#bitter about the past

[cod-dump]

*at a Chimera safe house*

Price: Nik, we’re back! Sorry it took us so long- … Nik…

Nik, sitting on a suspiciously large trunk: Yes~?

Price: What… have you been up to?

Nik: Eh, cleaning up

Price: Right… so-

Graves, walking in: The fuck is with the trunk?

Nik: Oh! The trunk? My ex rudely forced himself inside the safe house to try to have a conversation with me! So I knocked him over the head and put him in here until one of my men can come pick him up and dump him somewhere far away from here

Price, slowly taking out his gun: your ex-?

Graves, also getting his gun out: I know of only one ex-

Nik: Oh, put those away! I handled it!

Makarov, from inside the trunk: NIKOLAI

Nik: Oh, look, he’s awake. Mustn’t have hit him hard enough

Graves: What the fuck-

#literally no one but price and graves know about nik’s past with makarov #maybe laswell knows #bitter past au #call of duty #cod mwii #modern warfare ii #john price #cod nikolai #phillip graves #incorrect quotes #pricegravesnik #nikpricegraves #nikolai x makarov

[jtl-fics]

Fluent Freshman - Part 15

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The thing is… FF is aware that he should probably be medicated. You might be saying well isn’t he taking his ulcer medication? The answer is yes he is and when he is getting close to missing a dose Nicky’s usually the one that texts him with six frowny face emojis asking if he took his meds (they have a system, he takes his meds and then he texts Nicky)

No, he knows that he should probably get on something for his anxiety. Betsy has offered to get started on getting him on the right cocktail, his grandma thinks it’s a good idea, and Nicky has offered to get him as much weed as he needs to chill out, he knows a guy. Andrew is probably only going to stab him and threaten him not actually hunt him for sport, in his moments of clarity he can accept and understand that.

But there is nothing in this world that he wants less than to get back on anxiety medication. The world had been grey, it muted everything in the world for him, he faded completely into the background of his own life, and he couldn’t even grieve-

He was almost thankful for his step-dad’s sudden arrival in his life and how quickly his mom forgot about him to spend every waking moment she could on him and his children and then their children. It was two years of nothing and then his mom stopped picking up and refilling his prescription because it was too much of a hassle to keep picking up every month.

“He’s not anxious, see he’s fine. He doesn’t need it anymore.”

The withdrawal and the emotions that came afterwards had been hellish. He’d collapsed into his Grandma’s arms and begged her not to call his mom. He spent an entire month of summer vacation feeling like he was going to die and when he got back he found that no one had even missed him.

He swallowed the hurt, all of his emotions felt so much stronger now that he’d lost them for two years. If he has reactions like he’d had before he knows his mom will put him back on the medication.

The town is small and everyone talks. He knows about the dog walker’s poop flinging scandal, he knows about how the butcher’s left pinky got put back on wrong when he’d cut it off, he knows that the kid down the street paid $40 for a bag of oregano that he thought was weed, he knows that lil susie is in counseling because a girl should probably not be establishing cult rituals around her barbies.

He can’t react, can’t let people know he’s dying from anxiety because his math teacher sighs when he hands over his test. Can’t let anyone know that he has to put his head between his legs and take deep breaths before he can go into the cafeteria. His only solace is that all of the foreign language teachers love him, it’s easier to accept a compliment or comment in a language his family doesn’t use.

His step family treat him like the guards outside of Buckingham. Anything for a reaction y’know? He tells himself he does not care and for the most part he doesn’t.

He signs up for Exy in middle school because he just wanted something to do and it was the sport that had the same meeting days as his grandma’s bowling league. She picks him up from practice and they get ice cream together afterwards, she’s the only thing he has since Great Gran passed not too long after he got free of the medication.

He still feels her fingers checking behind his ears on occasion, a joke now that he’s off his meds referencing when he was too zoned out to care about hygiene. He still remembers her looking at him and feeling like she was seeing more than just him, “You’re a Smith. The last one when me and my daughter go. We’ll all be with you whenever you need us.” She promises.

He thinks it’s just respectful to get her favorite scent when he needs her help. He was raised to be respectful.  Lavender still makes him think of her and he hopes his grandma left some on her grave recently.

He knew he’d have to wait to go to college. His mom is putting on the pressure now that he’s 18 saying he will have to pay rent even though Greg is older and definitely isn’t. He plays Exy and thinks about how he’ll handle his life between 18 and 25, he puts all his anxiety into the game and maybe the coach notices something.

He must have noticed something.

The Foxes don’t offer positions to kids who don’t have something going wrong for them.

Coach Wymack and Dan Wilds wouldn’t be there in his little bum fuck nowhere town in Washington if his coach hadn’t sent a tape and an explanation.

He could admit that he knew about the Foxes. He looked up to the vice captain a fair bit not just for his game but also…well the Butcher was national news. Vice Captain Neil’s story was all over the news and maybe he was just a little bit in awe of someone who could stand his ground after all of that. Watching Vice Captain Neil Josten give shit to every last reporter who gave him any shit? Inspiring.

He just didn’t think it’d be a good fit for him.

He’s not like the rest of the Foxes. Dan talks about them all in broad terms, how they’re all fighting to become something and grow beyond the unfairness that was out of their control. FF is tough to convince but he’s a pretty good defensive dealer, Dan and Coach Wymack both want him.

Dan eventually has to go because she has an interview for a coaching position out this way but Coach Wymack just hands over the rental car keys and Coach Wymack stays.

Coach Wymack stays and they keep talking. FF talks about everything and Wymack eventually just says “Well, you’re still here despite all of that aren’t you? Sounds like a fighter to me. I think you’ve got what it takes to carry that weight with some help and I can promise that you won’t have to deal with those jerks past your high school graduation. You’re not going to be the first Fox who I help out from under some asshole parents and you won’t be the last.”

So he signs a contract, he’s 18 he can do that AND buy cigarettes now (he won’t. That’s how Gran lost gramps when dad was still young but he COULD. Much like he COULD go into the town’s only sex toy shop but that would be back to his grandma faster than the cigarette purchase to be honest and he isn’t THAT interested in what’s in there.)

He finishes up school but the assistant coach is a friend of his step dad and mentions that he’s signed to the Foxes. It’s just one week between his graduation and when Coach Wymack is coming to grab him

Suddenly he exists in his house for the first time since they all moved into it after the wedding and it’s the WORST. The want things, they want promises, they want assurances, they want to pretend and act like he’s always been there.

He flees to his Grandma’s house and texts Coach Wymack asking if there’s ANY chance he can get picked up early because he doesn’t know if he’ll be able to talk if he calls the man.

Coach Wymack comes for him and shoulders him past his ‘family’ to the rental car but the panic attack he sees in the car ride to the airport when his family’s car follows them all the way to the rental drop off means that he HAS to see Betsy.

Betsy is nice. Betsy teaches him how to breathe through stuff. Betsy teaches him how to ground himself in reality. Betsy tells him that the Starbucks girl probably doesn’t hate him. Betsy suggests he get on some medication.

He said No.

He’s scared out of his MIND in Palmetto but it’s better than-

He prefers to feel things.

Betsy tells him that it shouldn’t have been like that. His mother should have taken him back and gotten his prescription adjusted until it wasn’t like that.

He still declines.

Andrew gets suspicious about him knowing Russian after that game of Never Have I Ever and Nicky keeps almost letting it spill right by him. His stomach hurts the CVS girl keeps pepto for him behind the counter.

He still declines.

He prefers to feel things.

You can’t enjoy the thrill of a 100% on a Kanji Basics midterms without the anxiety of the Oral presentation. You can’t feel the true satisfaction of getting a blender for 25% off + 50 dollars of in-store credit without the flop-sweat of the searching eyes of a woman wearing PINK branded lounge wear. You can’t keep friends if you have no ability to empathize with them even if you’re worried you’re annoying them or ‘humble bragging’.

Fear is better.

Betsy tells him if he’s ever ready then she will help him. His Gran tells him she loves him. Nicky says “Look there’s a strain called White Russian. That’d be funny right?!”and FF agrees but declines to sample it.

Right now, as Nicky smudges eyeliner under his eyes and tugs at his shirt for the 80th time, he thinks it might actually be better to feel nothing.

He’d woken up from his…nap? He might have fainted actually? But he did it on a bed and it lasted for like 4 hours? So does that count as a nap? He wants to ask but also doesn’t want to worry anyone, maybe he could ask Aaron that if a Friend faints and doesn’t wake up for four hours is that a nap or a medical emergency? Just curious.

When he had emerged from Nicky’s room Captain Neil and Andrew had herded them all into the Maserati and they’d gone out and gotten McDonald’s for a late lunch. The only comment he had gotten when he’d asked for a happy meal (his stomach could not handle anything more) was whether or not he wanted the toy.

“Yes.” He answered panicked at the sudden question.

He got his Megamind toy, accidentally shone it into Aaron’s eyes when he pushed a button. “Shit that’s bright” before he apologized and shoved it in his jacket pocket.

They hung out at the house for the rest of the day.

They watched movies, played Mario Kart (how is Captain Neil this bad when his reflexes on the court are so good?) and did some homework. Andrew seemed to actually like the brownies which is why FF probably woke up from his... still haven’t asked Aaron if it’s a nap or a medical emergency.

He has a square and even at room temperature they taste great.

When it started to get dark they all went to go get ready. FF had gone to get whatever clothes Nicky had prepared on but had found himself sat on the man’s bed (so much glitter, seriously how can one bed have so much of it?) and Nicky holding a pencil to his eye and telling HIM not to flinch.

“Gonna have all the….” Nicky pauses and adopts a look on his face that means that he’s thinking incredibly hard about something. “Wait how have we been friends for MONTHS and I have no idea how you swing?” FF is caught off guard for a few moments because it’s the first time that Nicky has verbally confirmed that they are, in fact, friends and…

Wow.

That’s so nice.

He thought it was just Nicky’s innate inability to leave something to suffer needlessly that had the upperclassmen helping him. (FF has watched Nicky go out of his way to give cats food, turn turtles back onto their stomachs, and walk into traffic to stop cars so that a duck family could make it to a pond. He just sort of figured he was the same level of pathetic)

Wait.

What.

“Wait, what?”

“How do you swing?” Nicky repeats.

FF knows what he means but doesn’t want to. “With my left hand.” He responds and hopes Nicky drops it because the long and short answer is: he doesn’t know. He has no idea.

“Ohh dirty!” Nicky makes a jacking off motion with his left hand and FF feels embarrassed sweat cover his body, “NO! Don’t ruin my work!” Nicky yells fanning him with his hands so the eyeliner doesn’t run. “You know what I mean Smithy. Swing for girls, boys, both, neither? What am I working with here?” He asks wiping at FF’s cheek.

“I don’t…know.” He admits because deflecting is OBVIOUSLY not his strong suit. Twice in a row it’s brought up weird sex stuff.

“C’mon don’t be embarrassed. Even if you’re straight you’re obviously an Ally.” Nicky smiles.

“No it’s not…” he flushes okay he is embarrassed but that’s because he REALLY doesn’t know. Like how the hell did he get to college and have ZERO idea about what he’s attracted to or if he’s just not attracted to anyone? He’d been focused on not screaming for the last decade and that hadn’t really left a lot of room to consider how anyone looked. He’s getting used to having friends and three whole group chats (he’s bad at responding to them, overwhelmed by the idea that whatever he says can be revisited and picked apart forever but still, THREE!)

“I really have no idea.” He repeats.

Nicky blinks at him. “Okay well, college can be all about figuring that out then! No worries my sweet boy, we will figure this out.” Nicky pats his cheek.

He feels a little better.

“Alright, let’s go to Eden’s!”

Oh fuck that’s right.

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#Fluent Freshman AU #Turns out I couldn't wait to write about Dan and Wymack coming out to recruit FF #So I used them as a means to talk about some other shit #And transition back to Thanksgiving Break #In the end no matter how silly he is #FF is a Fox #He's a Fox with all that implies #I'll touch more on his full past later but here's a lil taste #A lil angst as a TREAT #After all the sugar you need some bitterness #Could he really be a blorbo without it? #FF in the car on the way to Sweetie's: Hey so like random question here Aaron but what's the turn around time on fainting? #Aaron: the turn around time? #FF: Yeah like how long does it usually take for someone to wake up after they faint? #Aaron: Like 20 seconds #FF: So like four hours is abnormal #Aaron: 20 minutes is abnormal. Four hours is a medical emergency. WHY? #FF: Asking for a friend. #Aaron: That friend should be in the hospital #FF: Oh he probably will be later #I don't know if I'm gonna write them actually hanging out at Sweeties in their club outfits #I think the implied OH GOD I'M NOT DRESSED RIGHT that FF would feel is so obvious #But hey time to see who reads the tags #What flavor do you think FF would get for ice cream? #AFTG #AFTG OC #AFTG AU #AFTG Fic #FF - Pt. 15

[autisticrosewilson]

I just know that Joey has a white knuckle grip on the table Everytime he hears Dick talk about Jason. Like oh, your brother came back from the grave and you... didn't immediately try to drag him home? Oh you don't trust him and he's not allowed back in the family because he kills people who arguably deserve it? You just let Bruce deal with him? He almost launches himself over the table when Dick starts talking about Jason coming back wrong

#do you guys ever think he's bitter that the Bats got a miracle they don't even appreciate #that he spends everyday thinking of what he would say if Grant came home how he would convince him to stay #but the Bats have their boy back and they don't even care. They treat him like his unsightly monster born from blood and grave dirt #and not their brother and son that's hurting and scared and wants desperately to come home even though he knows he can't #There's a story uere somewhere about Joey using Jason as s replacement for Grant and Jason still ending up the second choice #but I've posted enough angst the past few days I'll spare you guys #dc #jason todd #dick grayson #Joey Wilson #grant wilson dc

[zappedbyzabka]

He went FULL princess with the singing birds and sparkly eyes. “Hate you? My God, I could never.”

Picture him saying this to Daniel…

#AU where they meet up again long before the Karate war and Cobra Kai show #Johnny had been working so hard to live a better life like he promised on that hill #Sid grew meaner after the tournament and Johnny was left raw from Kreese and he’s just…more demure and cracked like porcelain #The good thing is that he was able to get in touch with his emotions (Bobby was a big help-his bestie who understood everything he’s been #through and was also so desperate to be a better person. They did a lot of inner work together) #Daniel isn’t exactly bitter about the past but he thought Johnny’s ‘You’re alright larusso’ was a flicker of light in a bad person #but then Johnny shows up at his place apologizing? Getting tearful? Smiling prettily and saying he never hated him? #Should he ask him out but word it as a hang out for reconciliation? You bet #lawrusso

[chirpsythismorning]

Nah bc why do I feel like Netflix and the st writers are beefing so hard rn bc of the strike that someone from the production leaked the casting for Linda Hamilton so that the reveal on Tudum would be super anticlimactic…

I also thought Chase Stokes was sort of random for a host, but considering OBX 4 literally just started filming days ago, it’s almost like they’re rewarding those that are being most loyal to Netflix 👀

#byler #one of the most famous signs from the strike was ‘pay us or we’ll spoil succession’… #and ever since then I’ve been thinking about how threatening to leak stuff is a really badass tactic to get Netflix sweating #and then this article dropped and ppl were like ‘that’s not a trusted source’ #and yet the article said they got like top secret insider info… #from who exactly 👀 #no bc fr why didn’t anyone from st show up? #literally Noah Millie and Finn were all in Atlanta at the same time like a week ago #if filming was going to start in June #there’s a good chance at least a small portion of the cast had open availability since filming got stopped #and yet they didn’t line up nothing #either Netflix is bitter and punishing their actors #or they’re just stupid?? #would not put that past them honestly #it would be even more stupid not to realize they’re just hurting themselves tho by punishing the st crew #bc that also means punishing the fans aka your subscribers 🤨 #for legal reasons #I leaked the linda hamilton casting #the writers had nothing to do with it!!

[spectra-bear]

Somebody in my inbox isnt liking me rbing these recent posts, so, if it isnt obvious, the door is right there, feel free to block me

#bear screams in cave #i am not saying to prioritize lives lost over the other #but im faiely certain that enduring decades of genocide and wanting to make a stand against it is expected #except instead of giving the people what they deserve theyre met with more blood spilled #and taking down people of their own to ensure their rule #i dont wanna keep talking bcz i feel so bitter about all the news for the past few days

[relaxxattack]

well, a lot of women on this website have tangible experiences of living as men previously. i think it's normal for them to project transfemininity onto male characters sometimes. like i get what you're saying , people absolutely slap "she's trans" on a male character without introspection, but i think its pretty normal & reasonable for trans girls to see transfeminine experience in characters written to be men. like, trans girls dont just spawn out of nowhere midway through our transition :P

you’re so right and thank you for saying this kindly.

#i am probably just bitter from seeing my some of my fave characters tossed to the wayside so often because theyre women #but people can see characters however they please and do whatever makes them happy THATS WHAT FANDOMS ABOUT! #peace and love #also i do really like some of those headcanons i feel like ive just seen it a LOT over the past two years in a way that got grating when- #i was never seeing posts about characters written as women #but yeah like I said it is a personal thing that i deal with and not a moral thing #op

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

See idk man but the thing about anthropology was that it was originally conceived way back as a way to study non-western cultures and as an outcome of that, explain why western cultures were inherently better, it existed in large part to defend imperialism. And obviously that changed and it changed because a lot of anthropologists said this is wrong, but that was the discipline! The discipline WAS imperialist to its core. You didn't say there were the real anthropologists who didn't do that and the fake ones who did, the fake ones were real anthropologists too because the very fabric of the academic field existed for this purpose. Right? And if you called yourself an anthropologist but you disagreed with this idea you still had to understand you were in a field with its very core rooted in this idea and that idea will affect your behaviour in subtle ways you might hardly recognise (it still does today! Anthropologists of colour tend to be the ones assumed to study their "own people" while white anthropologists are sent off to study "the other" just to name one example)

So part of my struggle with wtrk is that archaeology, not exactly the same but like, the grave-robbing aspect wasn't something separate from the western concept of archaeology, it was rooted in it, it was woven into it. So the idea that Inez's parents were like no we're the real archaeologists and they're the evil fake ones, that's not how it could have worked! And Inez and her family do not seem to be addressing that in participating in this field without publically taking a stand against this approach (rather just hiding their finds) they are passively condoning it AND acting in a way shaped by it (they think they have a right to control what is done with and who sees the artefacts) without acknowledging their complicity. They can't claim that they're archaeologists and the British archaeolgists are "nothing more than grave-robbers" because they have to understand that the very discipline of archaeology comes with that unethical behaviour alongside and within it during the time period.

#wtrk liveblog #I reference anthro because that is my field currently so I know about it #and I swallow its bitter twisted past every day because if I don't there is the danger I will repeat it

[everysongineverykey]

and for my next trick i present... my Grand Tv People Freakout Extravaganza!!! *falls to the floor weeping violently*

#the owl house #toh raeda #raine whispers #eda clawthorne #i swear to god they're going to kill me. they're going to kill me. falls onfloor #you do everything you can to keep your beloved from finding out your secret thinking they will surely hate you but they end up leaving you #for doing just that #and then thirty years later they lie to you about being brainwashed and pretend not to recognize you #to keep you safe so they say #but you look into their eyes and all you see is that younger you staring back at you!!! #the one who loved them so much she forced the feathers and claws back down into her skin to keep them with her and didn't even succeed! #and you think: i thought we were past this. i thought you said i should have known better. #but when it comes down to it you both just want to keep the other safe more than anything. because maybe you still love each other #underneath the years of loneliness and bitterness. and maybe the thought of looking them in the eyes #and just saying 'i'm sorry. i was wrong. i miss you. i love you. can we try again?' #is too frightening for that prideful earnest loving yet cowardly and broken girl inside you. #and the thought of admitting you have made them change their mind is too painful for your beloved #who has resigned themself to always standing there and watching as you go and destroy yourself while cracking a joke. #anyway. heehoo funny owl show

[fluffypotatey]

ngl i really wanna see the Tripitaka vs Macky beef. i wanna see the ugly jealousy. i wanna see how pissed Macky was. I want to see him argue with Tripitaka about their idea of “what’s best for swk” they care about him but one is “i can fix him” and the other is “i can accept him” and both are right but also wrong but also—

#prob will not get a scene in lmk with just Tripitaka and a young Mac talking #it starts off with Tripitaka being all ‘why are you ding this? why steal our journey?’ #& Mac replies with something like ‘bc you stole my friend 1st’ #or ‘if you can treat him like he’s beneath you then I can do that to your precious journey as well’ bc he’s angsty and codependent like tha #so then you have the two friends of swk arguing about what is best for him. #you have the manifestation of SWK’s past and manifestation of SWK’s present/future (the monkey he could become) #‘he was fine the way he was!’ vs ‘he was on the path of destruction and you know it!’ #tbh i wanna see them have such an ugly spat bc Mac is angry & bitter & jealous #that it was bc of this monk that led to swk changing & listening to others NOT macky. not his best friend but a pacifist stranger #a stranger who was lucky enough to be on a journey and encounter swk under the mountain #listen pls i need that #lmk pls #lmk #lmk six eared macaque #lmk tripitaka

[unexpectedbrickattack]

your pepstavo is literally the best thing in the entire world ur recent post sent me to heaven….I love ur hcs for their intimacy it’s EXACTLY how i see it too!!!

i think peppino struggles extremely with intimacy to the point where he’ll just end up crying before anything can start, which gus never minds and he’s always there for him to hold him and remind him he’ll always wait for him for when he’s ready…😢😢RAGGHH ilovethememmm…..

Thank yuuuu 😭💖💖💖💖 its prob out of the blue bc 98% of all of my hcs are just rotating in my head but i think about them sooo much. Peppino is a scared but ANGRY man and hes fun to work w bc i see him as both incredibly expressive and also extremely emotionally constipated; wants intimacy, cannot understand WHY it sucks so bad when he gets invited to partake in it. He is frustrated and anxious and he has like 400 million thoughts conflicting w each other and it ends up w him being angry and pissy wo knowing WHY hes angry and pissy.

And Gus is a saint but he is also a VERY stubborn little man and is probably the only person in the world stubborn enough to tolerate this messy, messy man. He doesnt treat peppino as a fixer-up; he treats him as someone he KNOWS has hang ups about Everything. The thing is, Gus has been interested in peppino even when he was in the throes of being in his literal Lowest Point of his life; Gus was ride or die from jump and he knew he would have to have the patience to deal w peppino and his attitude.

And its kind of funny (sweet) to Gus bc now he (and rlly everyone now) gets to see what peppino looks like when hes not BEYOND stressed, and Gus sees that hes in fact soft and kind of a silly man ! He likes any and ALL displays of affection, he likes being pampered and he likes being coddled a lil and he likes existing in Gustavos space :) Hes REALLY coy and equally playful and hes a bit (alot) of a brat; it makes Gus wish he got to see Peppino when he was younger (bc peppino will show him pics from when he was young and he mentions that he used to be a BRAT w these older men lmao) like theres more to this (at first glance) grumpy man, but hes like more than happy to have the peppino he knows rn 🧡

#chattin #answered #long post #saucy #not really but wehg #pepstavo #WAMBLIN…….i care about them sm #its funny that u mention him getting frustrated bc yes thats exactly how i see him #like hes a CRYBABY and he will cry over any strong emotion and getting angry definitely fits in that category #but like i am drawing them being so BAD and its bc i like that once gus gets past that outer anxious shell #gus gets to see that oh. he is SO playful and silly… #and hes got a ton of confidence when hes like. yknow. not drowning in debt and a constant reminder of his failures #gus was really ready to be w this angry man FOREVER but hes happy to know that peppino is not actually this angry and bitter all the time

[bellaroles]

It's no wonder Dan Heng x Blade is such a fine danmei material. Hoyoverse obviously knows what they're doing. And I'm falling right into this again. (Right after Kaveh x Alhaitham)

#their beauitful past frendships and definitely something more #the 'betrayal' that is definitely more than it seems #i've never paid this close attention to this game lore before but I'm reading everything i can about them #gotta go digging AO3 for some renheng fics to read lol #honkai star rail #omg the arm bracers how could they have been more obvious than this! #renheng #not to mention how their appearance and costume were designed #and i was about to quit hks again until il dan heng banner came #i was this close to stop spending money on games lol oh no #the friends to lovers to bitter enemies plus memories erasure and some hinting at future reunion and reconciliation tropes #i can't resist those damn it!

[essektheylyss]

Also, this wasn't really relevant to my evidence but you know that post about how Nazis were (and still are) obsessed with the Roman Empire and seek to emulate an ahistorical ideal of what they view as the high point of civilization and claim a divine birthright of that legacy of empire in spite of the fact that every other Roman primary source shits on the Gauls, because they needed a framing to rally around in order to stoke furor over the hardships of post-war Germany?

That's what Ludinus feels like in pretending to be some personal inheritor of the Age of Arcanum.

#ludinus da'leth #HE'S A PATHETIC ASSHOLE OF A MAN AND THERE IS A REASON PEOPLE KEEP RELATING HIM TO THE WORST OF THE INTERNET #m utilitycaster is correct. he's just bitter that he was born in a broken world after the golden age was past. #like join the fucking club dude. plenty of us are NOT being a fascist about it. #sincerely: the 'love being born at the end of the 'fuck around' century only to have to live in the 'find out' century' generation #not putting this in the maintag cuz it's really just a stupid shitpost but it's fine to reblog cuz I am remarking it more like. #as a reminder that you can make allusions to real world shitty views in order to point out where the holes are in the propaganda #and learn to NOT GET TAKEN IN BY THE FUCKING PROPAGANDA

[skitskatdacat63]

Okay I finally have some finished drawings of them haha. I swear I have a regular art style, chibis are just easier okay!!!!

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#let it be known to the court that they are not that 'sunshine x grumpy' trope #but rather 'man who is incredibly annoying x man who is incredibly bitter' #alternatively: unstoppable force x unmoveable object #THEY ARE VERY SPECIAL TO ME!!!!! #AU so good that i draw for 8 hours straight- #my blog this past week has turned into just them! sorry not sorry!! #i guess i just really love them a lot as well bcs its brought back a type of creative drive i havent had in years? #this is why im drawing chibis so much tho!! they dont make me nearly as frustrated as my regular style #like i just sketch them on paper and its super easy to transwer to digital #and its def preparing me for a fuller sized drawing so im happy about that! #but otherwise also love them very much bcs i love writing their lore and talking about their lore and drawing their lore ;;;;;; #and the historical research is so fun!!! #okay oops anyways its 7 am and my hand hurts #vettonso #fernando alonso #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #f1 art #formula 1 art #f1 #formula 1 #catie.art. #*also very important to me that fernando *is* shorter in this au like irl but he wears heels all the time #boy king au

[spoopieere]

I noticed when Jesse texts Preston in the movie, he’s is just casually bare chested, wearing nothing except for his jacket, webcam turned on and everything.

Like what were you trying to do Jesse ? 🤨🤨

I don’t think ur boss should be bare chested when he calls you on a one-on-one Zoom meeting in a professional setting 🤨

#I am aware of my insanity #slasher #slashers #rottingcitrus #jesse cromeans #chromeskull #laid to rest #preston laid to rest #preston #crosses #please please please please please please #IM CRAZY #IM CRAZY IM- #I watched this movie 9 times teehee #PLEASE JUST HEAR ME OUT #HEAR ME AND WESLEY OUT- #Jesse trying to mess with Preston bc he knows Preston is still bitter about their past as fwbs #GRAHHH

[nightwardenminthara]

the true linkedin experience is

job thats labeled entry level but wants you to have a masters and 4 years of experience

the Military

we try to cap weekly hours at 50/week c: work weekends as needed

the worst company you can think of

#anyway i applied for another gov job involving subsidized housing #theyre hiring multiple applicants soooo i have faith ??? #but frfr scrolled past a listing from the ARMY #the ones wanting u to work 50hrs minimum are also the ones that want to see my gpa lmaooo #i...... mayhaps had a massive mental health breakdown freshman year and almost failed out of college #my grades were fine after that! but my overall gpa never recovered #bc my stupid fucking school didnt replace failed grades if u retook the class and passed #not even still bitter about it