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jalluzas-ferney · 4 months

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WAIWAEAITIWIAA CAN I TOUCH ON THE SUBJECT OF SOME PPL THINKING KAI IS SOME KIND OF BULLY TOWARDS JAY OR SMTH AND HOW STUPID THAT IS

like tbh lately I haven’t seen really any of that LATELY - but I remember some time ago someone had posted a gif of like the fight between Kai and Jay in Crystallized and like I think specifically the part where Jay starts the fight by fucking kicking Kai across the room (for accidentally dropping a glass of water and who btw gen apologized for immediately 😁)

Okok so some, if not a lot of ppl, in the comments/reblogs were like “ouh yeah way to go jay 🤗🥳” “It doesn’t surprised me that he’s finally standing up for himself after all that bullying from Kai after so many years 🥺” “oh Kai deserves it for always teasing-“ yeah yeah BLAH BLAH BLAH you get the GIST

and OOHHH that RREAAALLY pushed some buttons for me cuz WHAT💀💀💀💀💀BAHAH BE SO FUCKING FR IM SORRY BUT WHAT😭😭😭

Y’all the ninja have always made fun of each other like- the whole series. And if it looks like Kai goes especially after jay or whatever- yeah- it doesn’t surprise me that he would be poking even more fun at the man dating his sister 😭😭ESPECIALLY knowing him? Like hello 💀

But he’s even SUPPORTIVE of their relationship - are y’all forgetting how he literally helped Jay practice to propose Nya to be his Yang 😭😭😭😭

And OHH - have we perhaps forgotten ab how when jay was fucking DROWNING while he was trying to get out of the situation- he LITERALLY thought to himself “what would kai do?” LIKE BRO HE LOOKS UP TO HIM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 BEFORE THINKING- “oh what would master Wu do or Zane do” -he was like- “no- what would Kai do?”

And YAALLLL wanna erase this bond they have 😨😨 NUH UH NONE OF THAT - y’all are not about to pretended Kai is some kind of huge bully towards your “little baby boy jay “or whatever as if they don’t love each other at all (as brothers/bsfs)

(I’m kinda scared of posting this cuz I don’t wanna come off as aggressive but this legit makes me laugh so damn hard cuz of how STUPID it is 😭😭)

#I get that Kai can be an arrogant little piece of shit at times srs 💀#but dude it was never that deep 😭 they obviously care for each other and support each other #like I get it- that one hoje for example where he was like #Jay had to save me back there! Jay! 😨#and jays like #well that’s a strange way of saying thank you 😃#but y’all it was never that deep 😭#No one’s saying he’s in the right cuz like damn way to say that u think he’s the weakest 💀#but overall their whole banter is…normal…it’s normal older younger siblings behavior in way uk #like just admit Jay just kicked Kai across the damn room cuz he was actually convinced Nya was in that damn glass of water #and that he overreacted at kai doing one small mistake 💀#not because #oh he has finally snapped at him after all that teasing 🥺🥺🤯🥳🙂😣😣#like I’m so sorry but that is NOT THE CASE💀💀💀💀💀#ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago kai #kai Ninjago #kai smith #kai jiang #jay ninjago #ninjago jay #Jay walker #jay gordon #Lego #rant

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senseiwu · 2 months

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Does it piss anyone else off that barely anyone holds garmadon accountable for his actions and then they give people crap for being upset with him after he's hurt them

#thinking of lloyd in crystalised and wu in toe.#like.#how dare they be upset.#im sorry but 'youre no sensei and you never have been' is NOTHING compared to what garmadon did are you SERIOUS #youre like the teacher snapping at me.for telling a girl in high school not to spa #speak to me like im five lmao #jesus christ #'it wasnt his fault 🥺🥺🥺' doesn't matter #stuff still happened. people still got hurt.#and theyre ALLOWED to feel hurt goddammit #real 'you cant blame them they were drunk' vibes here ngl #its funny cause even garmadon acknowledges he did those things.and takes responsibility for them #which is. why he sacrificed.himself to sabe everyone #because he knew he couldnt make up for all the bad he had done but at least he could do this #jelp save everuone and right a wrong of the past in the process #but noooo nothing is his fault and wu is awful.for being upset that he stole his letter broke his trust and lied to misako #im really.#tired of this fandom sometimes #shout out to garmadon fans who actuqllu hold him accountable for what he did youre the only ones that dont drive me up a wall 👍

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frecklystars · 4 months

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Did you hear the news?? Some kind of Christmas version of ‘I’m Just Ken’ is being released this Wednesday! 😱 Ryan Gosling and Mark Ronson have worked on it together! 🐢

#wednesday is PERFECT bc i have to work that day and it'll be CHAOS #so i'll be able to save the song til i clock out... smth to look forward to #i miss ken so bad it's been hurting. i can pretend he wrote this song bc he misses me too :')#i cant wait to hear it.#love that ryan and mark were like. you know what the world needs? more ken #and they were GODDAMN RIGHT #anon i did nothing but cry today so this cheered me up immensely #tysm for telling me 🥺🥺💙#anonymous #asks #🐢 anon #i wasnt planning on opening my inbox yet but this caught my attention dsflkfsldkf

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zevrans · 6 months

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i finally finished bg3 2 nights ago ya'll 😭🥺

#i specifically looked up when i made a post about that my pc can run bg3 it was 2 months ago damn!!#it took me so long with trying to do every sidequest and i still managed to miss a lot of stuff 😳#i skipped a couple of act 3 quests too i skipped dribbles that baldur mouth gazette one and i think some others too #because i couldnt be bothered anymore trying to finish it faster 😂😭#and i still misssed stuff in act 1 🤡 for example that shovel thingie or what's it called 😭#anyways the ending overall i liked but there's almost no companion endings or what??#i felt like we deserved a cutscene for each companion and an extended for romanced one??#and i didnt even get to see karlach last time 🥺 it just said that her time is short and it skipped to astarion future plans scene 😭#i didnt want my tav turn illithid so i turned orpheus although ididnt want that for him too but oh well 😫#still don't understand why emperor straight up did 360 degree turn and joined the absolute even before i freed orpheus #like he didnt consider even for a sec orpheus would provide shield for him even tho he later agreed emp was right #about this whole thing needing and illithid i mean #anyways im considering doibg gale romance run but now i need mods and to decide if i replay from start #or from my act 2 save in moonrise where if i reject astarion 🙈 my gale romance activates??

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allofuswantgwinam · 4 months

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I actually had the worst day I’ve had in awhile now but i survived it

#barely #im learning to lean on the people that care about me #i even cried on my mom tonight and i hate crying in front of people 😭😭#and it’s always been hard for me in general to talk to my mom especially but I’m learning to trust her and grow from our past #all that cheese and mushy shiz yeah yeah #work was insane tn and i was not prepared at all #i almost had a meltdown too but i kept it together and that’s when I called my co worker and she saved my ass #and my other coworker was trying to help me too that was off and was literally gonna leave her house to help me 🥺🥺🥺#it was just so bad fr #and my hours switching has been a twist for me too which happened to be a factor of today #but I made shit work but it still also was a mess at the same time lmao #it was a crazy ass day and I’m just glad it’s over now #a lot of good things happened today but the bad was bad #im just glad I didn’t hold in my feelings and was also not too prideful to ask for help #im drinkin my wine and hittin my pen bc fuck the cold I’ll just be a vape god for now #that was kinda cringe but I’m drunk so don’t take me seriously besides the parts of this that are my feelings 🤣#also got a card from one of my coworkers and my boss with a Starbucks gift card 🫶🏼 I was so surprised #that mfer wrote ‘crazy lady’ on the envelope 🙃🙃🤣🤣#funniest guy I know right there lmao #we have too much fun and he only works like once a week bc he’s like 40 or 50 something with a million different jobs bc he’s the crazy one #today was a roller coaster basically 🤣🤣 but i did the shit and somehow managed to keep shit together #im just ready for the holidays to be over so work can not be super busy anymore #but i am excited for the holidays it’s gonna be amazing i think 🫶🏼 not gonna be hung up on fake love this time and will be able to enjoy it #fully #for the first time in too long #last Christmas was so bad it makes me sick thinking about it #fuck that guy so much #just realizing this was amazing wow #so hype to have a clear and free mind this holiday without our ‘relationship’ looming over me #proud of me for multiple things rn 🥹

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itstimetodrew · 6 months

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Could you fix him? Could you fix the green goblin?

The real question is would I even want to? 🤨

I could not, though. He'd have to want that for himself too and he absolutely has not for like... multiple decades. Maybe he wants it now. He could be lying. We just don't know... but I do know he's a doomed person and it's sexy. :)

#I know it's the opposite of what the mcu wants me to take away from their 'everyone can be saved' story but #I am 75% sure if they sent Norman back now de-goblined and understanding the reckless and insatiable violence he is capable of #he would be scared for maybe 10 days and then go right back to the '...okay lemme try ONE more time' thinking lol #when will you learn!? when will you learn!?!?! that your actions have consequences!!!!#real talk I’m probably gonna be dissatisfied with any way he’s handled in future MCU stuff lol #like if they make him good?? some new ‘billionaire weapons manufacturer who is now a good guy’ a la Tony stark type?? boo. stinky.#but if they keep bringing him back as a villain like. what new ground can we even tread here??#and if we don’t see him again I’ll still be sad bc..I want more 🥺#I CAN’T WIN!!!! just like him :)#anon ask

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gingerwerk · 10 months

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Rewatching Bobby begins again for the 50th time and I really do think Bobby is my favorite character on 911

#his story is just so important to me and it doesn’t hurt that Peter Krause be acting his pussy off every scene he’s inn #but him in s1 going from making a list of people he’s saved so that once he cancels out the lives he accidentally took he’ll kill himself #to accepting he not only deserves to live and has so much more to offer to the world but he also deserves to enjoy life and be happy #Bobby in s2 kinda walking on eggshells around Harry and may and Michael because he doesn’t want to overstep #and he also doesn’t feel like he has a right to say or do anything #Bobby’s ‘I’m no body’s father’ in s2 #to Harry saying he was gonna have 3 dads and may saying he’s her dad in s5 #to may saying that Athena brought 2 kids into the marriage and he brought buck #🥺#Bobby reaching out the the drunk driver who caused the accident and trying to help her recover #Bobby being a character who almost let all his darkness and pain consume him but instead he’s able to move on #and be a beacon of life and love and happiness and support for everyone in his life 🥲#anyways I love Robert Wayne Nash with my whole heart #Kelly watches 911

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cherry-bomb-ships · 2 years

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G O D I am gonna make some gifsets as fast as I can once I get home but look at thiS LOOK AT THISSSSSS

Okay ONE: him doing his little happy stim hand thing when he laughs makes me SO HAPPYYYY 💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖

AND T W O: MOST IMPORTANTLY, Once everyone else starts cheering, Jamie gets so excited that his FIRST INSTINCT is to reach out and hug and shake the person closest to him even though it's, assumedly, a total stranger??? HE IS JUST SO NATURALLY AND INSTINCTUALLY AFFECTIONATE ISNT HE????? 😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖

#LIKE I DIDNT ALREADY KNOW HE WAS NATURALLY AFFECTIONATE BUT G O D 🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖#MY BRAIN IS JUST FUCKING MELTING I CANT THINK ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE RIGHT NOW!!!!!! LORD HELP ME BUT DONT ACTUALLY I DONT WANT SAVING 🥺🥺🥺#MY SUNSHIIIIIINE I WOULD DIE AND KILL FOR YOU!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAOGH #ruby rambles #💜: love burning like the sun #gush post #caps tw

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killuaisaprincess · 1 year

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PRETTY BABEY

#personal #I LOVE HIM #I finally have my three Ki shrines 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏🙏🤲🤧🤧🤧🤧#I LOVE HIM 🥺🥺🥺😭🙏#I CAN HOLD HIM IN MY PALM WITH SOME #Holding this one in my palms couldn’t happen he too big but he’s so pretty 🥺😭🙏#I-I HAPPY #GOT HIM BEFORE I BROKE BUT NO I REFUSE TO SELL HIM #Its hard to pick a fave but my grail Ki plush is my fave he 🥺😭🙏 is so rare and cuteand not even pictured here but #Not official merch wise not even a question 🤧 MY KI IN DRESS CUSTOM FIGURE AND CUSTOM GK MARRIAGE FIGURE 🥺🙏😭#I AM SAVING UP SO I CAN BUY FROM HIM AGAIN BLESS HIS WORK #Ki is tiny 🥺#PRECIOUS MY SUNSHINE 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭🙏#Most people save up for cars or! Other stuff!#I SAVE FOR KI A LITTLE ASIDE FOR MY BABEY 🥺😭🙏#IDC MAN CARS DONT MAKE ME HAPPY KI DOES 😤#I WILL DIE A CRINGE WEEB IDC LOOK AT HIM HES 🤲#THE BEST #I am unsure where to put GK nendos 🥺😭🙏🤲 BUT THEY WILL BE MARRIED AGAIN #JUST need the right spot and the patience to deal with putting clothes on the bodies omg 🤧#I DID IT PAST ME THREE 🙏 Pray for GK content everday to Ki 🥺🥺🥺😤😭🙏#LOTS OF SAVING AND LOTS OF DUMB SPENDING MIX OF BOTH ADULTHOOD IN A NUTSHELL B-but 🥺😭🙏🤲#Two years of building slowly!!#🥺😭🙏#Paid off! 🥺🤧😭🙏 I mean there’s an occasional smol thing released but I have all the Ki’s I want basically so just put a little to the #side for him 🥺

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mrs-kelly · 2 years

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Oh my God. Can’t believe I’m yearning for Fox so hard that I had a dream I was working with him and Sc.ully, and there was a real case going on like it was serious and we were supposed to be doing work but all I wanted to do was hug Fox and hold his hand and kiss his face. And we kept getting talked to because everyone knew we had a thing going on. Oh my God 😳💕

#ren speaks #ren’s dream journal #🦊.ship #I say that all I wanted to do was love on him as if it was just me but #in my dream he was more than happy to oblige and while we were working he’d reach over and hold my hand 🥰#and sometimes I’d walk up to him and ask for a hug and he’d hold me tight and put his hand on the back of my head #and guide my ear to his chest so I could hear his heart beating 🥺💕#and we’d just stand there and sway while I listened to the steady drum of his heart….#it was so soothing…#but also later in the dream right before I woke up #we got split up onto separate parts of the case so he was doing investigation with Dana #and I was doing paperwork #and I finished up my paperwork and was headed home for the day #but as I was nearing the train station I saw a homeless woman shouting #and as soon as she saw me she stated right into my eyes and said #‘he’s hurt! your man is hurt and I know you feel like you’re not good enough to do anything about that but he needs you!’#and I was. understandably freaked out. but I started running into the station anyway and the lady just kept yelling ‘Fox’ over and over #I guess just to solidify to me that she was definitely telling the truth #but as I was running into the station my dream started dissipating and I woke up so :(#I didn’t get to save him!! :(#but we did get to have a lot of sweet moments!!#and now I know what it feels like to be in his arms 🥺💕#he was just so gentle with me 😭💕💕💕#I’m like. losing it over Fox 🥰#I never expected to like Fox Mul.der this much. never ever and I’ve known of him my whole life #I just never really knew him. I just knew of him #it’s just so funny

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bastardpacs · 2 years

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https://twitter.com/LanceHoyt/status/1530303642619809798 He decided to bless the timeline with a picture today

CASS omg thank you!!! 😩💗 He looks so HANDSOME 🥺 I hate that we may not have gotten him in Double or Nothing, but he blessed us with this picture so we are absolutely the real winners this week 😌💞

#‼️ARMS‼️#And the picture he posted today of himself and his little dog Buster 🥺#Lance really said our rights today djdjdj 😌💖#and I have really been loving how he has been doing his hair!!!!#But AH thank you again so much 😭💞#cassie tag #😭💗💖!!!!!#allelitecowboy #rainy day tag #save forever and ever 😭💗!!!!#For real though! I am legit so excited for Double or Nothing and watching it with you guys and everyone!!!#Legit that is the best part of the PPV for me djdj 💞

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4giorno · 5 months

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no way i choked up again at the boat to the morphic pool ⚰️

#HDJFJDJDD i thought i would be fine the second but its still too emotional 😭#i have my same beloved party with me as last time and wah their lines after arriving here.... 💖💖💖💖💖 i love them beyond words #like shad0wheart saying she knows we will win is so lovely to me. and wah astari0n saying they have to survive #bc he never wants to stop kissing my character is still so cute 🥺 like yeah we are in the heart of the storm now but im like my lovesss <33 #i want to feel this abt karl4ch too but im mainly just upset bc i know what will happen 😭 i think she has the worst fates in the game :(#im actually rlly nervous abt getting to the ending bc you might recall i never saw it bc it was broken lmao #also the new epilogues they added too....... its SO MUCH im not ready #also update i fulfilled one of my stupid goals which is i have over 10k money left after going through the point of no return #and the goal was to have that much to pretend my character rlly saved it for his and astari0ns future LMAO #like truly dumb but hey im roleplaying right 😤😤😤😤#i got my scrolls of sunbeam and globe of invulnerability and health and speed and angelic slumber potions so its all good right 😘

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finely-aged-dragons · 1 year

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Very much loved the little ‘help Krem distract my boyfriend so they can do a birthday surprise’ thing. Conversation going nicely until it turns to bland topics and Bull wonders if being back at the palace has Sav keyed up again so he’s rambling about random shit out of nerves but it’s quickly apparent he’s distracting him from something but if Savraas is in on it it’s probably something good so he’ll play along and see what the surprise is even though he has negative desire to hear about Ferelden politics

#what a guy #im. look. talking to all my friends again after a timeskip. im in heaven. i love collecting all the little doggy bones for cullens new frien #i couldnt find cassandra so im gonna reload a save and see now that i know where she's at #and poor seneschal bran still tied to the vicount's office by his leash. and not in a fun way #now that i know he's suffering under varric's nonsense long after Hawke's left...#i might need to revisit that smut shot #ANYWAY. cries about my friends #and trying not to get too gooey over my bf hehe #'i choose you every day. i dont need anything to bind me to that.' 🥺😭💘#corkscrewed right up #hc that the horns make hugging hard so they do little headbutts like cats do for affection

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ham1lton · 18 days

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nepo sister?

pairing: lando norris x fellow driver’s sister!reader (no faceclaim).

summary: your sister is one of the most famous f1 drivers in history and when she suddenly has a barrage of hate and online users comparing her to a certain lando norris, you’ve gotta step in and sort it out. you couldn’t foresee the man in question being into you.

warnings: jokes about adoption but it’s lighthearted. also mentions of racism and sexism. also y/n bullying poor lando in defence of her sister.

author’s note: as i do with requests, i put my own little spin on it! hope u enjoy 💕also i used aaliyah as your sister’s faceclaim but she’s your adopted sister so y/n is still pretty much whoever you view her to be. i refer to yn’s older sis as o/s. in case you were wondering who tf that is. reminder that requests are currently still open!

edit: now part of a series ! <3

liked by oldersister, yourbffsuser and 20,873 others.

yourusername: why is my sister so dramatic? she picked me up from the airport in a FUR jacket in a LIMO? also this cat is evil. genuinely evil. cat satan. catan?

oldersister: i was at an EVENT! 😭 you’re lucky i even picked your ass up anyways 🙄🖕🏾.

-> user1: their dynamic is so funny.

user2: y/n in melbourne for the grand prix??? 😍

user4: o/s looks sooo good 😍😍😍

user3: the cat is so cute 🥺

-> yourusername: no need to lie bae ❤️

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yourusername: my sister before, during and after the race. plus our dad!! he’s new to this ig shit so be nice or i’ll bulldoze your grandma. let me start by just say something… my sister is one of the best drivers in the world. i see a lot of people cussing her out and all i’m gonna say is don’t pmo. she’s my sister but even besides that, her multiple historic accolades speak for themselves. quit playing with your misogynistic and racist shit before i drag your whole lineage.

oldersister: stop being so aggressive 🙄 but thank you. love you.

-> yourusername: posted this to cover the fact i spent $82 on fast food using your card 😘

-> oldersister: that’s it? that’s not the worst you’ve done tbf.

hater1: be real. lando is better than o/s in every shape and form. it’s just a fact.

-> yourusername: so why is o/s a two-time world champion and lando isn’t?

user1: SPEAK ON IT!!! 🗣️🔈

hater2: o/s is overrated.

-> yourusername: snore. ass take. come up with something original and not completely false.

user2: y/n said might i suggest you don’t fuck with my sis!!!

-> user6: she’s in her solange era 😭

user3: is this because someone said y/n was worse than lando?

-> yourusername: like 🤣 don’t ever compare the two. o/s is a world champion and lando is… lando.

-> landonorris: NO CAUSE WHY AM I IN THIS???? 😭

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landonorris: just woke up to my name trending on twitter. what you say fuck me for 😭😭 stop using my name to drag my fellow drivers i’m begging you.

user1: no cause if anything these haters are lando antis and not o/s antis. they set your ass up omgggg. pure insane hate.

user2: fighting for my life defending you.

user3: the three diff angles of the same george crying vid is crazy work ngl.

-> georgerussell63: no cause HE got dragged and now he’s setting ME up.

-> user3: dw king. find solace in that he either searched google purely for this photo or had them saved onto his phone. haters nowadays are fans in denial.

-> landonorris: nah i’m just a hater.

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yourusername: i met lando nowins. i guess he’s cool.

oldersister: now that’s just not right.

-> landonorris: i know!! after the four hour long convo y/n and i had, she still drags me 😔💔.

-> oldersister: i wasn’t talking about that. i’m talking about the picture she chose for me. why did she use that photo after catching me off guard??? and if you know y/n, get ready for the bullying. she does it to all her loved ones.

user2: HELPJSJSJAKA

user3: this is the content i follow you for y/n.

*liked by yourusername.*

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ellecdc · 2 months

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Can i request something bit angsty? 🥺 its totally fine if you dont wanna write it tho!

I was thinking, wolfstar x reader got into an argument and reader started to occlude and the boys got scared they might be out of line bcs she only occlude when shes really hurting?

this is my SHIT - love me some hurt/comfort. thanks for requesting, lovie 🫶

poly!wolfstar x fem!readerCW: hurt/comfort, arguing, mention of past family discourse, toxic family memories

“I’m sorry. You did what?” Sirius beseeched, walking into the living room from the kitchen and interrupting the points (arguments) you and Remus were each in the process of making. You gave him an unimpressed look, knowing he wasn’t actually asking you to repeat yourself, he just couldn’t believe what he had heard.

“She gave Mary-Ella over a grand.” Remus muttered bitterly.

“I did not give Mary-Ella money, I loaned her money.” You were quick to correct.

Sirius just scoffed. “Sure you did, dollface.” He sneered, making his usual pet-name burn to the touch. “You are never going to see that money again.”

“What were you thinking?” Remus implored.

“I was thinking that my friend was in a bind and needed help. I hardly think that’s a crime.”

“You didn’t just loan a little bit of money, though. You loaned a lot of money to a friend who is not reliable in the slightest.” Remus asserted.

“We have been working so hard trying to save up to move. To move closer to Diagon Alley so that Remus can be closer to work, and we can finally get out of my uncles flat.” Sirius added.

“I know we’ve been working hard, Sirius. I know this because I too have been working hard. But I’m not going to watch my friend struggle when there’s something I could do to help!”

“This choice impacted all of us. You had no right to make this decision on your own.”

It was your turn to scoff as you turned to glare at Remus incredulously. You had been trying to stay patient, knowing that this close to the moon, Remus was feeling extra sensitive. But him ganging-up on you with Sirius quickly found what little patience you had running thin. “I 'had no right' to make a decision about money that I made on my own?”

“You have no ground to stand on, buttercup. You’re now out more than a grand because of this choice; we’re all out more than a grand because of your choice.” Sirius growled, tone full of derision.

“If the roles were reversed, Mary-Ella would help me out!” You tried to reason, only for Remus to bark a laugh.

“That doesn’t even matter, dove. Because you’d never be in her position and likewise, she’d never be in yours. She’s irresponsible, unreliable, and a mooch.”

You tried to ignore the burning sensation in your sinuses as you spoke to the back of Remus’ head; he apparently had grown so disgusted with you that he couldn’t even look at you anymore.

“I don’t like you talking about my friends like that. I don’t understand why we’re making such a big deal about this, I jus-” but you were cut off as Remus stood abruptly and turned on you.

“We’re making this a big deal because it is a big deal!” he bellowed. “You leave this apartment in the morning and it’s like Sirius and I don’t exist anymore. You conduct yourself like some single woman with no responsibility to anyone else but herself.”

“You’re being selfish. You can’t possibly expect to drop a bomb on us like this and, what, expect us to just reply with ‘yes dear’? You fucked up, Y/N.” Sirius added, arms crossed defensively over his chest and cold silver eyes glared daggers that permeated your entire being. Remus carried on, unperturbed by the effects this conversation was having on you.

You felt like you were seventeen again, like you were eleven, nine, six. You felt like a babe whose hand had been slapped for reasons beyond your comprehension.

Do you ever stop and think about the consequences, Y/N?

You were sitting at the dining room table as your father lashed you with his words, each sentence punctuated with the slamming of his fists on the table. You were standing on the platform having just reunited with your parents after the school year as your mother’s claws dug into your arms, warning you that punishment was to come later if you didn’t smarten up. You were cowering in the backyard as your father screamed at you in front of the entire neighbourhood – a free show for all to enjoy.

You think crying will earn you any sympathy here? You’re a manipulative little witch if you think that will work on me. Keep crying and I’ll give you something to cry about.

You felt naked – like your figurative clothes had been violently ripped from your body – and there you stood, stripped bare for all to leer at. Standing before two people...who were meant to love you unconditionally...as they laced their words with venom and spat vitriol at you.

You couldn’t even hear the point Remus was trying to make anymore. It didn’t matter anyway.

He hated you. You were hated. You were a disappointment, a burden, unwanted.

But you couldn’t cry – could never cry. You’d just be manipulating them. You were deceitful. Emotions were deceitful. The way you felt was wrong. And they were right.

Always right.

So, you did what you always did; you made it quiet.

You began layering rows of stones around your being. Protection. Space. Distance. Safety.

They couldn’t hurt you from all the way in here, not from the other side of your wall. You’d be safe here. Here in the quiet.

It was safe in the quiet.

Sirius felt disgraceful at how long it took him to notice the signs of you pulling away from the conversation. Away from them. Away from him.

Remus – always more sensitive than the two of you when it came to the likes of money, combined with feeling extra flustered with the upcoming full moon – had no reason to expect nor recognize signs of occlusion.

Suddenly, Sirius was fourteen again. Walburga was standing over him with her wand aimed at his chest, but all he could see was Regulus. He had prayed at the time that his brother could hear him begging in his mind:

Turn it off, Reg. Just turn it off. It can’t hurt you if you turn it off.

Sirius himself sat in an almost constant state of occlusion during his fifth year, knowing somewhere deep in his gut that the beginning of the end of his life as the heir of the Ancient and Most Noble House of Black (or the end of his life in general) was near.

Growing up wasn’t a whole lot easier for you, it seemed. And he knew that when things got to be too much, you did what you needed to do to protect yourself.

He suddenly hated himself. You weren’t supposed to need to protect yourself from him and Remus. It was their job to protect you; just like you always protected them.

How you protected Remus from wasting away on the days leading up to and recovering from the full moon. You never let him go hungry or thirsty, you always made sure the space was clean and tidy, and you never let him fall into his typical pre- and post-moon self-loathing.

And you protected Sirius from himself; from saying things that he wouldn’t be able to take back, from being the worst version of himself, from losing you and Remus completely.

He didn’t deserve you.

You didn’t deserve this.

For fuck’s sake all you had been doing was being kind.

Being a good friend, someone that others could rely on, protecting people who meant so much to you.

All you were doing was being your kind, courteous, protective, generous self that Remus and Sirius had fallen in love with from the very start.

“Moony!” Sirius pleaded, causing the lycanthrope to pause in his tangent. You didn’t even flinch at the sudden change in the atmosphere as Remus looked at Sirius bewilderedly.

“We’ve lost her.” Sirius murmured quietly, causing Remus to spin to observe you.

“Well...” Remus began, still struggling to shake off his anger and the need to argue. “But I-”

“It’s enough, Remus.” Sirius hissed quietly, staring at Remus with a look he hoped conveyed no nonsense.

He apparently succeeded as Remus let out whatever breath he’d been holding as he turned again to face you.

“Dove, I’m sorry.” Remus whispered as he tried to move towards you, but you instinctively took a step back to maintain the distance between you; your arms wrapped around your middle protectively as if that was all that was holding you together.

Sirius’ heart felt like it split in two – and based off of the look on Remus’ face, he wasn’t fairing any better.

“Y/N?” Sirius tried. You didn’t turn to look at him, but you hummed in quasi-acknowledgement.

“Can you look at me?” He tried quietly, but you shook your head no.

Remus made a pained sound as he tried to move towards you again, ducking his head down in an attempt to make eye contact with you. You didn’t back away from him this time, but your arms tightened in their hold around your middle.

“Sweetheart, I’m sorry I...I shouldn’t have spoken to you like that. I’m...I was out of line.”

“Come back?” Sirius pleaded. “Please.”

You took a deep breath and turned your face towards your boyfriends, but Sirius could tell your eyes were still foggy – you were still hiding.

“We won’t talk about it anymore. That conversation is done.” Sirius said.

“But-” you started, voice grating from the tightness in your throat, but he cut you off.

“The conversation is done. You did what you thought was right, you were being your kind lovely self, helping your friend when they needed you. We shouldn’t have yelled at you, sweets. I’m sorry.”

Remus made another pained sound and moved closer to you again.

“Dovey, I’m so sorry. Please, can I- would you like a hug?”

Sirius watched as you looked at Remus, seeming to weigh your options before you nodded once at him. Remus needn’t any more invitation and quickly (though gently) made for you, enveloping you in his arms.

The three of you stayed like that – Remus with his arms around you, you with your arms around yourself and your face pushed into his chest, and Sirius standing helplessly at the side – before Sirius started to notice some tension leaving your shoulders.

“Why’d you go?” He asked you quietly, gently placing a hand in the middle of your shoulder blades and rubbing in a way he hoped was soothing.

“I didn’t want to cry.” You admitted into Remus’ chest, neither boy missing how tight your voice seemed to be, even as your voice barely raised above a whisper.

“Oh, dolly. Just cry. Cry, okay? Make us feel like tossers, but don’t leave.” Sirius said.

“I didn’t want you to feel bad.” You muttered wetly, finally turning so Sirius could see your red and wet face.

“But we deserved it. Oh, my love.” Remus cooed as he all but picked you up and locked your legs around his hips, forcing you to move your grip from around yourself to around him.

“I’m not s’posed to make you cry. I’m s’posed to make you smile.” He muttered pitifully, pressing his lips into your hair.

“And cum.” Sirius spoke in the same pitiful tone, brushing a strand of hair from your forehead.

You laughed wetly and the last of your occlusion appeared to slip away which was what Sirius had been aiming for. It didn’t make him feel all that much better though.

“Oh, my girl. I’m so sorry, Pads is right. You were just being your lovely self, and I’m a bastard.”

Sirius watched as your brows furrowed. “You’re not a bastard.”

“No,” Sirius agreed readily, “he was just being a bastard. Both of us were. Do you think you can forgive us?”

You nodded quickly but Remus tsked in response.

“Don’t let us off so easily, dovey. Make us pay for it. What do you need? Do you need a foot rub? You want cake? Ice cream? What about a kitten? You’ve always wanted a kitten.”

You had been shaking your head at everything Remus said until the last one, your curiosity obviously piqued.

Fuckin’ hells, Sirius thought, if she gets a kitten everytime one of us acts like an arse, we’re going to be overrun with cats by next month.

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