#bc they REFUSE to just figure their shit out like normal people

[gazspookiebear]

Ghost hcs mostly him having autism

Has compression socks and gloves bc they help keep him regulated, but he HATES tight clothing anywhere else. He strictly wears loose and baggy clothing, like oversized hoodies

Hates flavored water unless it's tea. Green tea? Sure. Any kind of sparkling water? Nuh uh

Likes mud and rain puddles. Don't ask me why

Can't stand the smell of coffee in the morning, it overwhelms him. He can and will leave the room if someone just made coffee

Doesn't like hugs, or really just being touched in general. (Mostly due to trauma, but the autism isn't helping either)

That being said, when he does get hugged, he prefers it to be firm. Heavy knuckles running up and down his back is the quickest way to make him melt in your arms. Soap is the only one allowed to do this, but Price and Gaz will very occasionally be offered one of those awkward one-armed half hugs if they need one.

He masks most of the time (literally and figuratively) so it's not very obvious that he's autistic from first glance. If he's comfortable with the people around him, or if he's alone, he might stim

He does jazz hands as a stim, and can occasionally be found tiptoe walking

He also knocks his knuckles together and rasps them on desks. He likes the noise.

He prefers rough or smooth textures over soft/fluffy ones. Denim, mesh, leather, linen, and polyester are the only fabric types he'll be comfortable in.

He keeps his hair buzzed, not just because he's in the military, but because he pulls on it and ends up tearing it out of his head when he gets sensory overload from it touching his face (me too bro, me too)

He listens to metal songs on max volume when he's sensory seeking (you can hear that shit through his headphones)

He doesn't like having things in his ears, so he prefers headphones over earbuds. He won't complain if he has to use earbuds though.

Surprisingly enough, he can't stand weighted blankets. Unless that weighted blanket is Soap 😏

He gets aggressive when he's excited, so he'll often go to the gym to blow off some steam. Rookies see him going to town on a punching bag and assume he's pissed, but really he just doesn't know how else to express his feelings.

He hyperfixated on komodo dragons for a while (he now has several random facts in his arsenal)

His special interest is weapons. Any kind, he just thinks they're interesting. Especially crossbows. (He knows just about every weapon under the sun, ask him literally anything)

He steals Soap's phone to play neko atsume (he has become emotionally attached to the cats, but you didn't hear me say that)

He prefers to sleep with blankets under him instead of on top because it makes his skin crawl if they're not the right texture.

He's always cold but radiates heat like a motherfucker, definitely has an electric blanket at his place

He has a favorite pen that he carries everywhere, refuses to use anything else.

He eats the most random food combinations. Tomatoes with sour cream? Delicious. Avocados with cream cheese? Absolutely divine. A normal fucking sandwich? Hell no.

He struggles with hygiene but hates feeling dirty. He'll often force himself to shower even when he knows it'll drain his energy.

He has to buy a specific type of eyeblack because of the texture. He doesn't like any kind that feels too greasy. Not that it'll stop him from wearing it if that's all that's available, but he won't be happy about it.

He used to bite his hands as a kid. Hard. He has a few small scars because of it

He enjoys heavy bass. He likes low rumbling/knocking noises. He may or may not be considering buying a bass drum...

Alternates between sleeping in a hammock and a bed at his place

Loves chairs that spin, though you'd never catch him spinning 😔

Everything he says sounds sarcastic, even when he's being genuine. This has caused many people to get annoyed with him.

He tends to grind his teeth, so he chews on tree bark to keep his mouth busy

He used to climb trees as a kid because he liked the way the wind felt from up high in the leaves

He isn't a fan of the way paper feels. That being said, He loves old books. He spends most of his downtime at the library since it's quiet and peaceful, plus it gives him a way to get out of the house and busy himself.

He still wears a mask off duty for many reasons. For starters, he's never been the best at facial reactions. He thinks it's easier to just hide it altogether than to try and contort his face into the "appropriate" reaction. Secondly, he has stims and occasional tics where his mouth moves, and he doesn't want people to stare. (Snapping his mouth like a shark... so real to me) Also, he just thinks it should be common practice. He's never understood why people don't cover their mouth and nose, or at the very least cover it when they cough/sneeze.

He will actually fan the air in front of him if someone he doesn't like just walked by. He doesn't want to breathe "their air". (Graves was very confused as to why Ghost kept waving the air every time he walked by)

He wears sunglasses in public, regardless of whether or not it's sunny out. He just doesn't want to have to make eye contact with people if he doesn't have to. He can make eye contact, but he much prefers not to.

He punches his legs or the walls when overstimulated.

He has dromophobia (fear of crossing streets) and tends to speedwalk across roads

Has the biggest vocabulary known to man because he used to read dictionaries as a kid. (He can and will abuse this power when someone is annoying him)

Prefers non-fiction. That's it.

He cleans doorknobs daily. He specifically keeps a pack of wipes with him to clean doorknobs- who the fuck knows when they were cleaned last. He can't stand the idea of touching something that dozens, if not hundreds of people (who may or may not have washed their hands) have touched prior.

His favorite color is orange. He always avoids touching anything orange because he's worried he'll ruin it somehow.

He washes his hands before and after everything he does (when he can)

He has a crowbar. He keeps it beside his bed, and he's very fond of it.

He can stay completely still for concerningly long amounts of time. Useful for missions, unnerving the rest of the time. Can and will be seen in the corner of a room staring at people.

@waiting-so-long I'm so glad someone wanted to hear my nonsense lmao

#Wdym I'm projecting... no I'm not #(I am) #Half of these are just things I do #Not even gonna lie tomatoes with sour cream fucking slaps #I also think Ghost was hyper empathetic as a child #He lost that pretty quickly #Hmmm I'm gonna monch and cronch on this man #I also don't think he likes kissing #Soap doesn't mind #cod #simon ghost riley #ghost headcanons #ghost #ghost cod #simon riley #Forgive any mistakes I missed #I looked over this very quickly lol

[ech0schamber]

okay i kinda forgot to come back wkdjs. hmm, let’s go a little domestic this time. how about grocery shopping with texchou, dazai, and ranpo (and or any characters you want to add)? how would they act there?

i just want to say i can see ranpo telling you to push him around as he sits in the cart after he grabs what he wants 💀💀

why is this the only gif that i can find of him??

if i dont get his character correct, my bad. im still figuring out some of these characters :']

☆he actually had to time to go grocery shopping with you! congrats, this man works too much

☆i feel like he would be the most normal about it between the three

☆please ban him from cooking for the both of you. and don't let him go grocery shopping by himself

☆follows you around like a lost puppy, but probably does get lost at some point

☆he was probably looking at some weird shit he could put together for his liking and didn't realize you walked off

☆he'd probably try sneaking some monstrosity food into your cart, so maybe keep an eye on him

☆he seems like a menace, so small chance he might cause a scene if you don't let him get his monstrosity

☆FUCKING MENACE TO ALL OF MAN KIND

☆unless you put one of those baby backpacks with a lease on it, he will not stay by you at all.

☆he will immediately walk off either 1) grab as much crab as he can or 2) find some monstrosity to try

☆honestly, leave his ass at home. you will only come back with maybe half the stuff you wanted to get because you were constantly having to make sure he doesn't run off

☆oh? you're not going to let him get that much crab? mans will throw a tantrum. (he has canonically thrown temper tantrums to get what he wanted.)

☆BUT

☆you go grocery shopping while he's eepy? his staying glued to your side. honestly, he's probably hugging you from behind while you drag him through the store

☆he'll complain to hell and back, but at least you get the groceries you need

☆honestly, you're right

☆the second you grab a shopping cart, he is throwing himself into it. refuses to get out until you're done shopping

☆i hope you have the patient of a saint bc oh boy

☆will loudly complain about what you are getting, but not because he doesn't like the food/ingredients you get. he just wants attention.

☆will grab random things of candy off of shelves. put them back. he needs to eat some healthy food, and he has plenty of candy hidden around your apartment

☆not as much as a menace, surprisingly. won't actively try to cause a scene, but the people around you can definitely hear him complain the whole time

☆if he's an eepy guy tho? he's koala-ing you. you will have to walk around with a grown man clinging to the front of you like a toddler.

☆no matter what, you're gonna get stared at, hope you don't have social anxiety!

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you can tell who i love the most out of this group lmao

and again, sorry if tecchou isn't in character, my autistic ass has a hard time understanding characters sometimes

#bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #dazai x reader #ranpo x reader #tecchou x reader

[serpenndragon]

Ok hear me out on this idea qsmp skephaloers I'm talking to you

I've had this fic idea for YEARS. like. actual years since the dsmp days and I'm obsessed

Ok so. I am in awe I havent really seen content of this idea at all but the TLDR is that one day the CCs wake up as their characters, on the island, eggs (which are baby dragons) and all And I don't just mean "woah omg the qsmp is real we're our characters" I mean like. Shock. Body Horror. Parental responsibilities put on these people they never expected to have, forms features and instincts they have to get used to. Phil, Quackity, Baghera, Jaiden? Hva eto get used to having feathers and other birdisms, but they have the easiest out of all the members who werent just mostly humanoid, Bad, Bagi, and Foolish for example? Have newly aqquired teeth claws strange anatomy and all sorts of other wackadoodle stuff O_o

This fic would be verrrrryyy skephalo centric, Skeppy is at his motel with Jr and eventually Puffy, that must have been a shocker lmao

I've actually sketched out a lot for this idea (specifically Bad's pov waking up and a bit of Skeppy's pov) hold on

blurgg as you can see very roug but hopefully it makes sense kinda ??? maybe ????

More ideas for this I rambled about:

I feel like bad and the other islanders would be working on stuff/trying to figure shit out while Puffy and Skeppy (and jr) were all trying to find if anyone else they knew was around Bad would claim he somehow "felt" Skeppy was somewhere (which is his demon soulbond he has with Skeppy, it's not just a normal feeling cough cough) and Skeppy would be convinced Bad HAD to be around also because Jr and Puffy were there, they were their characters, the fictional kid he had with Bad was with him so he just had to be Quackity and the other admins would ofc not be the gatekeeping overlords of the island and actively work to figure shit out, including using the train system and seeing if anyone else they knew was around I have an idea that they'd send people out from the island, (like maybe group members who havent met skeppy before) who find Skeppy/jr/puffy, and realize who they are Bad would have stayed on the island because of his protectiveness over the eggs (thanks demon instincts) and couldnt leave them, and they figured he'd be the best bet to keep them safe anyways, + he was losing hope that his "feeling" that skeppy was around was real and just delusion that is UNTIL the other islanders come back with a new few people ermmm shocked teary reunion when

Aaaaaand I actually sketches this out too woah (this is one I wanna clean up for SURE bc omg

ANYWAYSSS you gotta get on board with this one I'm sooo so normal abt it

aughh more ideas:

- the other islanders dont know what skeppy and bad's deal is LOL half of them think theyre boyfriends (and for drama purposes, in this they are not officially yet but by god are they obvious) - Bad semi flipping the FUDGE out because his demon features are a LOT to get used to and he has instincts he has to repress and just lots of silly stuff. like why is he so pissed Skeppy's taking food from somebody else? Why does he feel like Dapper and the other eggs need to stay close to him at all times/ride on his back? Instead of his regular nervous bbh sounds he makes inhuman garbles and growls which is new, not to menation the mountainload of other things like his anatomy and going from a warm to cold blooded creature LOL his eyesight is also different and he's sensitive to light - Skeppy and Bad have like. actual children now which is a huge fucking deal hello??? They gotta navigate and talk that shit out because jr is like a 5 year old and Dapper + the other eggs while still being the admins are baby dragons O_o They went through crazy changes as well, being a baby animal comes with having baby behavior despite their intelligence - Besides ALL THAT after being overjoyed with seeing eachother again, Skep and Bad have like a little argument over Bad refusing to see skeppy as frequently as he promised to which Bad is like "are u rlly worried about that right now look around you" ermmm a little beef there but they figure it out dw

- hmmm idea what if everyone realizes that the code entity is not an admin, and is a real thing tryuing to kill them maybe (?) omg maybe - Skeppy gets to meet all teh babies!!! I have a feeling he'd get along with the eggs great but also maybe have a small rivalry with a few of them?? lol in a silly way - Islanders find more about themselves and the things they can do yay! Like ppl with wings learn to fly, ppl learn their weapons, magic users start to learn magic and they all decided to learn asl for the eggs - lotssss of angst these motherfuckers are still so confused and miss their regular lives despite the incredible and odd situation theyre in - islanders are still confused on what skeppy and bad's deal is like. they have kids they live together and dont leave eachother's sides prettymuch and go to eachother for comfort primarily - Bad and Skeppy disregard remarks and questions about their relationship THIS IS THEM CENTRIC ALWAYS N FOREVER… - skephalo need to have "the talk", bad needs to face his insecurities and skeppy needs to face his sexuality crisis

silly dads with their silly kids (real) this sketch is kinda old but I wanna clean it up sometime maybe and it fits with this idea very much WRITERS HIII If someone with qsmp knowledge is interested in maybe collabing with me to bring this idea to life please do hmu

IM GOING TO EXPLODE SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME U GET ME WITH THIS ONE aughh also I want to yap about this so bad

PLEASE ask any questions u have, my response box is open and you're welcome to in the comments to!! Or dms idc

AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!! am I crazy or no

If you've read this far you are a real one anyways live laugh love skephalo

#skephalo #badboyhalo #skeppy #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #someone please hear me out I am insane over this #I will be SO fudging down to collab with a writer to make this real #skephalo save me #save me skephalo

[flare-the-freak]

Made a fix it JJK au bc sillies! So here's some random silly things :3

I post more goofy stuff on my friend's and I's JJK server! I'll drop the invite below ;)

The only reason this somehow happens is because Toji gets paid MORE by Gojo, so he gets a salary by Gojo and ends up more in an uncle position with Megumi and Tsumaki! More in depth is Gojo helps Toji get back on his feet, and actually chooses to yoink Megumi and Tsumaki so they doesn't get stuck with the Zen'in

Suguru DOESN'T defect, but still hates non sorcerers, and sometimes rants to Gojo about how he wishes he could just- implode them! Non-sorcerers tend to avoid Suguru since he sometimes talks about this in public

Curses are actually integrated into society! There's two "types" of curses that you can encounter. The Normal curses we know (Animalistic, runs on fear as fuel, extremely dangerous and tend to kill a ton of people) or "Humanoid" curses, IE Jogo, Hanami, Mahito, etc! Non-sorcerers can see both breeds, however usually only interact with Humanoids!

Yuji, Sukuna, Choso, and Kenjaku (in Ms. Itadori's (does she have a name?) body) all live together. Kenjaku never gets in possession of Geto's body (since he doesn't die) and Sukuna is an elder brother to Yuji, but younger to Choso. Same abilities but toned down

Sukuna is a third year at Jujutsu Tech

Choso is in college, studying the fine arts

Kenjaku is a single mom. She's not the greatest in this, but damn it he's trying! (and genderfluid)

Gojo and Geto teach at JJK tech. Gojo even got Toji a job there!

Rainbow comes back! No one realized curses can reform and keep it's memories, or it's just a special case..but she's back! She found Gojo once when he was on a mission, she very clearly wasn't tethered to Geto anymore, but still clung to Gojo like a giant cat. She shrank herself down to the size of a big dog and followed him home

Gojo and Geto now have Rainbow in their house, Megumi was so mad (Curses don't need to eat though, thankfully. She keeps shredding his bed with her nails though.)

Speaking of Megumi, him and Sukuna have known each other awhile, and Sukuna tries to wing man him AND Yuji (He hates watching them pathetically flirt. It makes him so mad)

Sukuna came home with face tattoos (inspired by a JJK art piece I saw will tag once I find!) after being dared by his friends to get them while drunk. Kenjaku grounded him for 3 months. Anytime someone asks, now Sukuna says it's part of his cursed technique.

oh whoops! dropped some ocs in there! shout out to @notagremlim

for their sona Grem who I've traumatized beyond repair using Toji! GREMJI BRAINROT TIME! <3

Grem and Toji were married, until Toji got involved with some dumb shit and divorced his husband as Toji didn't want them involved. Grem was...not happy when Toji came back. Refused to talk to him for like- 3 months. Toji was like a pathetic cat, and Gojo was not great advice considering bro was a teen dad and still traumatized from getting mauled!

Speaking of getting mauled, Itadori meets Megumi through Sukuna, who had to come pack for a trip and Megumi (against his will) is forced to come with! Gojo wanted Megumi to have experience on the battlefield against the "feral curses" (Geto isn't happy.) And Itadori...man bro is GONE. Even Kenjaku is raising a brow. Megumi summoned the divine dogs to take care of some curses terrorizing some little kids, and Yuji is like "Oh shit! He's handsome and is a dog person?" Sukuna decides to take Yuji with, who then figures out his cursed technique is....well throwing hands. Pretty much canon stuff there but without Sukuna's abilities and the fingers.

Curses are extremely abundant, with humanoid ones actually helping to exorcise the feral ones. Mahito is a bit of a menace though and Jogo and Hanami are just there to keep him in check

Gojo sometimes works overtime to make sure Geto has time off in case he noticed Geto spiraling

(Suguru has to bring this up when Gojo was gone for a week, came home, and immediately collapsed all six eyes out. And yes. He has a legit six eyes here, it's just he hides it with cursed energy! But when he's super excited about something or REALLY tired they pop out, or if he just- is relaxing at home.)

Server join below ;)

#jjk #jjk au #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen au #jjk rambles #satosugu #itafushi #kenjaku is an okay mom #everyone lives au! #jjk oc #jjk anime #jjk manga #jjk rp #jujutsu kaisen oc #oc x canon #toji x oc #gojo x geto #suguru x satoru #flare's rambles #sukuna is an older brother #yuji is whipped for megumi #megumi x itadori #fluff #toothrotting fluff #will be adding more later :3

[bingbongsupremacy]

Masquerade

Pairing: Ellie Williams x Reader

Warnings: Homophobia and abuse. Lowkey wrote this bc some ppl in my family are pretty homophobic and I figured I'd try to write out how I feel and all that shit. Anyways, that's why this is how it is.

Summary: Reader runs into a stranger who makes the boring dance she's forced to attend slightly more tolerable.

* Not Proof Read * TLOU Masterlist

Idfk how royal shit works so that part of this might be bad. Just play along.

*****

I look around at the happy girls twirling around me. How the fuck are they so enthusiastic about being here? These shoes are killing me. This mask is itching my face. My clothes are irritating me. I want to go home.

I danced with one man already, can't that be enough to please my mother?

I can feel her frustrated gaze on the side of my face. All she wants is for me to marry a nice man. A nice rich man.

What she doesn't understand-what she refuses to understand, is that she'll never get that. No matter how many times I tell her, she seems to think one day the right man will come along and change my mind.

" I take it you're not a dancer? " A voice asks from my side.

" Quite the opposite. I like dancing. It's the people I hate. The parties. The drama. My mother. " I nod slightly in the direction of my mother. She's thankfully been roped into a conversation with another socialite. At least she's distracted.

" Parties are...draining. " The woman agrees.

I glance over at her, my posture quickly straightening. Even with the dark lacey mask that takes over majority of her face, I know exactly who it is. Her elegant dark blue suit is a stark contrast in outfit choices from many of the other guests, most opting for black or white.

" Princess Ellie. " I mutter while taking a deep curtsy. " I had no idea. I'm so sorry. "

Of course, only I'd be luck enough to shit talk a royal dance to the person who helped throw it.

" Oh please. Stand up. " Princess Ellie's voice is laced with annoyance.

Confused, I look up at the woman.

" It wasn't my idea for this stupid party. Sarah's been wanting to throw one for weeks. Of course I got roped into helping her. " Princess Ellie doesn't move from her spot against the wall. She takes a sip from her drink, eyeing me up.

I shift, slightly uncomfortable.

" You're welcome to lean back against the wall. " She nods to my previously taken spot. A glimmer of playfulness shines in her eyes. " I don't bite, I promise. "

Carefully, I take my spot back to the princess. " If you don't like parties, why did you come? " I ask curiously.

Princess Ellie shrugs, her shoulders brushing against mine. " Had nothing better to do. Figured I might as well find some pretty girls to talk to . " She grins slightly.

A feel a warm rush climb up my cheeks.

Of course I knew Princess Ellie was gay. Everyone and their mother knows. It caused quite the controversy when she was first caught making out with her now ex-girlfriend in front of thousands of people at her 17th birthday party.

I thought it was nice. I didn't feel so...alone. It was nice to feel normal, like my feelings were okay.

My mother didn't think so. She refuses to attend anything with Princess Ellie, insisting it'll 'ruin' me further.

" What's your name, pretty girl? " Princess Ellie asks, turning her body towards mine. She leans against her arm, cocking her head to the side. Her warm green eyes stare into mine, sending a hoard of butterflies tumbling through my chest.

" Y/N. " I manage to reply. " Y/N of Weston. "

" Well, Y/N of Weston, I'd love to take you- " Princess Ellie is interrupted.

" Y/N! " My mother shrieks. She roughly grabs my hand, pulling my away from the princess. She quickly curtsies and mumbles a polite 'your highness' before turning to me. " Apologies, Your highness but we have to go. "

" But mother-" I being to protest, trying to pull away. The tightness of her grip sends pain through my wrist. " Fuck, mom! " I yelp. I can already feel the bruise forming. My mother doesn't let up.

" Y/N no. " My mother's eyes are fierce, an anger I've never seen before flashing through them.

" Lessen your grip! " Princess Ellie orders, her voice laced with concern. " You're hurting them! "

The loud music has died down. All attention has turned to us. My mother, now clearly embarrassed from the situation, pulls me more urgently.

" What is going on here? " A voice asks. All chatter around the room quiets down.

The king.

My mother's eyes widen. " You're majesty! I'm so sorry. My daughter...she's not listening. You know, children. My husband...he's fallen ill. I'm merely trying to get her home. Our page just sent news. He's had a stroke. Forgive me for disturbing your dance. "

My heart drops. " What? "

My mother doesn't look at me. " Your father has had a stroke. "

Fear runs through my body. No! He can't be ill. He was doing just fine earlier. What happened?

King Joel scans over my expression, trying to decide what to do. " You may go. But release your daughter. "

My mother nods, letting go of my wrist. " Thank you, Your Majesty. Thank you. Come now, Y/N. We must go. "

I glance up at Ellie. Her face displays concern and disbelief. She quickly turns to her father, whispering something into his ear. He brushes it off, shaking his head.

My mother and I curtsy and quickly turn to leave. I numbly follow in her footsteps.

This doesn't make sense? How did the page get here so fast? Our home is hours away from the palace. How was he able to get here so quickly?

Once we're down the long row of stairs, my mother grabs onto my arm. " You know better than to fraternize with the princess. " She hisses, pushing me into our carriage.

Confusion fills my body. " What? We were just talking. "

My mother glares at me. " You don't talk to women like her. You know this, Y/N. "

A pit begins building in my stomach. " Dad didn't have a stroke, did he. "

My mother's gaze doesn't faulter. " No. You are no longer allowed to go to parties at the palace. If you can't find a suitor for yourself, I guess I'll have to take matters into my own hands. I'll be picking a suitor for you. I already have the perfect boy. You're to be married in 2 months. "

My heart drops. " Mother, no! "

" I tried, Y/N. I really did. " She shakes her head. " I tried to let you grow out of this faze. To let you find a good man. You leave me no choice. You'll learn to love him just as I learned to love your father. "

" Please mother, you can't do this. " My voice is filled with desperation. I don't want to get married to a stranger. All I did was talk to Princess Ellie! " Please. "

My mother doesn't crack. " You'll thank me later. "

#ellie williams x reader #fanfiction #fanfic #ellie the last of us #ellie williams x you #ellie x you #ellie williams #ellie williams tlou #ellie williams x female reader #ellie tlou #ellie williams drabble #ellie williams fanfic #ellie williams fanfiction #ellie williams x y/n #ellie x fem reader #ellie x reader #ellie x y/n

[aprillikesthings]

help I can't shut up

but

looking at my own posts about She-Ra and thinking about how difficult it was for Nate Stevenson to get permission for them to actually kiss; how they'd written two endings depending on whether they got approval to do it

thinking about how Rebecca Sugar was so stressed out by the process of getting approval for the Ruby/Sapphire wedding that she was disassociating through the entirety of San Diego Comic-Con one year

but also

thinking about how godawfully homophobic my dad was when I was a teenager

and even earlier than that, like 1991, when I was eleven, not even knowing what homosexuality was, and my social studies teacher brought it up as a "controversial topic" for a bunch of 7th graders on an overseas US military base to discuss

and how I knew, even then I knew, after that. too many things made sense suddenly, but also I still liked boys? so maybe not? but also I just refused to think about it or acknowledge it for another four years, since everyone in my class was so obviously, openly disgusted--

and how I don't understand why people care. I don't. I can't and I never will. I don't understand how something that can feel so completely fucking normal to me can be such a big deal to someone else.

my day-to-day life is mostly boring. I kiss Daci before I go to work--if they're on the phone (bc working) I kiss their forehead. If they go on break while I'm making my breakfast we hug and they complain about their job. We sometimes argue about dumb shit. We snuggle while watching tiktoks on their phone.

and every now and then while doing all my normal boring life I think: there are people right now who hate us for this???

and there are people who think those cartoons shouldn't exist and that they will destroy their children somehow???

if those cartoons had existed when I was six, my life would be different. I could've figured out and admitted things to myself so much sooner. I would've known what my feelings were, and that there were people who thought it was okay. because it is okay!!!

like, I just keep coming back to the thought I had in that 7th grade class, to the thought I had when my dad went on homophobic rants: why the fuck do you care? what impact can this possibly have on your life? why do you give a shit what other people are doing when it doesn't hurt you or effect you at all??

#my life #my posts #people will claim it's bc of their religion #but hi I'm Christian #I go to a church with a ton of queer ppl in it #and tbqfh when it comes to bigots the bigotry came first #they just used the bible or whatever to justify it #(so many of these also apply to being polyamorous side note)

[running-with-the-feels]

okay, I know I normally don't like Raiden and will happily eviscerate him and his choices, BUT

It is so clear that he cares about the people he is trying to lead. It is clear that he loves Liu Kang like a son (even if he can't spare Kung Lao a second glance, it's clear he is still grieved by Lao's death) and he tries to empathize with people (usually manually bc he can't feel what they are feeling due, in part, to not having any mortal experiences) like he Cares So Much

But he's so arrogant and he thinks he knows best and what he doesn't know the elder gods can tell him

and he obeys the elder gods so blindly no matter how many times they fail or abandon him and its like-

If he just got off his high horse and humbled himself a bit (a lot) he'd have a lot more success in defending Earthrealm like dude! Listen to the people around you when they say you're being dumb! Sometimes they're right! Take Ideas from the people around you when you're struggling to figure shit out!

He could be so much better he just refuses to listen to anyone but himself or the gods that have long since grown apathetic to his pleas for help and guidance

#raiden mk #mortal kombat #mortal kombat x #mortal kombat 11

[moregraceful]

roope jani water and power plot ?? tell..

YAHHH OKAY SO i was reading this wip during the niners game when it was psychologically taxing in the second quarter, and thrillingly it is a) still a banger and b) at the climax. i just don't know...where to go next....because i blew up my outline...so i'm gonna talk about it and maybe i figure out an ending lol. anyway, about oh god at least a year and a half ago i ran a little in-house "you donate money to a charity of your choice and i will write you fic" and theo donated a very generous amount of money and for their generosity i have taken a million years to complete the fic.

the conceit is roope is trans and yk we do a lot of handwaving in this universe, but he is as stealth as I could reasonably pull off, and the whole fic is his like...journey of accepting that his life is not one thing or another, it's both.

in the fic, his queer self and his hockey self are very segmented, and he never lets like his queer friends mix with his hockey life and only two people (miro and sebastian) in his hockey world know that he's trans and it's NOT bc he told them. local man is not out and proud. (again. so much handwaving. everyone who reads this fic will need to engage in extreme acts of suspension of disbelief.) ANYWAY so he's like Totally Handling It Well ofc like it's soooo normal that you're getting thrown around by mean bisexual butches in the offseason to get your needs met roope don't even worry about it. but then jani comes to the team and he blows the door wide the fuck open. because he's so into roope and so OBVIOUSLY AND PUBLICLY into roope and roope chafes against it bc he thinks he's not allowed to be queer and a hockey player!! how can jani just be open like that!!! (which i worry a lot that i'm putting north american expectations of being closeted on a finnish player lol but it's not like the nhl is a shining example of inclusitivity and diversity so even if i have a horribly american read on it, it's still the nhl and the nhl still sucks. so.) and ofc he does eventually go on his little journey of like...starting to allow himself to feel gay feelings about jani BUT critically, it takes him a severe moment of recognition of the self through [player redacted for spoilers] before he can even conceive about moving forward into ANY kind of non-platonic relationship with jani as a queertrans hockey player.

the whole thing is very like...i hesitate to call it self-loathing, bc it's not that he hates himself, but that he thinks he can't have both selves in one space, that his hockey self can't also hold his queer self. and it takes a) jani (cis gay) and b) more importantly a fellow queertrans player to say, look, you don't have to be in pride parades, you don't have to write a players tribune article, you don't have to tell anyone in a big group discussion, but you HAVE to exist comfortably in your body in the spaces you belong in, the spaces you know you own, hockey, queer, anything. you cannot hold two parts of yourself, you have to marry them. and you have to know that by being yk roope mfing hintz, you're welcome in this locker room, both because of and despite your queerness. (also bc miro WILL refuse to pass the puck if people don't get on board.) like you don't have to do shit about coming out but you DO have to know that these spaces, though they may be quiet and sometimes unkind, still have people who will hold you bc there are people who ARE like you.

and even though i started writing this pre-duchene and have simply refused to acknowledge any change in the timeline (GURY AND KIVI ARE STILL IN IT 😭), it is still designed to be a very hopeful fic. i'm like 10k in. the end is in sight. can i finish it before the end of february. perhaps

anyway here is a snippet i think i have shared before but hopefully it's been long enough that no one remembers also i have possibly edited it since then. also pls know that in this fic roope speaks almost exclusively in nature metaphors bc i am at all times wrestling with how roope expresses himself in human language.

None of his teammates in Finland, including the national team, knew except Sepe, because he was Roope’s best friend. He hadn’t even wanted to tell Sepe, to be honest, but Sepe was too smart to hide things from and knew Roope too well. It happened one night when they’d been sitting in their shared hotel room in Helsinki after a regional practice. They were 14 and 15. Their stomachs were full of McDonalds and they were laughing on Sepe’s bed as they looked up American swear words and ran them through Google translate to find out what they meant. Sepe typed carefully in Finnish on Roope’s phone, Roope, I know you’re transgender. He ran it through Google translate to translate to English like it was a game, and handed the phone to Roope. Roope felt sick when he read it, limbs frozen. He wanted to run, then hide, then quit hockey forever and ever and go home to Tampere and go to school to learn about construction or farming. No one was supposed to ever know. No one was supposed to ever find out. It would break everything in his hockey life that he’d been working towards, everything he’d wanted since the first time he’d hit a puck into a net, if anyone knew. But Sepe wrapped both arms around Roope before he could run. He rested his chin on Roope’s shoulder. “It’s okay,” he said quietly. “I just wanted to tell you I know. I won’t tell anyone. You can count on me.” Roope still felt like throwing up. “How? How do I know?” Sepe hugged him tight. Roope collapsed against him, too afraid of the future to do anything other than take the affection Sepe offered him. “I would kill anyone who would make your life worse,” he said. “I would give up being drafted to the NHL to keep you safe.” “No, you wouldn’t,” said Roope. He wasn’t sure if he was breathing too much or not enough. “You wouldn’t give up the NHL for me.” Sepe hugged him so tightly Roope felt it in his chest, under his binder. “Yes, I would,” he said. “I would do anything for you. You’re my favorite friend.” They sat for a long time together until Roope’s breathing was normal. “I would push all the snow off the ice on every lake for you,” said Roope finally. “I would make your blades sharp so they sing.” Sepe laughed. “Yeah,” he said. “I know.”

#also critically there's a whole sequel #me and beryl came up with. where. mirojrob sex bets. but i'm not allowed to write it until i finish this one #also my phone reset and i lost the text messages that we plotted it out in but. know that it is there. happening #unfortunate birdcage fanfictions #fresno oilers.txt

[sparxwrites]

The Asshole-Of-The-Internet AU

sparx god. dsmp has internet and comms are iPhones and tommy gets banned from dsmp Twitter so he has to anonpost on dsmp 4chan

hoodie RKJGHRKGHKJGHERHGJHRHGH TOMMY ON 4CHAN OH NO

sparx …………oh no now I have “what if asshole-end-of-the-internet dsmp au” 4chan kiwifarms whatever else

hoodie they try to radicalize him but it doesnt work bc he literally is in exile

sparx SCREAMING okay but au where dream runs 4chan. Wilbur stars as null who fucks up 4chan and then makes kiwifarms when he gets run off the site. tommy is the normie they’re both desperately trying to recruit. Schlatt runs rise of kings or whatever tf the pick-up artist site is called

hoodie OH MY GOD YES

sparx this is perhaps the worst thing ever I have had in my head and I do not say that lightly

hoodie its SO fucking funny tho tommy in the reddit dms with wilbur who is trying so so hard to get him to join his site but tommy just keeps asking how many bitches wilbur gets from kiwifarms and wilbur has to say 'niki left me bc i made the site'

sparx SFAHDJFKGKGLSGSHDKGHRKRL niki left Wilbur and went to found ovarit which i think is like. the radfem site heghghgh

hoodieRJKHRJGHGH wilbur radicalised niki

sparx his dick was so shit it radicalised niki………….. George on 4chan but he just fuckinf sucks at being nasty and keeps messaging dream like “there r people being racist on here :/“

hoodie george on 4chan telling ppl to stop saying slurs

sparx YEAH YEAH u see my vision

hoodie george: idk this is kind of mean :/  dream, typing out smth incredibly evil: its just the internet it doesnt matter

sparx dream has to pretend occasionally he has morals for the sake of the bussy which he still has yet to get him and quackity are moots on some incel website

hoodie hes in it for the long game RJHGH quackity is on an incel website bc sapnap and karl left him

sparx he watches Schlatt��s webinars on negging

hoodie REJGHRJHHG quackity: takes notes so he can use it to win back sapnap quackity is literally the only gay person in a sea of pathetic straight men who are threats to society

sparx diversity win! this homosexual is a pathetic man who’s a threat to society <3 techno bc he is a chad only has a Snapchat that he uses to post gym thirst trap gains pics

hoodie RGJHJGRHGH sapnap is also a chad who only has snapchat he and techno have each other added so they can compare gains quackity hate screenshots all of their posts and jerks off to them in the private of his sad sad studio apartment

sparx HRGHRJGJGKD YES Karl makes Twitter threads so long u gotta use that unroll app for them and refuses to add image descriptions tho george keeps begging him

hoodie RHGERJHGHG why is george the most moral person in this au im crying hes just a normal guy trying to do the right thing

sparx Tubbo runs a parody account of a major political figure, except he’s actually very smart and has a lot of good ideas and the political figure is very stupid and so a) many people think tubbo’s account is actually the real one and news outlets regularly report his tweets as tho they’re fact, and b) he realises slowly that the guy he’s parodying is actually copying his ideas

hoodie ERJGHEGHERJGHKJERHGJGHERJHGJHGERJGHJGHRJGHRGH THATS....OH MY GOD wait what if the political figure is like Eret or smth

sparx Tommy: tubbo they banned me from 4chan :(  Tubbo, typing under his “@scrotus” account: wait a second Tommy I’m trying to influence international trade policy with China

hoodie KJERGHEKJGHJRGHGHRJGRHJGH clingyduo in this au goes so fucking hard also dream violating the rules of his own site to ban tommy is SO funny tommy has to go back to reddit

sparx I do also love the exile implication that it’s possible to get banned from 4chan YEAH

hoodie dream just wants tommy's cringe ass off of 4chan tubbo should honestly be banned from twitter but at this point everyone is convinced hes really eret and eret's actual account gets banned for impersonating a public figure

sparx hrbrhfhfr YEAH eret does not attempt to get unbanned bc at this point he desperately needs tubbo to keep his ratings up

hoodie tubbo is really the only thing keeping the public opinion of him up tubbo is the last bastion of hope for his reelection tommy literally is barely aware of all of this hes too wrapped up in whatever tf is happening with wilbur and dream ranboo has a tumblr

sparx ranboo has a tumblr and has no idea tf is going on out there

hoodie eryn used to have a prank youtube but he went too far and got permabanned JHRGHRJHG ranboo is safe....

sparx he's busy reblogging fanart of the founders of 4chan and kiwifarms kissing

hoodie KJRFHEJKGHJGHRJGH dream considers doxxing ranboo for this crime bc ranboo is the one drawing that fanart

sparx YES YES YES

hoodie wilbur on the other hand turns the fanart into his mousepad and sends pictures of it to dream

sparx tommy: ranboo why are you drawing rpf of my brother  ranboo: wait these are real people  ranboo: ............................wait your brother founded kiwifarms?????

hoodie tommy: yeah  ranboo: ......................tommy im sorry but this has to go in your callout post  tommy: youre making a callout post about me?  ranboo: i have one in my drafts just in case : ( sorry : ( i have one for all of my mutuals

sparx aLJSDKJFHERJGKHERKJGEFKJGHE OFC HE DOES

hoodie this is all said by a guy who has been drawing fanart of kiwifarms founder kissing 4chan founder....hypocrite

sparx the joke’s on ranboo, tubbo has files on all his friends with their addresses phone numbers known aliases known associates family members birthdays social security numbers and photos of the outside of their house

hoodie TJGHERHJGHJERHGHRGHJGEGHHGG tubbo is prepared to drop these if any of them ever cross him even wilbur wont fuck with tubbo and wilbur also has the full doxes on everyone...expect for dream this is part of why dream is wilbur's arch enemy sorry this is the best au of all time

sparx this is a absolutely the best au of all time wilbur is obsessed with getting dream's dox

hoodie wilbur: tommy im not going to help you do your homework, im trying to dox dream

sparx he's like. tommy. tommy i gotta get dream's dox. there's only ONE way to do this.  tommy: stalk hi-  wilbur: seduce him  tommy: ...............aight i'm out

hoodie RKJHGJHH tommy: have fun you fucking freak wilbur: oh i will, i will : ) tommy:

sparx tubbo, absently, scrolling twitter: do you want me to make homosexual sex illegal? i could probably do that  ranboo: my fanfic is coming true?!  tommy: ..................................what the fuck is wrong with both of you

hoodie tommy: why is everyone i know a wrongun??????  ranboo: im not a wrongun...am i?  tommy: you draw fucking art of my brother making out with dream ofc youre a wrongun!!!! tubbo: im going to outlaw rollerskates

sparx DSKJFSHHKGJ tubbo's just casually running a country

hoodie tubbo is basically the president at this point shockingly a positive thing when we compare it to dsmp canon that was not so positive for tubbo karl makes a thread about how tubbo isnt actually the real president but tubbo just responds saying 'yeah im a parody account' and literally no one believes him

sparx everyone's like, oh, our eret, so witty! so funny! look how down and hip with the kids he is

hoodie RGJGHRJGH

hoodie also im watching a schlatt video rn and honestly schlatt needs to be in this au more i think he should be the third person trying and failing to radicalise tommy

sparx OKAY BUT THIS AU IMPLIES SCHLATT MANAGES TO LIKE. TAKE KIWIFARMS FROM WILBUR front page news that's like "I'M THE EMPEROR NOW BITCH"

hoodie HE SHOULD ERKJGHJRHGHGHG he fucking stages a coup

sparx jannies lockout

hoodie RJKGRJGHGH wilbur is literally flipping things in the other room HIS GLORIOUS SITE....HIS KIWIFARMS.... his unfinished symphony

sparx UNFINISHED SYMPHONY OF KIWIFARMS

hoodie JRHGH schlatt perma bans wilbur and tommy's accounts and also doxxes wilbur then hes like 'if i find out any of the users here are female im banning them too' this is how wilbur and niki eventually end up teaming up bc he convinces her that schlatt is the true evil

sparx HOWLING HE WOULD

hoodie 'this is a manly site for men ONLY'

sparx niki: wilbur i will work with you if you publicly record a video saying ur dick is tiny and ur head game sucks  wilbur: ........... :( ok

hoodie wilbur: anything to get my site back.............

sparx ranboo: so that new video from wilbur..... uhh. anyone else think it was kinda....... 😳 tommy: ranboo. my brother. i am going to kill you.

hoodie tommy: ranboo you have one last chance to apologize or i will end your life right here and now  ranboo: sorry for being gay 😔 tommy: not sorry enough!!!!!!

sparx SORRY FOR BEING GAY im gonna shit

hoodie RJGHGGHGH ranboo is sorry for being gay for your brother, tommy

sparx hmmmm who have we forgotten in this au

hoodie hmmmmm tina fundy fundy is a scorned kiwifarms mod who thought he was wilbur's fav

sparx JSHDFKJDFHG fundy: i was your SON wilbur  wilbur: fundy. you're 19. i am 21.  fundy: your SON

hoodie fundy: you ABANDONED ME  wilbur: i was literally kicked off of my own site

sparx fundy: i'm gonna kill myself now  wilbur: lmao. -wait NO DON'T

hoodie TJKGHRGHRGJH wilbur: wait bro are you joking?  wilbur three days later: i think he actually did it  fundy, not dead: taught him a lesson lol

sparx skdjfjsdkjghdfkjghdfkj

hoodie this au is a blessing

sparx it's Something!!!!

#dsmp tag #asshole internet au #here you go you pack of fucking reprobates #enjoy!!!!! #i guess!!!!!

[johannestevans]

i was reading your post abt asab at the doctor and my brain tried to go into solution mode as it is wont to do, but i realized like. there is no solution. at least not one that isn't a complete overhaul of the medical system, including research fields.

i've been on t for a year as of tomorrow, and a few months in i noticed my adhd medication stopped working. it got so bad that when i would take it, i would have to fight to keep myself awake. i couldn't figure out what was going on and my doctor just said 'just keep taking it and maybe it'll level out.' several months later, i still felt like absolute shit when i took it to the point where i felt better when i didn't take it. i asked to up the dose but she said it would be 'too much of a shock to my system.' i eventually just stopped taking it because even though i barely function without it, i didn't function at all with it on that dose. i talked to a friend last week who is also on t and he said 'oh yeah your dose is too low. your metabolism can change on t, so it's likely you need to up your dose.' so like not only was this a situation where if i was a cis man my concerns likely would have been addressed immediately, but it was a failure of my doctor to actually understand how trans bodies on hrt work and what they need. so how exactly would having "afab" on my chart have helped??? bc there is no difference in initial dosage between male and female patients, the starting dose is usually 30mg across the board (my doc had me on 30mg initially then lowered my dose to 20mg after i lost access to it for a month??????), the thing that affected me wasn't my fucking vagina or ovaries, it was a change in my endocrine system!!!

and i feel like this heavy reliance on asab makes doctors lazy. they don't do regular blood tests, they don't test your metabolism, your hormone levels, they just assume based on the f or m what your levels should be, or they see that you're fat so they assume you have high bp, cholesterol, blood sugar, etc. (cannot tell you how many times i've had nurses take my bp numerous times bc they refused to believe it was average, and i still keep getting hounded abt my blood sugar and cholesterol despite the fact that every single test has come up normal.) like i don't think any doctor has ever even bothered giving me blood tests until i started t, they just assumed from the f on my chart and my body size. i remember getting put on metformin when i was young with no blood tests simply because i was fat, and i still have kidney issues because of it.

anyway sorry for ranting in your inbox, that was kind of all over the place, but your post just really struck a chord and reminded me how much i hate the medical system.

YEAH EXACTLY. I'm so sorry, it's just like... ARGH.

Like especially the weight problems and like... Doctors desperately want to go based off of people's ASAB and what their weight is and not what's normal for them! Same for racial assumptions, especially assumptions doctors will make about Black people and anyone who's dark-skinned and/or has natural hair.

Plus disability! Addiction! Mental health issues! They'll just make assumptions based off any other aspect of their identity - any excuse to dodge talking to the patient and treating them like they're a human being, or acting like as a doctor they're a human being rather than a god and commander.

Like, all these specific metrics rather than what the actual patient's experiences are, and what they're saying. A lot of medical professionals just think the world will end if they actually talk to and listen to one of their patients, and it's infuriating!

#musings #anonymous

[c0rv]

do u have anything to share with the people about playing genshin with me everything is normal to me idk what bothers everyone

you have like 12 recipes and ur food inventory is abysmal

ur exploration in most areas is 20% or less, and even in mond i think ur highest is 60%? for an area

you have not done any reputation things at all except for when i was on your account and desperate for mora so i did them for you

you have the red exclamation things on every icon bc theres things the game wants you to check so bad you refuse to

you dont usually do your daily commissions

you refuse to read the game tutorials

you have like 20 quests in ur journal and id be impressed its even that low if not for the fact u could go to any city in game and theres so many npcs wanting to start shit

you have yet to do any hangouts

ur only world level 4

you havent even unlocked the camera gadget so i had to watch u try and take pictures inside a domain but bc u couldnt open the menu without leaving u just ended up taking screenshots with the ui and everything

ur teapot is still empty and u wonder why kaeya is getting companion exp so slowly

you didnt know u could craft higher level mob drops at the alchemy stand, you dont know what condensed resin is

you thought there were 20 floors in the spiral abyss

you only recently attempted the spiral abyss after over 2 years playing bc u thought the first 9 floors scaled higher if u leveled up higher

you didnt know about the graphics settings in the menu

you didnt know what the motion blur was

when i watch u fight enemies u dont keep ur camera on the enemies and seem to be shocked when u get surprised by them

you only recently started using healing food after i asked u to

you have like 3 5 star artifacts total

you were leveling an artifact and it kept going to def and i told u to stop and u didnt anyways cuz u dont know what the def stat means

you thought that 4 stars r limited only to the limited banners they appear on

you also thought u could only get diluc from the standard banner

you dont know what the crown of insight is

when in the windblume event shop u were looking at the mailed flower refinement materials and i had to beg u to buy them cuz u thought they were useless

to add onto the previous thing u didnt even know you could refine weapons until like. last week

when u were screensharing windblume and starting the rhythm game thing i told u u could change note speed cuz i know u prefer faster notes but u didnt open the menu and didnt figure out u could do it until several days later

ur werent gonna do the photo aspect of windblume bc u had to do a quest where u talk to a guy one time

when bubbles and u and i were gonna fight azhdaha u instead walked to the geovishap

u will open the domains for talent level up materials and ask me what they r for

u will ask me what u even need the talent level up stuff for and when i have u open the characters talents theyre all level 1

u still havent maxed out any statues of the seven, not even in mond or liyue so u dont have max stamina

u unlocked fishing in an attempt to get the catch for raiden but u still havent even bought the recipes for anything but the default bait

u only have the default namecard and 1 other namecard u got through achievements

when i was screensharing u were asking me what the sigils in my inventory were (the ones u use for a ton of shit in enkanomiya)

didnt realize until yesterday that the 5 stars have orange backgrounds

u were playing yaoyao and kept doing her burst and immediately switching off so it did nothing

i was watching u count ur wish history and i explictly said ur at 80 pity so a ten pull away from a 5 star and a week later u seemingly forgot and wished and were surprised to get a 5 star

u usually dont get the wishes in paimons bargains that reset every month unless i remind u

u thought u didnt get anything from the battlepass unless u paid for it

theres the whole boat thing where u. didnt know boats were in the game. so u just didnt unlock any waverider waypoints. u were icebridging to all the islands in inazuma

tbh im shocked u even finished the tcg tutorial

u thought if u gave characters healing artifacts they would just be able to heal even if thats not in their skill sets

u started the spiral abyss on accident with 2 characters in ur party

thats just what i thought of at the top of my head im sure ill remember more later ^_^ ur welcome taye. i didnt even bring up how u beg me to switch to childe so u can look at his balls

#asks #haganaz

[gemsofthegalaxy]

PLEASE talk more about tomgreg in prison together i literally love this au 🙏🙏 or if you/anyone else has fic recs of this au...😳😳 but im simply desperate to hear what other thoughts you have about it bc all your posts are spot on so far

So far I've only read one tomgreg prison fic and it was a smutty one-shot called Orange is The New Greg, I did enjoy it. I have written also a fic where tom and greg fuck under the guise of Greg preparing for prison but that's only tangentially related and is not close to the vibe i'm thinking of if they actually did go to prison together,

especially because it would split off before season 4 I think I'd play with that more season 3 characterization but I would definitely keep the aspect where,

Tom, I think, would find it hard to ingratiate himself to the right people, because he'd be too transparent- the very cursory glance i did at "white collar prisons" and prison consultant stuff said "in a low security prison camp it's a mistake to think they're all white-collar it's definitely not like that, there are people from a range of walks of life" and that you're not supposed to suck up to the Correctional Officers but to the other prisoners. Tom would be too polite to the COs because authority figures and then they'd like him, and Greg would just be like "Dude you were specifically told" and Tom would be like "shut the fuck up"

i think Greg would be 500X better at getting in with other prisoners because he remembers normal life and can be very non-threatening on purpose and unintentionally whereas Tom would probably be too formal and just wonky and weird with people because he's so uncomfortable. Greg would have to be the one pulling for him all the time and that would be supremely funny and bruise Tom's ego for a while until he's like actually screw it i'll be sporus and you protect me this is fucking fine (that would take a while to get to that point)

Tom also can't risk beating Greg's ass into the ground because he knows he wouldn't survive solitary confinement for more than five minutes and Greg also knows this so would probably be more than happy to continue to annoy the shit out of him whenever he wants.

Tom complains incessantly about the prison food and Greg thinks it is "really not so bad Tom honestly" and then talks about how he's happily lived on Mr. Noodles for years anyway so, you know. but then Greg is still the one to get them in with the prisoners who barter, grow, and cook some of their own, better, food.

insofar as their sexual relationship, I do think they would start up fooling around early and it would be one of Tom's only solaces in this blasted place.

and that Greg would be the one to be like "Should we try to trade for, like... lotion and uh condoms.. and stuff" (angling to get fucked, obvi) and Tom is like "absolutely not people can't know we're fucking?" and Greg is like "literally why not?? are you seriously ashamed of this? half he people here are fucking, what the fuck" and Tom is like "more because it's illegal for us to be having sex??" and Greg is like "what?" and Tom is like "did you even listen when you were outlined what behaviours we forbidden from exhibiting?" and Greg is like "there are a lot of rules, okay, dont judge me. but like. seriously even if it's consensual? it's illegal?" and tom is like "YES because they wouldn't be able to tell if I'd coerced you" and Greg is like "okay but why would- by default- why would it be you coercing me" and Tom gives him a wicked look and calls says "Because you're the twink" which Greg also argues and says "I think I would know better if I'm a twink or not seeing as I'm..." and tom is like "What. Gay?" and Greg is like "UH?! clearly!?! ive sucked your dick every night the past week" and Tom is like "And i have yours, but I'm not gay" and Greg goes over to his bed and refuses to speak to Tom for the rest of the night and Tom thinks he should be happy with that outcome because he complains every single day that Greg won't shut up, but he really isn't.

#succession #my writing #my fic #tomgreg #man i might actually try and write this one >_> im supposed to be taking a break #long post

[jordemme-draws]

Ok so I saw @flower-seller wanted to hear more about Wander and that really made the desire to be normal about shit and the desire to Infodump about my blorbos go to war with each other so here's this: infodumping but with illustrations. Under a cut bc longgg. The pictures make it longer but just text feels wrong.

(Wander's actual name is Haruko btw, Wander was his codename and also kind of an apt nickname)

Haru learned Alphian Celestican written language from a very young age due to constantly playing in the ruins of Alph unsupervised. The unown were his friends and he spent hours exploring and generally entertaining himself during his time at Violet City Group Home.

This lasted until age 7 when he was adopted, which he was very excited about. What child doesn't want a loving family? His friends were very sad to see him go, but they knew this was important for him.

But not everyone who adopts a kid does it for good reasons. Standing out for being different puts a target on you for different reasons, and some people refuse to believe that children are autonomous little people with their own desires. Haru's first memories were at Celebi's shrine and between that and the Ruins of Alph he very quickly developed an interest in Johto's myths and legends.

Mori, Ayumu was a strict man in his late thirties, and he saw Haruko as more of a pet project than a son. Someone to mold to his own designs, and he had little patience for frivolities like folktales and myths. He collected shiny Pokemon as well as even rarer color mutations (albinism, melanism, piebald), but his crown jewel was a shiny liepard named Kronos.

The 'proper boys haircut' that was forced on Wander was the first of plenty of situations that gave him a serious aversion to touch.

But abuse has a habit of being revealed sooner or later and after three years Haru was returned to the VCGH. He was a lot more withdrawn for a while, and then a series of altercations began.

Bullying has always been a thing children do but it ramped up for Haru when he was adopted and then later returned, and a switch flipped in his brain, leading to a serious aggressive streak. These occurrences only grew more often as he got older and reached the age range that's generally considered hardest to get adopted in. The caretakers at VCGH decided the best course of action would be to transfer him to the Group Home in Olivine City at age 13, three years after he was returned.

He stayed at OCGH for almost two years, but the month before his 15th birthday he ran, which he'd been preparing to do for months. His goal was to get to goldenrod, and figure the rest out then.

Ironically despite having no trainer ID or anything, he does catch a venonat at the national park on the way.

Blueberry is his precious baby, a Tinted Lens + Modest nature venonat that grew attached to him after he fed it. He technically didn't have a PokeBall for her for like two weeks, but it's Johto and people walk with their pokemon out all the time.

Goldenrod is a big city that's easy to get lost in, and even when you stand out like Wander does, nobody is going to bat an eye at another 'trainer' hanging around the underground. Money is hard to come by especially when you aren't a legal trainer, and being functionally homeless for several months made Team Rocket's offer of food, a place to stay, and payment pretty enticing.

His first impression of Lyric was someone aggressively friendly, and pushy. But they very quickly became ride or die together, and they consider each other the sibling they never had. Lyric was honestly the first person Wander honestly gave a damn about, since he felt a pretty strong disconnect with other people.

During the raid on Rocket Headquarters, Wander and Lyric got the younger kids roped into team rocket shit out, but had the misfortune of getting caught on a stairwell by Petrel, and lance caught up to them.

Lance, a person that canonically ordered his Dragonite to use hyperbeam on a human being. Petrel sent out his pokemon, Lance's Dragonite used hyperbeam, and it batted aside the pokemon and kept going.

Wander shoved Lyric out of the line of fire, and it connected and went past his shoulder.

Wander is a person that understands that while pokemon are dangerous, it's their trainers that make things deadly. There's a reason his policy is "if you have a problem with a person, solve it with your own damn hands."

He was slapped with a gag order in return for a lighter sentence and was dragged off to Sinnoh, which set things in motion all the way to his being dragged to Hisui.

#pokemon legends oc #mpsmp #wander went down but he got up swinging and broke Lance's nose before he was detained #this exact personal code is the only thing that has protected Kamado and later Beni and Volo from Wander's pokemon #if Giratina had actually killed Wander #Volo would not have much time to regret it before Wanders team tears him apart #violence cw #abuse cw

[gortash]

spare Zarali facts please? 👀 anything about her or/and her past maybe?

ok so a lot of this isn't 100% set in stone because i Do Not Know Shit about forgotten realms lore but whatever she's my baby i do what i want

she’s from the caldwell family of baldur’s gate; not from the main patriar branch but i imagine her dad is the brother or cousin of the lord

she was born from a pact between her father and a devil in service of mephistopheles as her mother couldn’t conceive a child of her own. her father made up a story about how he found a poor little abandoned baby on the streets of the lower city that he took in out of the goodness of his heart (i’m still trying to figure out what exactly the pact entailed but i imagine her dad is pretty fucked... probably spending an eternity in cania when he dies)

her dad held out hope for a long time that she’d grow into a normal human girl but…. nope. the horns and tail started growing pretty quick. her mother tried to file the horns down but they kept coming back

her mom never found out about the pact but she didn’t fully trust her husbands story; she probably figured he had slept with a tiefling girl or something. either way, she shunned zarali wholly, letting her know she wasn’t the daughter she wanted and that she would never be good enough for her. zarali got to stay with them because her dad felt bad but she was never treated as one of them

as she grew up and realized how different she was from the others, she began to seek out other tieflings, most of whom lived in the lower city. she tried to find a place with them, but even there she didn't belong - they found out she came from the upper city and they pushed her out. she's been forced to be on her own from an incredibly young age and now it's how she guarantees her own continued survival. being alone is the only way she knows how to be

her dad... tries to be good to her, hiring the best tutors he can in order to give her an upbringing and education worthy of a noble because she's still his daughter, but even so he's also kinda like

(dunno what he expected when having a kid with a devil but ya know)

as she grows older zarali just starts shutting herself off from the world bc the world doesn't want her anyway; she spends her teenage years in her father's library, reading everything she can get her hands on, eager to learn anything about everything. it's how she meets her patron - she finds a weird old book, summons an eldritch being and is like Yo what's up can you teach me cool stuff? (and of course her dad kept a bunch of secret old books, it's how he figured out his own pact)

her patron doesn't give two shits about her and zarali probably doesn't care much about it either tbh. i doubt it even knows she exists, but hey. she gets eldritch blast out of it. pew pew

she's smart as fuck and incredibly persuasive. she's great at lying (laughs in 20+ deception bonus in-game) and at blackmailing people. i mean, really, when your family just kinda ignores you and lets you do whatever, what else are you gonna do but sneak around the upper city and listen in on what the other nobles are doing?

before the events of the game, she mainly works with eldritch research and does some enchanting on the side. i'm thinking she either worked for sorcerous sundries or for helsik at the devil's fee but i'm not 100% sure yet

she is, more or less, held together by her plethora of trust issues. she likes to think she's alive because she refuses to trust anyone. let's just ignore the fact that this makes her incredibly lonely and emotionally stunted

she has fairly loose morals and mainly just does whatever she has to in order to survive. it's hard for her to care about others because she's been forced to only think of herself as the only important one. she doesn't kill randomly or for fun, though, or at least so she tells herself. she knows she doesn't always need to kill in order to solve problems, and she would often rather solve situations peacefully, but if she has to kill someone, she doesn't necessarily feel bad about it. it's just... part of life

she has a soft spot for kids and animals. she helps the tiefling kids in the grove without a second thought, and without wanting any reward. she downplays her intentions and acts like the whole thing is one big annoyance to her, a few snide remarks here and there because she's a bitch, but she still helps them because she knows what it's like to have no one at your side (it's like... she prefers being on her own, it's all she knows, but she also knows it's a shitty fate that's easily preventable and she doesn't want these kids turning out like her, you know?)

#terendelev #asks #ch: zarali #i wrote half of this waiting in line at the pharmacy #bg3 spoilers #(some mention of in-game quests) #woe word vomit be upon ye

[xamaxenta]

the note I added to a plot document for arc 6, featuring feral bastard sabo who cannot articulate his feels and slightly suicidal marco:

Interlude chapter during the period where they’re figuring shit out: Sabo, extremely pissed at Marco about Marco’s self-sacrificial and self-martyring shit, makes a comment about how “normally when I have a problem as stubborn as you, I’m able to just beat it’s face in until it stops moving but I don’t even get that satisfaction with you!” “You could if you weren’t a coward.” which results in a fight where an enraged Sabo bashes Marco’s skull in with a pipe. Stunned and terrified of himself, Sabo watches Marco’s head burst into flames before he gets up and “feel better now?” “No, you fucking asshole, I feel worse actually!” and they end up hugging it out. Ace, watching from the window, just shakes his head. Followed up by all three cuddling sabo in the middle in bed and Marco apologizing for making Sabo do that, and sabo trying to express that marco didn’t make him do shit. It goes nowhere until ace tells them to just shut up they’ll sort it out in the morning. Might result in a second fight where sabo shoots marco through the eye (because I love the look of marco’s flaming eye) (instead of blood and viscera, it’s just flames and feathers, marco’s awakened fruit refusing to submit to death, marco staggered back briefly by the impact then leaning forward again with his burning eye and the back of his head erupting in flames and feathers. Marco blinks away the fire). Sabo breaks down, sobbing about Marco being too forgiving, how he shouldn’t tolerate this kind of treatment from someone he loves, etc. Marco hugs him through it and tells sabo it’s okay and to talk to ace. Later, ace explains that sabo loving marco too doesn’t diminish what they have together (and, in fact, probably just expands it because why wouldn’t they share everything anyway? Marco’s down for it, even if they have to beat some sense into him first about giving up his place for sabo instead of just letting sabo in the same way he’s let ace in)

This makes me WUWUEUE so hard like youre right this deranged feral sabo is thee best and i really cant wait to see how you will write him bc this is super emotional and everyone’s realllyyy keyed up

I loooove how Sabo would react like hair trigger almost and instantly regret what he’s done, feel sick to his stomach as Marco revives, easily imagining him with a sickly complexion and a pinched expression like why would you fucking say shit like that

And Sabo gets to be in the middle!!! To feel Ace and Marco like , talk about the most complicated emotional sandwich, i enjoy the concept of Marco and sabo facing each other and bickering in circles and Ace headbutts Sabo from behind like fucks sake shut the fuck up both of you please and they do bc Ace needs rest 🥹

Sabo for that second fight essentially unwillingly? Using marco as an emotional punching bag is SO GOURMET as is the always fantastic flaming eye aesthetic Marco often gets depicted with its sexy even tho the content and reason for this flaming eye isnt so sexy hah

And that last bit where where

Giving up his space place by Aces side so Sabo can take it is legit thee delicacy that is MAS its not about Marco letting Sabo take his place its about letting him in its not about favourites or replacements or replacing people Ace cares about or people Sabo or Marco care about its about opening up the love they share aaaa AA

#bye im gonna ruminate… ponder… #sniff sniff i love them sooo much weepes #MAS #GOD i love your brain

[dykelawlight]

hello!! could i ask your top 5 books and/or movies?

ABSOLUTELY and I'm happy to do both of these tbqh. EDIT: SHOULD NOT HAVE SAID THAT BC THIS GOT VERY LONG SORRY. I'm literally putting it under a cut

BOOKS

This one takes its ceremonial place at the top because of how completely batshit it made me for years: Les liaisons dangereuses by Pierre Choderlos de Laclos (and its 1988 film adaptation starring Glenn Close and John Malkovich). Like nothing compares 2 U babe. Eighteenth-century French aristocrats play sexual games with the lives of the people around them. They are so evil and so fucked and so completely incapable of ever achieving happiness because of how tied what they think happiness is is to the misery of others.

[[[VERY VERY LOUDLY]]] Our Wives Under the Sea by Julia Armfield!!!!!!!!!! Oooohhhh it haunts me so bad. Fucked-up came-back-wrong lesbian romance about two wives, told through alternating-perspective chapters, one of whom returns from an accidentally long-extended submarine mission at her job doing marine biology for a mysterious bureaucracy. Most importantly this is a tragic portrait of a marriage and its dissolution. First book to make me put my hand over my mouth irl in easily 10 years.

The Only Good Indians by Stephen Graham Jones, an Indigenous horror that ends up being about Indigenous womanhood, even though its initial principal characters are men. Four Blackfoot friends go on an illegal hunt in territory reserved for elders and kill a pregnant deer, promising to atone for the killing by using every part of her body. Meat rots in a freezer somewhere. The Elk-Head Woman shows up. Features the most thrilling game of life-or-death basketball ever played.

In the Dream House by Carmen Maria Machado. Makes me literally go crazy. Everyone's heard of this one by now but it's a prismatic prose-poetic series of pictures turned over and over and over through different forms of criticism and media tropes of the author's abusive relationship with another woman. Everyone liked Her Body and Other Parties and that was great but this is somehow better.

Chouette by Claire Oshetsky, in which a woman called Tiny by her husband's family has an affair with an owl-woman under cover of dusk and gives birth to an owl-baby who will never be quite "right." Husband becomes hooked on chasing dangerous, abusive forms of "therapy" to make the child "normal." Very straight-up allegory for raising an autistic child as a parent who refuses to subject them to medical abuse in the pursuit of neurotypicality. Cheered and stomped my feet at the end.

(Honorable mentions here: The Immortal King Rao by Vauhini Vara [very scary and timely], The School for Good Mothers by Jessamine Chan [extremely relevant to my line of work], Deathless by Catherynne M. Valente [thought this was the most erotic book ever written in human history when I was 17]).

MOVIES (in no particular order)

House (1977): the jangled, nightmarish logic of this movie is so perfect, the visuals are perfect, it's just the right cocktail of zany and actually frightening. It also has so much to say about like, so much shit, and I refuse to be the guy who's like "following my post of yesterday about how this work of Japanese horror is about nuclear warfare, please see my new post about how THIS work of Japanese horror is about nuclear warfare" but like. It is. As dreamed up through the mind of the director's preteen daughter.

The Watermelon Woman (1996): incredibly richly layered work about a Black lesbian living in 90s Philadelphia (a fictionalized version of the director) who becomes obsessed with seeking out and making a movie about the history of a 1930s "mammy" actress she believes may have been a lesbian. It is 100% fictional but is so extraordinarily detailed and convincing and weaves such a believable life for the figure the protagonist is chasing. DOES contain a Camille Paglia jumpscare. (See also Cheryl Dunyé's earlier film Go Fish (1994), a lighthearted lesbian romance featuring an extremely sexy nailcutting-as-foreplay scene.)

Portrait of a Lady on Fire (2019): so, so beautiful and pierced me straight through. I like old French shit and lesbians and I loved the images of the movie and the world it put me in. SUE MEEEEE

Velvet Goldmine (1998): I have done some downright unseemly shit immediately after watching this movie is what I'll say about it. Horny supernatural glam-rock romance "loosely" based on David Bowie & Iggy Pop as cultural figures featuring gay people as the bearers of a magical spirit of art passed down through generations. Again. UNSEEMLY. SHIT.

Heavenly Creatures (1994): [chanting] LESBIAN MATRICIDE MOVIE LESBIAN MATRICIDE MOVIE LESBIAN MATRICIDE MOVIE. Dreamy, hallucinogenic take on a true-crime flick about that fucked-up homoerotic folie à deux friendship you had when you were 15.

(MORE honorable mentions bc this was so hard: Persona (1966), Gone Girl (2014), Only Lovers Left Alive (2013), Bound (1996)).

#I feel stupid listing so many recent releases as Favorite Books tbh but I guess the first one is literally from 1782 so #I'm just thinking about like...shit that truly made me feel besotted and insane