#but thats just a fantasy in my head

[adpndrgn]

give her a spin

#omfg dude i fucking love them so mnuch you dont undertsand #they live RENT FREE IN MY HEAD AND OMFG I JUST ITS SO FUCKING TRAGIIC WHEN ZACK FELL AND THEN SHE WAITED FOR OS LONG GOD GOOOOD #ff #ffvii #ffvii crisis core #ffviicc #final fantasy vii #final fantasy 7 #crisis core #zack fair #aerith gainsborough #fanart #art #illustration #digital art #sketch #final fantasy #square enix #yeah i think #thats enough tags sorry #LOL #adp draws

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

i have this really stupid idea in my head that im frankly a little obsessed with and the idea is this: trent crimm doing a drunk history episode on ted lasso's first tenure at richmond. is that how drunk history works? i don't think so. do i care? absolutely not. it's a special episode who cares because this image is not only hysterical to me but treasured. i treasure this image. i hold it close in my heart and also laugh and laugh and laugh.

#ted is played by what is very visibly a butch lesbian in a huge fake mustache. #roy is inexplicably played by himself in a wig. #ternt drunkenly and passionately explaining this whole thing. he says his own line and the trent actor (who also has a wig) gets to act it #trent waving his hands as he's explaining all this. the host being like 'not very often we get to have someone include the part where They #come into the story' and trents like [dorkiest finger guns] #also yes i said first tenure bc this scenario lives in post canon fantasy fix it land where ambiguously ted comes back to richmond #at some point. and also both bc my tedependent heart is obsessed and bc it's really funny #marries trent. just bc i want this to end with trent--hammered and pleased as punch--being like AND THEN I MARRIED HIM!!!!! #[falls back on couch happily] :) #also in the line of that great 5+1 social media fic #by jessjessthebest. a sequel thats just like a youtube video like #'we made ted lasso and trent crimm watch that episode of drunk history about them' and trent is just. head in hands the whole time. #ted is DELIGHTED. #anyway i rotate this in my brain fucking DAILY. it's so goddamn funny to me. #ted lasso #tedependent #tedtrent #trent crimm #the line in question being 'is this a fucking joke' i just realized i did not clarify that #no but really im obsessed with this it's so fucking funny #also any image trent had left of being a ruthless ex journalist is thoroughly ruined #all of his former colleagues have seen him and drunk and giggling and fully admitting what he was thinking at the time and oh boy #hes a disaster <3

[naturecalls111]

Wish I never had to sleep I wish I could just stay awake all the time and do nothing but draw and had no responsibilities

#nc111 talks #I remember once telling a friend that my ideal partner is one who takes care of everything for me #i dont even have to love them they just help with everything i need to have to survive while i draw #and she was shocked #she said she didn't expect that from me and that it couldn't be healthy i felt that way #and i was like #well. yeah. thats why its an ideal. that would never work ever in an irl context. the inevitable power dynamic diff is why i dont pursue it #like. i know thats not how irl relationships work and i would never subject a partner to that #i would never want someone I love to actually just deal with shitty stuff themselves while i stay selfish lol #hence why its a fantasy where i dont have to focus on an unachievable romance #i have a fantasy of the perfect romance in my head but the other ideal seems more attainable. that's why say fuuucckk it #someone does my taxes while i draw #imagine.... WHY WOULDNT THAT BE IDEAL? #Anyway im just rambling because i have class tomorrow and im upset i cant just stay up all night and draw everything i want to #anyone want to take a guess why im so extremely charmed and in love with sanji... LMAO

[haunted-xander]

Shadowbringers is about learning how to live and Endwalker is about learning how to love life. I have a lot of thoughts on that and I'll probably elaborate later when I manage to actually articulate it but for now I'm just tossing this out here

#its like so Clear in my head that like yeah thats wat its about. thats wat the storie tells me #but im having difficulty like. putting words to it. like i Know why but how can i just Say it yk #anyway i should go to sleep its almost midnight good NIGHT everyone #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #shadowbringers #endwalker #xander rambles #no idea why im tagging this but watever. here ya go

[spaciebabie]

does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.

#spacie spoinks #bruh #like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭 #i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is??? #cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk #''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing #like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it. #it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why??? #strange as hell. #i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like #a week and that was like the worst week of my life #i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like. #the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy'' #I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP #HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS???? #me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!! #im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche #the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god) #its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful. #so horrid #also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr #idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it) #sometjing 2 think abt i guess? #anybeans. i tire. #hope i never experience that again #ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again'' #NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fatbellyboysstuff]

on the train to work you notice a stranger staring at you. for a second you're confused, but then the movement of the train shakes your whole body and you realize, that the stranger must've been staring at your fat belly. you instinctively pull your shirt down a little more, well aware it won't change a thing.

in the work meeting you notice your coworker glancing at you, a few times more than would be normal. you just finished your third complimentary doughnut, licking the powdered sugar off your fingers, when you catch their eyes. as soon as they see you looking at them they turn away, but you can clearly see the bewilderment on their face. you stifle a burp and turn back to the person speaking.

you stop by McDonald's after work and notice a few teenagers blatantly staring at you. you just finished your second burger, now sipping on your sprite, discreetly trying to comfort your tight belly. the teens continue staring, they whisper and laugh with each other- clearly you're the joke. they're still staring when you get up and you try to hide your waddle, failing completely.

you still had to go get groceries, but now you finally reached your apartment building, heavy bag full of food on your shoulder. just as you want to enter the building, your next door neighbour exits and you catch him glancing over your whole body quickly. suddenly you're acutely aware of how red your face is. he rushes by you and avoids looking you in the eyes.

as soon as you close your apartment door behind you, you take off your uncomfortable work clothes, putting on sweatpants and a (formerly) loose shirt instead. you put away the groceries and start cooking a large batch of your favorite cheesy-creamy pasta. once the pasta is done you fill it into the large mixing bowl that you've been using as a plate more and more often. you grab a two liter of coke and head over to your couch. you sink down, turn on a show on the tv and start shoveling pasta in your mouth. you don't even really notice what show is playing, you're way too busy reflecting on all the stares you got today.

that stranger on the train, staring at your gut, you're sure they've never seen someone just as fat as you. you keep on shoving pasta into your mouth, although you can already feel your belly getting tighter.

your coworker probably finally realized how you've blown up so quickly, seeing you eat way more doughnuts than socially acceptable. you almost finished the pasta, you can feel the heavy cream weighing you down, moaning around every new bite.

those kids at the McDonald's probably found it funny that a fatass like you still ate fast food like that. you're done with the pasta and you lean back, your gut so round and distended, you can hardly reach around it anymore. you let out a series of burps, rubbing your belly, breathing becoming shallow. and although that was enough pasta to feed a family, it's not enough yet. so you heave yourself up, waddle to the kitchen and get a tub of ice cream out of the freezer. you take it back to the couch with you and start eating, the coldness feels good in your churning gut.

your neighbour looking at you, surely noticing you getting fatter every time he sees you. you moan again, rubbing your belly, trying to make more room. by now you're wheezing, burping every few bites, your body trying hard to keep up with the feast you're pushing into it. but you manage to empty the ice cream tub, letting it fall to the floor.

your chins are covered in oil and ice cream, as is your gut. you can barely breath, your heavy fat crushing your lungs.

and still you're thinking about all the people staring at you, laughing at you, judging you. you wish they could see you right now, see that you're doing this all to yourself, seeing your blissed out face after a massive meal like this. maybe then they'd understand that their judgement only made you feel aroused, made you want to get even fatter, show them how much you can really grow. another big burp forces it's way out of you, followed closely by a breathless moan. one hand keeps on rubbing your belly, the other falls lower, starting to pleasure yourself.

you know you will be fatter tomorrow and every day after that. and you can't wait to see who's going to stare at you tomorrow.

#fatbellyboytext #weight gain kink #gaining weight on purpose #fat belly kink #feedism. #feederism. #fat belly #feeding kink #wg text #wg fantasy #just something thats been bouncing around my head today #idk if i like this format but i hope you enjoy!

[enderspawn]

while i know the dash has been talking abt the guest characters already personally i love to think abt every riptide guest all somehow getting together and joining the same crew(?). like they're all hanging out together in the background. maybe not as a pirate crew but they're there.

upon leaving seamart clorten immediately got lost again and just kinda floated island to island. at some point he ran into la alma while grocery shopping and after discovering they both knew the riptide crew they decided to stick together for a bit (clorten hoped having la alma guide/sail would make them less lost. it does not. his helplessness knows no bounds)

eventually the two sail up upon dooke and meet duke dukem who invites them to live w him (bc like dooke is chill but all the living plants and shit are kind of annoying and he doesnt like them and hes going a BIT mad here alone). they just like shrug and accept it.

after like a month together tastrius washes up on their shore, like full family guy death pose covered in seaweed (dooke picked him up and put him there). duke is like "hey dude welcome to my island. whats up." and tastrius gives this big long and elegant story abt how hes cursed to live forever and he's been drifting in the sea currents but at least he could finally set his crew to rest and after theres this heavy pause and duke is like. "cool wanna join my town theres 3 of us" and tastruis just goes "....yes".

so now they're all just living on dooke and its a semi-functional group situation they're like a sitcom

#la alma is the only reason they have Not Starved #(clorten before was living solely off fantasy cups of ramen) #(duke just had a massive horde of pretzels stashed up. he was running out and was like. 'well thats going to be a problem' then ignored it) #la alma and tastrius get along best #duke and clorten also get along p well (in the sense clorten awkwardly plays along best to dukes demands) #duke and la alma butt heads a bit #and like you'd think duke and tastrius is off but duke just puts off tastrius So Much it cancels out the tension. he keeps him off balance. #anyway. yes this has been living rent free in my head for like the past week and a half theres a lot of thoughts on em #jrwi #riptide #og post #clorten #la alma #tastrius #duke d dukem

[clockworkreapers]

#i had the image in my head #had the idea needed to do it #ye sauron be that mix of dif dark elf type races and i think that just fits him well #art #artwork #fantasy art #fantasy character #oc #own character #in bg3 dnd hes a drow thats like closest i could get but i kinda made up my own stuff for my own ideas

[roomy-ghosted]

the whole

'[they're] our leader! I look to [them] for guidance'

'and what guidenace did you find in those swaying hips, hm?'

video but it's Gale and Shadowheart talking about Tav.

#bg3 #bg3 tav #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #shadowheart #TELL ME im wrong #i can hear those lines in their' voices in my fucking HEAD like- #i am right. i tihnk. #like #'why are you smiling like that- you suspiciously look like #the cat that swallowed the pigeon' 'canary;[actually]' 'what?' 'I look like the cat that swallowed the canary.' #'i had a *VERY* large cat once- that's not my point. my point is- why are you smiling.' #literally feels like a Gale and Shadowheart back and forth party banter. #gods would HATE me if i could animate fr #JUST looked it up #thats a dragon age thing. apparently??? #idk one of the first things i saw on youtube #oh the circile of fantasy media and life

[catboyidia]

assigning candy to asgzc + plus what i think their faves would be

angeal: i want to say kitkat, i cant quite explain why but its the first candy that came to mind… maybe i’m subconsciously thinking about the kitkat slogan, which makes me think of him because damn… poor guy really needs a break… + i’m somewhere between headcanoning him as someone who unexpectedly absolutely loves candy or someone thats not actually all too fond of candy/sweets in general, but he absolutely feels like a granny candy kind of guy! like he always had THOSE strawberry hard candies on him at all times, which makes me think his favorite would be some kind of hard candy, or some kind of cheap chocolate like a hersheys bar or something, that he doesn’t like for the flavor, but because it was the primary candy he got as a kid whenever he could afford it

sephiroth: hes literally a sour patch kid… he looks so intimidating and mean but (pre insanity at least) he’s actually just an awkward sweetheart! post insanity though is like toxic waste or something (like the sour candy, thats an actual candy i swear) because it just hurts a lot and to most people is not enjoyable at all + i dont think he eats much candy, nor did he eat much of it growing up, i think he mostly only ate what he was given by others, like hard candies, because people are more likely to carry those around as opposed to like a chocolate bar or something, and i feel like it’s probably stuck with him, so by process of elimination, they would be his favorite but he isnt really opposed to any candy, he just doesn’t really eat it in general and he probably prefers other sweets, like baked things

genesis: hes fireball/any of those cinnamon “spicy” candies… they’re red… and genesis seems to really like committing acts of arson with fira materia… and they fit perfectly dont ask its hard to explain! also skittles, which i feel is self explanatory… + he likes lollipops, not because he truly loves them, but because he loves purposefully sucking on them in a provocative manner when angeal and sephiroth are around to get any kind of reaction out of them! his actual favorite would probably be like… turtles or ferrero rochers or something of that really expensive, fancy chocolate nature (do not correct me on the fancy or unfancyness of those chocolates! i’m poor, they’re fancy to me!)

zack: … pixie sticks… all the way… just a fucking tube full of sugar… + he doesn’t have a favorite because he likes literally all of it, put any candy in front of him and it will be gone in a second and he will love whatever it was that you put in front of him! the only exception is that he hates chocolate, and i think i have that in my head because of the whole puppy zack thing, but regardless he loves all other kinds of candy, and he absolutely bounces off the walls for the rest of the day, after eating every candy he can get his hands on

cloud: he feels like gummy bears, especially the mini ones… cute, small and squishy… and pretty basic like they aren’t like remarkable, just kinda there but generally liked and appreciated without any strong haters, and i don’t think i can think of a single person, in canon, that ever actually hated cloud (dont quote me on that, i could be wrong) + his favorite would probably be some kind of obscure small town local candy, which only like a few people have ever had or heard of, and he thinks no other candy can match or live up to it… otherwise, he probably likes most chocolate/candy bars in general, and hes not really picky about it, but hes also not primarily fond of most other candies that aren’t chocolate

#most of this actually just popped in my head while i was eating candy (b/c i can’t do anything w/o thinking about my faves… literally…) #if you disagree with any of them… yeah valid… but its half my own biases half projecting and half first thing that came to mind #happy (currently early) halloween though!!! thats the only reason i’m thinking about candy so much right now… #ff7 #ffvii #final fantasy 7 #crisis core #asgzc #angeal hewley #sephiroth #genesis rhapsodos #zack fair #cloud strife

[notahorseindisguise]

you guys have a song thats like. in theory a really good song. but really you only like one tiny little part of it and the rest bores you. and you wish the song was just the good part.

#this is me with in my head by jason derulo (in my head. i see you all over me. in my head. you fulfill my fantasy.) #also just a friend by. whoever thats by. #i only like the part that goes youuuu you got what i neeeeed. but you say hes just a friend. you say hes just a friend.

[gilligans-islands]

i think its interesting that throughout all of ep 6 we can see stede and ed like sharing a connection but they are taking it slow. they are just having small moments together where they are together and enjoying each others company.

then of course Ned Low shows up and ruins everything by capturing and torturing the crew and he says many things to rile up both stede and ed who still havent like fully reformed their relationship and trust for eachother and it probably alights all their insecurities about their relationship plus they had to watch each other get tortured and almost die and after he chooses to kill ned stede is obviously shaken up both from killing a man and all of the shit he just went through and hes vulnerable and scared and lightly traumatized probably and ed goes to check on him and stede is just is a horrible headspace and he falls back on his old ways and acts on a whim by grabbing ed and pushing him up against the wall

and ed didnt have any better of a night than stede did, getting tortured and watching your lover get tortured fucking sucks and hes just as in a horrible headspace as stede and so he also acts on a whim and lets stede escalate and they kiss and then they have sex

and everything seems great between them the next morning but suddenly ed is throwing away his leathers—okay pretty sudden but maybe he was already planning to—and then ed is sharing how stede was kinda the one who saved his life when he almost died—okay kinda intense conversation over breakfast but maybe he was already planning on telling him and decided it was a good opportunity—and then later stede shares how he wrote ed letters expressing his love and threw them into the sea—and okay maybe they just felt like really sharing this morning—and then later at jackies ed is telling jackie about how it might not be a phase that he just wants to be a regular guy—and wow okay thats cool maybe hes just been thinking about it for a while—and then stede lights a man on fire who wants to kill him—and woah stede um kinda harsh you didnt even hear the man out—and then stede and ed meet up and stede got his ear pierced—thats cool unplanned but cool—and then ed tells stede that he took a job as a fisherman and is leaving—

and then suddenly you realize theyve fallen back into their old patterns of acting on whims again

suddenly they aren't taking things slow, suddenly they are sharing intimate things with each other with 0 apprehension

they are right back where they were in season 1 right down to ed wanting to get away from pirating like his life depends on it and stede wanting nothing more but to be a pirate and live out his fantasy

and this time they fight and ed outright says that things are going too fast and part of it is that he just wants to leave and he is scared but he feels like this because yeah

they are taking it too fast

they suddenly—on a whim—decided to deepen their relationship way faster than they should have entirely on accident just by—on a whim—deciding to have sex when they were both in a vulnerable state and needed comfort

i really dont think it was an accident that episode 4 decided to spell out for us that Ed and Stede are whim prone people. it wasnt just an explanation for why last season ended the way it did with them splitting up. it was an omen for what was eventually going to happen with them in these episodes. the inevitability that they were eventually going to succumb to their true natures if not given the proper space and time to work out the shit between them, if insecurities and expectations got piled onto them again.

#kinda rambled but ive just been thinking about this since i watched 6&7 #like i cant but be seeing the parallels in what was going on with them in ep 7 to what was going on with them in ep 9 #like i havent seen it really talked about yet that ed was in his leathers all throughout ep 6 without seemingly any issue #and then suddenly in episode 7 hes wanting to get rid of them and be back in regular guy clothes and distancing himself from being a pirate #just like in episode 9 where as soon as ed could he was getting rid of any trace of being blackbeard and then making plans to run away #and stede in episode 7 is living out his fantasy of being a famous pirate and getting all the attention hes always wanted #and it kinda parallels how in episode 9 stedes main goal after getting to sent to the pirate rehabilitation camp is to escape #he wants to immediately go back to being a pirate and live out his fantasy #and its not exactly the same but its the episodes mirror each other enough that the parallel is kind of obvious i think #and i think the fight in episode 7 is exactly like the conversation they have on the beach in episode 9 but this time they actually do figh #they miscommunicate again in the exact same way as before but this time ed wants to run away on his own and leave stede behind #because now stede is embodying the pirating life and ed is trying so desperately to run away again #and all stede is hearing is that ed doesnt want him #whoops thats like another whole paragraph in the tags #sorry i am like ill over them #just rotating these guys in my head #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #our flag means death #edward teach #blackbeard #stede bonnet #ofmd season 2 #ramblings #long post

[always-a-joyful-note]

may I also bring this contribution as you wander down the enstars rabbit hole (it's enstars characters and their supposed crimes)

OP I appreciate you so much, but I fear that you are trying to kill me? Just -

Just a few questions.....

- Why are Switch and the seniors of Ryuseitai and Wataru??? on kidnapping?? (wait, did he kidnap Hokuto is that it?) - Wait, what did Tetora and Sora DO? - Midori's in attempted murder?????? WHY??? - What's with forgery?? Why's that on there? Why am I questioning forgery when sexual harassment and murder are RIGHT there??? - Yeah, I still can't believe there's a literal idol duo who is also a mob group.... - "tried to break the windows with an iron pipe" what - of course Hokuto has the ultra specific one (I love him so much. Rich airhead princess to me, so far anyway). - Bullying for Subaru NO what have you DONE starshine boy??? - and at this point I've given up on getting mentally tortured by the others

I am eternally grateful for this list. Why did it have to exist? OP, come back here and let's just talk - actually. No, I desperately want to sit down with the writers and ask what they've experienced to do this.

#look i know the idol industry is not sunshine and starlight #but whats with it becoming a literal conglomerate and yazuka series? #the more i learn about this game the more im convinced that the writers really just spun a crazy roulette of any genres tropes #you have urban fantasy portal fantasy rpglit steampunk victorians nonsense literature historical fiction drama poetry etc etc #also detective fiction and war fiction and thats just the roulette of genres #stars i want to write like them #you guys in the fandom arent okay are you....you guys are all so nice giving me all this #but to let this get to my head youre also doing this to torture me specifically arent you? #my mind is already lost i dont know how i can lose it further #enstars #ensemble stars #fandom spamdom #things i find funny #stuff i say #this reminds me of my bsd starting days #i was so in denial that i was into bsd because it was so insane and unreal #and somehow a slice-of-life idol media is equally as unhinged and deranged i hate and love it here #(but in all honesty thank you for the ask op! it's SO fun to see people engage with each other in this fandom) #coincidentally i am pretty sure ive also blocked the most tags in this fandom because youre all insane (affectionate...i think?)

[weird-life-of-a-closet-fangirl]

little five foot something adaine standing in the middle of all the jocks ducking when they go for a three way chest bump going "oh god, oh god, the jocks are getting feisty" while gorgug holds dayne's head after mercilessly slaughtering him while he begged is such a scene

#also i think its important that out of everyone who has attacked dayne gentle hearted gorgug was the only one that could've maybe worked on #three owlbears on that boat and gorgug is the only one who's apologetic even while he cuts his head off bc thats just how gorgug is #still standing by my headcanon that gorgug only fights to protect and his rage is never out of bloodlust #fantasy high #fantasy high sophomore year

[redstrewn]

#it is my headcanon that leander is mentally not quite right #bc i am not #redstrewn talks #would fit his theme of intangible otherness tbh #of invisible “monstrosity” #“ure making it up. its all in ur head. everybody does that. thats normal” and then they get pissed at u for failing to #meet neurotypical expectations #ok. #i also relate to the “mind over matter” and “u can do and be anything u want to” that he goes hard at #i was like that before i had a crash. idk what its called but undiagnosed adhders could do very well in school and then just crash #me rn #i would work hard and “play hard.” aka cry and scroll on my phone while not sleeping bc i felt like i had to or id go insane #who knew it was bc of dopamine deficiency! #i could put an act of normalcy. i have good days. and that would be weaponized against me for all of my many more bad ones #“you did it before you can do it again.” yes except im disabled #my version of “cocaine and drinking w ur friends” is chronically online and sugar #not to mention obsessions w crushes #not broken enough to be believed to be broken but broken enough to suffer #RSD is fucking crazy tbh. im headcanoning leander w that due to his insecurity and inferiority complex #this is why i like art and fantasy. u can make it mean whatever u need it to mean to u.

[kiras-monkey-bum-face]

I wholeheartedly believe humans were not designed to go extended periods without two way love and affection (if I don't get positive romantic and physical attention soon I will collapse)

#dating apps suck its so fucking frustrating #im going out tomorrow night but i KNOW nothing will happen i have the rizz of a fucking slug #im not entering any relationship anytime soon and that genuinely upsets me #throwback to my therapist 'we are happy when our needs are met and you hold love highly' blah blah blah yes abby but HOW #MY VALUES DONT MEAN SHIT IF ALL I DO IS WORK EAT AND SLEEP #AND I CANT MEET THE TOP ONE BECAUSE ITS NOT JUST ME THATS NEEDED TO MAKE IT WORK #im going to go and bang my head against a brick wall (write a fantasy romance novel) and maybe ill calm down #stop talking helena