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[stick-ball]

saw a hc about jean moreau being hyper sexual especially post-ravens. thoughts? feelings?

thoughts AND feelings! Oh the joy of being given a chance for a hot second to discuss this. You came to the right place my love. ❤️

Trigger and age warning : rape, sex connected trauma, dissociation, psychological abuse, controlling relationships, discussion of sexual acts.

Okay so, being hyper sexual. You know who does that in the books? Andrew actually. I know some might look at me weirdly rn like, 'what the hell are you talking about, he doesn't let anyone touch him'. Yeah, that's true! But that doesnt take away from the knee jerk reaction. (I'm sorry I know this isn't exactly what you asked but I need to discuss andrew first, and that has a lot to do with jean, bear with me).

Andrew finds a partner that he can to some limit trust (leverage, deals, careful observation, "training" them to behave how he tells them) to follow his instructions, which gives him a sense of control. They can fuck, but it's him who's doing it. It's him who's touching, kissing ect. The other person, of course if they consent, get to partake but not create the experience. It's one of the very, very valid scenarios of hyper sexuality as a responce to rape. He is rewriting every poisoned nerve ending in his body. He doesn't actually get off from the sex. For his own release he needs privacy, as shown in the books. Andrew's problem can be, that due to his truly inhumane trauma he can fall into the mindset of defining his sense of self through sex. It's an action and he's a tool in this scenario. Then again, We circle back to control, which is also a key feature of his decisions and protectiveness. Taking total control of the situation which used to be utterly outside of it, with no way out of it. Rewriting it, giving the traumatic experience a positive ending, hell an ending - when, and as suddenly as he might want it to end, is the motivator here. I think what he finds satisfying in terms of sex, not control, is giving sexual consent to his partners and, which he finds just as important, them giving it to him. Because it wasn't given to him. It's a way of building trust.

The motivations sound pretty nice, even if heartbreaking, don't they? Seem uplifting? The problem is, even if in good faith, this process can be very harmful, trauma surviviors mention that (at least ones I discussed it with personally) it feels good, but in the long run it does what this type of coping mechanism always does to your brain (similiar reactions can be seen for different traumas), which is hurt it. It's a form of desensitisation that limits your brain's ability to percieve the situation. It's hard to rewrite and leads to hot and cold kind of reactions, so yeah, having a relationship with a capital R is, difficult. That's what I always understood as Nora saying they are never actually okay (andrew and neil). Or at least partly understood it as.

Okay, so this cleared a couple things up. Now JEAN. Jean and Andrew share some factors of their trauma. While not treated as such, Jean was technically fostered by the Moriyamas, and well, Andrew's experiences with being fostered are faaaaar from what it's supposed to be as well. The difference is in Andrew's situation everyone tried to pretend the horror is not happening, there must have been a lot of manipulation and coercion and just plain fucking gaslighting in these houses. Its hard to talk about but I can imagine some of these monsters wanted him to act like he is enjoying it, and thats just out if the emotional range of dealing with for anyone. Jean knew he's in a trap from day one. Moreover, when it comes to the rape's he was victim of it was ordered by Riko to be done by others. That's a different level of fucked up. What's even more important as distinction here is he stopped, when Jean stopped reacting and fighting it. Because what Riko wanted wasn't violation, that was the tool. He wanted to psychologically break him. When the fish stops flailing on the cat stops pushing it around.

And Riko was constant, his modus operandi was regular, and the psychological torture was the motivator behind most of his "conditioning" of Jean. This is a situation where the abuse has a cause for the victim. It sounds sick and I don't agree with it, but it's a game in their mind. In the books we can see that he learned how to limit the amount of attention Riko gave him and as we know he is not confrontational like Andrew with his problems. And yeah I don't mention Neil as confrontational here bcs he has conditioned himself to run from everything and say he's fine to everything so..., sometimes it erupts frk mit but that's not exactly the same, its a last resort.

Circling back, I think Jean is more likely to be sex repulsed. For him sex, which was a form of punishment, is a cause of anxiety. Sexual tension is easy to mix up with nervous tension because of a feeling of losing control of the situation. That's why if we do get romance in the new book, I am putting my money on it being very messy from his pov. The magical thing about trauma responces though, is that they're not black and white, and someone who is sex repulsed might also seek an ending to their anxieties through it. Yet, it's ts a bit of an opposite motivation to the one Andrew has. When Andrew thinks of himself as a tool, Jean is more likely to think of himself as an object. There's a difference. While Andrew wants to take control, Jean is more likely to use it as either a way to retraumatise himself - so his version of hypersexuality would include less control and more roughness and violence, actually trying to rile the partner up. It might stemm for him from low self worth or be a way of letting out his angers and frustrations. It's not that he is used to being hurt, it's that he doesn't expect anything different. I also think he is more likely to have problems with opening up in therapy. Where Andrew is active Jean is passive, and the opposite. The upside is he might actually be more likely to communicate emotionally than through rules and laws, it will take longer, but be a smoother transition, because more people understand it than Andrew's way of building relationships.

Hope this anwser satisfies you, I'm sorry if I got a bit carried away. 😅

#jean moreau hc #jean moreau #and #andrew minyard #i suppose #aftg #all for the game #tfc #the foxhole court #jean moreau headcanon #the sunshine court #the sunshine court hc #aftg headcanon

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♇ something about you chiron in 1H individuals and looking ancient and there's always something pointy about their chin or their chin just stands out.

♇ scorpio placements are very likely to have doppelganger, katy perry; who is a scorpio sun. her look a like zooey deschanel who is scorpio dominant. it is said emily blunt also looks like katy perry she doesnt have scorpio dominant or scorpio in her big six but she does have sun trine pluto.

⟶ victoria justice who is a scorpio rising and her "doppelganger" nina dobrev who is an alleged scorpio rising, both women are aquarius moons.

⟶ kiernan shipka a scorpio sun and mckenna grace who has jupiter in scorpio [don't think it's prominent] but they do have much similar appearance.

⟶ i think she was also used to play young sabrina because of their strong resemblance. ⟶ jessica chastain who is a scorpio rising and bryce dallas howard a scorpio lilith.

⟶ natalie portman who is a scorpio rising and keira knightley who is scorpio dominant.

⟶ margot robbie a scorpio moon and samara weaving who is a scorpio moon you could say emma mackey is a look a like, she's pluto dominant; jamie pressly is a look a like and an alleged scorpio rising. but jamie also has sun sextile pluto.

⟶ the eyes do a big play for these women; scorpio's opposite sign is taurus which i heard rules the eyes. ⟶ paul wesley a scorpio ascendan and kj apa a scorpio moon.

⟶ another good example is drake, if you're on social media you'll know that there's like a drake look-alike that pops out every minute. you could literally search up "drake lookalikes" and a pool of them would appear, but i think that also happens because drake's appearance is easy to imitate. ⟶ mariah the scientist a scorpio sun and mercury and brittany renner who is a pluto dom

⟶ [brittany renner right and mariah the scientist left]

♇ do not romanticise lilith in the 7h it is the trenches. you're either the insane partner or you attract the insane partner, and when you see the insanity it's ludicrous.

♇ noticed a lot of scorpio rising women have short heads, especially if they have fire placements.

♇ characters who have mars aspecting their moon will have people ATTACHED. actors of eddie munson and ser harwin strong have their moon and mars aspect each other, this causes fans to feel very connected to them and grieve very intensely over their character's deaths. along with the character joel miller from the last of us, people's reaction to his death was soooo bad.

♇ the more you use astrology to feel validated all the time the more you'll feel insecure! mostly because aside from looking within yourself, some people will use the placements of planets or asteroids to see if they're attractive, or skilled and when they dont see it they get insecure. [coming from actual conversations i used with people].

♇ i might've said this before but libra placements usually put themselves in situations they can easily get out of but choose to dwell in their sadness, specifically libra moons.

♇ aries venuses either do too much or nothing at all.

♇ aries moon with scorpio moon barely goes well, scorpio moon provokes aries moon and aries moon reacts just exactly how scorpio moon wants.

♇ moon badly aspecting venus; [specifically square and opposition, even conjunction] can cause someone to be heartbreakers, especially if they're a man.

♇ pisces in the 3h or mercury aspecting neptune [along with neptune in 3h] is an indicator of dyslexia, i looked at over 60+ natal charts and pointed it out to individuals who have those placements and majority of them said they do have trouble reading words, i myself have those placements and sometimes words jumble up for me. [this could also imply to having pisces or neptune in the 6h as 6h rules reading].

♇ people with aquarius placements are likely to always have strange interactions, someone with aqua in their big six or placements in their 11h always have a story to tell about someone strange.

♇ it has been implied that taurus beauty is more natural beauty and libra beauty is more cosmetic beauty. not insinuating that libra is all about surgery, but libra placements might be interested in make up more than taurus placements.

♇ as i have explained in the majestic virgo, i do believe those with virgo placements, 6h placements, prominent ceres specifically along with mercury dominance create the best creators, whether it is music, art, skills etc.

♇ this mostly is directed to people who have virgo or ceres in the ascendant, virgo in the big 6, first house ruler being in virgo, for example someone could be a cancer rising and have a virgo moon and that implies of their first house ruler being in virgo. ceres aspecting the ascendant or aspecting inner planets, which are ↴

⟶ sun, moon, mercury, venus and mars.

♇ i learnt that the 9H is about the next life and 5H is about your past life from the ruler ship book by rex. e bliss; it's interesting because they're both fire houses, this could insinuate that the 1H is about the current life, but im sure everyone is informed about the 1H ruling that!

⟶ someone with venus in the 1H could live a pleasant life [not all the time as there are bad sides to venus, it doesnt have to apply to everyone], and someone with pluto in their 5H could've had a very destructive and intense past life though might find themselves lucky in their next life if they have jupiter in the 9H but be aware of becoming over-indulgent.

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[etherealkissed88]

i asked you something and you not only were mean, but you are also making fun of me on twitter. i felt so embarrased that i had to delete my account. you made me feel so bad. i did nothing to you. you had no reason to be so mean. english is not my first lenguage so i also have trouble communicating, i understand half of what you post here. karma will hit you so hard.

lets quote what i said “no i dont believe they are possible 🥰 which is why i have a whole page dedicated to manifesting stuff 😍”

this isnt mean, this is sarcasm. you communicate very well actually but heres the thing: i looked at ur account and you repost a lot of loa content. if you read all those posts especially the ones about desired appearance which is what you were asking about, it doesnt make sense for you to ask me “do you believe its actually possible to manifest a desired appearance.”

and do not use your language barrier as an excuse to make me feel bad because i rly dont. if you were so bad at communitcating, you wouldn’t be able to communicate to me both this time and the previous time, plus y would u read and repost loa content if u had an issue w language? i know you understand loa but when ppl keep searching and searching for outside answers and validation, it doesnt get them anywhere. believe me - ive “coached” ppl who repeatedly asked me the same questions over and over again despite my whole account and posts being right there. they still struggle because they only ask questions and never apply.

the same fingers you used to type the question, you could have used those same fingers to scroll thro my page like you did with the other content creators. i get it if you are new to loa (even tho you could have read the content that was already there and even tho u already reposted content answering ur own question) but as someone who creates loa content everyday, its disrespectful from my point of view that i work hard for these posts and ppl dont even look at it and instead ask the most limiting questions ever. its almost like “why would i waste my time w these posts”. if you dont understand this, its bc you arent someone who gets 20 repetitive asks everyday meanwhile their answers being right on my page. it can be stressful and so annoying.

now back to my original answer: “no i dont believe they are possible 🥰 which is why i have a whole page dedicated to manifesting stuff 😍”. if u think this was mean, its bc you knew the answer was yes, it is possible. why else would i have a page dedicated to manifesting if it wasnt possible to “actually manifest a desired appearance”. my answer simply guided you to your own answer and to search my page if you still had (better) questions. what i said was literally not mean😭 and if you still believe so then thats fine bc its never that big of a deal. and i wasnt making fun of u on twitter, i simply said the exact thing i originally answered you with💀

idk if ur a beginner in the law or not but either way, you should know that anything is possible w the law. if u didnt know that, then now you know (and ik you know based on ur reaction to my original answer). and karma isnt real so it will not “hit me hard”🥶

im sorry if you rly have a language barrier issue but from my pov, that was the best, most appropiate reply i could have given. even other loa content creators can agree bc they know how ppl can get in their asks inbox. reread this whole thing if theres still an issue.

and dw u can just make another account like you did just now🤭

[cupcraft]

Okay but what really guts me about S6E21 the therapy episode is the moment where I think House really feels like Dr. Nolan's not hearing him or getting him which contributes to his feelings of distrust to um gtfo of therapy 5ever. Which this is not to say House should've done that or that Dr. Nolan is bad, it's more like this contributed quite a lot because well I'm making 0 sense let me explain.

So, I'm thinking about the scene where Dr. Nolan was like "what do you think Cuddy & Wilson talked about together. Walk me through the conversation?" House does and he basically concludes to his therapist that his interpretation of his friends is that they view him as the "House Problem" that they're more worried he's going to do something "bad" or "attention seeking" or "[insert anti-addict recovery rhetoric/ablelism/etc thing] here" because of Wilson kicking House out, out of the blue. And in a way, this is truthful and from an audience's perspective it is a believable interpretation. House is generally pretty perceptive about the people around him and their impression of him given that he does purposefully construct a certain impression of himself (so that he is not harmed by people by allowing himself to be genuine). And even though Cuddy and Wilson are the people he's the most genuine to, he still self-destructs around them and struggles with trust. Anyway, based on how Wilson and Cuddy have handled a lot of things in the past (not everything) such as the Morphine/saline thing, the first time he went cold-turkey on opiates, the tritter situation, forcing him to go to his abusive father's funeral, etc. it really does seem believable they'd view him as the House Problem, or in a way it makes sense House thinks that way overall.

Though this is not to say House is right. He is right and valid to think that they'd be worry he'd relapse/etc. and he is right to have trauma from previous horrible responses done to him and thus not have faith in any different. But House is in fact wrong because Cuddy and Wilson do genuinely care about him and do not actually see him at this current stage in the show as the "House Problem". Especially Wilson, which it was clear Wilson later realized his actions were impulsiveness and fucked up and not at all recovery informed (especially as the person of stability he agreed to be for House's recovery) since House felt forced to go back home. There's also the issue that Wilson created a home for him and House (as reiterated by Dr. Nolan and the fact the thing Wilson chose for himself was the organ, solidifying House's permanency in that home) only for him to be like jk i dont see a future for you here even though Sam who hates you doesnt mind. House doesn't realize that a Cuddy/Wilson conversation would be done out of care and guilt of an impulsive mistake and not because they just keep him around to stop him from being a "Problem".

SO, Dr. Nolan does challenge this rightfully so but he doesn't do it in the right way which contributes to House feeling unheard and stuck and realizing god I am miserable and i distrust this. Dr. Nolan challenges it by imagining the conversation in a way we the audience knows would not be how at the very least Wilson would talk. He posits Wilson as a very rational person to the point it is comical because Wilson is also toxic and irrational (again the very thing that Nolan says it was a home for you both and then he kicked House out!). I think even House recognizes this because he looks as though Nolan grew a second head like what on earth Wilson would never say that which I think really in the end makes House feel unheard. Because the message "Hey Wilson and Cuddy do in fact love and care about you" didn't come across. The "I think wilson is being rational" is what actually comes across, when House feels hurt by Wilson over what is an irrational reaction (especially given Wilson's apology to house goes poorly and comes off as more guilt than accountability, see the apartment scene).

So it guts me. it guts me that their communication got crossed and the outcome didn't work out. That House felt unheard and that Nolan wasn't able to reach him. Because it does bode poorly for House to leave therapy right now as he is at a point of crisis in his support network and he's returned home to the place that is triggering to him for a lot of reasons (hallucination/relapse/etc).

and as always for my ramblings feel free to add on/send asks/etc. :)

#house md #meta #just polite discussions ofc

[ultimateloserboy]

I’ve been holding back this ramble forever but the food episode makes me tear up and i NEED to talk about it.

The food episode was the only episode I really couldn’t watch as a kid. I remember being horrified by it. to this day i still feel uneasy thinking about it, even though it doesn’t scare me in the slightest anymore. the reason i feel uneasy now isnt because im scared, its because to me its the saddest episode of the whole series and makes me want to punch walls. when i was younger i didnt notice a lot of the things ive noticed now, and every time i watch the episode i notice even more.

a lot of people talk about this episode as if red guy ran away and wants nothing to do with the house, that he’s trying to save the other two by bringing them to his world. while i dont think this is a wrong or bad interpretation, considering it’s understandable, id like to talk about my own interpretation. i dont think red guy even knew how he left. keep in mind he just exploded and then woke up in an office. there’s absolutely nothing suggesting he ran away on purpose. all he wanted was for colin to shut up, he wasnt intending to find the room he found. this itself isnt an interpretation, its a fact, BUT how he feels about it and what he does in the red guy world is completely up to interpretation! mine is that he wants to go home instead of trying to get the other two out of it. lemme explain ok hear me out:

throughout the entire food episode red guy is constantly popping up in the background somewhere. hes drawn behind windows and his head is in the microwave in one shot. when duck knocks the camera over for a split second you can even see his legs as it falls. the leg thing is what really got me, because most other times he was simply drawn. but those were his actual legs standing in the kitchen. to me it represents the fact that he isnt actually there but is “haunting” the other two. they dont really remember him but they can see him out of the corners of their eyes. hes blurry and far away but they KNOW someone is there (or WAS there, i should say). but on his end i think it could represent how hes still there in his head, how hes still singing songs and shit like that despite being out of that world. he says he hated that world, that hes allergic to music, but now that hes gone from it its stuck in his head. he misses the music. he misses his friends. hes still there in spirit.

before i continue id just like to say that, no, the main three INCLUDING RED GUY dont always want to leave the house. especially when they have to leave the others behind. whenever theyre off somewhere they usually want to go back home, yellow guy even said “i want to go home” word for word once. but he also said “no more songs” these things can exist at the same time guys. they can not want to drown in oil but still want to live in their house, yall realize that right? thats a huge theme in the show, that the house and the main three have a very complicated relationship. they dont want to leave their home they just want it to, yaknow, NOT EAT THEM. so i think red guy wanting to come home isnt at all out of character. and he doesnt like the red guy world anyway, why would he take his friends there when theyre wacky as shit and wouldnt fit in there or enjoy it at all? also id like to make the point that he doesnt know what’s happening in the house (at least not the seriousness of it) until he sees the machine. so him trying to save the other two from getting munched makes no sense to me personally. AGAIN THO THIS IS JUST MY INTERPRETATION!! YOURS IS VALID TOO AND I LOVE YOU!!!

But anyway continuing on, ducks reaction especially makes me insane. whenever i see how duck acts in episodes like “jobs” when he starts freaking out and trying to get the first aid kit for yellow guy im reminded of this episode. duck really does love his friends at heart. he doesnt want to leave the house, he sees no point, but to me the reason he doesnt want to leave is BECAUSE of his friends (or at least one of the reasons). in the tv series duck has a whole argument with red guy about leaving, and while some people say this duck is different than webseries duck i have to disagree. i think duck wouldve always argued about staying, but i also think hed always want to leave if red guy did. duck always switches up as soon as something is “wrong”. he always wants to stay until one of his friends is acting weird/hurt/missing and then suddenly the world isnt right and he doesnt want to be there. not only that but he will do everything in his power to fight against the things keeping him from his friends or hurting them, even if it means risking his own life. he knew some weird shit was going on every time he answered the phone, but despite that he continued answering anyway. he interrupted the songs and pushed things away and kept running to the phone, being disobedient and not giving a damn. this isnt unusual for duck, but it makes me especially ill, because he acts very confused as well. hes very upset, not mad like he usually is but genuinely upset and worried. most likely because of how hazy his memory is. my favorite scene of the series is when he pushes over the camera and says “i dont want to do this anymore” it rips my heart apart hes just like me fr. it also comes back to the transport episode, where hes like “well the song wasnt that great but at least it was funny. nobody gets TOO hurt by these songs and stuff so who cares? why leave?” i think hes always thought this way, the reason he says “i dont want to do this ANYMORE” is because suddenly the world has shifted. suddenly things are much more sinister and make even less sense. suddenly he is in genuine danger, and he isnt coming back this time. things have gone too far now, and he tries tearing down reality itself to get out, but unfortunately hes just not strong enough.

i also like to think that the food is singing about red guy the whole time, not actually food, and how he deserves punishment, and if you end up like him youll be punished too (which is exactly what happens to duck for answering the phone) “the bad, not-healthy foods are very rude! and must leave through the catflap!” isnt that what red guy did? he wandered too far and saw what he shouldnt have so he was sent away. also the steak says “you need to know whats right from wrong” which doesnt go with the rest of the song at all and seems to be directed at duck specifically. it seems more like theyre trying to keep duck and yellow guy in line rather than teach them about food. when they say “you shouldnt eat food from a strangers plate” considering the previous lyrics and the context before the chanting i think theyre talking about not believing what youre told by “strangers” (aka the non-teacher characters) theyre saying not to listen to whatever red guy is trying to say, to not answer the phone, to not end up like him. or at least thats what i think anyway.

lastly, the ending. yellow guy sitting in the kitchen alone, in the dark, covered in blood while the phone loudly rings is probably the most haunting part of the series to me. remember what i said about not being scared? well i LIED. this scene specifically still scares the fuck out of me. it fills me with genuinely painful dread. the scene where he looks over at the phone, hearing it but not getting up to answer it and letting it ring until red guy gives up is heartbreaking. im not sure if yellow guy even knows what’s happening in this scene, but hes been taught by now to NOT ANSWER THE PHONE. so he doesnt. and the teachers leave him alone with the phone because theyre confident he wont answer it. and theyre right. it breaks my heart just looking at it. in the next episode he ends up fighting back just like duck did, but just like duck, he cant truly do anything. it really puts into perspective how powerless all three of them are. god it ruins me. all they wanted was to know what the biggest thing in the world was, and now theyve been torn apart for wandering too far. cries and sobs

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[piratefishmama]

i think i need at least one fic where some of the kiddie party need a bit of time to process Steve being not entirely straight, and dating Eddie. Like. They're not against it. But they're clearly so very not accustomed to the idea that it's just... kind of jarring for them.

Steve has always been a ladies man to them, a beacon of 'straight alpha male' masculinity.

Mike would probably be the most vocally baffled, cause he's dealing with a lot of confusing feelings about himself and doesnt understand how a guy can like girls and guys without it being some kind of insult to the girl, like "how could you be gay when i caught you climbing into my sisters room, do you think she looks masculine or something?" like he's offended FOR his sister because he doesnt understand.

Lucas would be pretty chill about it, Erica wasted no time in accepting that her brother could be dating a dude, so they've likely been raised to accept things easier, to show support.

Dustin's the worst though and the impact of his reaction is the worst, he's so SURE about so many things, he's so set in his certainty of so much that he's still not let the Robin thing go, so he'd probably struggle to accept it at first. Not because it's wrong, not because he thinks it's wrong, but because it's so very much not what he expected that he's just constantly questioning the validity of it.

like the others are fine, but i bet Mike, and unfortunately Dustin, would be the worst.

#HC's #i love the supportive kids so much and regularly use that trope #but gimmie a moment where they just... react a little badly

[bunnakit]

hellooo i love reading your opinions but im too shy to ask you this off anon so here it is. I’m like you enjoying the sign and loved the direction of the recent ep so I don’t really understand the divisive reactions on tumblr esp since twitter seems to always heap praise on the show. what are your thoughts on how phaya tharn’s relationship has been paced? and how do you think it may be concluded? I saw some people on here being disheartened and expecting a sad ending but I don’t really see that to be the case and I for one have loved their r/s pacing and also the mythology (my main gripe would be some of the way the cases were handled). but what’s your opinion on that and why people here are more divisive about the show? (While all opinions are valid some of the criticism almost feels nitpicky but I would love to hear your thoughts on this!)

QUICK NOTE- ANON SENT THIS BEFORE THIS SATURDAY'S EPISODE, SO THIS ABOUT EPS 1-8 hello love!! sorry it took me a bit to put together my thoughts and feel like my brain was put together and, well, i still haven't accomplished that but i didn't want to leave you on read any longer. also you're ALWAYS welcome to DM me here or discord or wherever! but i totally get being too shy lol despite how i am on the dash i am also very shy

so, i can kind of understand where people are coming from in that there wasn't a lot of courting between phaya and tharn which may make it seem like their relationship was fast tracked. idk, i'm not entirely sure what other people's thoughts are on it, i've kind of just been scrolling past posts that have complained or seemed like they didn't like it. i welcome everyone's opinions but i don't always want to read all of them (and i expect people not to read mine if it's not for them.)

i think it's important to keep in mind that courtship can look different for everyone and while they didn't go on dates, didn't overtly flirt, etc. they've been performing a delicate dance between each other and flirting very much in their own ways (from the hat tugs, the sparring, the attitude.) sometimes flirting is being obnoxious, getting on someone's nerves simply because you know how. half the time my husband flirts with me is my driving me fucking crazy because he's the only person in the world that knows exactly what makes me tick.

i think it also helps to keep in mind the fantasy element here; that wansarut and sakuna live inside tharn and phaya and are drawn towards each other and i think sometimes tharn and phaya's own feelings and attraction have to play catch up. i think some elements of their dynamic were very much both tharn not wanting to get close because of his fears but also not fully realizing the depths of his feelings because they seemingly came out of nowhere (wansarut.)

overall, i've really enjoyed the pacing, enjoyed how they've fallen together through various circumstances, how we've seen tharn's resistance dwindle until he finally had to let himself have the object of his desire. i also think it's a very adult relationship, it's really not all that messy or complicated once you remove the fantasy elements. sometimes desire comes first and love comes later. sometimes things begin physical and end in love.

there is no set roadmap for romance or relationships and to pigeon hole BL couples into a set pattern is a little silly in my opinion. their journey just looks a little different, it doesn't mean they aren't in love. we also have to keep in mind that there's so much going on in this show plot wise that to focus more on romance and courtship would steal time away from other elements that are already struggling to get addressed.

"but doesnt that mean the show is trying to do too much?"

sure, but i'd rather a show strive to do too much than do too little. i love to see the ambition and the passion behind it and even if things aren't concluded perfectly there's so much the sign has done right (addressing that men are also victims of sexual assault, constantly reminding us that tharn - while smaller and seemingly more 'effeminate' - is still every bit as strong and capable as phaya, the continuous reminders that they are a switch partnership, showing us that sex can be goofy and funny with khem and thongtai, etc.) i'd much rather all of this than to watch a show that made me feel nothing at the end of the day and the show has done SO much to educate foreigners on Thai culture. (the copaganda could go tho, we all know i'm an ACAB bitch so i DO have to wear blinders during those scenes lmao)

sorry- i got a wee bit off track. ANYWAY how would i like to see it concluded?

i'm a little torn because there are so many ways i'd be happy. i'd be happy if they finally rid themselves of chalothorn forever and were finally able to be together in peace. (i think everyone's ideal ending)

i'd be happy with a timeline where phaya dies to protect tharn in a reverse parallel of their first life, with a renewed promise.

i'd be happy if they died together and began the cycle once again.

two of these i recognize are HELLA unpopular opinions, but there's really not much this show could do to make me unhappy as long as they stick to the story and the narrative foils they've put in place. i think the only thing i would be unhappy with is if something felt like it came out of left field.

thank you SO much for this ask. i was so flattered i read it out loud to my husband the other day. i'm always SO open to asks like this and really find it so sweet that anyone out there values my opinion at all, i'm just a silly little guy

#the sign #the sign the series #anon my beloved #phayatharn #bunn asks #bunn meta

[qbadboy]

tallulah doesn’t like sunny, and i think this is great.

don’t get me wrong, i love sunny. they are such a unique character for an egg. i love their sassy, firey personality and material girl attitude. everyone does, but tallulah doesn’t. she doesn’t trust sunny. for the first time, someone sees sunny’s persona and doesn’t laugh. and that scares sunny.

to me, sunny is an egg who compensates for her insecurities with a very loud personality. shes snarky, likes to poke fun at people, lavishes in wealth because it makes her feel important, and wants to be the star of the room. and up until tallulah, sunny has gotten very used to getting her way, she is, unfortunately, very spoiled after all. no one has told her no really, and shes gotten basically everything shes ever asked for. her ego has been reinforced time and time again. so of *course* when tallulah shows up, she wants to be friends with her, but she doesnt know tallulah and tallulah doesnt know her. she comes on abrasively and instead of laughing along tallulah jerks back, because tallulah has her boundaries, sunny has none, she’s never had to learn them.

sunny has never had her personality really challenged before. she has thus far been liked by almost everyone she meets. most people laugh along and say shes funny, so shes only ever gotten validation for her personality. she is very used to being liked, and expects it at this point. so of course when she met tallulah, she didnt tone down anything, she was loudly herself, but it didn’t make tallulah open up to her—if anything it did the opposite. and i think her visceral reaction of fear, at being, rejected and feeling tallulah doesnt like her is evident of sunny’s desire to be liked and how the way sunny acts plays into that. if she didnt care, she probably wouldve brushed tallulah off as “poor”, but she doesnt. sunny is worried and afraid that she isnt liked by her in a way thats making her really doubt herself for the first time. sunny is paranoid, because she seems to like empanada, why not her?? is there something wrong with her?

i really like this development, and i cant wait to see where this goes for sunny. these new eggs are still innocent, they haven’t been traumatized yet by their siblings, so this is sunny’s first challenge.

please feel free to correct any misinformation i may have said! i will edit the post to correct :)

#i love it when things happen that makes usually very self assured characteds Doubt for the first time #i love sunny btw. i love how they are quintessentially a /kid/. sunny acts /like a kid/. shes that kid you laugh at but sometimes cringe- #when shes /so much like a kid/. and i love it #sunny side up qsmp #sunny qsmp #qsmp tallulah #qsmp meta

[modernchillthings]

I know I just did a little rant about Sooho so let me just talk about Sieun and why he is the way he is (or why I THINK so)

It's pretty obvious his parents neglect him, probably as early as childhood based on that flashback scene. I don't remember which parent said it but one of them most likely did not want to have a child and that outlook can definitely affect the way you raise your kid.

Based on that flashback, they were so unprepared with the thought of Sieun ever getting hurt (he had a broken arm I think?) I get being worried, but that was not worry to me tbh, it was more like they didn't expect raising kids to be so troublesome which is such a ridiculous notion! They get hurt, they get sick and you can't just expect a child to raise themselves no matter how smart or good they are. They need guidance! They need love!

And I don't remember what ep it was but when the dad asked Sieun if he still fell asleep in class or something like that and Sieun responded 'I don't do that anymore'. Idk that made me think that Sieun had like a chronic sleeping thing that he probably managed on his own just so he wouldn't trouble his parents. And the way Sieun at that age, understood how much 'trouble' he seemed to cause his parents, I think that's what started his very 'cold' and 'unfeeling' nature.

And from then on out, Sieun decided not to be a bother to his parents at all. That also made me think...okay, if he didn't want to bother them...then did he want to make them proud of him instead to show that he wasn't gonna be their problem?

And I get it, he's so me lol. Because I try so hard not to be a bother to not just my parents, but honestly any adult authority figure in my life. But the diff is, I kind of strive for that validation whereas Sieun...doesnt seem like he does, or at least not as much as he thought it would. Like what are his goals? Did he even want to go to a big college and be a big time 'something'? I don't even think we learned much about him and his motivations because it's true that he's so studious and gets so many awards and good grades and yes his parents praise him...but Sieun doesn't even look like he wants or cares about those praises anymore.

On the first ep. when he got that award and showed his dad, his dad seemed like he was genuinely proud of him but his reaction was just...😐 perhaps Sieun knows that his purpose in his parents eyes is to generate good grades and be a good kid so he just does that. Like 'ok I've done my purpose, on to the next task' and honestly that's so fucked up.

Anyways, yeah. I feel like he lost any sense of purpose. Maybe back then getting good grades and validation from his parents meant he wasn't being a bother to them and he prolly liked it but after a while, it kind of just burnt him out. Also maybe after his mother left and his dad started being away more often for work, it just didn't seem like it mattered to him but he still keeps going because it's the only thing that will grab his parents' attention. But again, at the same time, idk if he still even wants their attention. He doesn't even want to try anymore

When he was eating with his mom, you could tell the mom was distracted and Sieun must have felt so discouraged because he must have felt like a task to her, like something on her to do list to check off because how easily she pushes aside Sieun's presence and assumes he was done eating. Like she was already standing up, like she was waiting for an interruption. Sure, Sieun never said anything or expressed his needs but only because his parents never tried to understand him in the first place and idk...be an ACTUAL PRESENT ADULT FIGURE IN HIS LIFE!!

Sieun is such a complicated and interesting character and my only wish was for him to snap at his parents at least once. He almost did it with his dad at the hospital but he held back which he shouldn't have!! Yell at them! They deserve it! (hopefully we'll see that in s2)

I never really knew I would be so attached to him. Usually I get drawn towards the Sooho-type (and dont get me wrong, I love him too) but something about Sieun just makes me want to wrap him in a blanket and never let him go and give him the proper love and care and attention he deserves!

#plus park jihoon is such a brilliant actor #he just elevates the character #this was another long one #it's just mostly stream of consciousness bc like I said before #this show has occupied my brain and I want to get it out of my system!! #weak hero #weak hero class #weak hero class 1 #yeon sieun #park jihoon

[gutsybitsies]

finished TSATS and hmm (slight spoilers below)

i'm gonna meet it where it's at and what it's trying to do, and say it was okay. well, meh to okay.

so my initial expectations were that as long as it's entertaining, then its fine by me. but the pacing and the dream/narration sequences was really off and made the story very draggy right up until nyx enters the picture.

the central conflict was strange and not too fleshed out, because usually the stories intertwine outer conflict (for example eros withholding staff of diocletian bc he just happened to have it and his nature dictates truth of love before giving it away) and internal conflict (nico's inner turmoil over his sexuality and feelings for percy clashing with the quest).

also another example: piper's repeating dreams about a cherokee creation myth linking her two heritages together and her saving the day with that by using the cornucopia to release fresh water in MOA.

but this time the conflict is....uh. meh? first or all, i fucking loved Nyx here. I think she's the coolest, the story became 100% more entertaining when she came in and started bitching at her kids. I understand why she chose to capture Bob the Titan. I don't get why she's obsessed with Nico. There is no satisfactory external conflict giving her a reason why she needs a demigod, nico specifically, to stay in Tartarus. And that makes the internal conflict that nico has feel weak.

i understand where the book was coming from, it wants to show nico accepting the "dark" parts of himself. personally i thought the personified cacaedemons were cool and cute as fuck. but i don't know why will was written the way he was? because narratively it doesnt feel like he was very conducive to helping nico accept the dark part of himself. at least not in a way that makes him sympathetic.

will's actions only serve to confirm nico's fears that hes unwanted and hard to love? his initial reaction to the underworld is that it's creepy, and he hates it. valid reactions! but this is paired with the view that the reason nico doesn't get along with others is that nico is the one who pushes people away, rather than other people being put off by who nico is. well, nico identifies strongly with the underworld, and will is very put off by the underworld, but still we're supposed to think that everything nico said about people's reaction to him is in his head?

i don't get why he's there, written the way he is, if what the book wanted to do was to write a story about nico seeing past his darkness and accepting it + accepting other people and letting them in. i get that they probably wanted to tell a story about two imperfect people getting together, but you can make will imperfect in ways other than confirming his boyfriend's biggest fears about himself.

will does end up apologizing for his reactions and tells nico that he's wrong for sometimes treating nico as something to "fix", but in NICO's pov he's still thinking that he himself is the biggest roadblock to acceptance with other people.

ALSO his last conversation with piper? was strange. i'm assuming that this meant that he and piper became super close right after the Giant war and before she left for school, but this was never hinted at throughout the book and then BOOM? if i was still in middle school and picked up this book having never read any of the other books i'd be very, very confused.

anyway. if you enjoy riordanverse i would still give this a read, because it does contain some cute moments, and i loved nyx and her army of monster children. narratively i think it could've done better, but nothing was a huge surprise.

#tsats #the sun and the stars #spoilers #tstats spoiler #nico di angelo #will solace #there's some lore stuff that seems like worth exploring but ehhhh

[yugiohz]

seeing how ppl always lump bakugo and endeaver together like theyre the same is always wild to me. like i feel like a lot of fandoms hatred of bakugo comes down to the fact that they see their childhood bullies in him (which they arent wrong for, he IS a bully at the start of the series) but because theyre young and that wound is so close, their hatred of him is more visceral and they feel like he's much worse than he really is in the grand scheme of life and are less willing to let him come back from that because they want to see him punished the way they want their bullies to have been punished. whereas i think most adult fans (especially anyone 21+) recognize that endeaver is actually the more unforgivable and worse evil as a grown adult man who beats his wife and children and has been this way for his entire adult life and can therefore give bakugo the grace and room to grow that he deserves because we can recognize that those two things are not the same. bakugo is a child and deserves the chance to learn and grow from his mistakes. whereas endeaver is pushing 50 and has long since ignored and passed over every one of those chances for growth and to do the right thing to double down on being a piece of shit like yes the way bakugou treated izuku was awful and cruel, but a 13yr old kid throwing out a "kill yourself" because he doesnt really understand the consiquences of his actions yet is not the same as an adult man buying his wife and forcing her to pump out heirs while he beats her for over 20 years and abuses his children so badly it drives one of them to essentially kill himself. but when ur 18 or 19, that bullying is probably gonna hit closer to home and elicit more of a negative reaction as opposed to the realities of endeavors abuse

which i think is interesting in terms of analyzing fandoms reactions to characters and why people feel the way they do and understandable to an extent. but its also insane to me to see ppl so often angrier at a misguided child who's navigating his emotions poorly than they are at a middle aged man who used his systematic privlege to ruin the lives of his entire family without consiquence for literal decades

im so sorry for the novel i just have brainworms and i think too much about silly little characters and find peoples different reactions to them fascinating lmfao

it's ok i love hearing people's opionions. tbh, i don't rlly see people be harsher on bakugo than on endeavor, but those people probably exist idk.

i stay neutral in this discusssion, i think disliking bakugo for personal reaons & experiences with bullying is very valid, i think it's abit weird to invalidate those people. but i think it's weirder when characters in the story insinuiate to parallels between bakugo and endeavor like let's calm down lmaooo. Being a mean 14yo and a domestic abuser with a child's blood on your hands are not interchangeable things let's be seriousss

#i respect the bakugo hateration a lot of it is very funny #but yeah it's silly to imply he is irrevocably corrupted #hes 15 #asks

[reasoncourt]

cant stand the discourse on twitter where people are mad at people who are mad at rich people at the met gala. like ok i get it. you want to have fun and look at the pretty outfits. but people are also allowed to feel some type of way about struggling through a cost of living crisis while rihanna is wearing 25 million dollars worth of jewels. it’s giving the capitol in the hunger games. and admittedly i’m seated. i do like watching all these people dress up. and i understand the craftsmanship behind the looks. but people are allowed to feel annoyed at ostentatious displays of extreme wealth inequality. it’s not a personal attack on u if u like watching the dresses. it doesnt need to be discourse. u can just let people be mad for extremely valid reasons and mind your business and look at the pretty dresses. two things can coexist. people arent being bitter. theyre having a very normal reaction

#sursh.pers #like am i crazy #its just such a boring argument #yeh ur allowed to like the met gala #but ppl are also allowed to hate it #u can even do both #there isnt an exam coming up #ur not gonna fail #just stay in ur preferred lane

[allamericansbitch]

The xenophobia towards Brazilian swifties is so disgusting. There was only like 1 post from someone attending the Rio show that was out of line and I do not agree with that and they deserve the backlash that they got for using derogatory remarks towards Taylor for having to postpone night 2.

But I’ve been seeing Americans swifties making edits on tik tok of the general crowd’s reaction when finding out that night 2 of Rio was postponed and saying how ungrateful they are being. That’s such an unfair assessment of their characters. Using clips for their edits of some of the concert attendees getting interviewed after they found out about postponed news and all of them saying that they’re disappointed is so weird. Like if I camped out for hours and the venue let me in and it wasn’t until a few hours before the show that I found out that the show was cancelled then my first initial reaction would be anger too.

So many american swifties were genuinely furious over openers and surprise songs and they didn’t get the same amount of backlash that Brazilian swifties get for being disappointed that their concert date that they’d been looking forward to for years was postponed. We should all be angry at the T4F organization for doing such a terrible job handling all of it but instead, swifties all across the world are arguing about which countries deserve Taylor and all of these arguments have been incredibly racist and disgusting to read and I hate it :/

perfectly said. swifties in general ive found are very territorial (over surprise songs is a good example) but american swifties are so weird their egos. like we somehow own taylor (again another example of not seeing her as a person) and when she went to latam, we were allowing them to have her and they should be grateful because we could take her back at any moment. or forcing this narrative that latam fans are ungrateful or undeserving, which is insane enough but to then say it about an entire country or community, saying these places arent safe or worthy of taylor... thats just pure xenophobia and racism.

a huge event that people were saving for, planning for almost a year ahead of time, traveled for and looked forward to got cancelled very last minute. thats disappointing no matter the context of why. obviously it was for good reason and it was the right choice, but theyre allowed to feel disappointed despite that. that disappointment doesnt mean they dont deserve the event at all, its not them being ungrateful... its them just experiencing a valid human emotion.

#answered #anonymous #this is a big issue with taylor really cultivating a very American™ audience.. not very culturally aware and open minded

[wanderingpages]

Noooo chapter 5😪😪😪😪 we’re coming to a close, fellas. I cannot… and yet. I can. We move forward my sisters in god

Oh…not him spending winter break with her…in the same house… as their parents…with all this…tension…. (Ive seen this [adult] movie before)

Aww he holds the door open for her… helps her take off her socks…walks her to class/.., it really is the little things. His actions… Peach said show dont tell 😮‍💨❤️

Not Cardan being fluent enough in french to have La Chute in its original publishing bye thats so hot of him and dare i say,..timothee chalamet core…. @iknowitwontwork wya (This is rockstar anon btw i am on medication (dont worry abt it peach this a little inside comradery bby)) anyways have i mentioned you write and its like a movie?

““Is it your favorite?” I ask. I wiggle my brows, “Do you think you, too, have fallen from grace?”” – first, not babygirl being versed in Camus 😛 secondly, ohhohoo i love all the biblical references 

“His smile is Cheshire in response, “Since the day I met you, little sister.”” - u know what…. At least he honest, like its really now hitting me that hes soooooooo honest about it. Playing  a little game as jude said when he was leaving her dorm after the party… like its a game but an honest one. Like am i crazy or is he just trying to see how far he can provoke her w their situation and honesty? 

Omg wait not him CLOCKING HER the very next paragraph  (By the way i feel like u should know, i have the chapter open on one half of my split screen and the other half is your ask box lol i am literally typing as i go like this is the wattpad comments section fr)

i feel so smart and validated that cardan literally says all of that ^^^ like wow i should have held my tongue (fingers) and read the next paragraph lmao

ALSO BAD THING SBY CULT DIDNT I LITERALLY SAY SHE KNOWS DOT MP3 BEFORE???? 

I like that his jewelry comes up frequently because its part of him, just like her knuckles come up cus its part of her fr like both of them are so natural abt it too like her playing w his chain and him rubbing her fingers like ugjhhfh SHOW DONT TELL IS SO IMPORTANT

Whoaaa not him clocking ASHA now!! Not jude saying her mamma dead or alive she dont really care, RESPECT 

Wait not him pulling up to the gas station to get a first aid kit….like he really doesnt say a word about it at allllllll

And jude said oh, more time alone with him? In a diner? Count me in ❤️

Oh shit cardan has moneeeyyyyyy – “I guess, there really is a lot about him I had no idea of. “I'm an honorary member,” he shrugs, “It’s kind of hard not to be when Daddy funds their lifestyle.”” purrrrr

Oop!!! “ “Ghost is my best friend. It would have been a fight had it been Locke or anyone else,” he divulges, and though I shouldn't be startled by his honesty, it still makes me feel a little too warm. Then he admits, maybe selfishly considering his track record for the past few weeks, “If he had gone further, I would have buried him.”” HELLO

Lol jude got some balls to say ““That's a visceral reaction,” I come to terms with. “Your best friend?” I blush when I remind him quietly, “you’re the one who told me to open my mouth.”” cus like she right tho

Ahhh! I squeaked ! ““Plus, I think you look cute with a dick in your mouth.””

When hes a feminist 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 – ““What makes you think you have any right over my body?” / “I know I don't.””

Hold on hold on hold on wait a minut wait a minute hold on, when did cardan transition from little sister/dear sister to baby? It happened so naturally how am i this far in and catching it???? I love him

Lol jude said fuck condoms we fucking raw or not fucking at allll 😤😤😤😤 

“After a while, I notice him staring. “Do you want some of my pie,” I offer. / “Is that a euphemism?” / [..]“Do you want it to be?”” – yes, i do, i wsnt it.

““What's the pipeline between mommy issues and wanting to bend your sister over the bathroom sink?” “ - HELP ME?! – ““Stepsister,” I tell him.” – emphasis on step fr okayyyyyyyyyyy 

““It makes no difference to me, Jude. Sister or not, I’d want you the same way I wanted you then, the same way I want you now.” ” - wait why is there butterflies in my tummy 🫣🥺

““I want you to copy me,” he says, huskily, startling me, my eyes growing wide. “I want you to stick your fingers in your panties and do what I do.” ” - PEACH…the gasp i gasped ….  !!!! PEACH

IN THE DINER!?

IN FRONT - ACTUALLY !! ACTUALLY IN FRONT OF MY SALA D IN THE DINER?! .. do continue 

““I think…I want to do to you what Spring does to cherry trees,” he murmurs. “Open you up…watch you bloom.” ” – DO NOT BE QUOTING PROFOUND POETRY RIGHT NOW IM GONNA FALL IN LOVE. 

His fingers in her mouth jus - 🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶PUT MY FINGER IN UR MOUTH CUS U LOVE THE TASTE 

“He pulls out of my mouth, a trail of spit losing connection when he finds his way under the jacket, following my hand, and adding his finger to my two. I whimper at his intrusion, and think, disoriented, three. Three fingers.” – no fuc me for real PEACH PEACHERLY ANNE POSSIBLE i dont care that its dirty as hell this shit is poetic

NO NOT THE WAITRESS !!! NOT HIMS STILL GOING TOOO AHH PEACH

My heart racing rn 

Oh god.. The soft forehead kiss…like he didnt just rock her world in a booth in the diner… im literally and figuratively unwell

“He kisses me sweetly when we get to his car, and I kiss him back, because we can, for right now. ” – why did this hurt?!

AND ALL THIS TIME HE DIDNT EVEN LIKE CHERRIES

Not is it out of your system!!!! Twk ate w that fade to black fr tho

““Cherries?” / “Me,”” - STOP hes so fucking cute 

Okay this might be the longest ask yet 💀 my sisters in god is sending me💀

I think in any fic I’ve ever written, cardan is always holding doors for her lol

Not timothee chalamet core 😭😭😭 @iknowitwontwork ur friend is here, come get her ❤️

lol that is a nice piece of info to be made aware of 💀 I was lowkey wondering if you were switching through tabs lmao meanwhile I’m scrolling up and down trying to respond 💀 lol it would be soooo much h easier if this was the Wattpad comments section. Like they ate w that…that one little thing. They ate.

You did mention the song!

I really do try so hard to show not tell cus I hatttteee reading tell not show in books😭 like don’t tell me he loves her, show me!!! Where’s the build up?? The tension??

lol if cardan is blunt, Jude is ballsy (I hope it comes across this way lol)

Actually don’t know when that transition happened I just be typing stuff 💀

Always emphasis on STEP lmao he’s not the step brother he’s the brother that STEPPED up lmao lemme stop that was uncalled for anyways yes the diner, yes infront of your salad, ues the waitress, yes that song lmao

Also you should know the first time you called me peacherly anne possible, something in me changed like the stars alined and now peacherly is my go to user name for websites and stuff cus slayyyy who tf else being called peacherly ????!!!

Two really did eat w that lmaooo

#asks #sometimes I throw in angsty little one liners to subliminally prep u for the third act angst #just so yall don’t get bamboozled ❤️

[armysonemeu]

Alright so I've been reading Spider-Gwen comics lately and i have thoughts on her and earth 65 MJ.

Honestly I think that ppl criticize MJ 65 a bit harshly if they have never been in her shoes. Imagine having to put up with a constantly absent drummer and CHILDHOOD FRIEND who is not there for important events for a band that's kinda your life's dream and not being at least frustrated by her absenteeism. Ok Gwen has a good and definitely solid reason for her absence but I understand why MJ would be so angry to the point where she had Carnage as her symbiote. Having an absent friend, valid reasons aside, who you tend to rely on and who is constantly late or absent when you're trying to fulfill your dreams is very frustrating and lonely.

It is even more frustrating for MJ when she criticises and yells at Gwen and gets no reaction which understandably can lead to MJ thinking Gwen doesnt care. Also Gwen's flippant attitude to it just makes it even worse and fuels MJ's paranoia that Gwen is just there to flaunt that she is special and that she can show up late or not show up because she has the "excuse" of her super hero duties. This I think further fuels her loneliness because she feels like shes being isolated from Gwen. Also she most probably wishes she had the same powers of Gwen not because shes jealous but because maybe she gets to spend more time with Gwen.

It gets even worse when you factor in MJ's obvious romantic feelings for Gwen which have yet since been unrequited and which make all the above points ten times worse. No wonder MJ has such anger and jealousy (the main emotions that fueled her symbiosis with the Carnage symbiote) when she sees her unrequited love always putting her in lower and lower places in her eyes, always being the special one getting the powers and the fame when all MJ longs for is being special to Gwen and getting her attention. In my opinion, MJ isnt jealous of Gwen because of her powers shes jealous because Gwen's powers and the responsibility they bring always come first leaving Gwen with no time or emotional space for anything else especially MJ.

Therefore, in my stupid opinion MJ isnt jealous or angry at Gwen cos she got the cool powers and MJ didnt. Shes angry because Gwen's super heroing and powers are constantly driving her away from MJ and jealous of all the other things driving Gwen's attention from her and the band. Which leads to the concluding factor that at the end of the day MJ is just a lonely girl who wishes she can get the attention of the girl she loves and which will probably never happen if MJ and Gwen don't sit the FUCK DOWN AND TALK ABOUT THE CARNAGE INCIDENT.

#mj watson #gwen stacy #mary jane watson #em jay #spider-gwen #ghost-spider #my post #this just my opinion yall

[37q]

i always try to tell confused gay ppl if u can make it work then it doesnt matter.

if you call yourself something and you still find love, cool! if you dont want to be called anything and would rather just walk your walk and you still find love, great!

if you face adversity for either of those choices, then you make more choices! you stick to your guns, or you mold to your social niche. no fault in either of those; sexiness moves around a lot. sometimes we can make those choices with unhealthy risk management, self-isolation or self-alienation for example, but if you can make it work healthily then it doesnt matter.

listen, its not a matter of you being 100% right or them being 100% right, thats not how social living works. all you need... is to be on the same page.

you tell someone youre a [controversial ID] and they roll their eyes, or scoff, or smack you, or turn to your friend and continue their conversation and dont really talk to you for the rest of the night, or rebuke your attempts at flirting. these are unfortunately standard risks of making acquaintances because introducing yourself is quite literally offering your first impression up for judgment. people spend way too much money attending courses on introductions and first impressions for this very reason.

what you do when your identity fails (lol i know but thats how the brain talks sometimes...) is spend your time with people that actually want it -- the validity of your stake in the social world doesnt rely on peoples excitement to sign your petition. being judged and not making friends isnt a moral failing on anyones part, no one is trying to make a grab for the Most Correct Judgment cup, and no one is putting you on a stage to be ridiculed en masse by a gang who deals exclusively in clout and sexual shame.

getting into ID disclosure... my first poetry professor always distinguished concrete from abstract language. concrete imagery leaves less room for interpretation than abstraction, but more details can evoke habitual reaction over emotional connection.

my takeaway for this post is that you cant fail at representing yourself if your goal is practicality. tailor your impression based on laziness and utility! whatre you there for, what context is relevant to your current social conditions, how do you connect with an audience and anticipate realistic social consequences, how do you simply embody a lifetime of complexity while noticing that everyone else stopped talking?

lets say you dont say 'what you are' all the way down to your sexual sub-strata. no chance for someone to clash with their idea of what your words mean, and maybe you can submit yourself to the ecstasy of being loved without trial! woohoo!

but can you feel 'seen' or 'heard' without explaining or defending yourself? does your new acquaintance vibe with the walk youre walking? what does it say about you if they like you or dont like you like this -- would it have felt better to persuade them?

do you feel like youre lying, like youre deceiving someone by letting them take you at face value? do you feel lost without social feedback or negotiation? do you love them as much as you love you?

#do u love this shit? r u high rn? #do u ever get nervus? r u single?