#but deep down he knows he wants more

[goemon-fan]

The Woman Called Fujiko Mine Episode 3: The Lady and the Samurai

#i really like his characterization in this #it starts with emphasizing his dead ancestor (and possibly father?) and how that pushes him to become an assassin #but despite this hes too good of a person to do the job #and if he were anyone else he probaby wouldnt have become an assassin #all he wants is a friend #and to reclaim his youth #theres a line where he tells a little kid men dont cry over small things #and he was probably told that growing up #the line between his ancestor and himself is blurred #not once does he mention hes the thirteenth #instead hes just supposed to be ishikawa goemon #and that's all he's ever known #but deep down he knows he wants more #lupin iii #lupin the third #lupin the 3rd #goemon ishikawa xiii #goemon #fujiko mine #fujiko

[hylianane]

Reading Zoro’s character description for the LA really hit me hard with the fact that Zoro’s probably happier now than he’s ever been in his life. “Meeting Luffy is the biggest thing that ever happened to Zoro”. And yes yes yes that’s true for most Strawhats, but thats usually because Luffy freed them from villains who were actively making their lives miserable. Zoro was in trouble when he met Luffy, yes, but it was because of a deal he willingly made with Helmeppo, a punishment he decided to endure against someone who wasn't a real threat to him. Zoro was always free to do as he pleased. But, much like Luffy was before setting sail himself, he was also terribly alone.

Unable to build connections because once he set sail from each island his sense of direction made it so he could never return. Having to fight and kill to afford each meal, while maintaining a very demanding lifestyle. Facing each battle knowing that even if he wins, it could still be game over, as he couldn’t afford to sit back and let himself recover, and there was no one he could trust to help him dress wounds and stand up again.

By giving him a navigator, a cook, a doctor, a crew, Luffy has given him the world. People to love and protect and fall back on, people to help him follow his dream and enjoy every second of the chase. And I’m sure he tells himself that if he were to quit the crew at any time, he’d survive on his own just fine, but that’s such an empty fucking threat because these people have made him happier than he’s ever been, just as free as before but now finally living. I love him sm.

#roronoa zoro #one piece #monkey d. luffy #zolu #my post #ADDITIONALLY i think deep down he probably wants to express that gratitude more #but just doesn’t know how he could express it verbally or casually #its always in the form of steadying and protecting them during battles. his “i love you”s sound like “leave this to me” #zoro my love my life #strawhat pirates

[earlgodwin]

"There is no one closer—" Oh, don't lie to me, Father.

#it's an interesting parallel because rodrigo really made them believe that they're the light of his life #but deep down both of them know it's not true because he still prioritizes his own ambitions over them #juan; he's insecure about rodrigo's love and wants to prove himself worthy since rodrigo always threatens him with cesare's hypercompetence #lucrezia; she's still being forced to marry people she doesn't want to for his political bs #in the finale; rodrigo and cesare plotted to kill alfonso while leaving her in the dark...not caring about her feelings #they all know their father uses them more than he loves them or care for their concerns #lucrezia borgia #juan borgia #the borgias #perioddramaedit #tvedit #cinemapix #tvarchive #holliday grainger #david oakes #dailytvfilmgifs #davinciae #theborgiasedit #filmgifs #by jen

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Felled by one bowl.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #The original joke I wanted to make was Lwj's head going *thunk* on the table #but it turns out drawing characters at that angle is much harder than anticipated #so now he gets to be a sleepy little kitty boy on the counter. #WWX is the dogboy to LWJ's catboy and I stand by this. That man can meow. But in a deep tenor. A Grandpa cat meow. #I will throw down my points of evidence if people refuse to see my catboy lan wangji truth. #Drunk lwj in general is very funny. I'm going to be biased and make way more comics than I should about his antics. #Also; Is it not kind of ironic that 'bowl' and 'blow' are anagrams of each other? #it becomes an accidental play on words when translated to English that 'LWJ goes Down In One Bowl' #We all know he can take a hit. 33 to be exact.

[arthurtaylorlester]

so like do you ever think about john doe

#sorry guys hes taking over ny brain again #his situation is so fucked up what the hell 😭😭 #like yeah ok objectively arthur kinda has it worse #but imagine #you get torn from your former self and trapped in a book #then after killing multiple people you finally find a suitable host #but then you get attached and now youre no longer your former self #then your new human friend (who is quite literally all you have (and want)) kills himself to save you #even after you betrayed him and lied to him. multiple times #and you get separated and when you come back hes angry at you for having changed #but you had to make a deal with the literal devil to keep him alive and be together again #you work through it but then you have fulfil you end of the deal which indirectly causes him to meet this fucking priest #who is MONOPOLISING on your person’s attention #and since you seem to be suffering some form amnesia you desperately cling to normalcy – to when it was just the two of you #(but you know deep down you’re never going to be enough for him because he deserves more than a fractured monster imitating humanity) #(because he deserves the /world/ and if you could you would give it to him) #so you try to chop that priests arm off (he asked to be fair) #wouldnt that be fucked up #malevolent #unhinged aromantics #malevolent podcast #arthur lester #john doe #john malevolent #arthur malevolent #malevolent john #malevolent arthur

[askblueandviolet]

can’t you just…. have your clones help you out??

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#lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanart #monkie kid #monkie kid fanart #lmk #lmk fanart #monkie kid macaque #lmk macaque #blue and violet #drawing this was actually more fun than I thought it would be #because SILLY LITTLE MONKIE CLONES :DDDD #I decided that I wanted his clones to be less like LMK canon and more like Wukong's clones in the New Gods: Nezha Reborn movie??? #If you guys don't know: In that movie Wukong is in it and his clones are literally just tiny little monkies and they are so cute and silly #but I mean this is just me being silly of course Macaque is capable of making his regular clones #I just wanted to draw this monkie clones like little potatos #he is so done with them and sick of their bullsh*t #don't worry he still loves them deep down

[cerise-on-top]

Hii you know how you wrote about reader getting hurt because of their job please could you write that with graves or nikolai x

Hey! Sure I can!

Graves’ and Nikolai’s S/O Gets Hurt Because of Their job

Graves: On the outside he may seem calm and collected, but on the inside he’d be seething with rage. However, he won’t show you how angry he actually is, keeping it all to himself instead. He needs to be the big, strong man in your relationship, so he needs to keep his cool in front of you, no matter what. I don’t think he’d be too surprised you’d have gotten hurt, though. While he may have hoped it would never happen, that was just wishful thinking. You’ll either be on Shadow Company’s medbay or in the best hospital he can find nearby. Either way, you’ll be well taken care of. If you’re at Shadow Company, then he’ll station some of his most competent and trusted people to take care of you for the time being. You will be protected by them, and you will get whatever it is you may need from them as well. Or anything you may want, really. No cost is too high for Graves while you’re in recovery. While he may try to make time for you as well, he really does, he will also have someone track down whoever hurt you. This person will then be abducted to Shadow Company for a rough time. Graves himself would take care of them, and he can be pretty effective when he wants to be. However, if you’ve recovered by then, and are among the more vengeful people, then you’re more than welcome to do as you please with the bastard yourself, Graves has no qualms about that. In fact, he’d welcome you doing what you need to do. An eye for an eye. I think he’d become a bit more protective of you afterwards. If you’re okay with it, then he’ll leave you in the hands of some of his Shadows since he can’t always be there for you. If it was up to him, he’d combine you with his work and have you just live on base with him so he could always keep an eye on you, but you likely wouldn’t agree to that. It may seem a bit overbearing, but he will reach out to you more often and does expect you to respond within a few hours, or else he’ll get worried and send someone to check up on you, even if you’re alright.

Nikolai: While Graves may be furious, Nikolai is entirely calm about all of this. Yes, you got hurt, but seeing him panic would likely only worsen the state you’re in. He is well aware of the fact that you will pull through, he made sure of that himself. However, he won’t do anything drastic until you’ve recovered completely. That way your perpetrator has enough time to kill themself before he has to take action. Naturally, you mean the world to him, so any violence against you will not be excused. Nikolai runs a PMC, so he knows what he’s doing, he knows how to deal with violence. Violence for violence is the rule of the beasts and Nikolai’s cruelty is akin to that of a starved animal. However, that can wait until you’re alright again. He’ll visit you every day, even stay at the hospital, and bring you gifts, tell you stories and keep you company otherwise. But he won’t mention the plans he has for the sorry fuck who hurt you, those are for him to know and for you to never find out. Once you’re home again, going about your day, he will seek out the bastard himself and drag him to some place in Siberia. As mentioned before, Nikolai can be cruel when he wants to be, so I wouldn’t be surprised if he let that person run aimlessly around Siberia for a few days, hunted down by him and his people, only to capture and torture them later. Death is a kind of mercy that is not for them, though, so he’ll keep them alive for the time being. They almost took you from him, there’s nothing they could ever do to make up for that. They’ll be a new chewing toy for Chimera until they die for one reason or another. Nikolai won’t get too overprotective, but he will be keeping a closer eye on you. He won’t station one of his people in front of your home when he’s away, but he will try to make more time for you. Calls become more frequent and he will try to find some excuses to spend more time with you, even if it’s just by video chatting with you when you have the time. He won’t freak out, but he won’t forget about that incident either.

#cod #cod x reader #phillip graves #phillip graves x reader #cod nikolai #cod nikolai x reader #I was thinking about wanting a request for Graves again not too long ago so this came at an ideal time #they're both very powerful people who are also war criminals and not afraid of breaking every law in existence #so yeah they'll have their fun with whoever hurt you #thinking about an angry Nikolai scares me so bad actually. he'd be so calm and quiet and that's just the most terrifying thing to me #if you're in an especially bad condition then I think Graves would become more strict with his Shadows #he knows he shouldn't be like that at work but he can't help it since he's just that worried about you #he's usually a fun and caring boss but he'd become very different when you get hurt #of course he'll go back to normal once everything is alright again but you being hurt would hit the Shadows pretty hard as well #I like to think he does talk about you to his Shadows so they definitely know who you are #and just by hearing about you most of them would like you as well. especially because Graves loves you this much and they like him a lot #so I think a lot of Shadows would also grow protective over you and I think that's so very sweet #I always liked to think that the people at Shadow Company were very close with each other #especially because Graves is a good boss and makes sure the work climate there is ideal. despite the war crimes #Graves is actually a pretty fly guy in my eyes. he's just cocky but he does worry a lot about his Shadows and you deep down #he loves his Shadows and he loves you too

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #weak when i think about early yosuke constantly living under the surveillance of the townpeople #in a way it kind of explains his reluctance in trying to connect with them (like in the magician manga) which is itself very complex #but for someone who's always on the lookout #for someone whos constantly checking his own behaviour and making sure hes not doing anything that could be perceived as negative #even if he did want to become better friends with kou and daisuke its hard to extend any trust to them #yosuke didnt understand why they were trying to be friendly with him -- to some extent i think its because he just didnt trust them #that they weren't trying to get him to relax so he would do something wrong and then inaba will have one more reason to dislike him #its an overthinking thing!!! #but with yu? he can relax a little because he doesn't expect yu to betray him in that manner. #at the end of the day #after the liquor store and the shadow yosuke incident #yosuke KNOWS that yu is someone that has his back #amd maybe that knowledge is still a little tentative because hes still unwilling to be fully honest with yu during their early friendship #but deep down he has the evidence that yu is on his side. he wants to believe that yu will continue to be on his side. :') #and this first friendship is what enables him to actually form more meaningful bonds with other people #i mean. after saki and the blowback from him trying to connect with saki. #is it any wonder that he's a bit reticent #but ah look. hes still doing that thing where he puts on an air of nonchalance and confidence and plays it off with a joke #even as it bothers him. :') #he's good with his queue

[izzysillyhandsy]

I've just realized what I need most from this season - it isn't an apology (from Ed and/or Izzy) or an earnest talk-it-through like I previously thought I wanted.

What I need is Ed realizing that he needs both Stede and Izzy in his life.

After all the heartbreak, I think it is so important that both of them know that the life they shared for so many years wasn't just a weight pulling both of them under.

I want Ed to realize that there are parts of Izzy's izzyness and their day-to-day life that are parts of who Ed is, and that there's something missing without him. I'd like Ed to (re-)learn that there are certain things which are just more fun with Izzy, or things he likes to share specifically with him because Izzy gets it.

At the end of this season, I need Ed to realize that while Stede makes him happy, to be truly happy and fulfilled he needs Izzy too.

#ofmd #izzy hands #edward teach #stede bonnet #they don't have to live together or anything but I'd just like Izzy to know how important he is to Ed #on pins and needles here for their first real meeting after the storm #I am so sure those 2 have the most fascinating past #and so much love for each other deep down #maybe unicorn Izzy is becoming more like his younger self again #ah what do I know I just want them to realize how great the other one really is

[skunkes]

unsure how to word this but there is something about having ocs with unsavory events happening in their past where it's like. talking about it, even when asked, seems almost gratuitous and inappropriate. and i'd much rather describe it through the oc themself and/or draw Them saying it. which is like. fitting for the subject matter? like of course its weird to talk about somebody else's business...!

and falls back into humanizing em/exploratory writing and development where u consider the impact of words said/words unsaid/HOW those words are said etc etc

#because not all real persons would give u every detail of their trauma obviously #which makes sense but im an overexplainer but also it feels inappropriate to overexplain when it comes to dis #i hope that makes sense #talkys #i once described what went down with al as just directly as possible and it still felt weird. ykwim?? idk why. #well i do know why! i dont want it to seem gratuitous or like That Cheap Writing Element. fine line #same with talon so he'll just keep implying it thru text + dialogue which is how it should be ! #the only difference is i think with al i wrote it like he would've said it bc he has more access to that side of himself #and is aware of how it affected him #whereas characterwise talon absolutely would just speak in riddles about and around it #i don't even think he's conscious about the direct effects of it #(but i wouldnt know bc he hasn't made that known to me in my brain) #people respond differently to different things and all that #also im so sorry if half the shit ive said recently is so like. Well Duh. i havent made a new oc in a decade gimme a break LOL #also i realize the. irony? of me even vaguely talking about it in the way i did but 1. i think that's also realistic when you #dont want to do a whole deep dive on someone else's business and 2. people are becoming #curious about my oc(s) and im just thinking about well; significant events and how to handle not speaking about em #FOR them. <- weirdly #idk. they're real to me. #its just so much more interesting to leave it up to them! people can lie people can downplay

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[tomwambsgans]

lbr if tom ever did convince greg to put on a wedding dress (or any other kind) he'd only proceed to find him significantly less attractive in it. like woops nah i'm more of a fag than i thought lol put the suit back on

#tbf i do not think greg would want to wear a dress anyway. he'd humor tom while very drunk maybe tho #tomgreg #tom wambsgans #mine #and this of course would only happen at all once they were already together anyway #BUT if for whatever reason tom saw greg in drag like during the timeline of the show i think he'd hate it #bc there'd be a slight excitement but it would be overshadowed by the fact that #deep down inside he knows this SHOULD open doors for his affection for greg #bc he knows his feelings run deep and there's maybe a vague notion of 'wish you were a girl' #except he really just WANTS to feel that. but he doesn't. he doesn't wish greg was a girl at all #and this doesn't make him feel any more comfortable. it makes him feel worse #bc it only makes it more obvious how much he likes that greg is a man

[kingofthering]

I'll never be against an athlete choosing the job with the higher salary (hello, tons of regular people do that every day, I might do it myself one day if offered the chance) but I'll be honest, when the lesser offer is still a 7 numbers figure, I'm not going to think that that offer is a bad one.

#yes this is about fabio and deep down yes I understand his choice and no I don't think this is about just the money #of course it's also about pride (factory seat) and staying with the team he's won with and that he considers family #I get that!!! #and yes motogp riders should be paid more when you compare them with other racing series #but I think it's a little out of touch to not consider a salary in millions (besides all the brands deal) something already huge #esp when some moto2/moto3 riders have to PAY for their seat #and I don't even want to know about what's in wsbk riders' contracts #and I'm not saying this only about motorsport #the base contract for an nhl player is like 800k or something #even if he just plays 4th line/3rd pairing minutes #yes they can get injured and out of job in a snap of fingers #and I have read so many stories about former athletes going broke because they can't manage their money #(and yes sure maintaining a high lifestyle cost more and they spend more money but be real with me we're still talking millions here)

[riickgrimes]

what was he gonna say WHAT WAS HE GONNA SAY?!?!!

#the bear #sydcarmy #i just rewatched that scene in ep9 where he asks about her mom #and thinking about how their walls are coming down #and they're opening up to each other and how carmy wants to know more about her #then i remembered this scene and him talking about her dad and asking about her mom and that he was gonna say something else #but he never finished his sentence #WHAT WAS THE REASON #WHAT WAS HE GONNA SAY #was he gonna give her more advice like earlier #was he gonna ask more about their relationship #what was he gonna say i need to know #but srsly we're literally watching them go from a very deep working relationship #to a very deep personal relationship right in front of our eyes #like this is them becoming integrated into each other's lives

[natjennie]

like seriously whatever you do dont think about the captain and that story about someone calling into gay bars and not saying anything, just listening to queer people living and laughing and having fun. definitely don't think about the captain doing that. haha.

#both during his life and in death #i just looked it up and the 1930s british queer scene was beautiful like jazz age stuff #the idea of the captain just discretely privately calling into places he's heard rumored to be queer #just to listen to the saxophone over the static of the telephone and know that there were gay people living and loving somewhere #and then to think about him missing that EVEN MORE in death because now he cant LEAVE #he cant hear rumors from people he cant call in #imagine the favors he'd have to owe julian to dial a number and let cap listen to the receiver without knowing what it is #like of course julian wants to know and he pesters him. but when cap is Deadly Serious and scared and sad. #a face julian's never seen. he winds his jokes down and agrees to do it #making cap think it was his idea- 'a bit of charity for the old walrus then'- instead of a deep understanding and love #and since its been decades of course the number he calls isnt a gay club anymore. maybe it doesnt even connect #and it breaks his heart and it takes him another decade to gather intel and the nerve to ask julian again #but when he does he finally gets a place and the phone quality is INCREDIBLE he can hear so much #he can hear people and their upbeat music and their laughter and their love #and he cries #and if julian sees it and pretends not to then its so that he can have the blackmail later thank you for asking #anyway im making myself emotional #bbc ghosts #EDIT Becuase then when julian overhears he tries subtly to make the captain feel more comfortable #bc julian is an asshole but he's not homophobic i mean he fucks everyone #so he tries to pepper in more stories about men but that just makes cap uncomfortable #and hes frustrated bc he cant think of anything else to do other than flirt with him but thats a bad idea #but then he remembers that he went to bars and places and maybe he'll like that #so he 'accidentally' dials some clubs he knows were cool and leaves the phone off the receiver for cap to find #and cap just gives him a curt nod and a clearing of his throat and they Dont Talk about it but they Know

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

You’ve talked about AMM ending so I’m curious. What do you plan to do after?

Oh man what a sad thing to think about hmm..

I’m not sure. I mean I’ll most likely keep doing art, it’s what I love, but as far as future projects go? I honestly couldn’t say. I’ve always dreamed of doing like a fancy original comic, and The Other Q and I have talked it over quite a bit. Maybe we’ll do that? I dunno. Guess we’ll just have to see

#we do a lot of world building together #he’s not very fond of his worldbuilding projects being public but he’s always been supportive of the idea of me using it in a comic #I think deep down he wants to share it but he’s scared of how other people will take it #I mean I know he is I am too #but it’s different #an original setting is. well. original #it’s way more personal than just making characters and placing them into the Pokemon world yknow? #anonymous #ask