#but androgynous people are so sexy to me lol

[soulsdivinity]

PAC: What Do You Find Romantic? ✨💜✨

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Pile 1

Lol random but I heard a Megan the Stallion lyric “money make me C**” and the first card to flip was the king of pentacles. So you enjoy being spoiled with money or a man/partner with financial stability. You also find sexiness romantic. You appreciate sensuality outside of sex. You find lips to be attractive. At times you can become hypnotized by someone’s lips, it makes them look dreamy. You find soft, tender, touches, caressing to be very sweet.

The idea of a one true love lives in your heart. It could be that you are waiting for the right person to have sex with. For you that level passion is reserved for someone you love. You find it romantic when a masculine person courts you instead of diving right into sex. You love the fantasies of being wined and dined. I think overall you find security to be romantic. Mentally, emotionally, physically, and financially.

No chaos, no drama. You love healthy compromise and wish to grow with a special someone. You want to be vulnerable, you want to be openly expressive and grow a healthy ego. You want a partner who is like your best friend. You want someone who loves you for who you are. You imagine picnics in the park, soft kissing, gently holding hands, soft sunlight. You enjoy someone making time for you and carving you into their day. You believe a little healthy competition is cute. You would like to race your lover, play basketball, be more playful. You also find site seeing and exploring to be romantic! Romance is tied to your self expression. The more open you are to giving and receiving, the healthier, stronger, and better the relationship will be in every aspect. You’re pretty well rounded! Good job pile 1! This is mindset people want to achieve! 💗

-a

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Pile 2

This pile is more about attraction. It’s like “the type of person I could fall for.” You like someone who is like yourself. They have an ambitious attitude, they are physically healthy or considered fit. Idk why I’m getting the vibe that you already like someone. This reading feels like it’s about the present or upcoming situation. You like someone who is strong but they don’t know it. You attract beautiful people or you’re attracted to soft beautiful people who have angelic faces. Maybe even a strong body and a cute face. Like Wonho from Monsta X. Like a soft beefcake, but only you get to see their tender side.

You also like someone a little dangerous, unpredictable, mysterious and maybe a bit androgynous. I feel like you’re a curious person and that means you like to think outside the box. You want someone who’s not afraid to look deeper within themselves. You like people who can help you out of your mental fog. Someone who can help you see situations, thoughts and emotions clearly. They give you a different perspective. Not 18+ read but I’m just gonna say it. You like someone who’s good in bed and has a large sexual appetite. They’re strong but have a gentle hand. You both will nurture each other. You want someone to stick up for you or help you make better decisions based on what’s best for you. You have each others backs.

Coming home to someone you love is very romantic. The perfect lover who belongs to you. Someone who is reliable, strong, innocent minded, someone who can raise your kids and turn a house into a home. You like someone who is good at managing their finances, it proves they know how to care for themselves. This way you can keep doing your own thing. I’m also seeing that you find petite or soft bodies to be graceful, youthful and heartwarming.

I think you’re interested in worship as well. Your partner worshipping you is romantic bc it completes your fantasy. You’re a “king”and you have your “queen” to rule with, to love and also serve you. It could be vise versa (queen has her king / divine masc has their divine fem ). You or this person loves to be worshipped. Kind of traditional don’t you say ? Lol 😂 careful tho, at times you just want someone to control!

Some cards were left in the box by accident so I think there’s more to you that people don’t quite understand yet.

I forgot to take a photo of your cards pile 2 !! I used Angel Tarot by Travis McHenry 😯

-a

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Pile 3

You find obsession romantic. You want someone who can’t live without you. You want someone who’s constantly in their head about you. Deadass, like you want them to be stuck on you, CLINGY. You want someone who is open to group sex or someone who has options but they choose you.

It could also be that you want a “leader of the pack”, someone who is powerful in their own right but trusts you to lead with them. You want someone loyal to you, someone you can trust, someone prideful as well. Chivalry is romantic to you. You may be attracted to gentleness as well, or a calm, mysterious, sensual vibe.

You’re attracted to the shadow side. You feel like the more concerned they are with you the more passion there is. And I’m certain you attract these types. You could also be a homewrecker… no, more like a seducer? Like a mermaid calling men to the sea to claim them or an imagined image of a woman in a hypnotic fire.

You find chaotic love romantic. You find the fear of losing someone romantic, that’s why this energy is so anxious. You kinda like having someone on their toes. You want someone crazy but also someone sane with good intentions behind their feelings. You want someone to WANT you, earn you. You want someone to think of you as royalty. You find it romantic when someone comes running back to you no matter how much you hurt them.

You also find it romantic when someone gives you everything. I think your love language is gift giving and receiving and acts of service. You want someone to worship you like a god? I’m getting a feeling of awe, like the overwhelming feeling you get when you feel divine energies. It’s unbelievable. You find it romantic when someone is jealous over you. You want someone so possessive and jealous they size up the people around you. You want someone who watches you. You like them super possessive but still gentle and subtle? Very quiet about it. You like them having a flip side. Not gonna lie tho sometimes you like when they get a bit crazy and it turns you on!

You find it romantic when someone understands your ways. You like relating to your person as well. You want to be an all powerful couple. You find it romantic when someone surrenders to you even though they are top dog. They will always come back for you, they can’t stay away from you.

-a

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[staenless]

Its really fun scrolling through the dunmeshi tag and seeing how many people had trouble telling characters genders. I didn't pay much attention to it at the time but I genuinely couldn't guess the gender of a handful of characters.

I read the manga pretty quickly in a fit of excitement when it was finished so I didn't play close attention to every conversation and things like pronouns of side characters which wasn't important to the main story just didn't even register.

A lot of people say they thought kabru was a butch woman and while I never experienced this Mickbell??? No fucking idea. No idea. Girl? Guy? Fuck if I know. I just looked it up on the wiki and Mickbell is a guy. Huh.

Also the elves. I have a lot of trouble with telling the elves genders just off the characters. They're intentionally androgynous which I think is a really cool way to do a fantasy race that is always super attractive. Like yeah these super sexy people kinda blur their genders around a bit. If you think their hot your gay lol. The most important elves are pretty easy to guess, Marcille and Mithrun, also Pattadol and Cithis are easy to guess their gender. Lycion on the technicality that he's topless but if it wasn't for that I'd be stumped. Otta? Fleki? Flamela? Even Thistle would trip me up sometimes, if he wasn't spoken about SO MUCH I'd genuinely not know.

Idk with my adhd sometimes when I read my eyes just pick up random words and Frankenstein the sentences together, which sometimes means pronouns are lost. Dungeon Meshi has extremely strong character design, and to see that used to create intentionally androgynous characters is so cool and fun. I wanna see more androgynous characters :)

#dungeon meshi

[gerrydelano]

i need to catch up on your fics but i am chin hands about trans fem gerry. i remember you talking about it before but id love to hear any new or updated thoughts :0

some of it would be spoilers for the PBR epilogue so i'm going to keep that to myself until then, but! ultimately i just was thinking about the fact that he uses she/her pronouns and enters Girl Mode in his happiest moments, his most intimate and vulnerable moments with people he trusts to love him, and what that says about his actual state of being outside of those moments. it means he's not fully happy or comfortable, there's something holding him back, which i've gathered is a fairly common feeling.

he's still got an attachment to being A Son specifically it's just rooted in his being but look me in the eyes and tell me that ever made him feel safe in his own body or head or surroundings. y'know? there's spoiler territory there with that part of the discussion though so heehee.

(not that long i just don't want everything stretching the dash where i might not be able to edit it later)

i do think she's always going to identify himself as a fag though which is also pretty common because things are more complicated than they are binary and he's always a color wheel understander. his gender is faglady but realistically her gender is also just nothing you could comprehend if you're not open to contradiction. you can't expect him to fit into neat little boxes, she just won't do it, it's not anybody else's business but his.

so. transfem gay man is probably still where he's at in general at this point in time in my writing but as time has gone on his egg has increasingly cracked lol it's just a matter of like... what's going on in his life, who she's with, how safe he feels being herself. as of right now, she saves herself for tim and tim is nothing but reverent about it and i could go ON about how her sex life goes hand in hand with her gender but i don't want to flood the dash with BDSM discussion LOL even though i have thoughts for MILES about it. i talked a bit about it in the link above iirc. it's incredibly soft and meaningful and also, crucially, sexy. but mostly it just makes her feel so incredibly safe and desired and respected and these are all things that were previously missing from her life in such a huge way, like.

look at his life. look at the life he's lived and tell me he's ever been fully happy playing the role he was put in. the expectations his mother had of him, that gertrude had of him, the way he was expected to obey and sacrifice and even hurt people at times because that's just how the world works, right.

well, he's never wanted to participate in that way of living! and he only did it as a survival mechanism because where else could he go but always come back home to mary and her dreams for him which were always just an extension of herself, he was nothing to her but an extension of herself and her wants and her beliefs and he was anything but that, even when he tried to blend in. half the time he measures his life from injury to injury. his whole life felt like nothing but punishment and for a long time he wouldn't even know what for.

it can be such a transgender narrative if you look at it. the repression that he'd have had to deal with is insane even if you look at how loud and proud he is about his sense of style (which is extremely queer in and of itself.)

and i also just do not buy transmasc gerry i'm so sorry you can absolutely have that HC if you want and i will not attack you for it but look at him. listen to him. and also remember that eric, who died when gerry was 2 years old, referred to him as his son. sorry but that to me says he's amab because He Was Un Bebe. also in what WORLD would mary be a supportive parent to a trans kid. she literally insists on calling him by his full birth name that he DOESN'T LIKE BEING CALLED; classic trans thing! he canonly has a PREFERRED name. a preferred androgynous name!

it just makes more sense to me that he's transfem. i don't believe he has a desire to be all that traditionally masculine. he literally is so gnc in canon and his whole life just reads to me as "person who did not get the chance to fully embrace themselves because everything was just too damn hard." i also enjoy depicting people transitioning later in life, because it's never too late! it's NEVER too late to embrace who you are and work out who you've wanted to be for a long time.

i think he still lives in ambiguity and grey areas and blindspots. it may not have even occurred to him that she wanted to transition until later in life anyway because life never slowed the fuck down for him enough to let himself ask the questions! but he knew he wanted his hair long. he paints his nails. he wears eyeliner and dangly jewelry and alt clothes and yeah, cis people can do that, but it's also a way to flag! a very strong way of flagging! these are all the things that felt right to him in canon and no one stays that alt into their thirties without a little bit of gender going on somewhere in the mix, be serious, y'know? g-d. i'm so invested forever in gerry's gender jfhbnkjn.

he doesn't like labels, he really doesn't. and she might not ever call herself a woman as much as a lady in particular but she likes the phrases "good girl" and "princess" in bed, she likes being seen as feminine in comparison to a partner, she has feminine preferences. she would probably use more reclaimed slurs to refer to herself than i'm comfortable just tossing around but like, a lot of people prefer those as identifiers than "man" or "woman" like i refer to myself as a fag dyke all the time and it's more affirming to me than trying to decide if i'm a trans guy or if i'm a butch dyke At All Times. gender can be complicated! i think it IS complicated for gerry at the moment with his baggage but i imagine if he were ever able to really let go of that baggage, she'd be a very different, happier person. i think she would like it to be simpler sometimes. she treats it simply even if other people might not be able to. she's really calm about all of it, and even as it changes, it just makes her confidence grow. really comes down to the people she's surrounded by and the opportunities that she manages to grab a hold of in terms of finally letting herself just be. and i just think the results of it are really gorgeous.

anyway transfem gerry truther forever

#asks #wytchcore #f slur #ronologues #more like just an infodump but yeah

[vivian-at-home]

OOTD

tldr: pushing boundaries, did some shopping for cheap chic, and thanking friends

I am really pushing boundaries lately with some androgynous bits here and some outright girly bits there. I am also growing my hair out, and I'm going to get one of those laser things because research tells me that's the way to go. I am trying to get a referral to the clinic from my doctor because the last time it got derailed by COVID.

I am daring to do things I never would before; like shopping openly in the ladies department, keeping my nails painted, wearing pinks and pastels and neutrals, more form fitting clothing. Nothing exotic at all, just exactly what other ladies my age wear (assuming they still have a body as hot as mine lol). Nice tight butt lifting jeans, Doc Marten boots and other androgynous shoes like grey slip on runners, henley shirts, anything girly I can get away with. I have a couple of new skirts coming and I can't wait to try them out, I also got a couple of new pushup bras that nothing is gonna hide that I might have to wait to try out lol, unless it's under a winter coat or baggy hoodie 😳 Trying to conciously wear a bra every day, even to work. Gradually replacing all my boxer briefs with those ridiculously comfy and flattering boy shorts, wearing the standard black and white check coat with poofy hoodies, my pink camo beanie for the coming cold, etc. I am just wearing what I want to wear, and if that's a pearl necklace and LBD with leggings, that's what I am wearing. 🌈

Please consider I'm not 'out' to any extant at all (just to my siblings and mother and a couple friends), but I have found that pretty much no matter where I go, no one really bats an eye, so I just keep pushing those edges. Even in my former male life I was a bit of a fashion whore, always trying new styles but trying to be classy and elegant, so now as a woman, with the massive range of stylish colourful comfortable flattering and yes sexy clothing to choose from, I am an artist with a whole new pallette. Or maybe a kid in a candy store lol.

I am also well aware that I might be a lot more out than I think at work, and no one said anything, I mean girls notice things just as much as guys do, but it doesn't exactly frighten me to push edges when no one says anything amiright. Some girls look at me funny now though, not a bad thing, they smile differently, something I have noticed that is really distinctive . . . 🤭 girls that never talked to me, especially younger ones, now do . . . it's still fearful baby steps though, but HRT is the moving walkway, and I am very close

I really need to learn how to do makeup better, and maybe not walk like a guy with places to go, rather more like a window shopping lady; and a few other things, but I guess what I am trying to say is that I am doing what my mother always taught me, to have the courage of my convictions. Some might say I am far too old, or worse yet a pretender, and it shames me to say I sometimes feel that way because I didn't pursue this long ago when I realized who I am, but I am proud of who I am today, and excited about where I am going, and dressing the part in public is now becoming an important part of that. I am nowhere near as far along as many people here, not even on HRT and not even close to living life as a woman, but one day soon . . . . I'm just so tired of living like people expect me to rather than how I want to portray myself. 💪 So damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead . . .

I want to thank all the friends here who have encouraged and inspired me to be my true self, your support and bravery means more than you know ❤ @crossdresserica @beingjamielynn @gymbunnycandiehart @livemyalter @becoming-who-ive-always-been @gladtobeagirl @jonextsteps @cd-christamae @cd-sherri

#transisbeautiful #trans positivity #be true to yourself

[c-kiddo]

You’re very very right about the lack of diversity in character design, esp thinking about it in regards to CR3. Like Laudna is clearly meant to be a lot more willowy and uncanny looking than she’s shown in the character art. & the many many issues w/ Ashton’s design aside [I just,,Don’t like his design much. There was potential buts it’s just. Eh., it’s weak], it makes like zero sense for him to look the way he does being a barbarian!! Not that he has to be huge & all by any means, but he does not read barbarian aside from his big ol hammer :p

(trigger warning for talking about weight and body size/type in regards to character designs. also disclaimer that this is just talking about designs for fun, its /lh and just my musings)

i honestly quite like laudna's design overall, i think its hard to tell though, how thin she is, since she's very covered up. i actually really love her face and how her teeth dont quite fit in her mouth, which is something common with very underweight people, and i like her big dark eyes. ... i find her hard to draw quite right tho. and i think (no offense /g) in the fandom is really where people smooth her out, take away any wrinkle, and just make her kind of pretty and soft... like, no, i want her skin to be translucent. show me the veins in her eyelids!!!!

yea. . ashton's design is rly not my favourite. i redesigned him, which, i no longer rly like that drawing, mostly because of how i drew their hair. recently i've been trying to figure out how to draw the crystals even tho the idea makes my skin crawl a little lol. the main problem i have with their design is the colours - their clothes are similar values, a dark grey and a Bright red, and it just clashes with the purple and specific green of their skin .. in this last drawing of ashton i posted i think it's sorta better while still keeping the same colours, so theres that - also i think darker colours fits his character more, down in the shadowy alleys and bars of jrusar. also yea, not a fan of how totally shredded and sinewy he is, he needs to hydrate lol

my least favourite of the cr3 designs is between them and imogen though..i redesigned imogen recently and that was so much fun. i just think , her canon design doesn't suit her at all.. it's just a bit nothing-y, like a generic tomb-raiding (yikes) video game protagonist. and i think a hat suits her super well, since as well as mind-reading she has migraines and prefers to go unseen, so, she shades herself from the sun and staring with the hat.. also i just covered her up more so she wouldn't get sunburnt kajndks, its all light materials.. im just worried about her skin. also thought something a little more,, idk androgynous (??) practical (??) might be cool. like, she's got her waist-coast and her hat and bandana round her neck.. so turned her from sexy tomb-raider halloween costume to a cowboy, like her backstory is clearly inspired by :-] !! idk thats a ramble, i should catch up on cr3 i love imogen v much she has so much autism swag and she's so cool 2 me

#asks #ok .. thaats lots. i lov talking abt this thing apparently #yeehaw . #also i just rly love th idea of imogens hair in braids for some reason .. otherwise it looks too modern almost ? #and also her hair loose is just impractical . . also i love braids

[tinywitchgoblin]

Hi I would like a ship request for tbb please :) I'm a 22 year old girl I have shoulder length dark brown hair with red highlights. How I dress is either kind of a basic androgynous look like T-shirt/sweatshirt and jeans or kinda sexually charged feminine look, when I'm in the mood to put in an effort with my outfit I typically like to feel sexy. Lots of really tight tank tops and crop tops. Most of my wardrobe is black, I'm a tiny goth at heart but I wouldn't say it reflects so much on my outer appearance as it once did.

I love watching movies + TV shows, it's probably my favorite pastime I rewatch stuff a lot (like I got paid for rewatching Grey's Anatomy or any marvel movie with Bucky Barnes and I could've probably bought a house by now). Hugely into all the nerdy franchises, super heroes, Star Wars, Star Trek, Doctor Who. I love to bake and paint in my free time. I like to read but don't get to as often as I would like because I need utter silence to concentrate or my ears like to hyper focus on literally anything else that is around me 🙃. I'm very soft spoken in group settings, I find it difficult to get in my piece, I get cutoff most times so I tend to just listen to conversations. I do like to be a person that others think they come too if they need to rant about anything but I also get wildly uncomfortable when people cry around me, unless we are like super super close. I do have a bit of maternal instinct and like babies and younger children but do not mistake that for me wanting my own kids. Not gonna happen. Animals only please lol. I like to be helpful were I can but please also be hyper specific with your needs because I will stress about if what I am doing is right or even at all helpful. I love to give gifts. Giving someone something special or thoughtful and seeing them light up brings me the most joy in life. Even if it's as small as like a cupcake if they get any kind of joy out of it I feel that joy too and it makes my heart happy. I can be very snippy and sarcastic especially if you are acting the same way with me. I'll end that here, thank you for your time. ❤️

Of course ❤️

I ship you with...

Tech!

As I'm sure we've all figured out by now, Tech is a Nerd(tm), so being able to learn about your interests fascinates him. He never got to watch movies or TV shows on Kamino; if he wanted to hear a story, he either had to hear someone else tell it or he had to make it up himself. However, now that he's with you, there are so many things for him to watch!! And to make it better, watching new things allows him to spend time with you? Win-win! Just be aware, he will multitask while watching; he just needs to do something with his hands at all times.

Baking with Tech is something you both enjoy as well. Tech much prefers baking over cooking because it's much more exact, and the directions tend to be a lot more specific- something he does well with. He researches new recipes that he wants to make with you, looking up multiple versions to see what techniques work the best, which ingredients to use, etc. so that the final product is the best it can be. Sometimes Tech takes baking a little too seriously, so you might have to reign him in a little bit and remind him that this is a relaxing activity.

When in social situations, you and he tend to stay close together. Depending on the topic, Tech most likely won't have a ton to offer up, so you and he end up sitting and listening to others talk, sitting there and enjoying the company. Sometimes Crosshair will join you, but other times, he needs space to be grumpy. However, whenever you eant to say something and can't seem to get a word in, Tech will make the others stop so that you can talk. It was a little embarrassing at first, but it soon became a habit, because if anything, Tech wants to make sure his loved one is able to express themself fully.

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Thanks for reading! If you want a ship request like this one, drop it in my ask box, and don't forget to reblog 💚

#the bad bois #the bad batch #tech bad batch #technically #technology #tech #tbb tech #tech x y/n #tech x you #tech x reader #the bad batch tech #star wars x reader

[thrandilf]

Hear me out on this but

I feel like a lot of those Gender Envy posts like oh I want his gender or oh she's so gender ect are fine, but calling it gender envy when its really just body/wanting to be attractive envy is more like what it really is

Which is a harsher way of putting it

But for me I think the difference between "I want that gender (lol)" and "they're hot and I'm not and I'm jealous" is like.

Perhaps not what Everyone is going for when saying that

But for me

We do associate gender with attractiveness

There is this idea that into the categories people go there's basically male, female, androgynous and then- what? Unattractive? Not in the running? Fat? I say, as a fat person? Because it Is exiling and I Do feel off the gender spectrum and away from being attractive to anyone because I don't fit in any of the boxes that it seems people or myself ever want and there Are extra expectations for anyone not conventionally attractive to have to go the extra mile to get the same respect (and even then. Maybe not)

And frankly I hate feeling unattractive and wishing my body was different every day for reasons related to gender or otherwise. It's easier to be like oh gender envy cause I don't wanna feel the actual issue going on

But I bring this all up because

I think wishing you were just instantly how you wanna look is incredibly common. Sells a lot of beauty shit every year and to everyone. Society likes to pretend that worrying about looks is shallow and then base everything on looks. Hello.

But, knowing I too struggle to be like oh I'm x gender without being a version of it I wanna be, I guess I'm like.

You don't have to earn looking a certain way to be a man or a woman or nonbinary or anything else. Conventionally attractive or unattractive are not different genders even if we trick ourselves into thinking that we just "don't count". Every identity is a huge box to be in with room for us all and I truly get wishing I was more like -insert person I think is handsome/pretty/cute/sexy/whatever- but their gender isn't earned and yours isn't either

You just have it

And it goes for cis and trans people both

You don't earn having an identity and your personhood doesn't exist on a scale of fuckability and no one should try to make you feel like it does

#does this even make sense. anyway #yes i wish i looked totally different but no having x body doesnt dictate my actual identity. does that make aense #ive just been tired and sad lately if this lands for anyone then cool

[jingsyuans]

i am so. desperately in love with your content i literally only JUST found you but the way you write jing yuan makes me kick my feet and roll around (im very much hyperfixated on him and star rail as a whole) hes just ssssoo.. hehehehheee

not to mention i get so happy when people who write for unspecified/gn reader actually make the reader androgynous or unlabelled cuz as a male reader seeing ppl label it as genderneutral and then having them be described w/ feminine terms is.. 😭😭

i will be keeping my eyes PEELED i say. one of these days i may have the courage to request myself eueeheheheh..

I understand you w the gn stuff!! I think the thing is… it’s obvious when someone gender queer writes inserts and someone who isn’t writes inserts. I’ll be honest and say that in terms of nsfw content, I used to be strict abt gn terms all throughout, but now I’m at the point where I realize it kind of takes away from the sexiness if I don’t use any descriptions for the readers sex at all. Plus, prep for gay sex is way different than straight sex, so that’s a pretty dead giveaway. Since I do in fact have female genitalia and I’ve grown comfortable with my body as it is over the years, I’ll write fem aligned smut more often, just because of my own immersion. That being said though I’m very open to writing male aligned smut as well, it’s just not my default anymore. That’s at least why I always warn in smut that eeehhh while I may not be using pronouns, itssss pretty fem! I’ll even warn when I use gendered names like babygirl or whatever, because I know that’s not what some people are looking for. I’m pretty blunt and honest about my content because I know what it’s like to be on the side that isn’t catered to as often.

This was 100% me rambling sorry ANYWAY! Yes for the most part I like to keep my readers neutral because in my mind there’s no need to specify sex or gender if it’s unimportant to the plot. I see people make a neutral reader and then proceed to project themselves onto it and it’s very obviously female, so the immersion kind of dissipates. Which, yk we make the content we like, so it makes sense. But it definitely feels like false advertisement sometimes when it comes to gender neutral readers. Again, it’s obvious when the writer is gender queer, and when the writer isn’t, lol.

I really love writing jing yuan so far! He’s definitely my type when it comes to brainrot characters. I’ve seen a few fics that really… in my opinion, don’t write him as himself. The sad fact for tumblr is there’s a generic type of personality that big characters will eventually mold into, and it removes a lot of their personality and individuality. You can see how over time their characterization is dumbed down for the sake of sex appeal, and it’s a little sad. I’m passionate about my writing and my characterizations, so I really try my best to keep them in line with how they act canonically. I strive for their own individuality and uniqueness so you’re reading for Jing Yuan, not generalized sexy tumblr man #443458. Yk?

Anyway!! Sorry for my rambling. I love nice feedback especially from other queer people. Feel free to drop a request any time, I assure you it’s not as embarrassing as you might think. I’m the embarrassing one If Anything cause I’m writing it down but LOL I’m past the point of no return. It’s fun to share and create content.

Thank you for the ask!

#asks #rly rambled a lot with this one #I like to derail and talk about shit

[toadallytickles]

NEST 2022

We just got home from NEST 2022- and AH! It was SO MUCH FUN!! I just want to share a few of my highlights as I really pushed myself out of my comfort zone this time and I’m really proud of myself!

I checked off one of my New Years Resolutions of playing with someone new this year!! And it was with someone I’ve had a tickle crush on literally since NEST 2019!! Since Clay and I have been open, I haven’t played with anyone else, and I’m just really ecstatic that I got to this weekend!! Yes I lee’d.. twice.. but maybe it was a trap all along to get revenge at the next gathering~

Also acquired a Spongebob gummy shish kebab for showing up to session lol~

WE MET SOPH @sophucking-kinky AND ZACK @silly-panic !! IT WAS THEIR FIRST NEST AND WE GOT TO HANG OUT WITH THEM. IN. PERSON. I’ve literally known them online longer than Clay.. and it was so wonderful and honouring to hang out with them!! Cannot believe they like a gremlin like me!! ❤️

We also played Mario Kart with them, and listened to The Wiggles~

And we met the THE AMAZING ARTIST @yourhardnerdcollector !! We met him by surprise, he showed us his work and I recognized it immediately!! SO AWESOME to meet him!! Such a cool guy, and it was so honouring meeting him and hanging out! Please go follow his accounts and enjoy his talent!

I HAD FIVE GUYS FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME!!

I also had Fritos for the first time too and omg so good.. new favourite snack probably lol

I actually found the courage to enter the tickle colouring game (where you colour in a picture while being tickled~), and I surprisingly WON by amount of votes on it!! EDIT MAY 6th: Just found out winning tickle colouring means I won a free NEST ticket for next time!! 🎉

On Sunday I wore a very revealing outfit of fishnets and a crop-top! I’m not used to showing that much skin (especially my tummy) and presenting feminine, so it was a big step for me to wear that all day in front of 150 NEST attendees! But I really wanted to, and I’m happy I did because I felt cute and sexy af!! Ya! :)

Allison alliron-art was at NEST selling cute kink and sexuality buttons + customs! I got this custom-made androgynous button with a feather!! She was super awesome and her stickers are cute, please go check her out!

For the tickle auction, you use Rhino Bucks (the auction currency) to buy people, and you can collect more by volunteering, helping, doing a demo or class- but Clay and I received extra Rhino Bucks for tickle fighting in a giant inflatable unicorn~

And lastly, I’m just overly proud of myself for sticking to my boundaries, like waiting until I was comfortable to play with someone new, and saying “no thank you” when I needed to! I’m really happy I could bring my more confident, grown self to this NEST! I did a lot of socializing and hanging out in the public play room! I’m very to myself and awkward (I think) but there were a ton of really cool people that made me feel comfortable to be myself and open up more! Yeah, at this NEST I made so many good connections I honestly feel like I’m making true friends and potential play partners (if it goes in that direction!) and I’m just really excited to stay connected and see where it goes! Definitely wanted to play with so many people but I can’t pick-up play!

This NESTing season was wonderful~! Staff did another amazing job keeping it a fun, safe place! Thanks to everyone who attended and made it special! And thank you to those who love our content and came to introduce themselves! It’s honestly so flattering!! So looking forward to future events! ❤️

#we fledged from the NEST 🥺 #anyway running on like 5 hours of sleep so sorry this is feral lol #my posts #NEST #NEST 2022 #tickle community #tickles #my writing #text

[noa-nightingale]

Thirsty Baddie Ranks Top 5 Sexiest Disney Characters

I am having one of the worst weeks of my life right now and this whole post is me trying to distract myself by rewatching this glorious glorious episode of Top 5 Beatdown. It’s an absolute delight of an episode and it made me feel better for the time I rewatched it.

So, naturally, I want to write about it.

I like that the episode starts like this...

... because wasn’t he the one who suggested the topic?

Anyway, we are off to a fantastic start. And Joyce is back! Always love to see her, her energy, her sense of humor and her stunning outfit. Made me feel better immediately.

I still don’t know how I feel about Shane purring because it is equally cute, funny and disturbing - which probably means that he should do it more often. (Also because it is extremely entertaining to see Ryan’s reaction lol.)

“This is Top 5 Beatdown! I respect you when the cameras are off.” I love her.

It’s still hilarious that Ryan said he watched A Goofy Movie on “performance enhancers” (weed) and Shane’s first thought was cocaine while Joyce’s first thought was viagra lmao.

Ryan’s number 5 (Powerline) is extremely valid btw (even though I would not put him on my own list). When I first watched the episode, I listened to Eye to Eye on repeat for several days afterwards.

🎶 If we listen to each other’s hearts we’ll find we’re never to far apart And mayyybe love is the reason why for the first time ever we’re seeing it eye to eye 🎶

And Mouse Madej returns! I am just going to use this opportunity to share my Miss Bianca/Mouse Madej art here again. ^-^ (Steven banned fanart for this episode which naturally led to people drawing more fanart for this one than for any other T5B episode. I kept it wholesome though.)

The innuendos in this episode lol

Ryan: “And she (Nani) loves her sister’s little blue guy.”

Shane: “Oh, we had a blue guy. Had.”

*a transparent Professor undulates across the screen*

This made me realize once again how much they bring up the nasty little blue guy in shows that are not Puppet History. Months later and they are still rubbing it in. (R.I.P to a real one.)

BUT ALSO

RYAN

HOW can you mention Vixey but not Maid Marian! If we are talking about sexy vixens, she is CLEARLY superior!

And while I am calling out people here - I agree that Ursula should be at least on one list but no one mentioned that she is inspired by Divine who was a drag queen. I just think Ursula should have gotten bonus points for that (and maybe be moved a little higher on the list SHANE).

That being said, it’s one of the most valid picks in this entire episode. ^-^

I have never watched Big Hero 6 and had to look up what the aunt looks like, and I loved Ryan’s reaction. “Oh I see. ... Oh I see. 👀“

Aaand here we have Mr Bergara’s first mention of lovely green eyes. I agree that green eyes are lovely but personally, I think that dark brown is clearly the best eye color, not that I am biased. Also, I would not call Nala’s eyes green, they look more blue-ish to me. :p

Ryan: “(...) a littel topsy-turvy.”

Shane: “Or bottomsy-turvy.”

I wonder how many people thought this too and then rejoiced when he said it, because I certainly did. :D

The whole part with Queenie the Cow is a mess lmao. I sometimes wonder what went on in Shane’s brain when he added (oedipal). Like, what was the thought process here.

“I don’t have mommy issues. I love that she gives milk.”

This is such a golden quote. And I love that Ryan immediately calls him out for it.

Not gonna lie though, all the things Shane said about Queenie’s kindness and sweetness are very endearing, almost too endearing for a video like this. ^-^

And Mouse Madej strikes again. I know what Shane means with “aspirational hot” though (and a top hat and cape sounds dope) although for me it would be more in the realm of gender envy. (Btw I think that Shane’s list is very interesting in general.)

Mulan is a great choice too (although she is not on my list either). Joyce: “It’s a little bit androgynous.” I agree that it makes a character so much more appealing. ^-^ Like, things that play with gender like that? Hell yeah.

Never thought I would hear the words “post-nut clarity” while someone was talking about The Lion King. I will think about this on my deathbed, thank you Ryan.

Loved Joyce’s wholesome ending to a non-wholesome video.

“To be a ho, you gotta be wholesome.” Embroider that one on a pillow lmao.

And here is my list:

1) Long John Silver (Treasure Planet) 2) Merlin (The Sword in the Stone) 3) Ursula (The Little Mermaid) 4) Maid Marian (Robin Hood) 5) Nala/Sarabi (The Lion King)

I am appalled that nobody even considered this guy.

(And honestly, I both think he is sexy AND I get gender envy from him. Absolute dreamboat.)

Well, that’s it! I loved rewatching the episode, it made things a little better and I could forget the other stuff in my life for a while. Thanks, Watcher and Joyce! 💜

(I also feel the need to mention at this point that I am asexual as hell lol. Just as a way to finish this text. ^-^)

Thanks for reading!

#watcher #top 5 beatdown #ryan bergara #shane madej #joyce luis-jean #many people said kind things to me btw #i appreciate the hell out of that #and i promise you that i will answer #i just don't know when i'll be able to do that #thank you so much <333

[lost-in-2d]

i7☆Challenge day 08

⚠ Some discussion of Part 6 under the cut and lots of unnecessary rambling

my favourite Zool member is minami!!! 🐍

he actually won me over via his RabbiTube episode, Nishiyama truly knows what he was doing 😵💫

... I just like him a lot.

If sogo is my #1 fav, then he is #2. I really like how Arima sensei draws her female characters, and out of the cast, both of them are more delicate looking with somewhat feminine features. They are sooo pretty to me aaaaa I always enjoy sensei's posted pictures of them

TRIGGER may be contrasting in a masculine way and sexy, but I think Minami is also very sexy ^q^ (let's refer to a RabbiTube comment 🙈)

rough translation: He is soft-spoken and articulate, with a graceful elegance, but composes for ŹOOĻ with rebellious lyrics and a solid sound, which is contrary to his slender, androgynous image. He is ŹOOĻ's performer and former child prodigy with a child actor's background. At the end of the day, this sex appeal is still underage... Too many gaps, I can't help but stan

aaaa,,, I really agree ^q^

Okay, time for the serious talk about the character - there are commonalities between minami and sogo, where they have backgrounds that result in them being in the public eye since young. I don't doubt they come from well-to-do families. And they have resulting issues about it... :'( Here, in part 6 Zool shares a moment of vulnerability with their new manager. Minami confesses that the past him felt he could only follow the advice and bidding of the adults around him

I had so much brainrot about him. Are his parents also people in the acting industry, or maybe there's a possibility that they are also involved in music. It seems that minami travelled abroad to North Maea to obtain musical training, and it is implied that it is a decision he himself wished for. Is it because of his passion, or because he wanted to get away from his parents' sphere of influence in Japan? And from his bday card in 2022, the portrayal is that he had musical exposure since he was a child. Was it also a parental decision to coach him in music? Since he finds freedom in music, my headcanon is that either his parents are not overly passionate about it (they are in the film industry) or they are not fans of the rebellious genre that minami likes (lol)

And even more brainrot about his student years in North Maea. What kind of person was he, and what was his social life like!! omg!! In the MV for <Never Lose My Rule>, minami was depicted as a socialite :O was he like this during schooling years too? I could imagine him going to an uppity private school. Lowkey I think he's quite misanthropic, before he met Zool

He has very mixed feelings about Haruki. He says he does not want Haruki to be seen as a virtuous man through Ryuu's stage portrayal of Haruki. He may not dislike Nagi as an individual, though I think he struggles with the perception that he was being compared to Nagi in Haruki's eyes 😟 Minami struggles with feelings of abandonment as well, and it stems from buried insecurity regarding his bond with Haruki. so I can see why he coddles for Haruka :') I would love to unravel his trauma 😍 see more of his side stories or character arc, even after the North Maea main story arc

I really like how Zool consist of imperfect individuals. They are characters with more room to grow

An extra goodie below for the people reading all this 😍🙏

right now I'm hesitating whether to roll his card in the current Prince Stage event 😵💫

#idolish7 #i7 #i7☆Challenge

[promisenolies]

Random thoughts:

So I went to the P!nk concert awhile back and as she hit the stage and my heart did *a thing* it made me think....

People often ask me what my taste is in women, and frequently assume I must find Asian women attractive since I love Asian men so much. But I don't.

But I find P!nk to be RIDICULOUSLY attractive. Like sexy to the point of being a problem for me. My taste in women is P!nk lol

This got me thinking though...

I find Asian men incredibly attractive - specifically Asian men deemed a bit more feminine.

(though trust me, I also find their inherent masculinity incredibly sexy as well! ... they just still maintain that feminine energy at the same time which is EXTRA sexy)

And I tend to find more masculine/androgynous women more attractive

For some reason my brain short-circuited a bit with this knowledge and I struggled to kinda reconcile it in my mind. Because surely it'd make more sense to just like masculine men and feminine women right?

Then my kiddo - my smart, insightful kiddo offered this thought:

"Maybe you like and appreciate those that break/challenge the binary?" ... and I found that actually makes a lot of sense.

I'm sure I could dig into this further, but I just wanted to share my initial thoughts...

#femininity #masculinity #gender #thoughts #binaries are pointless #challenge them all #p!nk #jimin #jungkook

[wondermentishere]

ive been having so kany beautiful experiences with beautiful people this week specifically. it’s encouraging me so much to just show up and be myself. its crazy what a couple hours at a lit dj set can do for the soul. im realizing how locked in my name is at this point. im so use to introducing myself as Anu to people that being called ashlin now doesnt really feel right. at some point i missed being referred to as my birth name and even kinda felt numb to being called Anu, but i dont feel that way anymore for some reason. it feels so good to say my name and to hear it be said.

ive been going a little harder in the paint with my queer looks lately and its been completing my soul so hard. my hair is being locked in a specific way with volume which i love. i love to throw on a pretty simple masc fit that compliments my body in ways that im comfortable with. what i wear now is even prompting other people to compliment me in unexpected gender affirming ways which is beautiful. i was dancing when my homie walked up from behind me and told me i looked good from the back because of my broad shoulders. i was like wow really?? 🥹😎 its funny cause this comment would be a disaster for cis hetero women, but i was soaking it in. i love feeling so accepting and proud of my body. ive been playing around with wild but simple eye makeup, which has been fun and fulfilling on its own. im such a pretty boy at heart, makeup really helps balance the androgynous energy i need to emit. ive been experimenting with facial hair behind closed doors for a few months now, but im now starting to walk out the house with it on. its so sexy and affirming. i feel so fucking good about how i look.

top surgery and starting t would definitely be the right moves for me. im so excited, i wish i could start tomorrow. i first want to get my voice together so i can get different jobs where i feel sad to experiment and visually change in front of other people. my trans friend kim works at a gender clinic, so maybe i can find something like that to settle at while i go back to school. i definitely want to be pretty much fully transitioned once i graduate so finding jobs will be pretty seamless once im comfortable with all the changes. im so happy and i feel loved and accepted by the friends ive been making. ive been out here experimenting, maybe even possibly being reckless lol but its all been worth it to me. im growing so much as a person. i need all of this thats happening to me.

#diary #trans journey