix myself something to eat, and he comes storming down the stairs asking me about my letter from Probation and all hell broke lose once I tried to reassure him that I was going to talk to my probation officer soon, I have already talked to her, I have receipts of payments, she has receipts of payments and he still was angry!

The lack of communication between my parents and I, my older sisters and I, are getting really old. Im getting so frustrated lately.

Actually communicating with people have been frustrating. I remember why i didnt talk to people or asked anyone of anything in the first place. I really feel like most people can rant to me and explain to me and complain to me about anything and everything. Then I start to do it and I just feel dismissed. I feel that way about Sara too.

I know I cant expect everyone to be as approachable and understanding. But I just feel like they’re not even making an effort to be. I just feel like almost everyone is staying stagnant while I’m trying to change for myself. I dont want people to change for me, but I know that they have the ability to become better versions of themselves and I can’t understand why they are not reaching for those opportunities.

Complacency, Control, codependency.....

The past few days have been great though. Stephen hit me up today. I usually hit him up and he called me and asked me if I can blaze and my heart melted.

I feel like i need to trade a good relationship romantically with a frustrating relationship with my family. I can never have both. It cant ever be perfect like that. That everything just falls to place and becomes less stressful. I know its me too. I let them get on my nerves. But I used to not do that and I became the person I am. Anxious, depressed, self-doubting, self-harming, suicidal. Now im actually trying to know and understand my worth. But i feel like everyone has pretty much confirmed all my fears and the reasons why I want to kill myself. They do think i am a burden. They do think that i somehow have ill intent by not inviting them to memen, francis and I’s plans. They do think I cause problems. My dad thinks im disrespectful. I can’t expect to change them but they expect me to change for them. I can’t expect them to treat me differently but the want me to treat them a certain way. It’s a double standard. All the reasons that makes me anxious are real. All the reasons that made me depressed are real. Others expect me to make an effort but I can’t expect others to make an effort the same way. I need to accept others for the way they are, but I can’t expect others to accept me the way I am.

So what do I do. I’m gonna not care how things affect others just like they obviously dont care how certain things affect me. They’re not responsible for my emotions and I am not responsible for theirs. All I can do is explain and defend myself. And yes it is worth it everytime. I dont care if it cause more of a problem. They’ve said their piece and im not just going to shut up anymore and not say mine. I have as much of a right of defending myself as anyone else. I have a right to speak my mind and for others to listen to what I have to say. I listen to what others say and by golly, they will hear me too.

Anyway, Stephen and I had a great day yesterday. I had a good brunch with Allie and Sara. I had a good time with memen and francis at spizzico and the point today....Overally, life is good and I cant complain. I just need to rant sometimes so I dont keep all this is my heart. Maybe I can understand them better too. I am honestly more concerned. Thats where the anxiety comes from. I don’t know. The more I interact with my older sisters, the more I like having the space between. They’ve just been different. I thought they’d be the same as they were when they were my age. I thought when I turned into my 20s I’d be hanging out with them, and they’d be proud of me. But recently they’ve just been more judgmental. It feels a little hypocritical of them. I hoped that I could be more open to them and now i just want to close my self from them. I was hoping they’d be more sympathetic. But I just feel like a burden. I just feel like I’m leeching off others. Feeding from their energies and finances.

Except for memen and francis, right now, I have very little to live for. I dont really mean that anymore. I wanna live for me. They just bring me down when they see me getting up and I’m a little proud of myself for that.

Nah, somedays I just reeally want to kill myself to spite everyone. Honestly, fuck you guys. You know I can’t make it on my own out here and yet you still kick me out. You know I can’t make it out there and you still tell me I can’t stay long enough because I’m suicidal. You know I can’t make it on my own in the world right now and yet you make me feel worried about living here and expect me to call you friend. You know I’m having a hard time trying to wrap my head around everything and you dismiss what I have to say, then lecture me of your own philosophy as if it was truer than my own without even giving me a chance to speak my mind completely.

I’m just done with being dismissed. with not being heard. I’m done with others having strong opinions and once I express my strong opinions it gets only negative responses. I just want to express myself and have someone like me to be understanding on the other side just like others can express themselves in front of me and I have nothing but respect.

I just want to be validated. I just want to be heard. I just want someone to sympathize, to see me as I am. They dont need to accept me, they dont need to like me, but I just want to be seen as a person who can have her own opinions and her own morality too. I just want to be seen. I just want people to stop looking at me as if I’m translucent. I want people to see my genuine self and go about their day. I’m not a bad person.

I just want someone to tell me, you’re doing your best.

I’m doing my best.

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