#but if it's related to my recent inactivity...then idk

[midoribai]

addressing this blog

hi! so.. i'm gonna try and be as honest as i can with this post. i'm gonna address some questions (that no one has asked but i feel are necessary to talk about) because i kind of just don't want to lie anymore lol

Q: first off, why has this blog been so inactive?:

A: er. a couple reasons. recently, my mental health has been going through a lot of ups and downs, along with the fact i've been trying to focus on things irl like friends, grades, etc. most of the time i just don't.. have time to write or do stuff for this blog. i wish i could, i promise. i'm just dealing with my own issues daily.

the second reason is. well. few people are interested in this anymore. few of us still even have interest in midori. i mean, maybe we do. just not as much as before. its okay, things change over the course of 6-7 ish months. i understand that and i'm not going to try to push it anymore

Q: what do i plan to do with this blog?

A: okay. i'm gonna be as honest as i can with this. i have no fucking clue. i've been thinking about like final bit of lore posts and just simple goodbye posts for a while. i've also been thinking about just completely resetting and completely disregarding the lore and starting over. as tempting as this is, others and i have (probably) poured a lot of time into thinking about and writing our characters' lore and wouldn't be the happiest to just throw it all away. idk. you tell me what you think.

i've also been thinking really hard about just making a new ask blog. or just repurposing this one. not sure yet, i want some other people's opinion first. i just want to start a new ask/rp blog. preferably with a different character. mostly because my y/ttd hpfx has been. non existant. haha..

Q: anything else i want to talk about?

A: this isn't really a question, i know. i just wanted an excuse to yap some more.

so.. mostly, i'd like to say i'm sorry. i'm sorry i dragged all of you along. i was. kind of selfish throughout this entire thing. maybe you guys don't feel this way, but i feel like i've been really controlling in the rp. or just like i spoke over everyone else. and that i haven't been making time for everyone. i'm sorry. i have personal issues that i shouldn't have let affect the rp/everyone else. i hope you forgive me

Q: final thoughts?

A: for now, this post is all i have to say. obviously if you have more questions, then please ask. my inbox has been empty for a very long while.

along with the apology above, i'd also like to thank you all!! i'm so happy you all stuck with me for so long. honestly, i've been.. really uncomfortable with this blog. by that i mean it's just been really stressful to think about what i'm going to do with it. i don't want to throw away the thing i love, the thing that brought me out of a bad mental state. but it can't last forever, i know.

anyway! i'm also kinda curious about something. if i were to make a new ask or rp blog would you guys be interested...

currently these are my ideas: pkmn!shin au ask blog, takeshi (my y/ttd oc) ask blog, h/xh related ask blog, angel (midoribai oc) rp blog, and sunny (midoribai god oc).

i might make a poll with these options if you guys really are interest in any of these.

that's really all i have to say. thank you everyone, ily <3

#ooc: mod nishi !~ ☆ #important

[ticktockteapot]

You've convinced me. How would one get into Mad T Party?

Oh goodness where do I begin!!! LONG POST AHEAD!!!! Ok soooo I have some posts tagged as #mad t fandom lore thanks to @spikrock and @hattersgirlalice for giving me the inspiration to start this whole rabbit hole of nostalgia lol which showcases the basic general info of the mtp band performer's nicknames and noteworthy moments in the fandom (mostly gifs of the band that altered the fandom in some way, and fanart from the captains)

U can watch all the videos of the band performing on YouTube (There's numerous sources but I personally like to watch Nick Turchens playlist another place to find vids of T are just random clips here on Tumblr)

The OG Captains from what I can personally remember were @briannacherrygarcia she was THE ARTIST! she made the majority of the fanart headcanons for the fandom along with Storywhisper who wrote fanfics! (unfortunately they're deactivated and it still makes me sad I wanted to reread all their fics to freshen up on the lore but alas they are lost in the void somewhere as far as I know if anybody has links saved uhhhh help a girl out 👀)

There's many other talented fanfic authors and fan-artists!!! Gifs and Photography were a HUGE part of the fandom! People would make reaction gifs out of any and everything! Alot of shippy moments that were captured by these talented peeps made us all go feral EVERY SINGLE. TIME. BCUZ THEY WERE OUR ONLY REFERENCE FOR CANON CHARACTERIZATION STUFF.

@briannacherrygarcia (she always ate and left no crumbs🔥🔥🔥 absolutely iconic queen💅 a freaking art legend for any Alice in wonderland fan)

@cogitaeworks / @cogitae (they are godtier ohh m y godd fucking gorgeous artworks I swear)

Here is a list of all the blogs I've hunted down here on Tumblr to rummage thru for anything Mad T related, u don't have to follow all of these peeps a good majority of them especially on the lower half are inactive, and lower half is mostly just reblogs from other blogs maybe we can find eachother and form a lil T renaissance I'm just desperate for any MTP crumbs from this ancient ruin of a fandom lost to time

@elrohare is still active, they don't write fics as recently but thier old fics r one of the only main references I still use for MTP fics character arcs and lore so far

@rockingthemadtparty @oldeststoryintheuniverse @madtpartymisadventures @mishydraws @capnhap @artbymaryc @cheshire-kitten @nodamikimischief @fannishflightsoffancy @trekkiebeth @marchmousekits @drinkmebar-blog @tevlek @mgmpluto @allpackedforadventure @its-maddhatterfan @glindyupland @thackery-earwicket @t-party-madness @nemo-in-wonderland @marchmouse @zintk @allpackedforadventure @mrsmarchhare @thatrandomartistjavi @xsunnysoftx @illuminatilovesyou @fandom-hell-ferrylass @writegeist-muse @midnightwriterkay @littleivyfaery-blog @inuitakumi @queerasian-blog @mrchmouse-blog @burrwabbits @thacky-earwicket

(Put an F in the chat for @storywhisper 😢 they're not dead as far as I know but their blog is totally gone from Tumblr and I can't find any of their fics 😭😭😭)

If u wanna get to know more about the performers outside of the band, as in irl, they have social medias on YouTube and TikToks. I'm still a little iffy on sharing the irl identities for new fans cuz the whole character integrity thing at Disney AND ALL THE OG FANS REMEMBER ALL THE DRAMA ABOUT THIS TYPE OF STUFF IYKYK First I would have to get consent from a trusted source who can confirm that they are ok with fans knowing thier identity outside of T. Y'all gotta be respectful this time frfr 😒🙄

And not to toot my own horn but I've made a few MTP fanarts recently tagged in #myart and I'm in the middle of making my own Mad T Party Universe. Taking inspiration from multiple headcanons and performances from the fandom and combining them all together in a multi chapter art/comic thing??? IDK I'm not a writer but imma just post art pieces here and there with lore sprinkled in or something low-key if anybody wants to help me write it I'd totally appreciate it cuz how the hell do authors DO THIS ALL THE TIME 😭😩 y'all are troopers for keeping all these random facts and characters in ur head all the damn time🙃 and the audacity to have it in a linear timeline?? Organization???never heard of her!

Soooo yeaaaaa just look at my tag #mad t fandom lore for the basics, devour all of Briannacherrygarcia's masterpieces, watch the YouTube vids, follow some of the blogs, and maybe follow me as well since I'm rebooting this fandom apparently. Cringe is dead and I'm the grim fucking reaper.

FEEL FREE TO ASK ANY MORE QUESTIONS IF U HAVE ANY! Or if u wanna discuss shippy stuff 💞💞💞

Btw this has absolutely nothing to do with MTP but high-key I LOVE ur url bcuz I'm actually a Neo-Pagan Persephone devotee sooo the whole pomegranate thing is just *chefs kiss* ✨blessed be fellow warlock/witch✨

#sorry this is super long its probably just gonna be used as a reference for myself aswell #mad t party band #mad t party #mtp #mad t fandom #mad t fandom lore #mtp hatter #mtp tarrant #mtp march hare #mtp thackery #mtp dormouse #mtp mally #mtp chesire #mtp caterpillar #mtp absolem #mtp alice #mtp mad hatter

[wegonbealright-09]

I'm tired.

I'm so tired. I'm actually deactivating my twitter acc because everytime I come back from that app, I'm messed up emotionally and mentally.

The only time I've ever hated twitter this much was in 2018, when BTS was this close to disbandment.

Like I don't understand, I never thought being a fan of jimin would be this hard. It's like Hybe is trying to discourage us, because this is tiring me mentally and emotionally, I'm not in the right space and all this bull shit it just piling up on top of my stresses, like being a fan is not supposed to be this tiring. I'm tired. It's like they want jimin to lose fans because we're fighting a losing battle.

We've been raising the same issues over and over again but they are falling into deaf ears. Recently fans complained well armies complained about something related to seven and BH responded immediately. When we've been begging them to restock like crazy for three months now.

I'm not bitter. But I won't lie and pretend I'm happy for jk and his fabricated success, maybe in the beginning I was because he was one of my favourite members, but now it's too much, we've been begging them to restock like crazy and they've decided to release cds for sevens remix I mean what the fuck?!!!

I'm feeling sorry for y'all armies especially those who think BTS will still be BTS in 2025. They might not disband but trust me it won't be the same. As much as this second chapter has revealed a lot of solo stans, it also made me see the members true colours, who they really are.

This is scooter braun the man whose ass armies are licking. This is him explaining how 2NE1 was CL's biggest obstacle. CL was a member of 2ne1, she was a rapper and scooter brainwashed her into leaving the group. He made her believe that she was bigger than the group, she didn't need the group the group needed her. She was a give a solo contract that promoted her debut successfully but the success didn't even last a year, and he left her like a used condom, when fans questioned he gave useless reasons.

This is the reality we're all facing.

Jk has been feeling really big lately, eversince he debuted. Now alot of people mistake a person having a huge ego for confidence. There's a huge difference between an ego and confidence.

And jk has been talking like someone who's got their ego polished. He's talking about himself being big, giant pop star, the first, the only one and so on.

I mean there's a difference between having goals and being arrogant.

It's like he already sees himself bigger than his group, bigger than his group mates. I've said this before and I'll say it again.

They did not choose jk because he's the youngest, the golden goose, the most talented, the most marketable in the west.

Because jimin is by far the most marketable in the west. This man has Hollywood in wrapped around his little pinky. His Pandora streams are massive, bigger than BTS' own. He's been stable on the charts with no promo so you do your math.

They chose jk because he's the most gullible, the greediest maybe idk, he's always wanted more, he's never satisfied and he's always been competitive, wanting to stand out, wanting to be "the one and only". He was the easiest to manipulate and he fell right at the palm of scooter's hands.

The awards that they are gunning for with all these restocks won't even belong to jk they will decorate scooter's office.

Honestly I'm tired like really tired it's not even funny.

There's no reasonable explanation for this behaviour from jimin's agency's except for the fact he might have not renewed his contract yet and they are showing him he's nothing without them. Or jimin has signed with a different agency for his solo activities because why would they go to such lengths to sabotage one of their own it makes no sense.

And pjms have been losing their minds some think that jimin might not be aware of what's going on but I think he knows. I know he doesn't have twitter and he's been inactive for about a year now?

But jimin has friends who see this and probably tell him, the members like jhope who have his back probably see stuff like this and tell him. Jimin has producers who worked with him on LC and are keeping track of LC so they see what's going on with the sabotage and all and they tell him. So he knows he def knows but Idk what they expect him to do.

I know he's working on something. He is working on something and it might be what we all want and that is him being free form BH and Hybe.

I just need him to release new music as in yesterday. Or give us a clue, a sign because wtf!!!!! 😭😭😭😭

#jimin #jm #park jimin #pjm2 #hybe #big hit #restock like crazy #like crazy #free jimin #i'm dead #wegonbealright-09

[arnold-layne]

Hiya, NeverLove anon here.

If you’re still up for translating one of their songs I would appreciate it if you could do either track 1 or six from their Sex metal album. No pressure intended. I’ve slowly started listening to more Russian music and it’s been really interesting so far! Do you have any Russian rock or metal bands you recommend?

sorry this took me so long! i'll go with Лисий-кисий because i like that song too. so the title is a little bit hard to crack because officially the word кисий doesn't exist in russian. but it means something along the lines of 'cat-like'. Лисий-кисий thus can be translated as 'foxy - cat-like' (it's about a girl's gaze)

first goes the chorus:

Oh i like her foxy-cat-like gaze so much Look at me again Like this, foxy-cat-like Oh i like her foxy-cat-like gaze so much Look at me again. Hey, hey, again

chorus again

The devil's in the details, in the stuffy hall There's chemistry of young bodies You came here without a boyfriend Seems like he gifted you to me Closer-farther, let's play Until your hair is on my bedsheets I know, too cheeky That's what you like

Your boy calls, you don't answer Tell me I have hallucinations You look at me so bravely Kitty, don't snort so much You know you'll go with me Anticipating an adventure My fingers go up your skirt Don't mind me, it's just a joke

chorus

Good morning, you have 7 missed calls Let's make up a legend for you That you hung at the friend's You'll have to tell him that with courage This wasn't cheating You just decided to take your revenge on him Let's do it again and I'll call the taxi

Don't open your soul to me I don't want to listen to this I saw how bright were your eyes When you betrayed your feelings You fed your demons You needed it Don't mind it, it's just a joke Single-use joke

chorus

chorus

oh boy do i have recommendations for russian music for you! i've only started listening to it like a couple months ago (avoided it all that time thinking it was bad, yes i was very stupid), so i don't have many but i do want to give you some

Green Apelsin - great folkish music with acoustic guitar, texts are folk-related and love songs. i personally like the album Северный ветер (The north wind)

Эпидемия (Epidemic) - amazing power metal band! their songs usually border on fantasy, as it is with power metal bands. my fave songs are Всадник из льда (Ice rider), Письмо ведьмаку (A letter to a witcher) and Рожденный для битвы (Born for battle)

СЛОТ (Slot) - hard rock with insane female vocals. Check out their songs Круги на воде (Circles on water), Бой! (Fight!) and Мертвые звезды (Dead stars).

Нуки (Nuki) - solo project of SLOT vocalist. Страна (Country), Бойся (Be afraid) and Пищевая цепочка (Food chain) are very good! Obligatory mentions:

Король и шут (King and Jester) - probably the most famous band in the country. initially punk-rock, then they branched into several genres, including acoustic ballads and metal. i couldn't really get into it, but my boyfriend is a huge fan. there was a biopic recently which rejuvenated the fame of the band, idk if it's available in english tho

Ария (Love song) - an old heavy metal band that existed since the 80s. think russian iron maiden

Кино (Movie)- another incredibly popular rock band from 80s-90s. released some of the biggest hits in russian music, my first song i learned on guitar was Кино song even though i don't particularly like it. inactive since death of its founder, Victor Tsoi. there are legends that he's not dead, which gave birth to a famous saying Цой жив! ("Tsoi is alive!") ok this is all i can now offer but i'll keep looking and maybe make a list when i collect enough! russian music is definitely underappreciated on worldwide scene (we all know why) and that's very unfair, a lot of it is very good. ive sought a moment to talk about it for a long time, thank you for giving me an opportunity! hope you enjoy it!

[chaotic-queer-disaster]

Hi, I'm a teen who's been diagnosed with ADHD for around 4 years now, and I'm starting to realize that I happen to have a lot of typically autistic traits and habits, and I was wondering if you have any good recommendations on places to do more research? I would like to know more about it, but I'm not sure where to start. Thanks!!

other, separate anon:

Hiya! i read your pinned so im not going to ask about anything professional, but I will ask if you know any trustworthy sources to look for more info? i cant get diagnosed for family reasons but despite that my parents *still* bring up the fact that they think im on the spectrum.

yet another anon:

hi hi! i just discovered ur blog and i rly love how so much of ur values align w mine. i feel safe here. im sorry if u've answered this before, but ive been questioning whether im autistic (or maybe have adhd) for a while now. and ik u're pro-educated self dx, so i was wondering what are ways i could do more research? idk if that makes sense. but i feel like what ive learned is not enough. i also realize i mask a lot of my traits and recently, my special interest involve people who are neurodivergent and they've made me embrace these traits more so i feel like im better at understanding myself. thank you for your time :)

~

I'm answering these together since they're all anon anyway and mostly asking the same thing. Some resources for figuring out if you're autistic include:

Resource Library - Autistic Women & Nonbinary Network (i have a personal vendetta against the phrase "women and nonbinary people", as a nonbinary person, but that aside the resources themselves seem good.)

Resource Library - ASAN (autisticadvocacy.org) (plus ASAN in general)

Diagnostic Criteria | Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) | NCBDDD | CDC -- this is the actual criteria, examining it and how it lines up to your feelings & experiences is a good place to start

Welcome to the Autistic Community (autismacceptance.com)

The #actuallyautistic tag on many social media platforms is also a space where you can see autistic people talk about our experiences and how you may relate, as well as autism-focused blogs like @.autism-resources, @.autistic-af, myself, and the now-inactive but still readable @.autism-asks, and but I caution you to not use that as your only or main resource.

You can also look for autism-friendly therapists that may help, talk to your doctor about your suspicions and have them help you, or reach out to your local autistic advocacy group (not all places have them, but some do). Preferably find one run by autistic people. I want to stress this part, because imo the best way to try and figure out if you're autistic is to talk to a lot of autistic people or autistic-friendly people who are willing to help you.

And a final note: do NOT look for answers from Autism Speaks. They won't help you, and they're inaccurate and ableist.

I wish you all good luck in figuring yourselves out!

#asks #anon #self diagnosis #autism research

[chanfictions]

OMG!!! I'm so happy you're doing well!!! Idk what your exact situation is but I've dealt with depression myself and I know the relief when the sun finally rises in your heart again 😊💕

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ thanks, anon. It's been a wild ride.

Update time! Chan is still doing surprisingly well. I've done a bit of writing but nothing worth posting at this point, as this is related to my unreleased monster fic that is forever banished to the proverbial dungeon.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who still follows, likes, and shares my work. I just hit 1k followers despite my recent inactivity and I can't fricken believe it. Y'all are amazing ❤️

I'll be back to writing again soon and plan to finish the prompt event, so keep an eye out for updates in a month or so maybe.

#chanswers

[mijashdi]

hello^^ im vivvy, im white & 20 & i use she/rot :3

my old/main blog is @mijashdi-moved

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tag guide⬇️

#tag organization = all tag collection(?) posts

--general:

#beauty = beauty of earth and humans and life and space<3

#f = funnies; #sfl = save for later; #art, #fashion, #jewelry, #makeup, etc = self explanatory

(#lmao = my old funnies tag)

#🐾 = all non-human creatures. (animals birds bugs fish etc) (ive tried to make different tags for different categories of creature but it just got too confusing; any other type of #[animal emoji] is one of those.)

#nsfw & #nsfw ? = literally "Not Safe For Work". encompasses artistic nudity/near nudity(including visual art and photography), erotic/sensual art/photography, sexual jokes, sexual discussion, etcetc. (i dont rb pornography, but i might decide to one day idk)

#gore = artistic visual depictions of gore, artistic visual depictions that imply gore Or explicit or graphic writing/words that conjures mental images of gore.

#blood = artistic visual depictions that include blood Or imply blood.

#pin & #fav = basically the same. dont ask the difference bc idk either.

#knowledge = fun/interesting facts, historical facts, important history, etc

#potent = kinda a catch-all for things that make me feel strong emotions but i dont have any other sort of specific tag for.

#receipts = informative posts/resources/etc that i might need to save if someone asks, etc

#things = knick knacks. objects. Things

#guitar = cool guitars. i do not play guitar nor do i have any interest in learning

#aes = scratches my brain

#scary = things that are scary/unsettling/creepy/gothic(?)/just halloweeny

#🏰 = architecture, architectural design/art, buildings in general, etc.

#photo = photography. (ive only recently started using this tag and i often forget to put it on things so. but youll find most photography in #beauty!)

#refs = mostly art references/resources. but sometimes i forget<3

#nefoedd = art of angels/angelic beings/angel-coded beings/etc. "nefoedd" is welsh for heaven, bliss, etc.

#me = hashtag relatable

#taylor swift = taylor swift criticisms. i dont like her

#🍒 & #[any tag that includes 🍒] = this is embarrassing but. its things that i think (or used to think) my ocs/favorite characters would do/own/post/etc. (mostly inactive atp)

#the feeling = man. idk. i cant explain it.

--fandoms/media/etc:

#xtr = things that apply to media i like but dont have a specific tag for.

#i dont go here = content of media ive never consumed, but i wanna rb for whatever reason

#babymetal; #mitski = self explanatory

#mob = mob psycho 100

#dc= dc comics(further dc tags in #tag organization)

#dunmesh = dungeon meshi (americanized title is delicious in dungeon)

#danny = danny phantom

#ladybug = miraculous ladybug

#atla = avatar the last airbender

#jerma = Jerma985 on Twitch.Tv

#miku = my best friend hatsune miku

#meg = megan thee stallion

#bey = beyonce

#marina = marina [and the diamonds] diamandis

#mlp = my little pony friendship is magic

#mcr = my chemical romance

#gaga = lady gaga

#nope = nope (2022) dir. jordan peele

#gf = gravity falls(inactive)

#steven = steven universe(inactive)

#art #beauty #xtr #gf #danny #ladybug #miku #aes #fashion #jewelry #things #knowledge #🐾 #🐝 #fav #pin #atla #receipts #potent #mob #hahahm #jerma #sfl #🍒 #tag organization #dc #f

[golftimex3]

sorry ive been inactive for a while ive been busy with school and stuff! but heres a cool thing that i did recently thats sonic related!!! i went to the sonic symphony world tour this saturday! i was kinda excited when they played pumpkin hill idk if its obvious hehe (voice reveal??? :p )

heres pics of the concert/my outfit that day and the pumkin hill vid!!

#sonic symphony #sonic the hedgehog #sth

[chim-chim1310]

*long jk-related ask so pls just ignore if you're uncomfortable*💃

maybe it's because i mostly feel annoyed at jk now, but i find him doing a wlive naked...cringe and over the top. for sure others enjoyed it and drooled after him, but i saw the clips and i was like 'yeah go all out to support your cool fratboy image'. yeah hes just chilling in his bed, but he's been doing those kinds of thirst-trap lives even before seven was released, and i believe he's doing that because of his image rebranding. drinking and passing gas while on live, sleeping with a candle lit (very irresponsible); sleeping in his bed but in y/n pov. those are intended for him to look 'cool' and like a cant-be-bothered, seductive man (uhm, eww). it's the same with the recent wlive, and he's going all out. i feel like he's trying too hard.

The live is also interesting because he gets to do two things at once: to continue the y/n agenda and to show how tight his bond with jimin still is (congrats jikook shippers, y'all have a new reason to use to ignore everything else). dont get me wrong jimin and jk have always had the silly and flirty dynamic, which is why they have die-hard shippers in the first place. we've seen it and they are just showing it there.

what makes me raise my eyebrows though is the timing. those hashtags have been trending in twt before that wlive and him going on live later on is a bit sus. even if he doesn't look at the trends, there are people (staff, friends, members) who could've informed him abt it, which may have prompted him to go live. it's not impossible at all. it could distract people and pacify things a little bit, and i guess it's working.

make it what you will but JK's actions are more sus now considering all that's happened. i mean what's the better way to pacify people? please them and show that everything is fine.

jimin responding to him on live doesn't really surprise me. it could be that he has time so he commented. it's not out of character for him, but may also be a way, again, to pacify things. i mean those tags are about him and it's his fans (& some armys) trending it after all. maybe he wants to do something about it. im not blaming jimin at all, i honestly think it's smart.

you can also look at this in a fanservice aspect (for both of them) because admit it or not, it has always been there. BTS doesn't necessarily need to do it because they're famous now and truly have good bonds, but they still engage in it from time to time to pacify fans and maintain their image. jikook interacting in the live can be them genuinely being good friends while also using the chance to ease things a little bit. it doesn't mean that they're being forced to do things though, but that they're doing it on their accord to at least control the situation.

unfortunately, the live can only distract people for so long. questions and outrage will continue because of the company's continuous inaction and shady behavior toward jimin. it won't ever be enough.

sorry for the long ask, but given all that has happened, i can't avoid second-guessing everything that jk does now. i can't stop speculating on some things.

i can be wrong about some things of course, but the live did not squash my displeasure for the company and jk's involvement in everything. he and jimin may be fine with each other, but that does not excuse all that has been happening.

I understand where you're coming from.

And I still very much dislike jungkook and think he's part of the reason for jimin's sabotage. That had happened and we can talk about it.

But that doesn't mean we have to be negative about him all the time. We can have fun if he's doing something funny.

But this live..... Idk it just didn't seem like some practiced skit to me.

It was so random. Didn't look planned at all.

Yeah there could be a high chance that he came live to distract people or make the situation better. Like after the festa dinner when they talked about hiatus and then jk came on live to settle things down. But that was a big thing.

This on the other hand is hard for me to believe that he came live for distract people. It's not out of character for jungkook to come live at random times like this. So I didn't really think much of it.

I believe it's looking too deep into things. Not everything has to be related to the company politics you know. To me it looks like he just randomly came live like he always does and jimin commented on it because he felt like it.

Not all of their moves has to be so calculated. Nobody thinks THAT much.

Assuming that jungkook or anyone has such calculated thoughts like that before doing the most mundane thing is not realistic to me.

Also for the shirtless thing. Yeah it could be cringe. I've said this before he's trying too hard to be cool. But then again it's none of our business. It's his body at the end of the day. He can show it off if he wants to.

For people who are attracted to him, it's like heaven right now. People who are not attracted to him just don't care.

I think we shouldn't say stuff like that. It's like people telling girls to wear decent clothing because if they wear short clothes then they're attention seeker and I'm strongly against it. I won't be a hypocrite and say the same thing to a man because I would be so pissed if some man said that to me.

It can be agreed that he's trying to be cool but it's not harming anyone so idc at least he's not talking shit like he was doing recently. So that's progress ig.

[marchofthekillerqueen]

yo i haven’t been in the queen fandom in a hot sec (been two years actually) but recently my hyperfixiation is back for them and was just wondering how’s things going? i get the impression that the fandom has died a bit more since i last left and it kind of low key makes me sad but at the same time small fandoms are usually pretty chill

tbh idk if I can give you an accurate answer but I’ll try lol. I’ve had this blog since early 2017 and since then my corner of the queen fandom has definitely died down, especially after the borhap hype settled a bit. a lot of blogs I used to follow have gone inactive so it’s kind of just me and a couple mutuals and followers in my little queen circle now, and I don’t see much original queen content anymore. that said, I haven’t really been seeking out new queen blogs to follow so for all I know there could be a thriving queen fandom out there that I’m completely oblivious to lol

I’m much more active on my sideblog these days but my queen obsession has also been coming out of dormancy so I’m still here and active if you have queen-related things you want to discuss! and I guess if anyone is still actively queen blogging or just wants to find more queen blogs to follow feel free to plug yourself and your favorite blogs :)

#anytime the queen fandom was super active it always felt hectic and there was so much drama for no reason #but it would be really nice to see things starting up again even if it’s just a chill group of a few of us #ask g

[storfulsten]

heyo o/, sorry I’ve been so inactive and unresponsive recently, offline life’s kinda just been busy lately with some things and stuff getting in the way of motivation or whatnot. still adore my goshdarn bombeep and will do more of that hopefully soon yessir. though also atm the few times I have been able to actually draw it’s kinda ended up more security breach related tbh ha. maybe I could in theory do something related to that, though as with my earlier fnaf stuff it would just end up in my nonsensical ooc mushy fluff au that is completely irrelevant to canon, so really outside of just stealing their looks it has nothing to do with anything so it wouldn’t even be fun outside of maybe shipping bears with buns (and with sb wolf and chicken gfs heck ye) if that’s your thing or perhaps liking colorful stuff ha. idk either way we’ll see I suppose

anyhow sorry for rambling, will try to get more productive with the regular stuff once things get more calm and chill and all that

for now, happy holidays I guess. whatever you’re celebrating I hope you’ve had and/or will have a good one ❤👍✨

#hopefully I'll get less reluctant to getting back to answering asks and such aswell #fingers crossed ha #but ye overall apologies and all that #and happy holidays #<3

[fuckingrealityshifting]

Update

Hi! I know I’ve been super inactive on this account and I apologize.

I’ve been really busy with life and my own mental health, and my newest interest I’m on tumblr 24/7 for on a different account, but I’ve also kind of been reconsidering my time here and I’m not really happy with what I’ve created.

I don’t really like this account.

I don’t like the fact I’m expected to like, I don’t know, Know Stuff, and I just don’t feel comfortable with people looking to me for information anymore.

Like, I don’t mind giving advice; I’ll answer dms and maybe get to answering asks but I just don’t really wanna make informational posts and resources anymore. I don’t wanna be that person.

I just don’t really wanna be Out There anymore. I’m no longer in a mood where I’m fine being the Mentally Ill 15 Year Old who runs a shifting account. I don’t want video essay/cringe videos or anything made of my account one day with the title going fuckingrealityshifting: the tumblr ‘shifting’ mystery or to be another entry on a list of tumblr jokes/iconic (in a bad way) posts/people.

All honestly? I wouldn’t say I don’t believe, but I’m doubting shifting or at least shifting the way it’s been presented recently.

I just lost interest a while ago and it’s like, ehhhh. I’m still spiritual, and I believe in weird crystal shit and all that other stuff, I just need to do more research to see if this actually has much of a historical basis.

I know it’s been said like, I don’t remember what civilization but some ancient civilization had something similar? Mayans? Mesopotamia? Idk. But when it was mentioned I just took that at its word before but now it’s like. If I’m gonna trust this isn’t a New Thing without much basis, I wanna find this. I wanna find the documents about this or the artifacts or whatever and I just haven’t made the effort to go and look. Or at least, older stuff related to this. It can be a new idea and true but it just doesn’t seem as trustworthy.

But the point is I just took supposed historical basis at its word without really critically thinking about it and I feel like that’s what’s been done with a lot of shifting justification.

I mean, in my heart of hearts I still believe, but I guess it’s more of a thing I’ve just drifted away from.

So I don’t know what to do. I’ve toyed with the idea of kind of mainly leaving this account and making a new one for casual spiritual shit (I talk abt my crystals, mediation, my journey, etc, being personal to me being the Main Point rather than a side thing to being an informational account) or like, reblogging the stuff I don’t like to an archive account and just converting this account to casual. I’m a little selfish and I kinda like the 2k followers even though I’m basically stopping what they followed me for.

I like this username. I do wanna keep the username whatever I’m doing. Lmao.

And this isn’t necessarily a permanent thing; my interest in shifting might rekindle and so I don’t wanna delete this account or anything.

I just don’t think I should have inserted myself into the shifting community the way I did and I honestly feel guilty about basically bringing it here. Like, I have no experience, I basically learned a lot about shifting and other spiritual stuff I was kind of learning as I went.

I know I’ve advocated knowing what you’re doing and talked about safety and stuff, and at least my conscious is clear knowing I cared and tried; but I feel like I didn’t do enough. I feel like it was presented as too much of an afterthought and should have been at the front of every single post especially when I was posting to Tumblr, the mentally ill youth’s haven for escapism.

Regarding shifting itself I think I was making it too much of a Thing as well. It’s just. Like, do it. Congrats, you’ve done. It’s that easy. And at least for me, I don’t know what the effect my posts had on other people, it felt like Something I Had To Feel Happening Before I Went To Sleep Or Else It Wouldnt Happen.

Also I think we shouldn’t look to find evidence for shifting. Like, scientific shit is just not going to exist. I think it’s like people pointing to miracles and going ‘God is great! He did this!’ n using it as evidence like. The nature of shifting and religions and all that is that It Cannot Be Proven and we should be okay with this.

We should be aware it is illogical to point to this having a strong basis in objective observable reality rather than try and make a case for it. I just feel it’s weird. It’s just weird to me. And I regret arguing for it. “You can’t disprove it, so therefore it’s true” is a logical fallacy.

Not saying that’s necessarily what was said, I recall it was more of a “You can’t disprove it and I can’t really prove it, so just let me believe” but I think the fallacy did seep into the ideology of some of the community.

I disagree this is a cult, but just because it’s not a cult doesn’t mean we’re not a fairly small group on the internet that has some questionable ideologies and behaviors that can get out of control. I just don’t wanna be responsible for making any mistakes that lead to questionable stuff or that even have led to anything. I just don’t want the power to be able to do that and I feel like I kinda created that for myself. My bad.

I fucking love y’all, though. We created a really nice, supportive community here that was dedicated to keeping each other safe the best we could. We made friendships and memes and fun times. I’m proud of that. And I’m proud of you.

TLDR:

I don’t wanna be a Prominent Shifting Page anymore, I just wanna be casual. Maybe I’ll convert this or make a new account.

Kinda questioning shifting, and even so I’ve overall lost interest or motivation in wanting to shift.

I think I went about this the wrong way and just don’t like how shifting is approached.

I don’t think it’s great to use questionable evidence to support something inherently unprovable. I think we should be okay not being able to prove or disprove it.

#reality shifting #shifting #shifting community #shiftblr

[robotforest]

about me | welcome to my blog!

hello there, i’m joey! in this pinned post i’ll cover: info to know before you follow me, stuff about me, and some of my tags that i use (if you’re viewing this on mobile or the default blog view on tumblr’s dashboard)

if you're here for my askbox, please read this first.

before you follow

✦ !! IMPORTANT !! as my bio says, i don’t tag my posts as i’m usually on mobile and use fast reblog. please scroll through my blog at your own discretion! i usually don’t reblog content with sensitive content though, such as intense gore or graphic violence - if applicable, i will also tag content as spoilers (this really only applies to major spoilers for newer or recent media which i also rarely consume as new so they're not very common). if you feel like there’s a post that needs proper tagging, please let me know!

✦ i am a queer southeast-asian person who has no tolerance for bigotry and will amplify other marginalized voices. if you have a problem with any of those things, do not follow or interact with me.

✦ i have adhd, so my hyperfixations change from time to time (on average a few months) - expect reblog spams from me of my current hyperfixation, although i'll still reblog things from other fandoms that i’m still into.

✦ i will unfollow blogs that have been inactive for more than a month just to keep my following clean.

about me

❀ malaysian-chinese 

❀ self-proclaimed geek

❀ game dev student

❀ cat person!!

❀ lover of all things robots and sci-fi (maybe fantasy from time to time); a geek

❀ wannabe hobbit and hockey goalie

❀ general creative

❀ railway kid (can and will reblog all things related to locomotives and railways)

my tags

➽ #kangaroo.txt - original text posts or answers to asks by yours truly 

➽ #kangaroo.png - stupid images i create for the dumbest of reasons

➽ #aes - for aesthetic moodboards or images i hoard like a dragon

➽ #useful / #useful as fuck / #useful af - what it says on the tin, just info i find useful (REALLY important things are tagged under "useful as fuck" or "useful af")

➽ #potthemes - blog themes i think i potentially might use!

➽ #recipes - cooking time!! just some neat sounding recipes

: ̗̀➛ find me elsewhere | ✎ i also do art!!

blog credits

♡ colorful headers + stars - @perfectopposite

♡ simple star dividers - @liminal-creations (op's blog seems to be missing or deactivated so idk where the source can be found now - if anyone knows where the op is now please let me know so they can be credited properly!)

♡ heart dividers - @cafekitsune​

#kangaroo.txt

[weenie-kun]

How does one grow a big tumblr? I barely have any followers and I’ve been here for years now... I never even received an ask

i dunno man i only drew lotsa fanart for some fandoms at the time (thanks homestuck danganronpa dmmd tf2 dtmg and mettaton) and maybe the rare few posts that popped off got ppl coming.. (plus the doodle ones with daddys bastard, relatable artist posts tm, and the recent anesthesia one) (and one time the one danganronpa/homestuck crossover art with aoi and feferi where ppl widely mistook aoi for jade.. 14k notes. u do not see these numbers here anymore)

i also rb shitposts a lot so ig it just happened? i havent gained any in a couple yrs now since i went inactive w art and tbh its pretty true that numbers dont do a lot here lol..

i barely get asks some months But i dont really interact with people either? i have energy some days and then leave a few unanswered in the dirt when i have no energy like any person... but ive seen them i prommy

( i do notice some familiars around whove liked my stuff tho.. even through the years. even my oc. thank u i love u ⭐theres a lot more of u than i could have thought and thats pretty cool i think. i think thats really neat)

ive been here almost a decade now so. theres that. a lot of the time its unpredictable and post purge idk how the climate is here. also someone called me a The joker so maybe im just the right amount of deranged to attract people <3 ew that hurt to type.

anyway good luck out there. i dont know what the path to tumblr success is, and sorry to everyone for the long post for i have been given the chance to reflect on my time here. im the same turd as i was back then except more tired and people are intimidated of me occasionally because my art dick is kinda big now so thats funny

ok im done take care and have a good day

[fiyazu-lorko]

Thanks for the tag @gemgirl28! ❤️🧡💛 🍫❄️

1. Why did you chose your url? It’s toddler speak from Countdown of little kids trying to say “Fire Lord Zuko.” 🥰

2. Any side blogs? this is my side blog. i wish i had made a new one but, back when i was getting started last year, i didn’t plan on getting this into the fandom. 😂

3. How long have you been on Tumblr? oof. since sometime in 2013 i believe.

4. Do you have a queue tag? i do not.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place? i just wanted a place to collect fandom related things.

6. Why did you choose your icon? sad, introspective, hoodie zuko. need i say more?

i guess i could have picked angsty hoodie zuko...

7. Why did you choose your header? the mobile one? because i made it one time for shits n giggles and i thought it was funny.

8. What’s your post with the most notes? i think it’s being supportive: a guide by zuko.

9. How many mutuals do you have? i can’t count higher than 10. so...

10. How many followers do you have? see #9

11. How many people are you following? many

12. Have you ever made a shitpost? if i have something to say, you can be damn sure it’s shit. so yeah.

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day? recently i’ve hardly been here at all. but i miss it!

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? oy... why on earth would i do that?

15. How do you feel about “You need to reblog this” posts? i don’t enjoy guilt as a tactic.

16. Do you like tag games? very much. i’ve been really bad lately at doing them but i see the tags and i feel the love!! i hope i can be more active soon.

17. Do you like ask games? yes! especially cute ones. ❤️🧡💛

18. Which of your Tumblr mutuals do you think is famous? i still get all excited when i realize that some of the people i talk to on a regular basis are some of the most creative and talented people that i’ve ever met.

i was pretty shy when i first got into this fandom, but i’ve found that so many of the people here are sweet and down to earth as heck. 

anyway, y’all are celebrities to me. 

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual? 👀 

I have been so inactive lately, so idk who has been tagged but I’ll put a smattering of people here! No pressure of course, and if you don’t feel like doing this just consider this a little hello! 👋❤️🧡💛 @ajstyyling @zukos-calming-tea @asajjvxntress @rideboldlyride @cablesscutie @the--descension @nyliag @juldooz-atla​

#tag game

[danideservedbetter]

Alright so, here’s how things are gonna work.

First off, welcome to this side blog. Since it won’t be jolly fun fandom content and will be a little more personal I decided to separate my health and writing journey from my fandom stuff, although all my fandom content will still be linked on my main blog here.

(I write Izuocha/bnha content which isn’t super popular so if you’re not here for that then yeah, I don’t blame you. But if you are I have a link to our discord and community content pinned so def check it out if you’re interested.)

Secondly, you guys will hear details about stuff relating to my health like what kinds of things affect my disorder based on the tests some doctors are ordering, how I’m trying to improve my diet and activity, and routines and goals I’m attempting for myself. I am underweight, and that’s something I’m going to be talking a bit about, so if that’s triggering following this blog might not be the best thing for you. Details under the cut.

So, what kind of disorder do I have and why did I decide to make a health journey blog? My disorder is called idiopathic hypersomnia. Basically what that means is that when my disorder is acting up (based on factors like stress especially or my generalized anxiety rearing its ugly head) I have the capacity to sleep. And sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep. My longest recorded uninterrupted “sleep-attack” was 26 hours long and ever since I caught Covid in January, my body had been slowly growing weaker to the point I was starting to develop atrophy. I’ve had this ten years and my neurologist suspects inactive cells from mononucleosis I caught at 14 was the cause, because other IH patients have linked their sleeping problems to a case of mono or have had it at some point in their lives.

This disease stole many years and many things I’ve looked forward to from me. I lost friends and experiences and failed so many college classes I had to drop out.

I’ve decided I’m taking them back.

It’s not going to be easy. Just as it took ten years to convince myself that my tiredness was something I chose to give into, it took several extra years and many fights with my family to convince them that I had a real actual neurological disorder and that I need help sometimes. My parents and grandmother finally understand that I have to finish college and find a very special boss willing to work around my erratic progress on projects, but the outsiders they married are not as convinced. My grandmother’s husband kicked me out of their house because he wants to be the center of attention and doesn’t like that some days I’m so weak that I needed my grandmother’s help, and my father’s wife thinks I’m a lazy and ungrateful leech who “gets anxiety just being around” me. Both told my father I’ll never be happy so why even bother with me, but my dad is actually striving to understand his own recently-diagnosed PTSD so while we still butt heads he’s understanding that I have to take things day by day because every tiny circumstance affects my disorder.

Now, why did I decide to air all this out? Well, being open about my disorder and how it affects me has helped at least two people that I know of find out that the tiredness they experience isn’t the typical “American work force exhaustion” they were trained to believe is normal. So if I can help even one more, I’ll gladly talk about what this entails and how I deal with it day to day. Another reason is that I’m also one of those big advocates who believes talking candidly about mental health destigmatizes it and sharing ideas can help us grow as people and maybe make it a little easier to deal with.

So now that you know a little bit about me and my disorder, here are my big goals for the next three months provided my university takes pity on me and actually lets me go back.

First up: create routines to train my body to get used to living a full day fully awake. This includes waking up at the same time and going to sleep at the same time. It means getting dressed and going out and doing things, even little things— which I’ll get to in a sec.

Second: I write. I have a novel in limbo and I write fanfics. Writing is a big part of who I am and I’ve written one thing this year, which for a whole six-month stretch is upsetting and disappointing. Today is my reset. In the next 569 days I want to to finish the six stories I have in limbo (except the larger one) and finally reach my goal of posting 200k words in a single year. I wont be hard on myself if I can’t accomplish this because honestly finishing anything in the chaos of my life is going to be a miracle but. There ya go.

Third: go back to freakin college. I don’t care what it takes. Sit down with every official, every lawyer, and every professor it takes to get me back enrolled in classes in the fall.

Fourth: I have several smaller things I have to do, short term goals, stuff like that. I’m gonna create a to do list each day of small tasks I want to get done and while some of these things will be part of my daily routine I am throwing in like one or two things a day that just need to be done. My writing goal will change daily and I’ll keep y’all updated on that with every post I make.

Now, I know what you’re thinking. Dani! That’s so much!! Well, a few months ago I remembered hey!! I basically have a computer in my hand, why make it hard on myself. So I downloaded certain apps to help me out. This isn’t me saying “hey go subscribe to these apps because I said so” it’s just that through a lot of trial and error I’ve come to find that these certain apps work for me and I’ve yet to come across one that has the functionality of everything I need.

Tiimo — so this is an app I found developed by people with autism for people with autism to help them develop good habits and routines. It has preset daily schedules (things like morning routines or nightly routines or work routines) and an internal alarm to let you know when to move on to the next task. I myself have extremely low-level aspergers (to the point where my doctor won’t give me an official diagnosis because I didn’t want people think that *it’s* the reason I have issues with school), so moving from task to task can be difficult sometimes and I also deal with getting distracted. This widget also appears on my home screen so I know what I have to do at a glance. You can program in weekly and daily tasks to fully customize your schedule, which is fantastic for someone like me who wants to for example rotate chores. This is hopefully going to help me get my body in the habit of adjusting to routines and transitioning from one task to another, as well as getting important things done responsibly.

Promptly Journals — I’ve been told for a while that journaling is helpful mentally to kind of recenter yourself, so a bit ago I downloaded several journal apps to add to my morning routine. Now some will prefer more creatively free journals, but I prefer this one that gives me small prompts I can do in a short amount of time that just allows me to get my thoughts down. I can even add pictures at the bottom that go with the theme! I’m scared I’ll run out of prompts eventually lol but until then this app works very well for my needs.

Stretchingexercise — Now idk if it’s from lack of sleep from my disorder, the position I sleep in when I do sleep, all the physical labor I’ve had to do in the past couple weeks, my medicine, or w h a t but I suffer from body aches like no one would believe. I know stretching is supposed to help with that, so I downloaded this app to help me do non-demanding physical activity that wakes me up in the mornings and helps relieve pain so I don’t keep having to take pain relievers. This one has different plans for things like muscle tension, back pain, warm ups— and it also gives you rudimentary weight updates (I’m underweight lololol so we’re looking to fix that) or plan updates. It’s worked really well for me so far and gives you animations and descriptions of the workouts (some taken from yoga) as well as timed breaks and a narrated guide. It’s been pretty helpful in temporary relief and if nothing else gets my blood flowing in the mornings.

Widgetsmith Step counter — in addition to the stretching thing one thing my doctor and I discussed that helps with the sedentary lifestyle is simply walking. I’ve needed so bad to relieve my stamina and reverse the atrophy, and walks have been stellar for that. Now I live in the New Orleans area so humidity and heat force me to go at the crack of Dawn, but honestly my weenie dachshund Charlie really enjoys our time out so he goes with me! The CDC recommends 10,000 steps a day which seems like a lot and it is if you don’t get out much. But this gives me an excuse to get dressed and do the hygienic thing and help Charlie be healthy too, as well as give me time for brainstorming because we walk in a truly beautiful area. I’m sure everyone installed widgetsmith with the last iOS update (Apple users anyway) and while at first the step counter was just interesting I’ve since come to rely on it! We do our 5000 in the morning, which of course is half, and I find that other things I do throughout the day typically drive the counter higher. Anything leftover can easily be accomplished by an evening walk in our neighborhood. Now the caveat is that I have to remote have my phone in my pocket because I don’t own a watch or anything fancy lol, but honestly I need to keep it on me anyway so that serves as a good reminder.

Todoist — this one is my FAVORITE. Ever since I’ve decided that I have trouble keeping track of things I need to do and small stuff I need to keep in mind and appointments, etc, I decided to find a list app. This is the one I found that absolutely helps me for everything from my list of room supplies I need to buy, to my reading list, to general tasks I have coming up I need to complete. And its widget functionality keeps it right on my Home Screen! More organized individuals can just use tiimo, but I’m definitely not one of those individuals so this app is sorely needed and appreciated.

And of course, I know building habits the first few weeks is HARD. So for days my body doesn’t respond to my alarms, I have a checklist of the key things I have to do to keep my life as functional as possible.

So that’s that on that. I’m going to try to keep writing updates and my daily goals in a post in the morning, and reblog what I accomplished in the evening. It’s gonna be tough. But I’m thinking if I can start small I’ll be able to build my stamina enough to return to college and be successful when I do. I hope that anyone watching this journey draws some kind of meaning or inspiration from it. And you guys can even follow along if y’all want! Especially for writers or people trying to get healthier. I can’t promise what works for me will work for you (and honestly I expect things to change especially if I get accepted into college again) but hey, I figure it’s worth a shot.

I hope you guys enjoy watching this journey, if nothing else I hope it’s entertaining. And maybe it’ll be successful. I do know that I’m just gonna try for it, and hope it works out.

First daily update to follow

Xoxo

Dani

#idiopathic hypersomnia #health and wellness #writing challenge