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#coming across as hypochondriac
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#personal#i fucking hate that one fucking thing being said (and its readonable) has sent me into a fucking tailspin from oh i fucked up to#i should just die#reallllly fucking hate that i was boen with a brain that DOESNT WORK RIGHT and i told my therapist today i was fine w/ it but honestly no!#im not! sometimes i really fucking hate having a brain that doesnt get social cues or misses ghat you're causing problems and then#when they ask you to reasoably stop your brain well time to consider yourself a total worthless piexe of shit.#and i fucking hate that i have to say this somwwhere i cant nust keep it to myself nooo it doesnt help if i just keep it in my head i have#to fucking say it somewhere not in my head.#and i fucking hate that it can come across as attention seeking and im not trying to be but what if if i am im just more of a piece of shit#i fucjing hate that my brain doesnt work right and tbat im not noemal or whatever the fhck you want to call it#and i hate that my body doesnt work right and that i feel like a hypochondriac for wondeing if i have joint issues of a specifc type#and maybe it would be better if i just stopped looming into it even though it wouldnt help to do that#but at least that way im less of a bother or less annoying#i fucking hate so much right now#and i hate that my fycking peruod is close to a month late and i know im not pregnant or some shit it just means my body has once again#decided it DOESNT WANT TO DO SHIT PROPERLY and i cant afford a doctor or abything so irs not like i can get answers!#fuck everything.
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david-watts · 2 years
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thinking about it 2015 was just the year of potentially having weird diseases
#I just remembered that time my family got scared I got foot n mouth disease and I genuinely remember them being a bit freaked out#when I bring it up now they play it off but haha that's not how you were then!!#thankfully. I did not have foot n mouth disease. I think I just drank too much water too fast or somethin#it was funny because I kept drinking water to make myself feel a bit better and towards the end of me doing that I thought 'hm maybe not'#and then of course was the actual weird virus that fuckin.#how do I explain this without sounding like a hypochondriac because I'm not a hypochondriac I swear#my grandmother might call me that because I dare to say that I have things wrong with me and my m*ther calls my medical anxiety that#anyway the virus I had that an experienced gp couldn't figure out what it was had very similar symptoms to polio to a Scary level#like out of all the viruses I found that could cause that type of nerve damage because this did cause nerve damage#and of course I may not have come across all of them#but out of what I found it matched the most.#but of course I was vaccinated against polio and there haven't been cases here since before I was born!#unless I like. licked some dirt at the museum or something. stray particle managed to survive on an iron lung for nearly a century#and float over to me in 2014 and multiplied until it could infect me.#which I DOUBT#anyway I don't think it was polio because that is illogical but I make jokes about it because idk what the fuck it was#but I do remember it was fuckin miserable whatever it was because I couldn't walk very far without needing to sit down#because my head just SPUN#thanks for that one nerve damage. you're really fuckin useful /s#but god the scary thing was when my neck went numb and probably the rest of my body too but my neck#had straight hot water from the tap blasting directly onto it and I felt NOTHING#I can't eat beef schnitzel because of this lol. that's what I ended up throwing up
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babyhatesreality · 7 months
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I'm sick rn :( and just in pain 😭 so maybe thier baby is sick when they are on a Mission while she is by uncle tony and how would he handle it when she just cries for her daddies her daddies come back when she's asleep and comfort her after she wakes up
Oh man. I can FEEL Steve and Bucky's heartbreak just thinking about this...I hope you feel better soon darling!! Lots of water and rest. Sending you comforting hugs and healing vibes <3
They'd been gone a week with Natasha and Clint, working to bring in rogue Hydra agents, when they got a call from Tony.
You all got to Facetime every night, so at first they just thought it was another call.
But when they saw Tony cradling you in his arms and your red and teary eyes pop up on the screen, both of their hearts stopped.
Tony explained that you'd come down with a cold, and were feeling feverish and achy.
They both ached to hold you in their own arms and comfort you when you were so obviously feeling miserable.
Steve, of course, the family hypochondriac, immediately grilled Tony about every possible symptom and the timeline of everything.
Tony had taken you to Dr. Cho, as Bruce was currently in Wakanda with Shuri working on the tech to bring back any other brainwashed Hydra soldiers. He hadn't known at the time about your...caution with Dr. Cho, and it had been an interesting visit to say the least.
You clung to Tony like velcro the entire time. He also was pretty sure you didn't blink once when Dr. Cho was in the room, which just added to your misery of scratchy and tired eyes.
"I don't gotta get a shot, right Unca Tony?" you had asked in a whisper when Dr. Cho left the room to get some medicine for you.
"No shot, shortstack," Tony had confirmed. You immediately relaxed, but buried your face in his chest as you were still feeling lousy.
Tony described the decongestant and cough syrup to Steve in patient detail, when you burst into the conversation.
"Coughy syrup yucky," you grumbled.
"I know baby, but you gotta listen to Uncle Tony and take it. You understand?"
"Don't wanna, Papa."
"I know you don't. But the more you take that syrup, the better you'll feel when we get home. Okay?"
"You come home now, please?" you asked quietly, putting your little hand up on the screen, touching their pictures.
Tony could hear both their hearts shatter from across the globe.
"Soon, baby, we promise," Bucky croaked out, grabbing Steve's hand off camera for support. "We'll be home before you know it."
"That's a promise," Steve said in a husky voice. You just nodded and turned your face back into Tony's chest.
Two important things happened that night after that call.
The first was that Tony didn't put you down all night. He carried you around the complex, rocking you, telling you stories, comforting you, even singing a little ACDC to you to help keep you calm and relaxed.
The second was that World War Hydra was unleashed and won, all in a single night. With their stamina, strength, and the image of you needing them in their heads, Captain America and the Winter Soldier tore through the secret Hydra base and eliminated or captured every single threat. For every one member than Natasha or Clint brought down, they brought down five. The entire battle was over before Hydra even knew they were there.
Natasha flew home as fast as she could, refusing to let Steve fly as he was clearly still in an over-emotional state. But she pushed it to the absolutely max that she safely could.
It was five am when Steve and Bucky made it to the Stark floor of the Tower. JARVIS had alerted Tony of their homecoming, and they went straight to you.
Tony gently put you in Steve's arms while Bucky hovered nervously.
And in your sleep, you sighed and smiled.
Even though you were fast asleep, you still knew they had come home to you. Just like they promised.
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the-phantom-author · 11 months
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Wilbur Soot| Pregnancy headcanons
I have these set to be posted at a certain time, I hope it works, I would like for these to be while I sleep. Enjoy.
@starsyoubreaklikesugardust thank you for being willing to yell at me if these aren't up, also some real real dadbur coming up soon, I got these and thought I'll do the rest later. So look forward to that.
I’m not going to say that Wilbur is afraid of commitment, but I will say he doesn’t like stagnation. This is why he moves a lot or is always traveling, so having a child was never something on his bingo card.
You know this, this is why when you miss a period and start throwing up in the morning, and can’t stomach some of your favorite food, it raises suspicion for both of you. This being said, being pregnant is not even a serious thought that comes to mind.
Being the hypochondriac that he is, Wilbur wants you to get a professional to check you out. The both of you are in for a surprise. It is a stage of shock for a while, it just doesn’t sink in for a week or two. Then comes the one night, after a really tough day of hormones being absolutely everywhere the two of you are in bed, getting ready for bed, right as you’re on the edge of sleep he just softly lets you know that “we got this”
This man? Never misses a single one of your appointments, he wants to be there, both to support you and so he knows that you and the baby are safe and healthy. He’s just going to be sitting there, in the chair next to you, and taking notes. When leaving he always makes sure to put up the little flyers on the reception desk.
Anytime that he is not home with you, whether it’s because he is filming with Tommy, in the Studio, or whatever, if he’s not doing anything he is reading a parenting book or some mommy blogger’s page.
When he is home, or really just around you, he’s doing everything for the both of you. Constantly making sure you have water, rubbing your ankles, getting you snacks, extra blankets, honestly whatever.
He loves shopping for the baby, everytime he leaves the house he’ll come home with something for the kid. Be it a toy, some clothes, a little blanket. He will spend hours in different stores just looking at the different nursery set ups, everytime he sees something that he thinks looks nice and you’re not with him, he always takes a picture of it and sends it to you.
He is laughably bad at putting furniture together, you can not trust him to put things together by himself. You have to supervise him while he putting things together. Like when he puts the dresser together you have to tell him multiple times that he has the wrong piece, is is grabbing the wrong screwdriver.
He gets in his head about his kid not liking him, that he’s going to be so busy and not see the important moments or that he won’t know how to connect with them. He’s just an anxious baby, who needs your reassurance. Hold him, point out the parts of his personality that you know would make him a fun dad. He returns this in kind when you have you’re moments, honestly he does it even when you are not have a moment. You could just be lying in bed and he’d be “You’re so kind, and patient and pretty. That last has nothing to do with you being a mom, but it’s still true. ”
Cries upon finding out the baby is a girl. Big fat tears and is not ashamed of it. This is the point where he starts to talk to anyone and everyone about it. He would not be one to share it online or on stream, but does absolutely tells anyone who he comes across in real life. He could be in a line in a grocery store and he’s just chatting to anyone about it. In the middle of a lovejoy practice? “Mark did you know at 26 weeks-”
He cannot hack being in the delivery room, he can’t. He’d be sitting outside of the room, a full ball of stress and anxiety, just hoping that everything ends alright. The moment he comes back into the room and sees her he is in tears again. Like his perfect daughter, right there, in person sitting there with his other perfect girl. He’s just so in love with the both of you.
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darkcrowprincess · 11 days
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The losers club parents:
*trigger warning use of homophobic words*
*their parents have all noticed their children have been missing together for hours. They start looking in all the spots the kids hang out.*
Mrs and Mr Uris calling out together, their voices echoing together out near the barrens: STAN!! STANLEY!
Mrs Denbrough freaking out and hyper ventilating: We cant lose another child Zack! I can't lose another baby!
Mr Denbrough tries to console her but it feels like empty words: We'll find him. He'll be alright. Its not like Georgie he's with his friends.
Mr and Mrs Hanlon yell out together next: MIKE!!
Sonia Kaspbrak: Your children are never going near Eddie again! You hear me!
Mr and Mrs Hanlon call out again: MIKE!
Maggie Tozier is unfortunately stuck near Sonia, her husband up ahead with Ms Hanscom so they both could call out for Richie and Ben together. The parents have spread out in a big circle near the woods of the barrens. Each calling out their childrens names hoping they'll hear it. Maggie was unfortunately left to deal with Sonia( who they were surprised that the hypochondriac actually agreed to look with them)
Maggie tries to be nice and puts a comforting hand on Sonia's shoulder: Sonia it will be alright. Well find them. It's not any of the boys fault.
Sonia slaps the women's hand away and goes on a horrible tirade: NO! My Eddie Bear is delicate. He should have never run off with any of these boys! Especially your son!
Maggie is finally pissed off(and protective): What do you mean by that?!
Sonia with a cruel smile on her face: You know what your son is like. The whole town knows what a dirty boy he is. But I will not have that little faggot infecting my son with his disgusting feelings!
Maggie slaps the woman hard across her face. Red is in her vision. Her long nails leave scratches along her fat cheek.
Wentworth, goes to stop his wife from full on beating the shit out of Eddies bitch of a mother: Maggie!
Maggie: Our children are missing and all you care about is saying hurtful things about my son! I don't give a shit if my son is gay or both our kids have feelings for each other! As long as they're happy!
Maggie is about to jump on the vile woman but her husband picks her up. She's still tries to kick and hit at Sonia (unknowingly, she looks a lot like her son in that moment).
Maggie: You are a vile woman and your son deserves better. FRANK WOULD HATE YOU, especially for what your doing to your son.
Sonia: YOU BITCH! You take that back!
Sonia is held back by Mr and Mrs Denbrough.
Maggie: Why its not like I'm lying, Frank if he was alive right now would take Eddie away from you and never look back! And it be within his right! Your suffocating your son!
Sonia screams in anger: I'm protecting him! Its because of all your kids!
The two mothers keep fighting. Which causes the other parents to come closer and try to help. Unknowingly their children are at the top of the cliff of the barrens hearing everything.
All 7 of the losers peak their heads over the cliff to watch everything. Like little animals popping their heads out of hidding.
Eddie and Richie both stare at each other in shock.
Bill: W-we need to get down there. I-I can't believe t-the-y ww-were looking for us.
Richie: Do we have to, I'm actually finding it really cool how badass my mom is being right now.
Bill: R-richie! What about Eddie?!
Eddie with a bit of satisfaction for himself: Give it a few more minutes. Mrs Tozier just tackled my mom into the mud.
The losers all look back to see the fight.
Eddie to Richie: Your mom is so cool.
Richie with stars in his eyes: 🤩 I know right.
Richie without thinking moves fully out of hiding to cheer his mom on: GO MOM!
Maggie who finally hears her son, looks up to see the kids on the cliff: RICHIE?!
The other losers: Richie! How are we suppose to explain this to them?!
*This being the fact that they just finished fighting an evil space clown*
Richie: Oops.
Maggie dropping Sonia Kaspbrak back into the mud, yells back up to her son: RICHARD WENTWORTH TOZIER! Get your ass down here now! You know how worried we have all been!
Richie nervous now: Ooooh full name not good.
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bylerserotonin · 1 year
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The amount of queer coded imagery Eddie has throughout the two IT movies is insane. This is gonna be an “analysis” of sorts to break down some of this imagery. If I missed anything, please comment/reblog and I’ll add it!
Eddie’s character revolves around being a hypochondriac who’s mother has caused him to be afraid of the world. Pennywise manifests as sickness and disease for him. As infection. This is most interesting when it comes to AIDS, which was sweeping the nation during the time of IT, in 1988. To set the scene of the AIDS epidemic, below are some snapshots of tabloids talking about the crisis.
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Eddie name drops AIDS during the scene where they’re biking Ben to the pharmacy, and it shows how much fear his mother had placed in him about the epidemic.
“I mean, he’s bleeding all over and you guys know that there’s an AIDS epidemic out there right now, as we speak, right? I mean, my moms friend in New York City got it just by touching a dirty pole in the subway and enough of AIDS blood got into his system from a hangnail. A hangnail!”
The leper perfectly represents his fears of being infected by this disease (as, in his mind, being gay dooms you to AIDS without question). It’s most represented during the flashback scene in IT 2 when Eddie wanders into the basement of Derry’s pharmacy. When Eddie gets down, we get close ups of dirty needles and bags of blood. And as we know, this is one way AIDS spreads.
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When Eddie does reach his Mom, she’s begging him to save her, saying “Don’t let it infect me, Eddie.”
The first time Eddie saw the Leper, he was at Neibolt. This is another very heavy queer coding moment. Eddie is chased through the lawn by the leper and reaches the fence. He turns around only to see the Leper isn’t there. In his place is Pennywise, holding a bunch of balloons in a form of a triangle.
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The pink triangle was reclaimed by the LGBTQIA community after its use by Nazi’s during the Holocaust. In 1986, some activists in New York City created a poster calling attention to the AIDS crisis with the words Silence = Death and a pink upwards-facing triangle. It has since been used on signs to show that certain places are safe for the Queer community. This triangular shape of the balloons is only ever used towards Eddie in this scene. Everything is very deliberate in the IT franchise, and this is no different. It is clearly to wave at the Queer audience and tell us that Eddie is gay.
The Queer coding doesn’t end there. On Eddie’s red shorts, you can clearly see rainbow imagery.
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In movies, clothing can be an integral way to show small details and Easter eggs to those who are paying attention. The costume designers had to go out and pick shorts with rainbows on it on purpose, so of course it must mean something. Another character who wears gay imagery is Richie, who wears a rainbow shirt. Richie is canonically gay and in love with Eddie.
There is also some closet imagery. In IT 2, Eddie and Richie come across the ‘Very scary’ to ‘Not Scary’ doors. The scene shows both of them (closeted men), facing the door, which then turns out to be a closet.
One of the most prominent parallels is during the opening of the second IT. Adrian Mellon and his boyfriend are at Derry’s carnival when they’re attacked and hate crimed. Adrian tries to grab his inhaler, but one of the attackers kicks it out of his hand. Adrian is Eddie’s out comparison. He represents what Eddie was scared of and why he’s still trapped in the closet. Adrian also acts as a cautionary tale and reminds us how truly dangerous being gay is in Derry.
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flowersforfrancis · 9 months
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Who's your favourite TSH character and why?? Thank you!
Francis. Why: (A question I believe you’ll regret asking as I’m simply incapable of shutting up. (Skip to the end if you don’t want to read a myriad quotes from a book you’ve obviously already read))
— “Cubitum Eamus” “what?” “Nothing”
— “Does it ever strike you, in a horrible sort of way, how funny this is?”
— “Kind of a Jean Cocteau touch, isn’t it?”
— In reference to Francis: ‘I thought (erroneously) that he dressed like Alfred Douglas, or the Comte de Montesquiou..’
— ‘Francis, stooping to talk to a cat on a doorstep’
— ‘..Francis, in a swish of black cashmere and cigarette smoke’
— ‘I saw Francis Abernathy stalking across the meadow like a black bird, his coat flapping dark and crowlike in the wind’
— ‘he said mockingly’
— “Demigods,” said Francis, laughing. “We could sit on thrones in the town square”
— ‘Though Francis may or may not have been homosexual - and could just as easily have been a really dangerous type of ladies man - he was certainly of that vulpine, well dressed, unflappable sort..’
— ‘The pebbled drive was silver in the moonlight. Francis was standing in the shadows under some trees. When he saw us coming he stepped suddenly onto the lighted path. “Boo,” he said.’
— The country house. Just the country House.
— Francis and Richard’s relationship. I just adore it.
—*Francis cooking*
— “For my bath”
— ‘Francis sat curled in the window seat with a plate of little sandwiches in his lap, reading, in French, the Memoires of the Duc De Saint-Simon…He had gone to several schools in Europe and spoke excellent French, though he pronounced it with the same lazy, snob accent as his English; sometimes I got him to help me with my own own lessons in first-year French, tedious little stories about Marie and Jean-Claude going to tabac, which he read aloud in a languishing, hilarious drawl that sent everyone into hysterics.’
— ‘he was singing, and his high, clear voice, slightly out of key, floated out the kitchen window’
— ‘ “Really,” said Francis, I think I just need an Alka-Seltzer.’
— ‘Francis, Barefoot and still in his bathrobe, stepped over rocks and branches, balancing his glass of ginger ale. Once we got to the lake he waded in, up to his knees, and beckoned dramatically like Saint John the Baptist.’
— “Mother of god”
— ‘To my surprise Francis laughed, a humorless little snort’ 
— ‘Francis, lightning a new cigarette of the end of old one.’
— ‘He held up an imaginary newspaper. “Crazed Hippies Indicted for Rural Thrill-Killing”. “Cult slaying of Old Abe So-and-So” ’
— ‘ “After a minute or two-“ “it was only a few seconds,’ Henry said. “- after a minute..” ’
— “Forgive me, for all the things I did but mostly for the ones that I did not”
— ‘ “you idiot,” he said chuckling. “Did you know your shirt’s on inside out?” ’
— ‘ “Well I know what I’m going to do”, said Francis. He stood up unsteadily and pulled with his forefinger at his collar. Startled I looked up at him and he laughed at my suprise. “I want to sleep,” he said, with a melodramatic roll of his eye, “dormir plutot que vivre!” ’
Anyway, sorry, sorry. I’ll stop before I just write out the entirety of Francis’s lines.
In the end he’s just simply relatable; I too am a queer, anxious, dramatic, admittedly contemptuous, smoker, who makes out with boys (and others) solely because they’re ‘there’ (let’s say this as if it isn’t because I have a habit of destroying/avoiding relationships), who traipses around in elegant black coats, and drinks far too much whisky and red wine. Oh and… I’m also a hypochondriac who despises doctors appointments… And no, this isn’t me saying I’m drawn to Francis because oh, he’s like me. It’s more of a strange idolization of sorts. Of someone who feels like an idyllic version of myself. And so, being the self hating - yet narcissistic - boy that I am, in summary favor Francis.
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shakertwelve · 6 months
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How did Tattletale guess Amelia's fear of getting cancer? From her bio-power, or something else?
lisa didn't even need to get as far as "she's afraid she has a genetic cancer syndrome from her mom" once her power gave her something along the lines of
dauphine's power is easily strong enough that she could be fighting offensively, but all of her and palatine's moves prioritize protecting her body -> thinks of herself as fragile, preoccupation with her health -> hypochondriac, telling her she's dying will confirm her worst fears
and similarly she may not even care enough to know for sure that palatine is a trans man rather than butch or nonbinary or anything else, it was just
deliberately pitching his voice lower and wears a costume that bulks up his figure -> trying to come across more masculine than he would naturally -> afab but wants to be seen as male, calling him a girl will upset and distract him as well as seeming like mind-reading
and she knew who his birth family were once she saw his forcefield short out; she's either encountered or researched the brigade for some other job and remembers manpower's shields do something similar. all pretty simple compared to some of her other deductions
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gorgonashouse · 1 year
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Females And Autism / Aspergers: A Checklist
Lynda Lim Abstract Multiple FemalesLynda Lim "Multiple Females"
This list is meant as a springboard for discussion and more awareness into the female experience with autism.
By Samantha Craft
Females with Autism: An Unofficial List
Section A: Deep Thinkers
A deep thinker
A prolific writer drawn to poetry
*Highly intelligent
Sees things at multiple levels, including her own thinking processes
Analyzes existence, the meaning of life, and everything, continually
Serious and matter-of-fact in nature
Doesn’t take things for granted
Doesn’t simplify
Everything is complex
Often gets lost in own thoughts and “checks out” (blank stare)
Section B: Innocent
Naïve
Honest
Experiences trouble with lying
Finds it difficult to understand manipulation and disloyalty
Finds it difficult to understand vindictive behavior and retaliation
Easily fooled and conned
Feelings of confusion and being overwhelmed
Feelings of being misplaced and/or from another planet
Feelings of isolation
Abused or taken advantage of as a child but didn’t think to tell anyone
Section C: Escape and Friendship
Survives overwhelming emotions and senses by escaping in thought or action
Escapes regularly through fixations, obsessions, and over-interest in subjects
Escapes routinely through imagination, fantasy, and daydreaming
Escapes through mental processing
Escapes through the rhythm of words
Philosophizes, continually
Had imaginary friends in youth
Imitates people on television or in movies
Treated friends as “pawns” in youth; e.g., friends were “students” “consumers” “members”
Makes friends with older or younger females more so than friends her age (often in young adulthood)
Imitates friends or peers in style, dress, attitude, interests, and manner (sometimes speech)
Obsessively collects and organizes objects
Mastered imitation
Escapes by playing the same music over and over
Escapes through a relationship (imagined or real)
Numbers bring ease (could be numbers associated with patterns, calculations, lists, time and/or personification)
Escapes through counting, categorizing, organizing, rearranging
Escapes into other rooms at parties
Cannot relax or rest without many thoughts
Everything has a purpose
Section D: Comorbid Attributes
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
Sensory Issues (sight, sound, texture, smells, taste) (might have Synthesia)
Generalized Anxiety
Sense of pending danger or doom
Feelings of polar extremes (depressed/over-joyed; inconsiderate/over-sensitive)
Poor muscle tone, double-jointed, and/or lack in coordination (may have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and/or Hypotonia and/or POTS syndrome)
Eating disorders, food obsessions, and/or worry about what is eaten
Irritable bowel and/or intestinal issues
Chronic fatigue and/or immune challenges
Misdiagnosed or diagnosed with a mental illness
Experiences multiple physical symptoms, perhaps labeled “hypochondriac”
Questions place in the world
Often drops small objects
Wonders who she is and what is expected of her
Searches for right and wrong
Since puberty has had bouts of depression (may have PMDD)
Flicks/rubs fingernails, picks scalp/skin, flaps hands, rubs hands together, tucks hands under or between legs, keeps closed fists, paces in circles, and/or clears throat often
Section E: Social Interaction
Friends have ended friendship suddenly (without female with AS understanding why) and/or difficult time making friends
Tendency to overshare
Spills intimate details to strangers
Raised hand too much in class or didn’t participate in class
Little impulse control with speaking when younger
Monopolizes conversation at times
Brings subject back to self
Comes across at times as narcissistic and controlling (is not narcissistic)
Shares in order to reach out
Often sounds eager and over-zealous or apathetic and disinterested
Holds a lot of thoughts, ideas, and feelings inside
Feels as if she is attempting to communicate “correctly”
Obsesses about the potentiality of a relationship with someone, particularly a love interest or feasible new friendship
Confused by the rules of accurate eye contact, tone of voice, proximity of body, body stance, and posture in conversation
Conversation are often exhausting
Questions the actions and behaviors of self and others, continually
Feels as if missing a conversation “gene” or thought-filter
Trained self in social interactions through readings and studying of other people
Visualizes and practices how she will act around others
Practices/rehearses in mind what she will say to another before entering the room
Difficulty filtering out background noise when talking to others
Has a continuous dialogue in mind that tells her what to say and how to act when in a social situation
Sense of humor sometimes seems quirky, odd, inappropriate, or different from others
As a child it was hard to know when it was her turn to talk
Finds norms of conversation confusing
Finds unwritten and unspoken rules difficult to grasp, remember, and apply
Section F: Finds Refuge when Alone
Feels extreme relief when she doesn’t have to go anywhere, talk to anyone, answer calls, or leave the house but at the same time will often harbor guilt for “hibernating” and not doing “what everyone else is doing”
One visitor at the home may be perceived as a threat (this can even be a familiar family member)
Knowing logically a house visitor is not a threat, but that doesn’t relieve the anxiety
Feelings of dread about upcoming events and appointments on the calendar
Knowing she has to leave the house causes anxiety from the moment she wakes up
All the steps involved in leaving the house are overwhelming and exhausting to think about
She prepares herself mentally for outings, excursions, meetings, and appointments, often days before a scheduled event
OCD tendencies when it comes to concepts of time, being on time, tracking time, recording time, and managing time (could be carried over to money, as well)
Questions next steps and movements, continually
Sometimes feels as if she is on stage being watched and/or a sense of always having to act out the “right” steps, even when she is home alone
Telling self the “right” words and/or positive self-talk (CBT) doesn’t typically alleviate anxiety. CBT may cause increased feelings of inadequacy.
Knowing she is staying home all day brings great peace of mind
Requires a large amount of down time or alone time
Feels guilty after spending a lot of time on a special interest
Uncomfortable in public locker rooms, bathrooms, and/or dressing rooms
Dislikes being in a crowded mall, crowded gym, and/or crowded theater
Section G: Sensitive
Sensitive to sounds, textures, temperature, and/or smells when trying to sleep
Adjusts bedclothes, bedding, and/or environment in an attempt to find comfort
Dreams are anxiety-ridden, vivid, complex, and/or precognitive in nature
Highly intuitive to others’ feelings
Highly empathetic, sometimes to the point of confusion
Takes criticism to heart
Longs to be seen, heard, and understood
Questions if she is a “normal” person
Highly susceptible to outsiders’ viewpoints and opinions
At times adapts her view of life or actions based on others’ opinions or words
Recognizes own limitations in many areas daily, if not hourly
Becomes hurt when others question or doubt her work
Views many things as an extension of self
Fears others opinions, criticism, and judgment
Dislikes words and events that hurt animals and people
Collects or rescues animals (often in childhood)
Huge compassion for suffering (sometimes for inanimate objects/personification)
Sensitive to substances (environmental toxins, foods, alcohol, medication, hormones, etc.)
Tries to help, offers unsolicited advice, or formalizes plans of action
Questions life purpose and how to be a “better” person
Seeks to understand abilities, skills, and/or gifts
Section H: Sense of Self
Feels trapped between wanting to be herself and wanting to fit in
Imitates others without realizing it
Suppresses true wishes (often in young adulthood)
Exhibits codependent behaviors (often in young adulthood)
Adapts self in order to avoid ridicule
Rejects social norms and/or questions social norms
Feelings of extreme isolation
Feeling good about self takes a lot of effort and work
Switches preferences based on environment and other people
Switches behavior based on environment and other people
Didn’t care about her hygiene, clothes, and appearance before teenage years and/or before someone else pointed these out to her
“Freaks out” but doesn’t know why until later
Young sounding voice
Trouble recognizing what she looks like and/or has occurrences of slight prosopagnosia (difficulty recognizing or remembering faces)
Feels significantly younger on the inside than on the outside (perpetually twelve)
Section I: Confusion
Had a hard time learning that others are not always honest
Feelings seem confusing, illogical, and unpredictable (self’s and others’)
Confuses appointment times, numbers, and/or dates
Expects that by acting a certain way certain results can be achieved, but realizes in dealing with emotions, those results don’t always manifest
Spoke frankly and literally in youth
Jokes go over the head
Confused when others ostracize, shun, belittle, trick, and betray
Trouble identifying feelings unless they are extreme
Trouble with emotions of hate and dislike
Feels sorry for someone who has persecuted or hurt her
Personal feelings of anger, outrage, deep love, fear, giddiness, and anticipation seem to be easier to identify than emotions of joy, satisfaction, calmness, and serenity
Difficulty recognizing how extreme emotions (outrage, deep love) will affect her and challenges transferring what has been learned about emotions from one situation to the next
Situations and conversations sometimes perceived as black or white
The middle spectrum of outcomes, events, and emotions is sometimes overlooked or misunderstood (all or nothing mentality)
A small fight might signal the end of a relationship or collapse of world
A small compliment might boost her into a state of bliss
Section J: Words, Numbers, and Patterns
Likes to know word origins and/or origin of historical facts/root cause and foundation
Confused when there is more than one meaning (or spelling) to a word
High interest in songs and song lyrics
Notices patterns frequently
Remembers things in visual pictures
Remembers exact details about someone’s life
Has a remarkable memory for certain details
Writes or creates to relieve anxiety
Has certain “feelings” or emotions towards words and/or numbers
Words and/or numbers bring a sense of comfort and peace, akin to a friendship
(Optional) Executive Functioning & Motor Skills This area isn’t always as evident as other areas
Simple tasks can cause extreme hardship
Learning to drive a car or rounding the corner in a hallway can be troublesome
New places offer their own set of challenges
Anything that requires a reasonable amount of steps, dexterity, or know-how can rouse a sense of panic
The thought of repairing, fixing, or locating something can cause anxiety
Mundane tasks are avoided
Cleaning self and home may seem insurmountable
Many questions come to mind when setting about to do a task
Might leave the house with mismatched socks, shirt buttoned incorrectly, and/or have dyslexia and/or dysgraphia
A trip to the grocery store can be overwhelming
Trouble copying dance steps, aerobic moves, or direction in a sports gym class
Has a hard time finding certain objects in the house but remembers with exact clarity where other objects are; not being able to locate something or thinking about locating something can cause feelings of intense anxiety (object permanence challenges), even with something as simple as opening an envelope
This unofficial checklist can be copied for therapists, counselors, psychiatrists, psychologists, professors, teachers, and relatives, if Samantha Craft’s name and contact information remain on the print out. This list was created in 2012 and updated in May, 2016.
Samantha Craft
Disclaimer: This is my opinion and based on my experience after 12 years of researching about autism and being officially diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome. It is not meant to replace the DSM-V Autism Spectrum Disorder definition nor is this list meant to serve as an official diagnostic tool. Hundreds of women have used this list in conjunction with the DSM-IV or DSM-V and a professional mental health professional’s guidance. It is also based on 4.5 years of communicating almost daily with those that are diagnosed with autism and some that believe themselves to be on the spectrum. It is not all inclusive. Some will fit into categories and not be autistic/Asperian. This is meant as a springboard for discussion and more awareness into the female experience with autism.
This is an unofficial checklist created by an adult female with Asperger’s Syndrome (AS) who has a son with Asperger’s Syndrome. Samantha Craft has a Masters Degree in Education. Samantha Craft does not hold a doctorate in Psychiatry or Psychology. She has a life-credential as a result of being a female with Asperger’s Syndrome and being a parent of a child with Asperger’s Syndrome. She has created this list in an effort to assist health professionals in recognizing Asperger’s Syndrome in females—for in-depth information regarding females with AS refer to Craft’s book Everyday Aspergers.
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elenthali · 2 years
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my life goal is to create a les mis adaptation that does les amis justice, they get so sidelined in every version i've ever seen
i want to see an adaptation with courfeyrac helping the people around him no questions asked (he did so much for marius, we all know marius wouldn't have survived otherwise), i want a shot where combeferre is sat correcting the dictionary but also to see how he completes the group with his more logical and gentle nature, i want an adaptation that dedicates time to jehan showing his love of poetry and flowers making it all the more emotionally destroying when he's captured, give me eccentric hypochondriac joly who has a cold throughout, show me bossuet being insanely unlucky and just tripping over things in the background, i need to see fueilly who's self-taught and cares for making sure everyone feels a sense of belonging, give me bold and outspoken law student bahorel who can't stand law school. i want to meet musichetta, acknowledge that eponine and gavroche are siblings, hear enjolras' speeches about revolution and grantaire's ramblings about how much he loves enjolras.
most of all marius should come across as the idiot he truly is how dare people make him look vaguely competent (tom hooper i'm looking at you)
seriously les amis make up almost half the book somebody other than tumblr give them the credit they deserve
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volcanicmudbubbles · 1 year
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Emma’s mother has died; her sister and governess have married; and her dad is a hypochondriac who hardly ever leaves home. But Emma, young and alone as she is, is socially the leading woman in town. Everyone curtsies low to her.
Mr Knightley sees she’s still too young to have that much unchecked power, so he takes her under his wing. He teaches her that social position gives one undue influence, and one must stay aware of that and use it as little as possible — or if deployed, used for good. One must observe, one must stay aware of others’ situations, and help them without them having to ask, so they aren’t humiliated.
Emma knows this in theory but she keeps getting tripped up on appearances. She knows the rules but misses the underlying reason for them.
That’s it, that’s the whole book…
In my culture the age difference between Emma and Knightley makes their eventual romantic involvement feel squidgy. Especially because she calls him “Mr.” It comes across as uncle/niece or professor/student. But there is another equivalent, and in fact there’s practically a sub-genre of modern romance novels with this setup: older sibling’s best friend.
Did everybody already know this?
So! Where I was headed! I’ve been imagining what their lives were like before the start of the book. I imagine Isabella and John and Emma all playing together while George was either away at school, or following his father and the steward all over the estate — never getting to play with them, always having to think of everyone else, always being responsible. Which means he’s drawn to Emma’s playful energy, and that’s why he’s so fiercely jealous when she’s silly and open and flirty with Frank. He wants her with him always — but not like that — not arrogant and careless. She has to learn a few lessons first.
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Heyyy you know what’s up uncle Nina!! I know someone asked about Stan headcannons but hear me out…what about Kyle’s?? This question comes with much love <3333
ohhhhh i wonder who sent this in! it’s a mystery!~ your wish is my command, my friend. here are….far too many headcannons, or rather, kyleisms that i have curated about pep!kyle! there’s a lot of interweaved #headstannons because they are frighteningly codependent! mentally ill kings! 
i hope this is everything you were hoping for! also absolutely no spell check! -uncle nina <3
-37 freckles on his face ( stan triple checked )
-god made him brilliant but nerfed him by giving him diabetes…he also is anemic as fuck, has asthma, rosecea, ocd and i want to say like high functioning autism? he is giving me spencer reid energies so hard
-he’s also like seriously agoraphobic sometimes and a hypochondriac ( a lot of this is shelias fault for being like batshit insane...also he really really loves shelia like stan and kyle are both mommas boys as fuck but oh my god she drives him NUTS )
-lived in new jersey until he was like 6 and starting kindergarten and if he’s really really mad or really really relaxed the New Jersey accent sometimes comes out and it’s so iconic we love u kyley b
-he is proportioned like a pixar mom it is mindboggling best ass in class like several years running with no close competition omg
-really likes socks? like that sounds weird but he does not like the feeling of the cold ass floor or the scratchy ass carpet on his feet hell no!! he likes to be cozy, okay? he particularly likes the fuzzy ones and is the one person actually literally stoked to get socks for bdays
-kyle is actually a really really good artist and draws stan a lot especially when he is asleep in class aw
-CARRIES AROUND A LITTLE LEATHER BOUND JOURNAL THAT LIKE NO ONE HAS EVEN SEEN INSIDE OF EVER!!!!! like it is TOP SECRET!!!! kenny calls it kyle's death note shdlashd like what are u writing in there bestie...let me see :)
-can speak…so many languages obv english, hebrew, took french but could probably finesse italian and spanish, currently learning arabic but regrettably despite being an avid anime enjoyer does not know japanese and stans english rizz level is zero but his japanese rizz level is 100000 so sometimes stan uses that power for evil and kyle is like idk what u said to me but i need u to kiss me on the mouth rn rn
-speaking of every member of the cfpom is an avid anime enjoyer…but stan shskks…who has seen istg like dragon ball z and pokémon. idk he gets overstimulated. cartman was like dawg ur literally asian wtf that’s ur people! and he was like listen fartman! being asian does not mean i have to like anime!!! that’s such a micro-oppression!! and kyle was like stan it’s microaggression but good guess bb shsjsj
anyways they all have like long winded discussions about it ( stan sits there and looks pretty he’s v good at his job ) idk what anime is kyle fav…i feel like it’s really obscure and he’s hyperfixated on it. its a kyle/kenny thing ( marj sometimes tags ) but they watch a lot of anime together…kyle had like 2 trulys and told kenny stan kind of looked like eren jaeger and KENNY NEVER LETS HIM LIVE THAT SHIT DOWN
-cannot see like two feet in front of him without his contacts in or his ugly ass librarian glasses on his face 
-however his bad eyesight is repaid tenfold in having extremely good hearing like it’s scary good like he may not be able to see u but he can he can hear u whispering abt him allllll the way across the hallway and his arms are long as fuck!!!! so he will not have to reach very far to smack the fuck out of u!!! dhsjskd!!! talk shit get hit bitch!!!
tbh if he’s faced away from u i feel like he can basically identify u by his perception of the energy ur giving off…it’s like particularly good w stan who i swear to god he can hear the faintest shitty doc marten scuff against the pavement or the tiniest emo boy nose ring star charm jingle from the other side of planet earth and will RUN 
-downside is he has really sensitive ears and is very easily startled by loud noises :( one of my favorite pep!style things is that anytime there’s about to be a loud sound like if stan is about to run the garbage disposal he always always always says LOUD NOISE and warns him aw like stan does not really snap but if u randomly start to make a loud noise he’ll be like dude shut the fuck up ur gonna scare kyle!!!! >:o
-kyle having really good hearing is really funny to me because stan is fucking deaf from listening to music at the apex of volumes and constantly is like WHAT HUH WHO WHAT which pisses kyle off sooooo much — this is a headstannon but stan has perfect pitch so when kyle is yelling at him just to be annoying he goes like a a-flat c woooah f-sharp shsksk
-carries all of stans little adhd boy things before he runs into the mosh pit in return kyle gets to wear stans jacket like his life depends on it ( anemia ) and stan puts his big clunky sticker bombed headphones on him bc it’s loud in there aww also squeezes his hand every time for good luck 
-is extremely paranoid and overprotective of his phone because on a middle school field trip cartman asked to borrow a phone to call his mom and kyle did one…kind thing and it bit him in the ass bc cartman found his extremely secret gay ass tumblr blog and like read all of the entries out to everyone there was a lot of personal poetry and shit it was….fuck u cartman
he effectively outed kyle in middle school like that it was really humiliating and brutal 
and it wasn’t clear what boy he was  talking abt buuuuuut i think we know guys 
-when stan is in a major depression episode and can’t get out of bed kyle reads to him <3 it’s his equivalent to when he’s laid up in the hospital in immunocompromised boy hell and stan brings his guitar and sings him songs aaa they’re so cute my sons!!!! pls!!! 
also kyle is all stiff and cold and serious like he does not get goofy or vulnerable ever…but sometimes if stan is extra sad he’ll do embarrassing little voices for him just to hear him laugh im soooo
-the reading thing is like extra special to me because reading is like extremely stressful to stan because of his dyslexia and also kyle will rip on stan for basically everything but never ever ever for being dumb EVER!!! EVER!!! 
like stan calls kyle stupid bc it’s funny bc kyle is the smartest person on planet earth but like if u call stan dumb or slow or stupid or tell him he’s an idiot he’ll like smile and laugh but the light totally leaves his eyes and he gets really quiet oh my god he’s heard it his whole life specifically from randy and it’s an echo chamber so he fully believes it and doesn’t argue against it it’s his biggest insecurity it like devastates kyle like it makes him homicidal
it’s so serious like i mean if ur even a little mean to stan kyle will rock u but if u like even like insinuate that stan is stupid kyle will put u in the fucking hospital if not the morgue 
-closet swiftie argue with ur momma like kyle is so folklore evermore coded!! pep canon he thinks her lyricism is candid and beautiful! he’s gotta stick up for tall lanky pale bird baddies like him! style by taylor swift is literally on the top of delulu playlist, number one on repeat and is the peppermint fanfic flagship theme song!
-acts like he doesn’t care what people think of him…but also was like irreparably emotionally damaged by The List when it came out :(( like extremely body conscious is almost never not being actually completely enveloped by a horrible thrift store sweater ( which he is comforted by for nice and upsetting reasons ) and in full length pants…he only ever feels remotely confident about his appearance playing basketball :( kyle ur so pretty
-unlike stan who is uncomfortable receiving compliments on his appearance bc he gets so many and does not believe them, kyle gets like very flustered and overwhelmed by compliments because he is not used to them so if kyle is being annoying and u tell him his hair looks good he will short circuit ( stan does use this for evil and good )
-really bad road rage like is a way better driver than stan ( who is the worst driver ever it’s so scary ) but kyle is scarier bc if u cut him off he will cut ur life support and run u off the road
-his anxiety is really bad bc his mom literally fear mongers about EVERYTHING like tells him about every shooting on the news kidnapping new virus doomsday shit…like clinically he had anxiety but it was nurture AND nature 
-i hate talking abt gerald bc i hate him…him and kyle are not very close but kyle wants to impress him which sucks ( style + daddy issues ) has been basically pushing kyle towards being a lawyer and getting into an Ivy League school since birth ( idk what he’ll do if he doesn’t get in he’s like rory gilmore he has no back up ) 
-he like never really got the chance to be soft bc gerald raised him to be a fucking machine gun it sucks so bad :((( i love u kyle 
-stan and kenny straightened his hair once for shits and giggles and it was so long it was crazy…there’s a Polaroid…it’s everything 
-actually very protective over ike even tho ike is a piece of shit like he will call ike a menace all day long but if YOU say it he’ll be like say it again little bitch!!! also this is actually comedy but ike thinks stan is like wicked cool and is constantly like!!!!!! oh it’s just u fuck this where is stan is stan coming…a love for stan runs in that family it’s crazy he is such a hit there 
-ok last one i had to cut it out of chapter 11 bc it was too long but stan wrote a letter to santa asking him to make kyle healthy and give him a new liver instead of giving him the sick hotwheelz track he originally asked for bc kyle was sick in the hospital and was gonna miss hanukah ( little stan butchered that spelling )….and it got redirected to the broflovski house when “North Pole” clearly returned to sender by accident and it’s tacked up on the broflovski family wall of fame 
-yes kyle is the only one who can read stans absolutely illegible handwriting 
-also OKAY im done but it’s a style tradition every year kyle says happy hanukah stan and stan says merry christmas kyle bc it’s comedy
-live laugh kyle pile!
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Doris Day, Rock Hudson, and Tony Randall in Lover Come Back
Tony Randall, Rock Hudson, Doris Day, and Clint Walker in Send Me No Flowers
Lover Come Back (Delbert Mann, 1961) Cast: Rock Hudson, Doris Day, Tony Randall, Edie Adams, Jack Oakie, Jack Kruschen, Ann B. Davis. Screenplay: Stanley Shapiro, Paul Henning. Cinematography: Arthur E. Arling. Art direction: Robert Clatworthy, Alexander Golitzen. Film editing: Marjorie Fowler. Music: Frank De Vol.  Send Me No Flowers (Norman Jewison, 1964) Cast: Rock Hudson, Doris Day, Tony Randall, Paul Lynde, Hal March, Edward Andrews, Clint Walker, Screenplay: Julius J. Epstein, based on a play by Norman Barasch, Carroll Moore. Cinematography: Daniel L. Fapp. Art direction: Robert Clatworthy, Alexander Golitzen. Music: Frank De Vol. The gag "I knew Doris Day before she was a virgin" has been attributed to various wags, including Groucho Marx and Oscar Levant, but in fact the canard that the Rock Hudson-Doris Day comedies were about Day defending her virginity stems mainly from the second of the three films, Lover Come Back. In the first, Pillow Talk (Michael Gordon, 1959), Day's character seems perfectly willing to go off for a weekend with Hudson's, and in the third, Send Me No Flowers, they're already married. Still, these are sex comedies, and Day's characters are, if not virgins, at least naïve. Pillow Talk remains the best of the trio, if only because its initial teaming of the perky Day with the handsome Hudson feels inspired -- as if its makers had been watching the great screwball comedies of the past and had looked around for contemporary equivalents to Jean Arthur, Rosalind Russell, Katharine Hepburn, Claudette Colbert, and Carole Lombard on the one hand, and Cary Grant, Gary Cooper, Henry Fonda, James Stewart, and Joel McCrea on the other. If Day and Hudson don't seem quite as distinguished as that company, I think that's because the movie industry had changed so much in the interim, with stars no longer seen as members of a studio's repertory troupe. To my mind, Day and Hudson hold their own nicely. What had also changed was a certain coarsening of the treatment of sex as the Production Code began to crumble -- there's a sense that writers and directors in the heyday of screwball comedy were content to finesse the limitations of the Code while those of the early 1960s were thumbing their noses at it. Certainly there's nothing so crass in the great comedies of the 1930s and '40s as the scene in Lover Come Back in which Day's Carol Templeton orders a designer to remodel the container of a potential client's product, saying that whoever gets the contract will have "the most attractive can." Cut to a closeup of the bunny-tail-adorned bottom of Edie Adams as the nightclub dancer Rebel Davis. There's also a lot of humor in these movies that feels sadly dated, especially the play on symbols of the Confederacy when Hudson's Jerry is trying to woo a Southern client: Rebel exposes an array of Confederate battle flags across her chest as the band plays "Dixie." Send Me No Flowers feels a little less crass than either Pillow Talk or Lover Come Back, partly because we have moved from sex comedy to domestic comedy of the sort more familiar from TV sitcoms: Hudson's George is a hypochondriac who mistakenly thinks he's dying and wants to provide for Day's somewhat ditzy and impractical Judy. If the brawny Hudson seems like a misfit in this part, we have to accept it as a given -- just as we have to accept the goofiness of Cary Grant as a paleontologist in Bringing Up Baby (Howard Hawks, 1938). Perhaps one reason the producers cast the improbably large Clint Walker as Judy's old boyfriend was to make Hudson look comparatively normal in size.
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snail-speed · 2 years
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That one infographic about heart attacks in women coming across as panic attacks did NOT make my hypochondriac panic disorder-suffering ass feel any safer :))))))
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goofygoldengirl · 1 year
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My dudes I have an idea for a medical show for people who hate medical shows. It’s called hotshots from hellcare, and it follows the meetings of an unofficial support group that features:
A young bubbly, blonde grad nurse who’s so excited!!! to start working at a world class prestigious hospital and has no idea what she’s getting into.
The no nonsense, overworked CNA who works on the third floor and is either Hatian or Filipina depending on where in the US the show takes place
An introverted IT guy who’s been forced to come back to the hospital after 2 years working remotely.
The pessimistic, hypochondriac, middle aged receptionist who works at the outpatient building on campus. She is known for having three ex husbands, five dogs she considers to be her children, and claims to be staunchly following HIPPA guidelines despite having no problems gossiping about patients, and screaming out their personal information across the lobby to fellow employees.
A diner server who just wants to get in and out of rooms and not be subjected to food complaints.
And Jake from the billing department
Instead of mystery illnesses, patients of the week, and convoluted love triangles, this rag tag bunch navigates the mundane such as:
The whole upper management consisting of MBAs who have no prior experience in healthcare but got the job due to some wealthy relative donating a shit ton of money to the hospital
The defecation hallway incident of 1997
Employee parking suddenly being moved to an unreachable spot for no reason and it takes doctor entitlement to get things back to normal
The chaos of transitioning to EPIC
Patients and visitors refusing to wear masks even though they are required and throwing a god awful tantrum
The Wild West that is the emergency room
Pharmaceutical reps infiltrating doctor offices like spies
Joint commission inspection day
Free pizza five days in a row
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hey, i’m in therapy for trauma and a dissociative disorder but i’d like to rule out physical causes for my gaps in memory and other physical symptoms just to be sure since no doctor has thought to check. my therapist has brought up migraines as something to look into and a past psychiatrist mentioned epilepsy before forgetting about it and not referring me to anyone about it (and i had to switch psychs since). now i’m wondering how to go about seeing a doctor about this, ideally someone knowledgeable wrt migraines/ epilepsy and potentially dissociative symptoms. i’d like to at least mention that i’m being treated for a dissociative disorder so they have context but my experience is that some doctors will take that as a sign to stop listening and since no doctors has actually suggested i see someone about these things i feel like i’d also run the risk of coming across as a hypochondriac if i want to be tested for specific illnesses. what’s your experience with this as someone with a dissociative disorder and several physical disabilities (i think you do have epilepsy or non-epileptic seizures?)? do you have any advice on how to go about this or what doctor to talk to?
you're looking for a neurologist/neuropsych! depending on your insurance policies you can either go straight to them, get a referral from your therapist/psychiatrist (if you are trying to screen out the conditions), or from your PCP.
seizures are either screened out or differentially diagnosed for DID, as there is some overlap in how the symptoms can look/feel. neuros who are experienced in seizure disorders will often be familiar with dissociation at least on a very surface level (not therapeutically), as dissociative seizures are a type of seizure.
neuros are the one type of doctor that in my experience are extremely used to high comorbities, since things that affect the brain's structure/functioning typically affects everything else. specialists in general are used to screening out conditions, because when anything tricky needs to be diagnosed there are usually 25 other things that need to be ruled out. this means you do not need to tell them what the condition being diagnosed is if you don't want to, and also that they will be pretty unsurprised by you saying you are being diagnosed with something but need seizures screened out.
be aware that if you go to get tested, you will likely have to do an MRI (both migraine and seizure) and an EEG (seizure). trigger-wise, MRIs will be you getting stuck in a large claustrophobic machine and unable to move for an extended period of time, and EEGs will require a hospital stay for at least a few days with a lot of wires glued to your head.
probably the only issue you might run into is if you go to a clinic that is a Bit Weird about pain medication policies, as the ones that are really weird about pain meds tend to assume that everyone is secretly trying to get a prescription for opiates. so you might get drug tested and/or handed a bunch of paperwork about their pain medication policies if you get screened for/diagnosed with migraines. went to one hospital where if you refilled your migraine meds more than once a month, you were not allowed to return for 6 months. you only got up to 10 pills in the bottle IIRC so it was not covering the entire month. very annoying, patronizing, and woefully unaware that scrips are so much more expensive to get than street
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