#cus that’s so shitty and toxic

[coryosbaby]

the people in the comments of ur miguel fic have to be children or something because how do they not understand its a kink 😭😭people reading smut then being confused as to why theres kinks in it really make me lose hope in humanity

nah cs real tbh — (Cw: r@pe mentioned & discussed below the cut)

like I understand if u don’t want to read it , but why the hell wouldn’t they have a safe word or be in a cnc roleplay 😭 if it says dubcon or cnc in the warnings then that’s what it is .. consensual non consent means like role playing— but u still want it !! The whole point is that THEY STILL WANT IT 😭 I think it’s more rooted in the roughness of the whole thing and less on the noncon part— safe words wouldn’t be there if the person didn’t care ab consent. And dubious consent, to my knowledge, means that consent isn’t necessarily MENTIONED , and slightly forceful but it’s still there . If y’know what I mean . Like obv I wouldn’t write out a girl getting fucked if she didn’t want to be fucked 😭😭 cus in a way it’s ME as the reader when I write it , like that would be like me fictionally r@ping myself like why would I want that 🙃 as someone who has literally been sa’d before .

(the way I’m wording this is so shitty but I hope y’all understand what I mean)

The one comment saying the reader was a minor made me mad tho like I am not finna b doing that 😭😭 + why would I write out a minor getting fucked. That’s literally disgusting , do I look like one of those toxic ao3 writers to u 😭😭 ? If a fic doesn’t literally say that the reader is underage then I’m gonna assume she’s NOT underage, bc I don’t associate children w sex & my automatic thought would be that someone is over 18, on you know, AN 18+ FIC

😨😨

I always write out paragraphs on this shit but like I just want to make it clear . ESPECIALLY in irl situations, consent is always key. Like w dubcon fics, I don’t think irl that that is a healthy or safe option, and would never perform it . But in the fictional world, in a FANTASY, it’s completely different. Ofc I want to get fucked by rafe cameron or Miguel O’Hara bc it’s them and they’re fictional men and hot 😭 like automatically reading that fic classifies that u want to get fucked by them 🙏🏻🙏🏻 Cnc irl is whatever, what someone does consensually in their own sex life is not my business . As long as ur doing it w safe words bc SAFE AND CONSENSUAL SEX IS KEY ‼️

[aajjks]

should they get back together? i mean, the man has said a lot of shitty things to her 👀 called her & yerin a whore, used her abortion against her, basically called her stupid, claimed she never loved him like…😬😬 he’s ❌ TOXIC ❌ but what do you think cus maybe you see a change?

TPOL!JK

you're caught off-guard by the kiss that you don't kiss him back because it's been so long since you've last felt his lips on yours. when he pulls away to look you in your eyes, you're confused. you're always left puzzled by jungkook's actions because what he says and does are always two different things. he agreed the two of you would be better off apart than together, even claiming you didn't love him anymore when you brought the topic up yet here he is kissing you and telling you he loves you.

he always leaves you confused and it's almost like he takes your sincerity for a joke to you and if you weren't so deep in your feelings, you would do it back. maybe that's what maturity does or maybe it's love, who knows?

your response is prolonged but he understands why. he, again, dumped his feelings onto you and is hoping you'll come back to him but there's always a condition when it comes to winning you over.

"u-uh...i don't know what to say. you've become more successful without me, so i-i think i shouldn't. i hope you know i remember all the things you've said to me when you get upset with me and something tells me that if we get back together and i make you upset, you're gonna aim to hurt my feelings again. maybe you don't notice it but you say a lot of things that aren't the nicest. i forgive you for it but i don't want to go through that again. i'm tired of you hurting my feelings, i really am"

“Yn…” he sighs, crossing his hands on his back. You’re not wrong. You both have hurt each other a lot, he’s the one that’s hurt you every time.

Jungkook takes a moment to think about everything, and you’re correct. He’s hurt you too much. But why can’t he stop loving you? Maybe he’s obsessed but he can’t let you go.

“I-I have no excuses for my anger and the things I’ve said to you. I admit that maybe I’m way too toxic for you but I can’t help it. I’m still in love with you.” He is looking at you with desperation and regret.

Regret is always stronger than gratitude.

“I-I can’t promise that I’ll change but I have changed in this time apart yn, I’ve definitely matured, I think my jealousy issues are under control- heck I haven’t touch a woman in the past four years. You’re my only one..” he looks down all of a sudden.

He’s so ashamed.

“J-Just come back to Korea yn.. you’re here all alone. Please I can live my whole life trying to prove to you that I’ve matured for the better and I can.” Jungkook exhales, he’s so nervous.

He really can’t leave you here all on your own.

“I’m sorry for everything yn… I really am… I’m sorry that I didn’t treat you right, I know you e given me so many chances but I blew them… I’m sorry.”

“One last time… come back to me.”

#ask: tpol!jungkook #hmm they belong together and he’s learned a good lesson. yeah he’s definitely toxic and fucked up but… 🥺🥺🥺

[wingekprincessproffssor]

“readers boyfreind bakugou cheats on her and she  

  had enough so she lets everything out finally 

summary: bakugou and y/n been dating for a while but bakugou isnt the brightset boyfriend infact he is very orrgant and very pretty hothead and just particular day y/n finds out that he is cheating on her   warings: toxic realtoinship, cheating

You and bakugou were dating for a year now and when you guys stared to date everyone was shocked i mean They couldnt belive bakugou katsuki has a girlfriend now who would have thought that someone like hım could get a girlfriend like you dispate the shocking your friends and your loved ones supported you but bakugou himself wasnt really the brigthest he was allways so pridefull and pretty competive tawords others  everyone told you and him werent fitting but you allways brush them away cus you belived that deep down katsuki bakugou had a soft spot  and he loved you even tho you had countlees fights with him and even all of them ended up  you crying  over his  harsh words  your friends know how bakugou is so they tried to warn you about his anger but you allways said  “it cant be that bad right?”  but you were worng its was bad like theres that time when you were going gorccery shooping with him and he just blow up cus you picked a rotten apple after his blowing up everyone at the shop was looking at you guys with concered and shamefull eyes  specailly to bakugou but he just garrbed you and all the gorcceries and when you arrived home you wanted to tallk to hm but its was no use he didnt listened and just go to his room saying”whatever nerd” and buy the time passed your universey with him came and you bought him a cake supresingly he eate it  and when it came to you he gave you nothing and when you asked  why  he responed with  “cus i forget it “ which made you sigh at that time  and  now all of his actoins getting to you , you were staring to open your eyes

And a one partculer day you wanted to go shoping to buy some chicken And rice so you told him that you were going to shop and as always he didnt care just like that bakugou was the only one who left in the house and with a smirk he take his phone out of his pocket and dailed a unknown number and he had a big smirk the whole time and after a short while a girl came and bakugou guide to her to the living room and They started to make out in the Couch "ohh baby,you are so Much Better than my shitty girlfriend" he said as he keep kissing her deeply And getting to touchy with her that he didnt heared his phone ringing and his 4 missed calls from you  he fainlly got up to fith one and when he take his phone on his hand he saw your  4 missed calls and your messges about you coming home “shit” he said as he get nervous and the girl asked him whats was wrong  and he brush it away  saying its was nothing  but then he heared the door knock and thats when he was losing his cool so he garbed some  covers to hide the girl but its was to late you were already  in the room with wide teary eyes and  a angry look mixed with dispointment  “how could you !? do this!?” you said as the tears fell down your cheeks  “i dont know how i fell for you!?”you said as you yelled at him “i can expelien ba-” 

Before even he finisheses his sentence you slapped him on his face and his cheek become red "dont babe me! İ had engeuh of your crap! You are just a toxic guy who only thinks thier selfs! And am not buying that crap what You done today has crossed the kime oh and You know what im done with you! " Bakugou looked at you with shocked eyes then the girl looked at him with with careless eyes "i guess its over ha well too bad for You annyways i will be leaving" she said as she put the covers on and take her bağ and leave after the girl leaved you told hım to pack up his things and go away which he responsed with" tch" and went to upstairs to pack up his things and as you proccesed everything That happned you shouldtn be so superised the man was toxic so what could you have been exptected right? But still it broke your hearht to see your ex boyfriend cheated on you like this as you sighed and watch bakugou leaving with his sauit cases you close the door behind hım and just went to kitchen to make your self a tea to Realx but it didnt worked so you ended up crying but thankfully you were able to clam yourself down and as you were about to go to Your room your phone ringed its was deku who was calling you "hi y/n how are you?" He said with his usual sweet voice "not Really fine deku-kun, bakugou cheated on me today and we broke up"you finished your sentence with a cracked voice "oh no, am so sorry! What he done was disguasthing! Am sorry you have to deal With him like this want me to come over?"

His voice sounded so caring which made your lips crawled a smile

"sure, please come" you said with a happier tone

"ok then" he said as he close the phone and within minutes he was there knocking on Your door

"hı deku" you said with a sad smile

"am here so please dont be sad anymore,the guy didnt desvere you" deku said as he warped his arms around you and give you warm hug

"thanks midoriya" you said as you hugged hım back and for the night deku comforted you and you guys even watched some movies and take some pics he Really changed your mood for the Better and at the end of the movie you guys falled a sleep on the Couch cuddling eacother when you both wake up his cute little face was bulshing cherry red

"its ok deku ,i Didnt mind it "

you said as you gave him a Kiss on his cheeks which returned him smiling after that you and deku stared tallking more often and eventualy became a couple he treated you way Better than bakugou and he also wasnt toxic like bakugou. And as for bakugou he was miserable watching you and deku falling in love with eacother but theres was nothing he can do now whats done was done and now he  was watching you  with sarrow and with a huge Regeret for what he did

#bakugou x reader #deku midoriya #deku x fem!reader #bakugou angst #bnha bakugou #mha deku #midoriya izuku #deku x you #bakugou x gender neutral reader #deku x reader #my post #bakugou imagine

[blinky-skyd]

ty ilu mwah

nylon started out as my splatsona in splatoon 2, based on the bangs cut that i usually used & my favorite outfit in game, sneaky beanie, takoroka nylon vintage, mint drakoniks. still slaps, waiting for all the gear to come back to s3😭 they were kinda a blank slate for a while since i didnt know what to do w them. but since theyre a sona i get to unload whatever personal bullshit on them! when i first started playing splatoon i got obsessed quickly w salmon run (still am) but also grizzco as a whole, i LOVED the mystery and shadyness and grungy atmosphere of it all. i tried to do something w that for a really long time (bout a year) but now its just an alternate universe thing. i tried to make alternations but. clare from fleabag voice ITS UNSALVAGABLE. um so au it is.

anyw the more ive developed them the more theyve kinda become their own character. they have the usual rough childhood, gets into messy bs and toxic friend groups as a teenager, gets kicked out at 18, goes from shitty job to shitty job, theyre just a depressed mfer! they love getting high and getting some. theyd rather die than get close to people or form meaningful bonds. they simultaneously think theyre hot shit and the worst. eyebags galore. oh yeah they could commit war crimes given any good reason (not morally) but otherwise theyre lazy. they have good music taste but also have a selection of sad songs they listen to when the homies arent around. she loves judd the cat. when they were a kid they begged their parents for ages to get a pet spider (are tarantulas canon in splatoon idk). they got it btw (named blaze) their parents were Not happy. theyve drunkenly passed out in public an embarrasing amount of times. she rates her hookups in her notes app, divided into categories even. she hasnt had a healthy meal in months. she doesnt know what a mental health is. she has one of those “damn bitch you live like this” rooms full of empty cans. she can play the piano and knows minecraft songs. they have double the daddy issues. theyre eerily similar to jessie pinkman from breakind bad but /j. they act tough & pretend they dont like physical affection cus they dont wanna admit they need a hug. idk how to talk abt ocs normally online i didnt even say basic info. theyre 22, nb purple or blue ink. ive coped w this bitch too much i owe them one. half of my sketchbook is filled w doodles of them

edit; now comes with a playlist and pinboard

#blinky speaks #wrow nylon lore heyo #slaps their back. this guy can fit so much trauma in them! #if u waaaaant u can ask questions or send me asks abt my failgirl babygirl oc? 👉👈 #i think i drank the wrong tea it was supposed to be sleepytime tea but ive never felt MORE AWAKE #drugs ment tw #alcohol ment #splatoon #nylon

[stonedregulus]

glad to see other big authors like zar are joining in on this cus its honestly getting ridiculous.

i hope this strike helps ppl realize their shitty attitude. it’s gotten so toxic and it’s so unfair for you and all the authors getting hate.

totally support you and i hope you’re ok and it gets better!

me too i’m really thankful that he’s participating. as the biggest name in the fandom right now i think that’s a huge win for the community

#ollie is answering asks #jegulus author strike #no post november

[bacchicly]

Ok super super unpopular and way too earnest and not fun take about Kevin Lynch and the rhetoric around his character and his and Pen's relationship as presented by the CM writers below the cut. I totally understand why my fellow fans hate him - in fact I think the intention is that we are supposed to hate him - but I don't think the nerdy boy character is treated much better than our nerdy girl...here's why...

....and yeah it is all about the tropes I usually explore and yeah it is Not Fun™ and I am taking issue with some common arguments and understandable arguments put forward as justification for hating Kevin - but I NEED to get these thoughts out - because right now they are all jumbled and it is driving me crazy and I don't want to be a spoil sport on a "We hate Kevin post" cus I get it! I "hate" it that Penny had to go through a shitty relationship - but that is par for the course for most of the characters on the show. Shitty relationships are the norm on CM - and that actually is logical based on the trauma these characters are regularly subjected to - the outliers are actually the good relationships! And here I would pretty much only include Matt & Kristy and Kate & what's his name and a few others - but they are hard won and the characters often had to go through a bunch of duds first.). Ok so here we go... You have been warned!!! And I have turned off reblogs mostly because I really am not attacking anyone - except maybe younger me - who would have been the first in line in the "I hate Kevin" fan club.

Edit: I have changed my mind and turned back on re-blogs. If you want to come at me or state an opposing opinion. Go nuts. I was a coward at first.

So I am fully aware I may be the only Garvez/Penelope Garcia fan on earth who doesn't hate Kevin Lunch or the writer's construction of him. Do I love him? Nope. Do I think he hurt Penelope? Yep. But I also refuse to pile on him and his behavior.

Here's why:

1. The relationship was fucked in the end - but my beloved Penny is not without a hand in that - and the final fuckery does not negate the good things about that fairly long relationship. I am really worried about the tendency for any relationship that ends or isn't all sunshine and roses to be deemed as a "waste or toxic" - I think it hurts people in real life. Relationships are not pass / fail. For me, that Penelope and Kevin figured out how to be friends - even imperfectly is testament to me that their relationship was "Not A Waste™" (and I trust her opinions and the writers on this - more about this later...) Also important note: yes - in both real life and fiction - there are truly harmful relationships and abusive partners but that is different from two people being flawed humans and a romantic relationship not working out - which I think is a fair description of Penelope and Kevin's relationship. I just re-read Crichton's Airframe and the protagonist talks about how most air accidents are not caused by a single event but a cascade of small happenings and choices that eventually lead to the accident...and that most journalism (at the time of the novel) did not report it that way was an issue. I would say this is similar to why relationships "succeed" or "fail" - it is rarely a single event but a complicated series of factors that ebb and flow. And I would argue that the writers actually did a fairly good job of depicting this within the context of the series. I love that Penelope and Kevin despite everything does what they can to stay friends after the breakdown of their romantic relationship - I think it does them both credit.

2. Both characters have strengths and flaws but IMO the writers developed them in a way consistent with their key characteristics and both reacted in ways consistent with societal pressure on both "nerdy women" and "nerdy men". Again both were imperfect and made mistakes - as did perhaps the writers - but if we demand perfect characters and relationships - where is the fun in that? I would argue that actually Penelope was painted as much more sympathetic and desirable than Kevin ever was (which makes sense since she is a core protagonist).

For example:

Kevin was given "a lot" of girlfriends after Penny... but I would argue that it was done more in a "slut shaming" mode than a "let's build him up as a player / cool guy" mode. Here's my argument: Nerdy Men are rarely granted the type of "player status" or even "good partner / parent" that "hot" male characters are granted; I would argue that this is a form of toxic masculinity at work. "Nerdy Men" are portrayed as not "deserving" healthy relationships in a way that is different than "Nerdy Women" but they are still rarely depicted as being in healthy relationships - and it is even less talked about than the negative depictions of "Nerdy Women". Yes, we see the Kevin character acting out - having multiple girlfriends - trying to be macho with Pen - but it was always done in a way that is consistent with the "jealous of Morgan" character that was crafted and, I would argue, consistent with someone who really wants a long-term stable relationship with one person but either is not great with relationships or is not able to be with someone they idealize in the way they idealize (in this case MARRIED TO PENNY). As such, the # of girlfriends in my view is not the writers "rewarding" him for his crappy behaviour but punishing him for it. It is offered as evidence of his lack of masculinity. Should Penelope have been given more or better love interests? Maybe. But that is seperate from whether or not Kevin is deserving of "hate".

3. I am super uncomfortable with the "Luke is worthy of Penelope because he is hot and nice" and "Kevin is not worthy of Penelope because he was not hot and not nice" rhetoric. The logic is based on the same flawed arguments that people who are not fans of Penelope Garcia make: she is not conventionally attractive and sometimes kinda mean (both moderately true statements) therefore she does not deserve to be admired or loved or respected (wrong). It doesn't matter if someone finds Luke attractive and Kevin not attractive - Penelope found both attractive and that's what matters. What if instead of Luke - we are given an even more sympathetic perfect partner (and I mean someone she likes, loves, and is attracted to and who likes, loves and is attracted to her - where both of them treat each other supportively and respectfully) for Penelope who was played by a very fat actor - and Penelope choses them after a relationship with Luke ends amicably ...not because Luke is bad...or their relationship wasn't very good...or they didn't love each other... But because life is complicated and fitting more than one life together - especially with their jobs - is not an easy feat... Do we hate them? Do we hate Luke? Do we demonize the writers for not giving Pen "a hot guy"? What if the writers are brave and at the same time Luke ends up happily with someone who is perfect for him and maybe even less conventionally attractive than Penelope? How do we feel?

I guess what I am saying is - love Luke and Penelope all you want...I do. I really really do...but it might be healthy for us to be very careful about completely hating on the Kevin or Lisa characters at the same time...definately not as fun... but revolutionary and self loving.

What if we and the fictional characters we love could chose the type of relationships (1 true love, serial monogomy, multiple partners) that work for us in a way that is respectful and loving of both ourselves and our partners? What if there stops needing to be a villain for relationships to end? What if ending a relationship didn't negate the good parts of the relationship - regardless of whether a relationship ends badly or not?

I don't know. I just want people to stop being in such pain about all of this in their own lives and challenging ourselves to engage with media in a way that is less fun but healthier...could maybe be a step in that direction? You are worthy of love and respect even if you aren't perfect. That doesn't mean you get a free pass to be shitty - but stop thinking only perfect people and perfect relationships are worthwhile. It's just not true.

Ok thank you for coming to my rambly no fun ted talk. Please go back to your regularly scheduled lives and enjoyment of the fandom.

#criminal minds #kevin lynch #penelope garcia #luke alvez

[jennrypan]

Helluva boss Unpopular opinion

Stella being abusive is not an issue but more of how she was being written as an abuser because it feel like the writer try to make her pure evil instead of making her like an actual abuser

Stella is not the only abusive/abuser individual in the show blitzo really being asshole toward moxxie who always try to be kind to him, loona she call moxxie fat for no reason at all then she being violent like a crazy bitch

Both stella and stolas are shitty parent to certain extent

Stolas and blitzo are toxic

Stella is a bitch but some of her anger are valid

I agree with most points here, though with Loona, its more so how you bitch to your friends and shes an angry teenage but extreme cuz ya know hell,

Stolas and Stella are pretty bad parents for different reasons yeah, Stolas is unintentionally a bad parent but still a bad parent, we still dunno how Stella treats Octavia when Stolas isnt around but we can assume shes just as neglectful and snappish to her as Octavia seems to be around Stolas a lot more

And yes Blitzo IS an asshole and him and Stolas are pretty toxic but I think if they actually talked and worked out their shit they could work but theyre equally hurting each other

But yeah, Id be angry if I got cheated on too in my own house (Im interested to see how she was raised cus we can assume she learned her behavior from somewhere)

#j.p speaks #helluva boss #hb stella #j.p answers #i like this asks :) #i dont get to talk about little stuff im into this much #its fun

[annamillersthings]

TW : mention of sexual coercion, emotional abuse, SA

Literally came out of social media hibernation to say to some people: pls for the love of god don't say that prapai is romantic like what part did you see and thought "wow how romantic" cus if you did then we are seeing 2 completely different shows .

A) their first time was NOT a one night stand it was sexual coercion . And if there are people who don't understand then let me define it :

" one night stand: A one-night stand is a single sexual encounter in which there is an expectation that there shall be no further relations between the sexual participants and it happens with consent between the participants with no emotional pressure "

" sexual coercion: Sexual coercion is unwanted sexual activity that happens when you are pressured, tricked, threatened, or forced in a nonphysical way. Coercion can make you think you owe sex to someone. It might be from someone who has power over you. "

https://www.healthline.com/health/sexual-coercion

The above link will give you more insight and understanding where i am coming from .

I don't know how anyone thought that was okay i literally saw someone here say "sky totally enjoyed that even if he felt shitty later " LIKE HELLO excuse me it is a deeply upsetting scenario and traumatic, he was literally emotionally pressured and manipulated he was acting on instinct to save his life he did not enjoy it . He did not give consent, prapai literally made it very clear either sky has sex with him or be left alone to the guards in an unknown shady place so sky did the one thing that could save him and sorry no that's not consent.

B) the way prapai pursued sky : Don't even get me started on that like apart from the flowers all the other stuff prapai did was TRASH calling sky from an unknown number being creepy , saying sexually suggestive things even when sky has made it abundantly clear he is not enjoying it and then the worst of all coming to his college and pressuring him AGAIN by blackmail so that sky comes with him in his car like nah bro that's not romantic that's traumatising. And he called sky rude the audacity he is the one stalking and being creepy but sky is rude stfup.

Sky my darling sky just ... I feel so bad for him he breaks my heart i just want to hug him in a blanket and tell him he is amazing. Sky is a character that should've been in the world of Alice oseman but somehow with a twisted unfortunate luck of fate he ended up in the world of mame .

Listen i am not policing ( it's not my place anyone can enjoy whatever they want ) and saying you shouldn't enjoy love in the air hell i myself enjoy love in the air but don't try to justify your enjoyment with false narratives okay just tell it as it is . When some of you say prapai is romantic you are insulting victims who have been "sky" once in their lives and you are also insulting actual romantics who are doing it right ( eg : someone like Lee junho from eaw , sky , nuea and intouch from scoy the series, Nick Nelson from heart stopper and many more) . I am sick and tired of this trend of defending toxic characters , saw exact stuff happen during kinnporsche and now with lita . I love kinnporsche but am i gonna justify it hell no that was wrong and the series itself acknowledged it . Do i like and enjoy prapai×sky hell yes i do i watched lita only because of them cus the actors have chemistry and i am here for it . But that is not my fantasy of ideal romance i would not wish that to happen even to my worst enemy cus i have been in sky's position and it hurts and make you feel pathetic. My problem is how they are glossing over this atleast kinnporsche showed how the victims felt and it didn't gloss over it but lita my god it is literally portraying sky as just a person with insecurities and not an actual person who is a SA survivor ( i read the novel and it hurts more knowing ) and prapai as the love of his life whose gonna "fix him " which is sooo enraging cus sky don't need any fixing whatsoever the only person who needs fixing and repentance is prapai but i know for sure i won't get either . And yes this is mame i knew what i was getting myself into but some of y'all reactions are disgusting. The amount of posts i have seen gaslighting sky and rain and worshipping payu and prapai is INSANE ( no payu and rain are not dom and sub atleast not what happened in the bathroom stall that was sexual assault plain and clear but i don't have the patience for that argument all I'll say BDSM relationships happens with full consent from all the parties involved) . Enjoying problematic media is fine but don't gloss over the problematic part please 🙏 . I enjoy lita i like both the couples and their dynamics but i am fully aware that's trash and i am okay with it cus i can separate fact and fiction unlike some people here .

#love in the air the series #kinnporsche the series #prapaisky #payu rain #extraordinary attorney woo #scoy the series #heartstoppper #at the end i would just like to say grow up y'all #alice oseman #mame #love in the air

[bloodrosebriars]

How many kids you have?

// ooh i’m gonna answer this one ooc cus it depends on the verse :]

in general he only has one kid, with varre, a bitchy brat of a boy named grayson. he’s the poster child for toxic gays and causes drama on purpose. they dont have him until way after miquella has hatched and the dynasty has fallen and everyone has fled and is living in the sewers and mohg has had time to come to terms with his life and mistakes. yes

then me and @spellbladerogier have an au where mohg and rogier have a daughter named gracelyn!! she’s a little shit but nowhere near as malicious as her brother, just likes playing pranks and being mischievous. in aus where she exists, mohg and varre have grayson before the dynasty falls bc varre gets jealous lmao but otherwise yee!! big sis goth sorceress

so the answer is one or two depending :,] grayson may be younger but he definitely has the big sib energy. he is evil to everyone except his sis. he loves her to death and she loves her shitty little pissbaby of a brother in turn. theyre nightmares together and cause problems on purpose and honestly i love them

ty ty anon!!

#[gracelyn] #[grayson] #answers #anon #:] the brats #i love grayson he is just the pink drink tiktok irl

[rise-my-angel]

Why did you leave the Pedro fandom?

A few reasons, the biggest being a growing toxicity amongst certain subsets of the fandom, including a lot of very popular blogs.

Very much adhering to the idea that disagreeing opinions no matter how calm and well stated are just "bitching and complaining". I got called out by multiple people for ever DARING to say I did not like the inclusion of a romantic backstory between Joel and Tess in the show version of The Last of Us. So many people got talked down to for just voicing their discontent on their own blogs. It happened again with the Mandalorian between those who liked season 3 and those who didn't. Those who didn't were called out as if we were either looking for things to hate or trying to ruin other peoples enjoyment.

Part was also just I got into the fandom through the Mandalorian, and I felt so burned by season 3 that it soured a lot of my enjoyment of future content in the fandom.

But a big part was the other fic writers. Fic writers in the pedro fandom are some of the most needlessly aggressive people. They promote that they are so for sexual freedom but are super hostile about whenever a kink they dislike is popular. Lots of Pedro writers did age gap, and instead of just not reading it they TO THIS DAY make posts about how its wrong to write age gap for certain pedro characters when its supposed to just be fun smut fantasy. Or gatekeeping characterization to the point no one could have a different interpretation without being called out or talked down to about being wrong.

For me to, it was also that the fic side of the fandom was a heavy numbers game. So many big writers in that fandom are the ones pushing "DONT LIKE JUST REBLOG AND COMMENT" with regards to fics but they always get 200 notes minimum and their mutuals all reblog and support each other anyways when you rarely see them support super small writers. If its below 50 notes, they ain't touching it unless they've promoted that writer before. When just leaving a like on a fic is GREAT. If you read my fics and only like it, you are based and I am emailing you a smooch on the forehead cus you do not need to do anything else, I'm just thrilled people like it no matter if they engage with it at all or not.

They care so much about optics to a degree they forget what being a reader is like.

It made you feel like you were a bad writer. Like your story was shit, and if you got big, it meant everything that doesnt match up felt like a failure. I had a Joel Miller x Reader series get super big, and whenever I didn't get those numbers I felt like I was a shitty writer, and the mutuals around you don't really care about anything but their own fics engagement or their friends fics.

It was just all very clique like, and I still see them engaging in the same discourse every other week because they refuse to just ignore the sides of a fandom they disagree with. They have to engage with people they disagree with because they feel the need to be on the morally superior side of the fandom.

It was truly killing my passion for writing. I was never in love with any of my pedro stories the way I am for my Jon Snow fic, and that gets like 30 notes per chapter. I still struggle with seeing low numbers because my time in the pedro fandom really taught me that numbers matter and being the loudest voice matters most.

It's not everyone in the fandom obviously, but it was the most significant portion of people I was surrounded by who were like that. I can't even read pedro fics anymore, the experience for me was soured beyond repair.

#anyone whose still in it reading this it aint about you #at this ppint ive been blocked by 99% of the toxic side of the fandom so if you read this #your not someone who made me want to quit writing all together #so dont worry

[writingbrainrot]

Lol seeing newer tumblr accounts being like "tumblr is a wholesome place only meant for good feels" when i'm trying to avoid ptsd flashbacks from being here 8+ years ago and trying to make brain shhh so i can just vibe but unable to cus shit was harrowing

The concept of a social media solely being wholesome is..... idk it seems fake to me personally

I've been here for like a week on this acocunt alone and i've sene the same dark ass toxic ass shit as existed back then

So either my luck is the worst, writing tumblr is for some reason extremely cursed or we're having a multiverse issue

Cus none of this is purely wholesome and kind

Genuinely confused

Granted may be me reading it autistically instead of NT-ly but even then like?

I have 1 account that is 95% wholesome and that is because i've set it up so that i only see my posts, even then i'm a salty bitch so it's not 100% lol

The "just block when you see someone unpleasant" doesn't work when you have a tendency to hyperfocus and hyperfixate, a strong curiosity, a strong sense of justice and wanting to know the truth and also the fact that things you've seen can't be unseen. I still need to read the shitty comment before i can figure out that the person is shitty so i can block them. Thus making the whole experience majorly negative and harmful for my mental health.

Anyway that concludes my foray back into this hellsite (derogatory)

I shall now listen to my ptsd flaring and just... not lol

#i'm too disabled for this bullshit #too old for it too and i'm not even in my 30's

[heybaetae]

i don't think its cus ur shitty but probably more cause they see u have a big heart and thats def something ppl take advantage of. sometimes we just meet ppl, good or bad for us so i wouldn't put it on urself too much esp if u know you're not toxic like that. ive also been getting the short end of the stick when it comes to friends & maybe i'm projecting but thats what it feels like. its crazy how much words can hurt esp said at the wrong time, while maybe the person who said it didn't see it that way. it's how they react to u telling them it hurt u, will show you the type of person they are. the irony is i never really do express how i feel and the 1 time i did it, the person took no accountability :) they felt like they can choose when their actions/words hurt someone when thats not the case at all. maybe they didn't /intend/ to but it could still happen & thats what they couldn't get at all. question tho, u have online friends right? do u only consider them online friends or are they just friends in general? (more so talking about the ppl u know by name and talk w/ often) asking cus i known someone online for a few yrs & got super close but recently they're treating me like i'm not apart of their life (barely hear from them, leaves me hanging for days before they reply) so im kinda backing off and it doesnt seem like they care tbh. now i feel like i'm just someone they know "online"

oof yeah you’re really hitting the nail on the head about the selective accountability thing. i can’t believe how hard it is for some people to acknowledge that they might have hurt someone with their words or actions. when someone’s pride outweighs their ability to own up to their mistake and let someone be vulnerable with them about how they made them feel. how do you expect anyone to ever trust you when you can’t do that? when you’d rather someone live with a bad version of you in their head instead of apologizing and making an effort to do better?

i do have online friends. most of my friends now are online ones. like i said earlier, the pandemic really kinda messed with the real life friendships i had (which ironically started as online friendships anyway) and with growing up, people drift apart or move away. i consider some online friends much closer than others, as you do depending on how much you talk and how much you let them in. i’ve learned to be a little more careful about it though because i’ve been burned by people. i’m a lot more reserved about it these days, but my best friend of twelve years is someone i met online and we’ve only met in person once because we live in different states, but he’s practically my soulmate and we can go days or weeks without talking and nothing changes. we have excellent communication too. i’ve had online friendships that were close but have fizzled out naturally and i get how it feels when that happens, it can be confusing when you realize maybe they were more important to you than you were to them 🥲

#ask

[mydarksadshadow]

shadow work day 10

date: 22nd Dec '22

what is a list of things that I find inspiring?

inspiring toh bahot sari cheezein lagti hain. lekin sirf inspire hone se nahi chalta, usko life me apply krna zyada matter krta hai. waise the list would include feminism, feminists, people who fight through odds like not having a support system and yet still going on to achieve the things they wanted in life, people with unwavering optimism in finding better people for their lives despite getting disappointed repeatedly by shitty people (that's me, I'm tryna stay positive, I hope I find at least one friend soon, but I won't tell her any of my fears/weaknesses, ain't makin that mistake again). bas zyada aur kuch nahi, I think I am my own competition and strength. I trust myself enough to get out of this now.

what am I insecure about? when did these insecurities start and why?

I think I am still a bit insecure about my native tongue when my parents speak in front of people that I know, and I think it stems from my inferiority complex (IC). I have managed to overcome 99% of my ICs, except for this part. I have inherited my IC issues from my mom. she ain't insecure about the language part though surprisingly. I'm also insecure about failing 11th grade but as long as that part of me stays hidden from the rest of the world, I couldn't care about it any less at this point. one can't do much when their parents are cunts. I guess I am also insecure about my weaknesses like the fact that I don't really have a relationship with my parents so it'll be awkward to invite friends over cus we ain't a normal family by any means, and the loneliness feels quite painful too sometimes. my weaknesses make me insecure cus they are a reminder of how shit my life has been in the past couple of years and how horribly hopeless I have felt this whole time. ups and downs of life I guess. never letting my fucking egg and sperm donor control my fucking life again. motherfucking cunts. also, I just realized that currently, I don't feel worthy enough of having a loving, romantic relationship cus of how unworthy that fuckboy made me feel. he's the biggest cunt ever. maybe if I start spending more time with other people, I'll stop feeling like this.

what was my favorite activity as a child? do I still do this activity today?

I used to love reading and playing/spending time with my friends. It eased me from the pain and abuse I endured at home. I enjoyed reading a lot as it helped me escape the world for a few hours and it made me more self-aware and independent compared to my peers (i wish I also had more self-esteem though) and gave me hope for a better future, plus it made my English strong and gave me this cool-ass personality. *flips hair* I still try to read from time to time and I wish I did it more often, and I would love to have the company of some real non-toxic friends now. my fingers are always crossed for that. let's see how things pan out in the next couple of months.

what are the things that I am looking forward to during my lifetime?

I am looking forward to having a fulfilling career, wonderful friends who are kind, loving, supportive, and generous (and I mirror the same qualities in our friendship), and marrying the man of my dreams who is everything I could have desired for and he feels the same way about me and we make each other very happy. I also look forward to having 3 beautiful kids, and a pet dog, and a Persian cat, and living a comfortable & luxurious life with no money-related worries in life whatsoever, and actually feeling worthy of receiving healthy, unconditional love from people around me.

[olivedoesmagic]

jOURNAL 95:So begins this new Dionysus chapter of Olive Brimstones fucking life or sumnting

jOURNAL 95:So begins this new Dionysus chapter of Olive Brimstones fucking life or sumnting

Sometimes we predict in our world, history and reality as falsified narratives of “fantasy” soon in this reality 1E57 by the code Dionysus, this world i am writing to you in will learn of magick, and mayhem and sorcery. But the thing of your world is that it has always been and truly stuck as meant to be FICTIONAL. People were never supposed to have definitive proof that the gods exsited, people were never supposed to see a vlog at camp half blood about percy jackson. And as a result of this, it has angered not just dionysus but zeus and apollo and aphrodite that’s a sharp one, towards me, and others who wish to provide salvation and comings and literature of other worlds. It will be a test run a world like ours with super powers and heroes and mutliveress, and then we’ll all wake up and this book will suffice like it was all one bad dream. 

That’s all there is too it. That’s all I foresee. A world where we learn of magick the gods make their big deubeu and while videos and evidance surfaces it all disappears or is disproven by the likes of captain dissolution and other skeptics who are admamanet about ti. When I give predictions unlike the pyhcihc twins who are cunts and you can trust me on that, I DONT DOUBT MY GIFT, nor do I COLD READ, or believe in antisemtic conspiracy theories.

Unlike rebbeca sugar i don’t go after tiny authors I ripped off to keep quite about my work or kin the worst of my characters than get mad at other people who kin same characters when i promoted and advertised kinning said characters because “oops a bad person is too much like THE REAL pink diamond I imaginged it! Who is totally based off me and not the indie comic I ripped off to create my cartoon show!” you can’t copyright an idea, and if you can in your culture something is truly and utterly wrong. Pretty soon I’ll be headed to the real life hunger games, cus that shit happens dysptopicly in other coutnries, and I can’t die via my imortality curse! So I volenteered. It’s exhausting it’s expansive and if you think you OWN your work then don’t take inspiration from anything darling because that’s not how this shit roles, especially when you plagerized FUCKING MONSTER HIGH from an indie artist who exposed you on tick tock.

I digress. I just hate to see beleivers, that claim they beleive in pop culture magick, who watch my shitty kaito tv show, who adore me in a masc and then meet the real me and are struck by what I actually present to them! When they lecture others such as this isnt’ magick (ready for the hate male and failed curses yet again) on how to do magick (the right way!) rather than even provoke thought about the systems they don’t understand the historcical reference too.

AND JULES IS FINE< KEVIN SI FINE, AIDOLF IS FINE, but the rest of that blog is garbage and its dionysus drunkenly possessing olive saying this! Ain’t an alter, olive is a huge vessel of mine and we have an agreement to possess each other wehn DRAUNK.,

She oftens writes these entries drunk by the way. She can do that. You shound’t. And it pisses me off so much how people treat her (i can use those pronouns for her she’s he to you) it pisses me off how ARTMIES TREATS HER (just be a women! Be like me apollo!) it pisses me off how ODIN treats her, how everyone declares her a mad idiot before fully vetting reading or experimenting with the methods in her diary. SHE BELIVES DIFFERENT THEN YOU, shes dsylexic! GET OVER YOUR TOXIC ABUSIVE ASS! She explained the aztec versions of pop culture magick, the history behind its movement, the reincartive series and therein of otherkin and otherkin and par humans and if that still isn’t enough for your skeptic ass up your dam BUTTHOLE! Why are you still laughing drunk about your friends to her, while you’ve entered her dam bubbles! OLIVE CREATED THAT MAGICK SYSTEM WITH ACRIANS LOCKETS HELP! And if you respect acrians! And don’t respect OLVIE god do i have some news for you!!!!!!!!!

Anyways! Check out this genwa shit im joining in a wig, I don’t often posess my followers anymore Olive si my special someone KEEP IN THE GRAMMATICAL DEAR, love ya by#!

Dionysus Posession #5

9:09 something something your porn of me isnt good or sum shit

Olive brimstone

9/13/2022

#posession #greek mythology #dionysus #pop culture magick #this isnt magick #im starting a fight between the too #olive and them #it will be how you say #steller #-dionysus

[hajimeow-archived]

it’s good to note that if we’re mutuals nd u notice i unfollow or block u for no reason it’s a me thing dw u didn’t do anything wrong i’ll unblock and/or refollow u when i’m doing better

read tags, don’t rb

#(b4 u read tags just note they sound pretty negative and vent-ish so if u can’t handle that rn come back later) #i have a really bad jealousy problem #so this will probably happen if ur interacting with a shit ton of ppl in like long reblog chains #i’m really sorry i know it’s shitty but the only other choice would be to force my friends not to have other friends and i’d rather die #cus that’s so shitty and toxic #if u do this often tho please don’t stop i swear i’ll be okay this is just something i need to work on #but either way it’s either i do this or just straight up deactivate and then regret it later #samael.txt #do not fucking reblog i’ll stab you #this wasn’t made as a relatable thing this is personal

[lvlyhao]

man, people on twitter are draining... they will invalidate you for feeling ANYTHING, and i mean anything. and they also seem to quite like to make people apologize for fake screenshots, so that's super fun too

#rambles #no one even needs to like or reply to this #im just posting it cus its 1 am #bc im just worried and dude #people are so fucking rude to everyone around them #mutuals #idols #EVERYONE #absolutely everyone #not one soul is safe from this toxic ass community on that hell of an app #feelin pretty shitty ngl