#cause if he wanted to even be allowed

[wavygrayvy]

Just finished Under the Banner of Heaven and I gotta say a) watching the lady 3 episodes in one day was emotionally way too much and probably a mistake. b) this is gonna live in my head for a long while and *not* in a fun blorbo way and c) I never want to hear my dad make fun of my taste in media again because there was nothing cute, childish, or comedic about this one.

Oh and bonus thought: very glad they let Jeb say fuck. Poor guy deserved it.

#okay tag thoughts have spoilers so #beware on that front #kinda wanted more closure on what happened with jeb and his wife cause girlie was *that* close to leaving him #so is it just supposed to implied that he faked his faith for years so his wife didn’t leave him and take the kids? #cause i know he tells his mom being with her is miracle enough which goes back to what Allen said about #putting faith in the people you love #and there was also bill’s point of you can still recite the old familiar things even when you don’t believe in them anymore for comfort #but that just doesn’t seem practical on the scale jeb would have to do it to #keep becca satisfied and like not get excommunicated? #cause if he wanted to even be allowed #in the church he’d have to play down the realities of the case? #basically this all goes to say is i would’ve liked more closure and post arrest content #because i wanna know what happened #and i could look up the details of the real #case but that’s not the same #gray makes waves #under the banner of heaven

[dirtytransmasc]

atwow hot take:

if jake had said his "son for a son" shit out loud and spider had heard him, he would have been so beyond pissed, he would be seeing red.

spider loved his little siblings so much, neteyam included, even after they grew apart. he loved them like they were his own blood and protected them like they were too (we see a lot more of them together in the comics, where spider is the big brother without a doubt). neteyam's death most certainly rocked him hard, even if he hasn't really been able to show it (how could he? he's already going through all the shit with his dad and the RDA and their nonsense, he can't grieve around neytiri, he's just so tired after it all. he doesn't have the room or the energy to grieve yet)

so if jake had the audacity to say that to/around spider not even a few hours after he watched his little brother get shot after coming to save him, after he stared at the bullet hole in his back, after he watched him take his last breaths, after he watched the light leave his eyes, after he watched his little brother die for him; if he said that while his little brother's body lay in a pool of his own blood not even ten feet away, not even cold yet, blood still clinging to his chest, the scent of it still filling the air: he would have lost his shit.

because the disrespect for his brother is wild.

jake was an active player in spider's neglect and abuse for the last 16 years, he let it happen, he helped it happen. he tried to send spider with the humans, tried to take him away from his siblings, from the forests, from eywa to live with his foster family that didn't love him (not to mention Nash was an asswipe of epic proportions) and the RDA of all people. he had referred to spider as a stray animal since he was little. he was the reason spiders life was hell.

and after all that, years and years of putting him in shit positions and allowing him to suffer the fate of being forever unloved and uncared for (by an adult authority figure, cause I love the kids, but they don't make up for the gap left by a parent), this is what it took for jake to care about him? his little brother had to die in front of him first? he had to be traded out to fill the space of a corpse, to fill in the gap left by his little brother's death?

in canon, spider was in deep in shock with nothing to break him from it, he wasn't in the place to really think about any of it, and I'm sure we're gonna see this anger in the coming movies, but if jake had said it out loud, that would have been enough to snap spider right out of it, and he would have given jake a piece of his mind, I just know it.

#he loves neteyam too much to let jake do that. to say that. he'd never allow it. #spider is such a good big brother. he loves his siblings too much. #if jake had said that to his face there would have been hell to pay. regardless of how out of it spider was with shock/grief/pure exhaustio #spider doesn't even care about the disrespect being done to him by that statement. he just cares about neteyam. #cause how could a father say that? how could he just move on. fill the gap with a “stray” as he puts it. take him in after all he'd done to #him? it wasn't fair #it wasn't fair to him and it most certainly wasn't fair to neteyam #I love spider. he deserves a family that loves him and wants him. he wants it. but this is not what either of us asked for. #that line has always rubbed me wrong. and it would have rubbed spi wrong too. I just know it. #I really hope we see spider express his rightful anger/disgust to this whole thing next movie #though I worry he will be too busy feeling guilty over everything and feeling like he just has to be grateful. but one can hope. #he deserves to be angry #and his dynamic with neteyam deserves to be explored. cause its a crime that it was ignored in the movie. #avatar 2 #avatar the way of water #spider socorro #miles spider socorro #miles socorro #neteyam #neteyam sully #neteyam te suli tsyeyk'itan #jake sully #I wanna punch that man so hard istg. I can't with him. I won't say I hate him. but lord have mercy I can't with him. #my baby boys deserved better #spider was neteyam's big brother. that's my agenda #we need to talk about them more

[fandom-hoard]

The Batfam tag has FAILED ME

Why am I just now finding out that one of Batman’s sons is a little adorable starfish alien who just loves his dad so much????

Why was this precious little Starro in a Jar (and therefore named JARRO) kept from me????

He wants to grow up and fight crime with his dad

Look I didn’t want to have to pick a favorite batkid but I have now! Look at this precious little guy!

We’ve been robbed

#jarro #starro in a jar #jarro WAYNE #cause Batman is his DAD #I refuse to allow this baby to be forgotten #I want this sweetheart on family OUTTINGS (even if I think the wikis said he’s actually huge now maybe? but whatever that’s fixable) #(magic exists after all) #edit: just checked and he’s actually already little again! #I want Jarro playing frisbee with his siblings except the only way he can really participate is AS the frisbee and he frickin loves it #Damian is delighted because this is an animal brother combo and he is HERE for it #batfam #bruce wayne #batman #damian wayne #I speak #Jarro hangs out in his siblings’ bags on outtings so he can be there too #he pretends to be a very unusual toy so Damian can bring him to school for show and tell #Jason puts “’You’re a star!’ stickers on Jarro’s stuff #I want Jarro as part of this family dagnabit

[moe-broey]

One thing they don't tell you about the Senshi tulpa that WILL inevitably manifest in your mind to tell you to eat better is that. Every time I make myself a coffee via kuerig instantly, I can hear him. Lamenting the fact that I have become so accustomed to convenience and ease that even a standard coffee machine has become foreign to me. I am thinking about how to make coffee without use of a machine in the first place, I am wondering where my french press went, I can see him. In my mind. Showing me how to make coffee in The Dungeon. Dungeon Coffee.

#dungeon meshi #i'll allow this one to be set free into the wild. i think the world needs to know. #i really love senshi's character too how like. it's easy to feel guilty too if you aren't doing something 'the right way' #and despite him being very set in his ways he manages to alleviate that specific guilt #just by being senshi about it. i have never wanted to learn how to cook. too much work/too many steps #i like instant/ease bc that means i can devote myself completely to the things i AM passionate about #but senshi will manifest in your mind to tell you. you need nourishment to do that #he is just as passionate and detailed about it as i am my art. all i ever want to do is art. esp traditional art #which i think almost feels similar. to magic (digital) vs non-magic (traditional mediums) #each takes a very specific set of skills. one 'feels' easier than the other but a lot Does go into it (digital) #and there is an ease of access esp sharing wise. but i am autistic about the medium itself #yes sometimes i have to wait a day to even share my stuff cause the sun went down #yes there's less ways you can take shortcuts. you have to do Everything by hand #but that's what i love about it. espppp blending my pencils. #but going back i do not have that same level of interest (not even NEARLY) for anything that Isn't related to art #it's like. i really don't WANT to .... but senshi ...... makes me think about it. #senshi

[stergeon]

at some point i will figure out how to write the post-canon, post-empire edelgard autonomy fic of my dreams. it just feels like a very big task and maybe like with playing the dane, i’m simply not old and traumatized enough to manage it yet.

but my vision is thus: it’s set years (realistically, decades) after the end of crimson flower, when everything has gone as right as it can possibly go. fódlan is thriving. the social reforms have taken effect. the nobility system is nearly eliminated, if not entirely so, with titles made merely symbolic. social mobility, welfare, and prosperity are high. there’s an explosion in arts and culture and technology. brigid and duscur have gained independence; relations with sreng and almyra are much improved; heck, maybe they've even figured it out with dagda. in my most idealistic version, leicester and faerghus would eventually be ceded back to become autonomous regions, essentially disbanding the adrestian empire. rule is no longer hereditary, but merit-based. there's a roadmap for the future, and everything is on track—and more than that, people at all points on the power spectrum have already seen it bear fruit. with or without edelgard, it will be pursued. there's buy-in. they believe.

of course, it's not perfect—nothing can be—but edelgard's vision has been fulfilled. the people are empowered. humanity is free. fódlan has healed.

and somehow, she's had enough time to resolve her goals outside of politics, too. those who slither in the dark have been eradicated. edelgard and lysithea's second crests have been successfully removed, allowing them to live if not full lives, then substantially longer ones than they would have with their twin crests intact. who knows—maybe she finally gets around to having that wedding.

point for point, every item listed in edelgard's manifesto has been checked off. the ghosts of her past have been laid to rest. she can finally take off her crown. she can finally pursue the quiet, humble life she's wanted for so long. she can finally breathe.

... but can she?

edelgard is nothing if not driven. her intelligence, vision, and sheer willpower allowed her to plan and execute a revolution against two countries and the most powerful institution on the continent, all while she was still a teenager. as royalty, her life was never truly hers even before she became heir to the adrestian throne, with all the additional baggage of survivor's guilt and the desire for vengeance and her need to ensure nothing that happened to her can ever happen to anyone else, ever again.

so what happens when that drive has no outlet? what happens when someone who has been constantly in motion, constantly working and planning and preparing every spare second of every day since she was fourteen years old, suddenly has to stand still? what happens when someone whose hands have been bound for so long—first literally in the dungeons of enbarr, then by the weight and responsibilities of her crown—is set free?

being edelgard, she would step away from the throne, no matter how hard it was for her to give up control. she's always been focused on the endgame, and she knows that if she doesn't let go, she'll be setting the wrong tone for fódlan's future. she's too devoted to that endgame to cling to power much longer than she needs to, though i could see her making some excuses and trying to iron out just a few more things to buy herself some more time to mentally prepare before she's done for good.

but who would she be then? who is the woman without the crown? what becomes of a machine once it is no longer needed, when it has made itself obsolete? what about when that machine is a person with legs and arms and an innate unwillingness to gather dust on a shelf?

what happens when you get everything you want? what happens when all your wanting has been for others to thrive, and now you have to want only for yourself? how do you discover who you are when you've spent decades being everything for everyone else? how do you find meaning again? how do you find purpose?

after a lifetime of devotion and passion and movement, how do you learn to sit with yourself, and be quiet, and be still?

gosh, i would love to meet her. i would love to pick her brain. but boy, i do not envy the work that girl has to do.

#sterge.rtf #fire emblem #fe3h #edelgard von hresvelg #realistically edelgard is not getting all of this done in her lifetime. but that wouldn't keep her from stepping away anyway #'cause a funny thing happened to edelgard during the crimson flower route: she learned to have faith again. #so even if she couldn't check every box and fix every societal ill she'd still be able to pass the crown to the next ruler. #maybe not without fear. but with confidence. with optimism. with the belief that she's leaving the world better than she found it. #she'd have faith in her people. faith in the future. faith in the groundwork she's laid. faith in the systems she's put in place. #faith that her vision will be carried out with or without her. #and that faith would allow her to eventually let go. #i so love edelgard pulling a george washington and saying nah i'm good on power. peace #though unfortunately i could also see her pulling a teddy roosevelt #and saying nah i'm good on power. peace. wait what are you doing. you're ruining it. you're bungling everything. i can't believe this #and making several (failed and increasingly insane) attempts to get back into politics #who is the taft to edelgard's ted tho. i don't want to do ferdinand the disservice of saying it's him even though i think it's very funny. #it's literally the opposite of his character as taft notoriously sniffed roosevelt's farts for a long time #until he finally pulled his head out of the guy's ass and realized there are other smells. such as the sewer. and garbage. #smells which he pursued quite happily much to ol ted's chagrin #meanwhile ferdinand does not think anything of edelgard's ass except that his is definitely better-looking than hers #(he's wrong on so many levels but you try telling the guy that) #in fact ferdinand has always taken great joy in pointing out all the things that smell better than edelgard does #which gives him an instant up on mr Take-Advice-From-Theodore #all this to say i think ferdinand von aegir would have been a much better president than william howard taft. that's just my opinion. #i'm getting off the rails in these tags idk what's wrong with me #sorry for equating your blorbos to long-dead american politicians everyone. i know this is a cardinal sin #also please don't take this to mean i think positively of washington or roosevelt or taft or whatever. #i hate all dead old white guys who ever held a modicum of power #i just had a hyperfixation on american presidents when i was in grade school and unfortunately now my brain works like this

[gifti3]

Thinking about og obey me and how asmo would say something that would have me quickly filing him in the 'avoid' category

#my fuckboy alarms would be going off like crazy #we would only become friends cause he wouldnt leave me alone after the helene situation #honestly...a lot of the brothers would annoy the hell out of me in the beginning #yes even beel #mostly cause he keeps eating mcs snacks #i want everyone to be honest with themselves on how they would interact with the characters in the beginning #...my guard would be up so high #i have no clue who i would allow myself to be vulnerable with first.... #ik mammon is baby girl of the fandom BUT #lets pretend i dont know these characters beforehand #mammon is not the type of person id go to to have any type of heart to heart im sorry #honestly im just sitting here with no answers #any vulnerable moments would be on accident and hopefully that accident is with someone who is good with that type of stuff lol #tell me you wouldnt get overwhelmed being in the devildom in the og game?? cause i wouldnt believe you #im def crying at multiple points #hopefully not in front of anyone #obey me

[bi-writes]

Hi love, I need more from the new write. I NEED to see him walk her home 😩

ohhhhh do we?

hmmm. i do have thoughts. many thoughts about protective!simon watching you close up and noticing a customer whose eyes linger on you too long and wont take no for an answer............

#because who doesnt want their not military boyfriend to defend their honor even when we are fully capable of defending ourselves???? #cause its not about the fact that we CAN #but that he thinks we shouldnt have to !!!!! #cause youre so pretty and your skin is too soft and only hes allowed to have bruises like that #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #am i supposed to write this??? #SHOULD i write this????? lol

[thedreadvampy]

Jujitsu class got me showing up to work with somewhat suspicious bruising and a sore neck from being choked. 10/10 would recommend.

#red said #gotta say like as someone who. the majority of physical abuse I've experienced has involved being thrown around #dragged around and choked #there is something weirdly emptying about these classes #i think it's less the learning to defend against it and more the idea that I'm doing it in a safe place #like with people who don't actually want to hurt me physically or emotionally #and I'm allowed to fight back and i won't be treated like I'm trying to hurt THEM physically or emotionally #I'm not particularly good at it cause I've got the strength and flexibility but i keep forgetting what I'm trying to do #like OK GOT OUT OF YOUR LOCK GOT YOUR ARM CONTROLLED. wait what was the next bit? oh no i lose. #but i often can't even cope with people TOUCHING my neck and not only did we do several moves that involved pushing on each others throats #but when i sparred with the tutor he had me in two different chokeholds plus one i wriggled out of and i had a GREAT time #it's SO DIFFERENT to do stuff where you trust the people you're with #EMPOWERING not EMPTYING those are very different words

[icharchivist]

In a way, present day Sandalphon is a great foil to Lucilius, because he also doesn't get answers from the god-like figure he looks to, but Sandalphon knows that his creator loves him and loves him back

TRUUUUE.

Like i mean, Sandalphon and Lucilius were already foil because they were basically driven to madness by the fact they were clearly created by a higher being and they had no idea why, even more so learning later that their creator (Lucifer and Lucio) didn't even know why they were created (Lucifer didn't know Sandalphon's purpose/Lucio doesn't even know how he happened to have a clone). And both of them tried to destroy the world if only so that the absent figure they're blaming for their pain would pay attention to them.

but Sandalphon learnt he was loved, and that his creator would drop the whole world if he had to, if only Sandalphon could be happy. And being loved by the person he devoted himself to at least was enough for Sandalphon to try to figure out how to give this love back to the world around him, the world his beloved loved so much.

while Lucilius is still left on mute by Bahamut, and Lucio treated him more like a curious experiment than someone he could care about (credit where credit is due Lucio still was developping his people skills), and even there Lucilius was already too far gone anyway.

Sandalphon foils people in wmtsb in such a way because everyone who has huge impact on the story is craving for love and recognization or pure free will, and Sandalphon was the one who managed to reach that by being loved by his creator who freed him from all of his burdens, while the rest of the antagonist are left abandonned in some way, and while the Astrals have learnt to be self reliant it left the one primal who stayed behind even more starved for it than they could be.

anyway many thoughts but yeah the way Sandalphon foils Lucilius even more because they were much more similar than Lucilius was to Lucifer actually, which enrages Lucilius, but Sandalphon managed to move past that. Lucilius, meanwhile, is still stuck in this homeostasis he hates so much.

crazy huh....

#alsooo actually many thoughts because technically if the tree is Bahamut>Lucio>Lucilius #then the other one is Lucilius>Lucifer>Sandalphon #and Lucilius treated Sandalphon with the coldness and lack of interest he would blame Bahamut for his own treatment #and while the absence of relationship between Lucilius and Lucio is what cause this whole thing to go wrong #Sandalphon has totally abandonned whatever the Original Creator would want of him as long as he had Lucifer's #but Lucilius doesn't even realize just how he treated Sandalphon the same way he's been treated in that sense #no self awareness whatsoever #playing god and reproducing the exact same mistakes #but Sandalphon transcending anything Lucilius could be because he's allowed to change while Lucilius is not. #anyway head full #ichareply #ichafantalks gbf #anonymous #ichablogging wmtsb

[mummer]

what was mance’s actual plan in a scenario where he can take castle black and let all the free folk through the wall (i.e. if jon died before warning them). let them disperse into the gift and just. fend for themselves i guess? would his kingship have ended there? was there ever a plan more complex than “dont get turned into ice zombies” or was he just riffing the whole time. was he imagining some kind of treaty? maybe his plans relied on there still being a reasonable stark in winterfell lol. but it’s not like he can negotiate with the boltons or stannis… and the wildlings are so fractured they would IMMEDIATELY split off. like what would he have DONE if he won? was he doomed from the start??? someone please spitball with me

#ive been trying to crowdsource ideas about this for insane fanficky reasons but it’s like #cause the wildlings are not like. centralized he cant just keep them at castle black forever there are 100000 of them #he also would have. zero information about current northern politics #at castle black he’s in an ok position esp if he also takes the shadow tower but he still has stannis + some dregs at eastwatch #he could.. maybe.. take empty winterfell before the boltons ever got there but would it even help? there wouldnt be any food there #and the bolton coalition might even actually be bolstered if they had a common enemy lol #however: no one would go to hardhome. So at least theres that #i guess it would devolve into a chaotic mass migration scenario but mance is like. Clever and wily i cant imagine he didnt have a PLAN!!! #the smart move would be to take moat cailin before roose can come up but. To accomplish what exactly #i mean if everyone chilled repopulating the gift would anyone even care. you’re gonna massacre a hundred thousand civilian wildlings? #But stannis is the issue there he would not allow that he would want to reinstate the watch. hmmmm

[gammija]

ive been trying for 30 mins to write a post about why the Web's plan is still confusing, but I think I should face the truth and admit to myself that it's not that it makes no sense, it's just... so convoluted

#they needed jon to kill jonah cause it seems like only he could call him down #and they couldnt go through with the original plan because.... tbh still not sure on that one. at least not with the reasoning annabelle #gives. assuming that how everything works out now is how they intended it to #which it must be because if jon was ever ever going to consider 'letting anyone else feel that guilt' he sure as hell wasn't now that he #got introduced to the plan while a giant spider dangled his boyfriend above a pit. not conducive to jon cooperation #so originally spidermartin would have driven him to burn the archives and kill jonah. but theyre bond is too strong now so even if martin #would be spiders Jon wouldnt do the plan. .... huh #i just dont get that leap #why does their bond being stronger make jon less willing to burn it all down. so to say #would he want to keep his promise to martin and not become the pupil? but he did! he does! he does even when martin ISNT spiders! aaah #one thing that could make everything more elegant is if Annabelle wasnt telling the whole truth. she says they need to kill 'the pupil' #jon has been described as 'the pupil' as early as s2. and why would the Fears follow his voice on the tapes #and not just stick with his voice in jon the person? #solution; not only does the pupil have to die and the archives burn down at the same time #but jon has to be the pupil when it happens #... except that ALSO doesnt work because according to Jon Annabelle wasnt lying when she said that this would allow them both to 'survive'! #so unless we read the transcript in very bad faith and assume that she was talking about the hypothetical scenario of íf the fears leave; #then youll live; (but for them to leave youll have to die) this solution is out as well #but it would mean theyd need martin unspidered because hed be the only person able to kill jon when hes the pupil because 'it feels right' #(throwback to 178) #tma #tma meta #joos yaps #delete later #a mag a day #tma s5 #one nearly incoherent ramble later..... #if anyone has a good Watsonian solution to tie everything up neatly plz link me to a post

[always-a-joyful-note]

I just read the translations for the !! SS Arc's secret orders/orders/penalties and...(cw for violence and death, as well as slightly spoilers)

Isn't this taking "the horrors of the entertainment industry" just a tad too far????? Seriously, what actually -

#the way i nearly audibly sputtered whilst reading the list #like even some of the normal orders are seriously messed up #and apparently they came from eichi #once again. guys...i love eichi. he's interesting but he also has something clearly wrong with him please send him help #but there is something SEVERELY wrong with the gatekeeper and i want to know if he was actually gonna go through with it #or if it was just a threat #enstars #ensemble stars #fandom spamdom #stuff i say #no but how in the world are the governments allowing this?? just what kind of power does the gatekeeper have? #i sorta get why these teens arent revealing this to the public #(cause it might bring down ES but he might actually go through with the penalties anyway) #and its kinda funny cause the es destruction thing is probably something eichi would hate so.... #anyway i need to go recover #i just took +20 psychic damage #no but genuinely does he have the power to destroy an entire civilisation or pull a favor from a government or like... #...destroy national heritage sites??????? #reading enstars is like watching a trainwreck where everyone survives but comes out of it with horrifying injuries #i hate it but i cannot look away....

[sashimiyas]

reina i beg 🙇‍♀️ can i ask if the reader and osamu gets back together/him remembers their past in the burden of being fic (i think that’s the name 🥲) cause like… my brain is remembering how reader mentioned that being with him in this state would only be a heartbreak for them since reader will remember all the past but osamu doesn’t… and and!!! that would be too sadge even if they do get together 🥲

god minnie, i’m so happy you brought up the burden of being. i’ve been sad bc i’ve missed being caught up in a story the way that the burden of being had me.

but you can rest easy. they do get back together :) i actually don’t imagine osamu gaining back all his memories to be honest. there are some things that come back to him, i think the bavo-kun memory is one of them because it’s one of the most recent ones but for the most part, he does navigate reconnecting with reader and all the members of hyogo ward instinctually.

it’s kind of like when you show up to a family reunion and you have all these aunties and uncles saying they knew you when you were this tall. that kind of thing. like he knows these people have been involved in his life some way or another and that he’s meant to be kind and receptive to their generosity. but truly, he cannot place them in his mind prior to remeeting them again.

osamu initially loves her like it is second nature. he cannot explicitly say why he does. he just knows, deep down, in his heart and soul and body, that he does. he loves her. it does make for difficult courtship in the beginning but they are able to restart their relationship as two absolutely different people. because reader from the beginning of the burden of being is absolutely different than the one from the end. the same, obviously goes for osamu.

osamu also never goes back to cooking for a living! he does enjoy it as a side hobby, but he ends up staying on his pro volleyball path. he does leave msby after his falling out with atsumu and i think he finds himself on a division 2 league. he’s still good but a lot of time had passed since he’d taken a break and part of the reason he got a position of a division 1 team is because of atsumu.

akaashi ends up owning o.mo.ide all on his own. reader eventually hands over the restaurant solely to him and she does find her cushy it job so she can continue to spoil osamu just like she wished.

#reina.receives #i hope this answers your question #if not. i’ll try again! i do have this particular scene in my head #osamu’s still hesitant in stepping inside reader’s apartment when he finds out they used to live in it together. they’ve gone on some dates #already and the two of them awkwardly stands outside her door. akaashi is peeping through the eyehole as they speak lmfao. but the dates #have been good. they both know this. and this one was extra spectacular. they’re getting it down. allowing themselves the moment rather than #being latched onto by the past. and she offers if he wants to come inside. osamu has his hands in his jacket pockets and he waves them about #as he sways on his heel. he wants to. but is he ready? he doesn’t want to ruin already what they’ve had. but he decides to. and so he goes #inside. you’re opening the door as akaashi scrambles to act nonchalant. bokuto is there as well to lessen the awkwardness #and mumu has shown to hate every man that has walked through your doors. but at the sight of osamu. he gives him a stare that lasts minutes #and then he curls himself between osamu’s ankles before ricocheting off to cause some mayhem in akaashi’s room. mimi was never a cat that #*mumu #osamu fed. but it just goes to show. how osamu’s scent has stayed in your bed and in your sheets despite that fact that you can no longer #smell them. he’s been there. he always has even if you could no longer find him.

[perenlop]

i know i know typical shounen issue but man. misa amane deserved better

#i dont think her role in the story is terrible i think shes a great curveball character #and to show how fucked up light is. i dont totally mind her being a complete stan and dedicating herself to him cause yknow #light wants to be a god and someone like misa is going to exist and worship him above all else and die when he does #i think that makes sense. but man the way shes written sometimes is just. hrm #like why doesnt she react when rem dies. why doesnt she acknowledge rems feelings for her at all #ik she values light above all else but like. i feel like she should care about her shinigami somewhat since she told her the truth #and gave her access to light in the first place #or even show like. how lights abuse affects her overtime and maybe she becomes more and more of a shell #also the torture scene like come ON ik shes got the shinigami eyes and they needed to blindfold her and stuff #but light/kira- who everyone admits is more dangerous- just gets put in solitary confinement #like it still sucks but misa is bound and blindfolded and allowed to believe shes being tormented by a stalker #even tho it makes more sense to just reiterate that shes in confinement over the kira case #and even despite that shes not allowed to feel rattled over the experience at all like light is #echoed voice #they just keep acting like shes an airhead

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

my mum's staying for the weekend pray for me

#i dont like people in my space and also shes mean to me #she hasnt been mean yet lets keep this up #shes only been here a couple hours though so #its my mum new step dad my brother and his new giirrllfrriiend #theyre 16 and have managed to stay together 2 months this is the longest relationship hes ever had lmfao #she has 3 nose peircings and red streaks in her hair shes cool #but im praying i dont need hide time #hide time is what i call having my social battery run out but in a painful autistic way because i get real irritable and mean #and usually i hide away by myself for a couple hours cause that fixes literally everything #but my mum wont allow that cause she doesnt get it #mum im autistic plz leave me alone #but she finds it rude #but also finds me rude when i get irritable because im not being allowed space #so uh #dont know what you want from me lady #ah yes to not be autistic #this isnt even a joke she hates it #she wants me to pretend im not and 'act normal' and basically not be disabled by my disability #she wants it to like not be visible to people she wants no one to know including her she doesnt like being reminded so 💀 #unfortunately for her i have a lovely little piece of paper from a doctor saying i do in fact have it so fuck you #anywayz lol #praying i dont need too much hide time 🙏🏻 because i will not get it #autism #so fun

[emosyzoth]

tbh syzoth and ashra is nicebut i do feel the need to make it a little more agonizing to watch

#like uhh even as the years have passed and syzoth is coming to fully accept his family is gone #hes still holding them very dear to his heart #so i think hes afraid of crossing that line into caring for another person #1. because he feels guilty about moving on esp bc he still feels somewhat responsible for what happened last time #and 2. relating to the first reason- hes afraid as soon as he gets comfortable again and cares abt someone #something WILL happen again and hell end up allowing yet another loved one to be hurt or worse #he thinks hes already lucky enough to have friends and to have people accepting him now. so he SHOULD be content with that #but pushing his luck any further and wanting more will just end in disaster #uhm. anyways this has been a alucard mk rant hope u enjoyed..... #mortal kombat #<< tagging cause i just wanna keep all my posts related to that in a little thing