Trying to learn that it’s not my responsibility to create or maintain harmony in the lives of those I care about. They are allowed to have difficulties in their lives and struggles in their relationships with others and it’s not something that I need to ‘fix.’ I am not responsible for their happiness or peace. Their struggles do not make me a failure. All I can control is how I interact with them.
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Carol Wilson I love you so much. Nobody gets you like I do.
I feel like the pressure of being the one with the job weighs on her because she wants to quit her job because it sucks to find another job but like she doesn't know how long will that gap.
(I think this is canon but I'm not sure)
This causes a lot of resentment I think also.
Also she's a blunt person which I get because ya and that sucks in an office culture from what I know.
I love her so much. I think she's one of the only characters in dndads to be an academic weapon during school and worked very hard on them.
Also I should watch primer at some point but I don't think I will.
Important thing: Darryl and Carol are besties and have a secret handshake.
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i dont watch a lot of shows, but its been a while since i saw such an emotionally charged confrontation in a bl show. i believe great acting can elevate any confrontation scene (even if the conflict was contrived) but uh here, we knew this all along. we knew the pain was coming, i did, it was delicious, and braced for impact but i still am in shambles. wei lili packing random packets of food from the house for yuan, unable to focus on eating when yuan sits with that face, getting him to pass stuff just to talk to him. a resounding 'tell me, what's wrong?'. never have siblings been so real lol. also, i deeply appreciate the character of Sanpang, cause i think he's supposed to be the reflection of society, but in a far more gentler, loving way for he actually does care for both of them. lol he himself doesn't know 'what's wrong' exactly, just that something should be cause yk it's Wei Qian. also, he's far more nicer than in the novel i've heard. and not homophobic at the very least.
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rick becomes super into multiversal travel after prime introduces him to it, very hyperfocused on it and the opportunities it presents (like how the gotron episode establishes that rick can get carried away unless someone reels him in). diane might initially be supportive of this but as rick's appearances around the house become more shoddy, she gets fed up and they separate. after a much more complex deterioration of their relationship obviously
rick considers this a win at the time, since he's now free to dick around and do whatever he wants, essentially adopts prime's life philosophy and hangs around him.
him and prime would eventually have some sort of falling out, which leaves rick extremely bitter and annoyed. he ends up spending most of his life alone, still living by his pop nihilistic ideals because he thinks this is what he wants.
eventually he'd still end up squatting in prime's dimension and realizes that he actually Prefers this family life. his infatuation with prime could develop into resentment when he realizes that he essentially robbed rick of a comfortable, idealistic life
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for all my fellow people out there who can’t celebrate pride publicly this year, I know it’s hard to watch the month pass you by and see everyone else out at parades and events. but one day we will get to celebrate openly too and that’s the beauty of pride month: it comes every year. not to mention, this isn’t the only time we can be proud. this isn’t your last chance <33
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ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do
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Deeply considering projecting my computer to the TV to play BG3 on a bigger screen and also while lounging on couch.
Do desperately need to figure out how to connect Bluetooth headphones to TV as it will also save money on the weird TV headphones I was buying my mom that connected to the cable box but I think have been phased out and are now like very fucking expensive maybe just aren’t even compatible anymore. Like. I don’t think the last ones I bought could even connect. And shit got weird so suddenly and then I think I just forgot about them.
Either way I suck at hearing the TV so like. Headphones. But technically I can do PC gaming on the TV if I can get screen share working probably.
One day I should try and see about that. It would be cool.
I need to get past my issues with the basement, I have a really good space for gaming in the basement if I can get past my anxiety about being in the basement and it would lend me a lot of privacy. It used to be my favourite place where I was most comfortable.
There’s new furniture and stuff down there, and I had a really good TV last I checked, if it still works. With some proper cable management and maybe a new shelf I would probably be able to set up my systems well enough. I think maybe I can start working a little bit on moving past my feelings about downstairs with a different room downstairs. It would be the living room instead of the old bedroom. And I have a new couch finally so it would be different. I think I can run the air purifier and dust and stuff and maybe get a scent diffuser and I won’t trigger my allergies or PTSD. And maybe a lamp instead of the fluorescent lights won’t trigger a migraine. That just occurred to me as something I never thought of. The basement has fluorescent tube lightbulbs. Old ones. I have a migraine disorder. Old flickering fluorescent lights installed by amateurs absolutely could have contributed to part of my discomfort in the basement. That’s something that can maybe be fixed by renovating. I need to seek advice from someone who can identify lighting. Hell yeah. They might even be making a sound that makes me anxious and fixing that will help but that’s probably wishful thinking lmao.
I do just also want more lamps in general because mid level lighting for avoiding staying while addressing pain is something I really need to cope with right now…migraines are a bitch man.
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What I don’t get is why is Flora literally the only one with a sibling. Why?
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ngl, i think i didn't expect living in my sister's basement to be so rough but... this is gonna be a long few months until i can find my own place.
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Someone tagged one of my posts as "bride socialization" and I probably thought about it, but having someone explicitly say it is another thing. I can make posts about the marital due and biological essentialism/determinism all I want, but those aren't terms the average person would know about.
"I was socialized to be someone's bride, not a person" is explicit, understandable, and straight to the point. It sums all of it up nicely
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