#even though it is not his name anymore

[pushing500]

Had another lovely wedding in the colony! Today Irwin and Connie got married, it was beautiful. Irwin will still be called Irwin even though his name is now "Maxim Dermokaites" and not "Maxim Irwin" anymore. He did not wear a hat to his wedding, much to his new wife's chagrin, I'm sure.

Also, a round of applause for Candlelight and Albina, who brought iced coffee to the ceremony. I feel like they could have been paying more attention, but I appreciate their refusal to be pulled away from their refreshments by something as inconsequential as a wedding.

And a round of applause to me for not drawing Candlelight and Candlelight alone since she joined because she is my only T'au colonist, and I love her almost as much as I love the idea of actually getting around to painting my real-life T'au someday. Plus, she reminds me of another T'au Rimworld colonist from ages past who is the reason I got into Warhammer at all in the first place.

R.I.P Voxpopper, your legacy shall not be forgotten.

Speaking of T'au, I wasted a LOT of plasteel to make Candlelight a cool gun. She deserves to wield a weapon of her people. Props to Fafo for making it a masterwork. Love you too, Fafo.

Had a huge malaria outbreak, which took out three of my five competent doctors (Kaz, Debby, Wookshys), but thankfully Albina has the 'Word of Immunity' psycast from Vanilla Psycasts Expanded unlocked, and we dealt with the whole mess pretty quickly. Having an awesome hospital probably helped, too.

More soap-opera levels of relationship drama going on in this colony. I was too bewildered to even draw this nonsense. Maybe another day.

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#rimworld #gracie plays #art #my art #traditional art #rimworld art #unpolished art #more cute wedding vibes #I did honestly wonder about changing Irwin's name #But I really hate the idea of calling him Max or something #It just doesn't feel right #So Irwin he will remain #even though it is not his name anymore #One day I should draw the story of my first rimworld colony #It was a riot #I remember most of it pretty well I think #Could be fun to recount #This game never disappoints #Enjoy your day everyone! <3 #The Animist Alliance

[otaku553]

I have Thoughts about them

#personally I see them platonically but I can see where the shippers are coming from #I think that even though heizou voiceline says it’s a shame he can’t officially arrest kazuha anymore it’s probably a joke #he pretty clearly respects kazuha’s enhanced senses and deductive reasoning so they must have met and worked on a mystery together #I want to continue this with kazuha not giving his name but heizou knowing it anyways and not arresting kazuha by the end of it #and mostly being confused on why kazuha would help him #and kazuha decided to help because justice cannot be exacted on raiden shogun but he can take out that injustice on criminals #and also maybe he recognizes heizou if heizou’s dad is a martial artist of some repute #so yeah #I forgot to tag the actual characters whoops #genshin impact #kaedehara kazuha #shikanoin heizou

[chase-ing-shadows]

I can’t stop thinking about bear Atreus and Sindri

#yeah I know I fucked up the neck stop looking at it #for real tho #sindri wont talk to anyone anymore #a stark difference to how he used to be #he used to talk the ear off of anyone who made the mistake of looking in the direction of his work #but hes making up for all of it now #noones heard him say a word since just after ragnarok #luckily for him though bears can't talk #and this one cares about him a great deal #touch is a language sindri isnt well versed in #even now he skin still crawls #but he thinks that hes beginning to understand #sindri won't talk to anyone anymore #but theres a bear that found a way to speak to him anyway #god of war sindri #sindri #god of war #god of war atreus #atreus #I swear I'll come up with a name for this AU at somepoint #was thinking about #beartrayal #get it? #or maybe beartreus #ya know somthing real dumb

[mintmatcha]

Does your f/o like the strip club yes or no?

#im thinking about that fatgum again #tw for implied violence #he texts you to meet up and you dont respond-- not for a full week #he crawls back to the strip club where he met you and suddenlu cant bring himself to look at the stage anymore #it feels like cheating-- even though he isnt daring you #one of the girls comes up and tries to fliet #but he asks for you. #asks if you're okay #the girl flicks her lil mouse ears and tells him tmoff a bit at first-- men can become creepy. shes not giving out personal info #but she softens when he says his name #'aw tai... she likes you a lot hon.' #she givrs only the vaguest details. something happened at work. you'll be okay eventually. #and she ahrees to pass on the fact he was here #for you

[makotonaegiunderstander]

something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.

“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”

#makoto naegi #Danganronpa character analysis #Danganronpa #danganronpa thh #danganronpa future arc #I fucking love Makoto Naegi man. #I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known #he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said #he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky #he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did #if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world. #he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done #and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend. #I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though #post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do #it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to #and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc #he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions #I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse #and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate #and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable. #honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually #I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself #that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels #it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it #it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic #anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for #the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!

[clownjacket]

If Kipperlilly DOES end up betraying Porter/Jace as part of a secret other scheme she has (whether good or evil) and it has to do with saving Lucy, I just know she’s going to be a bitch about it and pull a ‘sorry, I only save High Five Heroes’ before leaving her other friends to die or some shit. And then she will take her final form: Magic Betty from Adventure Time, betraying her allies and saving her frost gf at the expense of the world. It would also parallel what Ankarna is going through (‘your girlfriend’s out of town, it sucks’, becoming a little imperialist rage machine under the influence of Porter/Sunstone but not being able to fully turn on Lucy despite going against her values and turning into a violent weirdo). This is my wish. My dream. I am manifesting it. Magic Betty Kipperlilly I believe in you.

#I am currently painting clown makeup on my face rn but this is what I’ve been rooting for from the beginning so let me dream #Come on though she HAS to have some other shit going on though right? #She was DEFINITLY in that temple when the Bad Kids said Ankarna’s name #Brennan literally rolled #and we know she was in Porter’s office #so WHY hadn’t she told him Ankarna’s real name yet? We know he genuinely believed Fig found it #Also the BKs couldn’t see who was in the window during the Wanda Childa scene #Which one of the RGs has invisibility? #HMMMM #Wanda saying ‘Kipperlilly? Why are you doing this? Is it because you’re jealous?’ before getting carried off by a fake Porter would let KP #know ‘okay they FULLY saw what happened after I killed Buddy and are onto us’ which would cause her to follow them to the temple #Also…if NONE of the Rat Grinders knew Ankarna’s name then what did Lucy write on her form to change her divinity??? #We KNOW it was Ankarna’s name and not the ‘symbol representing her’ because no one could see it BECAUSE the god was dead and no one alive #knew her name #Which means Lucy HAD TO HAVE KNOWN and was keeping it from the others right? #And when she died and didn’t come back they were fucked because they couldn’t even check the form anymore #But #Brennan also said that if Porter WASNT using Devil’s Honey and genuinely believed in Rage And Conquest goddess Ankarna instead of just her #domain then he and his ritual would (maybe) bring her back instead of killing her permenantly so he can take her domain #And idk #A powerful goddess of rage and conquest who despite everything can’t be turned against her sister and ex #who’s resurrection would mean the rune could be broken and Lucy can come back to life #One who has (or had) a personal vendetta against at least one of the bad kids #and a personal vendetta against the people who led to Lucy’s death #that sounds pretty appealing to someone as spiteful and obsessive as Kipperlilly doesn’t it #especially after her best (maybe only real) friend died and didn’t come back #especially if she stayed dead specifically to stop Porter #Again I’m putting my clown makeup on but I don’t want her to be secretly good or anything just unhinged and gay and a parallel to Ankarna #Please world let me have this I’m on my knees #dimension 20

[skeletoninthemelonland]

Do you like all the Springtraps 🤨

Or Just springtrap :^

Ofc there are a few exceptions, but in general- Yes, I do like all the Springtraps!!! :O

#inbox #idk but i deeply enjoy his character despite all the things he was responsible for #the fnaf 3 era was surrounded by mystery bcs no one knew who he was until ppl found out about the minigames #then boom. he's the killer. he's the only f reason why everything happened. then they gave him a proper name. #and that made it much more terrifying beyond the good and bad endings. at least to me #because it was him the whole time. the best part is that he's not even William Afton anymore #Springtrap is a whole different thing n though there are few canonical aspects that let you know what he would generally sound and act like #-there's still enough space for interpretation. Some people view him as revengeful n insane. that he cannot think beyond his rage #he can be regretful or pure evil. he can also be grumpy n not care about anything at all. he can also be very pathetic if you will #i mean no. he's quite pathetic. love her for that <3 #and some think he's silly but i'm pretty sure that's canon lmao #anyway. he's so cool

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF PRIORITY: THE CITADEL (PART 2)

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Lt. James Vega, EDI, and Maj. Kaidan Alenko With: Councilor Donnel Udina, Councilor Tevos, Councilor Laiel Sparatus, Cmdr. Armando-Owen Bailey, and Kai Leng And a Special Guest Appearance by: The Illusive Man But sometimes the way a thing goes down does matter, Sophie. Later- when you have to live with yourself. Knowing that you acted with integrity- then it matters. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #sophie shepard #james vega #EDI #kaidan alenko #shenko #fshenko #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #james’s panicked face as the shuttle goes down you will always be famous to me bc you are so relatable #at this point i just know the normandy crew is not letting shep EDI or james near anything mechanical anymore #(something mechanical explodes around them on literally every mission at this point- cars.. bombs.. ships.. you name it!) :) #the way i didn’t even realize EDI and kaidan were wearing matching armor on this mission until i got to the elevator and i- 🥹 (blue crew!!) #but like- the way when soph gets off the elevator and kaidan has the gun drawn and she tells them to lower their weapons?? #and EDI and james don’t even hesitate? THOSE ARE MY BABIES!!! THATS MY SQUAD RIGHT THERE!! THE LEVEL OF TRUST BETWEEN THESE THREE!! 🥹🥹🥹 #and they don't raise their weapons again?? not until soph raises hers?? like it's the level of trust between her and them for me 🥹 #i will say i talk a lot about how me3 shenko canon doesn’t really follow my own shenko canon (and my canon coup is MUCH DIFFERENT) #but something i noticed about the coup that i really liked? when kaidan has his gun drawn on shep you can see his hands shaking a little #it’s SO SUBTLE (and it’s easier to notice when you’ve got the video slowed down) but like?? the way his hands aren’t steady?? #when he has the gun drawn on someone he loves?? i cried a bit making that gif ngl 🥺 #the soft little ‘you won’t’ from shep after ‘i better not regret this’ makes me 🥺 every time. #there’s a canon reason soph doesn’t take the renegade interrupt but part of it is bc i like kaidan’s convo on the docks better :) #speaking of the docks the intro to the convo is a bit nonchalant but i like kaidan’s speech about integrity/living with your decisions #and the conversation between him/shep about what happened on the landing pad (though i wish it was a tiny bit longer!!) #there’s no ‘i feel like you would have taken me out’ line in the soph™️ canon but we supplemented it with some rewriting bc loose canon™️ #(she never draws a gun on the landing pad either but that’s a story for the actual canon 🙃) #and yes i gif’ed the ass shot. there’s only one valid ass shot in the series and it’s this one! and you can quote me on that! ✨

[steakout-05]

*clenched fists, head on the table, white knuckled, seething, hyperventilating, visible veins showing, sweating, about to burst into tears, shaking violently, going to explode*

it's.... spelled........ JON.............. arbuckle........

#how i actually feel when i see someone spell jon arbuckle's name as ''john'' for the 574867347th time /j #jon arbuckle #garfield #shitpost #i find it interesting how many people spell his name with a H though #like i get that john is the more common spelling but also it was never written or spelled that way in any garf media #it's more common with people who haven't read garfield which is understandable actually #this post is a joke i don't actually get mad when people spell his name with a H #it's just like... you know that feeling you get when you really REALLY want to correct someone on a piece of info you know they got wrong? #yeah it's that #i'm very passionate about garfield if you couldn't tell lol #i guess there's just so much misinfo about garfield that it gets kinda exhausting #like i've heard a couple people say that garfield was made during WW2??? #and when i first heard that i was like ''????? literally no it wasn't???'' #like i mean this in the most polite way but What The Actual Fuck Are You Talking About #omg that's like that andrew garfield tweet i hate so much. you know the one that says that garfield was created by his granddad- #-about his cat who was named 'lasagna'? i hate that tweet with every fiber of my being there's SO MUCH wrong about it it's not even funny #i think that tweet is actually satire though but honestly it's so hard to tell what's satire and what isn't anymore #anyway. jon is spelled jon not john have a good day :)

[frogaroundandfindout]

Dick telling Bruce that he refuses to keep denying that Bruce is a part of him and that he is proud to have been Robin (Teen Titans Spotlight #14)

#dick and Bruce #god they make me sick #dick about to walk away before turning back and deciding to confront the situation and talk #dick acknowledging his history with Bruce and the impact it had on him #telling Bruce that even though he’s Nightwing now his name still reflects Bruce #THE RESPECT #THE LOVE #THE ACCEPTANCE #but also the grief #and hurt #with dicks little I’m not even sure if he has feelings anymore #and how he says that again to TIM after Jason dies #still so unsure about Bruce #just fuck me with a chainsaw already #it’d hurt less than thinking about these two #Batman #HIS LITTLE SMILE AT THE END #JUST LIKE IN BATMAN 416 WHERE HES LIKE THANKS DICK #FUUUUUUCK #THEY ARE SO FUCKING ABNORMAL I HATE THAT I LOVE THEM

[ggardengirl]

el oh el

#i need people to stop #literally stop #these are the kind of people that make me feel weird calling my dad daddy #even though that’s what i’ve always called him #i don’t even have it as his contact name anymore because people are fucking weird #STOP SEXUALIZING FATHER DAUGHTER RELATIONSHIPS #ITS WEIRD #YOU ARE WEIRD #the last of us hbo #ellie williams #tlou hbo #joel miller #joel and ellie #pedro pascal #tlou hbo spoilers #tw sa #sa tw

[violentdevotion]

wait do you have a fav boys character yet ?

i really like butcher but i feel like that's a basic answer and also the wrong answer. in another world id like frenchie but i can't get over how much i hate the actor. I love maeve theres never a moment she's on screen where im thinking get this woman outta here she's always entertaining to me. i like starlight but (and this is probably a bit nasty to say) there's smth a little uncanny valley about her sometimes where when she's talking im not listening but staring at her face trying to see what features throwing me off. I hate ashley but the actress played an insufferable character in jessica jones too and I really appreciate her ability to play The Most annoying woman you know.

centrist answer i like them all (except stormfront. hated her before i even knew she was a nazi. she was on insta live and i was waiting for her to explode and die) but my fave would have to be butcher bc i find im rooting for him the most and constantly justifying his actions. but sometimes karl urbans accent pisses me off. also black noir but he doesn't Do anything so it's hard to have him as a fave bc he's barely there.

#ameeras.got.mail #kieran tag #ik men like soldier boy so ill wait to see him do some evil disgusting horrendous thing that would make most ppl go ew he sucks but make #cis men ages 18-35 go wow hes soo cool #i like kimiko too but i dont think im allowed to say shes my fave when sometimes when shes like i dont want to be a weapon anymore :( im #mad at her and thinking get over it. i like mm but hes kinda this mother hen character and i dont rly tend to favour characters who are the #rational voice of reason like can we please get some conflict here #hughies whatever. i rly like his dad though lets go simon pegg #in the 7: homelander sucks. i find a train fun but his athlete storyline wasnt compelling to me personally bc the more i thought about it #the more i thought his superpower sucks. despite it all i find the deep kinda fun. i like that hes a scientologist. #didnt like transparent. was meh about lamplighter. didnt like whats his name sonicboom?? had a personal vendetta against that hijabi supe #we saw for like 2 seconds girl what are you doing there !!!!!! why are you playing into the diversity market !!!! #like edgar but in the way everyone likes giancarlo esposito's characters #nadia is whatever she was always meh to me even as a background character but i rly love the idea of having the superpower to explode #peoples heads with your mind i cant help but think of the xmen and think about if there was a mutant with the ability to explode heads with #their mind and that was their only ability and what a hard fucking sell that would be for xavier #(ive never read the xmen comics and have only seen some of the movies so i like to imagine charles xavier as lilo in the lilo and stitch #cartoon where every episode she would find an experiment with a unique function to destroy and would have to find it a home where it could #help instead. like yeah this experiment fattens people up and eats them lets put him in a resturant or smth #but with mutants #this mutant makes ice lets send him to a fridge company. this mutant explodes heads lets.... erm. #)

[dragonbleps]

Heart of Stone

You wake.

Stars still twinkle overhead, and the crickets chirping around you promise several more hours before dawn. Soft breaths and the occasional snore from your various companions puts you at ease. No excitement for tonight.

Heard even over the sounds of the nightly insects is the grating rhythm of stone against grit. Dalamus works at his tent, grinding a piece of agate into a cabochon. Unlike the others, Dalamus had set up his tent far from the center, presumably to have a full view of the camp, either out of protectiveness or distrust. You presume the latter. He never left the tent for long, not even to sleep. Do Drow sleep?

Astarion is awake, as well, yet remains at his own tent, implying that nocturnal camaraderie is not the reason for his and Dalamus' overlapping watch. Why, then, waste sleeping hours? A generous onlooker might interpret their tandem watchfulness as an overabundance of caution, having backup should a problem arise. The occasional annoyed glance from Astarion in Dalamus' direction pushes the thought from your mind.

Sounds of grinding stone and crunching sand stop as Dalamus inspects his gem for scratches and inclusions. He takes a moment to observe his surroundings, red eyes scanning the campsite and beyond for any signs of disturbance. For your protection? Or his own? You cannot say for certain. His eyes meet yours, and for a moment your pulse quickens, filling with apprehension from a source unknown and unwanted. Unfortunately, you cannot say it is wholly unwarranted, either.

Dalamus' gaze leaves your face and he returns to his task, allowing you the chance to breathe. If any would-be attackers felt half of the apprehension you had in the gaze of your supposed companion, none would dare approach. Dalamus cleans his work station with some water and lays out the next level of grit, wets the agate, and begins grinding once more.

There is a groan of exasperation from Astarion, followed by him complaining about the grating noise. Dalamus is unfazed and, decidedly unwilling to give the High Elf the courtesy of eye contact, responds lowly in Drowic. "Dosst ssivah jaaele mzildur."

Astarion makes a scandalized huff. Whether he understands Drowic or simply assumes insult, you do not know. Either way, he settles back into his tent with a sour expression, arms crossed, and you cannot help the amusement that tugs at the corners of your mouth.

You roll onto your back and stare up at the stars again, closing your eyes. It takes a moment for Dalamus' red eyes to fade from your memory, but you force yourself to relax. You should be safe at least for tonight.

Chips Away

You wake.

Clouds obscure the stars, but the moon's glowing silhouette directly overhead assures you there is still plenty of time to sleep. Most of your companions doze quietly around you. One person turns from their back onto their side, but does not wake. It is peaceful.

The steady rhythm of stone against stone tells you Dalamus is polishing yet again tonight. Something green, judging by the flashes in the torchlight. His tent remains far from the center where everyone else has gathered, but you suspect it is to prevent disturbing the others' sleep. Perhaps.

Except for Astarion, also awake, reading a book at his tent. Or trying. It seems he and Dalamus are both night owls, and refuse to give up their nocturnal quiet time to the other. You suppose, in the end, two pairs of eyes are better than one for keeping watch in the dark.

Sudden silence, as Dalamus picks up his stone and cleans it of grit to determine his progress. He peers up from his work to survey the grounds, making sure his focus on his hobby does not blind him to dangers. His eyes come to rest on your face, and he tilts his head slightly, perhaps wondering why you are awake. If only you had an answer for him. Instead, you smile.

Dalamus' pointed ears prick upwards ever so slightly, but he looks away, unsure how to respond. His attention returns to the stone in front of him, but not before you catch him glancing furtively in your direction once. And then again. He scrubs the grit from his stone with a small brush and some water, resetting his work station to begin the next stage of polishing. It might be a trick of the light, but you could swear his shoulders are not as stiff as before.

Astarion pushes himself to his feet and asks how much longer the accursed screeching will last. Dalamus regards him with a mild scowl, but answers. "An hour at most. You will survive."

The High Elf drags a hand down his face and begins walking off, mumbling about getting something to eat. Now that he mentions it, hunger is beginning to gnaw at your stomach, as well. But the call of sleep is stronger.

You wriggle yourself into a comfortable position on your side and close your eyes, trying to imagine what shape the stone will take when Dalamus is done. The sound of stone polishing is far from melodic, yet it is familiar, and therefore comforting. It means he is awake, and watching. And you feel safe.

To Reveal Gold

You wake.

The stars are bright in the sky, and the moon full enough to light the camp without the need for fire. Grasses sway and trees rustle in the cool midnight breeze. The only thing punctuating the relative silence is the soft snore of a companion opposite the snuffed campfire from you. It is too quiet.

You sit up and wipe the sleep from your eyes. Gone is the grinding noise which you had begun to find comfort in. Dalamus' tent is set up, and his stone polishing materials are out, but the Drow himself is nowhere to be seen. The only thing keeping you from fearing the worst is Astarion, awake and relaxed at his own tent.

The sound of faint crunching reaches your ears, of dirt and grass under boots, and you look over your shoulder to find Dalamus approaching. At his side is a small waterskin still dripping from immersion in the nearby river. He stops once he notices you, red eyes scanning your face. "Is something the matter?" he asks, possibly the first time you have heard him express explicit concern for another outside of injury in combat.

"I'm fine," you assure. "I'm so used to hearing you work, that when I awoke to silence I became worried. I didn't know where you had gone, is all."

Dalamus appears surprised at your concern. After all, there are plenty of others in camp. Astarion is awake to keep watch. He knows you are capable of defending yourself.

"I am here," he says finally, but confusion colors his tone, as if he has never considered his presence might be desirable. Not in a genuine sense, anyway. Useful, perhaps, with his darkvision and heightened hearing. But this is not that. He senses it. And he does not know what to do with it.

"I'm glad you're here. Goodnight, Dalamus."

His eyes widen and his pointed ears swivel away. Rather than say anything and risk revealing emotions he has no name for, Dalamus nods and begins towards his tent.

You lay down on your back and close your eyes, listening. He is at the final stage of polishing for tonight's stone; no more harsh grinding. But it is enough to know that he is there.

You hear a teasing comment from Astarion, followed by an exclamation of pain and a clatter from something small Dalamus has thrown at him. You smile. You are safe.

......

You wake.

It is the early hours of dawn. The moon and stars have almost disappeared entirely, but the sun is not yet risen and neither have your companions. The birds are beginning their calls as the air begins to warm.

A glint of light catches your eye and you turn your head to find a brilliantly polished opal cabochon beside your bedroll. A gift. Even more astounding, Dalamus sleeps facing you but a few feet away. You have never seen him sleep until now. Sleep meant vulnerability, and Dalamus trusts almost no one.

Except you.

You dare not touch him for fear of breaking this trust. Perhaps when he wakes he will distance himself again. But for now, he is here, and he is safe.

#I wanted to experiment with the 2nd-person point of view like the narration of BG3 #so here's a story about an unspecified character observing Dalamus throughout a period of.. idk. weeks? #going from stranger (Heart of Stone) to friend (Chips Away) to close (To Reveal Gold) #the general repetition is purposeful to highlight the subtle changing of Dal's behavior #i have to keep the setting/timeline vague bc.. i haven't gone past the Emerald Grove yet :'D #missy rambles #missy writing #my oc #dalamus drow #drowamus #i guess i could use his (previous) full name so that i have an official tag for him. even though he doesnt have the surname anymore #dalamus strighym #bg3 #OH. and as for what Dal said to Astarion in the first part: ''Your voice grates more'' lmao

[dnalt-d2]

Guys don't be a writer

Don't do it

One day you're gonna use a figure from mythology/religion as a secondary character in your story thinking he's nothing but a basic bitch practically nameless guy and then one day when you try to make a ranking system you'll find out that actually that character represents your zodiac sign in some circles, then in an effort to clarify what the hell happened there you'll find out he has another name that denotes that he's a SUPER big deal and also has another-nother name that's EXACTLY the same as your online pen-name and then that their power somehow perfectly fits the power system you've made for this story and then randomly you'll also find out that someone else used this character as the base for a DC character (Yes the comics) and you'll basically find some of that information in one night and then the rest over the next three years after the initial discovery and then one night three years later you'll find out something new about it that says that the original name you picked is actually this other big-name guy who's the entire leader of a rank that you ignored initially when making said ranking system and

I'm fucking spiraling guys

*EDIT

I HAVE POSTED THIS TO THE WRONG ACCOUNT AGAIN

I DO NOT CARE ANYMORE I AM NOT REWRITING THESE NOTES

#I hate this bastard #And I accidentally reblogged my initial rant to the wrong account because my icons for both of them are so similar #I swear he was on the wikipedia as something basic originally #But I went to check when I made the first discovery and I couldn't find him on the list at all anymore #Then I decided “Hey I'm gonna see if I was gaslighting myself by checking the wayback machine” #Only to NOT find the name on the original page #But instead see that the current version of the page NOW has his name on it #Even though it has NOT been on there for very long I KNOW BECAUSE I CHECK I RESEARCH #I'VE RESEARCHED THIS SPECIFICALLY SO MANY TIMES BECAUSE OF THIS SPECIFICALLY #SO IT WAS ADDED RECENTLY #IT WASN'T THERE FOR THE LONGEST TIME #BUT IT IS AGAIN NOW #Am I really so bad at research???? #I just have a comprehension thing alright #Probably a learning disability #Idk I have ADHD but I'm not sure it would affect that #Just my attention span/motivation #Maybe #Idk #I'm so tired #Fucking hell #writing #OCs #Devil's Advocate #Just for my personal notation #DNAVerse

[maddy-ferguson]

fun fact about me: i'm insecure about so many random things that i've never flipped anyone off in my 22 years of life because i think my middle finger looks awkward and ugly by itself

#and like i say: brf slt #i felt like this especially when i would have been likely to do it semi-regularly like in middle school. but like i was thinking about this #the other day and i did it in front of a mirror just to check and it looked as bad as i remember like it's just not for me #i have a story abour middle fingers though or just about what one would call the finger #when i was in what an american would call the 5th grade (i can never do when i was x years old because it's not an accurate representation #of the class i was in since i skipped a grade and the grade is what matters more to me. when i was 9 and my friends were 10 i was saying) #we would always play this game called girls catch guys or guys catch girls where the girls would run after the guys and like tap them on #the shoulder and then they would go to prison and they would line up and another guy could set them free by like touching one of the #prisoners it was a very fun game except it's way more fun to be like the ones getting caught than to be the ones catching and we would #ALWAYS play girls catching guys and it was very unfair we would be like okay in the morning we do guys catching girls in the afternoon #girls catching guys so it's fair like normal system but the guys NEVER wanted to do it (and we would always give in because like we still #wanted to play ig and idk guys. female socialization) they never wanted to be the ones doing the catching it was so unfair because we also #didn't like it as much and we did it all the time? #and i remember this one morning we were fighting about this we had literally all agreed that it was fair this way but they didn't want to #do it and my second best male friend flipped me and my best (female) friend off and (very #important detail) he did it with both of his hands so like two middle fingers and i don't know why because i'm not even sure that that's a #thing but one middle finger meant fuck you and two middle fingers meant go fuck yourself and to us that was very different? and i remember #my friend and i we like knew what it meant but for some reason we were like. he did do the one finger before doing the two does this mean #he...loves us because it literally means he wants to have sex with us #but what's funny is we never talked to him again after that and i don't even know why that was our last straw because i remember i #genuinely liked him before that like i said he was my second best male friend! so like maybe sixth best friend overall that's not bad #and he's not the only guy friend who flipped us off that year like it was so random to stop talking to him after that😭 #like he was an actual enemy we really did not like him we talked about him in letters we'd give each other using a nickname etc #and what's even funnier is in our last year of middle schoold FOUR YEARS AFTER THIS a friend of a friend told him he should become friends #with well my friend and he was like hm i don't think so have you seen who she hangs out with? marianne *last name* like why do YOU hate #me😭 it was so funny like wdym it was mutual this whole time. i had literally moved on by then i didn't even care about hating him #anymore like wow...i think he's the only person i hated who actually hated me back

[nateserenas]

i think i’ve made this post like 15 times but you see the thing is that blair and serena and nate were best friends and they were each other’s home and nate truly loved blair and blair was everything good in the world to serena and serena had been pointedly changing the subject in her mind whenever she felt the small changes that had developed over a long period of time in her feelings for nate like she would just refuse to think about it and nate had been feeling and letting his mind wander and imagine but it was theoretical because he loved blair and they could never hurt blair but then there’s the shepard wedding and they’re both drunk and alive and everything under the surface pushes past they’re blocks and they’re not thinking about blair or consequences or anything they’re just feeling the feelings they’ve buried and then serena runs because she’s just betrayed her best friend the person she loves more than anything else in the world and she can’t face that so she leaves the wedding and then later that night she can’t face herself either so she leaves and she doesn’t talk to blair for a year because she can’t. she can’t face that. she can’t face the hurt she caused the person she loves so much so she ignores it and her. and nate spends the year waiting hoping for serena to come back because now that he’s opened the door in his mind he can’t close it and he doesn’t want to try but serena’s gone and blair’s here and she’s his best friend and he doesn’t want to hurt her for nothing because he loves her so much in whatever way and he doesn’t want her to leave so he lies to her for a year and that lie along with his newfound knowledge that he’s fallen out of love with her causes him to push her away and then blair and suddenly in a night her best friend and the person she loves most in the world leaves and refuses to talk to her and her boyfriend best friend is pulling away and clearly keeping a secret and then her dad leaves and her world keeps blowing up and she’s all alone and she wants to talk to serena more than anything but serena won’t talk to her serena was the first to leave her so she goes on and starts building her empire and clings to the perfect vision of herself and her life and she doesn’t let anybody see that none of it’s perfect because her best friend left and her dad left and while her boyfriend is technically still there the real connection they had is fading away and she’s losing another best friend but she pretends because he’s part of her perfect. and then serena comes back and blair hates serena for leaving her alone she’s so angry she’s so hurt she tries so hard to want serena to keep away but she can’t she doesn’t want that she can’t want that blair was so alone serena being beside her being her best friend was always where she had felt safe and warm and home and blair hadn’t felt that in so long and she wants so badly to feel that way again so even though she’s still angry with serena for taking it away in the first place she misses it more and she after fighting with herself and with serena for a while she lets herself have it and be vulnerable in front of serena and let her back in. and then nate the second he hears serena’s back knows that he wants to risk it all and throw the mapped out life course he’s on down the drain she comes back and he feels more awake than he had felt the whole year she was away and he wants to say fuck consequences and be with her. but serena doesn’t want to fuck consequences. she’s determined to be a good friend and to be a good person and she chooses blair. serena loves blair more than anything and she hates herself for betraying her and she’s determined to be a good friend. and she won’t say fuck consequences with nate. she won’t choose him. and nate who had been happy and hopeful at her return is so hurt by that he spent the year choosing serena by not telling blair anything and then when she tells him that she doesn’t want his choice he in an act somewhat driven a tiny bit by spite and driven a lot

by hurt but also by a fear of losing both of the people he loves most in the world both his best friends he then chooses blair and tells her what happened at the shepard wedding. and blair sure is hurt by nate but like it’s not the most painful part about this by far for a year he’s been lost to her anyway and more representing the perfect golden future she’s determinedly marching towards rather than their once meaningful bond still meaning that much she’s hurt but like that’s overshadowed by other hurts most from or involving serena. involving in that blair has felt second to serena always and now in this too? nate pressed down on her biggest insecurity and she’s angry and hurt. but that’s also not the biggest hurt. because even though she’s always felt second to serena, serena had still always been safety and home and love to blair. and now that’s gone. blair learns that serena betrayed her she did something that would of course hurt blair so much. blair’s best friend in the entire world who she trusted more than anything betrayed her. blair’s alone again. and she’s angry and she’s hurt and lashing out and trying to make serena hurt as badly as she does but nothing she does can compare to the hurt serena caused her but she keeps trying because she hurts so much. she air quotes forgives nate to get back on her perfect future track but she cannot ‘forgive’ serena in that same way because even though they both betrayed her betrayal from serena hurts a million times more. serena betrayed her. it’s not about nate for blair it’s about serena. it’s about the fact that serena was willing to hurt her. that hurts way more than nate’s willingness to hurt her. okay back to nate so he’s ‘trying’ to fix things with blair and blair tells him not to talk to serena and at first he doesn’t want to hurt her so there’s his i needed to talk to her secretly in chuck’s bedroom to tell her that i can’t talk to her moment but then well he sees serena and dan and he sees how much serena has not chosen him (she chose blair) and he’s so so hurt by that so well now driven more by spite and even more by hurt he sticks to his earlier choosing to fix things with blair even harder and again spite and hurt like literally does not speak to serena. and serena’s really hurt by that she’s hurt when she’s learns at brunch that he would consider not speaking to her and she’s really really hurt when he just literally does not speak to her and it’s like serena chose blair and she’s determined to fix things with blair and to do that she needs to not speak to nate but that doesn’t change the fact that it hurts her so so much that he won’t speak to her.

#ok i have more to say really i could go on rambling all day about blairenate betrayal and choosing and love but this is an insane amount of #words but like them needing each other nate hovering over their names when his father goes to prison #and serena going when he needs her even though they aren’t speaking #but pulling away because she loves blair #and blair and serena just six seasons of them holding on and loving each other #but never quite trusting each other #and it’s never the same #but what’s you is me i’ll never let go #is this healthy maybe not but they cling and they never stop saving each other #or hurting each other #also just thanksgiving episode season 1 full stop #blair and serena deciding to spend it together #but then they getting mad at each other and splitting up #and then blair needs serena and serena comes as soon as she gets the call #also nate phone scene he’s alone he needs them it’s broken he can’t call anymore #with the flashbacks them being each others home #anyways this was brought on by me listening to taylor swift exile #there is now a fully plotted blairenaye video in my head #it’s like you were my town now i’m in exile seeing you out #you’re not my homeland anymore #so what am i defending now? #five whole minutes to pack us up and leave me with it #holding all this love out here in the hall #like he’s just your understudy like you’d get your knuckles bloody for me #second third and hundred chances #balancing on breaking branches #you’re not my homeland anymore. #anyways so sorry about this i realise it is incoherent #but i think gossip girls back on my brain going to answer the asks which have been there for months so sorry 😭 #blairenate